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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg, totally agree with the not into giving kids red #40, ETC. So messed up. I worry if I become a parent I will be way too obsessive about not exposing my child to stuff like that, but maybe thats not a bad thing? i dunno, moderation is good for them to learn I guess, but that's gonna be something I know I will struggle with.  Glad you made it through the day successfully! 
    I've been doing ok, but not great. Finished my first whole30 and then went off the wagon a bit. I had a bad week of bingeing last week, but have once again (hopefully) gotten back on track now. I am trying something new with this whole30. I find I think a lot of the time I end of caving or breaking my whole30 and spiraling into a binge is because of my "all or nothing" mindset. I panic in the tough times and if I have even one small slip, I immediately go into the mode of "ugh I failed again. well now i should just binge." So this time around, although it is not in the essence of a true whole30, I am adding in a new rule. I call it the "It Never Happened Rule." I definitely do not plan on cheating or slipping at all still, BUT, if a "make or break" situation arises and I end up making the unfortunate choice to eat something not compliant, instead of thinking "thats it, i have to start over, i might as well just go crazy now", I will instead instate a 3 bite rule. If I am able to stop eating with 3 or less bites of whatever the food is, then I will try and regain mental control, get back on track, and pretend that the slip "never happened." I will then continue on with whole30 life for the day (hopefully) and try to eliminate the all or nothing behavior. I haven't had a chance to test this out yet, which is good, and i am only planning on using it if i really feel a "failure" coming on, but I just figure it may help change by binge behavior and mental attitude a bit. And for me, even if the whole 30 ends up having a few slips, in my recovery right now, that would be a huge step in the right direction, and much better than 6 days of perfect whole30 with 1 day of terrible bingeing every week. So Im gonna give it a try and see how it goes. Ill let you know, but hopefully I don't have to test this out for a long time! 
     
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg, totally agree with the not into giving kids red #40, ETC. So messed up. I worry if I become a parent I will be way too obsessive about not exposing my child to stuff like that, but maybe thats not a bad thing? i dunno, moderation is good for them to learn I guess, but that's gonna be something I know I will struggle with.  Glad you made it through the day successfully! 
    I've been doing ok, but not great. Finished my first whole30 and then went off the wagon a bit. I had a bad week of bingeing last week, but have once again (hopefully) gotten back on track now. I am trying something new with this whole30. I find I think a lot of the time I end of caving or breaking my whole30 and spiraling into a binge is because of my "all or nothing" mindset. I panic in the tough times and if I have even one small slip, I immediately go into the mode of "ugh I failed again. well now i should just binge." So this time around, although it is not in the essence of a true whole30, I am adding in a new rule. I call it the "It Never Happened Rule." I definitely do not plan on cheating or slipping at all still, BUT, if a "make or break" situation arises and I end up making the unfortunate choice to eat something not compliant, instead of thinking "thats it, i have to start over, i might as well just go crazy now", I will instead instate a 3 bite rule. If I am able to stop eating with 3 or less bites of whatever the food is, then I will try and regain mental control, get back on track, and pretend that the slip "never happened." I will then continue on with whole30 life for the day (hopefully) and try to eliminate the all or nothing behavior. I haven't had a chance to test this out yet, which is good, and i am only planning on using it if i really feel a "failure" coming on, but I just figure it may help change by binge behavior and mental attitude a bit. And for me, even if the whole 30 ends up having a few slips, in my recovery right now, that would be a huge step in the right direction, and much better than 6 days of perfect whole30 with 1 day of terrible bingeing every week. So Im gonna give it a try and see how it goes. Ill let you know, but hopefully I don't have to test this out for a long time! 
     
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    Dragonslayer reacted to hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @Dragonslayer  As much as I think the integrity of a W30 and all 30 is important,  I do think it's called W30 for a reason in that we're not supposed to go beyond 30 days unless of course we feel like we need the extra days to address cravings.  What I have observed is that after a "perfect" W90 or so,  I got into a cycle of 4 "good days" and then binge .. back and forth.  My view now is that the binges were addressing the restrictions and stress of  meeting the program requirements.  I've relaxed things now to my own rules that enable a little diary (greek yogurt, some cheese), Oatmeal, quinoa, Almond Milk, and overall less label watching.  I still say no to sugar, wheat and nuts (the latter is just because it's zero brakes).  I also gave myself a wine allowance of three glasses a week, which I have yet to use any of but mentally having it there if i want to have a drink with a friend is so much better than feeling that I can't.  This approach seems more doable for me right now and is definitely controlling the binges because I don't have that all or nothing mindset......
