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  1. Binge eating and re-starting Whole30

    @littleg sounds like you are in a great place right now! And @hmg1993 I also agree about the things we think we “need.” I too used to eat 85% Lindt every night @littleg! I thought I couldn’t live without some kind of treat like that, as well as apples. They were a “must have” every single morning. Now here I am eliminating fruit all together and I can’t rememher the last time I had a Lindt bar. I think it’s mentally a good thing to learn and realize you don’t “need” anything really. It’s helping me going through this process knowing i can get all the nutrients I truly need through very few foods really. At the moment I do feel the “need” for meat and vegetables, but I think that’s because it’s basically all I’m eating! It’s day 3 of my “30for30” challenge. Feeling good. Had some tough cravings last night when we went out to eat. I let myself enjoy some buffalo wings which were actually gluten free and baked (in lots of butter I’m sure but it’s all good) and Totally delicious. It helped my urges a lot to feel like I was indulging in something bc I never get wings usually, and having a little butter or oil or whatever they used is a better choice for me right now than giving in to the fruit and potato urges, so I’m happy about my choice. Back to work today and feeling ready to continue and conquer this new challenge!
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    Hi guys! So I have 2 days left of my first Whole30, but I’ll actually be starting my next phase today because it’s exactly 100 days until my wedding (ahh!) and I just feel like it’s a good milestone to start at. (But I’ll still be finishing my first one so it’s all the same really. ) This next stage is what I am calling my “30 for 30.” I have written out 30 foods I plan on eating which are basically all Whole30 foods with the addition of beans and wine. Beans because sometimes when I eat out it’s easier to have an option like that, and also because I’m eliminating potatoes and want to have another good carb/fiber choice. Beans have never been a “no brakes” food for me, so I will introduce them occasionally when I feel like it. Wine I want to add because I want to practice having it once in a while and learn to stay controlled with it in social situations. Other than those 2 things, all other foods are basically Whole30 without fruit, nuts, or potatoes. Like none. Not even berries. This will be my hardest thing to get used to, but as usual, I’m thinking it’s easier to eliminate all together than try to eat them in moderation. So hopefully after the initial first week of misery, it will get easier. In addition to the 30 foods, I have daily “30” goals. 1. 30 push-ups per day 2. 30 second handstand 3. 30 ab reps of any kind 4. 30 minutes of either reading, yoga, meditation, or combination of them all. 5. I’ve also broken down my “ideal” typical day into 30 activities/intentions/basic daily tasks. I will practice trying to do all 30 each day in order to work on developing my new habits. I’m not going to be crazy about making sure to get all 30 every day, but it’s a helpful guideline and reminder about my intentions each day. The list includes things like “coffee with MCT oil to start the day” and also more abstract ones like “do something today you will be proud of tomorrow.” Im feeling really ready for this next phase and I think the first whole30 was just crucial to get my mind more focused and ready for this next challenge. Even though I had many “compliant” binges, I feel detoxed, focused, and like a new and stronger person now. My wedding dress is currently 2 sizes too small, so that is obviously another huge incentive and focus I have, but I know if I just trust the process, focus, and keep building on my progress, I will come back to my natural weight, so I’m trying not to stress about that aspect. Anyways, just wanted to share my update. @hmg1993 it sounds like you are still doing well and staying strong and focused. Keep it up! And also I want to share a strange but delicious concoction I just made for breakfast. No eggs so I had to get creative. Sauteed ground beef with 2 chopped up bacon slices, and diced cabbage, onions, mushrooms, and garlic, then added 1-2 tablespoons of The New Primal brand cooking and marinade sauce (so good!). Stirred in a tablespoon of mayo with a little salt and pepper. That’s all! Weird and ugly, but delicious! Hope you have a good day. I’m off to do errands and clean all day!
