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    Lorna from Canada reacted to Rebecca001 in 7/3 commitment   
    I forgot to count mine this week! A bit like you, some days I eat a lot of veg and others I seem to just forget them. I also made soup this week and I’ve been having a bowl before my meals. 
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to christine19 in January 2021 graduates   
    We made chicken wings on the smoker dressed in compliant Buffalo sauce (Noble Made brand) and turkey chili - my husband put mine aside and added beans to his! Missed the chips to dip a little but had it over cauliflower rice. 
     
    Thanks @Lorna from CanadaSomeday hopefully I’ll learn not to use the scale as a report card! #lifegoals 
    Had a good snow shoveling workout and more snow is coming tomorrow, so I’ll be back at it again! 
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to Rebecca001 in Ms.   
    I have the same issue with my scales and this time I really want to tackle it. I decided not to weigh myself after my 2nd W30 and still haven’t now after 40 days. The fact that I want to (really badly some days) is something I am giving a lot of thought to. I’m quickly coming to the conclusion that I want to weigh myself more when I feel rubbish than when I feel good. It’s as if that number is a stick to whack myself with when I already feel low. And as @Lorna from Canadasays above, that number is bigger than all the good things, the benefits, the NSVs. So, a bit like the sugar dragon, to slay it you have to starve it out- I’ve decided I’m not weighing myself until I get to a point where I don’t care what it says anymore (at which point, I hope I won’t even think about weighing myself?!) 
     
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from becs in January 2021 graduates   
    Oh boy - those scales are such monsters! I think I am going to go the rest of my life without knowing what I weigh. I can guess close enough when I need to - I "knew", for example, that I have gained at least 30 lbs since the start of my mom's illness and I "know" now that I have probably lost around 10 lbs judging from how clothing fits and my loose rings. I am going to rely on this kind of knowing and the scale be damned. Seriously. 
    W30 trudges along here - we watched the Super Bowl last night without cheesy nachos or 7 layer dip. I didn't serve an extra veg with dinner (just the veggie laced gravy the lamb was braised in) so we had buffalo wing cauli and asian brussel sprouts with garlic beans for snacks. Worked!
    Today (W39) I am dealing with a client based in Australia who seems to have forgotten that not everyone is lucky enough to live on a sparsely populated, heavily regulated island during a global pandemic. Their global team is under-motivated and sluggish and they want me to find out why and get working on them!!! Their team is located in USA, Europe, China and India - ummm, all of them are in deep winter and mostly locked down either by government or their own self imposed rules with weak vaccination implementatin plans and no end to this pandemic in sight. Honestly - go get another glass of cab sav and have a wee sit by the pool and calm the hell down... usually by now I'd be into the wine myself but I am totally composed and dealing with this. No stress eating, no foraging for sugar, no baking - nada. I've been quite calm in dealing with them and measured in my response. Usually I'd be ready to club them! So - pretty happy despite it all.
    So - that's my win for the day. Coping with stress without medicating it with food is a big win for me!
    Keep making brilliant progress. I don't know what you'll land on around your issues @christine19 but it sounds liem you're asking the right questions and are paying attention!
     
