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  1. I'm so glad that your conference was so enjoyable, and that you escaped rain! Thank you for the Hafiz and also the Movnat wisdom. I love Hafiz but I have never seen that poem. They are both keepers!! It's been a rough few days and I am home sick today, but wanted to check in and welcome you back to routine. Re-entry can be hard, I understand. Wishing you centeredness and nourishment. I know that when I am sick it seems like I will never feel better again, but I'll pipe up again soon and get back to routine. Happy autumn!
  2. I'm so glad your appointment went well, and that she is savvy about our W30 ways, that's a boon! This is just a quick one to say bon voyage, and enjoy your conference! I didn't realize it was also a camping adventure, but that makes it even better...hope you don't get rain, but it won't be the hardest thing you've ever done, right? Happy Trails to you both!
  3. I like your strategy of keeping the new cats inside first to establish home and sense of place, that makes a lot of sense. That must have been a really hard move for you all. By chance there are a lot of available cats in our town right now, and a staffer who's on FB keeps showing us - lots of options. I guess we'll know when we are ready....also, I have a lunch date with a friend today at the sub shop so maybe I'll get some contact with Patches. More will be revealed, right? Congrats on getting caught up at work! A great feeling. Did the four mile walk spur you on to more movement? I got another hike in yesterday, and am about to go again now though with a slightly late start. I have compliant food prepared, and more ground chicken thawing. It occurs to me that the transition back to routine after the long weekend is going well - that's something! I am amazed to learn that it's not coffee that causes me problems (yep, must have been the eggs), so I am drinking a lot of coffee and enjoying the euphoria and speed quality. My plan is that once I have a solid exercise habit in place I will hold back, but for now, it's working for me, and fun...= ) I noticed that I've been out of mayo since we got home and I haven't made more or really missed it, so I might experiment with that, as I know that may be part of my problem...I'm trying to unlearn the W30 piece about not focusing on weight loss, since I'm not doing a W30, and exploring FF. I do need to lose weight, so while I'm not obsessing or self-hating, I have to be honest with myself. I feel like I'm in a place of mentally letting go of old ways of thinking (with food, and lots of other things, too), and making up something new for myself, though I don't know what it will be, exactly. Does that make sense? (maybe it's the coffee, I"m tripping after all, but something is happening)
  4. Is it possible that the doctor can feel like a partner in your health goals? Maybe I'm naive (I know I can be) but that is my wish for you. No one responds well to feeling judged and scolded, and I know that's what the feeling of "lecture" is for my part. So I invite you to be kind to yourself. You are an amazing woman! And we've done it before, we can do it again! Meanwhile, I really relate to what you said about being discouraged with your weight. Last week I really wanted some new clothes to wear at MJF, so I bought some new pants, two pairs, and one of them is the next size up. Waaah. The other one is the same size I've been wearing, but I know it's cut generously. Still, it felt good to wear clothes that didn't feel tight. I did my best to walk in beauty and not be self conscious about my weight as I walked back and forth across the county fairgrounds ALL weekend, while psyching myself to turn over a new leave as soon as I got home. In the dressing room I caught a glimpse of back fat I didn't have months ago. Then I saw an amazing Carnival style dancer, and she had the same-looking kind of back I saw in the mirror, and that changed my self view. I realize that our self perception and self talk is really powerful. How can you activate a small change that sets up some momentum? We know our bodies respond to the energy we put in. I know you're overwhelmed at work and that sucks, and I don't know how you can work around that part. Still, today is the first of a new month, and I invite you to join me in having a good day- just for today. Then tomorrow we keep going. One day at a time. This morning I got a 45 minute hike, and I pushed myself. I stretched (in the living room sans blue tarps) for 20 minutes and then had breakfast. I had made turkey hash with gingerbread spices and froze it before we left town. So I had that on artisan olive toast. (I snapped it off, frozen, as I learned from you!) So for now, bread, until I can get to the grocery store..and I'm okay with that. For now! I'm looking ahead at the three months that are left until the new year, and I am going to cruise into better health and a slimmer body, even if it is a slow process. I keep telling myself that i don't have to go crazy with movement or the food part, nothing radical, just doing what I know I have to do, with a sense of food freedom, and self trust. We can do this, Holly! I'm aiming for 5 days a week of hiking, even if it's a short one. I CAN now that it's gloriously cool and the air is clean. After posting last night I did a lot of reading online, and I'm thinking that it might be cruel to remove Patches from her community. Also, what if she tried to return, she would certainly be in danger along 5 miles of highway. I see that the shelters really encourage people to adopt working cats who would otherwise be hard to adopt, so that might be a better route. I will pursue that and see what else I learn.
  5. Hiya Holly! Another was a good one. I'll re-cap some of the highlights, but first a story from when we were leaving town on Friday. We stopped for lunch at the gourmet sub shop as usual. In the week since Spooky died, I've had swimming in my head that "your pet finds you" and "find your pet in your dreams first" stuff I've heard just doesn't happen to me. Or it's been so long I can't recall how this magic works. Then as soon as we sat down for lunch outside behind the sub shop, a young calico cat came strutting right across the yard area, right. to. ME. We saw her coming. I couldn't believe my eyes. She jumped right on the bench next to me and purred and rubbed at me. Time stopped for a second!!!! Of course she wanted the chicken in my sandwich. Of course. But she came to ME! The owner remarked that everyone falls in love with her, but no one wants to take her from her nursing kittens. We named her Patches, and remarked about her all weekend. There's a bunch of feral cats there, but for some reason she is tame. We've thought about bringing her home with some kittens when they are old enough, or waiting until after she is pregnant again and bringing her home at that time, and having a house full of cats, then getting her fixed. She's kind of long haired, and has the sweetest white paws which seem disproportionately large compared to her petite body. I wonder if early pregnancy stunted her growth, and if she'll grow again when kittens are weaned. We're not making any decisions, but we want to visit her again, and any move we make will have to be with the blessing of the sub shop folks, I still my heart. = ) This week I'm back to good food and fitness, mark my words!!!
