Nadia B

http://paleomg.com/artichoke-lemon-pesto-chicken-pasta/

This has happened to me today, I posted in my log, however I feel like sharing in this thread too
I love liver and all organ meats. I am walking down the aisles of the organic store. I see this pack and get all excited.

Conversation while paying. Cashier: "Oh your dog is gonna love them!" Me:" I don't have a dog". Akward silence. I stare at the pack. It's a dog treat. Facepalm.

Dialog with colleague:
- Nadia, I've made fantastic caramel bars, I'll bring some for you.
- Thanks Mel, so sweet of you, but save them for your family. I don't eat sweets.
- But they are homemade! They are good for you!
- No, thanks Mel, I guess they are just less bad rather than good.
- I'll show you a recipe, they are perfectly healthy!
Turned out to be a 3 step thing: put crackers, top with butter/sugar so it forms caramel layer, top with huge layer of chocolate.
They are so perfectly healthy that I might quit Whole30 and eat them for bf, lunch and dinner

Sure, that's amazing. He is improving his health and keeping you a company, which is awesome, but it's just not a Whole30 for him. It's his own plan then. Sorry for getting anal here, but rules are rules Good luck and hope to see your post in the Success stories, bendy lady.  

Haha I think I have zero demand in my area of clubs and bars or banks and well more bars I think I should exchange scobies for bottles. Too bad I can't store them horizontaly. Wine bottle racks with booch. Booch cellars. Booch tasting tours

Ahahha priceless. Well done. Bone broth is called meat jello from now on. 

Picturing Susan washing scoby, pinning to dry, ironing and folding it. Ahah 

Dad has called and said his batch is ready. I said that I told him to test it after 5 days, not bottle it. He said nope, I love it like this. I thought that the vessel is in some powerd spot over there and told him to drink up Mary! Susan! Thank you so much, he has something to be excited about and something to play with during his "home arrest". He was so cute yelling "Nadia, it's ready! The blob has eaten the sugar! It's growing too. Do I bottle first or make new tea? Is it wrong that I like it plain? I want it plain! And yes, Mom said we need to add sugar to it to taste good. I said that she can't have sugar, right?! I mean if she doesn't like it more for me! Anyway, I don't see a baby you were talking about. Maybe we have a male scoby!!!" Shedding a tear.
Flavors update.
Cantaloupe. Don't waste kombucha, doesn't translate well at all.
Cherry. Always good. Cherry vanilla is the bomb. Cherry basil is awesome too.
Pear. Superstar. Pear vanilla and pear ginger - both are fantastic. Pear strawberry is lame. I am surprised.
Cranberry - good good.
Carrot - needs more experimenting. Carrot ginger blew me away.
Cardamon. Weird but I love cardamon. Will be perfect Christmas drink. What's gonna happen if you heat booch? I assume all the good stuff will be destroyed?

My flavors so far:
Blackberry-mango
Blackberry-strawberry-basil (loved it)
Strawberry-mint (loved it),
Strawberry-mango (too sweet but super fuzzy which is fun)
Ginger-lemon-orange (loved it)
Orange vanilla (LOVE)
Pineapple/strawberry/ginger
Cherry/orange (good)
Cucumber/lime/mint (a bit too bitter)
Cherry/vanilla (amazing)
Apricot/saffron/mint (best stuff ever)
Orange/cinnamon/cloves (Christmas!)
Apricot-cranberry-ginger (very good)
Orange-lemon-ginger (super fresh)
Apple-cinnamon (mnom)
Coconut-pineapple-mint (whatever)
New flavors that are going through second fermentation:
Peach/strawberry/ginger
Strawberry/Kiwi
Pear/Vanilla
Pear/Ginger
Cherry/Vanilla
Cherry/Basil
Carrot cake
Carrot/Ginger
Carrot/Apple/Cinnamon
Cranberry/Mango
Cranberry/Pineapple/Orange
Honeydew/Cardamon
Honeydew/Orange/Mint
Honeydew/Cantaloupe/Ginger/Lemongrass
Cantaloupe/Lavender
Cantaloupe/Basil
I don't burp anything. Hm. I just start opening them in two days as I am too impatient. This is how much fizz I have after the bottles sit overnight. Just to annoy you, Susan

