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    Contessa got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/7/20:
    Breakfast: ground turkey + butternut squash apple soup
    Lunch: Purple smoothie with beets, blueberries, spinach, cashewmilk, etc. I needed something quick and COLD as I was dashing out the door to a protest. Protesting in Georgia in June is the real deal.
    Dinner: collard greens + mashed potatoes + roast chicken + steamed broccoli with Garlic Everything sauce; sweet potato tater tots
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    Contessa got a reaction from Tevenie in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Completely this. A colorful, neatly packaged escape hatch from life.
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    Contessa got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Completely this. A colorful, neatly packaged escape hatch from life.
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    Contessa got a reaction from RachelR in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/5/20:
    Breakfast: 2 eggs + spinach + ground turkey
    Lunch: diced sweet potato and white potato + broccoli + ground turkey with Garlic Everything sauce
    Snack: ~3 oz cashewmilk "yogurt"; 3-4 pieces "Crunchies" fruit snacks. The Crunchies are probably not a good idea even though they are literally just freeze-dried strawberries, blueberries, and bananas with no additives. They taste quite sweet after a few days away from my packaged cookies. I have not eaten many crunchy foods this week, and I miss them. The crunch, man. We homo sapiens really love the crunch.
    Dinner: butternut squash apple soup + ground turkey; ~5 oz kombucha; 3 slices granny smith apple + almond butter
    I have been noticing myself running out of gas very abruptly during the day.... going from "fine" to "extremely hungry" in a very short span of time. I think I need to eat more fat.
    Sugar cravings have been pretty vivid today. Am I catching the scent of a forthcoming Forbidden Dessert Dream on the horizon? I remember previous W30s — halfway through, I'd start to get the most vivid dreams about surreptitiously chowing down on piles of luscious frosted donuts. (Sidebar to my unconscious mind: I really don't like donuts. Not even when I'm awake. Choose better.) Sugar has been a loyal comfort food and refuge for me for so long. It's always the part of a Whole 30 that is the hardest to live without. Sugar also does not "promote a healthy psychological response" in me, at least not in the vast quantities I've consumed at various points in my life. I have spent much of my adult life trying to find "food freedom" and am still on that journey. I actually feel so much safer right now simply knowing I am not interacting with sugar right now. Sigh.
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    Contessa got a reaction from Tevenie in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal from 6/1/20:
    Breakfast: 2 egg scrambled in olive oil, coffee with cashew milk
    Lunch: Roasted chicken + mashed cauliflower + steamed broccoli with Primal Kitchen teriyaki sauce
    Dinner: Spaghetti squash + meatballs + spaghetti sauce
    I actually started my food revolution on 5/30/20, so it's been a few days. Right on time, a mild headache is brewing. It's like my body is crying out for potato chips and M&Ms. Fortunately, before all this happened, I tossed all the primo junk food into the garbage. Yep, I tossed the name brand stuff. The potato chips that cost $4.19 a bag. I wonder what the mark-up is on those chips. It's probably astronomical. Frito-Lay stock may decline sharply in the coming month as a result of my Whole 30.
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Oh, yes.  Sugar is not even like cocaine for me, it's more like LSD, or an out-of-body experience.  It takes me on a wonderful, glorious high with no awareness whatsoever of what I'm doing.  I wake up and realize, OMG I've eaten an entire package of Fig Newtons, 2 handfuls of Twizzlers, and all of the pudding.  And then I crash.  I like your phrase, "...not interacting with sugar right now."  Like it's a toxic co-worker.  That's a really good visual.  
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/5/20:
    Breakfast: 2 eggs + spinach + ground turkey
    Lunch: diced sweet potato and white potato + broccoli + ground turkey with Garlic Everything sauce
    Snack: ~3 oz cashewmilk "yogurt"; 3-4 pieces "Crunchies" fruit snacks. The Crunchies are probably not a good idea even though they are literally just freeze-dried strawberries, blueberries, and bananas with no additives. They taste quite sweet after a few days away from my packaged cookies. I have not eaten many crunchy foods this week, and I miss them. The crunch, man. We homo sapiens really love the crunch.
    Dinner: butternut squash apple soup + ground turkey; ~5 oz kombucha; 3 slices granny smith apple + almond butter
    I have been noticing myself running out of gas very abruptly during the day.... going from "fine" to "extremely hungry" in a very short span of time. I think I need to eat more fat.
