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About rollthewindowdown

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  • Birthday 10/03/1985

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    Long Beach, California
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    Music, biking, cooking
  1. rollthewindowdown

    Official 1/1/13 Start Group

    It's the beginning of day 11, and I'm going strong. I have a few kettlebells (a 55lb and a 20lb) and I have started working out a little bit (easing back into it). I'm starting to feel good! Last night I was at a friend's house, and there were some tasty looking chips and salsa, but I thought ahead and grabbed some kombucha on the way. Rather than feeling sad about not being able to have chips, I felt very content with my kombucha. The most amazing thing for me so far in this Whole 30 has been finding out that my willpower is stronger than I thought it was. I'm already super thankful for this program because it has provided the structure I needed (and need) to keep enough distance between me and food (that I'm drawn to like a moth to a flame) for a long enough period of time to bring the emotional and physiological ties to the food to the surface. (The phrasing of that last sentence isn't going to win any awards). Anyway, I'm going eat some hard boiled eggs. Happy day 11 y'all.
  2. rollthewindowdown

    Official 1/1/13 Start Group

    Day 7 thoughts/observations/motivational nuggets: -My sleep seems to be improving. I am feeling better when my alarm goes off at 5:12 every weekday. This is a good thing! -I made a bolognese sauce over spaghetti squash a few days ago that was freakishly tasty... seriously! I want to eat that every day. I have the leftovers for lunch today, and I'm really excited about it. Here's the recipe: (I used ghee as my cooking fat, and omitted the bacon, celery, and heavy cream... the bacon and celery by preference and the cream by necessity). So good. -My clothes are fitting better day by day, and I feel better about my body image which is something I struggle with every day. -I'm still getting headaches almost every day. I am eating nice big portions, and I feel satisfied, but my body is still figuring out how to access energy from my fat, so I'm being patient with it. -I am really hoping to see some evening out when it comes to my moods. I have struggled with depression for years now, and the smallest little thing can change a good day to a 'down in the dumps' day. So far, that hasn't really changed much except for the fact that most days, I wake up feeling good, and I usually feel good until I encounter some form of criticism, stress, or someone cuts me off on the road, etc. If this program can flatten out some of these roller coaster maneuvers that my disposition rides on a day to day basis, I will be forever grateful. I am self employed. I write music for a living, and these mood changes have a profound affect on my creative output. So I am hoping and praying that after years of frustration and seeking solutions that food choices would be what stabilizes my mind. -I once heard a friend of mine from Germany give a talk about new life. He said something very profound that I hadn't really thought about before. Basically (and I'm paraphrasing here) he reminded me that before something miraculously comes back to life, there has to be a death. This past week has been one of mourning the loss of how I have operated for the past 4 or 5 years; the patterns I would retrace time and time again, the use of food as reward or punishment, the worry of consuming something that would make me feel guilty (and the guilt that surely comes after eating or drinking anything that I know I shouldn't have consumed). It is a textbook case of Stockholm Syndrome, played out inside my brain! No wonder I have headaches. In the interest of seeking some form of peace and consonance in the way my physical body operates, I am trudging my way though the knee deep mud of culinary cognitive dissonance. The one thing I keep thinking is this: it has already proven to be worth it, and it will only get better from here on out.
  3. rollthewindowdown

    Official 1/1/13 Start Group

    Yes, I am eating plenty of fat (I believe) and things have definitely started to even out! So that's progress I suppose. Thanks for the recommendation!
  4. rollthewindowdown

    Official 1/1/13 Start Group

    So here we go, day 5! Yesterday was a tough one. I didn't bring enough food to work, so by the end of the day I was ready to eat paper, and I had a pretty bad headache. My finance and I had some friends over for dinner, and I decided to cook the way I would if we weren't entertaining (i.e. paleo). So we had grilled santa maria tri tip, grilled carrots, grilled asparagus with crumbled grilled prosciutto (I love to grill) and a lemon olive oil sauce, and riced broccoli (cooked in ghee). It was delicious, but the meal was still tough for me because the other three were drinking good wine, and after dinner... my dad's homemade (amazing) fudge came out... as did some sea salt butterscotch bites from Trader Joes that our guests brought. I sat there and watched them eat and drink things that I really wanted, but I did not partake! Like. A. Boss. The most interesting (and painful) part of this was that while I was sitting there like a dog told to 'STAY' with a table full of treats in front of my nose, my head was THROBBING... like blood vessels popping out of my temples and a bad, bad headache unlike any I have experienced in a while. I think that I am emotionally and mentally tied to things like sugar and wine in deeper ways than I first thought going in to this whole 30. For that reason, it makes it much more imperative to stay the course and break free from these well-worn neural pathways that would have me knee deep in chocolaty, sugary, winey mud without even a second thought. I think we all want to believe in a grand, ceremonious moment where, with much pomp and circumstance, and in front of a cheering crowd we once and for all time 'break free' from the things that hold us in captivity. My friend Darin once told me that the process of breaking free isn't actually like that for most people. It is a gradual loosening of the shackles, a feeling of the chains slackening, and with each inch of slack chain we gain a little more freedom of movement which lets us wiggle more and create more slack until eventually, we can slip out of the things that hold us down and run free. Last night I was reminded that my chains are loosening, but they are still very much attached to me. Here's to 25 more days of loosening the chains!
  5. rollthewindowdown

    Official 1/1/13 Start Group

    Thanks for the responses and suggestions! My digestive aid tea helped, and I might try that magnesium trick if it becomes a problem again. So day 4 is off to a good start. It is interesting that in todays Whole 30 daily email one of the topics is food dreams. Last night, I didn't have a dream about food, but I did have a fitful night of sleep including a straight up nightmare! Ack! I definitely feel something changing in my body. Something that my fiance and I started doing a few months ago has really helped me succeed thus far on my quest to finish all 30 days... that is planning our meals at the beginning of every week. We don't live together, but it still works for us! Every sunday we make a spreadsheet of the week's meals and then we shop accordingly. So every morning, we have 2 hard boiled eggs, and then lunch is usually leftovers from the previous night's dinner (most of the time is is some sort of protein and veggies). Obviously, this might seem rather mundane, but I love to cook, and the food we make is usually delicious, so eating last night's extra food is actually something I look forward to pretty much every day. On weekends, we change up the breakfasts, usually making some sort of scrambled egg based dish. Sometimes I empathize with ccraven62's endless chopping, shopping, cooking, cleaning mentality, but on most days, the only real cooking happens once per day (before dinner), and then lunches get packed as cleanup happens, and the eggs have been boiled at the beginning of the week. This system works for us, and it has made the transition into the whole 30 pretty easy because the system was already in place... it just included lots of legumes and dairy before.
  6. rollthewindowdown

    Official 1/1/13 Start Group

    Hey everyone! I'm Travis and I'm checking in from Long Beach, California. Started on 1/1/13 like all of you, and so far so good! I was wondering if anyone else is experiencing any digestive issues, specifically getting a bit "backed up?" I don't mean to get into gross territory, but being that we are all on the same timeline, I was curious if anyone else has been experiencing this? If I had to guess, it would be that my body is getting rid of all the nasty stuff in the intestinal tract. I might have some digestive aid tea tonight to help kickstart the process. Looking forward to following and contributing to this thread over the next 27 days!