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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Good morning! Feeling good and ready to head back to work today. It’s day 3 of “all meals on a plate” with absolutely no exceptions, and it’s going well so far! Last night I got a little Ansy and wanted to snack before dinner. What I really wanted though was a glass of wine, so I had one! And it was delicious and I don’t regret it at all. For some reason sipping on wine really helps me with my patience for waiting to eat. So I’m gonna bring it back into my life. Not every night, but I’m thinking nights I don’t have wine I’ll have a glass of kombucha instead. I just need something to help me wind down at the end of the day and it really helped yesterday. 
    Didn’t really do anything I said I would with the IP but I did do other yummy things! I made buffalo shredded chicken which took all of 10 minutes including prep. Chicken breasts, ghee, Franks red hot sauce, and a little salt. 8 minutes later it was ready to shred and eat. Made a jicama salad to go with it. Diced jicama, red pepper, celery, cilantro, chipotle lime mayo (primal kitchen brand), ACV, salt, pepper, and dried minced garlic. 
    Next I tried just some plain brown rice for my fiancé for dinner/lunches. It wasn’t ready after the “rice” setting was done so I kept it in and added a few more minutes. Turned out ok. Wondering if I’m not supposed to do the normal 2 cups of water with 1 cup of rice. 
    Then I made beef and broccoli stir fry for dinner which was great. 20 minutes cubed beef with beef broth, coconut aminos, coconut oil, fish sauce, Chile garlic sauce (basically Siracha but without the sugar- comes in a small jar), ginger, garlic and salt. While that was cooking I sautéed some fresh broccoli together with a bag of frozen stir fry veggies. Used the same sauce of everything above but  added some rice vinegar and basil as well. Poured it all into the IP when it was done. Super good. Also made a frittata with bacon, red onions, kale, and tomatoes in the cast iron (400 for 25 minutes- perfect every time) for breakfast for a few days, so I am good to go for lunches for a bit! 
    Hope everyone has a good weekend! 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg you can totally still count that as 30! But 50 would probably be beneficial too. Sounds like you’re doing awesome! Keep rolling! @hmg1993 so excited for your IP! I’m actually regretting not getting the 9 in 1 version (I just did 6 in 1) but I’m sure I can still do everything I want, just gotta figure out times and temperatures and such. @littleg do you know if you can still make  yogurt with the 6 in 1 that doesn’t have the yogurt button? I figure it’s just a timing thing, but didn’t know if it’s actually a different aspect of the pot that is included in the more expensive version. I’m curious about coconut yogurt. 
    I’m still doing mediocre at best, but gonna try and do a few new things this week. My issue I know is that the only way I am used to dealing with stress and anxiety is with eating, so my focus is to find new things to help manage my feelings and try not to turn to food. I’m just gonna focus on that each day this week and see if being mindful of my feelings and trying to purposely do something else will help a bit. I bought some “worry beads” on amazon to try, ever heard of them? It’s just like a fidgety bracelet with beads you can move around and I think it would be good for me to just do something with my hands. And I can wear it as a bracelet so it’s always on me. Then I read that black tea is a big stress/cortisol reducer. I’ve always done green tea or some others, so I’m gonna buy the black stuff today and give it a go each afternoon. I’m still very controlled in the mornings and my hard time is at night, so I’ll try the tea mid afternoon. I’m also going to switch my meditation to the afternoon after work. I have tried to do it before for at least 5 minutes, but I realized I’m doing it when I don’t really need it, so I’m gonna switch that around too. Lastly, for this week, only 7 days so I don’t feel overwhelmed, I’m going to try to only eat what I deliberately put on my plate for 4 meals. (3 proper meals and 1 large snack type meal). I’m going to take pictures of each plate and journal each day. I’m sure if I end up doing this successfully the foods will naturally end up being Whole30, but I’m not forcing that one, so if it’s a restaurant and something isn’t compliant, it’s all good as long as it’s on the plate and I don’t eat other stuff afterwards. This will not be easy for me, but I just want to give it a try for a week. Hoping it may help get me back on track. 
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    Dragonslayer reacted to hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg  Couldn't have said it better.  This is such a no judgment zone ... be it binging, apple slices, almond butter -- or my recent trick of picking the macadamia nuts out of my husband's trail mix.  So glad you're feeling better @Dragonslayer. Let me know how you like the frittata.  It is amazing cold for lunch too.