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg I think those families are only in the movies haha! I immediately thought of the football scene in wedding crashers. I’m not worried about you at all! You got this. You’ve been doing so well. No reason to be nervous. That’s just the old you trying to poke it’s head out. Stay strong and confident in your decisions! 
    I had 3 days of unfortunate bingeing but now I find myself on day 3 of Whole30 again. I can still feel the effects of  all the sugar, gluten, etc but I’m staying Strong. It’s exactly 12 weeks until the wedding and for some reason knowing that number is really keeping me focused right now on getting back on track and losing some of this extra weight. Hoping the ridiculous cravings end soon bc it’s been a brutal 3 days so far, but I know it will get better. Working out has helped, and I’m stocked up on a bunch of good food at home so I have no excuses! It’s amazinf how just 3 days off track can throw my mind back into the bad habits, but I’m just trying to remind myself it’s the habit talking and not my true self. Looking forward to the Easter candy being gone from work and hopeful that this will be a good week! 
     
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Good morning! Had a real “heart to heart” with myself (if that’s possible haha) last night and did a lot of journaling and thinking. Yesterday was day 30. I am so happy and proud that I have finally completed my 2nd whole 30, but I realized last night that this is only the very beginning. Cutting out all those bad foods isn’t going to just cure me of my disorder. Sugar is definitely evil and crucial to eliminate in my journey to recovering from binge eating, but the habit is still so engrained in my head and the behaviors have not even close to gone away yet. I don’t drive from place to place gorging on ice cream and cookies and chips anymore, but I’ve just replaced the junk food with healthy food now, and no matter what I allow myself to have, I’m still losing control and letting the habit manifest in anyway it can find. In this next challenge I started (30 for 30), nothing will change from my original plan, but I really realized last night that now that I’m detoxed from sugar and feeling mentally in a much better place, it’s time to really buckle down and focus on the behaviors. The food is basically a habit at this point and doesn’t require much effort at all, so my focus from today on will be to do 4 “template” meals each day, all foods on a plate, sitting down, eating mindfully. My downfall is always snacking between meals and standing in the kitchen eating from the fridge, so I will practice eliminating those behaviors and being very strict about it this time around. I think I got a little ahead of myself when I came up with my 30for30 a few days ago and wanted to start at my 100 days until my wedding mark, but I decided this morning that although I’m on day 5 today successfully, I will restart today just to keep true to my 30 day stretches. Yesterday felt like the true milestone and end of my first phase, so I’ll just call these last 5 days my introduction/warm-up for the real deal. It’s hard accepting the fact that now I have to deal with the real root issues of my problem that aren’t even food related, but it’s also exciting knowing that I am finally making some progress and am moving on to the next phase. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from Xandra in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Ok, I did my list of rules! I'm posting them below, so now I'm really being held accountable. Might sound restrictive or strange to some, but this is what works for me and what I think is best at this point in my food freedom. Every 30 days I will re-evaluate my rules and decide if I need any changes. Here's to the next 100 days and my journey to a binge free food freedom! ... 