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    Good morning! Just a quick check in. I have less than a week left until 30 days! Truly amazing for me. Despite the compliant binges, I am so proud of myself. This morning i have a real sense of gratitude and feeling of hope for my future. My plan is to finish out this week making small changes to plan for the next 30. I want to now work on getting rid of these compliant binges, and i know the key will be to eliminate the problem foods... fruit, nuts, potatoes. I haven’t done it yet bc it seems so hard and sad (mostly my favorite foods right now!), but for my next 30, they will be gone. I will focus on a practice of 4 meals a day, no snacks (unless it’s a much needed exercise induced starving moment from skiing or something) and most importantly, no snacking before or after dinner, the ultimate challenge. I feel good about this next step. It will be my hardest challenge yet, basically trying to do a “true” Whole30, but with even more restrictions. I’m considering adding in occasional beans or rice if I really feel the need for more carbs, but I am leaning towards not doing that. We will see. Maybe just let myself have them when eating out, but honestly I don’t ever crave them at all. I’m excited and looking forward to continuing down this Whole30 road for a while, until I feel more mentally in control and truly have the Tiger blood, cause I’m definitely not there yet. Hope you guys are still doing well!
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    @littleg thanks for the advice/update. I’m gonna check out that other thread after this! And those rules are very similar to mine I’m trying to follow through this Whole30 and beyond as well. Most importantly is the no munching before or after dinner. That is currently my only (but major) issue. It’s day 20 for me! Truly amazing and I’m so happy about it... BUT since yesterday morning I have had the most intense headache and can’t figure out why. I did have quite a few binges over the past week so I’m wondering if my body is just still overloaded and now kind of detoxing back to normal. Could be way too much intake of fat over the days as well. All the nuts, coconut, etc. I know having too much fat has caused headaches before for me, so that’s a possibility. But could also be because one of my binges the other day was very sugary. For the first time in a long time I caved and had a bunch of dried fruit, an rx bar, and potatoes and other fruits, so maybe I’m recovering from the sugar rush as well. Either way, it sucks, and I’m being very careful about what I consume for a few days to try and get back to feeling good. But as for the fruit nuts and potatoes in the house, I’ve done great not having nuts. That’s key I have learned. Fruit and potatoes is hard though because my fiancé eats those a lot so he’s not really ok with not having them around. So I’ll try and just do my best, but just not having nuts has seemed to make a huge difference for the past few days so I will make sure to keep those away! I have baby steps planned for my next stages of Whole30. I plan to do it until I feel in control and ready to make some reintroductions. Which could take a while, but I’m ok with that. Mostly though I’m working on eating 4 meals with no snacking before or after (goes well for everything except dinner usually), and then not turning to fruit nuts or potatoes when I get bingey. All in all, I think I’m making slow improvements and my mental strength and stability is increasing which is good.
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    Thanks @hmg1993! I have been portioning out sort of (pouring in a small cup what would be probably 2 servings) for the past week actually and I do see where it helps. But I still go back like 4 more times for more! I know the answer here is that I should probably eliminate these foods since they are my “no brakes”, I’m just nervous to not have any thing to turn to when I have these urges. I also need some kind of carb for my activity level, but I guess there are definitely other options, squash, parsnips, etc. Maybe I just need to accept the hard truth that those foods have to go from my home. I managed to finish the last bag of nuts last night, as well as the last potato and there’s only 1 banana left, so maybe this is my “sign”?
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    Tried the broccoli @littleg! Sooo good I’ll be doing that again for sure. Question for you all. So I’m doing better, I’ll be on day 18 Whole30 tomorrow which is a huge improvement after months of bingeing on all the sugar and gluten every 4 to 7 days basically. BUT, now I literally can’t stop bingeing on nuts, fruit, and potatoes every few days. I know it’s better and I need to focus on baby steps, but this is almost becoming a habit now and I need to figure out a way to stop. I’ve tried a lot of things and I just get these overwhelming urges to eat, no matter what the food is. It’s like I’ve turned it into overeating just to relieve the stress of not being able to binge on sugar, but it’s no better for me to be bingeing on Whole30 foods, because I need to be working on the actual eating habits. Just wondering if you guys have any advice about small steps I could take to help this. I’m kind of at a loss right now. And I’m still happy with my progress of avoiding the bad junk foods and I feel mentally a lot better, but need to tackle this issue now. Any thoughts much appreciated. Thanks!
