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    RachelR reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Day 14:  8/9/20
    I just don't have much to say at this point.  
    Whole 30 works, it just makes sense, and it's not anything new to me.  
    I feel a lot better and I can't really believe where I was a couple of weeks ago.  
    I've reduced my stress considerably by not signing up for any nursing shifts for over a week now.  That helps!
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    RachelR reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Day 13:  8/8/20

    Enjoying being sober.  How about that?   
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    RachelR reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Day 10:  8/5/20
    The news I speak of (which I cannot yet bring myself to speak of here) is weighing heavy on my heart tonight.  I've stayed strong for other people, and I've held back the tears because I don't want to discuss it with MIL.  Man, it's weird having someone else living in your home ...  We get along fine, but this is deep and personal.  Very, very little is "mine" anymore.
    So, I'm finally sitting outside, alone, late at night, and having a good cry.  The dogs don't mind.    And they don't ask me any questions.
    Tomorrow is a new day ~ and I'm looking forward to it.
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    RachelR reacted to MadyVanilla in RachelR- Start Date May 4, 2020   
    But you threw them out!!!   So it was a battle with the Sugar Dragon, and you won!  
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    RachelR reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in RachelR- Start Date May 4, 2020   
    LOL I do this too!  Well done to trash them. I'd insert a thumbs up emoji for you if there was one.
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    RachelR reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in RachelR- Start Date May 4, 2020   
    Wow!  You are looking aMAZing Rachel!  Keep going!!!!
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    RachelR reacted to MadyVanilla in RachelR- Start Date May 4, 2020   
    Wow, what great progress!  
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    RachelR got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in RachelR- Start Date May 4, 2020   
    I have been MIA....  Hope everyone is doing well.  I'm proud to say that I have continued with primarily eating Whole30 foods.  There have been a few conscious decisions to treat myself- small ice cream last week- as well as some choices to use food I have even if it isn't fully compliant-sausages w/ a bit of sugar in them, corn starch when I couldn't find arrowroot powder for a recipe, etc.  I also made a batch of cookies yesterday because I have been wanting more sweet stuff.  My thought is that if I have in moderation when I'm really wanting it- maybe it will prevent me from just going on a binge.  I may end up throwing them out.  So far my thoughts are- first bite was way to sugary sweet.  I had a headache after eating two and felt more lethargic. But then later before bed- I was contemplating having more but I knew it was out of boredom.  I had a couple more today when I got home from work.  Again- serving size on packet said 2 so that is what I'm trying to stick to.  Probably would have been fine with one.  Honestly- probably didn't need any because it was only when I opened my pantry to put some groceries away that I smelled them and then wanted them.  It's an experiment right now.  Hopefully it doesn't blow up.  I've doing better at making better decisions and still "treating myself."  For example- Last week I just really did not want to cook anything.  Didn't feel like going to Chipotle or Zoe's kitchen where I know I can stay whole 30.  My mind kept going to McDonalds.  I was so torn with myself because I knew whatever it was that I thought I wanted wouldn't taste good in reality.  Anyway...I got in my car and all the way up to the stop light I kept debating with myself.  In the end, I still chose to go and buy something but got a grilled market salad from Chick-Fil-A w/ honey mustard as well as a large fry.  Have to say- the fries were not great.  The salad was good and I enjoyed the honey mustard as I haven't had any sugary dressings.  I may be going down a slippery slope OR last week was just tough and I needed to slack off a bit???  We'll see....
    I still struggle with really feeling like I've made progress when it comes to day in and day out and how my body moves and feels.  My energy still isn't where I hoped it would be but overall I have to remind myself that I am doing a lot better than I was several months ago.  I have to keep reminding myself to focus on the things I have seen change in order to continue with my motivation to keep going forward.  My clothes are fitting better and even some things are too big now.  What I hate is the mind-fuck that occurs with women's clothing sizes.  I can comfortably fit in to my size 18 Old Navy Rockstar skinny jeans but I cannot fit in to my size 18 dress pants from a brand sold at Target.  Again, I have to go over and over to myself about the progress I've made and that with time, those clothes will fit again too.  