    YES Whole Foods: All non starchy vegetables, low sugar fruits (berries, grapefruit and cantaloupe), sweet and red potatoes, parsnips, all squash, All non or minimally processed meat, Eggs, Avocados, Olives, Coconut, 100% Cacao YES Drinks/Liquids: Almond Milk, Coconut Milk, Kombucha, Coffee, Tea, All Vinegars YES Oils: Avocado, Coconut, Olive, Sesame, and Walnut YES Flours: Coconut, Cassava, Arrowroot, Tapioca, Flax Meal NO Whole Foods: All Grains, Dairy, Peas, Corn, Soy, Plantains, High Sugar Fruits, Peanut Butter, Sunflower Butter, Honey, Maple Syrup NO Other Foods: Added sugar of any kind, anything made with peas, corn, or soy, any processed or refined oils, restaurant breakfast potatoes or fries (even sweet potato), restaurant dressings (only olive oil and vinegar)anything packaged that would technically be compliant (ex: sweet potato chips, dried fruit, fruit and nut bars, mary's crackers, etc.), smoothies, anything resembling a baked good, bread, or dessert. EXCEPTIONS: Homemade coconut/flax waffles, cassava tortillas and crusts, homemade fries, packaged coconut flakes, 100% cacao bars. NEVER ALLOWED IN THE HOUSE BUT YES AT RESTAURANTS OR SPECIAL OCCASIONS: Butter or Oils cooked on foods that are unavoidable (ex: burger grilled with non compliant oil, this does not mean wings are ok because they are deep fried in oil- that is avoidable), nuts, nut butters, seeds, sauces made with fruit, coconut butter, higher quality bacon #1 Overall Rule: No matter how bad the cravings, even if I give in and binge, NEVER binge on anything but YES foods. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg sounds like you are in a great place right now! And @hmg1993 I also agree about the things we think we “need.” I too used to eat 85% Lindt every night @littleg! I thought I couldn’t live without some kind of treat like that, as well as apples. They were a “must have” every single morning. Now here I am eliminating fruit all together and I can’t rememher the last time I had a Lindt bar. I think it’s mentally a good thing to learn and realize you don’t “need” anything really. It’s helping me going through this process knowing i can get all the nutrients I truly need through very few foods really. At the moment I do feel the “need” for meat and vegetables, but I think that’s because it’s basically all I’m eating! 
    It’s day 3 of my “30for30” challenge. Feeling good. Had some tough cravings last night when we went out to eat. I let myself enjoy some buffalo wings which were actually gluten free and baked (in lots of butter I’m sure but it’s all good) and Totally delicious. It helped my urges a lot to feel like I was indulging in something bc I never get wings usually, and having a little butter or oil or whatever they used is a better choice for me right now than giving in to the fruit and potato urges, so I’m happy about my choice. 
    Back to work today and feeling ready to continue and conquer this new challenge! 
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    Dragonslayer reacted to Brewer5 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @Dragonslayer -- thanks for the mention of the "Broken Brain" documentary.
    Wanted to let you all know that it is available on youtube and I'm watching it here:
    https://brokenbrain.com/01-epidemic/
    I'm not far into it, but I see one of the first speakers is Dr. Datis Kharrazian, who wrote Why Isn't My Brain Working? -- a book that I've had for a few years.  It's beefy, and I don't think I ever finished it, and I haven't pulled it off the shelf for awhile.  But lots of good stuff in there.  I look forward to hearing what all they have to say.
    Have a great day!
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 that sounds good! I never use fresh tarragon but love it. Will try soon!
    @littleg yes I was shocked. The doctor at his local hospital told him he needed surgery to completely remove it. He went for a second opinion at Duke University to a very well known doctor, and they said they are experimenting with nutritional recovery methods as much as possible right now before trying chemo, etc. So he’s doing it as part of a research trial. It’s so awesome in my opinion. Definitely encouraging to hear that some doctors are slowly getting on board and recognizing the importance of nutrition in healthcare. 
    I’m still in the mountains, just taking it day by day. My fiancé gets here tomorrow, and more family arriving this weekend. It’s an unexplainable relaxed feeling in our house. I think because we are all able to support each other and get through this together, and we have had this week to really let it settle in our minds and work through the emotions. My other aunt arrived also who is just as passionate about being healthy as me which is so nice. She follows Dr Hymans “eat fat get thin” program which is very similar to Whole30, so having her here now is amazing bc she cooks, cleans, and is really focusing on keeping us all healthy and hiding all the cakes and pies! I’ve been working out the past few days which helped my mood a lot, and I plan to make a good dinner for everyone tonight. Not sure what yet but I’ll post what I come up with. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 sounds like you’re getting back into a good mindset! Small steps are best. Your doing awesome! 
    Spending time with family has been so nice and really good for all of us mentally. The support is amazing and although it’s so hard watching this process, it’s much better than the guilty feeling of being so far away. After the first day of initial shock (and cinnamon cake) I have quickly settled in and come to accept what is happening. And once again reminded that exercising and eating healthy are so helpful in keeping my mood up. 
