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  1. While milling around and shooting the breeze with the Universe, I have a question. Is it possible to fully recover from food addiction or any kind of addiction? You can manage it but are you fully recovered, 100%. The hardest part of recovery is choosing every single day to be free of everything that is holding you back. The normal recovery is any recovery you are in. Keep motivating. Keep working it. Keep trusting your innermost being. Heaven has your back. Today. Tomorrow. Forever.
  3. When your compensatory measures no longer work for you with all of the cheat meals, your pancreas is becoming very sensitive to glucose. The frequency and number of cheat meals are increasing. Thrill eating is your middle name. You become a dieting refugee. Then someone comes along and tells you that you need to dial it down further. Reduce your food choices to two or three items, 80% fat, 15% protein and 5% good carb. At what point are you going to be able to come back down from that temporary high and back into reality. You think your natural balance will return after you've dialed your way of eating and life away. It will age you quickly before your time. Constant deprivation and fasting and zero carb trains your body to conserve your energy even further. When you make the switch from eating all the things to dialed down, it works temporarily. Go back to normal portions and the body becomes very confused. It can take months and months and maybe even two or three years before your metabolism functions normally again. After a cycle of super restriction, there will be rebound weight gain when you start eating normally again. That's going to take some serious suxing it UP, buttercup to allow your metabolism to rebuild itself. Hoping for weight releasing? That's not happening until the metabolism is healed and knows that you're not going to put it through the paces of self-induced starving again. It is going to take true grit. It is important to persevere and be very, very patient. When you goooo ooooo soooo slowly the weight will come off and stay off and you will not gain it back by sliding back off the goose and rebounding with every single pound within a year's time. This will work for you but don't let anyone talk you into dialing it down further. You have to be strong and motivated to keep riding your wave. Respect yourself. Respect your body's pace and work with it. There is a way to enjoy your life to the fullest again but going at a snail's're going to find yourself alone because no one and I mean no one can do it for you. And that is what this is about. I knew it was going to be a rodeo but if you'd told me in 2014, that it would take this long to retrain my brain, I would've laughed. Keep your sense of humor but just know it's going to take alot longer than you might think.
  4. Food Addiction is chronically rewarding yourself with food. It's not about the quality it's about the quantity. Binge eaters want that stuffed to the gills feeling, more than topped off to the point that it hurts. You don't have to tell the binge eater to take time to eat. In the throes of food addiction, the binge eater is constantly thinking about food and what and where the next binge will be. It's a release and until you can get yourself to the store or drive-thru, it can't happen soon enough. Telling the binge eater to eat foods they truly enjoy and take time to eat... Eat as much as you want Your body knows how much you want to eat Pay attention to your food, enjoy it Eat it if it tastes good and don't if you don't enjoy it You'll get better and better and eating as much as you want and foods you enjoy and don't eat it if you don't enjoy it And big servings of your favorite foods won't make you want to overeat, eat the entire big serving That all sounds good on paper but I prefer can't fool myself realism. The binge eater left their eating cues in the dirt a long time ago. After years and years of binge eating - what food cues. There may be few left. Eating in the unconscious mode while you're doing absolutely everything...driving, working, celebrating or while you're all alone, the sky is not the limit. Reinforcing all of the above is like telling the pie eating contest winner that they can slow down now. When you're the Champion of the Binge and someone tells you will get better at eating all the things - all the time - revisit them 10 years down the road. Self-awareness, intuitive eating and being a really competent eater does not come naturally to the food addict or binge eater. If it did, it would only take a few directions or one diet and you would be fixed. For life. You don't have to tell the binge eater to eat, eat, eat because that is their factory setting. It's not the original factory setting, it's the one that's gone haywire. I believe you have to be one to truly understand what's going on inside of the binge eater's brain. The appetite control center is in the brain and not the stomach. Those who've never had a problem with binge eating, I wish I had your brain chemistry. Cheat Meals = Giving yourself permission to fall right back into binge eating. Get rid of that saying. You will feel like you're cheating on your hugger or husband with more secret eating. Planning to cheat ahead of time. Has that worked for you then? Going on a cruise and planning on a whopping boatload of cheat meals, a vacation of cheat meals and eat, eat, eat. Giving yourself permission to do what you've always done. If you cheat and eat "bad carbs" are you tempted to balance them back out with "good carbs"? Do you eat four servings of salad to compensate for the pastries, pies, cookies and candy. Wash that cheat meal away and clean the palate. That's some unqualified freedom of a different shade. In the beginning of a binge eater's life, the body will go along with the yo-yo game a few times but gradually it becomes less and less receptive until everything no longer works. I mean everything. This is where the destructive cycles of dieting and binge eating come in. Alternating back and forth with wild swings UP and down with your weight and moods and tudes. They make your life a living hail. Looking back on your life, if you can count on less than 5 fingers the number of times you've found true stability with your food and weight and way of eating you must face the truth. You've been running roughshod over your eating cues for so long now, they're all in the dust and the answers are blowing in the wind. Constant dieting and then sliding back off the goose - backsliding and rebounding over the course of a lifetime will get you nowhere good.