  6. Whaat? What kind of a snake is it? YIKES! Is it something "the cat dragged in"? Details, please. Tomato tired. Oh, that makes sense! Well the weekend is almost here again (whoosh) - hope you can get some good rest! Good that your brought Ling Ling with you! I realize that there are many different things that one can do with ashes, and there is no right or wrong, really. My dear stepdad really has a hard time letting go, and he still has the ashes of the two family dogs at the end of his marriage with my mom (before I took over her care), Mom'sashes, and her father's ashes...Mom used to keep Grandad's ashes in the car and talk to him when she missed him = ) I used to think it was "wrong" to hold on to ashes...and always wished we could release them as a family. Then I met a woman in hospice care and she talked about relations inheriting ashes down through generations, and I let it all my "shoulds" go...for my own purposes I would like to lovingly scatter Mom's ashes according to her wishes, but it's a very sensitive subject with her ex, and I would rather let him have his way....hopefully I will get to outlive my stepdad and these things will fall into place. In Patti Smith's book Just Kids she talked about handling her best friend's ashes and described the texture, and I think she even tasted them...and it strikes me as very intimate and brave. It's kind of nice to have a friend who worries over my affairs. I know it's your nature, and I don't wish you any anguish or suffering, but it is endearing xo I do so like the idea of generations of cats overlapping. What have you found to work well when introducing cats to each other? Does age seem to matter, or personality? Do you play it by ear? I fancy the SPCA's recommendation of letting them smell and sense each other through a closed door so that when the door is opened they are already acquainted, but I don't have any actual practice in that area. A local woman who I am thinking of working with in therapy is a Jungian and we have talked some about dreams, as I am looking for a therapist who can help me sort through my dreams. I'm rather like a developmental five year old, and tend to interpret things literally, though I am learning to branch out from that place. She said that her pets sometimes come to her in dreams first, "I met my Shadow in a dream"...she was referring to a dog LOL! In other news, nothing like trying on new clothes to face the music of one's weight. Yeah, I'm back to best practices!
  7. I must say I wondered about (in our case unidentified) pet burials, myself...did you know about the pet cemetery because of grave markers, or verbal disclosure? In truth, we are all walking over all kinds of remains all the time, aren't we. I'm so glad for the kind man who took care of you at the crematorium - that makes such a big difference. Maybelle's paw prints on the refrigerator! Oh! That is the most charming thing ever, and I would never remove them, either. What a beautiful, ghostly reminder. There is a name for this kind of reminder...I'll have to noodle on it and get back to you...I was just reading about the paw prints that remain, or a voice on a recording...fingerprints, photos, a stray hair, etc... Turns out we have very rocky land here, too, which should not have been a surprise but it was in our stunned state. Hubs spent a lot of time and labor digging that grave. I tried to take a shift but didn't have the grit to dig out the granite rocks. Instead I brought whisky. We didn't get quite as much depth as we wanted, but carefully put the rocks back and we feel she is well-protected from any curious beasts. Sigh. I sympathize with your you and your husband! Do you remember when we lost power in December, and it got so cold, and after two days, and my husband fighting on the phone with the power company, the cat began trembling with cold. Just as I suggested that we should start looking for a pet-friendly hotel the power came back on. Cold as she was, she wouldn't let me hold her for very long, that's why she had the red blanket on her in the photo i sent you, and we buried her in it. It feels comforting to share about it with you. I know you get it with immediacy. And yes, S. sounds so much like your sweet black Chow! These creatures teach us that it's okay to have limits! (Still, I do love and crave a snuggle bunny cat...I guess I should be careful what I wish for.) Your weekend: the best laid plans, right? Do you feel that it was better that way? The cooking sounds good. Sometimes the simplest/fewest ingredient preparation can be so very delicious. Have you been cooking less because work has kept you busier and more occupied than usual? Don't let me be a bad influence on you! (I know, it's not all about me...) I'm psyching myself for this "relaxed" period to be part of my overall education, and since I posted here last, I realized I don't have to wait until after MJF to get my act together! A girl does need green things in the fridge, though.... So tonight I will prep and marinate chicken thighs in some gyros-type seasonings, and tomorrow night I will fire up the BBQ for the first time in ages. After S. died, Hubs moved a large Amazon delivery box that we had been using to block her way to a corner of the room...and lo and behold, among other things there were my flat-edged BBQ skewers that I had lost track of. So I think I'm going to like these skewers. I'll pick up enough veg to get us through the week and just keep it simple. Thank you for the words of wisdom about enjoying the weekend...and you are right -- it's the homecoming that will be hard. If I'm honest, I thought she would go this week and never need the pet-sitter...I just didn't think it would be so soon.
  8. "Fortune presents gifts not according to the book"...and so I experienced the surprise of my taking it much harder than I thought...and I don't know what I expected of my husband who I have not known to experience grief before, but he is taking it better than I thought, and showed/shows such love and tenderness. I think I love him even more now. Oh, we are both missing her so much. It seems like there is part of the brain that doesn't get the memo. And so my husband's pick of a grave site is comforting - right out the dining room window we can see the corner of the garden bed where she is. We put some of Mom's garden art deer to look over her. It will take a long time. It's a wonder that anyone ever gets a second pet after losing the first one, isn't it? Hubs has said that it couldn't have gone better. Like Maybelle, no stranger danger. And he quoted back to me a hospice truism that people tend to die the way they lived: and so Spooky got her beloved solitude...she liked her affections brief, in between copious alone time. I'm sure you will relate to this, but it's so weird, every time you come home, leave home, go to bed, get out of bed...that absence is so wrong. We think we'll get a couple of cats in the not too distant future, but I need a break...I haven't even finished the cleaning yet, but it will wait until after jazz. Oh, and indoor/outdoor with a cat door like yours, one that we can lock at night. We like this idea. Also after jazz I need to clean up my act with food. Thank you in advance for being here for that big hot mess. I've been eating sandwiches, and I'm starting to sense a bit of inflammation. Hey, how was your home-alone weekend? Did you get to chill? Katy Bowman movement sessions? Scallops?
  9. Spooky has gone over to the other side. She was purring one moment, and 30 minutes later she was gone. I was at work, and Hubs was in the other room, but when he found her she was still warm. If she struggled, we didn't see it. She had her chin resting on Hubs' shoes as per usual in recent months. R.I.P Spooky, and look for Maybelle in the happy hunting grounds.