    Sugar cravings have been pretty vivid today. Am I catching the scent of a forthcoming Forbidden Dessert Dream on the horizon? I remember previous W30s — halfway through, I'd start to get the most vivid dreams about surreptitiously chowing down on piles of luscious frosted donuts. (Sidebar to my unconscious mind: I really don't like donuts. Not even when I'm awake. Choose better.) Sugar has been a loyal comfort food and refuge for me for so long. It's always the part of a Whole 30 that is the hardest to live without. Sugar also does not "promote a healthy psychological response" in me, at least not in the vast quantities I've consumed at various points in my life. I have spent much of my adult life trying to find "food freedom" and am still on that journey. I actually feel so much safer right now simply knowing I am not interacting with sugar right now. Sigh.
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Very interested to hear your opinion of Atomic Habits after you dig into it. I've heard a couple of interviews with the author and it sounds solid.
    Honestly, there are so many elements in your story that make me think that I may be your Long Lost Yet Fully Anonymous Whole 30 Twin. (Okay, that's probably a stretch.) Really, though: glad you are reflecting on your experience here; I resonate with so much of it.
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Eating the salad yesterday was a good idea.  I then made a pizza for dinner that was languishing in the fridge, waiting to be baked.  And had two glasses of wine,  And then luscious dark chocolate.  But there was definitely a subtle mindshift, a conscious "Last Supper" mentality that was not filled with angst and guilt, but just pure enjoyment.  Rather than the "must eat all things" bender that I've very often woken up in the middle of, this was me making a choice to indulge.  THAT is what I seek-wholesome nourishing foods most of the time with an occasional, chosen indulgence that does not completely derail me.  Why is that so difficult?  Ughhh....
    My Whole30 Day By Day manual arrived yesterday afternoon and I sat right down and read up through Day 0. After reading, I was ready to change my start to Saturday.  I'm still toying with that, Saturday vs. Monday start.  I can meal plan and order groceries today.  I don't have any big events this weekend.  If I don't start tomorrow, I will only either eat all things or try to recreate last night's conscious indulgence, probably unsuccessfully. 
    The big question is:  am I mentally ready to start tomorrow?  Honestly, I'm a little scared that I won't be able to commit myself.  My failed attempt in April has made me a little gun-shy and distrustful of myself.  I've had 5 successful W30s - they were not all perfect, but each launched me into a period of health and well-being.  The one in September 2019 was a shorter period, though, and then April...have I reached my threshold for successful times doing W30?  This is a pattern for me - going all-in, learning everything I can, focused on a subject/task/activity.  Then I lose interest.  As I'm writing this and thinking I realize I'm experiencing FEAR OF FAILURE.  
    A sign???  I just got an email from Thrive Market offering a free coconut oil with a $49 purchase.  Seriously, can't make this up.  I guess I'll go shop there once I finish this entry.  Something in the universe is pulling me along, trying to make me walk the walk despite the fact that I'm digging my feet in and pulling backward.  
    So today....This morning I was ready to get up and walk, but I ended up sleeping downstairs on the sofa last night.  My dilemma - walk in my pajama shorts or go upstairs and put on some real clothes?  It's not so much my concern that the neighbors will see me in the pjs, rather it's the thigh chaffing that would result from walking in shorts.  My lazy self decided to walk in the pjs a short distance so that I could say I did it, then go for a longer hike this afternoon.  I actually will go find a trail for me and the dog in a little while, so I guess this counts as a win for getting up and walking 1/2 mile instead of 1 mile.  
    I came in from the walk and ate breakfast of leftover chicken breast at 6:30 a.m.  I wasn't feeling like cooking, but I do want to play around with eating breakfast a little earlier.  I'm hungry right now, but it's almost lunch time!  
    Energy-6, pain-0, Mood-6.  My mood is better today. My Food Freedom book should be coming today!  I also ordered Atomic Habits on Audible to listen to while I'm walking (thanks @Blueautumn!)
    Plan for today:
    Make lunch
    Order stuff from Thrive
    Plan meals
    Go for long hike and think about starting W30 tomorrow instead of Monday.  
    Get groceries
     
     
     
     
     
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    Contessa reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    I did everything on my checklist yesterday.  I even took the dog for a walk a little earlier than I had planned, then read for a while, did yoga, and made dinner (leftover grilled chicken and the rest of that risotto).  I also had a glass of wine with my dinner, though no vegetables.  I was feeling really good about myself and then I saw the bag of Twizzlers - "I'm not on Whole 30 yet, I can eat these."  So I did.  And then later, three dinner rolls with butter.  I wasn't even  hungry.  It was me thinking that I'm about to move away from these foods, I won't be able to have them anymore, I can do whatever, eat whatever I want.  And the funny thing is, that I KNOW when I'm in my Whole 30, I'll think it's crazy that I was worried that I couldn't have a piece of candy because I won't want a piece of candy.  A little of it was some anger toward my husband, too - "You're doing that, fine I'm going to eat these Twizzlers."  There's so much underlying animosity there.  Like it hurts anyone but myself, and I do feel better for just the moment that poison goes in my mouth.  But...self-sabotage!! 