  5. When you're stuck at the crossroads and you reach that fork in the road Take it Don't look back
  6. I don't need cream in my coffee. Come inspire all of us with your good decisions.
  7. Goodbye, Kelly Castaway Goodbye, Multi-Crap I don't want you back either
  8. Some people live on ground turkey or chicken every single day on a bed of fresh greens with some cooked vege, too. They add a circle of a tasty compliant sauce or dressing, some avocado cubes and voila.
  9. Google fu's cumin. Ayup, cumin is compliant. That's actually a clear and direct ingredient list, so many of them have all of that other multi-crap.
  10. This podcast is really helpful.
  11. I have aunts that are my age because I have an enormous family. We're similar in every way and blood is thicker than water. I visited with my favorite auntie today. I'm all jacked UP, she made me so darned happy. I can't wait to see her, it's been awhile. We've been visiting and she's been following her own consistent positive food management plan. She was right on the cusp of full blown T2, too. Why we wait for the prognostication of the dr., it's massive rationalization and denial. Without scale hopping, she found out she's released 30 lbs and will continue to tool along her way. Consistently. We compared notes. Ooooo, brother. We're doing almost the same identical things. No snacking whatsoever. Main meal at breakfast, lunch and dinner. Nothing after 6 pm. She's been snowed in and yet, it's all happening for her since January. Given our genetics and background, I'm so happy for her. Consistency in everything we do works for us. It's the only thing that's kept me standing here since 2014. I used to think it was a badge of honor to fly by the seat of my pants. I don't believe that anymore. It doesn't matter what age you are. It's never too late to get your ducks in a row. There's always hope. After all, tomorrow is another day.
  12. I'm speaking in general, but you don't need to start over again. Extended Whole 30's don't really fix it when you're finished.The off and on again approach...Whole 30's mixed with binge eating or just minor/major off-roading inbetween is not Food Freedom Forever. It's boxing yourself into a corner. It creates more black and white thinking about food. Whole 30 or Not. All in/on target or falling back into old habits. After watching others do this for years now, I am convinced that the original constructs of a Whole 30 are optimum, in every way. Elimination protocol of 30 days, a Reintro of about 10 days or longer and done. Next. Immediately create a plan you can live with for the rest of your life. Your personal decisions will be liberating. Maybe you like eating the same lunch every single day, some do. Some like eating the same food 3X aday, that wouldn't work for me but you choose, you decide. Read FFF, you'll find ideas for putting your positive food management plan together. My plan is consistent but it has leeway. I can eat full fat plain greek yogurt or cottage cheese, legumes, even some non gmo grains in whole form, fish, fish, fish, proteins of every kind, nuts, fruits and vegetables. What I can't do is eat is deliberately engineered to be craved candy or donuts or bakery items or white sugar, white flour, white pasta. These things cause an immediate uptick in my blood sugar even in small amounts. I don't eat them. I don't touch artificial sweetners or soda pops. No fast food or ice cream. I have enough leeway that I don't ever feel deprived. I eat everything with a protein. Fruit, vegetables, everything is paired with protein. That's my Rx for blood sugar control. It works for me. Starting over and over again will not make it any easier on Day 61 or Day 91 when you're done. FFF = not doing a Whole 30 Forever. It's going to take work to find your way. I'm consistent but that's my way. The sooner you can find your way the easier this will be. Create something consistent for awhile until you get your footing back. After an elimination protocol, there is an adjustment period. You're used to reading every label. Find your wiggle room and branch out. You can always prune yourself back before it goes sideways.
  13. A.P. has shows like that. Huh. Didn't know that. Okay, well you can watch the previous ones at anytime. We have to get to the bottom of it. Two heads are better than one. It's another Nancy Drew mystery, regardless if it's phony fakealoo or a tad of truth. Where there's smoke there's fire, ancient paleo monsters. I think they're 80/20 paleo because they like donuts and candy.