    As far as walking on the treadmill and doing the arm toning video.  I wasn't as consistent with the treadmill as things came up on my mom's schedule and instead of walking without her the few days, I just vegged out and been watching The Crown (just started season 3 today).  With the arm video- my goal was to do it 4x/week.  I did ok the first 3 weeks and then the last week in July- I only did it once.  I don't see much of a difference in my photo of my bicep but I can feel a bit of a difference.  I want to keep going with it and become more consistent with this simple video.  Hopefully in September, I'll feel ready to add in some more exercise.  
    Anyway.... I've lost 29.2 pounds since May 3rd.  Here is my progress pictures and my measurements:

    Here are the results:  (Measured myself so they may not be exactly accurate). S=start; C=current
    Waist @ belly button- S= 53.5"; C= 50 1/4"
    Waist @ narrowest point- S= 45"; C= 41"
    Hips- S= 54"; C= 50 3/4"
    Right- S= 29 3/4"; C=27 1/2" Left- S= 30"; C= 28 1/2" Calves-
    Right- S= 18 1/4"; C=17" Left- S= 18 3/4"; C= 16 3/4" Biceps (making a muscle)- 
    Right- S= 17 1/2"; C=17 1/4" Left- S= 17 1/4"; C= 17 3/4" Wrists-
    Right- S= 7 1/4"; C= 7" Left- S= 7 1/4"; C= 6 7/8" Neck- S= 15"; C= 14 1/4"
    Bust- S= 49"; C= 46 3/4" (not sure if this is right but I measured twice) 
    Chest S= 43"; C= 40 1/4"
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    RachelR reacted to Madeline368 in Trying Again- Maddie's Whole 30 Log   
    Thanks Mady, it was good.  So, let's see, where did I leave off?
    Tuesday July 21 I had a cucumber from my garden for an afternoon snack.  Dinner was taco salad with romaine, tomatoes, 2 kinds of peppers, cucumber, guacamole, salsa, and shredded beef.  
    Wednesday July 22, day 3, was bad.  Woke up late again so had coffee with nutpod creamer for breakfast.  Lunch was white fish and olives.  I had eggplant on my plate but didn't eat it.  My appetite is not great.  Had a cucumber for an afternoon snack- I am absolutely rolling in cukes right now from my garden thankfully and they make excellent snacks (yes, I know snacking isn't ideal, I'll get there).  After lunch I got one of the worst migraines I've had in a while so I ended up in bed at 4pm.  Got up at 7 and made a smoothie for dinner as I didn't feel good enough to cook and didn't have an appetite but thought getting some calories might help my migraine.  Used 1 banana, 1/2 c. pineapple, 1/2 c. strawberries, 1/2 c. raspberries, 1/4 c. almond milk.  Went back to bed after that and laid there in pain for several hours before finally falling asleep.  Got up at 9:30 this morning and my head is finally better.  
    Today is Thursday July 23, day 4.  I will probably end up either doing 45-60 days, or at least tacking on a few extra days at the end, once I get my meal plans right.  Currently I'm focusing on not eating anything off plan and getting through the pain of detoxing.
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    RachelR reacted to KelseyClaire in FatGirl Slim   
    Based on other people’s posts I think I’m doing this right (replying to my topic to continue the log). 
    I’m in the midst of trying to reset my sleep cycle. I’m a major night owl (so naturally I’ve chosen a profession that requires me to up and at work by 7:30 am, smart) and working from home has allowed me to get really crazy with my sleep pattern. I had gotten to a point where normal bedtime was between 2 and 3 am and then I would sleep until noon. 
    I’ve been physically going to bed earlier, but having a terrible time actually falling asleep. Usually, I listen to an audiobook and play a coloring app on my phone as my bedtime wind down. Last night I ditched the app and tried actually coloring. It seemed to help. I fell asleep in about an hour, as opposed to two or three hours. I’m going to stick with that strategy again tonight and see what happens.
    Even though I haven’t been sleeping that well, my energy is pretty stable and I’ve been able to get a lot done during the day. 