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from SugarcubeOD in Ms.   
    Hey @Chungui
    I hear ya. It's very, very difficult to throw out your scale permanently. Like Sugar says - we are bombarded with messages about the number we should be. I have never seen a Woman's magazine with a title "Have looser pants in 10 days!" It's always a number (usually unrealistic) and the only way we get numbers is from the scale. It is beaten into us to lose weight but we only interpret that through a single measure - the number going down. Nothing but the number matters to us. It's quite silly when we think about it rationally.
    I had an unhealthy relationship with the scale for many, many years. After a major weightloss following the births of my children, I weighed myself 3 times a day for years. Utter insanity. I was down to once a week for awhile but knew that the number on it was dictating both my mood and my self esteem. This became most evident after the completion of my first W30. I could not wait to get on the scale! I felt better than I had in years - I was sleeping well through the night in a way I hadn't since 1985. I was less anxious and more upbeat. My clothes and rings were loose. My workouts were super charged. A chronic plantar fasciitis that had troubled me through 5 long years of every treatment (save surgery) known to mankind had simply disappeared - that was astonishing to me! I had no hip pain and no stomach pain and never felt hungry. It was great and then I stepped on the scale. That 11lb weight loss became the only thing that mattered - it was the highest single month weightloss number I had ever experienced! I became fixated on losing more and was back to weighing myself all the time. All of the other major benefits faded into the background and the first thing I told people when I talked about W30 was that I had lost 11 lbs in one month. That's when it dawned on me how ridiculous weighing myself was because that number was artificial and meaningless in the light of everything else I had accomplished and experienced. I got rid of my scale that day and have never looked back.
    Anyway - no easy way to give it up but taking a break for 30 days might inform you better about what you want to do for the long haul. Like Sugar says - you can do it!
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from becs in January 2021 graduates   
    Good morning everyone! Day 38 for me - 38 days without wine but who's counting... well, clearly I am. I am just fine without it although I miss it the most of all. Three more weekends before I think about it again. 
    Benefits of an extended W30 are starting to show up:
    I have stopped foraging for food. You know that thing you do where you constantly get up and check the pantry and fridge and cupboards to see if the magic food fairy has left anything good to eat since the last time you checked 30 minutes ago? I don't do that now. Because we have kept a "clean" food house for years, the foraging always ended in handfuls of grapes and nuts and slivers of cheese and slices of meat. Or a date squished between pecans. This is a recent development that I noticed this weekend and I attribute it to a decreased focus on mindless eating and saiety. I am noticing my "full" signals sooner and am stopping eating when I do. I am an inveterate plate cleaner so this is very new.  I've gone from being hungry all the time to rarely being hungry. I'm not doing much - my heel pain is keeping me grounded and I am currently expending the energy of a geriatric sloth so, I don't need much to eat to keep me functioning - my appetite matches my life at the moment - a refreshing change. These are interesting awarenesses. I've done a previous W37 and a W45 but they ended during strange times. First was while I was flying to Australia - I decided to extend during my travel so I could reintroduce under more normal circumstances and I'm glad I did that but 36 hours of travel and jet lag hid any benefit of the longer W30 from me. The W45 was during the early days of my mom's illness - I was so worried about what was going on and spending so much time running her to doctor's appointments that the opportunity for benefit was lost again. I abruptly ended that W45 with a bottle of wine shared with my mom on a glorious spring afternoon right after we got her diagnosis of terminal brain cancer.  This time it is just me and Hubs in perpetual lockdown so there is TONS of time to invest in figuring out what's going on. I'm grateful to have this opportunity to pay attention.
    Lamb shanks for dinner - built up my appetite by cutting my hair and cleaning out my bathroom cabinet.  This pandemic just keeps dragging along...
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to ladyshanny in Final clarification Artificial Flavors   
    Haha, well she is just a human person who makes errors just like the rest of us! Trust - we are not trying to lead anyone down the garden path.  
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from Nbalentine in Terrified of weighing on Day 30!   
    I'm with you @Rebecca001 Why not ditch the scale altogether? The last time I weighed myself was at the end of my first W30 and the fact that I was feeling fabulous (better than I had in years) was shoved aside when I realized I was way WAY more happy about losing 11 pounds. I was more excited about an irrelevant number than I was about about the resolution of pain in my left foot after a 5 year battle with plantar fasciitis. More excited about the number than the fact that I was sleeping through the night for the first time in over 20 years. Happier with the number than with the quality of my digestion or the clearness of my brain.  For the first time the ridiculousness of letting a number dictate my mood hit home.  I haven't weighed myself since.
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from christine19 in January 2021 graduates   
    Be still my heart! That photo becs! Thanks for sharing with us!
    This, as @christine19points ouit, is a key thing isn't it? I was working hard on my "what makes something worth it?" rules last time when my mom got ill and I abandoned it. This time around figuring that out is paramount for me. I realized I am undercounting my extended W30 days (I'm on W36 not W35 like I have been thinking) because I chose not to go off plan on the 31rst because I actually didn't want a glass of wine. So, indeed an interesting process.
    I've got a fresh bag of brussel sitting next to a handful of yellowing ones - I need to peel those and cook them before everyone starts walking!
    Definitely an issue for me - and Hubs too who is (was?) as addicted to popcorn as one can get. I blame sugar for waking me up in the middle of the night though and corn isn't THAT sweet so, for me, I think it's the work my gut must be doing trying to digest corn. We both have this problem with popcorn and plain nacho chips but not plain potato chips so we attribute it to corn. As a result, we limit corn consumption to height of season fresh corn in the summer as a rare treat.
    That's a big ole yes for me ma'am
    Everything is good on this end. I'm not as bored as I was a few days ago and I think I have a new definition of TB for myself - it's the fact that I don't feel "too tired to go to bed" - do you know what I mean? 11PM comes around and I go to bed because it's time. I'm not semi-passed out on the couch dragging my heels nor am I exhausted at 9PM and drooling during Murdoch Mysteries. So - TB it is!
    Alright - I have to run to a group session - I am the leader so I should probably be there  
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to becs in January 2021 graduates   
    Good morning (afternoon), everyone! I got up early and started the day off with a sunrise run, and I'm ready to have a much better day than yesterday. I was planning on doing a sugar reintro today, but I've changed my mind. Maybe I'll add it to the end of my reintros, but for now I don't feel the need to bring sugar back, even for one day. I like my nutpod coffee and plain old tea - why mess that up by adding sugar?
    I made chicken/shrinp Laap (a Nom Nom Paleo recipe from the cookbook Ready or Not) for dinner last night, and it was so tasty and easy. I think I could happily live off of Nom Nom and Well Fed recipes for the rest of my life!
     

