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  1. emilyelowe liked a post in a topic by diamonds422 in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Hi all, it's day 30 for me and my husband. I'm so, so glad we didn't quit despite all the difficulties. Today's lunch was the greek version of the Whole30 protein salad on a bed of spinach with balsamic vinaigrette drizzled on top, with a side of strawberries. AMAZING. I can't believe I didn't try it before. It's amazing how some roasted tomatoes, kalamata olives and basil can change something so much. 
    Non-scale victories are numerous-- more energy, better skin, minimal cravings (gone now that the stress of the move is over), getting more efficient in the kitchen, and I'm sure a lot more I can't think of right now. My husband, like he did during his first Whole30, completely stopped snoring the third day or so. 
    We're basically going with the slow roll introduction. I've never really had issues with the food groups being introduced, but I think for my next Whole30 I'll do the reintroductions on schedule to make sure. Can't do that this time around, but it's in my plans for sure. We basically plan to eat Whole30 or at least paleo all the time unless something comes along that's worth it. 
    It's been a pleasure being part of this thread with y'all. I'm sure I'll see many of you around the forum in the future! Best of luck to everyone who is approaching the finish line!
  2. SugarcubeOD liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Day 24! One week from today I will be eating gluten. I am both excited and scared, but mostly excited. Not because I miss the things I'm going to reintroduce on Thursday - I'm actually purposely trying to eat not very special things as a guard rail for myself - but because I'm going to learn. And I love learning.  I think my plan for next week is to have a piece of bread with breakfast and pita with a gyro for lunch. As I've mentioned, we have people coming in to town on Friday, so the rest of the weekend will be interesting.
    However, right now I'm really kind of feeling like I will be able to stay mostly on track (on track = a truly SLOW slow roll) even over the weekend. I was reading through the journal I kept on my phone during my last reintroduction, and it makes me not even want to reintroduce things. Like, most of what I was saying was how terrible I was feeling. I had headaches and bloating all the time. The interesting recipes and partnership with my hubby during this Whole30 have really started to make me think I want this to just be how I eat. Maybe it is just the oncoming Tiger Blood talking but for now, I'm feeling motivated. I think having my husband on board with me has really made a difference so I hope he sticks with it, too. We shall see. 
    The spinach and artichoke potatoes I made last night are THE BOMB. So yummy. Last night I had one of those, grilled chicken, and a bit of mayo for dinner. This morning I had one with mayo and 3 eggs for breakfast.
    I successfully sat in a Lunch and Learn session surrounded by pizza today PRE-lunch and survived, so that's a victory. Once my nose acclimated to the amazing smell of the pizza, I actually forgot about it, which is a pretty big deal, because I have a tendency to obsess over food or other things I want. It might have just been that I gave my brain something else to do in the form of peeling off all of my Gel nail polish, though, haha. (that is very bad for your nails - don't do that). Either way, I made it. I'm eating butter chicken and chow mein for lunch now (I was starting to get a bit of a headache, so hoping that will pass now that I've eaten). 
    I also walked past FREE, genuine, German handmade, mini cream puffs on the way out of work yesterday. I thought about taking them home and putting them in a Ziploc but then I channeled my inner Melissa and was like "If you want a cream puff next week (which you won't because you don't actually like cream puffs), you can go get one because ADULT." Also a victory.
    Last but not least... I "accidentally," squatted 5 pounds more than my previous working set this morning, which was kind of exciting. I was like, "Why is that so heavy?" and then I looked and was like, "Oh. Well let's roll with that, then." I failed on my fifth set, so I went back down 5 pounds for my sixth (and last), but I was still pretty pleased with myself. Suffice it to say, gym performance is improving. I'm also falling asleep and sleeping well and feeling very energetic and focused. AND I washed my hair again and the dandruff is even better than last time! NSV! (I only wash my hair 1-2 times per week - it's not weird, it's good for you - so that is why I keep randomly making this announcement. I have to wait a week before I can test it again. Haha). Literally 0 flakes this morning. I can't believe it. Praise the Lord! 
    Also, my husband this morning was explaining how something he hadn't done in a long time was easier at the gym and that he can run faster than normal and I just said, "It's called Tiger Blood. Welcome to the Whole30," to which he immediately rolled his eyes but, you know, it's not always easy being right all the time. #noapologies  
    Back to Reality, though: We don't have a good plan for dinner tonight AND we have to do some errands, so I have a feeling all of this "Yay, I love Whole30 and unicorns," spirit will be slightly lacking in a few hours, but I'm going to try to document it and hold onto it as long as I can! Haha!