  10. The lists! That was the other thing that brought you to my mind while reading this book I'm reading it as part of a kind of community book club - and book clubs are something that I don't usually feel drawn to AT ALL - but it's put on by our local Friends of Library, the books are free, meant to share, and there are a bunch of programs around it including some Native locals who will talk about local trees, and a visit from the author. I'm reading it on the author's promise that it contains hope for the future re climate change. And she is big into Lists, like you = ) Nice work, I'm proud of you for what you do at work. Great that you sailed through all the great live music, even on school nights! Is the movement program, and/or the CBD helping you sleep well? I don't know if I mentioned it but I'm on a cocktail of valerian root capsules and CBD together, which is really helping me more than one of those things in isolation. And as if I didn't already know I'm sleeping soundly, my mate is reporting that I'm snoring like a lumber mill (blush). I'm not sorry, though. Your recent cooking and menu plan sound really good. I like your plan to set yourself up so you don't have to leave the hill. Will you pamper yourself? Will there be time to lounge and read, it sounds like? Sounds good! I have a 2 lb bag of shrimp in the freezer and I think I will make lemon garlic shrimp with it, as it may be easier than making shrimp cakes as I usually do. I'm still winging it with elements of paleo fare, and off-roading, but I'm reigning myself in gradually with the help of 5 days in a row of morning hikes. This is a good feeling, and I'm gathering back in some self regard. I've been in a place of throwing out the rules and letting myself off the hook for so much cooking...though I am craving the benefit of that effort and investment of time. Not sure where I'm going with this, but it feels good to relax the rules, and self-expectations. Speaking of food, Spooky has been gradually eating and drinking less in recent days, and is no longer interested in the fresh cream. She is also surprising us with extra LOUD purring and meowing in morning greeting. So robust. I'm making an effort to spend quality time on the floor with her, even if I don't think I have time. Though she's not a lap cat, her affection is there, and I know she has needs for closeness as she so often purrs when we are nearby. I guess the road goes up and down as it gradually goes down...and every down slope one wonders if this is it, and so far she has proven "no" this isn't it yet.
  11. How was Snarky Puppy? I looked at and listened to a little House of Waters, on good 'ole YouTube, and I can see the complementary nature of the groups. The hammered dulcimer!!! I am a big fan of Lisa Gerrard and her Chinese hammered dulcimer, so magical. I'll have to look into that recipe that Kirbz recommended. This forum is amazing for sharing such things! Sounds yummy. I'm in a bit of a rut, but I know I will pass through this phase. I went hiking again this morning, and stretched afterwards. But now I need to focus on an earlier start, and catch the sunrise! Your succotash sounds great, and all that good "money in the bank" freezer fare. Good job!! I wish you a peaceful and enjoyable house-to-yourself. Since you have been so productive and so busy after harvest season - though you may be still harvesting peppers? - and also so busy at work lately, I imagine you may be due for some serious down time in between the extended conscious movement sessions. I am reading a book that is more science-ey than what I usually read, and I am getting an idea of the rigour that science as a profession can be. Do you write and publish papers for your work? As for cuisine, are you pursuing scallops while hubbie is gone? I love scallops... I didn't know any of that great stuff about armpits! Ha! Stands to reason that your left armpit reflects the injury on the left side, certainly...a new thing to focus on! I am slowly but surely getting myself settled at home in terms of where to do my floor work, and movement. I found my free weights, and I think I'll take it all downstairs so that the yoga porch can be the movement space. The incline bench should get moved from the garage to that spot, too, or actually to the nearby closet so I can take it out easily when I need it. One day I might re-claim the living room but for now I gladly surrender it to Spooky. Thanks for your enthusiasm about our going to MJF. The count down is on. I experienced some amusing serendipity on the trail this morning. I usually don't bring my phone to the trail, but since I'm carrying a backpack, I figured I might as well, and I snapped a few pictures, including a self portrait of my shadow as it resembled the old Robert Crumb "Keep on Truckin"". So for a few minutes that was my mantra, keep on truckin'...and soon I noticed that I was approached by an old man and his walking stick, and his little black dog, who I had spied in the distance a few days ago. He was wearing the "actual" iconic image of Keep on Truckin' on a tee-shirt. AND he turned out to be the owner of the house we just moved out of. Ha. We struck a lovely rapport, and I imagine I'll be bumping into him again. Now HE has easy access to this trail, that rascal. Meanwhile, I get used to the 7 minute commute, which is no big deal after all. = )
  12. Last week was a busy one for me too, especially in regard to all the socializing I did, starting with the jazz documentary. That was super fun, in their outdoor theater. The moon rose, a couple of dogs were hanging out with us, the hosts served ice cream and fancy French cookies - the stars got brighter through the trees, and the film was a really good one - score. Later in the week I played cards with friends at a restaurant before our dinner was was a game I had never played before, and the "real" night of cards was Friday night with a bunch of women I know, so the first night was in preparation for the second night...I was called in as a substitute for this group who play regularly....not sure I would want to do that ALL the time, but I do like the idea of a group of women meeting regularly. It's been on my mind for a long time to create or become a part of such a group. My game is backgammon...and Taboo. While I can't always socialize three times per week, I must say, it did my soul good. And because it cut into clean-up-the house- and-after-the cat time a little bit, I think it enlightened my hubby about how much I do, and he pitched in more than that was good. Cats are so mysterious! I'm charmed by Squeaky's contradictory ways. My late Guinevere was a slobber on your face when you're sleeping sort of cat. It only takes me a split second to conjure up the vibration of her purring. Sigh! It's been so long since I've had a cat or dog in the bed, I wonder how I would like that again. Sometimes I feel very selfish and want to not have any pets moving forward, and sometimes I want to get a cat or 2 AND a dog and just give in to the process for all that critter love. I guess I don't have to decide right now. The interruption of sleep is a big deal, though...I'm sending Squeaky a telepathic message about how cozy the foot of the bed is. I'm at a loss to understand what's going on with eggs. Egg salad was ok. Fried eggs were ok. But on Sunday, eggs and bacon were not ok. And so far, coffee IS ok. I'm thinking there must be combinations that are the problem, though doing a program that studies combinations feels daunting to me right now. The good news is that with the cooler weather, I'm back to morning hikes this week. It's a great opportunity to practice self compassion, as I can really feel the loss of fitness. However, I know that I can recover it, and I'm celebrating being back out there. In just two days, I've learned to take a backpack weighted down with things I might or might not need, but the extra weight is comforting on my back, and gives me a little extra challenge for my efforts. It's buggy, so I'm wearing my bug net - can't bug me now. Do you have more music coming up? We have Jazz Fest in 10 days...we're thinking Spooky Cat is in good enough shape to have our kind neighbor drop in and clean the box etc while we're gone. I hope we don't regret that, but we're taking a gamble, and don't want to miss our annual pilgrimage. She does well with a hefty dose of CBD in fresh cream morning and night. I refreshed the mama-cat plug ins, and who knows, but that may all explain the fact of less blood. More will be revealed, right? I'm all over the place with food right now - yesterday and today I've been back to my old runner's breakfast of half an almond butter sandwich with honey or half a banana and coffee. So far so good with my joints, but I need to get some paleo cooking going soon. Sweet day, sweet Holly xo
