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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Ooh. I'm just sitting here at my kitchen table nodding over your response. That bit about flexible thought processes really preaches. Yes!
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    I love this.  This round of W30 I've been much more introspective and courageous in exploring my emotional issues with food.  I always knew they were there, but I thought I could avoid them.  The fact that I keep returning to the same old habits says I can't.  I am also prone to the black/white, must-do-this-to-succeed ideal...but as you said, we keep getting chances to do it right.  With each chance I can examine and go a little deeper, or I can toss out that chance and start again with the next one.  And instead of each point in time being "right or wrong" I can get it right in the grand scheme of attaining a higher level of health and well-being.  
    This is what attaining food freedom is about, isn't it?  It's not about being flexible with food choices, but about being flexible with thought processes.  I have such a long way to go, but I think this time, I'm in the right frame of mind to do this right  to learn and examine as I go along.  Still a long way to go .  
    I'm so glad you are still here - I appreciate your insightful comments.  Thank you!!!
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    Bravo! As a veteran of throwing things in the trash....  I enthusiastically support this gesture.
    Melissa Urban talks in Food Freedom Forever about her one-bite rule. If she takes a first bite and absolutely loves the treat, great. She lets herself continue with the second bite, and so on. If she doesn't love it, she either gives the food away or gets rid of it.
    Throwing food away is a nice way to signal that you have changed your mind, and that you get to call the shots... not the food.
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    I'm not even sure what happened yesterday.  It wasn't a completely off-plan day, but I seemed to have lost my focus a little bit.  My friend called and asked about lunch instead of coffee, and had a craving for Chinese food.  I agreed, ordered a beef and broccoli without sauce, which came with fried rice and an egg roll.  I ate some of the rice and all of the egg roll, plus the fortune cookie.  I did go for a 5-mile bike ride afterward, with the intent to food prep when I got back home.  My husband was home from work, though, and asked if I wanted to go for dinner at the restaurant where our son is working.  I ordered a crab avocado appetizer that contained corn, tomato salsa and a ranch dressing drizzle (and it was delicious!).  For some reason, I was only concerned with not getting dairy or gluten - this is what I mean by losing my focus.  I also ordered a highly seasoned ahi tuna and ate a few of the homemade potato chips that came on the side.  And ate three honey-siracha wings.  They were so sweet, and so good.  I did avoid ordering an adult beverage, though I was tempted.  
    Interestingly, I had some major sugar cravings last night (the honey on the wings!!!!) and almost caved.  There are Milanos in the pantry and I had the old thoughts about eating just a few and getting back on track tomorrow.  Which we well know is the beginning of the end - the unplanned, devil-calling dive into a sweet is in no way conducive to "getting back on track tomorrow." But I did short-circuit those thoughts, though they kept cropping up.  Clearly, this is related to my lunch and dinner, as I've not had any cravings in a long time.  I'm also a little achy through my knee and hip today, even though I haven't done anything other than my short morning walk.  Plus, I'm  bloated.  I slept horribly.  My self esteem took a bit of a shot, too, though getting back to morning routine helps with this.  Lots of side effects from a few, not too off-plan foods.  That's actually a little frightening, but enlightening.  The planned reintroduction in a few weeks will help me figure out which of those foods does what to me.  
    Things I could have done differently:  Asked for just beef and broccoli, no rice or egg roll, especially since I already asked for no sauce.  Checked the restaurant menu before arriving-I was too confident in my ability to make a decision on the fly.  I'm not ready for that yet.  With the cravings-I was able to power my way through, but I know I won't always do that.  I think if I promise myself a time in the future to indulge in the treat that is calling me, that will help.  So I could tell myself, "I'll make the Milanos my dessert tomorrow night, when I can really enjoy them after dinner." I really want to focus on planning treats as opposed to indulging in the moment (except in the most rare of circumstances).  If I need to eat something in that moment of craving, a handful of almonds would be a choice.  
    In the meantime, I reset - I got up and did a short walk with the dog.  Read a few pages of Food Freedom Forever.  I'm journaling.  I ate kulua pig for breakfast.  I need to do my push-ups/lunges. I need to make a list of things to accomplish today.  
