Contessa

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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Fall 2021   
    Yesterday was tough cravings-wise, but I muddled through.  I ate dinner a little earlier than normal and added a handful of almonds later in the evening, as I was feeling hungry.  Still difficult sometimes to tell hunger from boredom cravings.  
    Day 6
    M1-3 of the breakfast muffins I made on Saturday
    M2-leftover ribs and broccoli
    M3-Portobello mushroom caps stuffed with Italian ground beef (kale, tomato paste, oregano)
    hot tea before bed
    Walking and yoga planned for this afternoon
    I was awake earlier this morning - 5:15 and let the dogs out.  I could have stayed up, taken them for a walk or gone to spin class, but I went back to bed.  I am encouraged, though, to not be so exhausted in the early morning.  A little bit bloated today - maybe all the ham and turkey I ate over the weekend.  While the meats are compliant, I think they do have a lot of salt.  Overall, though, I'm feeling pretty good.  
     Checking in regarding the above NSVs-I'm definitely less puffy and less achy in all joints, including shoulder.  Skin is a little dry, the fatigue/laziness/low energy seems a little improved.  Sleep is okay-Last week's average sleep score ended up at 80.  So far this week I'm at 80.  No headache, no gas or constipation right now.  My resting heart rate is currently 74, but it was 71 at the start of the weekend.  
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Fall 2021   
    @Rebecca001 and @Contessa - thank you.  This is exactly what I mean about the support in this community .  @Contessa - you have said many things to me, to others, and within your own journal that have helped me realign my own thinking.   The above referenced blog post is a must-read.  Contessa, the line you quoted is in itself thought-provoking, but the whole paragraph struck a chord:  
    But the Whole30 is not a diet. It’s not a quick-fix. It’s not even a weight-loss program. The Whole30 is designed to change your life. It’s a monumental transformation in how you think about food, your body, your life, and what you want out of the time you have left on this earth. It’s so much bigger than just food. It’s a paradigm shift the likes of which you may only experience a few times in your whole life.
    Thinking that such a paradigm shift happens in just 30 days, or even after 6 or 8 or 10 sets of 30 days is silly.  I know this.  Positive change happens in many ways - small shifts, giant leaps, and with many missteps and mistakes.  I know this also.  I have been firmly entrenched in the feel bad-junk food-feel worse-more junk food cycle for most of my 51 years.  Sometimes I deliberately choose the junk food because it commiserates with me.  I know I need a more adaptive coping strategy, but it's enough to keep in mind that I'm working on it, every day, even when I slip into old habits.  I won't know if new strategies work if I don't test them, and slipping into old habits allows me to practice.  
    So I did recover from yesterday.  A long, meditative yoga session was incredibly helpful.  I even slept well last night.  THIS is me slipping and practicing/using new coping strategies.  
    Day 1
    M1-Egg soufflé - avocado oil, eggs, black olives, spinach, kale, black coffee
    M2-leftover ground beef hash, if I have time to go home for lunch; Chipotle bowl if I don't
    M3-leftover taco salad- ground beef seasoned with Primal Plate taco seasoning over organic romaine and heirloom cherry tomatoes, sprinkle of nutritional yeast, avocado 
    hot tea after dinner or almond milk, kale, and raspberry smoothie if I'm feeling hungry.  
    Planned outdoor cycling and bootcamp with friend (hopefully!) this evening.  I will also do a longer yoga session.  I have time this evening and the extra 10-15 minutes in practice will help me sleep and set my intention.  
     
     
     