    My other small victory is hydration. I am teeeeeeerrible at drinking enough water. Sometimes it’s 1 in the afternoon before I realize I haven’t had a sip of liquid all day. I’m like a camel, except I’m not storing water, I’m just dehydrated all the time.
    I’ve started putting cucumber slices in water and putting it in the fridge in the evening. In the morning, it makes for a very tempting and refreshing treat (I don’t have AC). It’s been working really well, I’ve been drinking way more. It seems if I start the day drinking water, it’s easier to keep it going throughout the day.
    Alright, off to bed to color and hopefully fall asleep even faster tonight.
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    RachelR reacted to KelseyClaire in FatGirl Slim   
    I’m on day 6 of my 5th or 6th Whole30 and I’m doing it differently this time. One of the things that entails is being active in the forum, so hello!
    I guess on this first post I’m just going to dive right into the psychology, since meal prepping and staying on plan aren’t the struggle anymore. I know I can do that part. 
    I know my blog title might earn me a few side eyes, but 1. It’s a reference to the band Fatboy Slim and a nod to college nostalgia and 2. I’ve always identified as a fat girl, even before I actually was one. I’m 5’9” and I’ve been 5’9” since the 6th grade. I towered over my classmates. I was taller than some of my elementary school teachers. In old dance recital pictures, I look like Godzilla among the fairies. I was always bigger than everyone around me. Hard not to internalize that, I guess. 
    I’m also SUPER well-endowed, and again, have been since the 6th grade. The first real bra I remember shopping for was a C cup. I felt enormous in middle and high school, but looking back at pictures, I really wasn’t. It was just that most of my visible world was my massive chest, so I felt like all of me was massive. 
    I was an introverted, rebellious, weird little theater kid, and identifying as “the fat girl” and metaphorically and literally sticking the finger to the skinny bubbly popular girls became an important part of my identity. It’s still a pretty important part of my identity. I started belly dancing about 8 years ago partly because it fascinated me and I really wanted to, and partly because being a fat, sexy dancer and flying in the face of societal norms really appealed to me. Oh really? Fat girls can’t be hot? Look at this shimmy, LOOK AT IT!! I joined a CrossFit style gym and started weight lifting because I really loved watching people’s jaws drop when their assumptions that since I’m fat, I must also be weak got blown out of the water. 
    So I want to be very clear that I am not fat-shaming myself or anyone else. I love my fat body, and I have also realized that it’s really not serving me anymore. I’ve slowly been gaining weight since college, averaging about 10 pounds a year. I was starting to feel like things were getting out of control, and then the pandemic happened. Things got rooooough. Things were definitely out of control. Depression hit hard (shout out to Whole30ers battling mental health issues!) The gym shut down. Dance classes were cancelled. I’ve gained 30 pounds since March. Yikes. I’m exhausted, my clothes don’t fit, my family is worried about me, and for the first time since middle school, I feel like a prisoner in this body instead of a proud, fierce, joyful badass. I’m not a fan.
    So I’ve returned to Whole30. I’ve done it before, but I always treated it like a crash diet. I skimmed the website for the rules, but didn’t educate myself about the science. I’ve never done the reintroduction phase. I’ve never engaged with the community. I’ve never made lasting changes to my life style. 
    This time, the goal is to do it differently. I’m reading the books, I’m committing to the reintroduction phase, and I’m using this forum. The goal is actual, real, lasting change so I can feel like I’m in control of my life again. The goal is energy and clearing brain fog and fighting off depression. And yes, definitely weight loss. 
    I’m 33 years old, and I’ve finally decided that it is time to Do The Thing. Let’s go!

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    RachelR reacted to MadyVanilla in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Recalling, restarting, re instituting those healthy habits that work.  The NSVs are what keep us coming back! 
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    RachelR reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    W30 R3 Sunday August 2, 2020
    M1: 1 egg fried w/ 2 tbsp bacon crumbles, 1/2 cup of salted cantaloupe
    M2: favourite green salad (romaine, celery, cucumber, avocado, chicken, avocado oil & lemon juice, dried salad herbs)
    Snack: non-compliant potato chips
    Snack: non-compliant egg rolls with plum sauce
    M3: l/o green salad (no chicken)
    NSV: I didn't have any ice cream today :-)
    NSV: I kept the kitchen clean and tidy all day, it feels good to have this under control again.