    My husband absolutely refuses to eat decent foods.  Every two months or so he'll say, "I really should eat a salad."  A lot of nights he drinks his dinner, making himself old-fashioneds and justifying it by saying he'll eat later (which he rarely does) and anyway, there's an orange and a cherry in the glass.  We've been married almost 28 years, most of the time I can put all that aside.  But sometimes, it's a convenient excuse.   Sometimes he'll eat what I cook, sometimes he'll like it, sometimes he'll complain about it.  Sometimes he'll cook something (usually a pasta-based dinner).  There was once so much power and control and passive-aggressiveness surrounding meals and I think we just got tired of the struggle.  And now there are vestiges that raise their ugly heads every so often.  Especially the passive-aggressive one.  As I said, there is a lot of animosity.  
    I also have a newly graduated 18-year old son in the house.  He eats a lot of food and is the source for the chips and candy that I'm currently finding so hard to resist.  Again, I have strategies for managing having these foods in the house, but as I said earlier, it's a convenient excuse.  He does often eat what I cook and wants to know what's for dinner.  But he's also spending less and less time at home.  He works 3 evenings a week, too.  
    Back to today.  Needless to say, with my late night sugar/carb rush of rolls and Twizzlers, I didn't sleep very well.  I awoke at 6:00 but was not ready to get out of bed.  I tried to talk myself into getting up and going for a walk, but my body was not having any of it.  I fell back asleep.  I woke up 40 minutes later, struggling with myself that I had to go for a walk if I wanted to change anything.  "It's only 20 minutes, I'll enjoy it once I'm out there, I deserve to do this for myself, I don't want to go plop down in the recliner and watch the news, I'm sick of the news...." All the self-talk, just as much negative as positive.  While I fought myself hard, I did finally get up and do it.  I walked the dog the first mile of the day.  If I walk, the first 5 items on my list are able to be quickly checked off.  Sense of accomplishment.  
    Once I did plop down in the recliner to watch the news, I decided to make a schedule for today.  I have a bunch of conference calls, spread throughout the day, and so I thought making a schedule would help me to get all my tasks done.  My first task was to make breakfast.  I scrambled raw spinach in butter (I have ghee, but saving it for my Whole 30), three eggs, and sliced fresh mozzarella.  As I knew, it only takes a few minutes to cook and clean-up.  It was delicious, and right now I feel really good.  
    Energy-5, pain-0, Mood-4
    I'm eagerly awaiting the arrival of my books.  I have three separate walks built into my day (1 down, 2 to go).  I'm not sure yet when I want to start my Whole 30.  Maybe on Monday?    I have to wrestle this self-defeating monster inside.  It's like I'm trying to walk the dog and she's pulling just as hard as she can against me, choking herself and bracing her back legs, fighting with all her might.  I'm chipping away, walking this morning, making a schedule, eating breakfast, ordering the Whole 30 books.  I can't let this monster win.  
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    Contessa got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/5/20:
    Breakfast: 2 eggs + spinach + ground turkey
    Lunch: diced sweet potato and white potato + broccoli + ground turkey with Garlic Everything sauce
    Snack: ~3 oz cashewmilk "yogurt"; 3-4 pieces "Crunchies" fruit snacks. The Crunchies are probably not a good idea even though they are literally just freeze-dried strawberries, blueberries, and bananas with no additives. They taste quite sweet after a few days away from my packaged cookies. I have not eaten many crunchy foods this week, and I miss them. The crunch, man. We homo sapiens really love the crunch.
    Dinner: butternut squash apple soup + ground turkey; ~5 oz kombucha; 3 slices granny smith apple + almond butter
    I have been noticing myself running out of gas very abruptly during the day.... going from "fine" to "extremely hungry" in a very short span of time. I think I need to eat more fat.
    Sugar cravings have been pretty vivid today. Am I catching the scent of a forthcoming Forbidden Dessert Dream on the horizon? I remember previous W30s — halfway through, I'd start to get the most vivid dreams about surreptitiously chowing down on piles of luscious frosted donuts. (Sidebar to my unconscious mind: I really don't like donuts. Not even when I'm awake. Choose better.) Sugar has been a loyal comfort food and refuge for me for so long. It's always the part of a Whole 30 that is the hardest to live without. Sugar also does not "promote a healthy psychological response" in me, at least not in the vast quantities I've consumed at various points in my life. I have spent much of my adult life trying to find "food freedom" and am still on that journey. I actually feel so much safer right now simply knowing I am not interacting with sugar right now. Sigh.