  13. Oh, I wish I had a big cat, or a small person to sit on my low back in child's pose. That feels so good! Squeaky is a very good helper, I see! That's hilarious about correcting veg to vegetables. Having read your post this morning, today over lunch at the Mexican place (I had chicken fajitas and skipped the rice and tortillas, and no chips) I said veggies on purpose, which I haven't done in years, and the look on hubs' face made me cackle, and it was hard to stop. He threw a chip in my plate in protest. That's the biggest fight we've had in an age, all in jest. Ha ha! Feel free to veg it up here all you like, we both know it's forbidden, therefore, desirable. Cooking does not sound like doing nothing, although experimenting is fun, even if the eggplant wasn't what you hoped for. Lotioning, and purple nail polish, and dessert all does sound divine, though! Isn't it nice to have the house to yourself once in a while? Hubs is outside with his telescope tonight, so I kinda have the house to myself for a while. I had a big project to finish at work so I worked late on that, and didn't have time to clean, so I'll go back tomorrow morning to knock that out in daylight. Tomorrow evening we'll join friends at their house for a jazz documentary in their outdoor theater. Socializing, a novel concept, and on a school night, too, wooo hoo! I was going to ask you about your coleslaw, I knew it would be something special I had never tried, so I will try that. Do you use red onion, or yellow, or? I have just been using mayo, ACV, garlic and onion powder, and loads of s&p, and pickles...but the real onion, and something sweet, maybe like a sweet onion, sounds really good! As for the egg salad, I will have to try more finely chopping, or even mincing the celery b/c I do love celery, but the last batch was a tad too crunchy. When I have celery in the house I like to stuff it with almond butter, and I realize that I've cut wayyy back on nut butters in the last year, which is good - a food w/o brakes for me. About jalapeno paste, is it roasted and then pureed? Wow. That sounds amazing. You always teach me things I've never heard of. Your biodynamic conference sounds wonderful, right up your alley. And you will be fed, instead of cooking for others! That sounds good. Oh my gosh, $5 tea serving is steep, that had better be worth the money! Is it? Uh oh, making your own sounds like a project...of course there are big projects, and smaller projects...and worth it projects. Will your friend cut you a deal or even gift you some hemp for your tea? Can we go back to hunter gatherer days, with plenty of time for dreaming and playing? Sigh. I've been thinking lately about the phase in late teens when one is yearning for leaving home and passing over the threshold of becoming an adult. I absolutely feel a similar inclination now, yearning for free time to spend as I wish - time to be at home and in the garden, to do as I please - the threshold of becoming a retired person. I mean, I will always work and be purposeful, unlike my husband who wishes to never have to speak to anyone unless he wants to (poor guy!) but the pace of this life is insane. I think that half-time work sounds great. It seems I'm sleeping better by just adding a little more activity, eating a more W30-ish diet, and getting to bed early. I'm dream journaling again, too, which is very satisfying - self therapy! If I'm rested, I don't mind getting up early with the dream journal, and even enjoy it. Of course, that cuts in to exercise time...I haven't yet been able to do both, or do it all...the pressure I put on myself! The clock! The commitments! Argh! There's a ton of egg salad and chili in the fridge, but I will next make wonton meatballs, and then another batch of the garam masala/apple sliders, maybe with mushrooms and minced onions and kale to pack some more veggies in there
  14. The Mark Knopfler show sounds amazing! Gasp. So happy for you, wish I had been there, too! Well, Monterey Jazz Fest is right around the corner in three weeks or so, so September will be a good music month for all. More Christian McBride, and Snarky Puppy, too! (okay, I've got some Mark K going now in another tab. Always reminds me of a dear friend who died a few years ago. We listened to Mark a lot, on cassette in the car. His laugh sounded like Mark's fingers sliding over guitar strings.) Today surprised us, and the parched ground, with rain! Ah the smell of rain. While my car got serviced in the early morning I enjoyed some loaf around time at the coffee shop, and really savored that, not having to do anything or be anywhere. I looked forward to sitting outside under a patio umbrella with a book and journal, even though it was kind of damp and blowy. But the lavender/lemon verbena infusion I have all over my skin drew bees. I tried to just sit there and trust they wouldn't sting but that didn't work. Inside was not a bad way to pass the hour. I challenged myself at the coffee shop, after two weeks, with coffee and half and half. Yum. On the subject of this two-week fast from eggs, coffee, and kombucha, I have been feeling really good. Like you, though I'm not W30'ing, I have been more careful, less off-roading, more aware, and I'm pretty much back to IF'ing, too. Feeling really good. Feeling that wonderfully good omen feeling of less inflamed, and Tiger Blood. Yippee. One thing I have learned is that eating a lot of raw food such as B.A.Salads every day is NOT hard on my stomach, as I thought. It's something else. So today I'll find out if it's coffee. And this weekend I'll find out if it's eggs. I have plans to eat eggs, because... Yesterday I got a proper cook-up going. Egg salad (18 eggs) tweaked for pleasure (less crunchy stuff), bison chili, and a 4 lb batch of chicken apple/cinnamon sliders, which I never thought could be improved upon, but this time, inspired by our conversations, I added 2.5 TBSP of garam masala. Guess what? It's divine if I may say so. I thought about streaming the CNN climate debate while I cooked, but why interrupt the peaceful groove with worldly worries? = ) It was a lot of fun....and that egg salad is something I'm really looking forward to. More will be revealed. I know two weeks is not a lot of time for a dietary elimination, but it has been very smooth sailing, and I can't wait anymore. Your honesty about weight speaks to me. I'm really glad you are getting in with a primary care doc. Do you have other concerns besides the weight? I relate to your honesty about portions of fat, and off-roading. It occurs to me that we could team up on a month of strict fat portions and limited off roading...that might help me. These days I'm eating food that has a hard-to-account-for amount of fat like the coleslaw and now egg salad. The template, I think, is two thumbs including the mount of Venus., at every meal. Right? That is quite a bit of fat. I wonder if the off-roading is the greater transgression? In my case, this may be...I do have a too-frequent candy habit (Saturdays when I'm alone at work). I'm getting better about getting back on program, back on the bike, but any rate, let me know what you discover and what your plan is, because I am with you. (of course) About 3 times now I've sat with hubs and fasted as he ate at the Mexican place and I have refrained from chips. Especially since the two week elimination started. A few weeks ago, I was feeling like a stuffed sausage in my clothes, and was/am unwilling to buy a bigger size, and already they are feeling better, but I can do so much better, I know, and I know we can do this. Talk about slaying a dragon, that's what it feels like - we can conquer it. What is the it? That's the question. W30 ways are the way, I'm sure, we just have to fine tune it and dig deep to find a solution. Thumbs up on a more-cushioned yoga mat. I'm adding a big fluffy towel to the top of my mat because of sweat, but it also adds a lot of cushion. Your hard-working knees deserve some support, too, yes. I'm feeling very guarded about not filling in small spots of free time, and not taking on new projects because I have to take care of myself, and like the way I eat, it's a habit I need to break. It occurs to me that the brain work of W30 experience means we are adaptable and can roll the way we choose. This is huge, and I am so grateful. Re-reading this little paragraph, I'm also thinking about the taoist idea of leaving room (in the belly) for thought.
