Contessa

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  1. 12 hours ago, Blueautumn said:

    I also had a very intense dream about someone stealing my frito pie out of the break room fridge and me trying to track down the culprit. I havent had a good frito pie in ages. I did find the culprit but she had already eaten it all - NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo, couldnt even get it in my dreams.

    This also made me chortle. Some dream thief in the sky is having frito pie burps right now.... it's NOT FAIR!  ;)

  2. Food journal for 6/11/20:

    Breakfast: Spaghetti squash + shredded chicken + brussels sprouts + sauce + 1 egg

    Lunch: Mashed potatoes + ground turkey + sauteed spinach + sauce; one baby food pouch of apple, sweet potato, coconut milk, blueberry, etc.

    Dinner: Sauteed shrimp + cauliflower rice + steamed broccoli + sauce with cashewmilk yogurt

    Today was a very frustrating day at work, and the first time in this W30 that I have felt like face-planting riiiiiiight into a bucket of ice cream. I am not sure what I would have done today if it weren't for this reset.

    Doing a W30 is easy for me when everything is jazzy, and when I am able to prepare all my food myself, but it gets a lot harder when my mood is in the basement, or I'm traveling (I haven't yet found a way to stay compliant when I'm on the road for work). Today is a good test. I think I will try journaling away my irritation and see if that helps.

  3. I've been working on my "I am" statements during this Whole 30.
    "I am a healthy eater."
    "I am committed to making great choices that benefit my long-term health."
    "I am a person who loves veggies!"

    Sounds like you are finding clarity in this reset — and behaving like a strong, energetic and intentional person! Congratulations!

  4. 11 hours ago, Blueautumn said:

    and for the record all these dishes are driving my hubby and I nuts lmao one thing about fast food is that dishes are basically null n void lol

    This is one of the challenging parts of a Whole 30! I live by myself, and I am reaching the stage of just kind of.... rinsing stuff and setting it aside. I know I'll be using that bowl/spatula/slotted spoon again shortly. Heroic levels of laziness!

  5. Food journal for 6/10/20:

    Breakfast: Spaghetti squash + roasted brussels sprouts + chopped chicken + every conceivable kind of sauce. I added three kinds of sauces to this.

    Lunch: Spaghetti squash + roasted brussels sprouts + ground turkey + steamed broccoli + all the sauce, small glass of cashewmilk yogurt

    Dinner: Sweet potato + sauteed kale + chopped chicken + sauceapalooza

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    Food Freedom Forever has been a great companion to this Whole 30. It is making me reflect on previous Whole 30s. The first time I did a Whole 30, I found these bizarro "sprouted cookies" at a Whole Foods. They were little date and sesame seed cracker things. They were not very good, but they were somewhat sweet, and when I dunked them in almond butter, they became palatable.

    These cookies became a real substitute dessert for me and I ate them with abandon. I think I did this during every Whole 30 I've completed. Melissa talks a lot about honoring the spirit of the program and not just the letter. Although these sprouted cookies were technically permitted, they were very much counter to the spirit of the program.

    Fun sidebar: the store where I bought those cookies has since closed. I don't even know where to buy them anymore. I think I'm having a better Whole 30 without them.

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    Speaking of cookies, because my boyfriend has been having a hard time lately, I decided to bake him some cookies today. Not the gross date and sesame kind, but real chocolate chip cookies with real butter and real chocolate. My baking adventure did not involve any surreptitious dough-sampling or crumb-nibbling. I baked six cookies for him, bagged them, and then froze the rest of the dough for some future bake-a-thon.

    Food Freedom Forever contains some serious reflections on "treats." It's making me think hard about deliberately crafting a personal Philosophy of Treats. My previous, unspoken Philosophy of Treats was basically... All Treats, All the Time. Going forward, I may add a treat-planning session to my weekly meal planning session. I don't know why this thought has never occurred to me. I like treats, but I don't want to start eating treats every day. Why not plan them out?