    NSV: I know that I haven't finished a complete day of Whole30 on this round yet.  What I have done is complete two full days of eating better than I have been since mid June.
    Plans for tomorrow: Civic holiday.  Meal plans and grocery shop.  Argggh I obviously hate to do the meal planning.  Also hoping to tidy up and re-organize the basement freezer and fridge.
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    RachelR reacted to Contessa in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    In matters of food preparation, work, and life in general, this is fantastically true. I'm glad you didn't hesitate to return to a food approach that works for you. Wishing you a joyful Sunday!
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    RachelR reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    W30 R3 Saturday August 1, 2020
    M1: 1 cup chopped kale pan fried in ghee with leftover sausage, 2 eggs over easy, 1 cup boiled yellow beans, 1 cup salted cantaloupe chunks
    M2: 1 cup carrots sticks boiled, leftover Everything Bagel seasoned meatballs with leftover fried onions and white potato
    M3: totally non Whole30 compliant wine, appetizers, dinner and dessert at friends' house but definitely what I needed for my mental health
    NSV: I got my fridge in order and prepared some vegetables so they are ready to go this week, and I sharpened my knives.  It was a busy day just catching up with housework and laundry. My plan to get everything in order for Whole 30 was a bit too ambitious for one day, but I'm not worried, I can continue to work at it.  Baby steps are better than nothing.  
    Plans for Sunday: Make mayo.  Boil eggs.  Prepare menu for the week.  Keep the kitchen clean and tidy.  It's Sunday - relax with a book for a few hours in the afternoon.
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    RachelR reacted to Amy_Michigan in Preparing for the fall - August Whole30   
    I am going to be starting a whole30 again.  Soon!  August 1st!  Wahooo... 
    The last few months have been WEIRD.  Very weird.  I started a new engineering job only 2 days before our office closed due to the coronavirus.  I tried learning the ropes remotely (with my kids and husband at home all day)  and I hated it and was getting pretty depressed about it so I quit.  Thankfully, my husband saved me and "plan B" went into action... We switched roles and he is working full time and I'm the one home with the kids all day starting this fall when he starts teaching.   Our public school district announced they are starting 100% virtual this fall.  So I'll be "homeschool mom" for a change.. my husband was the stay-at-home dad for the last 7 years and now my son is going into kindergarten and my daughter's going into 3rd.  We had been planning to try both working full time before the pandemic to save more money, but plans changed. Oh well!  I am working as a cleaner part time after the kids go to bed for some extra hours and in an environment where I don't have to be around other people since its after closing time of the office building.
    I've been getting more exercise with the cleaning and that's really good- makes me feel happier.  
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    RachelR reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    It's amazing how quickly things fall apart, lol.  My son moved out yesterday - I'm officially an empty-nester.  I've known this was going to happen for a month but it was as if I wasn't prepared.  I went over to help vacuum and clean...and that was that.  Ugh.  This is hard.  And I felt that only a Dairy Queen blizzard could drown the emotions bubbling up from deep down.  I felt so awful afterward, my stomach bloated to three times it's normal size and ACHED.  I know I should have called a friend (well, I did, but didn't get into details about the day) but I did not want to deal with the feelings.  I didn't want to cry.  I should have gone for a walk.  But I just wanted to wallow.  And so I did.  Miserably so, with my knotted up tummy.  It hurt so much I couldn't even do yoga once I came to my senses and thought I should attempt healthier outlets.  I took a bath and watched a movie.  That helped.  
    I think part of my issue is feeling so alone in all this - my husband grilled himself a steak and proceeded to get drunk like he does so many other nights.  He spent a good portion of the day at our son's new place, installing venetian blinds etc.  He fancies himself as the cool dad, and I think he might be buying beer for these 18/19 year olds, which of course I do not agree with.  This empty-nest thing is not going to be easy.  
    All this means is that the house is now free of most junk foods.  I can truly focus on myself.  While I'm still feeling a little down this morning, it helps to come here to read and write.  