  15. Sweet about the neighbor girl...are there flowers left to pick? I'll bet your place is legendary, and everyone will be ready with better timing next year. I'm thinking about that expression, "leave them laughing", and you have left them salivating and dreaming of home-grown goodness. This has to be quick so I'm all over the place, but the egg salad with curry patties sounds dreamy....we both liked having egg salad on hand so much that I think I'm going to make another batch. It lasts and lasts, so it's less cooking for me to do for hubs...also coleslaw is in the rotation, too, as I think I have a dressing down that I really like. I used to doctor it up with odd things, and I'm liking it simple, and my spouse agrees. I LOVE my new yoga room. I did a lap up and down the hill this morning, then spent some time in there, and it's perfect. I feel enclosed and no one can see me, but there is fresh, moving air, and I can enjoy the trees and the birds, and the ambient sound of the river and the highway. I realize that living so close to the highway is not ideal, but the soft droning sound is not unpleasant, and anyway I'm going with it in the spirit of be-here-now. = ) I feel like I'm getting my mojo back after months of sub-optimal movement. Oh yes, having a short week helps. I'm sorry you're not sleeping - that is the pits -- the CBD is not working? Hm... This morning it occured to me that the W30 has given me new life skills and good new habits that are passing the test of time not, withstanding the fact of my jeans size remaining as it is. The fellows that you know who are doing their first round, it sounds like they have each other for support. But you never know, at some point they might have questions or concerns and mosey on over to this forum for the wealth that it is. But since you mention it, it does seem like there are more women here than men. That's true at the support group I facilitate, too, of course that is for caregivers, and although plenty of men wear a caregiver hat, it seems like the men-folk are more reluctant to engage in support type set-ups. The men who do come to group are such jewels, and have become good friends. Oh! Enjoy your show tonight!!!
  16. I love it that you rescued Maybelle after Katrina. How perfect that you put her ashes up on the hill on her bday/the anniversary of Katrina, and that Squeaky followed you. I'll bet he says, "of course I did!" Do you have an impersonation voice for your Maybelle and Squeaky like we do for Spooky? Also, so fitting to put her ashes at her favorite spots, who could ask for more? Ah Maybelle.... Spooky will no longer eat the food that has the CBD oil in it - drats. I hate to see her not eat, so for now we are foregoing the CBD...I'll try again another day, and maybe bring home some fresh cream, which we stopped giving her a few weeks ago. Maybe that will be more appetizing. Maybe variety? Who knows?? Was Squeaky already in residence when you brought Maybelle home? DId they take to each other readily? I sympathize with your home partially on stilts! I admire you so much for doing it yourself - I don't think we could have done that, and were happy to find a team to do it for us. I got sweaty hearing how they did the 3rd floor veranda - like your place, it cannot be reached with a ladder. I thought they would do it by coming out from the inside (it's off our bedroom) on one of the days I was there, but they reached it from the side yard with a ladder. They put two planks beneath the bottom, toe-level rung, and the big guy stood on the planks from the inside, while they smaller one put another board across the two on the outside to make a platform, and that's where he stood to paint the outside of the veranda. Good Lord, I'm glad I didn't see that with my own eyes, it would have scared the poop out of me. The guy on the outside was rigged up with ropes for safety "just in case". I love them and would hire them again, but if all goes well we won't need paint again for at least 7-8 years, hopefully more. We had a really nice long weekend - I busted my butt on Wednesday and Thursday cleaning, organizing, and a little cooking, and it paid off with a nice blend of relaxed together-time resting and doing a few home improvement type things but nothing exhausting. It was perfect. And yesterday we took a good, long day hike to a magnificent high mountain valley, to a hidden lake, that did me good on every level. It was only seven miles, which is not really a big deal after all but that I have not trained at ALL all season, and it was also a 2.200 foot elevation gain all together - 500 feet more than we thought! My hubby stuck with me at my snail's pace, which made me very happy, and we arrived at the sleepy little lake in good shape, had a snack while watching the fish jump, and came back down the mountain as the sun was setting, delighting in the alpenglow on the huge mountains. I felt a much-needed boost in my enthusiasm for hiking (how could I forget how much I love it) and in my self regard. I've still got it! It's still hot, but it's TIME to get back to the hill sprints. Part of the mid-week efforts included emptying out and deep-cleaning the screened in porch off the kitchen that still had some boxes in it that needed sorting and storing out in the garage. It was really dirty from the tree that was removed right next to it, and then the power washing - yuck. Now it's empty and clean, and I hung some art in there, and also some tall candle sconces with battery pillar candles, and I'm going to try it out as a yoga room. In the winter and spring it will be nice to sit out there when it's raining. I've discovered that in a pinch I can live for days off of cold stuff like turkey wrapped cucumber spears and cole slaw, olives, salami, raw nuts....that's what I've done for two days because I didn't feel like cooking (plus the 3 lb. package of ground turkey was spoiled). Fortunately I don't suffer from food boredom, unless I don't care for the dish to begin with. Hubs enjoyed the egg salad, salmon burgers, coleslaw, and bagels with lox etc, and mostly the significant time I spent doing chores was more cat clean up. I have learned that if I factor in 60-90 min. every day of sweeping/vacuuming/mopping I am happier than when I rush it and wait until I can't stand it...because that puts me in a bad mood. Better to spend the time every day and enjoy it not ever getting to where I can't stand it. This won't last forever....I guess I'm getting used to it. All that's left now is to organize my desk and a few admin things....I'll eat a salmon burger and steamed veg for breakfast tomorrow and make chicken chili before zooming off for work - a short week! Did you enjoy your days off? What is the garden giving you now?