     
    I ordered a Cemex and an instant pot today.  Bring it!!
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Morning! I’m back in Colorado and it was sooooo nice to sleep in my own bed instead of a couch. I’m tired and jet lagged but we are up early to go to steamboat for the day to ski together (me and the man) since we haven’t seen each other in a week and we have the day off together. It’s exactly what I want/need after a week of doing more sitting and not exercising than maybe ever before! I managed to stay Totally whole 30 for the last 4 days of my trip, so although I was going to restart today, I figure I can just call today day 5 now, right?! I wasn’t thinking about the pressure of the days at all, and that actually was really good for me, so I will continue to not focus on what day I’m on and just think with the same mindset. Left my dad with lots of food and other stuff to help him, and she was pretty stable, so although I feel terrible for having to leave, I also got a little bit of closure knowing I helped a lot for the week, did what I could, and will return in the near future. Getting a home aide hopefully next week too, which is a huge weight off all our shoulders and will help me worry less. 
    So relatively speaking, I’m doing well, happy to be back in the mountain air, and actually looking forward to getting back to work! This week was a great time of reflection and getting my head straight in a lot of ways so I’m feeling good about my intentions and where I want to go from here. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg you are so right about everything. My goal is just finding easy food that my dad doesn’t have to worry about cooking for when she needs a quick pick me up. And foods that pack a lot of protein and fat in a small amount. She does have an appetite but only wants very small portions. And she’s basically responding like a diabetic and needs constant fuel every few hours or she crashes. The sugar gives her quick energy but she actually doesn’t have much of a sweet tooth so she isn’t enjoying the smoothies, fruit, etc I’m trying, except in the morning. So far avocado toast is a hit, as well as clif bars, bananas, Vega protein shakes, and instant mashed potatoes. Trying roasted salted nuts, corn chips and dip, and a few other more salty things today. 
    But yeah I had that revelation today actually about just letting her have what she wants. She does want to work on picking healthier options which is good, so I’m just gonna roll with her cravings and try to alter with healthy choices whenever she’s cool with it. I’m just happy if she’s eating anything right now, bc she’s been basically going into what seems like a diabetic coma every few hours, and then snaps out of it when she eats. So I’m learning how to keep her more balanced. Seems like protein is key. 
    As for me, I cancelled dinner plans tonight and tomorrow with my aunt and close family friend. I just decided it’s too much and I would rather be at home making wholesome meals that help make me feel good, bc I’m learning that me feeling good is almost as important as her feeling good when it comes to my care and energy. So I’m focusing on what’s best for me too for the next few days. And being in my happy Whole30 kitchen zone is where I want to be. Prepping (non Whole30) food for my mom to freeze and making meals that work for all of us. I’m also seriously considering bringing wine back in my life every so often bc I really feel like it will help my stress/anxiety every once in a while. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 glad you had a safe trip back!  And thanks for the support. I think you are right and although I will continue to get back on track while I’m here, maybe I won’t start counting strict until I get back home on Thursday. Less stress to worry about on myself at least. 
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    Dragonslayer reacted to Brewer5 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg Hello, friend.
    I just popped in here tonight for the first time in awhile, and see I had a mention.  I don't know why I get no email notifications from the forum at all.  They've made a lot of changes.  
    I'm so glad you remember me as a source of support during some of your most difficult days.  Thank you.  
    And I see I'm (almost) just in time for little guy's BIRTHDAY!   Woo hoo -- congrats!   My "baby" will be 11 on Monday.  I didn't remember their birthdays were so close together.  
    I hope your friends don't mind me posting here.  I don't really have "a place" anymore.  My old thread is just so... old.  Lol.  
    I obviously have not read everything here in 19 pages.  But I'm glad you all have found each other.  The support of others around the world going through similar struggles can help save your sanity at times.   When no one IRL understands what you are feeling, it's great to know *someone* does.   Seriously, can you imagine life before the internet?   In my years here at Whole 30, I made some really good friends.   
    Happy New Year & take care, all!
