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  1. deuxieme

    Concentration and Cravings

    I am not happy to say this-- I have decided to stop my Whole30 for right now. Between the stress of trying to overcome disordered eating patterns enough to properly fuel myself and the stress of college and the stress of maintaining my exercise routine, I was really struggling. My plan is to conduct a proper, more focused Whole30 in the interim of spring and summer semesters, when I don't have added stress of midterms and deadlines. The weight loss was the final straw of emotional breakdowns, anxiety attacks, extreme fatigue... I was not fueling myself right, and I know it, but it is so hard to be ok with choosing those things that I have been afraid of for so long. I will do this again, and I will do it right. I just am not at a place, mentally or physically, where losing weight is acceptable. I plan to continue to eat mostly on plan-- even the short time I did it showed I have a MASSIVE intolerance for dairy-- and will be back in May!
  2. deuxieme

    Concentration and Cravings

    Not sure if this is the best place to put this. I am not sure I should continue my Whole30. I know I am not supposed to weigh myself, but I have been feeling so weak and so tired the last few days, I did. In the last nine days, my weight has dropped 3 lbs. If I lose any more weight, I will be under BMI 18, which is not good, since that's well below underweight. I am eating a lot (in the last two days, I have eaten three avocados) but that amount of weight loss is really worrisome to me. Am I misunderstanding the weight loss? Is it just water or should I really be concerned?
  3. Breakfast: ground beef, potato with chimichurri, 1/2 cucumber, coffee with almond milk. Snack: 1/2 cucumber, guacamole, tiny piece of chicken Lunch: chicken, kale, salsa, 1/2 cucumber, guacamole, coffee with almond milk Snack: potato with a bit of chimichurri Dinner: 2 eggs, a tiny piece of chicken, 1/2 cucumber with guacamole, tomato soup, coffee with almond milk, coconut water. Feeling sick and may have a snack later. Yesterday I was worn out from a tough test on Friday and did not log; however, my meals were compliant.
  4. deuxieme

    Concentration and Cravings

    Thanks for the advice. The cravings have mostly subsided. This afternoon I completely went off meal plan-- I was not mindful about what I was eating and am pretty sure I overate. However, everything I ate was compliant. Does this mean I should start over? Last night I had a long and very stressful test, so I may not have eaten enough yesterday or this morning; in addition, I was tired and not thinking. I just feel guilty for not being more present in what I was eating and not stopping when I was satisfied!
  5. Pre-gym: 1 orange, 1 egg, a bit of sunflower butter Breakfast: 2 eggs, 1 potato, chimichurri, 1/2 cucumber, and coffee with almond milk Lunch: chicken, zoodles, chimichurri, 3 stalks asparagus, 1/2 cucumber, small potato with chimichurri, coffee with almond milk. Snack: 1 egg, 1/2 cucumber Dinner: chicken, zoodles, salsa, sunflower butter, potato, coffee with almond milk. I don't think I should end up having anything else, but I have a test tonight and that sometimes makes me hungry.
  6. Pre-run: 1 egg and 1 orange. Breakfast: ground beef, cabbage, sunflower butter, almond milk, and coffee with almond milk. The run was really hard today-- all my muscles feel dead. Lunch: 2 eggs, potato, asparagus, 1/2 cucumber, chimichurri, and coffee with almond milk. Snack: small potato with chimichurri, small (1/2 palm size) portion of chicken, cabbage, salsa, almond milk. My cravings have switched to, of all things, almond milk. Dinner: chicken, zoodles, chimichurri, coffee with almond milk. I may also have another 1/2 cucumber and a bit more coffee or almond milk later.
  7. deuxieme

    Concentration and Cravings

    I will probably not buy fruit for the coming week. My biggest issue is being ok with eating more; mentally it is just a struggle. Fat especially is hard, but I am going to challenge myself. If I eat fruit, should I do it with another meal? And this may be a dumb question, but one thing that I worry about in eating eggs (although I absolutely adore eggs) is I know they have a high cholesterol content. My cholesterol is fine (which, at 18, I would hope it is!) but I don't want to cause problems down the road.
  8. deuxieme