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Fall 2021   
    May I assist in briefly straightening your crown?
    I was heartened a few years ago when Melissa (co-founder of Whole 30) came out with a blog post backing off the whole "it's not hard" tough-love mantra that so many of us had internalized. "Changing the way you think about food is hard," she says, and I agree. "[Whole 30] is a monumental transformation in how you think about food, your body, your life, and what you want out of the time you have left on this earth."
    I somehow find it heartening that there are SO many of us who do not have all these principles perfectly dialed in.
    Perhaps a Whole 30 isn't "getting off heroin"-level hard — but I certainly don't think it's easy.
    Your self-awareness is, as usual, admirable. If your day closes with some new insights and self-compassion, let's call it a win.
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    Contessa got a reaction from Rebecca001 in Fall 2021   
    May I assist in briefly straightening your crown?
    I was heartened a few years ago when Melissa (co-founder of Whole 30) came out with a blog post backing off the whole "it's not hard" tough-love mantra that so many of us had internalized. "Changing the way you think about food is hard," she says, and I agree. "[Whole 30] is a monumental transformation in how you think about food, your body, your life, and what you want out of the time you have left on this earth."
    I somehow find it heartening that there are SO many of us who do not have all these principles perfectly dialed in.
    Perhaps a Whole 30 isn't "getting off heroin"-level hard — but I certainly don't think it's easy.
    Your self-awareness is, as usual, admirable. If your day closes with some new insights and self-compassion, let's call it a win.
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Fall 2021   
    *Sigh.  It just wasn't my day.  Shortly after I wrote the above post, I returned to my desk, where my boss had left homemade chocolate chip cookies and a "Thanks for all you do!" note.  In that moment, there was nothing but the cookies.  I ate them.  
    The thing I like best about W30 is the set of rules that are clear-cut.  Plus the fact that I've done it enough times now to know that when I do the program, I see the results and it gets easier, sometimes effortless, to stick to.  And the extremely supportive community, that over the years has helped me process my missteps and treat myself with more kindness, love, and forgiveness than I used to believe I deserved.  The hardest part to stomach though is the "It's not hard" mentality.  
    It IS hard.  No, it's not fighting cancer, caring-for-a-sick-or-injured loved one, enduring homelessness, how-am-I-going-to-pay-the-bills-when-I-just-lost-my-job hard.  But if current life circumstances are lucky enough not to include something that is truly excruciating, working through cravings, changing diet, changing mindset, planning, prepping, changing lifestyle IS hard.  If it wasn't hard, more people would do it.  More people would be successful from day 1 and not have to restart.  More people would eat this way all the time and there would be less food-related health problems in the world.  Why would people be proud of their accomplishment and want to celebrate a successful W30 if it were easy?  Simplified, it is just a choice, a choice between eating a healthy, clean breakfast and grabbing a bagel at Dunkin Donuts.  But that choice is a series of little choices, impacted by everything that happens in the course of a person's day.  Knowledge, preparation, the right combination of foods are imperative to making healthy choices, but mentality may be the most important part.  If W30 could happen in a vacuum, it would not be hard.  
    I get why Melissa and the W30 crew push the "It's not hard" mantra.  And I understand that the intent is a nutritional reset - not a psychological overhaul.  Though there is the relationship with food component that IS psychological.  Just because I'm having a hard time getting my W30 off the ground this time does not mean I've let myself down or that I should feel guilty or discouraged.  I know it's not the intent of the "it's not hard" to bring about those feelings in me, but it's easy to see why I might, why I have in the past ("If I can't do something as easy as choosing to throw cookies away rather than eat them, there must be something wrong with me....")  Each time I struggle to start, each time I successfully complete a W30 and struggle with reintroduction, each time I return to terrible eating habits I learn something about myself and get a little better.  And so I return to W30 to try again.  I don't understand how some people seem able to do a W30 and then live gloriously in their Food Freedom until they decide to do another reset, as if very slowly descending, a slow spiral, from perfection into mild disarray while I nosedive into chaos.  But I have my own journey to contend with.  Probably therapy would help me.  But W30 is by far the best program I've come across to help me disentangle myself from the emotional aspects of eating. 
    And so I'll start again.  I completely threw in the towel after eating the cookies and went to Buffalo Wild Wings for lunch.  Three hours later, I'm feeling the bloated, puffy feeling that comes to me with sugary and processed foods.  But this will not be a descent back into chaos - I've regained my composure.  Dinner tonight will be the compliant taco salad I had planned.  I'll walk the dogs and do yoga.   I will count this as a NSV that comes from experience and knowledge of what W30 can do for me.  I want this, so I will start again.  Two steps forward, one step back. 
     