  14. I watched the new History channel special about Tesla, Bell, Einstein and others. They said these brilliant people were given dreams about their equations or their mind was sorting it all out for them while they were sleeping. Tesla, what a wild ride that must've been. As I'm watching this, I can clearly see they were all using their heads besides something to part their ears with. Did they come by it naturally or was that information downloaded. That's the mystery. I was equating it to my life and all of the Felicias out there. These brains are given the answers to the Universe while other brains are being driven to food addiction or alcoholism or looking at themselves in the mirror but seeing distortions. Now, why, why, why...are they being given brilliant downloads at night while they're sleeping to solve their mysteries. We are each a Universe unto ourselves. We're not asking for much. Nooo, Felicias. We want the secret keys and answers for what makes each of us tick. So where are those worthless food addiction downloads coming from. I want to know. I have a good idea and it really gives me a big pinch. Those people were harnessing electricity and designing the power grid for crying outloud. Their inventions are still keeping us afloat. Why haven't we received any new downloads in such a long time. We're still driving vehicles, many completely distracted while texting...why aren't we driving like the Jetsons, yet. Think how much safer highways above ground would be. I used to dream all of the time about my vehicle being above the telephone poles, shooting down the highway to work. Back to the downloads of information. From what I can tell, there have been chosen peoples who are willing receivers. Their brains are different. Einstein's brain was still young when he crossed over the great divide. He liked to be silly on occasion and was curious about everything. I would say he was seeing the Universe through the eyes of a child. He thought differently because his filters were unique. Have you ever watched Dr. Miami. He really enjoys being silly but he's brilliant. He knows that being silly and childlike is a stress relief valve. He lets all of the stress out and he's a genius in the operating room. There's a difference between being "childish" and childlike. Childlike is always thinking of clever tactics for problem solving. No limitations. I like to blather and foam at the mouth about all kinds of things but I try to stay on topic. Hardy har har. For those of us with a food addiction or food disorder or any kind of addiction, what's stopping us from getting those downloads we need in order to be set free. For good. Forever. Why do we hit the wall when faced with trickery triggers. Why are some brilliant at navigating through the sugary sharky waters and others of us have to work at it every day. It seems patently unfair. We all have our dues in life to pay but come on, now. Where's Andy of Mayberry when you need him. I would like to sit on the front porch with Andy and ask him these questions. He could solve everything while Barney was running around working himself UP into some kind of confrontation. Aunt Bee was always in the kitchen, cooking, canning and putting good food on the table. Andy. Cool as a cucumber. Using psychology and life's lessons to solve every single problem. He must've been getting downloads of information. His brain was different and unique. There is a brain barrier that's stopping those downloads from getting through. Maybe Dr. Miami has the answers and he'll be able to get in there and Tear That Wall Down! I want to know the why, why, whys and the answers. I wish Einstein was around so we could ask him. If we could break through the brain barriers, taking out the scratches in the records where we're stuck, removing the deep grooves... Mayberry had it all. The town drunk, the brain, the cook, the child, the school teacher and girlfriend, the booch makers (moonshiners) a slice of everything. I'm waiting on a Chinook and a download. You have to replace a negative habit with a positive one. How long do you think it takes to tear those walls down. Remove those deep grooves in the brain. For good. Standing out in electrical storms like Tesla or that the secret key and answer. That's really touch and go there.
  15. Remember. Tonight. The previous ones are shown before the new one. Until then.
  16. Come and listen to my story about a pal named Red A poor mountaineer, barely kept his family fed And then one day he was hunting for some food, And out through the chute came a fast-food multitude Oil that is, black gold, McDee, BK, Texas Tea Well the first thing you know Ole Red's a millionaire, The kinfolk said "Red move away from there" Said Nashville is the place you ought to be So they loaded UP the truck and they moved to Tennessee Hills, that is, hillbillies, country music stars. Well, now it's time to say goodbye to Red and all his kin. And they would like to thank you folks fer kindly droppin' in. You're all invited back tomorrow to this locality To have a heapin' helpin' of hospitality. Hillbilly that is. Sit a spell. Take yur shoes off. Y'all come back now, y'hear? Are you having a hard time sleeping? There's a proven antidote for that. The Rx is take one episode of the Hillbillies or Andy of Mayberry before you go to bed. Andy's way gives you a peaceful easy feeling that all is well in the Universe. Be soothed by Ole Floyd at the barber shop. Aunt Bee and Opie. Andy and Opie going down to the fishing pond, whistling a catchy diddie. Goober will fix your car in nothin' flat. Otis gets looped all of the time but Otis is not using his car for a phone booth. No, Otis walks to the jailhouse and checks himself in. Life is sooo good in Mayberry. Andy can still calm everyone's nerves and sing you to sleep. I recommend Mayberry and magnesium before your head hits the pillow.