    Day 32/60 (can I even say this?? - I'm learning and working toward Food Freedom.  This wasn't my first, but definitely my worst derailment of this W60.  But I'm moving forward.  The key is that I'm learning)
    Mood-6, Energy-7, Pain-1 No additional pain while walking, but definitely some low-level achiness today.  This is different than the pain I sometimes get during walks.  
    Progress on July goals:  1) 15 minute yoga session when we got home from dinner late last evening.  2) I haven't done my strength training yet, but it's in the plan for today.  
    M1-Kalua pig with a little pesto mayo to moisten it.  
    M2-caesar salad with ground beef
    M3-The Greek chicken tenders and salad originally planned for last night.  
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Contessa's Food Freedom   
    Yeah! Last week didn't match my plan, but I stayed in the saddle. That felt good. And yesterday I cooked up a huge amount of W30 proteins and veggies. Grateful to be staying close to home (metaphorically and physically) as this new week begins.
    I dunno, perhaps after 1,382 episodes of eating way too much junk food, I'm ready for a different approach.
    Yes, please borrow the Sunday questions if you want to! Heck, no need to wait until your W60 is done... you can start using them now. Usually most of my reflections around food have been past-focused (beating myself up, regretting whatever it was I ate too much of) but I want to spend energy imagining what it looks like when things are working well.
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Contessa's Food Freedom   
    I love this - you are being so thoughtful about your approach, and the off-track meals have been learning experiences for you rather than complete derailments.  
    The Sunday questions - I may steal this when I'm ready to reintroduce.  The journaling and thoughtful consideration of how foods and habits impact how I feel about myself and how I feel physically have been instrumental in my success so far.  I worry about the dark abyss post-W60 (for me).  
    Congratulations on finding a strategy that is working toward a successful transition.  
    Even though you had some changes in your strategy over the last week, I get the feeling this is where you still are.  
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    Contessa reacted to RachelR in Contessa's June Realignment   
    I can relate to this so much!  I wish you the best as you continue with your reintroduction and food freedom!
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    Contessa reacted to Kirra in Contessa's June Realignment   
    @Contessa I just copy-pasted your reintroduction plan onto my computer. LoL. Will definitely be pulling that up again for ideas in a few weeks. Thanks! And congrats!!! 
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    Contessa got a reaction from RachelR in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Reintroduction thoughts for 6/28/20:
    Spent a good portion of yesterday thinking through my reintroduction and trying to think through what I will need on a physical and spiritual levels in order to be successful. Here is my game plan for the next two weeks:
    Day 31: Legumes: I'll try some peanut butter, soy sauce, and black beans. Days 32–33: Back to the Whole30 Day 34: Reintroduce non-gluten grains: I'll try some oatmeal, some white rice, and perhaps some corn tortilla chips. I did notice on on my spontaneous sushi date night with my bf last weekend that the soy sauce caused noticeable belly bloat the next day. That was an unintended but useful mini-introduction. Days 35–36: Back to the Whole30 Day 37: Reintroduce dairy: Ahhh, this is probably the one I've missed the most — and I also think it will be the one that affects me the most. I will try some cream in my coffee, and I will melt some cheese into my "bowl of stuff" meal for lunch or dinner. I still have about six different kinds of cheese in my fridge, which I never threw out before the Whole 30. They are probably getting moldy.... hmmm.... I need to do a fridge audit before my next grocery shop. Day 38-39: Back to the Whole30 Day 40: Reintroduce gluten grains all by themselves. I've been feeding my sourdough starter through the last 29 days, so perhaps I will bake up a loaf of sourdough and see how that goes. I think I have some wheat crackers I can bust out of the cupboard as well. Day 41-42: Back to the Whole30 Day 43: Re-evaluate notes from the past couple weeks and post a reflection about what I learned. I will commit to doing that in this space. (And if f I say out loud that I'll do it.... I know I'll do it!) Now a big list of hacks and discoveries from the past year or so that I would like to start or re-start:
    Meal planning and treat planning. In addition to my standard meal-planning, I love the thought of pausing on Sunday to think about the coming week, and to plan a treat or two. This approach will make more sense outside the context of Covid, where the world expands and I am enjoying meals with friends. Still, I like the thought of thinking ahead around treats. I want to avoid returning to the point where I just half-heartedly toss a pack of Oreos into my shopping cart because they're there. That does not feel like a treat. (Actually having a pound of Oreos in my house is a panic-inducing thought.) I want to preserve the specialness of treats. On this note... Use my findings from my re-intro to influence my grocery shopping list. I may discover in the next couple weeks that ice cream doesn't agree with me. I need to pay attention to these discoveries and shop with them in mind. Consider short mini-resets along the way — after a vacation, when my energy dips, when I'm feeling sludgy. Consider micro-resets. I have sometimes made pledges to myself to avoid just sugar for even a single day, and that has been a helpful discipline. Eat "301" —  "301" is my term for three meals a day, zero foods between meals, one day at a time. The structure of eating just three meals a day is hugely helpful for me. There are times in life when I do get extra hungry and need a snack, and that's fine. But I generally have no reason to snack every day between meals. When I start snacking, my meal times start to dissolve, and the day becomes one unboundaried graze-a-thon. Feeling crappy is the inevitable result. I know there are people who can eat this way, but I am not one of them. Experiment with the alluring single square of really fine chocolate. I've heard food people talk about that one daily square of perfect dark chocolate. I've never tried it. This idea is influenced by Special Agent Dale Cooper, who spoke about it in an episode of Twin Peaks. I love you, Dale Cooper. And I love this idea because it involves slowing down and paying attention, which is what this is all about. It's impossible for me to "hoover" dark chocolate. Last and most importantly, pay attention to how I'm doing emotionally and spiritually from day to day. The significance of attending closely to my inner experience can't be overstated. I need to be reflecting on my experience, learning from my experience, becoming a loving detective of my experience. More to come.

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    Contessa got a reaction from RachelR in The Month There Was No Dr. Pepper   
    "The Month There Was No Dr. Pepper" hooked me completely. Great title   I'm looking forward to cheering you along your journey. I hope you will report frequently here on your difficulties and joys — we are here to support you!
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    Contessa reacted to Kirra in The Month There Was No Dr. Pepper   
    Those of you who are following this tale will be relieved to hear that we are still going strong! Today is Day 5. I won't bore you with a 5-day long list of all the meals (not that that information is boring! but for anyone who is interested, you can turn to page 196 in The Whole30 book  because these total newbies are sticking to the seven-day plan that someone else put together for the first week, because anything else was too daunting!). Also, I have the Whole30 Journal and am documenting all meals, snacks and drinks in there. I'll definitely log the highlights in the weeks to come, though!
    Miracle of Miracles: I. Have. Not. Had. A. Headache.  I was bracing myself when we started and fully expecting an immediate future FULL of headaches, days and days of headaches and all the accompanying crankiness and I-can't-be-bothered-to-do-anything-right-nowness that goes along with it. Due to quitting Dr. Pepper cold-turkey, of course. (I have had caffeine headaches before from just skipping 2-3 days of soda pop.)
    I'm sure the 1-2 cups of pre-noon coffee with coconut milk is the reason for my headpain-free bliss. But I also think that my pillow has something to do with it.  Yes, my pillow. I read in some medical article that 80-90% of headaches start in the neck (don't quote me on the percentages; it's been awhile - I do know it was the vast majority)! This is my third pillow I've tried in the past couple months. It is a "cool-touch" pillow (kinda like memory foam, but I don't think it is memory foam...), and it is working wonders! I'm sleeping much better.
    I felt compelled to share this due to the title of my story and just in case anyone else is dealing with headaches.
    Surprisingly, it isn't Dr. Pepper that I'm craving, it's the SWEETS! I went to bed on Day 3 thinking about brownies and cookies and woke up on Day 4 thinking of cinnamon rolls. But I have resisted their siren call, and these Whole30 meals taste amazing!
    @MadyVanilla and @Contessa thank you for the kind words of encouragement! 