Confession. I have not cooked out of love for over a year now. I threw some basic things together just to get it over with. I feel better eating real food, I save money and my skin doesn't freak out. I couldn't remember when I cooked for myself out of "I am going to make myself a delicious dinner" kind of love. After my first whole30 madness and absolute obsession with food and acting like a cooking factory, I entered a long period of my life where it just stopped bringing me joy. I felt like it's not important if my chicken for dinner is spiced up or not. I had full blown aversion to making new things. Tonight just felt different. I just went to the supermarket and spend an hour cutting, sautéing and simmering  things. I have a delicious boatload of curry (Well Fed blog for the win) and no guilt for staying in, not exercising (still doing surfing pop ups) and eating a yummy pot de creme in bed. Naughty Friday is what I want. 

I am back. Happier than ever. Nadia effect full force. It is SO ANNOYING. In a week of surfing and being in the sun I have dropped weight. Eating whatever I wanted but I also didn't want anything outrageous. I never though about what I eat other than - hungry or not. HOW do I achieve this zen back home. I love the ocean, I must move to live by the water.
To whole30 or not, that is the question. 

If only I can figure out how to always act out of love, genuinely, wholeheartedly, my life will get to a new level. It's the hardest thing I have ever chased. Move, sleep, eat the right amount and meditate not out of fear that I will get bigger, will look puffy or whatever that I am afraid of but out of true self love. I enjoy movement but sometimes I get really really averted to it. In the moments like this, the true ugly self doubt, guilt and fear come out. 
On the upside - tuna cakes from Nom Nom Paleo is the bomb. Can't get enough. 

Confession. I have not cooked out of love for over a year now. I threw some basic things together just to get it over with. I feel better eating real food, I save money and my skin doesn't freak out. I couldn't remember when I cooked for myself out of "I am going to make myself a delicious dinner" kind of love. After my first whole30 madness and absolute obsession with food and acting like a cooking factory, I entered a long period of my life where it just stopped bringing me joy. I felt like it's not important if my chicken for dinner is spiced up or not. I had full blown aversion to making new things. Tonight just felt different. I just went to the supermarket and spend an hour cutting, sautéing and simmering  things. I have a delicious boatload of curry (Well Fed blog for the win) and no guilt for staying in, not exercising (still doing surfing pop ups) and eating a yummy pot de creme in bed. Naughty Friday is what I want. 

My flavors so far:
Blackberry-mango
Blackberry-strawberry-basil (loved it)
Strawberry-mint (loved it),
Strawberry-mango (too sweet but super fuzzy which is fun)
Ginger-lemon-orange (loved it)
Orange vanilla (LOVE)
Pineapple/strawberry/ginger
Cherry/orange (good)
Cucumber/lime/mint (a bit too bitter)
Cherry/vanilla (amazing)
Apricot/saffron/mint (best stuff ever)
Orange/cinnamon/cloves (Christmas!)
Apricot-cranberry-ginger (very good)
Orange-lemon-ginger (super fresh)
Apple-cinnamon (mnom)
Coconut-pineapple-mint (whatever)
New flavors that are going through second fermentation:
Peach/strawberry/ginger
Strawberry/Kiwi
Pear/Vanilla
Pear/Ginger
Cherry/Vanilla
Cherry/Basil
Carrot cake
Carrot/Ginger
Carrot/Apple/Cinnamon
Cranberry/Mango
Cranberry/Pineapple/Orange
Honeydew/Cardamon
Honeydew/Orange/Mint
Honeydew/Cantaloupe/Ginger/Lemongrass
Cantaloupe/Lavender
Cantaloupe/Basil
I don't burp anything. Hm. I just start opening them in two days as I am too impatient. This is how much fizz I have after the bottles sit overnight. Just to annoy you, Susan

If only I can figure out how to always act out of love, genuinely, wholeheartedly, my life will get to a new level. It's the hardest thing I have ever chased. Move, sleep, eat the right amount and meditate not out of fear that I will get bigger, will look puffy or whatever that I am afraid of but out of true self love. I enjoy movement but sometimes I get really really averted to it. In the moments like this, the true ugly self doubt, guilt and fear come out. 
On the upside - tuna cakes from Nom Nom Paleo is the bomb. Can't get enough. 