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg I had a similar upsetting experience on New Years. (Not fair to compare to your experience bc I haven’t had similar issues, but just to relate a little...) I looked back at my whole year of journaling all the way back to my last years resolutions where I basically had the same revelation and said “this is really the time” and all that same stuff. Now a year later here I am still struggling and even relapsing. BUT I hadn’t started Whole 30 yet and didn’t have a clear plan or path to follow that would help me with goal setting. But it was frustrating seeing how little progress I felt like I’ve made. But what you and I should do is look at the mental progress instead of the physical. I’m sure you are way stronger in many aspects of your life. And I’m sure you have learned a great deal about yourself and made big strides in figuring out the things you want/need to work on. It’s totally normal to spend these first years Totally dedicating yourself to your child and not helping yourself. That’s not a bad thing. But maybe now that it’s been a year and you are able to reflect and see that you want to change some things, you can start giving yourself a little more self love and focus. Don’t get down on yourself. A year in perspective isn’t that long. Quick fixes don’t last. It’s the slow long term changes that really stick, so just look at it as slow small changes and now you can build on this past year and set some more goals for doing “you things” this year. I’ve never been a mom but I really feel like after the first year or so, being a little selfish and focusing back on you is totally normal and necessary. I think some of my Mom friends think that doing things they want and not putting the child first all the time is the way to be the best mom, but I believe that if you aren’t focusing on bettering yourself and getting back into those things you like, you won’t be able to be the best person you can be as an example for your son. You want him to see you happy and active and doing things you love so he can follow in your footsteps and learn to be independent, find things he loves, and grow into a strong and driven person just like you! So be selfish for a while and make some goals and plans for YOU. My friend had similar feelings and finally tried a few things like daycare/babysitting/activities for the baby so she was able to have some time for herself more and it made a huge difference. Lose those guilty feelings and give yourself some love. You deserve it! Sounds like you are an amazing wife and mom, so now you need to worry about your own happiness and getting back into those things you love to do. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 I have always battled with sleeping issues. I too take magnesium and sometimes melatonin, but after my first 20 days of Whole30, I slept like a baby. Also I think the biggest game changer for me was taking the tv out of the bedroom. I made my fiancé “try it” (knowing I would never let it back in) and after about a week my sleep patterns completely changed. You should definitely try it. I swear it’s the main reason I’m doing better these days. Also putting my phone and any lights away from the bed and no screens an hour before sleep. That one doesn’t always happen but I try. 
    I too love the Michael pollan rule. And very silly but I even used to try to follow that rule when bingeing. That went out the door for the past few months, but very conscious of it again now that I’m back on Whole30. 
    My dad let me take a break and get out for a bit today which was amazing. I went WILD at Whole Foods (in a good way) and was so happy to bring back some good food for us all. I feel more comforted now knowing I have some options and although I’m not going to treat them as snacks, I did buy a few snacky type foods only for “emergency” throughout my stay this week. Also got to work out, shower, and run some other errands. Feeling good and my mom might be discharged tomorrow so things are so much better all around! 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg aww happy birthday tiny g! Time does fly when they are growing up I bet. Hope he has a great birthday! Bummer about the fridge, ours broke last winter and I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown Haha. Just the thought of all the wasted food killed me. But hopefully you get a new one soon! That certainly makes whole30 harder, but you got it! 
    @hmg1993 sounds like you are in such a great place mentally and really finding your food freedom! So jealous, but inspired to keep going so I can be at that point hopefully soon in the future! 
    Man, the difference between hospital food in Denver vs Atlanta is like a steak restaurant vs McDonald’s. But this food is actually worse than McDonald’s. It appears I’ll be living off hard boiled eggs for a few meals because everything else is extremely NOT compliant and I honestly don’t think I would want it even if I was in a binge state! That’s saying ALOT. It’s also upsetting to see what they feed my mom. It’s making me so aware of my choices and I’m trying to help her make some better ones too. I’m gonna hopefully make it to a store today to stalk up on some goods for both of us. It’s torture letting her eat this stuff. Look at the ingredients in this crap! You may not be able to see but basically it’s sugar, refined oils, and a whole bunch of fake nutrients. Total bummer to see this in a hospital. But at least she’s getting better so I’m trying not to focus on her food until we are out and at home. Anyways, still going strong. So tired from no sleep but I know I can handle it. 