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    The bits and pieces I've heard from this book sound so interesting! This sounds like a great companion for this time as you are thinking of your post W30/W60 life. This way of eating is too restrictive for most of us to maintain over many months or many years. But I love what you're saying about small choices that add up. This is a pleasant antidote to my former way of "all or nothing" thinking ("well, I already had some gluten, and it's only 9:45 am, so I might as well spend the rest of the day face-planting into this package of Mint Milanos").
    Excited about your bike, too. Cheers for pleasure that comes from being active!
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    Contessa got a reaction from RachelR in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    This is a brilliant and undersung idea. I remember making an absurdly delicious recipe of Kalua Pig a couple of years ago, leaving my slow cooker to run on my patio one night. Somehow no raccoons got wise to the plan, but the fragrance was a blessing to the entire neighborhood. 
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Oooh.... I love your concept of setting monthly goals and then giving yourself little rewards. Gonna have to borrow this idea!
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Oooh.... I love your concept of setting monthly goals and then giving yourself little rewards. Gonna have to borrow this idea!
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Thank you!  I just love her books, too!  I use so many of her tricks to whip together a quick meal, and for inspiration even if I don't follow a specific recipe.  I need to set a short-term goal and then reward myself with Well Fed Weeknights.  
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Note to self - use the garlic aioli mayonnaise as a base for anything I  "bread".  It was delicious!  I think I'll do this later in the week with fish.  
    I'm feeling MUCH better today.  I slept better, woke up (but didn't get up) earlier, and I had no pain yesterday or so far today.  I'll give this a few days, then add some nightshades back into my diet and see what happens.  I missed my opportunity for a long walk this morning because I didn't get up early enough, but it's a rainy and stormy day so it's fine.  And I'm not quite mentally ready to go to the gym yet, maybe next week.  
    Day 26/30
    Energy-8, Mood-9, Pain-0.  I think I could have done a C25K this morning, I felt so good!  But I wasn't thinking along those lines, so wasn't prepared.  I'm really trying to take this slow, I know what happens when I ignore the pain.  
    M1-chicken salad with celery and lettuce
    M2-Leftover hamburger with sliced cucumber, lettuce, pickles, mustard, a handful of almonds to add some fat.  Or maybe some Caesar dressing, turn this into a salad.  
    M3-Leftover baked chicken and zucchini.  I think I'll fry the zucchini in a little ghee - I was hungry a few hours afterward last night, as there wasn't enough fat in this meal.  Usually, I'm really good about eating fat, it definitely satiates me and keeps cravings at bay.  But when I think I can get away with just a little bit in a meal, I'm wrong.  I ended up snacking on almonds and dates last night.  
    My vegetable choices are pretty boring and often the same things.  I'll add spinach, broccoli, or kale once in a while, but I need to expand for more variety regularly.  I was doing better when I was getting a box of veggies delivered.  This will quickly lead to food boredom for me - I need to be sure to plan whole meals and not just the proteins for next week.  I tend to throw on vegetables as an afterward, but being more mindful is a good idea.  
    I'm toying with the idea of weighing myself on Day 31...I'm not a slave to the scale, and I feel like I've lost quite a bit of weight.  But then what if it's not as much as I expected?  I'm not sure how that would effect me.  If it's not at least 15 pounds, I think I'll be disappointed.  Maybe I should wait.  Still a few days to decide.  On Day 25 in the journal book, it talked about reasons that you may want to extend the W30.  I'm extending due to a noncompliance with rice issue last week, but I do fit in two of the three categories for reasons to extend - I have chronic pain that isn't fully resolved and I consider myself a carb/sugar addict.  In the spirit of the program, I really should wait to weigh-in until I finish my 60 days, and be content with people noticing and clothes fitting better.  I'll ponder this.  
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    Contessa got a reaction from meli22 in Round 2   
    Hey there, excited to hear about your second round! Boy do I relate to "porridge brain." And I relate to the childhood coping strategy, too!
    Your goals sound wonderful. Cheering you on as you explore alternative means of relaxing, living well, and enjoying life!
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Sounds like some lovely NSVs. Also, I wish you joy in browsing those Well Fed cookbooks... I think Melissa Joulwan is my favorite paleo recipe author ever. Her recipes are so creative and satisfying!
