Tuesday, April 4.
Its Day 23 of my W30.
I received unexpected news! A long, painful saga of my life is coming to a close. Ohh MYYYY!!!! I started thinking about the end of the day. I wanted to celebrate. I wanted to go out to dinner or have a nice dinner at home. I wanted to dance! Cheer! Sing! Dance naked under the moonlight...er, wait, its NH and there's still snow on the ground. Raincheck. I wanted sit with my BF and share a fabulous meal, to sip an exotic beverage and wonder about what comes next, and bask in the goodness of it all.
Right. Whole 30. Can't drink. There have been several times this month when I've been REALLY tempted to go off plan. But I haven't. I don't want to let my W30 buddy down.
And then, it's time to leave the office. One of my colleague comes by my desk and gifts me two very hard to find craft beers. 2 beers that I have wanted to try but haven't -- the beers are only sold at the brewery in some back country hollow 2 hours from my house, are only 10 hours a week, and once they are sold out, they are sold out. Purchasing these beers means making a long drive, standing in line, and hoping for the best. And here they are in my hands.
I eagerly texted my BF. "I've got beer!!"
"Yay!!" he texted back.
I placed the beers in my cooler and drove home. Perhaps I'm done with W30. I made it just over 3 weeks. Perhaps I should pack it in and try again after Easter. This is just too good. Too much of a big deal to walk away from. If I start on Easter Monday, I can finish before Memorial Day. I want to go home and ENJOY this!!! I want to sip these exotic gifts and happily share my impressions of them with my generous colleague.
And, I realize.
It's not the alcohol per se that I'm craving. Yes, I've enjoyed the may different flavors of this or that. Sure, I've enjoyed the intoxicating effects. But what I want is MORE. I want the celebration. I want the adventure of trying something new, the exoticness of sampling something difficult to find. I want the camaraderie of sharing the experience. This has been my downfall. Too many of my personal indulgences have been because I wanted to celebrate something to its fullest. But I have health and fitness goals that I want to achieve, short term and long. To get there, I need to find a different way to live in the moment.
It's taken me way too long to realize this. WAY. TOO. LONG. But now I know.
When my BF came home, we danced around the kitchen, giggled, laughed, and goofed around. We relished a dinner of sashimi made from the fresh fish I bought on the way home. BF poured himself a spot of whiskey, I enjoyed my seltzer with lemon wedges.
As Melissa wrote in "It Starts With Food" the half-slice of pizza on Day 23 isn't going to be worth starting over. Whether the half slice of pizza is a shared can of beer is irrelevant.
Wednesday, April 24.
Its Day 24 of my Whole 30.
I have proven to myself that have the strength to walk away.
If you check out whole9life.com - which was kind of the 'Mother' of Whole30 there are a number of blog posts about food (along with exercise & sleep) and it's link to mood. You should also note the importance of omega 3 fatty acids - particularly when eaten along side starches.
Here are a few to get you started....
Originally these posts/resources would have been available directly via this forum, but the two platforms were separated a while back.
Mhmm very true. i was feeling really tired and "meh" today, and I realised I haven't had any particularly starch veg. Sweet potato wedges with turkey burgers and 2 fried eggs and now I'm laughing at disney songs