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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from Saiee in February 1st?   
    @Saiee @Rebecca001
    I think that's the problem isn't it? That packaged ones are so accessible that they make it easy to over indulge. I, personally, would never eat so many of those that they would ever become a problem for me so don't see the difference between those and a Thrive market W30 salad dressing. They're more of a SWYPO for me though so I'd probably avoid them in lieu of something else.

    I think, at this stage of the game, we need to be thinking about these things in relation to the W30 Good Food Standards: 

    The food that we eat should:
    Promote a healthy psychological response Promote a healthy hormonal response Support a healthy gut Support immune function and minimize inflammation. While doing a W30, we should add in number 5:
    Compliant to W30 rules. This is the focus I am taking now to figure out what these rules look like for me - #1 is the most difficult. Those FWNBs are a big problem for me. Hubs and I were just talking about this - how do we move forward and what will our rules be when I am done W60 at the end of February (he's doing W30 principles with a weekend beer ) 
    Anyway, I'd say if you could eat them without going mad for them then you'd be okay but that's not an official statement, is it now
     
     
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from Saiee in February 1st?   
    I was wondering how you are doing @Saiee! I'm day 33 of W60 @bellhopboy - technically W30 #5 for me. Had a great January - wanted to keep going. Happy to support.
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to Saiee in February 1st?   
    I had to do a couple restarts in Jan and struggled at the end, but am going to do a 2nd whole 30 with Feb 1st start
     
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from christine19 in January 2021 graduates   
    So - here I am Day 32 of W30 - and, on one hand it's perfectly easy and almost natural to be carrying on but, on the other, it's a bit boring too. Feels like Day 22 all over again  So, I wandered over to see what you guys were up to! Looks like I have a must try eggplant dish on my horizon. I can't blame my W30 meh's on lack of interesting food - we eat amazing meals - tonight's beef curry on sweet potato oven fried cubes was delicious. So - it's not boring meals - maybe a bit of S.A.D. percolating up despite being quiet in January? I'll have to see what the ground hog says tomorrow - maybe that'll lift me up a bit.
    @becs sounds like another reintro of legumes might be in order? I had to give them up straight away for the bloating and fatigue I experienced from eating them. It wasn't as bad a reaction like I had reintroducing wine and sugar was but it was pretty clear that they were having an impact. 
    @christine19 Ugh - I hate the scale - it's such a beast. I have managed to stay off of it since the post-W30 weigh in after my first W30. I don't know why I suddenly realized I didn't want to weigh myself any longer even though I had lost 11lbs and was feeling right chuffed. Maybe that was it right there - my mood elevated by a number. Anyway - good luck with the struggle - it is a real one.
    @SugarcubeOD You're almost done - what's your post W30 plan this time around?
    And thanks @Rebecca001 - the 7 veg/ 3 fruit (total incl use in cooking) challenge is a good one for me. I'll get my 50 veg a week in and limint my fruit intake. This gives me something to focus on while I stay the course with W60.
    Keep working hard and keep posting!
     