  17. We are still giving Spooky CBD tincture every day. I mix it into her morning pate, and because these days it might take her all day to finish it, I put in a double dose; it's hard to say if it's working or not, but we figure it can't hurt. I have been refilling the mama-cat-pheromone plug-ins, but I swear, the thing she most obviously favors is the scent of our shoes. We keep our every-day work shoes on the hall rug, and she uses them as a pillow. The rest of our shoes are in the nearby coat closet, and she is always sniffing under there, and looks for opportunities to go in there. I hope the CBD treats work for Squeaky! I should look for those. Our girl stopped eating the vitamin B treats, and doesn't always want her hairball treats, either, which she used to scarf down as the bowl was hitting the floor. Your tea sounds amazing! And the bath salts, too. I bought some peppermint and eucalyptus shampoo/conditioner, and bath salts for the store, and it smells *heavenly* but I haven't tried it yet. It gave me the idea of making a peppermint eucalyptus face wash for the morning to wake me up - I guess I'll find out if that's a good idea or not, and if I don't like it, I'll use it on my feet, or in the bath. Fingers crossed the tincture helps you sleep! The thing that is working for me lately, though trying to only use it when I am desperate, is 4 valerian root caps with 1 CBD capsule - that gives me a very sound, dreamy sleep. I know, dealing with the scorpions was a rite of initiation to this area. In the early days I mentally struck a deal with them that all parties would keep a distance and do no harm. This worked for a couple of years. But the more I saw them in the house (baby scorps freaked me out, knowing they were breeding in the house, and I never found a nest - eeek!!) I became curious and anxious about what a sting would feel like (I heard mixed tales), figuring it was inevitable and I decided I wanted to be stung and get it over with so I wouldn't be afraid. That sting came on cue the next morning, ha! But it was no big deal, like a splinter with a charge behind it. Since them I was stung about 5 times, and only once it hurt, I think because the little guy had been trapped in a folder for over a week (I was tutoring then, and the kid unzipped her trapper folder, and it ran across the table into my lap. Yeah. Ouch, and it left a mark. I took it outside!) So these days, I just don't go barefoot in the house, and I don't worry about it! Oh! The house looks so nice with new paint - we are very pleased with the work, and the super nice guys who did it. What color is your place? Does it get much sun exposure? Our house is on stilts on the front side, and the sloping angle makes it really hard to get up to the third floor, but they were champs. It's really cheered me up. I'm having a very productive day cleaning and will put the container garden at the entrance back together, and get a bunch of things boxed up for the garage that had been in our screened in porch that had to be removed for the power washing - it needed to be done, and so now I'm in high gear....I will get that screened in porch the way I want it, and my desk, and lots of chores done to enjoy the long weekend together with minimum drudgery. I'm going to make egg salad for hubs, and I got some dill pickles for that instead of the sweet relish I used to use -- and I also got the fixings to make him Sunday bagels and lox with the works. I'll also make wonton meatballs, and next up a pot of chili, so there's lots of meat thawing right now. I'm going to be on the lookout for fermented pickles - that sounds awesome, especially since I've never gotten into the habit of doing my own fermenting - thanks for the tip! That's it - bravo! Even the most organized and efficient, hard working person has their limits. At a certain point we have to sleep. I was wondering, can you get that cobweb that's bugging you from the roof? Sweet day!
  18. I should sign up to get Nom Nom's emails...those curried turkey patties sound good! I think curry was the last treatment I gave to ground turkey, but I don't remember which recipe I used. At any rate it sounds delicious. Egg salad also sounds good, and also makes me think of curry! Yum. For now I will live vicariously through your egg adventures - tell all. Aaah, cold plates.... You make me realize I want pickles in my life, which I never keep on hand - I know yours are homemade - i should add them to my list and read the labels...tomorrow is shopping day, and I'll have to factor in all the good home-time for the holiday weekend. I'm taking Thursday off, too... I think we're about to make a swap of activity levels! I'm so glad you are intending to chill and not work yourself to death! And a comfy weather forecast to look forward to! On my end of the continent, it's time to get busy! There's that measuring wheel, for one thing, though it is going to be hard to recruit help in the triple digits. To be honest, nothing on my to-do list comes close to the hard labor you have put in, but I want to fill my car with all the recycling I've been collecting in the garage and get that out of my hair - I've found a place to take styrofoam so I have been collecting my friend's and staff's styrofoam, which is very gratifying to me but it is piling up! I also have to prep all the cardboard I've been collecting and peel off all the tape and labels, and eventually organize my home office which I am still not totally comfortable with, and some administrative tasks for a community project that I have been procrastinating since we moved. All the backburner stuff. Kitty is changing: there is less blood, and she is drinking more water (so, greater output, but still frequent). I believe she is still in discomfort or pain from watching the way she walks and settles down from standing to lying, which I think is from the inflamed bladder...Hubs is a bit rosy in his view that she is better because of the reduction of visible blood. He hasn't known a great deal of loss, but he is smart and compassionate, and I believe he will not delay when it's really time...she is our beloved, but really his cat, or his "sidekick of 18 years" as he calls her, having adopted her at age two, so I am being careful to suspend control. When my mother's and stepfather's last family dog was dying, and she was very sick, herself, with dementia, they went to battle about whether or not to put the dog down. He refused, and it was a very sad and painful time. This is up for me right now, but no looking back, or future tripping! We really like the color scheme of the house as it is, white with lots of wooden shingled areas at dormer and verandas, pretty wooden doors, and just a touch of red at the shuttered upstairs bathroom windows. In theory I agree with your husband completely, but when we look at the house, there is only one area that needs paint, and that is the one original exterior wall from the "old" part of the house, on the side, where the patio will be. The rest is a very new white wooden siding that still looks great. If the color match is right with the trim, we think it will be seamless. They're at it now, can't wait to see it complete. Meanwhile, the power washing upset the hiding scorpions apparently, because I have a little invasion on my hands...just a few, but still, more than normal in the house. I used to wrangle them, but now it's up the vacuum they go. Go with God, little stingers. They're not dangerous, just like a bee sting, but still they are not welcome inside.