     

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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from RandiW in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Day 12! Although the numbers were definitely causing me more stress mentally for the past few days, now, I believe they are actually helping me mentally. Yesterday and then again this morning I have this huge sense of relief and confidence, just knowing the first ten days are over. I haven’t made it to day 12 in a while, and it feels great. Whether or not it’s true, I feel like the worst is behind me, and I am so looking forward to this coming week. Being with family, change of scenery, new challenges but also easier in some aspects, and just some down time to reflect on my life, what’s important, my values, and find “my center.” Finding your center was the chapter i read last night and it was very eye opening. All about where “you live” (figurately) right now and how to change it to be more principle based instead. Example: I discovered that I float between relationship, pleasure, and self centered. (There are 6 or 7 main centers: family, relationship/spouse, Work, pleasure, church, object/possessions, self, etc) But instead of living in these emotion based centers, we should try and determine what our basic personal life principles are and live in a principle based center instead. This helps you stand apart from the emotions you encounter and evaluate your options/decisions based on your principles that remain constant your whole life. It gives you a secure base to work from so you can slowly become more proactive than reactive. (Makes a lot more sense the way the book describes but very eye opening.) 
    So as the book reccomends, I will spend my next week working on writing my personal mission statement, determining the values that mean most to me, and finding what my center is now and creating a principle based center to work towards instead. 
    Hope everyone has a great day. It’s breakfast stir fry for breakfast and then breakfast salad for lunch because all we have is breakfast sausage eggs avocado cauliflower rice and some veggies. Tonight is date night out to spend some quality time together bc this trip will be the longest my fiancé and I have ever been apart in all of our 8 years together! Is that weird?! 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from RandiW in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Day 11! Yesterday was so hard. My cravings just wont end. I told my fiancé though last night eventually, which helped me stop munching, but it was another bingey (Whole30) night. The one thing I’m stopping today is going to the store after work. I’ve started already thinking about what I will buy right before work ends and it’s turning into this horrible pattern this week. The foods are technically Whole30 but still super snacky and not following the “meal” rule at all. Today my small goal is to NOT do this for just today. Eat 3 meals only. Totally Whole30 style. And I’m stuck in the dispatch office at a computer all day so hopefully the starvation won’t hit bc I won’t be very active. Part of me thinks that just getting past day 10 is a huge mental struggle, so I’m hoping it naturally becomes easier from today on and that my stress reduces. I think i was causing more stress and anxiety bc of the day number, which is silly, but I feel more relaxed today knowing I got through it.
    Tomorrow is my Friday and then I leave to go home and care for my mom for a week. It will be a very tough/sad/stressful time, but I’m happy I will be able to be there for my dad to help and I know it’s the best thing to do right now. She’s basically living in the hospital at this point. My down time will be spent journaling, reading, writing, and spending quality time with my dad. He’s struggling emotionally so I’m hoping I can give him a bit of a mental break to relax. I also think the change of scenery will help me a lot to get out of this munching pattern. I won’t have a car so I won’t be able to go binge shopping, and I’ll be around my family non stop so that will help my behavior. My dad never snacks and eats 3 square meals, so I’m going to try and follow his schedule. There is a gym in his condo complex so I can stay active, and I’m hoping to cook and freeze a ton of healthy whole30ish food for them during the week. My mom hasn’t been following a healthy diet at all bc she feels nauseous and craves the worst foods, so I’m hoping to make some delicious recipes that she will enjoy. 
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    Dragonslayer reacted to hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @Dragonslayer  Yay on reaching Day 12 and the confidence that comes with it.  You are also totally inspiring me to dig into the seven habits.  I love the idea of a personal mission statement.   I spend so much time and energies doing that for work and totally neglect me.  So a very good exercise -- particularly for the long plane rides ahead back to the very frozen north.  Not looking forward to that temperature differential.
     
    I don't think it's weird at all on the eight years. We're celebrating 25 years (child bride!) next week and spend very little time apart.  It's all good.
     
     
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    Dragonslayer reacted to littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Have a great date night!  Just think about how happy you guys will be 9 days from now!  