    Restart Day 1 
    Mood-4, Energy, 5, Pain -5 in my shoulder.  My knees feel fine.  I cannot walk the dog right now, though - she's trained to walk on my left and jerked that arm chasing a squirrel the other day.  This shoulder was already hurting due to push-ups.  I need to give it some time to heal.  I'm going to go out for a walk by myself later today.  
    M1-A hamburger patty.  I was tottering on the edge of making poor choices for today...the hamburgers were in the fridge and so no prep was required.  I'm glad now that's what I ate, because I'm feeling better about having a compliant day.  
    M2-chicken salad with salted cucumber slices
    M3-chicken Caesar salad with Primal Kitchen dressing.  
    My goals for August:
    30 days of yoga, even if it's just a few minutes.   8,000 steps, 3 times a week, increase by one day each week up to 5x/week.  If I hit 8,000, I usually get more than that, but I've been slacking the past two weeks.  I should note that it has been nearly a year since I tore up my knee (with pre-existing arthritis) such that I had to do physical therapy and rarely got over 2,000 steps/day.  It has been a very long road to get to the point to where I can tolerate a 3+ mile hike (mostly accomplished during quarantine). 2 days per week in the gym, doing barbell work.  I've been leery to return - tomorrow is the day.     Work the C25k program  - I'm looking at doing a virtual 5K on October 17th.  I've put it on my calendar to sign-up for it next Monday.    Get on a schedule for meal planning and grocery shopping - Saturday mornings are typically best for me to do this, but I've been off schedule for weeks.   My reward:  a pair of Rothy's shoes.  I've been looking at them for ages, but they are kind of expensive.  A worthy and desired carrot for meeting my goals.
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    RachelR reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    I was off-track this weekend.  I'm not sure why I'm having such a hard time getting back to it.  I have thoughts surrounding my poor choices that involve "getting this food out of the way" and "I'm going to enjoy this right now and then get back on track"  and "Ok, once this is gone, I'm back on track (not true)."  I have not reverted back to my all-day-binge-fests, but I'm not making great choices.  And I'm not getting much exercise-I'm walking only a little in the mornings (too hot the rest of the day, got rained out of my hike on Friday and again on Saturday).  I haven't biked in over a week (schedule conflicts + heat).  I have only done yoga once in the last week (taking naps instead).  I haven't done my push-ups in about a week (hurt my shoulder and so laying off until that heals).  
    I weighed myself yesterday morning and I was down a little over a pound, which also helped cross me over into the next "10s".  I'm not having significant joint achiness, my skin still looks great, no indigestion or stomach issues....I'm not being punished for my transgressions.  I know that's not a Food Freedom mindset, but that's the reality of how I've always thought.  
    I'm playing with fire here, teetering on the edge of spinning out of control.  I've had fits and starts over the last week - lots of good meals, two whole "good" days, but lots of noncompliant snacks and a few dinners.  I think I don't really believe in my ability to comeback.  I have never successfully done it before - I always dive into the bag of chips and don't look back until I'm once again enshrouded in the cloud of misery, pain, self-loathing...now I'm back to fighting with myself.  Which is so stupid.  I'm an intelligent human being with an advanced degree who has had success with W30 and a paleo lifestyle.  There is absolutely no reason that I can't be successful again.  I have the knowledge, I have the means, I have the time, I even have the right foods readily available.  
    My youngest is about to move into his own place on August 1, just a few miles away.  I keep going back to this, empty nest syndrome, but I don't feel overwhelmed with emotion about it.  Is that because I"m taking my emotions out in food and so I'm not really feeling?  I don't know...on the one hand, I don't want to over-analyze, but on the other I'm trying to understand why I'm sabotaging myself.  I'm struggling with another relationship that's important to me, but I think part of that struggle is self-created - I've been feeling moody and anxious, which does lead me to seek comfort in sugary carbs, which creates more moodiness and anxiousness when there is no need for it... 
    So really, even though I THINK i'm not experiencing ill effects from the poor choices I've been making, the struggles with cravings (though it's honestly not a struggle, I just give in), the moodiness, the shifting in my thought patterns from success-oriented to sabotage-oriented ARE ill effects.  