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Fall 2021   
    Yesterday was busy, and I was just exhausted at the end of the day.  I always struggle with time changes, but this jet lag seems to be going on forever...I read that women are more impacted than men, and going from a place with lots of hours of daylight to a place with fewer hours of daylight makes it worse.  It certainly doesn't help that many days have been dreary-overcast or rainy.  Well, I will be thankful that I continue to feel less bloated and more emotionally stable despite the fatigue.  And I woke up this morning without the big bags under my eyes I've had the last few weeks! 
    Yesterday's meals were compliant and almost exactly as the day before, given the grocery shopping issue.  I will be able to pick-up groceries today, though, and so now I can actually cook some food.  
    Today's M1-Rx bar, black coffee
    M2-Large salad with grilled chicken, balsamic vinegar/avocado oil/fresh oregano and basil from my garden/salt & pepper
    M3-BLT salad with homemade mayo.  My store carries compliant bacon, and surprisingly, it was in-stock!  
    I did sleep until 7 yesterday, but was awake at 6:30 this morning.  I got out of bed at 6:50.  I am typically a morning person, and jump out of bed as soon as I open my eyes.  So maybe I'm finally starting to get over the jet lag.  I was actually looking at my local gym class schedule last night and contemplating going to 5:45 and 6:00 am classes before work starting next week.  I have been to the gym 4 times since Covid-19 hit.  I just haven't been completely comfortable with the numbers of people, especially with positivity rates increasing locally.  The early morning may be better, though.  There is a spin and a power yoga class that I could alternate...something to consider.  I could continue to walk in the am and do yoga in the afternoons on my own, too.  
    I'm actually not doing too bad with cravings.  I was ready to throw in the towel last night and have a piece of chocolate post-dinner, but stopped myself.  I made myself a cup of hot tea and was completely satisfied.  I know how to do this, I can do this.  
     
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Fall 2021   
    I just looked back at my last log -it's been nearly a year since I've been here (November 3. 2020).  I've continued to struggle with my eating, making healthy choices many days, making not so great choices other days.  Making more healthy than not healthy choices as evidenced by a 12-pound weight loss, sustained over the summer (yay me, but I need to lose 50).  The first part of August, I decided to tackle another W30 beginning Sept 7th.  My husband and I just returned a week ago from an Alaskan cruise where I ate all the food, but also got quite a bit of exercise.  I knew I would need time to adjust to the jet lag, especially since it's a four-hour time difference.  I'm still on some time that is not Eastern Daylight Savings, but I'm getting there.  I ate my share of junk food/fast food/restaurant food last week.  I'm a little ashamed to admit that I've not cooked and barely opened the refrigerator since getting home at 3:00 a.m. last Wednesday morning.  In my defense, I went right to work Wed - Friday, and had commitments after work, and all day Saturday, Sunday, and yesterday morning.  Yesterday was the first day I was able to take a breath, do vacation laundry, and do a little cleaning.  While I'm not physically ready (I haven't cleaned out the fridge, meal-planned, or shopped), I'm mentally ready to begin today.  
    Current physical symptoms that are bothering me:  puffy hands, face, and ankles; painful and tight joints; dry skin; fatigue; laziness/low energy; erratic sleep; high resting heart rate (was as high as 80 a few days ago, currently 74)
    I forgot to weigh myself and take my blood pressure this morning.  Really, I slept too late to remember to do those things.  My typical wake up time is around 5:30 am.  Got up at 7:06 this morning.  I have to be at work at 8:00 am.  
    Today's meal plan:
    M1-Rx bar, black coffee
    M2-Chipotle W30 chicken bowl, water
    M3-Scrambled eggs with sweet potato chunks and broccoli  
    I fully expect today to be fairly easy, but the next two days to be challenging.  I'll continue to be fatigued and will allow myself to sleep until 7 the rest of the week, if needed.  I've done this enough times and have enough struggles with food/self-esteem/weight to know the best approach for me is resolve, gentleness, and a plan for the day.  
    Plan for today:
    Meal plan through Saturday morning Order groceries Short walk at lunch Walk after work Short yoga session Clean out top shelf of refrigerator while dinner is cooking  
     
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    Contessa reacted to kb0426 in Kombucha Makers Unite; Where to ask and be answered   
    Hi!
    Susan had a wonderful idea of having one place where it is all things related to making/brewing Kombucha could be asked and answered. There are several of us that are newbies at this (me) and some real pros out there (Susan, Miss Mary, Nadia...) and thought that one place to keep all things related to making your own kombucha would be helpful for others embarking on this journey.
    I have begun the process of making my own SCOBY (symbiotic colony of bacteria and yeast) and if this is an epic failure, will end up getting SCOBY locally. I have heard Craig's List is a great source for people giving away free SCOBY to a good home! My potential source is one from Miss Mary!
    I am reading up on the process to actually make the kombucha. Just like when I made my own sauerkraut for the first time, I am a little intimidated! This isn't something my mother taught me how to do growing up!
    We will all learn together!