    Hoping your morning is pain free.
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    This is a great idea - make the sauce chunkier so there's less tomato.  I'm going to do this.  
    Thanks!  These are the third or fourth different routine I've attempted during the pandemic, but I am doing a little better sticking with them while on W30.  I need the structure and routine of going to the gym, but like you, I'm concerned that it may not be quite safe yet.  There have been lots of Facebook posts about how clean my gym is and how safe people (none of whom I know) feel going, but I suspect these are much like the fake Amazon ratings.  It's nice to think about returning on July 1, but that's tomorrow!!!  I may wait another week...
    I got the house clean yesterday and followed my healthy habits checklist.  It's nice to feel productive.  My longer afternoon walk was cut short by significant pain in my knee and hip-ugh!!  The yoga did wonders afterward, but I still needed to take pain meds in order to sleep.  This is two days in a row (after two days of heavy nightshade consumption) where I've had significant, level 6 or 7 pain.  It's the exact opposite of where I was a week ago.  The only nightshade I had yesterday was a little curry in my chicken salad.  And I learned that peppercorns are not nightshades, which is great because I eat a lot of black pepper.  I am feeling less stiff today - could be the reduction in nightshades yesterday, could be the yoga last night.  We'll see how the day plays out.     
    Day 25/60
    Mood-8, energy-6.  I'm still dragging a little in the mornings.  I miss waking up early and getting outside before it gets hot.  I suspect this is related to the pain and poor sleep of the last weeks, but I did sleep 7 hours last night.  Though I was awake from 3:30-5:00 a.m.  Pain-0 now and during the morning short walk.  I probably still have pain meds in my system.  
    M1-curry chicken salad with celery and garden greens.  I'll still eat this until it's gone, but will continue to monitor my pain levels.  I do suspect that's it's an issue of eating too much.  Once this salad is gone, I'll do a few days of no nightshades and see how I feel in comparison.  Unless I continue to have significant pain today, then I'll just throw it out.  I can deal with low level achiness, but not what I've had the last few days.  And I really don't want to trade eating the curry spice for meds.  
    M2-leftover hamburger with onions and mushrooms fried in ghee from last night's dinner (a change from the original plan).  Along with sliced cucumber.   
    M3-the chicken and zucchini that I was planning to make yesterday.  
    My goals for today are to peruse the WellFed cookbooks that I haven't looked at in a while.  I also need to get my yoga in earlier because my son is playing baseball this evening.  
    An NSV-I tried on a pair of capri pants that I haven't worn in ages.  I could button and zip them, though they are still a little tight, but  once they fit, I will be down at least two sizes!  So I guess I'm down one now .  At least from when I was last working outside the home and wearing actual clothes.  It could be two sizes, given the Covid-19 weight gain I had.  
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    Bravo! As a veteran of throwing things in the trash....  I enthusiastically support this gesture.
    Melissa Urban talks in Food Freedom Forever about her one-bite rule. If she takes a first bite and absolutely loves the treat, great. She lets herself continue with the second bite, and so on. If she doesn't love it, she either gives the food away or gets rid of it.
    Throwing food away is a nice way to signal that you have changed your mind, and that you get to call the shots... not the food.
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    Contessa reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Post Whole 3o Day? Tuesday June 30
    M1: greens, eggs, and ham (broccoli, 2 eggs over easy fried in ghee, prosciutto pan fried til hot)
    Snack: cookie dough
    M2: my favourite green salad with avocado and chicken
    Snack: cookie dough
    M3: spaghetti squash with compliant Kirkland marinara sauce, 1 Greenfields non-compliant cheddar sausage (dairy & sugar)
    According to MyFitnessPal, if it wasn't for that cookie dough I would be down another 5 lbs if I eat like this every day over the next 5 weeks.  I know why I made the cookie dough, it was because I didn't have anything ready to eat in the fridge.  I can whip up cookie dough in 90 seconds flat, but why?  I didn't even like it very much anyore, and I feel blergh right now - no surprise there.  I would have eaten anything else if it was just ready to grab and go. 