    Have a happy Thursday!  
  3. SugarcubeOD liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Day 24! One week from today I will be eating gluten. I am both excited and scared, but mostly excited. Not because I miss the things I'm going to reintroduce on Thursday - I'm actually purposely trying to eat not very special things as a guard rail for myself - but because I'm going to learn. And I love learning.  I think my plan for next week is to have a piece of bread with breakfast and pita with a gyro for lunch. As I've mentioned, we have people coming in to town on Friday, so the rest of the weekend will be interesting.
    However, right now I'm really kind of feeling like I will be able to stay mostly on track (on track = a truly SLOW slow roll) even over the weekend. I was reading through the journal I kept on my phone during my last reintroduction, and it makes me not even want to reintroduce things. Like, most of what I was saying was how terrible I was feeling. I had headaches and bloating all the time. The interesting recipes and partnership with my hubby during this Whole30 have really started to make me think I want this to just be how I eat. Maybe it is just the oncoming Tiger Blood talking but for now, I'm feeling motivated. I think having my husband on board with me has really made a difference so I hope he sticks with it, too. We shall see. 
    The spinach and artichoke potatoes I made last night are THE BOMB. So yummy. Last night I had one of those, grilled chicken, and a bit of mayo for dinner. This morning I had one with mayo and 3 eggs for breakfast.
    I successfully sat in a Lunch and Learn session surrounded by pizza today PRE-lunch and survived, so that's a victory. Once my nose acclimated to the amazing smell of the pizza, I actually forgot about it, which is a pretty big deal, because I have a tendency to obsess over food or other things I want. It might have just been that I gave my brain something else to do in the form of peeling off all of my Gel nail polish, though, haha. (that is very bad for your nails - don't do that). Either way, I made it. I'm eating butter chicken and chow mein for lunch now (I was starting to get a bit of a headache, so hoping that will pass now that I've eaten). 
    I also walked past FREE, genuine, German handmade, mini cream puffs on the way out of work yesterday. I thought about taking them home and putting them in a Ziploc but then I channeled my inner Melissa and was like "If you want a cream puff next week (which you won't because you don't actually like cream puffs), you can go get one because ADULT." Also a victory.
    Last but not least... I "accidentally," squatted 5 pounds more than my previous working set this morning, which was kind of exciting. I was like, "Why is that so heavy?" and then I looked and was like, "Oh. Well let's roll with that, then." I failed on my fifth set, so I went back down 5 pounds for my sixth (and last), but I was still pretty pleased with myself. Suffice it to say, gym performance is improving. I'm also falling asleep and sleeping well and feeling very energetic and focused. AND I washed my hair again and the dandruff is even better than last time! NSV! (I only wash my hair 1-2 times per week - it's not weird, it's good for you - so that is why I keep randomly making this announcement. I have to wait a week before I can test it again. Haha). Literally 0 flakes this morning. I can't believe it. Praise the Lord! 
    Also, my husband this morning was explaining how something he hadn't done in a long time was easier at the gym and that he can run faster than normal and I just said, "It's called Tiger Blood. Welcome to the Whole30," to which he immediately rolled his eyes but, you know, it's not always easy being right all the time. #noapologies  
    Back to Reality, though: We don't have a good plan for dinner tonight AND we have to do some errands, so I have a feeling all of this "Yay, I love Whole30 and unicorns," spirit will be slightly lacking in a few hours, but I'm going to try to document it and hold onto it as long as I can! Haha!
    Have a happy Thursday!  
  4. SugarcubeOD liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Day 24! One week from today I will be eating gluten. I am both excited and scared, but mostly excited. Not because I miss the things I'm going to reintroduce on Thursday - I'm actually purposely trying to eat not very special things as a guard rail for myself - but because I'm going to learn. And I love learning.  I think my plan for next week is to have a piece of bread with breakfast and pita with a gyro for lunch. As I've mentioned, we have people coming in to town on Friday, so the rest of the weekend will be interesting.
    However, right now I'm really kind of feeling like I will be able to stay mostly on track (on track = a truly SLOW slow roll) even over the weekend. I was reading through the journal I kept on my phone during my last reintroduction, and it makes me not even want to reintroduce things. Like, most of what I was saying was how terrible I was feeling. I had headaches and bloating all the time. The interesting recipes and partnership with my hubby during this Whole30 have really started to make me think I want this to just be how I eat. Maybe it is just the oncoming Tiger Blood talking but for now, I'm feeling motivated. I think having my husband on board with me has really made a difference so I hope he sticks with it, too. We shall see. 