    I’ve always believed that everything happens for a reason. Haven’t figured out what that is with my mom yet, but did feel the “Whole30 is meant to be” last night. My aunt and uncle came to visit for the day and he found out a while ago that he has prostate cancer. We thought he was going in for surgery this week to have it removed, and then yesterday he arrived with very different news. His words... “you will never believe this. Instead of taking it out, they told me they want me to go on some crazy diet called Whole30 for 6 months and they think it’s gonna like make it go away! I don’t understand at all, but I’ll tell you what, it’s only day 2 and if someone doesn’t take away that cinnamon cake on your counter soon I’m gonna get violent!” They didn’t know about my history with Whole30 at all, and as soon as I told them I was like the stars aligned. My aunt was thrilled bc she is doing it with him and is at a complete loss for what to do. They haven’t done research yet or prepped or anything, just went with what the doctor told them about basics so far. And these people are Deep South sweet tea with biscuits and gravy people to the core. I told her about the books, how I can help, and she asked for as many family members to join them for support. I almost teared up. My dad and brother haven’t agreed yet (they were eating lays and onion dip during this convo), but I told them although I’ve been struggling lately, I will try my very hardest to stick with it for him this time. Our talk was pretty hilarious all night (deep southern accents... “now darlin I’ve heard of diets like weight watchers and such, but what in the lords name is this “paleo”? Like dinosaur food or somethin?”) I did a lot of explaining and it felt good to help them understand and see the reasoning behind the doctors ideas. 
    Anyways, as per my aunt and uncles request this time, it’s day 2 for me. I told her a little about my emotional eating issues lately so I don’t put an immense amount of pressure on myself to be perfect, but it does feel a little different doing it for someone else and not me. So we will see how I do for the rest of the week. It’s certainly easier though with them around bc it encourages everyone to eat Whole30 together when they are here which is amazing. Anyways, crazy news that was very uplifting for me and made me realize that I do need to continue doing the best I can and not give up bc obviously there is something more to this eating plan than many people realize. If doctors are trying to cure his cancer with this, I’m totally inspired and will continue to swear by it. I hope Melissa knows that shifts in treatment like this are occuring now, and I am so eager to see the results after 6 months. I hope so much that it works. 
    Anyways, sorry for the long rant. It was just crazy to find that out last night. I have no idea what day it is today bc I’m losing track of time being here, but I hope everyone has a great day. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from Brewer5 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    There’s a free Docuseries online right now called “Broken Brain” by Dr Mark Hyman. I’ve always liked his books/viewpoints/research. It’s free right now and I watched 2 episodes last night. Super interesting and very related to food and essentially promotes a similar eating style to Whole30 with a few differences. Also talks about other ways to “heal” your brain from the years of “hurting” it. I’m finding it very inspiring and it’s reminding me of the reAsons I was so passionate about a year ago with staying away from refined/processed foods, sugar, and gluten. If your bored (which I’m sure you aren’t @littleg but if you need a break! And maybe same to you @hmg1993) you should check it out! 
    I had a rough day yesterday for many reasons but I’m up early for yoga again bc i can feel it’s really helping, and it’s my Friday so I’m looking forward to some days off! 
    Have a good one! 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Good morning! Just a quick check in. I have less than a week left until 30 days! Truly amazing for me. Despite the compliant binges, I am so proud of myself. This morning i have a real sense of gratitude and feeling of hope for my future. My plan is to finish out this week making small changes to plan for the next 30. I want to now work on getting rid of these compliant binges, and i know the key will be to eliminate the problem foods... fruit, nuts, potatoes. I haven’t done it yet bc it seems so hard and sad (mostly my favorite foods right now!), but for my next 30, they will be gone. I will focus on a practice of 4 meals a day, no snacks (unless it’s a much needed exercise induced starving moment from skiing or something) and most importantly, no snacking before or after dinner, the ultimate challenge. I feel good about this next step. It will be my hardest challenge yet, basically trying to do a “true” Whole30, but with even more restrictions. I’m considering adding in occasional beans or rice if I really feel the need for more carbs, but I am leaning towards not doing that. We will see. Maybe just let myself have them when eating out, but honestly I don’t ever crave them at all. 
    I’m excited and looking forward to continuing down this Whole30 road for a while, until I feel more mentally in control and truly have the Tiger blood, cause I’m definitely not there yet. 