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from Rebecca001 in 7/3 commitment   
    Today I made a commitment to have 7 veg and just 3 fruit everyday. I'm going to log it here (well, we'll see but I'll start anyway!) to keep track
    Today:
    onion, mushroom, pepper hash with breakfast = 3 veg
    1/2 orange with lunch = 1/2 fruit
    grapes and mixed nuts = 1 1/2 fruit (I put raisins and coconut in my mixed nuts)
    fish tacos - mayo, lettuce, peppers, onions, salsa, cilantro, avocado = 5 veg
    banana = 1 fruit
    Great start!
     
     
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from Rebecca001 in 7/3 commitment   
    W30 day 32 - 
    bkft - onions, mushrooms, pepper, 1/2 apple 
    lunch - banana, raisins, grapes
    dinner - broccoli, green beans, onion, tomato, sweet potato
    WooHoo 7/3 in the bag.
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from SugarcubeOD in January 1st Start Date!   
    I cannot believe that we are at the end of day 29 already! It really has sailed by for me. I am already looking forward to starting again on Monday. I got SO much out of this W30 but there's still more pain in my heel than I like and I am optimistic that a few more weeks might keep the inflammation down long enough to let it heal. I've been so jealous listening to you all talk about your running. I am a marathoner (runner for 25 years) who developed severe nerve damage in my foot at age 55. Surgery in 2016 repaired the nerve damage but changed my foot structure dramatically and went on the cause so many other problems - can't even list them all. I have a great Physio and chiropodist and massage therapist but, in the end, my first W30 made the most amazing in roads on healing. When I developed a heel spur and secondary plantar fasciitis last year, I thought it might work magic again  So far, it has helped - the pain is reduced considerably but I am wondering if another round of W30 would help so I'm going to try it. Now in my 60s, I would like to return to running and, when I hear you guys talk so casually about "going for a run" my heart aches a little. So - heading into #2 as planned. In the meantime, the results this time are: 
    no S.A.D. - I hate winter too @Rebecca001 and, I live in Canada where we get the real deal. I usually travel to my home in Australia to avoid it so, this year, with that off the table thanks to our friend covid, I was really worried that my winter depression would be the worst ever. Nope - W30 has worked utter magic there. Not so much as a peep from my black dog. That is brilliant. no anxiety. I have no reason to be anxious ever - I have the most amazing life - but I suffer from GAD and it can be overwhelming. Like a tidal wave of worry seeping into my cells and creating such unnecessary stress - it's just an awful, awful feeling. And, it's gone. The thing Hubs says he notices the most with this W30 is my lively mood. I genuinely feel happy and stress free which is such an amazing thing! a return to deep sleeps - I was beginning to dread going to bed at night because I knew how often I'd wake up in a heightened anxiety state and be unable to sleep. I started taking a prescription sleep aid one night every 10 days or so just to treat myself to a deep sleep. I am so glad that this W30 is the same as my others and that beautiful deep sleep and all those crazy REM sleep dreams came back. Not ready to ever give that up. I know I've lost weight - I feel like I'm deflating. I don't weigh myself so I won't know how much but I can guess. My face is thin, my rings are loose, even my underwear fit better. I feel in control again. All the injuries and pain and menopause have been hard. Losing my mom and dealing with my wild, unexpected grief was hard. Covid, obviously, has been hard. This round of W30 has given me something back in the most effective way and I am so grateful. Okay - that's it - I just wanted to put that down somewhere. One more day - let's finish this round STRONG!
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to becs in January 2021 graduates   
    This is all about self-experimentation, so whatever path you choose on Day 31 is up to you! Sounds like you guys are making wise choices.
    I'm doing legumes today, and had peanut butter on an apple with breakfast and bell peppers/hummus with lunch. I felt more full than usual after each meal. Makes sense for breakfast, since I added that apple/PB combo to my usual breakfast, so it was more food than I'm used to. For lunch, though, I only had a few tablespoons of hummus, so I can't imagine the volume of food is the "culprit." Kind of interesting. No other side effects so far.
    I think I made the right decision to go through the reintroductions. There is definitely room for improvement by sticking to W30, but I feel like if I reintroduce once a week, I'll still get the W30 benefits (for the most part). In the end I'm just too curious about the reintros this time around to resist!
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from becs in January 2021 graduates   
    The completion of W30#4 for me has been an interesting experience. The first 3 were all within 9 months of each other and the lifestyle was great! I learned that I am extremely sensitive to sugar and alcohol and that dairy causes me gastric distress. Hubs discovered gluten intolerance and issues with dairy.  I have stayed away from legumes (including soy) even though their reintroduction wasn't overly problematic but they did give me gas and bloating. Lots of good learning. I got back down to a healthy weight and was feeling great. Then my mom got sick and there was SO much stuff that happened around that - not going to get into it but it was a dietary free-for-all that immediately transitioning into covid life after her death did not help in any way.
    I wasn't expecting any new discoveries with this W30 but there have been a few. This has been more instructive around food-related behaviours and very much instructive around food and mood. SO, even though my plan was to have wine today and move to a modified W30 (including some SWYPOs) I have, instead decided today to do another full W30. I want to really be sure than this mood/food connection is valid and not simply because I was excited to be in control for 30 days so... nothing to report here...
    I'll be following along with everyone as they transition back to post-W30 eating. 
     