    The spinach and artichoke potatoes I made last night are THE BOMB. So yummy. Last night I had one of those, grilled chicken, and a bit of mayo for dinner. This morning I had one with mayo and 3 eggs for breakfast.
    I successfully sat in a Lunch and Learn session surrounded by pizza today PRE-lunch and survived, so that's a victory. Once my nose acclimated to the amazing smell of the pizza, I actually forgot about it, which is a pretty big deal, because I have a tendency to obsess over food or other things I want. It might have just been that I gave my brain something else to do in the form of peeling off all of my Gel nail polish, though, haha. (that is very bad for your nails - don't do that). Either way, I made it. I'm eating butter chicken and chow mein for lunch now (I was starting to get a bit of a headache, so hoping that will pass now that I've eaten). 
    I also walked past FREE, genuine, German handmade, mini cream puffs on the way out of work yesterday. I thought about taking them home and putting them in a Ziploc but then I channeled my inner Melissa and was like "If you want a cream puff next week (which you won't because you don't actually like cream puffs), you can go get one because ADULT." Also a victory.
    Last but not least... I "accidentally," squatted 5 pounds more than my previous working set this morning, which was kind of exciting. I was like, "Why is that so heavy?" and then I looked and was like, "Oh. Well let's roll with that, then." I failed on my fifth set, so I went back down 5 pounds for my sixth (and last), but I was still pretty pleased with myself. Suffice it to say, gym performance is improving. I'm also falling asleep and sleeping well and feeling very energetic and focused. AND I washed my hair again and the dandruff is even better than last time! NSV! (I only wash my hair 1-2 times per week - it's not weird, it's good for you - so that is why I keep randomly making this announcement. I have to wait a week before I can test it again. Haha). Literally 0 flakes this morning. I can't believe it. Praise the Lord! 
    Also, my husband this morning was explaining how something he hadn't done in a long time was easier at the gym and that he can run faster than normal and I just said, "It's called Tiger Blood. Welcome to the Whole30," to which he immediately rolled his eyes but, you know, it's not always easy being right all the time. #noapologies  
    Back to Reality, though: We don't have a good plan for dinner tonight AND we have to do some errands, so I have a feeling all of this "Yay, I love Whole30 and unicorns," spirit will be slightly lacking in a few hours, but I'm going to try to document it and hold onto it as long as I can! Haha!
    Have a happy Thursday!  
  5. SweetEnough liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Day 16 and burnt out....   
    Every Whole30 is different, so don't be too hard on yourself! I don't drink coffee but I imagine that would be a HUGE change if it's something you had every day prior to this. I have a tendency to struggle in the third week, also. The novelty is gone, you're either experiencing food boredom or food overload, there's no Tiger Blood, and the end doesn't seem anywhere near near enough. So in my experience, this isn't all that abnormal. 
    If food prep is overwhelming (mine has been too this time around! I'm on Day 23), maybe try to simplify a little more. Just prep a bunch of your favorite veggies, meats, and sauces and combine them in different ways during the week rather than making 6 different dishes, for example. Or if you're bored with simple foods, try a NEW recipe that still has a small number of ingredients. I was just checking out the Real Food Dieticians page and they have a recipe page dedicated to 10 or fewer ingredients. I've been finding lots of inspiration lately on Instagram, too. I also think the Slow Cooker, Instant Pot, or Pressure Cooker is a life saver on days when I am just OVER the food prep. Maybe treat yourself to a cleaning service to deep clean your kitchen as a half-way point reward? These are just free-flowing thoughts.  
    I believe Chipotle cooks everything but the carnitas in soy bean oil (including the fajita vegetables) so it's kind of difficult to get a true template meal there. You'd probably have better luck at a Whole Foods where all the ingredients for everything at their hot bar are clearly listed. 
    Good luck getting over the hump!
  6. SweetEnough liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Day 16 and burnt out....   
    Every Whole30 is different, so don't be too hard on yourself! I don't drink coffee but I imagine that would be a HUGE change if it's something you had every day prior to this. I have a tendency to struggle in the third week, also. The novelty is gone, you're either experiencing food boredom or food overload, there's no Tiger Blood, and the end doesn't seem anywhere near near enough. So in my experience, this isn't all that abnormal. 