    Hope you guys are still doing well! 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg thanks for the advice/update. I’m gonna check out that other thread after this! And those rules are very similar to mine I’m trying to follow through this Whole30 and beyond as well. Most importantly is the no munching before or after dinner. That is currently my only (but major) issue. It’s day 20 for me! Truly amazing and I’m so happy about it... BUT since yesterday morning I have had the most intense headache and can’t figure out why. I did have quite a few binges over the past week so I’m wondering if my body is just still overloaded and now kind of detoxing back to normal. Could be way too much intake of fat over the days as well. All the nuts, coconut, etc. I know having too much fat has caused headaches before for me, so that’s a possibility. But could also be because one of my binges the other day was very sugary. For the first time in a long time I caved and had a bunch of dried fruit, an rx bar, and potatoes and other fruits, so maybe I’m recovering from the sugar rush as well. Either way, it sucks, and I’m being very careful about what I consume for a few days to try and get back to feeling good. 
    But as for the fruit nuts and potatoes in the house, I’ve done great not having nuts. That’s key I have learned. Fruit and potatoes is hard though because my fiancé eats those a lot so he’s not really ok with not having them around. So I’ll try and just do my best, but just not having nuts has seemed to make a huge difference for the past few days so I will make sure to keep those away! 
    I have baby steps planned for my next stages of Whole30. I plan to do it until I feel in control and ready to make some reintroductions. Which could take a while, but I’m ok with that. Mostly though I’m working on eating 4 meals with no snacking before or after (goes well for everything except dinner usually), and then not turning to fruit nuts or potatoes when I get bingey. All in all, I think I’m making slow improvements and my mental strength and stability is increasing which is good. 
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    Dragonslayer reacted to littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @Dragonslayer Yeah, I'd tend to think they need to go.  My nemesis is dried fruit - and I just can't keep it around.  If I'm not in full blown binge mode and think I can have just a handful... I really can't.  So, no dried fruit.  Alcoholics rarely do well with just one drink and I think for us, some of these foods really fall into the same category.  
    Are you eating enough in general?  I know my binges get worse when I undereat.  My urges also decrease the most when I eat a big breakfast.  The safety net of "oh, I haven't eaten much today" goes away.  Are you eating enough early in the day?  Even if you think you are could you try eating a little more in the morning and see if that helps?  
    My last thought would be to get back into that pattern work you were doing early on.  With all the stress for you the last few months I am sure that the [stress-->eat] neuronal pathway in your brain has been on ALL.THE.TIME.  Understandably.  It may be time to remind your brain it has other options for feeling good and the first way to do that is to consciously not give into the urge.  Maybe do 30 burpees before you decide to eat nuts, potatoes or fruit when it isn't part of a meal  
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from RJTurbot in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    I can't tell you guys how comforting it is to see that others struggle with this just as I do. My binge eating disorder recovery has become such a huge part of my life but I have never had anyone I felt comfortable talking to or relating to at all. I talk to my boyfriend, but it's tough when he's trying to be supportive but I know he just doesn't get what it's like. So I really appreciate you all sharing your stories and thoughts. I'm on day 6 and I'm feeling great. My biggest help thus far that I am focusing on is making sure I get enough carbs each day, whether I get exercise or not. It seems to really be helping with the cravings and calming the dragon down a bit. It's still hard, but doesn't feel like a horrible battle. 
    One thing I wanted to share is my evolution from my previous whole30. It was actually a whole62, and I learned a lot. So throughout the entire experience, each week when I got the urge to binge, I set a realistic goals for myself to get better and better each time, so I felt like I actually accomplished something and not like I completely "failed." For instance, the first week, I said, "ok, I know I am going to binge, so this week, I will only allow myself to have compliant whole30 foods with no sugary foods like dried fruit. So even if I lost control, I only let myself eat things like nut butters, compliant sweet potato chips, etc. Then, the next time I felt the binge coming on, I set a new goal. "Ok, this time, I will only let myself have whole foods, and nothing in a package (like whole fruit, whole sweet potatoes, whole almonds, etc.) I set these small goals every time and when I actually accomplished them, it felt really good like I was actually making improvements and gaining mental strength. I still binge now, but its been 2 months since my Whole62, and throughout the whole time off the plan, I still continued setting these small goals and I am constantly improving. I just started my 2nd whole30 this week (I am on day 6) and I decided it will be a whole100 for me, because I know that is how long it's going to take me to work on and conquer these binge and eating habits. Anyways, I just wanted to share that strategy because it's really working for me, and it's making the entire experience much more "doable." I think people with binge eating issues have to cater the whole30 to their own habits and needs, and even if we aren't following it "by the book", any little improvements are a major success. I find it's most important to set realistic goals for yourself that you know you can actually stick to. So don't lie to yourself, but also challenge yourself to take it one step further every week or so. 