    I am out of sorts in many ways.  My sleep hasn't been great.  I feel snitty.  My 17 yo daughter asked me today when did I start swearing?  Yup, I don't normally swear, but these past few days the *!#!*'s have been flying around here, and there is no good reason for it.  What the heck?  More importantly, what to do?
    I have decided that I am going to sign off for now.  I logged consistently almost every day for two months.  I feel I have the basics down to eat Whole30 most of the time.  I don't beat myself up if I go off plan, unless it is something supremely stupid like making cookie dough and then eating a sh!t load of it. That is an old habit, and it's time to bury it deeper this time.  I'm going to stop logging for a bit, and the time I save from logging and journaling will go towards meal planning and trying some new recipes.  Tomorrow is a new day, a new month.  I'm planning to start the day by going to Mass at my church (Canada Day here), something I have been missing terribly since the lockdowns.  Work has been extremely busy and I am feeling swamped, so want to fix that up too.  My house is not as clean and tidy as I like, which also affects my mood.  I will try to eat as close to Whole30 as possible, as often as I can, and try to keep away from sugar, or at least if I have sugar I want to plan it and look forward to it.  I am also unplugging from social media, hopefully for the month but not sure if that's realistic.  A week anyways.  
    I hope to get back to myself soon.  Even before I began W30 at the beginning of May I wasn't like this.  I'm going to concentrate on eating clean, keeping my house and fridge organized, and learning to cook some new recipes - a goal I had from early on in my journey.  I also had a goal to be able to prep W30/clean meals quickly without too much fuss, and today's foray into the baking cupboard for the butter, flour, sugar and chocolate chips just proves that I'm not where I want to be - yet.  
    I'd like to give a HUGE shout out to everyone who posted their struggles and their victories.  It's been helpful knowing that I'm not alone in this.  I will miss keeping up with you all, but know that I am wishing you success, every. single. day.  Fare well everyone.  I will be absent for a while, keeping on keeping on - I hope, as will you too. 
    Wishing you a happy summer, filled with more nsv's than you can imagine.  
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    Contessa reacted to SchrodingersCat in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    I bought cookies yesterday. They weren't very nice, but I still ate a bunch. This morning I threw the rest in the trash. 
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    Contessa reacted to meli22 in Round 2   
    I was so happy with the results from my first Whole30 that I've decided to commit to a second round. I'm going to start TOMORROW. 
    The stress of current affairs has me scrolling all day until my brain turns to porridge. I've all but given up on exercise at this point (pre-pandemic, I would go to the gym most days). It's also pushed me straight into my #1 childhood coping strategy: CANDY. I now have a face full of pimples to show for it  ~ it doesn't feel good afterward, and I want to nip this little habit in the bud.
    Swedish berries, you are CANCELLED.
    Find other ways to relax that don't involve food Get into the habit of drinking more water Limit scrolling to 15 minutes a day Aim for 40 mins exercise every day (power yoga, weights or running)  Turn meals (I live alone) into a more pleasurable event by eating on the balcony, with nice plates and napkins, and so on  
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    Contessa got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/29/20:
    Breakfast: crummy ol' hard-boiled egg, in a hurry
    Lunch: Sweet potato + steamed broccoli + roasted cauliflower + spicy chicken tinga + sauce
    Dinner: Stovetop marinated chicken + mashed potatoes + green beans almondine + a splash of kombucha
    Because I started this adventure a couple of days before the start of the month, I am considering today my last official day of this Whole 30. Now the real adventure begins... figuring out how to translate my observations from the past 30 days into sustainable ways of feeding myself. I've been at this adventure of sustainable eating for quite some time. In some ways, the Whole 30 is the easy part... the challenge comes after the external expectations are withdrawn and I am left to make my own judgment calls.
    My goal is to eat in a way that is flexible, pleasurable, and life-affirming.... and to lean on my own authority for determining what that looks like. Melissa Urban is never going to show up in my kitchen and tell me that that English muffin is not in my best interest. So I need to put a lot of energy into consciously thinking about my food freedom. I plan to start another thread in the Re-introduction area for cataloging these reflections.
    So grateful to have another few weeks at home to think about this and experiment. Thank you, W30 squad, for your companionship along the way!