    If food prep is overwhelming (mine has been too this time around! I'm on Day 23), maybe try to simplify a little more. Just prep a bunch of your favorite veggies, meats, and sauces and combine them in different ways during the week rather than making 6 different dishes, for example. Or if you're bored with simple foods, try a NEW recipe that still has a small number of ingredients. I was just checking out the Real Food Dieticians page and they have a recipe page dedicated to 10 or fewer ingredients. I've been finding lots of inspiration lately on Instagram, too. I also think the Slow Cooker, Instant Pot, or Pressure Cooker is a life saver on days when I am just OVER the food prep. Maybe treat yourself to a cleaning service to deep clean your kitchen as a half-way point reward? These are just free-flowing thoughts.  
    I believe Chipotle cooks everything but the carnitas in soy bean oil (including the fajita vegetables) so it's kind of difficult to get a true template meal there. You'd probably have better luck at a Whole Foods where all the ingredients for everything at their hot bar are clearly listed. 
    Good luck getting over the hump!
  7. SweetEnough liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Day 16 and burnt out....   
    Every Whole30 is different, so don't be too hard on yourself! I don't drink coffee but I imagine that would be a HUGE change if it's something you had every day prior to this. I have a tendency to struggle in the third week, also. The novelty is gone, you're either experiencing food boredom or food overload, there's no Tiger Blood, and the end doesn't seem anywhere near near enough. So in my experience, this isn't all that abnormal. 
    If food prep is overwhelming (mine has been too this time around! I'm on Day 23), maybe try to simplify a little more. Just prep a bunch of your favorite veggies, meats, and sauces and combine them in different ways during the week rather than making 6 different dishes, for example. Or if you're bored with simple foods, try a NEW recipe that still has a small number of ingredients. I was just checking out the Real Food Dieticians page and they have a recipe page dedicated to 10 or fewer ingredients. I've been finding lots of inspiration lately on Instagram, too. I also think the Slow Cooker, Instant Pot, or Pressure Cooker is a life saver on days when I am just OVER the food prep. Maybe treat yourself to a cleaning service to deep clean your kitchen as a half-way point reward? These are just free-flowing thoughts.  
    I believe Chipotle cooks everything but the carnitas in soy bean oil (including the fajita vegetables) so it's kind of difficult to get a true template meal there. You'd probably have better luck at a Whole Foods where all the ingredients for everything at their hot bar are clearly listed. 
    Good luck getting over the hump!
  8. emilyelowe liked a post in a topic by Delicacious in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Yes! Scallions. 
  9. emilyelowe liked a post in a topic by Jim4884 in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    I typically top my meatzas with broccoli, squash, and black olives, and add some avocado after baking.  I think the olives and avocados plus the meat provide enough fat - seems to be OK for me...
  10. emilyelowe liked a post in a topic by SugarcubeOD in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Ya, coconut wraps are taking a 'flour' product and turning it into somethign resembling a bread wrap... the nori sheets are just like wrapping in lettuce or collard.. and oh so delish!  Just make sure you don't put 'wet' stuff as the first layer because it makes the nori really hard to bite/cut... 
  11. primalishmary liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Oh! Here are my social media accounts, as well, if anyone is interested. It's mostly pictures of my dog and sometimes my food.
    Facebook: Emily Lowe
    Instagram: emilyelisabethlowe
    Snapchat: esmalleslowe
    I usually deny people I don't know so if you add me and I deny you, I didn't make the connection, so let me know on here. Haha!
  12. primalishmary liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Welcome @Simon T (UK)! Where in the UK are you? My husband and I are going to London for the first time in October, so maybe you can start scouting paleo restaurants for us?  
  13. diamonds422 liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    And the Whole30 strikes again! It's amazing to me the things we learn about ourselves on this program. Hope you feel better soon, @Delicacious! The pork and potatoes looked and sounded amazing!
  14. diamonds422 liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    And the Whole30 strikes again! It's amazing to me the things we learn about ourselves on this program. Hope you feel better soon, @Delicacious! The pork and potatoes looked and sounded amazing!
  15. Laurie liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Day 22 in Columbus. It's feeling like we are really getting close now. I think I've decided to purposely reintroduce gluten in all it's scary glory on Day 31 so I know exactly what it does to me and then attempt to Slow Roll from there. (Day 31 is next Thursday for me and we have friends in town for the weekend - so who knows what will happen!)