    PS - I ate nothing but breakfast sausage for lunch too :/  Well, so far, I may need a snack later 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 I got the Instant Pot (that’s the brand) Lux60 V3 6 quart 6 in 1 version. No yogurt maker but it was $80 vs $119 for the 7 in 1 so I just went cheaper. 
    Everything ive been quoting or talking about lately is all from the same habit book I’m still reading. “7 habits of highly effective people”. I love it. It’s meant to take each habit one by one and work on one until you are ready to build on it and introduce the 2nd, etc. I’m going to read the whole book first, and then do as reccomended. Right now the beginning stages are simply determining the habits you want to change, figuring out the behaviors/feelings associated with them, and then making a conscious effort to take responsibility for your actions, determine the values you want to live by instead, and be proactive instead of blaming it on something else. So instead of saying “I binged because I’m addicted to sugar and couldn’t control myself”, I should say “I made the choice to binge even though deep down I want to make healthier choices. I binged because I chose to respond to my urge and was not proactive in trying to respond in a different way.” It’s all about taking ownership of your choices and realizing that nothing is out of your control. You are Response-Able, and practicing that over and over is the key to the first step. 
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    Dragonslayer reacted to littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @Dragonslayer
     I guess I have another book to get from the library!  I really like the language you used above!   
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 I got the Instant Pot (that’s the brand) Lux60 V3 6 quart 6 in 1 version. No yogurt maker but it was $80 vs $119 for the 7 in 1 so I just went cheaper. 
    Everything ive been quoting or talking about lately is all from the same habit book I’m still reading. “7 habits of highly effective people”. I love it. It’s meant to take each habit one by one and work on one until you are ready to build on it and introduce the 2nd, etc. I’m going to read the whole book first, and then do as reccomended. Right now the beginning stages are simply determining the habits you want to change, figuring out the behaviors/feelings associated with them, and then making a conscious effort to take responsibility for your actions, determine the values you want to live by instead, and be proactive instead of blaming it on something else. So instead of saying “I binged because I’m addicted to sugar and couldn’t control myself”, I should say “I made the choice to binge even though deep down I want to make healthier choices. I binged because I chose to respond to my urge and was not proactive in trying to respond in a different way.” It’s all about taking ownership of your choices and realizing that nothing is out of your control. You are Response-Able, and practicing that over and over is the key to the first step. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Happy 2018! It’s the dreaded day 10, the days when I struggle most (as seen already by my past 2 days of night binges), but I actually am not dreading any of it this time. It’s kind of ironic that it falls on the first day of this year. A new year and a new way to approach and get past day 10. With confidence and kindness this time. I couldn’t sleep much last night but spent the time thinking about my resolutions and found it very therapeutic to determine what my true and most important values are that I want to work on. As the book I’m reading states, we should live by our values, not by our feelings. Our feelings are not us. And a lot of them are actually the opposite of us. They just developed into a bad little habit and we have to learn to focus on what we truly want long term and not how we feel right this second. A good quote... “If you focus on ways to win the war, you will have more triumph in the battles.” 
    Going off of Melissa’s “year of strong and bendy” on instagram, this will be My “Year of Strong and Balanced” Resolutions, divided into the areas I want to work on most:
    1. Strength: Work on mental, physical, and emotional strength through confidence, self love, and movement. Get back into yoga as it is a good compliment to all the skiing, enjoy a hot cup of tea after work to wind down, and tell myself daily my intentions and why I know I can achieve my goals.
    2. Balance: Practice maintaining a balanced lifestyle. This involves food, family, friends, work, play, sleep, social media, reading, writing, and traveling. Find balance through setting small daily goals, making weekly plans, following through, and working towards my ideal healthy and happy lifestyle. 
    3. Health: Keep doing Whole30 and use it as a tool to help achieve 1 and 2. Stay active to help with positive mindset and fueling those endorphins. This will not be hard seeing as it is a requirement for my career . 
    4. Self Love: Practice new ways of handling stress, anxiety, sadness, and boredom. Tea, reading, writing, breathing, skiing, meditation, yoga. Also, Remind myself of my values each week through journaling and ways I’m working towards recovery and improvement. Get back into writing your book and use it as a therapeutic tool and way to stay mindful and attentive of changes. (Did I tell you guys I’m writing a book? Started a long time ago but lost the drive about a year ago. It’s about my life. More details later.) 