    I am feeling so great on day 6 already, and I am so happy I am finally getting back on track to continue my recovery. I always remind myself that this process is not linear. It will be a few steps back sometimes, but then many steps forward. Hard times after easy times, but also vice versa. It's just important to focus on the improvements we are making and the progress over time.
    I don't know any of you, but I feel like we all know the exact emotions and feelings we all feel in the tough times and what its like to have this disfunctional relationship with food. A lot of people in our lives have no idea what some of us go through, but having support and a place to talk like this forum is really refreshing and I hope we can all learn and grow from each other. 
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    Dragonslayer reacted to littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Lemon zest on roasted broccoli.  It may change your life.  If you are doing cheese, some really good grated parmesan might just make you never eat anything again.  I wish I hadn't waited... um, well, a few more than 30 years to eat this
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Well I finally made it back to Colorado. The bad luck gods apparently didn’t think I had had enough this week so our we spend all day waiting for a continuely delayed flight Friday to then have it cancelled. Then they wanted to have us spend a 9 hr layover in Chicago where all flights were being cancelled for the snow storm. Long story, terrible customer service, and I’m never flying United again. But sooo happy we finally made it home safe last night. It’s great to be back, although the guilt of leaving my dad alone back east was rough. I know it will take time and adjusting and all that, I’m just worried about him, but I’m pretty sure we have convinced him to come stay out here for a while so hopefully that ends up happening! I’m looking at today as the first page in my next chapter. The sadness will always be there, but as my fiancé and I discussed, we can’t dwell on the past, and must focus now on doing what it takes to get us back to being healthy and happy. We have a wedding to look forward to (and plan! ) and now is when I need to put all my focus on working on and healing myself. The whole family struggled to stay Whole30 this week (especially me, It was bad) but we all discussed our intentions for the future and how to come out of this. My aunt and uncle are back to their 6 month plan (he only really cheated small a few times, but it’s a little more serious for him), and my other aunt who is like my 2nd mom is starting her Whole30 with my uncle today and I will be doing it with them too. I’m pretty determined to finally let this broken record stop playing and start a new one. I feel like a Very different person after this whole experience and I have learned so much along the way. I’ve got a lot of hard work ahead of me but I’m ready for the challenge now and will be able to focus way more than I could before. And my fiancé is totally on board and will be there for me too which is amazing. He won’t be doing Whole30 but will be gluten free strictly and dairy free as much as possible. 
    Back to work today after I don’t even know how many days off. Looking forward to being outside again and getting the blood flowing in the cold mountain air. We went shopping together last night and I look forward to doing some meal prep and planning tonight. I’m craving buffalo chicken so that’s probaby on the menu tonight. 
    Hope you all are doing well. Have a good Sunday! 
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    Dragonslayer reacted to hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Welcome home @Dragonslayer.  It sounds like you have an incredible support network.  On the wedding front, do you ever look at 100layercake.com?  They have gorgeous ideas.  
    It's a sleepy Sunday here. Just managed to stir myself to go to exercise class and now about to tackle weekly meal prep.  Roasting veggies for lunch and making chicken Marbella which is a big favorite, and incredibly easy.  Full disclosure, I am not W30 right now.  I am trying a Whole Me, which is 75% W30 and then some freedom around the edges for things like oatmeal or almond milk or a little dairy.  I would like to lose some weight and need to have options beyond nuts to stick my beak into!  Taking it day by day but so far so good....... Maybe it's food freedom but not sure!