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    Contessa got a reaction from SchrodingersCat in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/5/20:
    Breakfast: 2 eggs + spinach + ground turkey
    Lunch: diced sweet potato and white potato + broccoli + ground turkey with Garlic Everything sauce
    Snack: ~3 oz cashewmilk "yogurt"; 3-4 pieces "Crunchies" fruit snacks. The Crunchies are probably not a good idea even though they are literally just freeze-dried strawberries, blueberries, and bananas with no additives. They taste quite sweet after a few days away from my packaged cookies. I have not eaten many crunchy foods this week, and I miss them. The crunch, man. We homo sapiens really love the crunch.
    Dinner: butternut squash apple soup + ground turkey; ~5 oz kombucha; 3 slices granny smith apple + almond butter
    I have been noticing myself running out of gas very abruptly during the day.... going from "fine" to "extremely hungry" in a very short span of time. I think I need to eat more fat.
    Sugar cravings have been pretty vivid today. Am I catching the scent of a forthcoming Forbidden Dessert Dream on the horizon? I remember previous W30s — halfway through, I'd start to get the most vivid dreams about surreptitiously chowing down on piles of luscious frosted donuts. (Sidebar to my unconscious mind: I really don't like donuts. Not even when I'm awake. Choose better.) Sugar has been a loyal comfort food and refuge for me for so long. It's always the part of a Whole 30 that is the hardest to live without. Sugar also does not "promote a healthy psychological response" in me, at least not in the vast quantities I've consumed at various points in my life. I have spent much of my adult life trying to find "food freedom" and am still on that journey. I actually feel so much safer right now simply knowing I am not interacting with sugar right now. Sigh.
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    Contessa got a reaction from Blueautumn in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/5/20:
    Breakfast: 2 eggs + spinach + ground turkey
    Lunch: diced sweet potato and white potato + broccoli + ground turkey with Garlic Everything sauce
    Snack: ~3 oz cashewmilk "yogurt"; 3-4 pieces "Crunchies" fruit snacks. The Crunchies are probably not a good idea even though they are literally just freeze-dried strawberries, blueberries, and bananas with no additives. They taste quite sweet after a few days away from my packaged cookies. I have not eaten many crunchy foods this week, and I miss them. The crunch, man. We homo sapiens really love the crunch.
    Dinner: butternut squash apple soup + ground turkey; ~5 oz kombucha; 3 slices granny smith apple + almond butter
    I have been noticing myself running out of gas very abruptly during the day.... going from "fine" to "extremely hungry" in a very short span of time. I think I need to eat more fat.
    Sugar cravings have been pretty vivid today. Am I catching the scent of a forthcoming Forbidden Dessert Dream on the horizon? I remember previous W30s — halfway through, I'd start to get the most vivid dreams about surreptitiously chowing down on piles of luscious frosted donuts. (Sidebar to my unconscious mind: I really don't like donuts. Not even when I'm awake. Choose better.) Sugar has been a loyal comfort food and refuge for me for so long. It's always the part of a Whole 30 that is the hardest to live without. Sugar also does not "promote a healthy psychological response" in me, at least not in the vast quantities I've consumed at various points in my life. I have spent much of my adult life trying to find "food freedom" and am still on that journey. I actually feel so much safer right now simply knowing I am not interacting with sugar right now. Sigh.
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    Contessa reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Yes.  There is nothing like a bit of chaos to cause a person to reach for the quick and junky "food."
    Stay strong.  Sending positive vibes your way.
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    Contessa reacted to Blueautumn in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Stress is by far my biggest trigger for wanting to eat whatever I want and whatever is easiest. Great job and sticking with it and figuring out a plan 
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    Contessa got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal from 6/4/20:
    Breakfast: diced sweet potato, steamed broccoli, roast chicken with chipotle mayonnaise
    Lunch: spaghetti squash with meatballs and pasta sauce
    Snack: Spindrift with 1/2 apple and almond butter
    Dinner: mashed cauliflower with meatballs and pasta sauce
    Whew, this has been a stressful day. My company is re-structuring and we are getting into All the Complicated Conversations with staff members. Tomorrow will be even worse. I'm thankful for the structure of the W30 right now. The complexities presented by Covid seem endless. What a difficult time in this nation.
