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  1. SchrodingersCat

    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Sorry for the Mortal Kombat reference, it felt appropriate. Round 4, day 1! If you've played along in previous rounds, you might know that I suffer from vestibular migraines which cause chronic vertigo and I first 'cured' them 18 months ago with Whole30. Unfortunately I also suffer from a distinct lack of willpower and the uncanny ability to let myself get sucked back into the vortex and put up with the suck that is permanent vertigo for the sake of laziness and convenience. So here I am again. Monday, first day. Thanks to the lockdown I have absolutely no social engagements for the forseeable future and no reason not to do a round! Started the day with coffee with almond milk. I was a black coffee girl but making coffee at home means it needs a little something, I miss the work coffee machine. Meal 1: 2 poached eggs on spicy saurkraut with mayo Meal 2: Tuna salad (tuna, dill pickles, mayo) in lettuce cups Meal 3: Steak, grilled sweet potato, roasted veggie medley (radish, carrot, brussel sprouts) with olive oil and dukkah
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    I forgot I had ratatoullie in the freezer, so lunch was that fried up shakshuka style with a couple of eggs, some nutritional yeast and hot sauce. My plan now isn't to be perfect, but to be *sensible*.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    I bought cookies yesterday. They weren't very nice, but I still ate a bunch. This morning I threw the rest in the trash.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Wine wasn't so bad, though I forgot how yuck I feel after drinking, even when it's not a hangover, it's just a feeling of toxicity. Blergh. It also really disturbs my sleep and 100% ramps up my anxiety. Sooooo notice how I haven't been around for a few days? haha yeah, hiding my shame. I'm not going to laundry list all the crap I ate here, because it will just make me sad. But let's say that I feel garbage, I'm not proud and I really need to get back on track. Good thing, I guess, is that I don't appear to have any actual really nasty effects from any food - my cast iron stomach endures! So annoyed, I was due to go back to TKD today and the area where my dojang is has been locked down coz it's a covid hotspot so that's delayed again. Sigh. Anywhoo. Today's food will be an omelette with veggies and jamon for meal 1, and a beef stir fry for meal 2.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Yup, I certainly know myself, though heading it off is another story apparently lol. Yesterday was another garbage fest, at least I can say that there's no more of the tempting stuff in the house. Pizza, garlic bread, wasabi peanuts are all gone (so's the wine). Now to get back on track. Planning to head to Taekwondo tonight! Bit nervous, but I need to get back into it. Meal 1 today will be an omelette with mushrooms, broccolini, jamon Meal 2 will be beef and black pepper stirfry (carrots, mushroom, red pepper, snow peas, broccoli, cauli rice)
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Well, I'm nothing if not predictable. 4 slices of cheesy crust pepperoni pizza, half a garlic bread, a lot of wasabi peanuts, salted peanuts, and some dark chocolate. Plus vodka AND wine. Go large or go home, huh? And y'know, I'd say I'm paying for it but in not, really. No evident signs of distress, save for the mild headache and a distinct lack of motivation. Now the challenge is to have this be one day and not a thing. Dinner tonight if beef and broccoli stir fry, with broccoli from my own garden.
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    Thrive Market Grass Fed Collagen Powder

    What are the ingredients?
  8. SchrodingersCat

    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Weekend I have 2kg of tomatoes and 1.5kg of red peppers in the smoker, and zucchini and sweet potato chips in the dehydrator. I'm a bit meh on the old compliancy today, I know this feeling, it's that lead up to "f it". I'm trying to hold off, because next week is going to be a non-compliance splurge (friends coming over for 4h July small gathering, and I'll be making a bunch of REALLY not compliant food.). That needs to be the exception and not the reason to just go off track. It doesn't help that I braved (caved?) the scale again and I'm not really progressing on the weight thing. Finally back at TKD this week, so hoping that will shift things up a bit. So today I have had a leftover lamb chop because I was starving after mowing the lawn, shopping an food prepping. Actual meal 1 is chicken, spinach and pinenut patties wrapped in jamon, with leftover turnip/cauli/celeriac/carrot mash. Meal 2, I really don't know and that's where my "bugger it, treat yourself!" attitude is coming in. Trick is to treat myself without going completely off base.
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    Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30