    Go back to basics - I did this last week, and I had a successful two and a half days.  I got off-track again because the weather derailed my hike and I just felt sorry for myself the rest of the day (and ate a handful of Oreos).  But I still didn't fall face first into a key lime pie.  I got up on Saturday, made a good breakfast, came home and quickly poached some chicken and made chicken salad to eat in between my son's ball games...but then got rained out of a hike again and later was faced with a food truck that was different than I expected for dinner.  And there were only fried food options.  And then just gave up yesterday and had pizza for dinner (and no upset stomach as I fully expected!).  And had the last piece for breakfast this morning.  I'm trying to remember all of the good choices I've made this weekend - being kind and gentle with myself is the key to swimming out of this mire.  It's just hard when I don't understand why I'm doing this.  I just don't believe in myself.  Time to read affirmations, listen to uplifting music, make a list.  
    I know I ramble and sound whiny sometimes, but journaling really is a huge help to me.  I want to come here everyday and say that I"m doing life well...but then I remember that it's of no benefit to lie about it.  I'm only going to figure this out if I work through the struggles, get them out of my head and on the screen.  I said this last week and I really do mean this - I have a goal to come back here in a few days and re-read this and wonder why it was so hard because I figured it out again.  
    I know the keys for me - making a list of things to do today, and returning to my healthy-day list.  I just went and checked items off that list that I keep on my phone - I'm not going to get the "eat low carb breakfast" one today, but I can get all the others done.  I'm listing my meals here, then going to make my to-do list for today:
    M1-slice of sweet pepper and sausage pizza
    M2-chicken salad with celery and spinach (need to make mayo)
    M3-grilled pork chops with zucchini and yellow squash marinated in Primal Kitchen citrus herb dressing.  
    As i read back over this before posting, I realize that I have a hard time regrouping when things don't go as expected.  Something to ponder upon...off to make my to-do list and have a successful day.  
    I give myself permission to do what is right for me. I am confident in my ability to make healthy choices regarding nourishing foods and movement. I feel proud of myself when I nourish my body and soul.   I accept my emotions and let them serve their purpose. I give myself the care and attention that I deserve.
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    RachelR reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    I'm feeling more peaceful today.  I did all of my "what to do" things from yesterday, except the beach.  I even walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes instead of 10.  Making movement on the things that I know help me feel healthy have helped me feel emotionally healthier.  Taking a step back and regrouping works.  
    Day 2
    Mood-5, Energy-6, Pain-0, slept well.
    M1-pastrami, spinach, mayo on almond flour tortilla
    M2-shrimp salad with cucumber
    M3-chicken and zucchini that I didn't make yesterday.  Ended up having zoodles bolognese last night because my husband wanted spaghetti.  Good, but my stomach is a little upset this morning probably from the tomatoes, but I knew I wouldn't feel great after eating the sauce.  
    Today is a non-work day, and I'm caught up on all household chores except for laundry.  It's going to be slightly cooler today (still with heat index in the 100s) so I think I will go to the beach.  Will do a longer yoga session this evening, too.  I ordered the Well Fed cookbook since I met my two week goals of yoga and strength building activities.  I need to set two new goals for myself, but I want to set month-long ones for August.  I imagine they will involve daily yoga and actually making an appearance at the gym.  I would love to do a massage as a reward, but I'm thinking that isn't covid-appropriate.  I'll think on goals and a reward.  
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    RachelR reacted to Contessa in Take Advantage   
    Hoo boy, that seems like a powerful comeback to those persistent "let's just eat everything" thoughts.
    Maybe the food is worth it, maybe it isn't.
    Either way, it's really nice to take a moment to ask the question. A huge amount of growth and strength can come from the moments where we simply pause.
    This resonates a lot. One argument I've had recently with myself is that thinking about the crappy food is not the same thing as swan-diving into a bucket of the crappy food. I realized yesterday that I've been mentally hard on myself for the past week for just having a complicated history with food. Geez. That seems kind of cruel, doesn't it?