    I woke up feeling pretty rested this morning (despite having a Great Dane who is apparently quite the dreamer sleeping in my bed all night ) and have been trucking through all day without any caffeine so pretty excited about that. (just realized it is only 12:30, though - haha - it feels much later) Today has been kind of weird - feeling a little like a sausage packed into my pants, a little bloaty, and suddenly got a headache around 11:30 a.m. It seems to have subsided now that I've eaten lunch and I am definitely trying to drink more water this afternoon. 
    Dinner last night was very disappointing - grilled chicken, mayo, green beans, chow mein, and a plum. Part of the disappointment was probably because that is a bit of a hodge podge of items and I really like things that go together. But more so the chicken didn't taste right - kind of fishy - and the green beans weren't right either. I made them with ghee instead of coconut oil and, I'll admit, I didn't actually measure the coconut aminos, but I was so sad because they were really good last week.  Chow mein was OK - I didn't include the coconut sugar the recipe calls for so wondering if it would have been better if I had. May or may not try it again post-W30. It would be nice to have a different way to eat spaghetti squash and food to include when that Chinese craving comes. 
    I had chicken and mayo on the way to the gym this morning (still yuck - really not digging that chicken), HB egg white post-WO, sweet potatoes + chow mein + 3 eggs + hot ranch + peach for breakfast, and THE BEST WHITE CHICKEN CHILI EVER + half an avocado for lunch. Seriously, everyone needs to make paleo running mama's white chicken chili that I linked above. It might be the best soup I've ever had, and I LOVE soup. I've told like everyone I know about this soup. So I had to tell you guys, obvi. 
    Also, I fell into the Rx Bar trap we were JUST talking about yesterday! I bought one last week to have in my purse for this weekend in case things got real at the baby shower. I had opened it and tasted it this weekend (it was a flavor I hadn't had before) so then it was open in my purse but I figured I'd just leave it in there for emergencies. I forgot about it until I was moving some things around yesterday when I got home after work and once I saw it, it was like I COULDN'T LOOK AWAY.  Having a snack when I get home from work, before dinner, is definitely an old habit from the days of counting calories and not eating enough and always being hungry before dinner. I knew in my head that I wasn't hungry and didn't need a snack, but I still ate a chunk of it. (DANG Mixed Berry is good). Once again, I put the rest back and said, 'That is emergency food. It needs to stay in your purse,' and moved on to prep dinner. But then, after my disappointing dinner, my sad brain reminded me that the rest of it was still in my purse, so I ate it. #facepalm This was definitely a combination of habit + impulse control + Sugar Dragon + emotional eating and it is a real bummer. It's crazy to me that no matter how good I feel, I still make these silly choices. What the what, self? 
    I'm thinking the plum last night + half Rx Bar + the peach this morning might be what's having me feeling less than stellar. The Whole30 was so much easier when it wasn't summer and I wasn't surrounded by all of the most beautiful looking fruit. I'm like Eve in the Garden over here. Lord help me. 
    I'll be home alone for dinner tonight so I hope I don't do anything stupid. There are Cheryl's cookies hiding in my pantry and I promise you all I will not eat one. I am probably going to have Meatza for dinner because it was SUPER good and gives me something to look forward to. When you guys eat Meatza, do you have anything else with it? It seems like it's missing a fat, unless the 1/2 pound of ground beef goodness counts, which I'm 99.9% sure it doesn't. I don't really have any greens to make a salad with dressing, so not sure if I should add something else. Like I said, I like it when things "go," together. Suggestions welcome.
    Have a great day!
  16. racheleats liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Thanks, @racheleats!
  17. emilyelowe liked a post in a topic by diamonds422 in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    @SugarcubeOD Thank you so much for sharing. I stopped taking antidepressants for 10 YEARS because I so badly wanted to convince myself I could live without them. It was a big deal for me to find peace with the fact that I will probably take them the rest of my life. Accepting necessary medical treatment does not mean we are weak. I wish you the best and I'm glad you're sticking around the thread with us till the end! 
  18. emilyelowe liked a post in a topic by Delicacious in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Day 20's over!! I was really busy over the weekend and didn't have much time to meal prep. That translates to a lot of last minute prep for the next day just the day before. I just made a new batch of mayo - turned half into curry mayo which would be an interesting flavour for the week. Oh and I made cauliflower fried rice today. It's so awesome! Yet a new way to eat cauliflower. 
    I don't know if I'm feeling tiger blood yet - slightly sleep deprived and another kid is sick again. I'd say I'm more energetic than usual and that's definitely a good thing. 
    Hope everyone is doing great! 