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from KTH1010 in January 1st Start Date!   
    Let's do this @KTH1010! I'm going to be pretty strict - more strict on limiting fruit (I got better at that as the days went on this time) and nuts while increasing veg. I've decided not to have wine on my day between and just start tomorrow. I'll make decisions about the SWYPO factor as it arises!! See ya around!
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to becs in January 2021 graduates   
    I think the book may suggest this, but I basically continue with Whole30 meals, and then add reintro foods to them. Here is my general plan for the reintros. These are the ingredients I plan on adding to my W30 meals on each reintro day:
    LEGUMES: apple w/peanut butter with breakfast, peppers dipped in hummus with lunch, maybe some other bean dip with dinner? I started to look up dinner recipes that included tofu or black beans for dinner, but then I remembered that I've never been a huge fan of beans. Don't reintro something that you don't even like!
    NON-GLUTEN GRAINS: quinoa and veggies for breakfast (still working this one out), corn in my lunch salad, white rice with dinner
    DAIRY: Heavy cream in my coffee, plain yogurt with lunch, maybe cottage cheese at some point in the day. Not a huge fan of dairy...
    GLUTEN GRAINS: Ezekiel bread with breakfast, whole-grain crackers with lunch (maybe with some kind of tuna salad for dipping?), whole-wheat pasta with dinner
    Looking at this list, I think it actually mirrors the book pretty closely, so it's probably not all that helpful! Since I want to stick to a mostly W30 diet moving forward, I want to keep working on my W30 meal prep/skills as I reintro non-W30 foods. No need to reinvent the wheel, ya know?
     
     
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to KTH1010 in January 1st Start Date!   
    Oh my gosh, I fell off the radar!
     
    I am also gonna go for a second round, I am actually on day 31 today (started last day of December) and broke my w30 fast with rice and instantly felt like garbage. Maybe it was mostly emotional, but my stomach isn't happy. I just do best when I eat whole30. Unlike @Lorna from Canada , I actually am going to be MORE strict this second round -- I was not totally compliant with meal templates etc, and relied way too much on snacking, which is not the end of the world, but I feel more ready now than I did a month ago to just dive in to the whole thing 100%.
     
    I'll use tomorrow as a planning day and start Feb 1.
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to becs in January 1st Start Date!   
    Well, here we are! I feel like the last two weeks especially just flew by. I love the NSVs, @Lorna from Canada and @Rebecca001. My biggest one this time around is also the major reduction in anxiety. I don't know if I have full-blown GAD (though I often feel like I do), but it can get pretty bad/debilitating. The change this month has been magical, even more so because work has been out of control, and I'm actually able to deal with it calmly. It's amazing not to lie awake for hours stressing out about who-knows-what.
    @Lorna from CanadaI'm so sorry to hear about your foot/running issues! I know you've mentioned your foot issues before, but I didn't realize you were trying to get back to running. On the plus side, that sounds like one hell of a positive motivator/"why" to help you stay the course. I'm rooting for you!
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    Lorna from Canada reacted to Rebecca001 in January 1st Start Date!   
    Day 30!!!!!!!! I love your list @Lorna from Canada. I’m going to do mine in my notebook this afternoon but I can agree with a lot of your NSVs. 
    mine include: my skin is so soft, sleeping much better quality sleep (not necessarily longer hours), I’m feeling really trim (especially in the mornings). I’ve noticed reduction in my anxiety too, like you said. Less worrying. It’s been a really stressful month and I’ve coped with it and not turned to food/wine. I’ve got busy with projects in my spare time rather than veg out exhausted, and just ‘got stuff done’. I’ve had a month off Facebook too. 
     