Guys, how are things? I am in a weird place right now but I should stop call it weird just because it's unusual or not what I thought it would be. I was thinking that this is the most useless thought which is as toxic as comparison - the thought "I wouldn't think I end up here". Goals are important - regrets not so much. 
Okay, life updates.
 - My skin is freaking out. FREAKING out. Coconut or nightshades again? Weak gut? I am annoyed. 
- I love apples and eat tons. Courtland from the farmer's market mmmm.
- Coconut cream hot chocolate is not a swypo, it beats the original stuff any day. It also induces zero guilt somehow. 
- I am not working out, I just don't feel like it. Some yoga at home, biking and surfing pop ups before bed. I thought I'd be freaking out but I am kind of rolling with it. I have made my body do things as a punishment or disguised obligation way way too many times. That being said I am going to my snowboarding group outdoors workout as their prep for the upcoming trip. Legs be crushed me thinks.
- I am cooking all my meals, I love how I spend way less now, but holy guacomole, I am not used to this cooking train anymore and I am cooking for myself only.
- Breakfast problem. Okay I need your help here. I've tried to phase out oatmeal but nothing feels me up for this long this comfortable. I eat eggs and I am hungry 2 hours later. I tried meat in the am and I feel meh and guess what, hungry quit soon again. What to do?!
- I need your "bestest" chili recipe, I've got a new giant Crotch Pot.  
 

Thanks. The thought that stands as revolutionary to me, that you can reverse the process, you can possibly fake it till you make it. Your body will follow suit if you keep your diligence with Love-Acting.  It may be obvious to some, but it just hit me that I must do things that I clearly mark as self love with greater awareness. If that makes sense. 

The profile pic & photo upload issue should now be resolved.
The double, triple, quadruple posting etc are still being looked at...
Thank you for your patience everyone!

Thanks. The thought that stands as revolutionary to me, that you can reverse the process, you can possibly fake it till you make it. Your body will follow suit if you keep your diligence with Love-Acting.  It may be obvious to some, but it just hit me that I must do things that I clearly mark as self love with greater awareness. If that makes sense. 

I do things I love, I dance, I stretch, I bike, I listen to music and I see my friends. I wonder if it's truly the climate? I wonder if it's my monkey brain. I am tempted to do an aggressive meditation month  

I read a phrase that resonated with me big time. Love-Action results in Love-Feeling. I mean, how brilliant is this? The girl who wrote it, said that she has formulated a list of actions that mean self love and made herself, that's right MADE, do a few of them every day. She had no inspiration at first but kept being diligent about her experiment. Fascinating. I want to become my own fan. 
 

LOOK I have a face again  
Also this is my happiest place of all. Water baby I am. I will just leave this here as a reminder that I can always come back to that calm and loving place in my head. 

 
 

I do things I love, I dance, I stretch, I bike, I listen to music and I see my friends. I wonder if it's truly the climate? I wonder if it's my monkey brain. I am tempted to do an aggressive meditation month  

I am back. Happier than ever. Nadia effect full force. It is SO ANNOYING. In a week of surfing and being in the sun I have dropped weight. Eating whatever I wanted but I also didn't want anything outrageous. I never though about what I eat other than - hungry or not. HOW do I achieve this zen back home. I love the ocean, I must move to live by the water.
To whole30 or not, that is the question. 

Thanks for the post, Juzbo! I feel like this detoxing is waaay too long. It's my day 14 and I don't see it getting better I feel better only when my meals are getting super close to what I used to eat before, back in my low-fat-undereating days.