    Maybe the point is to just be really kind and tender to ourselves, whatever we're eating. I can't float the argument that a global pandemic is an excuse for me to abandon all sense and all boundaries. However, it is true that our minds, bodies, and hearts are dealing with a lot these days. Even those of us who are not emergency room nurses are navigating profoundly uncertain and unsettling times. When I can tap into even a shred of patience, self-compassion, and curiosity, that's where I find the breathing space I need.
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    RachelR reacted to Contessa in Take Advantage   
    YES to this. It is useful to realize that a restart is almost always accessible.
    I've been getting lazy about my post-Whole30 snacking this week. A little bite here, a little snack there, and eventually I wind up back in the land of full-time freelance grazing. Ugh. Sure enough, this afternoon I reached into a bag of tortilla chips and pulled out a fistful. Then I thought, "Wait. Do I really want to do this?" and the answer was resoundingly "NO." So I put the tortilla chips back in the bag. Heh. There are always more options available than my brain would like for me to believe.
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    RachelR reacted to Contessa in Take Advantage   
    Just wanted to raise my hand here and say..... yep. Circumstances are a little different, but feeling tone is the same. What you are saying makes complete sense.
    I am continually struck by how powerfully this virus has altered our deeply entrenched patterns. It's obliterated some of the things that used to bring us joy every day, and it's offered different sources of joy. I'm feeling listless and grumpy about my lack of vacation this summer. I've been wasting far too much time on social media and pointless phone games, and wondering just how bad this thing is going to get.
    "Something that Miranda July said in an interview was that this moment is like the ultimate creative prompt. And there’s been this whole interesting conversation... about the tension between feeling that we’re trapped inside so we should be unbelievably creative and finding this to be the ultimate nervous, anxious distraction."
    That quote comes from a podcast I really like, The Ezra Klein Show, an episode called "Jenny Odell on nature, art, and burnout in quarantine." I plan to listen to this later. I think it will help me better understand how to think about this next phase of the pandemic, with its annoyingly unbroken stretches of hot days.
    Sorry for content that has zilch to do with the Whole 30. I just wanted to offer a note of empathy. Hang in there and let us know how things progress!
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    RachelR reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    I rode for a little over seven miles yesterday with a friend, then we sat on her deck and cooled down.  A great reward for doing the exercise, and it was a fairly easy ride going with a friend.  It feels so nice to have the energy and motivation to get out and do something active with someone and not be terribly worried that I won't be able to keep up or will have pain issues and have to slow or stop.  I  got a little tightness in my hip and knee during the last few minutes of our ride, so this is good.  
    Day 39/60, 4th day without nightshades - will try some tomato and jalapeno today. 
    Mood-7, Energy-8, Pain 0, none during short walk this morning.  Didn't sleep well last night, so didn't want to get up as early this morning for a longer walk.  Plus, it's supposed to be a beautiful day, so I can walk again later.  Sleep...I'm beginning to wonder if maybe I don't need as much sleep as I think I do.  I'm not tired during the day most of the time, I have good steady energy throughout the day, and I almost always wake up on my own (though the dog occasionally contributes to an early morning).  Typically, I fall asleep purposefully while watching tv.  Then I wake up sometime in the early morning hours and stay awake for an hour or so and just think about stuff while trying to go back to sleep, then I sleep a few more hours.  I try to stay awake later in order to wait for my son to get home, but I often fall asleep while waiting.  Mornings after I've been awake for hours during the night, I think that I should stay in bed and try to sleep even though I don't usually go back to sleep and end up getting up in the next 30 minutes.  Maybe I should try just getting up and going with the day.  I can certainly take a nap if I need to.  
    Progress on July goals: 1) 20 min yoga last night 2) push-ups and squats this morning.
    M1-3 eggs, homemade sausage, spinach.  Too filling, didn't finish it. 
    M2-Epic beef and jalapeno broth, sliced tomato and mayonnaise 
    M3-leftover orange chicken with broccoli.  This was a fairly easy and delicious instant pot recipe.   Labor intensive, with mincing garlic and ginger, zesting and juicing a bunch of oranges.  but once the prep work was done, it came together well.  My son, who loves Chinese take-out, thought it was delicious. 