    Maybe I have a tough meeting on Wednesday, and I want to start the day with a latte. Boom, there's a treat. Then, maybe Friday night's dinner party is being hosted by a great cook. Lasagna and a glass of wine becomes a treat. Perhaps I go out with the aforementioned boyfriend for bubble tea on Sunday afternoon. That's a solid week.

    What makes a treat not a treat is when I eat them all the time. That's when a treat becomes "Oh, Okay, So We're Just Eating Chips Ahoy for Lunch Now, I Guess? This Is What We're Doing?" I don't want to go back to that place. It's a surefire way to kill the joy of treats.

  6. So much wisdom in this. A few years ago, I heard an older loved one say that he wanted to "die with his boots on." Perhaps it's a morbid phrase, but I loved the image of engagement and presence even later in life. Congratulations on all the positive decisions that have led you to this point!

  7. Food journal for 6/9/20:

    Aaaaaaaand the forbidden food dreams have begun. Last night I dreamed that I carelessly took a bite of a peanut butter cup. As the sweet chocolate began to melt in my mouth, I realized I was eating something I shouldn't. Then I faced a dream dilemma: keep eating it, or spit it out? I regretfully spat it out. Ha. I think some forbidden sourdough bread also showed up in some improbable circumstance in my dreams. Can't wait to see how else my wacky brain is going to tempt me.

    Breakfast: Spaghetti squash + tomato sauce + ground turkey and garlic

    Lunch: Sweet potato + broccoli + chicken sausage + spinach with Garlic Everything sauce

    Dinner: I needed a break tonight from cooking. I was really excited about stopping at Whole Foods to pick up food from the buffet, which has recently re-opened. I can usually do well at the Whole Foods buffet, and they do an admirable job of labeling all ingredients. Alas, the buffet isn't self-serve yet. A gloved, masked, robed employee has to prepare your container of food. I felt like I was timidly requesting a chicken breast from a surgeon. So, yeah. Chicken fingers, fries, compliant ketchup. Not a nutritional powerhouse of a night, but that's okay.

  8. Food journal for 6/8/20:

    Breakfast: 2 scrambled eggs + kale + 1 piece bacon; black coffee. I really can't remember the last time I consumed black coffee. I neither loved nor hated it. Pre-Whole30 coffee for me was not a daily experience, but when I had it, it was a big, sumptuous affair with lots of frothed milk and sugar. Black coffee is a different animal entirely.

    Lunch: Power-eating in the precious, 6-minute window between meetings about my company re-org. Broccoli, spaghetti squash, sweet potato, roasted chicken + Garlic Everything sauce. A splash of cashewmilk yogurt.

    Dinner: Refrigerator clean-out: Butternut squash apple soup with ground turkey and shredded chicken. 1/3 apple + almond butter.

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    I've adopted Melissa Urban's Food Freedom Forever book as a companion to this Whole 30. Although I bought it when it first came out, it stayed on the shelf for a couple of years... until now. (I can't tell you how many times this has happened in my life... I feel irresistibly drawn to purchase a book, but then put it on the shelf when it arrives, only to find myself extremely ready for it two or ten years later.) I'm really enjoying the book. Adopting a growth mindset, using mantras, and using positive language around food are some of the tools Melissa unpacks for the Post-Whole30 eater who wants to develop a long-term success strategy.

    This section on the language of food really spoke to me:

    Food freedom catalyzes you to change your relationship with food. It also requires you to take an honest look at one more aspect of your life-changing transformation: your vocabulary.

    Negative self-talk is one of the fastest ways of destroying self-esteem, sabotaging your goals, and upsetting your mood and emotion....