  17. I want to be known for my tiney hiney and beautiful face said Einstein never. Or Judit or Ruth or Rosa P. or Harriet T. The smartest people on the planet knew/know that their brains transcend physical and outward beauty. We live in a beauty and body obsessed culture. Your value and self-worth is not measured by the size of your jeans or biceps, or your number on the scale. Your worth is defined by how much you love and care for others. The most beautiful person in the room is the one who exudes love and kindness towards others. People are drawn like a magnet to that person. Beauty is really a matter of the heart. There is no one more beautiful than a child who's fighting for their life in the hospital. A child with disabilities is beautiful beyond compare. The tiny child with a smile upon their face, fighting for their life is far more beautiful than a tiney hiney. All children are beautiful and they say the most profound things. They've not been biased through society's norms or limited in their thinking. Seeing through the eyes of a child is a glimpse of heaven on earth. Don't ruin your true beauty by holding yourself to such a high standard that unless you have an enormous thigh gap or -00 jeans that you begin to treat yourself like an object or machine rather than a human being. A woman of strength and integrity has no fear of old age. When she speaks her words are wise and kindness is the rule for everything she says. Look for that beautiful person in the room, wherever you go.
  18. I want to take it back outside. I would lurve to see some actual sunshine but the sun ain't been shining in almost 8 months.
  19. Reading your body cues and gut instincts you should not ignore. It's not bragging if it's true. Empathy and sympathy for others is a basic human and animal instinct. Elk grieve for the loss of loved ones, we've watched it, many animals grieve. They have the ability to think and feel how others are feeling. Paw is a quick read of faces and emotional signals. Maw doesn't need verbalized cues either. It's always a good idea to bounce your gut instincts off your rational mind and thinking. But there are many times you need to trust your snap judgments and decisions. You can read emotional signals in another's face almost instantly. You can detect whether a stranger is a friend or foe. That's called survival and we are bent on survival. If you wouldn't pick up a hitchhiker along the roadside, why would you pick up an internet stranger and invite them into your home. We wouldn't. It's as simple as that. Why do they want in, surely they must have connections elsewhere and if they don't...why not. If you're walking down the street at night and you have the gut feeling something isn't right, cross the street or get out of that situation. Now. Empathy for others provokes us to help others when they're in danger or just suffered a major loss in their life. Natural disasters and all manner of hardships. Empathy and kindness is good, just make sure you know who you're lavishing it on so you don't get taken to the cleaners. Older folkaronies freely give out all kinds of personal info over the phone and their bank accounts are cleaned out. Heartbreaking. They've proven that giving to others makes all kinds of areas light UP in the brain. Given the choice to keep it all for yourself or give unto others, giving is better than hoarding. Olde golfers get the yips. They get much worse as the years go by because they are reflecting too much on what they are doing. Overthinking it. Overresearching. Overanalyzing. Too much careful thought about putts is a pain in the.... Good drivers use their instincts. Great cooks who start overthinking everything ruin their best dishes when they've invited company over for dinner. Rational thought serves children as they're growing. Developing muscle memory. But there comes a time in your life when overriding your instincts can mess with your performance or cause you to make some destructive or negative decisions. Trust your gut. Learn to trust your emotions and the ability to read faces and smoke signals. Trust your gut and not your head. Your head or mind will start talking you out of what you know to be true. Logical thinking and massive rationalization = Overthinking it. When your natural instinctive intuition or spirit cues you into what's right for you... There is ease. No confusion. No forcing it. Your good plan comes together, effortlessly. When you leave it to your instincts to do the job, it's like driving down the road for 100's of miles and you cannot remember how you got from point A to point B so peacefully. Your instincts were driving the car without a visegrip on the wheel. It almost seems like you were asleep at the wheel but you weren't. You were running on instinct. Choosing a vehicle or choosing a career. Both decisions can lead to overthinking and making decisions that are not right for you. Learning to trust your gut to make the big or small decisions in life is very satisfying. You're going to have to go back to the well and pull all of the dross out of your head. The logical overthinking and overanalyzing and overresearching everything that gets in your way. You need to find relationships that reasonate with you rather than look good on paper. Connect with people on a heart level. It it wasn't there at Hellooooo, you'd better trust that. Be a watchman on the wall.