    Some NSVs:
    -I can stand and walk at any time of day, without having to wait for my creaky joints to catch up and be ready to move.  I can walk up and down the stairs correctly, most of the time (as opposed to side ways or two feet on each step).  And I'm getting more and more range of motion in my left knee.   
    -Less swelling and bloating, thinner ankles, thinner face, thinner legs.  If I keep this up, I might actually be able to wear tall boots this fall. 
    -Energy and motivation.  My mind doesn't make up excuses and delays for doing things, I just do it, so much less procrastination.  For example, I'll think, "I need to do laundry" and then I'll go up and get a load of laundry and start it.  And then fold my clothes as they come out of the dryer without much thought.  It's hard to verbalize this change, but it's pretty remarkable.  Part of this has to do with I can move more without pain, especially up and down the stairs, but it's also a shift in my mental state.  
    -Great skin.  My face glows and looks younger, I don't have the patches of dry skin on my elbows and scalp that I used to have.  And I don't burn as easily as I used to.  
    -Detached approach to cravings.  I still have cravings related to environmental cues, such as wanting to raid the pantry when I wake in the middle of the night.  But instead of the uncontrollable face dive into the crackers/cookies/loaf of bread with butter that I used to feel compelled to engage in, I can now observe the craving from afar, recognize it for what it is, then dismiss it.  
    -Clearer thinking.  Less, "What did I want to do?" or "What was I going to say?"  This still happens sometimes, but nowhere near as often as it used to.  
    -Enjoyment of black coffee.  Seriously.  I was a heavy, sweetened cream (Sweet Italian cream...), do-you-want-a-splash-of-coffee person.  Now, I love the savory, bitterness of a good cup of iced coffee.  This switch alone has probably resulted in me losing 5 pounds.  And I don't miss the cream at all.  
    -Stable mood.  I have experienced great mood swings around a person in my life, which is primarily due to my own thought processes as opposed to anything that person has done or said.  But I've observed an ability to look at things with calmness and rationality that I couldn't previously access around this person.  Stuff I'm working through, but it is definitely much easier to be thoughtful rather than reactive.  
    -Better self-esteem.  I feel better about myself and how I look.  While I still have quite a bit of weight to lose, I'm not too concerned about that.  I generally feel attractive and sexy, especially when I brush my hair and put on some make-up .   I know that may sound conceited, but I feel the opposite of how I felt about myself two months ago.  I was a lump, a slug, a lazy and fat, bloated whale.  My weight has gone down, but not significantly so and I still am not fitting into the clothes I want to fit into.  Yet, I feel SO much better about myself.  
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    RachelR reacted to MadyVanilla in Whole30 in Germany   
    I agree with this 100%.  If it's an enjoyable and compliant alternative that doesn't send me into a sugar-seeking frenzy I think it's a win! 
    I wasn't here over the weekend, so I had to catch up on your entries...I have to say, I was laughing at the image of carrying a breastfeeding one year old while trying to make a three year old eat something that did not resemble a cartoon character's meal.  Ahh, I remember those days!  
    Great job on your first week, with all the challenges you encountered.  I do find that eating more fat (more than I thought I ever should) is more cost-effective than the meats and keeps me filled up until the next meal (so no need to snack).  Also you mentioned the red peppers causing a reaction and needing to watch out for the tomatoes...are you sensitive to nightshades?  
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    RachelR reacted to Semi in Whole30 in Germany   
    So, I got my period.
    Normally that means a week of very hard pms'ing, cravings and bingeing ahead.
    Last month I had a terrible migraine and my blod pressure was very low.
    The last 5 days? Nothing!
    No cravings, barely any water retentions (not more than I expect with around 32°C outside), no Binge Eating.
    Just a bit of cramping in my back and stomach.
    Quite honestly one of my best PMS's in the last year.
    I'm totally happy with Whole30 until now.
    I'm thinking about doing it for 40-50 days. Or doing a very slow introduction of foods (like one food group per week) so I can really pin point what is causing the inflammation and the eczema.