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    Contessa got a reaction from Tevenie in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Thanks Shadow! I have been around this work since the "Whole 9" days — I think I did my first Whole 30 in 2013. I'm excited to be back in 2020. Every time I do a reset like this, I learn something meaningful about myself. And of course, I end up feeling great after changing my diet.
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    Contessa got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal from 6/4/20:
    Breakfast: diced sweet potato, steamed broccoli, roast chicken with chipotle mayonnaise
    Lunch: spaghetti squash with meatballs and pasta sauce
    Snack: Spindrift with 1/2 apple and almond butter
    Dinner: mashed cauliflower with meatballs and pasta sauce
    Whew, this has been a stressful day. My company is re-structuring and we are getting into All the Complicated Conversations with staff members. Tomorrow will be even worse. I'm thankful for the structure of the W30 right now. The complexities presented by Covid seem endless. What a difficult time in this nation.
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    Contessa got a reaction from Blueautumn in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal from 6/4/20:
    Breakfast: diced sweet potato, steamed broccoli, roast chicken with chipotle mayonnaise
    Lunch: spaghetti squash with meatballs and pasta sauce
    Snack: Spindrift with 1/2 apple and almond butter
    Dinner: mashed cauliflower with meatballs and pasta sauce
    Whew, this has been a stressful day. My company is re-structuring and we are getting into All the Complicated Conversations with staff members. Tomorrow will be even worse. I'm thankful for the structure of the W30 right now. The complexities presented by Covid seem endless. What a difficult time in this nation.
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    Contessa got a reaction from RachelR in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal from 6/1/20:
    Breakfast: 2 egg scrambled in olive oil, coffee with cashew milk
    Lunch: Roasted chicken + mashed cauliflower + steamed broccoli with Primal Kitchen teriyaki sauce
    Dinner: Spaghetti squash + meatballs + spaghetti sauce
    I actually started my food revolution on 5/30/20, so it's been a few days. Right on time, a mild headache is brewing. It's like my body is crying out for potato chips and M&Ms. Fortunately, before all this happened, I tossed all the primo junk food into the garbage. Yep, I tossed the name brand stuff. The potato chips that cost $4.19 a bag. I wonder what the mark-up is on those chips. It's probably astronomical. Frito-Lay stock may decline sharply in the coming month as a result of my Whole 30.
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    Contessa got a reaction from Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Agreeing with what MadyVanilla said... I am really enjoying reading about your experience. It's noteworthy that younger & younger people are coming into the hospital for issues we'd typically relegate to much older generations. As another huge devotee of ALL THE ADDED SUGAR, I really resonate with your perspective. 
    Also, now I want to try that sesame chicken.....!
    So impressed by what you are doing here, carry on!
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    Contessa got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal from 6/3/20:
    Breakfast: ....the morning got away from me! I ended up skipping breakfast. No bueno.
    Lunch: 1/2 sweet potato with steamed broccoli + ground beef + Garlic Everything Sauce
    Snack: 1/2 apple + almond butter
    Dinner: Mashed cauliflower with roasted chicken and sauteed kale
    Felt good this morning. Woke up before the alarm. Also, it could just be my imagination, but I feel like my knee pain is beginning to dissipate a bit. I really hope so, because I'm ready to have it back! My older brother, who lives on the other side of the country, is also a Whole 30 alumnus. I've convinced him to join me for his own Whole 30, starting Monday 6/8/20. I'm excited to compare notes and share the experience with him. I'll stay with him to make my experience at least 40 days long.
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    Contessa got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Are you awake yet? Are you awake?
    Hope you are having a glorious morning and that you have a good, consistent day today.
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    Contessa got a reaction from Blueautumn in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal from 6/1/20:
    Breakfast: 2 egg scrambled in olive oil, coffee with cashew milk
    Lunch: Roasted chicken + mashed cauliflower + steamed broccoli with Primal Kitchen teriyaki sauce
    Dinner: Spaghetti squash + meatballs + spaghetti sauce
    I actually started my food revolution on 5/30/20, so it's been a few days. Right on time, a mild headache is brewing. It's like my body is crying out for potato chips and M&Ms. Fortunately, before all this happened, I tossed all the primo junk food into the garbage. Yep, I tossed the name brand stuff. The potato chips that cost $4.19 a bag. I wonder what the mark-up is on those chips. It's probably astronomical. Frito-Lay stock may decline sharply in the coming month as a result of my Whole 30.
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    Contessa got a reaction from SchrodingersCat in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    I'm  just gonna say that peas and poached eggs (as separate food experiences) are two of life's great pleasures, aren't they? Hope the weather warms up for you soon.