    So glad you liked it!!!
  10. SchrodingersCat

    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    oK, dinner is seared lamb chops with anchovies, capers and sage, with pureed root vegetables and sauteed brussel sprouts.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    OMG, me too! Either snacking to settle an off tummy, or snacking to settle anxiety. I used to joke I was squashing the butterflies with food. Yesterday I was 100%, 2 meals, one small mid-afternoon snack of a dozen stuffed olives. It's FriYAY!! I haven't heard from work whether or not we are back to 5 days next week, I'm hoping it's still 4 because I have some stuff to get done. But going back to 5 will be good, too. I haven't missed the $ but the extra is always nice. Not much planned for the weekend, hubster has his final assignment due on Monday (thank the gods) so he will be working on that. Hopefully once that is in, things can get back to some normal. I love that man like life itself, but he obsesses over things like this and it is all consuming. I want my weekends back. I have promised to take my MIL shopping, she stocks up on bulk cleaning stuff etc once every 12 months or so, and asked hubster if we could go this weekend, and he said no coz assignment, but I said I'd go. So that will break up tomorrow at least. I might also do some smoking and dehydrating this weekend, my stocks on smoked and dried peppers and tomatoes are very low. Also need to mow the lawn. Sigh. Thrill a minute around here. Anyway. Round up: It's been 17 days since I finished my round, and I have been compliant save for the sugar in some bacon, the wine, and sugar in the seasoned salt I put in my veg last night. So I guess I'm following the slow roll reintro pretty much to the letter? Meal 1: medley of leftovers, I have a bit of yesterday's soup, some veggies from my laksa on Tuesday, and some roasted veg from last night. I'll have all of those with a couple of boiled eggs just to clean out the fridge. Meal 2: No idea. Usual Friday issue - desire to cook something a little fancier is warring with my "who cares, all the days are the same anyway" attitude of the moment.
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    Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30

    Haahaa I also have a deep fryer. I bring it out once a year for my 4th of July junkapalooza (it gets called Fatth of July). It was cheaper to buy one than rent it. But the way my house smells for a week after grosses me out!
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    I actually wonder if it is, because the snacking yesterday certainly did seem to make me feel yuck, though feeling yuck was also why I was snacking. Maybe that should be a reintro experiment for me! Thank you, I am feeling a lot better today, just having lunch now (jamon, cauli brocc soup with homemade chicken stock and coconut milk) and I'm not snacky at all. Which is good. It's amazing how much knock of effect drinking has on my health - it makes me slow, lazy, snacky, and really messes with my digestion.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Blugh, second night of crappy sleep, not as bad but not great, and I feel yuck and bloated. It's crazy, because when I look at everything I ate yesterday, not a single thing of it wasn't W30/paleo compliant, but it was all together so much more food than I've been having and it made me feel garbage. Plus I now have the attendant food guilts and demon on my shoulder telling me how bad I messed up and that I may as well just go and eat a whole pizza, or something. My body's issues with food are so easy compared to my mental ones! But, at least I'm feeling better today than I was yesterday and hopefully won't have the similar uncontrolled munchies. I still have gastric issues, unsurprisingly, I reckon that will take a few days to pass. Meal 1: Dunno. Kind of uninspired. I do have a bit of a hankering for soup, maybe a creamy bacon and broccoli one, I have half a can of coconut milk I need to use. Meal 2: Pork steaks, chilli, balsamic apple sauce, and roasted veggie medly I reckon.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Ugh, super munchie today. 2 squares of my fruit and seed thingy, a couple of pickles, a pack of pistachios and a couple slices of roast pork with mustard. On top of meals and the choc orange balls. All compliant ingredients, but just eat, eat, eat. This is yet another reason I am going to stay away from the booze.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Thanks @Contessa! Tummy has been narky all day, I still have heartburn though I'm trying not to take anything for it. I still have a headache and feel yuck. I ate the rest of the choc orange balls (3 of them) to get rid of the damn things and I will not buy any more. They're too darn tempting!!! Lunch was 3 boiled eggs and dill pickle mixed with mayo and grainy mustard, and a serve of spicy kraut (my gut needs the probiotics!) Dinner will be lamb koftas (lamb mince, garlic, cumin, pine nuts, mint bound with egg), some coconut yogurt tzatziki and sauteed broccolini, julienned carrots and baby beans
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Meal 1 is egg, tuna, mayo and pickle salad. It probably needs more veggies, but its what I want. I might mash up some cauli and brocc later to make up for this lack lol.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    H O L Y Sheet. So, there's one of the clearest, most unequivocal reintro answers ever. Can I still drink red wine? HELL NO. Yes, I had a few glasses but over the course of the evening, and drank more than 2L of water as well. I was up at 2:30am with horrific heartburn, never got back to sleep due to racing mind, got up 4-5 times to go to the bathroom with gastric distress, had to take MORE antacids at 5am, have a headache, achey joints, anxiety and a hugely sour stomach. There is nothing fun or ok about this!! I feel like hot garbage, and not even in a hangover kind of way, literally in a I feel like I've been slightly poisoned kind of way. BLERGH. Guess who's staying on the wagon? No idea on today's food, I have NO interest in it. But it will be W30, and nutritious. I also have a video chat with my cooking gals tonight, no set recipe, just whatever we feel like, so I'll think of something kind of fun.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    So just for honestly sake, lots of wine, 8 of the date choc orange balls. Plus just normal food for the day. Gonna regret this tomorrow.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Salmon, dukkah, the rest of the root veg mash, broccolini, too much wine and the distinct sense it was not worth the hype, to be honest.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Confession: I have a glass of red wine. It's organic and preservative free, and I'm not currently regretting it.
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    Day 27 Round 3, Exhausted/Scared