    it struck a chord with me last night, my sister in law posted a picture on our family chat of a bottle of wine, bottle of gin, huge bags of Doritos and loads of chocolate saying ‘I’ve had a stressful day and this is my treat’ and all the family sent laughing emojis and ‘good for you, you’ve earned it’ comments and I felt so far removed from that, sipping my water! The irony is, they think I’m punishing myself doing this. I felt really sad for her because I know she’ll feel 10 times worse today.
      I’ll never ‘unknow’ this knowledge that we learn doing W30. I can’t promise I’ll always do it, but I’ll never not know it. we have the answer that I think so many people are looking for, and that actually I myself have looked for for so many years. I read on another thread that’s it’s basically about giving yourself permission to make this massive positive change, and once you do (truly) permit yourself to do it, it’s properly lifechanging. I think this second w30 has really consolidated that for me, and I really get ‘choose your hard’ this time round because oh boy, it’s been harder this time than the halcyon days of summer in lockdown. 
     
    anyway enough ramblings... my kitten needs her breakfast!! Have a great Day 30 everyone!!! 
     
     
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    Lorna from Canada got a reaction from becs in January 1st Start Date!   
    I cannot believe that we are at the end of day 29 already! It really has sailed by for me. I am already looking forward to starting again on Monday. I got SO much out of this W30 but there's still more pain in my heel than I like and I am optimistic that a few more weeks might keep the inflammation down long enough to let it heal. I've been so jealous listening to you all talk about your running. I am a marathoner (runner for 25 years) who developed severe nerve damage in my foot at age 55. Surgery in 2016 repaired the nerve damage but changed my foot structure dramatically and went on the cause so many other problems - can't even list them all. I have a great Physio and chiropodist and massage therapist but, in the end, my first W30 made the most amazing in roads on healing. When I developed a heel spur and secondary plantar fasciitis last year, I thought it might work magic again  So far, it has helped - the pain is reduced considerably but I am wondering if another round of W30 would help so I'm going to try it. Now in my 60s, I would like to return to running and, when I hear you guys talk so casually about "going for a run" my heart aches a little. So - heading into #2 as planned. In the meantime, the results this time are: 
    no S.A.D. - I hate winter too @Rebecca001 and, I live in Canada where we get the real deal. I usually travel to my home in Australia to avoid it so, this year, with that off the table thanks to our friend covid, I was really worried that my winter depression would be the worst ever. Nope - W30 has worked utter magic there. Not so much as a peep from my black dog. That is brilliant. no anxiety. I have no reason to be anxious ever - I have the most amazing life - but I suffer from GAD and it can be overwhelming. Like a tidal wave of worry seeping into my cells and creating such unnecessary stress - it's just an awful, awful feeling. And, it's gone. The thing Hubs says he notices the most with this W30 is my lively mood. I genuinely feel happy and stress free which is such an amazing thing! a return to deep sleeps - I was beginning to dread going to bed at night because I knew how often I'd wake up in a heightened anxiety state and be unable to sleep. I started taking a prescription sleep aid one night every 10 days or so just to treat myself to a deep sleep. I am so glad that this W30 is the same as my others and that beautiful deep sleep and all those crazy REM sleep dreams came back. Not ready to ever give that up. I know I've lost weight - I feel like I'm deflating. I don't weigh myself so I won't know how much but I can guess. My face is thin, my rings are loose, even my underwear fit better. I feel in control again. All the injuries and pain and menopause have been hard. Losing my mom and dealing with my wild, unexpected grief was hard. Covid, obviously, has been hard. This round of W30 has given me something back in the most effective way and I am so grateful. Okay - that's it - I just wanted to put that down somewhere. One more day - let's finish this round STRONG!