  19. Hubs doesn't want to go to back country on his lonesome, so he's staying home next weekend, too, and we'll take some day hikes. = ) Stay-cay!
  20. Wow! That was fun to read. And French pastries! Oh my, those tarts do sound worth it! Yum. And you recovered so quickly, YAY! So productive - good job all around. On Saturday evening my husband packed up his telescope in the backpack and trudged up to the public lands (where I used to hike all the time!) to set up camp for the night and enjoy a better sky view than what we have at our place. I was planning to work late cleaning the store, and pass on joining him, and enjoy a quiet evening at home. But I finished up about an hour before dark, so I zoomed home to fill my bottle of water and change clothes, and I hoofed it up to surprise him and hang out for awhile. That was really, really fun. I wasn't as out of shape up that steep climb as I thought. Also, I had never been up there in the late day. There were tons of owls hooting and crickets etc The rosy color on the mountains was so pretty, and we felt it cooling off - just a delight. I know those trails better than he does, and I was doubtful about a good, flat spot, but he found a great spot that was totally off my radar! I will go back with him some other time and camp out, too. I got to my car just in time before dark, which was a really fun, short hike, all the colors and shadows I had never seen on the otherwise familiar, beloved trail. I took a bath and made myself a cold plate, and got caught up on my show (I'm back to Outlander after all). I had picked up some fincocchiona (I'd never had it before - I really like it), a couple of cold Greek sliders, an apple, and for a treat my favorite Akmak crackers and some soft cheese, olives, and a few pistachios. I was careful not to take any iced tea as I usually do on Saturday, and i was still up very late. Hubs came home at 6am after only sleeping for an hour because of the new stars that came we both slept very late on Sunday, and with the exception of brunch and a few chores did close to nothing but read and nap. The crackers and cheese did give me some stiff fingers the next day, but I'm back on the path and it's all cleared up. I'm sleeping better, too, whew! The painters are out there power-washing the house - the trim and eves need paint desperately, and when we see how it looks after the water dries off, we may opt to have the entire house painted. When that's done, I'll treat us all and the house to a visit from the window-washer, and that will cheer me up a lot - I doubt it's been done in many years. Last week's hash and sliders are winding down, so time to do some planning. I have some wild Alaskan pollock burgers in the freezer that we'll try out for the first time. Maybe a pot of chili, and orange dijon chicken thighs...and for hubs some bucatini and meatballs. I've been food journaling since after my last post on Thursday...It's way too early for conclusions, but so far so good with the tummy. Oh, yes, I'm definitely sitting out the long weekend of backpacking...a friend's husband is loaning me a measuring wheel so that I can map out our property and garden areas! I'm thinking about asking our young friend who is a high schooler if she will be my assistant in that task - seems it may be easier with another point of view and helping hands. I should get on that now! How will you spend your long weekend?
  21. Ah, I recall now that there was a question mark about Hoedown for this year - hopefully your friends can gain the momentum they need to resume. It seems like your energy output and huge efforts harvesting the garden, canning, etc, etc, give you a pass on related enormous activity such as the catering. Just reading about it makes me want to take a day off on your behalf! Yay for lots of live music! Funny, Snarky Puppy will be at Monterey Jazz Festival again this year, so we must be catching them on the same tour. I love Mark Knopfler. Dire Straits' first album is one of my all time favorites. Mandolin Orange is new to me, but I'm so far appreciating their cross-genre approach, and listening on YouTube. I'll keep listening, really nice, thanks. It's been a long time since I kept a food journal, but I figure I may as well give it every shot I can to understand what's happening. So far so good with the tummy, but I need to get that journal going. Oh man, I'm with you on wanting more time at home - our modern set up seems contrary to what we actually need and thrive on. I used to like soy sauce on a hard boiled egg, so coconut aminos seemed worth a try - I hope you like it! I will dream. Here's to happy tummies. Have a great weekend!!
  22. I know that the health department has been notified of the situation, but am not sure if they've done an inspection - it does seem like just cause for one, for sure. I'm taking a half day, and sorting laundry, thought of sweet Maybelle. Funny, her affinity for the contents of the laundry basket. It's good to get a little whirlwind catching up to do, as I am really seeing the results of not being so on top of cleaning for just a couple of days. You have been a busy woman! A lot of work...will some of your efforts go towards Hoedown? Are you catering again this year? I've always thought the shirataki noodles sounded good - did you use a new brand? Funky has no place in a flavor profile, eh? Have you ever spiralized cukes? The tahini dressing sounds good, and I am going to have to make some - a nice complement to the Greek theme, I think. I thought of you yesterday when I did my first real cook-up in a long time. I went to add spices to the hash, only to discover -gasp - the Lebanese spice blend was almost out. So I turned to my other two frequent flyers: Merguez seasoning, and shawarma seasoning, both from Mel J. They were also almost out (like my momentum of late!), but between all three of them, I had about enough, so I THREW it all together. That was fun. Do I know how to live it up, or what? It's pretty tasty. I also made Greek sliders (bangers were too much trouble although I had wanted to shape them that way to fit into my lettuce cups) and a big batch of coleslaw. I have plenty of yogurt, greens, and vegetables on hand, so I am feeling rich and secure. I haven't felt that way in a while. In light of the poop nightmare next door, I've been paying extra attention to my gut, and to food safety overall. As I said, I believe that I have not had food poisoning - though I have probably been exposed - yay for an available immune system, as you explained, even though my food freedom has admittedly involved being too often off the path. At any rate, it's time for me to do some new experimental eliminations to help me account for why I get sick to my stomach with diarrhea 2-3 times per week. The suspects are eggs, coffee though it is very infrequent, iced tea (only on Saturday, or during the week for a treat), and kombucha. I think it's the eggs, really, but time will tell. So this will be interesting...I am ready, just as we prepare for W30, by having a kitchen stocked with sensible choices to shore me up for a 4-6 week elimination. I've been terribly undisciplined all summer, so I hope I can do this. I do love eggs. But, I need to know. I understand sensitivity to eggs among other things can accompany menopause. Finally, I realize that I've formed a not great habit of eating scrambled eggs with mayo and a splash of coconut aminos (so good with the Lebanese spices)...that began as pre-workout snack...but I'm using that as a meal, with no workout or proper breakfast...and I suspect that has been hard on my stomach. I might stay home with kitty while my husband goes backpacking next weekend. I can't bear to leave her alone or even with our kind neighbor - she's too needy right now. And he needs the time in the mountains. I'll make good use of the time, and it feels right when I imagine it. He wants me to come with him, but I think we both know this is better. Also, I've not trained for it all summer! It's a pretty steep climb, that would certainly give me a fitness boost, but would be better if I were ready... We can see the Milky Way now from our bedroom veranda now that the one tree is gone...and the other two trees look a lot better. What a difference a good tree expert can make, not like the hack job that the utility company does on the trees along the highway...yikes. Now, I'm dreaming of autumn and winter rain.