     
     
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from scoakley13 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Hello all. My mom passed away on Saturday night, surrounded by all of her dearly loved family. It was a very sad but peaceful moment and she did not experience much pain at all. My fiancé and I were able to give her a beautiful and brief “commitment” ceremony which I’m pretty sure she waited all week for, bc it was only hours after that she passed. Despite being able to talk or communicate, at the end of the ceremony, she managed to give us a big smile and tried to raise her arm up. That was all I needed to know we gave her everything she wanted. I feel like I have closure with everything, nothing was left unsaid, and I am happy she is no longer struggling to fight that terrible disease. Funeral planning is not fun or easy, but we are getting through it as a family. I will return home on Friday so I have a few more days to spend with my dad who is definitely struggling the most. 
    We all were doing great healthy eating until that night. My aunt said “screw Whole30, some moments are just meant for wine and apple pie.” It was pretty funny. My uncle stayed pretty strong, but he’s the one doing it to fight his cancer, so it’s a bit more serious for him. I did great until Sunday and Monday, which were spent bingeing all. Day. Long. My aunt and fiancé left that morning and they were my rocks through this. (They will be back Wednesday but had to go work for a bit). When they left I just lost it. I’m obviously not beating myself up over this due to the circumstances, but I feel terrible today mentally and physically and now immediately want to get back on track. The temporary lapse in mindfulness was a stress relief, and now I want to feel good again. I’ll be continuing with funeral plans, spending time with family, and cooking dinner tonight with my other aunt who called and said she needs help getting back on Whole30 again too after a few days of too much apple pie. So we are all in this together which is nice. I have been on workout restriction for 3 days due to a terrible accident that happened the day she passed. That morning, our dog, who has never bit anyone his whole life, was acting very out of sorts and ended up violently biting my face and took out almost half of my upper lip. I had to rush to the ER for stitches and see a plastic surgeon. He was able to piece me back together but I’ll definitely look a little crazy for a while. It was one of those “literally what else could happen today” type days. So that was another reason I was stressed. Anyways, healing slowly and I’m allowed to exercise today which I will be doing immediately. It helps my mood so much. 
    So anyways that is my sad update, but I am working through this day by day and am so thankful to have all my family around for support. This is not easy, but we will get through it. And hopefully with plain apples instead of pie from now on as my aunt said this morning. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from DeAnnaV in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @Alisha Alexander You should TOTALLY do 100 days with me! We can be accountabilibuddies ! The reason for the long time is that from most research I have done, it takes the average person 66 days to either develop or erase a habit. Knowing that my habits are so engrained and so emotionally driven, I figured I would go all the way to 100 assuming I need that long. 30 days is great to come to some new realizations, and detox and feel the effects of the changes, but the habits wont really stick for most people unless you continue to do those new things for a long time afterwards. I too have a few modifications with my whole100, but it's foods I know either do or don't work well for me. I think it's just all about the progress. I've learned it's ok not to beat myself up if I realize I ate something at a restaurant that had butter or sugar. I dont need to "restart" after that at this point. I was super strict about my first 30 days of my whole62, but for 100 days, its just a little more realistic to let those small slips go, especially if you aren't eating them on purpose and or can't really control how they are cooked. 
    Anyways, seriously think about the 100 with me. I would love a buddy!
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 that sounds good! I never use fresh tarragon but love it. Will try soon!
    @littleg yes I was shocked. The doctor at his local hospital told him he needed surgery to completely remove it. He went for a second opinion at Duke University to a very well known doctor, and they said they are experimenting with nutritional recovery methods as much as possible right now before trying chemo, etc. So he’s doing it as part of a research trial. It’s so awesome in my opinion. Definitely encouraging to hear that some doctors are slowly getting on board and recognizing the importance of nutrition in healthcare. 
    I’m still in the mountains, just taking it day by day. My fiancé gets here tomorrow, and more family arriving this weekend. It’s an unexplainable relaxed feeling in our house. I think because we are all able to support each other and get through this together, and we have had this week to really let it settle in our minds and work through the emotions. My other aunt arrived also who is just as passionate about being healthy as me which is so nice. She follows Dr Hymans “eat fat get thin” program which is very similar to Whole30, so having her here now is amazing bc she cooks, cleans, and is really focusing on keeping us all healthy and hiding all the cakes and pies! I’ve been working out the past few days which helped my mood a lot, and I plan to make a good dinner for everyone tonight. Not sure what yet but I’ll post what I come up with. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 that sounds good! I never use fresh tarragon but love it. Will try soon!