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    Hi! Checking in as well. It’s day 10 for me after deciding once again to go back to strict and try again. I’m doing better than before, but I have already had 3 times of going way too bingey with the nuts. I have a bunch in my house and I don’t want to throw them away but I know they are a no brakes food that I should have never bought. Unfortunately I’m a sucker for any kind of deal and they were huge organic bags on sale, so there are sooo many left! I’m considering putting them up on the top shelf behind everything where I have to use a step stool to access tonight haha. Maybe that will help! Anyways, my mental state is slowly improving and I’m feeling more like my old self more and more each day. I’m focusing on reading some old books that originally inspired me and I bought this great mindfulness journal on amazon that breaks down each month week and day with questions, goals, emotions, intentions, etc. kind of like a guided diary but very helpful in making myself more aware of everything I’m feeling and working towards and focusing on the positive improvements. All I have wanted to eat the last few days is nuts, sausage, peppers, and tomatoes, so that’s basically been in most meals. But I’m suffering major digestive backlash from the nut binges so my goal this week is to only eat them with lunch and not allow myself any after work for snacking. I think I’m over my sweet potato after work binge phase, but I seemed to have just replaced it with nuts so now I gotta work on that. I renewed my gym membership the other day and decided that I will try and go a few times after work just for a short easy workout to try and get my head in the right place before I go home. I always eat well after a workout so maybe that will help curb my after work cravings. Anyways, all things considered, I’m on the up and up. Weight is a huge concern for me right now which strangely has led to my binges I believe because of the stress of it. I’m the heaviest I’ve been in over 5 years, but I’m just reminding myself to trust the process, trust myself, continue making progress, and it will all even out eventually. Well im off to work and have delicious grass fed chuck roast and some roasted veggies for leftovers. Hard boiled eggs and a sausage tomato and pepper salad too. No nuts today. I can’t even look at the bag right now @hmg1993 sounds like you are doing really well! Keep up the hard work and continue with that food freedom. It will never feel perfect I’m sure, but seems like you have made huge progress! Be proud! oh! And @littleg was it you that always uses mct oil? My aunt doing Whole30 got me hooked when I was home. She does bulletproof coffee and although I haven’t gone Totally bulletproof yet, I do a tablespoon of the oil in my coffee every morning now and love it! Way less acidic and good brain fuel!
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    Hey friends. Sorry I haven’t been posting much. Lots going on here and just trying to get back into a routine. @hmg1993 how’s the food freedom coming?! Hope you are still doing well! And @littleg I want house updates! After transitioning from food network to hgtv, house shows are my new fav! Hope the unpacking is nearing the end and the little man is liking the new space! Ive been battling some kind of sickness all week that really sucks. I’m hoping I’m on the up and up now and that it’s starting to go away, but it’s hard to tell. Ate everything possible yesterday that claims it’s detoxing, antioxidant healing, etc to try and boost my immune system, and it at least worked mentally! Made a beet soup last night that actually ended up being delicious. I’m trying to force myself to like beets lately, it’s not been working but this soup I can definitely do! Recipe below. 1 peeled and diced beet, 1/2 onion, 1 peeled and diced parsnip, 1 “pile” (maybe a cup or 2) green beans, 1 leek sliced, and 1 “pile” (maybe 1 cup) of asparagus cut into bite size pieces. Sautee it all in 1 tbsp coconut oil with salt and pepper. Add in 3 (or desired amount) cloves chopped garlic, then I didn’t measure but desired amount of ginger, thyme, basil, celery seed, anise, and a tbsp of chili garlic paste. After a few minutes, add 1 can coconut milk and 1 carton of vegetable broth. Bring to boil, reduce and let simmer for 30 minutes. Top with pumpkin seeds. I also topped with some pickled ginger and parsley. Sounds like a weird recipe and it definitely looks weird (very pink!), but tastes pretty good! Off to a busy day at work now. Presidents’ Day weekend is always nuts at ski resorts, but staying busy is good for me! Enjoy the weekend everyone!