  23. I love your sensitivity to black cats -- I think at one time I had heard that black cats are harder to get adopted, but I appreciate the reminder. i'll definitely tuck that away. Oh! That image of Maybelle's imprint on the pillows is a heart wrencher = ( I feel your pain, with that, and your dad's birthday. When grief comes, it can take over and color everything. Do you have a little altar or something to remember Maybelle? I find that helps sometimes, a way to comfort ourselves with small ceremony. You don't have to share more, just thinking through the keyboard. Your hamburger helper is inspiring me to make a big pot of hash which I kind of use as you describe - adding whatever vegetable material I have on hand. To keep the tzatziki flowing I think I'll also make some Greek sliders, too, or something of that kind from Mel J. Our back-up place next door, the Mexican place has been having a lot of trouble including the fact that the septic system and leach field for the entire shopping center (small, but still...our store, the grocery, the Mexican restaurant, some offices, and a pizza place) is on their property, and has pretty much collapsed. Eew. Long disgusting story, but the tanks have to be pumped out every few days while a permit request to re-build is tied up at the county; we're on orders not to let customers use the w.c. which we like to do because it's good for business and also the right thing to do (we're short of public restrooms for a tourist town, but now there are porta potties in the back)...and now there is an E.coli outbreak in town (several of our customers confirmed), and one of the waitresses next door is sick. So, we have not gotten sick, and through all this, we have wanted to support our friends who own the business, but I think I'm going to avoid going there, as it seems to be getting worse. Is it possible that one can be exposed to these bacteria and not get sick? We eat there about twice a week, even through their issues, so I really wonder... Now if I haven't ruined your appetite...I'm wondering, notwithstanding the trouble and time of making your salsa, how is it? I'll bet it's delicious! I think tomatoes and onions and garlic all together will always remind me of you! Oh drat, off to the races. Sweet day to you! xo
  24. Well, the beat goes on. I've been making your tzatziki sauce every week for some time now. I skipped picking up my usual ground dark-meat chicken last week, so I'm jonesing for some more, and when I get it on Wednesday I'll make wonton meatballs. Til then it's leftover roast chicken and gyros. New for me this summer are cherry tomatoes and snap peas -- I'm buying and devouring them each week. I have so many spinning plates in the air that food and cooking is slipping to less urgent priorities and that needs to change! Your slow roasted, raisin-y tomatoes, garlic, and onion sound heavenly. It must make your house smell so savory and home-y. I'll bet your on to pepper-ing now, too, or soon enough. Spooky is really giving me a run for it lately. She's been gradually letting us know that it's too long a walk from her favorite hangout spot by the front door to the cat boxes in the mudroom. She's been using the hearth more regularly, and unfortunately the carpet, too, near the hearth. Duh, I should have done this way sooner, but after work on Saturday I went down the hill to get a big tarp, a third litter box, and a shop-vac which was on my list, anyway. So our living room, which has been my back-up yoga space is now a big blue tarped area for an additional kitty litter box. A nice look for late summer. She's using it, and also moseying back to the mudroom at her leisure, so it's just clean clean clean all the time. We have to shut the door to our bedroom upstairs because she likes to go up there to pee in the shower. So we keep the shower door shut, also. Today I forgot to shut the door, but hubs did shut the shower door, and she surprised me - I can see that she went upstairs, jumped on the upholstered chair beside the claw foot tub, and jumped in the tub to pee, and somehow was able to jump back out, which she doesn't seem fit enough to do. Ah the mysterious ways of a cat. I'm touched by your story of Squeaky - sweet that you are letting him have his solitude and reign of the house. I tortured myself at the pet store by looking at adoptable kittens. When she's gone, I think I want to take a nice, long break... Not sure if I mentioned that we are having tree work done - one entire tree has to be removed - a mature old cedar that grows right up beside the house and the biggest branches are directly over the house. That went today, and there will be some more trimming's unsettling to be here for all of that noisy work and the tromping on the roof - I was glad to leave the house and come back to more or less finished work. We will have plenty of firewood for the fireplace, and the firepit that I'm planning on the brick patio. Any tips on cleaning cat urine from carpet? So far I'm using 1:1 vinegar solution, but I think I could do better. It's wool, so I can't use Nature's MIracle - the spot test removed some color, and it's a dark color.
  25. Cashew cream for the win! I got a vision of you surfing in waves of tomatoes, and looking out at the horizon at the rollers coming in, in the form of peppers. Keep paddling and swimming - you can do it! i'm kind of treading water over here, but staying afloat on leftovers of grilled chicken and the funny bison gyros. I got a great 3.5 hours in the garden yesterday, and felt tired as a result, but still didn't sleep so well. But I'll keep at it! It took one hour working with well prepared cardboard, to get one of the garden beds covered in cardboard...I'll do three more before the landscape guy comes with a truck load of fir mulch. It's cheaper by the truck load but we don't have a truck, so it's a good savings in time and convenience. It cooled down to the 80s, which has us all very cheery and hopeful. It's been a good summer - AND knock on wood (sorry if I've already mentioned this) there has been no high pressure system to lock in the dust and air pollution, so the air has been good all summer, too, which is almost unheard of. Yay! I like your plan for tonight - that sounds like the smartest, safest thing to do, absolutely: keeping your needs met so you aren't tempted by un-nourishing food. Good job! I'm in a rush now, all discombobulated from lack of sleep. And my face is breaking out, not sure what is up with that. Hubs is marveling at my energy levels even when not properly rested. He is tired a lot. But he is also fit and trim, and I would like to be that, too...meanwhile, no allergy issues, and no rosacea, those are two of my great measures of how I'm doing, and that is something. Are you a fan of Kate Bush? Rest well, and enjoy the fruits of your labors! How is Squeaky? Today Spooky came upstairs again to scold me with that empty-dish look in here eyes, and as we went downstairs, she had her tail up in the air. I haven't seen that in a long time. She is a wonder to me. Have a good time tonight!