    @littleg yes I was shocked. The doctor at his local hospital told him he needed surgery to completely remove it. He went for a second opinion at Duke University to a very well known doctor, and they said they are experimenting with nutritional recovery methods as much as possible right now before trying chemo, etc. So he’s doing it as part of a research trial. It’s so awesome in my opinion. Definitely encouraging to hear that some doctors are slowly getting on board and recognizing the importance of nutrition in healthcare. 
    I’m still in the mountains, just taking it day by day. My fiancé gets here tomorrow, and more family arriving this weekend. It’s an unexplainable relaxed feeling in our house. I think because we are all able to support each other and get through this together, and we have had this week to really let it settle in our minds and work through the emotions. My other aunt arrived also who is just as passionate about being healthy as me which is so nice. She follows Dr Hymans “eat fat get thin” program which is very similar to Whole30, so having her here now is amazing bc she cooks, cleans, and is really focusing on keeping us all healthy and hiding all the cakes and pies! I’ve been working out the past few days which helped my mood a lot, and I plan to make a good dinner for everyone tonight. Not sure what yet but I’ll post what I come up with. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    I feel the same way @hmg1993. Determination and refusing to give up until I conquer it. No matter the ups and downs. Fight through the emotions. They will subside eventually. You got this! 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    I feel the same way @hmg1993. Determination and refusing to give up until I conquer it. No matter the ups and downs. Fight through the emotions. They will subside eventually. You got this! 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 sounds like you’re getting back into a good mindset! Small steps are best. Your doing awesome! 
    Spending time with family has been so nice and really good for all of us mentally. The support is amazing and although it’s so hard watching this process, it’s much better than the guilty feeling of being so far away. After the first day of initial shock (and cinnamon cake) I have quickly settled in and come to accept what is happening. And once again reminded that exercising and eating healthy are so helpful in keeping my mood up. 
    I’ve always believed that everything happens for a reason. Haven’t figured out what that is with my mom yet, but did feel the “Whole30 is meant to be” last night. My aunt and uncle came to visit for the day and he found out a while ago that he has prostate cancer. We thought he was going in for surgery this week to have it removed, and then yesterday he arrived with very different news. His words... “you will never believe this. Instead of taking it out, they told me they want me to go on some crazy diet called Whole30 for 6 months and they think it’s gonna like make it go away! I don’t understand at all, but I’ll tell you what, it’s only day 2 and if someone doesn’t take away that cinnamon cake on your counter soon I’m gonna get violent!” They didn’t know about my history with Whole30 at all, and as soon as I told them I was like the stars aligned. My aunt was thrilled bc she is doing it with him and is at a complete loss for what to do. They haven’t done research yet or prepped or anything, just went with what the doctor told them about basics so far. And these people are Deep South sweet tea with biscuits and gravy people to the core. I told her about the books, how I can help, and she asked for as many family members to join them for support. I almost teared up. My dad and brother haven’t agreed yet (they were eating lays and onion dip during this convo), but I told them although I’ve been struggling lately, I will try my very hardest to stick with it for him this time. Our talk was pretty hilarious all night (deep southern accents... “now darlin I’ve heard of diets like weight watchers and such, but what in the lords name is this “paleo”? Like dinosaur food or somethin?”) I did a lot of explaining and it felt good to help them understand and see the reasoning behind the doctors ideas. 
    Anyways, as per my aunt and uncles request this time, it’s day 2 for me. I told her a little about my emotional eating issues lately so I don’t put an immense amount of pressure on myself to be perfect, but it does feel a little different doing it for someone else and not me. So we will see how I do for the rest of the week. It’s certainly easier though with them around bc it encourages everyone to eat Whole30 together when they are here which is amazing. Anyways, crazy news that was very uplifting for me and made me realize that I do need to continue doing the best I can and not give up bc obviously there is something more to this eating plan than many people realize. If doctors are trying to cure his cancer with this, I’m totally inspired and will continue to swear by it. I hope Melissa knows that shifts in treatment like this are occuring now, and I am so eager to see the results after 6 months. I hope so much that it works. 
    Anyways, sorry for the long rant. It was just crazy to find that out last night. I have no idea what day it is today bc I’m losing track of time being here, but I hope everyone has a great day.