    5. Discipline: Be the change you want and know you can be. Don’t keep reliving days 1 through 10. Have the confidence and discipline to work towards exploring days 100 through 110! 
     
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from SugarcubeOD in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @SugarcubeOD very thoughtful and refreshing post. I too will be trying to work on similar goals. I’ve learned more and more each day/week/month why I binge and the deep down reasons for it. Yes I do have a sugar addiction, but beyond that is eating from stress, sadness, anxiety, and boredom. Those are my main triggers and I am going to try and write down my goals on how I want to better handle those feelings in 2018. I know I already have a tough year coming up with my moms Health going downhill, but it’s all the more reason to focus on how I will choose to respond to my feelings. Instead of hurting myself and turning to food, I will try and find things that actually make me feel better the next day so that I can keep my body and mind as healthy as possible. I know it won’t happen every time, and I know it will be an uphill battle, but being more aware of the reasons is a huge improvement and working towards new responses is the next chapter in recovery. 
    Speaking of all this, I had another unfortunate response to my stress and sadness tonight, but I just didn’t try hard enough to use another technique because I was tired, on the phone hearing bad news, and just not focused on what I was putting in my mouth. Stayed Whole30, but very similar situation to last night except worse this time. Still learning and growing, and being kind to myself and saying it’s ok. The fact that I didn’t turn to ice cream and cookies is an improvement for me. And perfection is not realistic or my goal. Baby steps. Tomorrow is a new year and I plan on working to make it my strongest year ever. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from SugarcubeOD in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @SugarcubeOD very thoughtful and refreshing post. I too will be trying to work on similar goals. I’ve learned more and more each day/week/month why I binge and the deep down reasons for it. Yes I do have a sugar addiction, but beyond that is eating from stress, sadness, anxiety, and boredom. Those are my main triggers and I am going to try and write down my goals on how I want to better handle those feelings in 2018. I know I already have a tough year coming up with my moms Health going downhill, but it’s all the more reason to focus on how I will choose to respond to my feelings. Instead of hurting myself and turning to food, I will try and find things that actually make me feel better the next day so that I can keep my body and mind as healthy as possible. I know it won’t happen every time, and I know it will be an uphill battle, but being more aware of the reasons is a huge improvement and working towards new responses is the next chapter in recovery. 
    Speaking of all this, I had another unfortunate response to my stress and sadness tonight, but I just didn’t try hard enough to use another technique because I was tired, on the phone hearing bad news, and just not focused on what I was putting in my mouth. Stayed Whole30, but very similar situation to last night except worse this time. Still learning and growing, and being kind to myself and saying it’s ok. The fact that I didn’t turn to ice cream and cookies is an improvement for me. And perfection is not realistic or my goal. Baby steps. Tomorrow is a new year and I plan on working to make it my strongest year ever. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. 
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    Dragonslayer reacted to littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    I have recipes!
     
    https://www.scatteredthoughtsofacraftymom.com/how-to-cook-brisket-in-the-pressure-cooker/  <-- holy moly, this was good, I think I could have eaten the whole 2.5 lb brisket
    https://www.marksdailyapple.com/beef-stroganoff/  <-- skip the cream and the butter, I used ground beef and onions instead of shallots and steak
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    Dragonslayer reacted to hmg1993 in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @Dragonslayer  I wonder if you made yourself a seltzer water with fruit or something that would feel a little more like a special drink if that would help?  Evenings are my kryptonite too and I try to get around it by planning and prepping my dinners at the weekend so dinner is relatively quick to come together and then i try to stay away from the kitchen after dinner.
     
    @littleg  Feasting on pineapple.  It's so good and a lot less sweet that what we get on the mainland!  The vacation no stress approach is real but then I do tend to eat like a wild wildebeest when i get back from a trip.  It's definitely the stress of reentry, which I am going to try and avoid this go around.  Congratulations on day 1 (or 2 now i think?)!
     
    Starting to think about new years resolutions.  Being kinder to myself will be one big one!
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @hmg1993 I can’t believe you are still not there! Sounds like the ultimate traveling nightmare. Hang in there. I really believe everything happens for a reason so there has to be some kind of light at the end of this vacation tunnel! 