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    Well I finally made it back to Colorado. The bad luck gods apparently didn’t think I had had enough this week so our we spend all day waiting for a continuely delayed flight Friday to then have it cancelled. Then they wanted to have us spend a 9 hr layover in Chicago where all flights were being cancelled for the snow storm. Long story, terrible customer service, and I’m never flying United again. But sooo happy we finally made it home safe last night. It’s great to be back, although the guilt of leaving my dad alone back east was rough. I know it will take time and adjusting and all that, I’m just worried about him, but I’m pretty sure we have convinced him to come stay out here for a while so hopefully that ends up happening! I’m looking at today as the first page in my next chapter. The sadness will always be there, but as my fiancé and I discussed, we can’t dwell on the past, and must focus now on doing what it takes to get us back to being healthy and happy. We have a wedding to look forward to (and plan! ) and now is when I need to put all my focus on working on and healing myself. The whole family struggled to stay Whole30 this week (especially me, It was bad) but we all discussed our intentions for the future and how to come out of this. My aunt and uncle are back to their 6 month plan (he only really cheated small a few times, but it’s a little more serious for him), and my other aunt who is like my 2nd mom is starting her Whole30 with my uncle today and I will be doing it with them too. I’m pretty determined to finally let this broken record stop playing and start a new one. I feel like a Very different person after this whole experience and I have learned so much along the way. I’ve got a lot of hard work ahead of me but I’m ready for the challenge now and will be able to focus way more than I could before. And my fiancé is totally on board and will be there for me too which is amazing. He won’t be doing Whole30 but will be gluten free strictly and dairy free as much as possible. Back to work today after I don’t even know how many days off. Looking forward to being outside again and getting the blood flowing in the cold mountain air. We went shopping together last night and I look forward to doing some meal prep and planning tonight. I’m craving buffalo chicken so that’s probaby on the menu tonight. Hope you all are doing well. Have a good Sunday!
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    Hello all. My mom passed away on Saturday night, surrounded by all of her dearly loved family. It was a very sad but peaceful moment and she did not experience much pain at all. My fiancé and I were able to give her a beautiful and brief “commitment” ceremony which I’m pretty sure she waited all week for, bc it was only hours after that she passed. Despite being able to talk or communicate, at the end of the ceremony, she managed to give us a big smile and tried to raise her arm up. That was all I needed to know we gave her everything she wanted. I feel like I have closure with everything, nothing was left unsaid, and I am happy she is no longer struggling to fight that terrible disease. Funeral planning is not fun or easy, but we are getting through it as a family. I will return home on Friday so I have a few more days to spend with my dad who is definitely struggling the most. We all were doing great healthy eating until that night. My aunt said “screw Whole30, some moments are just meant for wine and apple pie.” It was pretty funny. My uncle stayed pretty strong, but he’s the one doing it to fight his cancer, so it’s a bit more serious for him. I did great until Sunday and Monday, which were spent bingeing all. Day. Long. My aunt and fiancé left that morning and they were my rocks through this. (They will be back Wednesday but had to go work for a bit). When they left I just lost it. I’m obviously not beating myself up over this due to the circumstances, but I feel terrible today mentally and physically and now immediately want to get back on track. The temporary lapse in mindfulness was a stress relief, and now I want to feel good again. I’ll be continuing with funeral plans, spending time with family, and cooking dinner tonight with my other aunt who called and said she needs help getting back on Whole30 again too after a few days of too much apple pie. So we are all in this together which is nice. I have been on workout restriction for 3 days due to a terrible accident that happened the day she passed. That morning, our dog, who has never bit anyone his whole life, was acting very out of sorts and ended up violently biting my face and took out almost half of my upper lip. I had to rush to the ER for stitches and see a plastic surgeon. He was able to piece me back together but I’ll definitely look a little crazy for a while. It was one of those “literally what else could happen today” type days. So that was another reason I was stressed. Anyways, healing slowly and I’m allowed to exercise today which I will be doing immediately. It helps my mood so much. So anyways that is my sad update, but I am working through this day by day and am so thankful to have all my family around for support. This is not easy, but we will get through it. And hopefully with plain apples instead of pie from now on as my aunt said this morning.
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    @hmg1993 that sounds good! I never use fresh tarragon but love it. Will try soon! @littleg yes I was shocked. The doctor at his local hospital told him he needed surgery to completely remove it. He went for a second opinion at Duke University to a very well known doctor, and they said they are experimenting with nutritional recovery methods as much as possible right now before trying chemo, etc. So he’s doing it as part of a research trial. It’s so awesome in my opinion. Definitely encouraging to hear that some doctors are slowly getting on board and recognizing the importance of nutrition in healthcare. I’m still in the mountains, just taking it day by day. My fiancé gets here tomorrow, and more family arriving this weekend. It’s an unexplainable relaxed feeling in our house. I think because we are all able to support each other and get through this together, and we have had this week to really let it settle in our minds and work through the emotions. My other aunt arrived also who is just as passionate about being healthy as me which is so nice. She follows Dr Hymans “eat fat get thin” program which is very similar to Whole30, so having her here now is amazing bc she cooks, cleans, and is really focusing on keeping us all healthy and hiding all the cakes and pies! I’ve been working out the past few days which helped my mood a lot, and I plan to make a good dinner for everyone tonight. Not sure what yet but I’ll post what I come up with.