    Insulting yourself for your choices—any choices— is perhaps the most harmful behavior of all. You aren't a mess, a disaster, or a train wreck. You aren't hopeless, worthless, or pathetic. You are a committed, motivated, healthy person working hard to change your relationship with your food, grappling with strong emotional ties and the pull of long-standing habits. You are so much more than the results of your struggles.   [emphasis mine]

    I really loved this section. When it comes to food, some of us are dealing with powerful old messages. Food touches on so many aspects of our identity. The families we grew up in, the relationships our caregivers had to their own food and their own bodies, our own self-image, our dreams about the future. Perhaps we'd all benefit from giving ourselves a tiny bit of credit for the effort we are putting in just by being here and by bringing more consciousness to our relationships with food.

  9. I've read a bit about white potatoes in Melissa Urban's Food Freedom Forever. One elimination protocol she offers in the book is the "nightshade" category (even more limited than the Whole 30). Tomatoes, potatoes, bell/sweet peppers, and black pepper all fit into the nightshade category. (Sweet potatoes/yams are fine.) These foods are recognized by many as causing digestive sensitivity.

    "If you're really struggling with inflammation and are ready to 'go big' to see potentially huge benefits, [nightshade elimination] is an option worth considering," she says. Given that inflammation is one of my issues that drove me to the W30, I'm curious to turn down the volume on white potatoes in my diet, too, and see what happens.

  10. Oooh... chicken salad. I kinda forgot that chicken salad existed. I have historically loved this stuff.... and it's not hard to make a W30 compliant chicken salad.

    I'm being reminded again of how very frequently I have used food as a transition point in my day...

    • Wrapping up a work meeting with a client > How about a peanut butter cup?
    • Coming in from a stroll outside and turning my attention to the next task > Time for a bit of chocolate milk! (HOLY MOSES, I LOVE CHOCOLATE MILK. The rich, full fat kind.)
    • Midday, feeling kind of grumbly, not sure what to do for lunch > Don't want to stop for a real meal, so I'll aimlessly graze my way through every bag, carton, and box in the house.

    Learning not to reach for the salt and vinegar chips at random intervals through the day will take some time. From my lofty perch here on Day 9 (ha!), it's worth the discomfort. Hope this new day goes smoothly for you.

  11. So many great veggies in your line-up yeserday! Bravo! Perhaps no coincidence that you have been feeling good lately.

    And bravo for unsnacked baking. Baking during the Whole 30 without "sampling the goods" is a next level, Rocky-climbs-the-museum-stairs accomplishment.

  12. Food journal for 6/7/20:

    Breakfast: ground turkey + butternut squash apple soup

    Lunch: Purple smoothie with beets, blueberries, spinach, cashewmilk, etc. I needed something quick and COLD as I was dashing out the door to a protest. Protesting in Georgia in June is the real deal.

    Dinner: collard greens + mashed potatoes + roast chicken + steamed broccoli with Garlic Everything sauce; sweet potato tater tots

  13. Food journal for 6/6/20:

    Breakfast: Spaghetti squash + spaghetti sauce + ground turkey + fried egg on top! Look out people! Also ~2 oz of an apple/carrot/beet/ginger baby food pouch

    Lunch: Mashed potatoes + kale sauteed in olive oil + roast chicken + Garlic Everything sauce, with ~4 oz kombucha

    Dinner: roast chicken + sweet potato tater tots + roasted brussel sprouts with Garlic Everything sauce

    I felt like a bus hit me this morning. Since I'm on day 7, this seems to be a predictable part of the cycle. Glad it was Saturday so I could just lay low.

  14. Very interested to hear your opinion of Atomic Habits after you dig into it. I've heard a couple of interviews with the author and it sounds solid.

    Honestly, there are so many elements in your story that make me think that I may be your Long Lost Yet Fully Anonymous Whole 30 Twin. (Okay, that's probably a stretch.) Really, though: glad you are reflecting on your experience here; I resonate with so much of it.