    I'll be honest with you. I feel the same. I love W30, I love what it does for my body, I love how I feel. But I know for a fact it feeds into my restricting/ rules/ all or nothing/ success of failure mindset which has been the bane of my existence for decades. I'm a yoyo dieter, and not one of your 1-15lbs either way one, I literally lose 80lbs, gain 90, lose 70, gain 80. It's not healthy. I'm also a binger (I acknowledge it is self abuse through food), and it's compulsive. Food is my passion, and my biggest enemy. I don't have any answers for you, I can only say I'm right there with you.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    Happy Tuesday! So I went an did my usual fish Tuesday shopping, and half way through got so anxious, it was terrible. I was also hungry, and ended up buying this bag of choco/nut/orange balls (again, all compliant ingredients but 100% SWYPO, like RX bar balls). I had 3 (1 serve) and they were delicious, and my anxiety was immediately under control. I'm wondering if it is a bloody sugar thing? Anyway: Snack: 3 choc orange date balls Meal 1: Prawn laksa (vegan laksa paste, shrimp paste, fish sauce, sambal, chicken stock and coconut milk) with straw mushrooms, water chestnuts and broccoli, and sweet potato glass noodles Meal 2: Seared salmon with broccolini, sauteed carrots and baby beans. Not sure on sauce/flavour yet.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    So hungry today!! Not really tempted to go off plan, but I ended up having a fruit and seed bar, and then finishing the tuna and eggs salad, which should have been 2 meals (130g tuna, 3 boiled eggs, 2tbs mayo). I need to give myself a kick and remember that just because i ate more than my regular 2 meals a day, I'm not "messing up" or doing anything wrong. Genuine hunger deserves actual food. It's not like a polished off a bag of chips. If I'm hungry enough for tuna salad, I'm actually hungry. This is the part of regulating my eating that I struggle with, it gets a bit compulsive and lends into the all or nothing or toxicity. I'm still struggling staying off the scale though. Not knowing that number makes me constantly think "What if you're not losing, or even gaining? you might not realise until you notice your clothes are too tight!!" ugh. Smack me in the brain.
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    Round 4 - FIGHT!

    I feel like I've been fibbing in my log, though it's not been intentional. It just occurred to me because I've been thinking about where I'm at since my round finished and assessing whether I have been non-compliant at all. Really, the only thing is that pretty much every night since I finished, I have had a square of my prune, nut and seed slice with a pot of tea of an evening. They're quite small and not very sweet at all - I didn't add any sugar or sweetener, so the only sweet is the dried fruit in the seed mix, and the prunes which bind it all together. The nut/seed to prune ration is pretty high, to its more an occasional taste of sweet among the crunch, and I quite like it. So summary is: I have been compliant save for one meal of my bacon which was cured with brown sugar and maple (rinsed off prior to smoking), and the prune/nut slice, which is all compliant ingredients but would be in the same vein as an RX bar (with less sugar, to be fair - 3.3g per serving) So I'm not considering this another round, but it's good to know that I'm still on track. If I really, really wanted something non-compliant I would have it, but that hasn't come up yet.