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    I feel the same way @hmg1993. Determination and refusing to give up until I conquer it. No matter the ups and downs. Fight through the emotions. They will subside eventually. You got this!
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    @hmg1993 sounds like you’re getting back into a good mindset! Small steps are best. Your doing awesome! Spending time with family has been so nice and really good for all of us mentally. The support is amazing and although it’s so hard watching this process, it’s much better than the guilty feeling of being so far away. After the first day of initial shock (and cinnamon cake) I have quickly settled in and come to accept what is happening. And once again reminded that exercising and eating healthy are so helpful in keeping my mood up. I’ve always believed that everything happens for a reason. Haven’t figured out what that is with my mom yet, but did feel the “Whole30 is meant to be” last night. My aunt and uncle came to visit for the day and he found out a while ago that he has prostate cancer. We thought he was going in for surgery this week to have it removed, and then yesterday he arrived with very different news. His words... “you will never believe this. Instead of taking it out, they told me they want me to go on some crazy diet called Whole30 for 6 months and they think it’s gonna like make it go away! I don’t understand at all, but I’ll tell you what, it’s only day 2 and if someone doesn’t take away that cinnamon cake on your counter soon I’m gonna get violent!” They didn’t know about my history with Whole30 at all, and as soon as I told them I was like the stars aligned. My aunt was thrilled bc she is doing it with him and is at a complete loss for what to do. They haven’t done research yet or prepped or anything, just went with what the doctor told them about basics so far. And these people are Deep South sweet tea with biscuits and gravy people to the core. I told her about the books, how I can help, and she asked for as many family members to join them for support. I almost teared up. My dad and brother haven’t agreed yet (they were eating lays and onion dip during this convo), but I told them although I’ve been struggling lately, I will try my very hardest to stick with it for him this time. Our talk was pretty hilarious all night (deep southern accents... “now darlin I’ve heard of diets like weight watchers and such, but what in the lords name is this “paleo”? Like dinosaur food or somethin?”) I did a lot of explaining and it felt good to help them understand and see the reasoning behind the doctors ideas. Anyways, as per my aunt and uncles request this time, it’s day 2 for me. I told her a little about my emotional eating issues lately so I don’t put an immense amount of pressure on myself to be perfect, but it does feel a little different doing it for someone else and not me. So we will see how I do for the rest of the week. It’s certainly easier though with them around bc it encourages everyone to eat Whole30 together when they are here which is amazing. Anyways, crazy news that was very uplifting for me and made me realize that I do need to continue doing the best I can and not give up bc obviously there is something more to this eating plan than many people realize. If doctors are trying to cure his cancer with this, I’m totally inspired and will continue to swear by it. I hope Melissa knows that shifts in treatment like this are occuring now, and I am so eager to see the results after 6 months. I hope so much that it works. Anyways, sorry for the long rant. It was just crazy to find that out last night. I have no idea what day it is today bc I’m losing track of time being here, but I hope everyone has a great day.
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    Good morning. I’m here in the mountains with Mom and family. Yesterday was a very long day. no sleep, spent the whole day traveling, got up here around dinner, spent a while with her until she went back to sleep, then spent time with family. As usual, I did great all day, and then took all my emotions and stress out on the most delicious homemade cinnamon coffee bundt cake thing ive ever had. As well as tons more of the other foods from the never ending “food train” from friends and family. It’s so thoughtful and kind that people bring so much food, but I just want to stay PLEASE STOP. You should see our fridge here. It looks like we just catered a wedding. I actually had a very candid talk with my dad brother and aunt about it though yesterday. They will be here all week with me and I told them that I’m strugglimg with extreme grief/emotional eating, it’s a real problem, I’ve gained 20 lbs in 3 months, and I asked them to help me this week and just keep an eye out for how I’m doing. If they see me going to food they will try and talk me through it. My aunt is great and a real good support so I’m hoping being open and honest will help. My fiancé should be coming Friday but we are playing it all by ear. That will also help me. Things change quickly though so we are just going day by day. Anyways, just wanted to give an update and get my head a little more straight this morning. @hmg1993 glad you are doing better. Stay strong. This was just a small bump in your beautiful road to success.
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    Oh and that docuseries isn’t free anymore I just noticed. Bummer. Way too expensive to buy too. Oh well.