    @littleg the holidays are the hardest time for people like us. I would say it’s good you are angry, but also just remind yourself that baby steps are what is important to focus on. The binges won’t just stop. They may get better (or worse sometimes), but we all just have to keep making small adjustments and work towards small goals. I would say you did great the day before and that should be celebrated. The next day was probably your brain just tired from all the resisting before. You’ve learned your lesson and can move on to practice new strategies now. We don’t learn unless we fail sometimes. But the most important question, were the cookies good enough to be “worth it?” Or at least in the future would 1 of them be worth it? I try to ask myself which foods were worth it after a binge and remember that for the next time so I at least choose foods I truly love. Small baby steps. 
    I made it through yesterday. Didn’t eat dinner which was good bc I was still so full. Drove back for work today. Very sad to leave my parents there bc they aren’t leaving until Thursday, but I’m going to be flying home next week to help care for her for a while, so I have to work as much as possible this week to make up for it. Feeling like this whole experience is making me a much stronger person already in many areas of life. Learning to be more positive despite the sadness, learning to appreciate the very little things, learning to multi task, stay calm under pressure, be patient, kind instead of angry, and most importantly the thing I’ve never been good at, functioning with very little sleep. Coffee has doubled but thank god for it. If that becomes my new addiction I’ll take it over cookies. 
    Feeling strong this morning and ready to push through whatever 2018 has in store for me. 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from littleg in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    @littleg yes it would feel so great to start the new year already feeling good! I’m at work taking a break and it’s already so different in my head. Today people brought in peanut butter brittle, muffins, donuts, cookies, AND chocolate. It was almost unbelievable how much food there is. But Im not phased at all today. I don’t want it and have no desire (at least so far) to even think about it. Much better than everyday this past week. Hopefully i keep a strong mind all through the New Years treats too! 
    And sounds like a great plan for you and hubs. Having support at home is so helpful. And I think your new ideas sound great. Changes are always good for the mind and body I think. 
    @hmg1993 I hope you are having an amazing time in Hawaii! It’s dumping snow here and I’m freezing thinking about you and your pineapples on the beach 
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    Dragonslayer got a reaction from Jewels_V in Binge eating and re-starting Whole30   
    Ok, I did my list of rules! I'm posting them below, so now I'm really being held accountable. Might sound restrictive or strange to some, but this is what works for me and what I think is best at this point in my food freedom. Every 30 days I will re-evaluate my rules and decide if I need any changes. Here's to the next 100 days and my journey to a binge free food freedom! ... 
    YES Whole Foods: All non starchy vegetables, low sugar fruits (berries, grapefruit and cantaloupe), sweet and red potatoes, parsnips, all squash, All non or minimally processed meat, Eggs, Avocados, Olives, Coconut, 100% Cacao YES Drinks/Liquids: Almond Milk, Coconut Milk, Kombucha, Coffee, Tea, All Vinegars YES Oils: Avocado, Coconut, Olive, Sesame, and Walnut YES Flours: Coconut, Cassava, Arrowroot, Tapioca, Flax Meal NO Whole Foods: All Grains, Dairy, Peas, Corn, Soy, Plantains, High Sugar Fruits, Peanut Butter, Sunflower Butter, Honey, Maple Syrup NO Other Foods: Added sugar of any kind, anything made with peas, corn, or soy, any processed or refined oils, restaurant breakfast potatoes or fries (even sweet potato), restaurant dressings (only olive oil and vinegar)anything packaged that would technically be compliant (ex: sweet potato chips, dried fruit, fruit and nut bars, mary's crackers, etc.), smoothies, anything resembling a baked good, bread, or dessert. EXCEPTIONS: Homemade coconut/flax waffles, cassava tortillas and crusts, homemade fries, packaged coconut flakes, 100% cacao bars. NEVER ALLOWED IN THE HOUSE BUT YES AT RESTAURANTS OR SPECIAL OCCASIONS: Butter or Oils cooked on foods that are unavoidable (ex: burger grilled with non compliant oil, this does not mean wings are ok because they are deep fried in oil- that is avoidable), nuts, nut butters, seeds, sauces made with fruit, coconut butter, higher quality bacon #1 Overall Rule: No matter how bad the cravings, even if I give in and binge, NEVER binge on anything but YES foods.