  15. Food journal for 6/5/20:

    Breakfast: 2 eggs + spinach + ground turkey

    Lunch: diced sweet potato and white potato + broccoli + ground turkey with Garlic Everything sauce

    Snack: ~3 oz cashewmilk "yogurt"; 3-4 pieces "Crunchies" fruit snacks. The Crunchies are probably not a good idea even though they are literally just freeze-dried strawberries, blueberries, and bananas with no additives. They taste quite sweet after a few days away from my packaged cookies. I have not eaten many crunchy foods this week, and I miss them. The crunch, man. We homo sapiens really love the crunch.

    Dinner: butternut squash apple soup + ground turkey; ~5 oz kombucha; 3 slices granny smith apple + almond butter

    I have been noticing myself running out of gas very abruptly during the day.... going from "fine" to "extremely hungry" in a very short span of time. I think I need to eat more fat.

    Sugar cravings have been pretty vivid today. Am I catching the scent of a forthcoming Forbidden Dessert Dream on the horizon? I remember previous W30s — halfway through, I'd start to get the most vivid dreams about surreptitiously chowing down on piles of luscious frosted donuts. (Sidebar to my unconscious mind: I really don't like donuts. Not even when I'm awake. Choose better.) Sugar has been a loyal comfort food and refuge for me for so long. It's always the part of a Whole 30 that is the hardest to live without. Sugar also does not "promote a healthy psychological response" in me, at least not in the vast quantities I've consumed at various points in my life. I have spent much of my adult life trying to find "food freedom" and am still on that journey. I actually feel so much safer right now simply knowing I am not interacting with sugar right now. Sigh.

  16. Food journal from 6/4/20:

    Breakfast: diced sweet potato, steamed broccoli, roast chicken with chipotle mayonnaise

    Lunch: spaghetti squash with meatballs and pasta sauce

    Snack: Spindrift with 1/2 apple and almond butter

    Dinner: mashed cauliflower with meatballs and pasta sauce

    Whew, this has been a stressful day. My company is re-structuring and we are getting into All the Complicated Conversations with staff members. Tomorrow will be even worse. I'm thankful for the structure of the W30 right now. The complexities presented by Covid seem endless. What a difficult time in this nation.

  17. Agreeing with what MadyVanilla said... I am really enjoying reading about your experience. It's noteworthy that younger & younger people are coming into the hospital for issues we'd typically relegate to much older generations. As another huge devotee of ALL THE ADDED SUGAR, I really resonate with your perspective. 

    Also, now I want to try that sesame chicken.....!

    So impressed by what you are doing here, carry on!

  18. Food journal from 6/3/20:

    Breakfast: ....the morning got away from me! I ended up skipping breakfast. No bueno.

    Lunch: 1/2 sweet potato with steamed broccoli + ground beef + Garlic Everything Sauce

    Snack: 1/2 apple + almond butter

    Dinner: Mashed cauliflower with roasted chicken and sauteed kale

    Felt good this morning. Woke up before the alarm. Also, it could just be my imagination, but I feel like my knee pain is beginning to dissipate a bit. I really hope so, because I'm ready to have it back! My older brother, who lives on the other side of the country, is also a Whole 30 alumnus. I've convinced him to join me for his own Whole 30, starting Monday 6/8/20. I'm excited to compare notes and share the experience with him. I'll stay with him to make my experience at least 40 days long.

  19. Oops — I posted too quickly yesterday, and I can't figure out how to delete the post.

    Food journal from 6/2/20:

    Breakfast: 1/2 sweet potato with sauteed kale + ground beef with Sir Kensington's Garlic Everything Sauce

    Snack: Forager cashew milk yogurt

    Lunch: Nom Nom Paleo's Asian Chicken Thighs + mashed potatoes with ghee

    Dinner: Mashed cauliflower with meatballs and tomato sauce

    Feeling better. Went to bed very early last night and felt good today. The unrest happening all over the country is a bit overwhelming. I had to take some breaks today to pray and meditate and just hang on to myself. Took a cue from Melissa's email blast and made a donation to a justice-oriented non-profit at the end of the day. We will make it through this.