  19. emilyelowe liked a post in a topic by racheleats in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    I've been lurking this thread (I'm on Day 12 myself, love reading about everyone's experiences!) and wanted to chime in with a suggestion. I've always roasted the "toast" in the oven on a baking sheet. You still slice them like you're going to put them in a toaster, but brush with melted ghee on both sides and bake in a 400* oven for about 10 minutes on each side, or until they get a little brown. You can do multiple pans at a time depending on how big your oven is  
  20. emilyelowe liked a post in a topic by Jim4884 in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Thanks for sharing Sugarcube - I have 2 of those 4 diagnoses and that's more than enough, I feel for ya.  I self medicated much of my life with alcohol pre-diagnosis - fortunately now, mine are well under control with actual prescribed medication.   I don't think was going to fall into the trap of "well my new eating habits got me off of my blood pressure medication, maybe my other meds..." but you never know where my head can go - I think your experience will help keep my thinking straight on that topic.
    I think this thread is stuck with stragglers and hanger-ons because it has such a cool name   I'm in re-intro phase and still feel the need to chime in here, now and then.  Speaking just for myself I hope to see you around...
  21. emilyelowe liked a post in a topic by SugarcubeOD in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Thanks for all your support you guys!  I'm expecting my appetite to come back shortly and then I"ll go grocery shopping - I still need to make that Vera Cruz style red snapper that I found... I just don't want to make it and waste it if it turns out appetite doesn't come back - I realize this may make me sound like a huge hypocrite because we always tell people to eat three meals a day regardless... the problem is that I AM hungry and I DO know to eat but I can't MAKE myself... it's a very strange experience but I know that in a day or two more at most, my desire to eat will come roaring back and then it's ON! 
    @Susabella627 - I agree, there's so much stigma around mental illness that is so unnecessary... that's why I really don't mind sharing and talking about it... I have no shame in it, I did nothing wrong   It can be hard tho because even confident over-sharer me was thinking as soon as I hit post that maybe you guys would think I was a fraud or be scared of me... It was reasonably short lived but it was there and for someone that DOES feel shame around it, i imagine that feeling would be much stronger.  I hope your brother is doing well now - I imagine both he and I will try going off meds again in our lives, it's a pretty common problem but having supportive people around is so helpful!
  22. SugarcubeOD liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Thanks for sharing @SugarcubeOD! I'm sorry about your health issues but you mentioned mental health was one of your primary motivators for doing another Whole30, so it seems like starting over is a wise decision. I really hope that the control and structure helps you feel like you are back on your feet again! 
  23. Alisha Alexander liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Note to self: Don't test the Food Universe.
    Me: I'm not even struggling with this Whole30! I don't want any non-compliant foods!
    Boss: Pizza today - my treat!

    #thestruggleisreal
  24. Alisha Alexander liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Hi @Laurie. First, I think you are being pretty hard on yourself here. I mean, this program is all about brutal honesty, but it's not about beating yourself up. Frankly, you're still giving food too much power. You are letting Rx Bars tell you what you "deserve." Well, what do they know? They are mooshed up fruit and nuts. What you "deserve," is to be happy and healthy and comfortable in your skin. And YOU (not Rx Bars) get to decide what you need to do next to accomplish that. 
    I also think the fact that you are recognizing this as an issue and thinking about it and discussing it here is a bit of a victory in itself. Your awareness of your choices and why you eat the things you do is part of the battle to ultimate Food Freedom. 
    I believe the technical rules state you don't have to start over for not following a recommendation, as long as you were following the rules (mods can confirm). Just that you need to do better going forward. I'm not starting over just because I've been eating potatoes twice per day pretty regularly for the first 17 days. I do know that it might impact my outcome, though, and now that I know that, I'm going to make better choices going forward. That's my choice. YOU are the only one that can decide that for you, though. If you feel it's hindered your progress, if you feel you're selling yourself short if you don't start over, then by all means, do it! And we will still be here to support you. But if starting over is going to set you up for failure in your reintroduction or make the program unbearably more difficult, then do what you can with the remaining 11 days you have. Like I said, up to you - not me, not the mods, and certainly not Rx Bars.  Good luck with your choice - you're taking strides for your health either way. 
  25. SugarcubeOD liked a post in a topic by emilyelowe in Death of the Dragon - 30 days of carnage (July 25)   
    Thanks for sharing @SugarcubeOD! I'm sorry about your health issues but you mentioned mental health was one of your primary motivators for doing another Whole30, so it seems like starting over is a wise decision. I really hope that the control and structure helps you feel like you are back on your feet again!