    Concentration and Cravings

    @SugarcubeOD For today (I went to the gym for an hour) pregym: 1 egg, 1 orange (5:40 a.m.) breakfast: 2 eggs, 1 palm-sized potato, asparagus, chimichurri (maybe a thumb sized portion...), coffee with almond milk (7:30 a.m.) lunch: 1 handful lean ground beef, 2 cereal bowls cabbage, sunflower butter (maybe 1-1.5 thumb sized portions), 1/2 cucumber, 2 potatoes (both together almost covered my palm, so they were tiny!), chimichurri (1 thumb sized portion), coffee with almond milk. (10:50 a.m. because I got too hungry to wait) snack: large carrot, sunflower butter (maybe a thumb sized portion), an egg, an egg white mini frittata (baked in a muffin tin) (2 p.m.) dinner: chicken (maybe a bit smaller than palm sized), zoodles (about a cup?), chimichurri, coffee with almond milk. (4:40 p.m.) I am thinking this is what I had. I may be overestimating portions of sunflower butter and chimichurri. I would estimate I had about a cup of almond milk. And I think I am salting my food enough-- I add salt to my cabbage and my cucumbers, and there is salt in the chimichurri. I also try to drink around 60-64 oz of water a day, and I weigh 111 lbs (or did last Friday). If it would help, I could try to take pictures of my meals tomorrow.
  9. It's day 5 for me, and I am super sore, cannot concentrate, and am craving foods I didn't even eat before. All I want is sugar, carbs and chocolate; I barely ate sweetener before starting and have not had chocolate in 2 years. I have been having headaches off and on. Is this normal?
  10. Day Five Log: Preworkout: an egg and an orange. Still kind of hungry but got through my workout. Every muscle in my body feels sore today, but my mood is MUCH better than yesterday. Breakfast: 2 eggs, potato, asparagus, chimichurri, coffee with almond milk. Five days and still loving this breakfast, but found I was still kind of hungry. Lunch: ground beef, cabbage, and sunflower butter, more cabbage with sunflower butter, 2 tiny potatoes (like... together they did not cover my palm) with chimichurri, coffee with almond milk. Extremely hungry still. After lunch was weird. Before Whole30, I did not eat sugar or sweetener except in Gatorade when I was dehydrated, so maybe once a month or so. All the sudden this afternoon, I started craving sugar/carbs, such as oatmeal and especially chocolate. I haven't even eaten chocolate in two years. Not sure what to make of that. I ended up snacking on a carrot and sunflower butter and an egg. Dinner: chicken, zoodles, chimichurri, 1/2 cucumber, and coffee with almond milk. Probably going to end up eating more later. My concentration today has been horrible.
  11. Ended up going on my run and eating chicken, 1/2 a cucumber, and a bit of a carrot. @lacyjean I try not to track how many miles I run because that has become an obsession in the past, but I would estimate probably around 3.5-4 miles in 30 minutes when I run, so not too much. I do want to try increasing the time I run but am slowly building up to it. I eat breakfast before I run and a snack, usually egg whites with some veggies or fruit, afterward. And you are right-- I am fueling my body for activity with healthy food. I can't expect to suddenly have much lower energy needs because I am now eating more vegetables and no oatmeal; my body still needs energy, and that is probably why I seem to be eating more fat recently. I am going to try to adhere more to the given plan tomorrow, but am definitely going to allow myself to snack (especially between lunch and dinner. Learned that the hard way). Thank you so much for being supportive.
  12. Day Four Log: Breakfast: 2 eggs, potato, asparagus, chimichurri, coffee with almond milk So... today has been rough. I planned to go on a run (which did not happen), but only walked for about 1 hour this morning. I was tired and nauseated and grouchy... I ended up also eating two carrots with a bunch of sunflower butter. Really feeling guilty for not just sticking to the schedule. Tuesdays and Thursdays are hard due to my class schedule being right during mealtimes (class is from 11-2 and then again from 5:30-7) but that is not an excuse to overeat carrots and sunflower butter. I am really struggling with guilt about this, but trying to just move on. I feel like I overate, but not because my stomach hurts or anything. More like I ate more than I thought I should have. I am not sure whether it's possible to eat too much without feeling like you have overeaten? Lunch: ground beef with cabbage, an egg, coffee with almond milk. No fat because I had plenty in my carrot/sunflower butter snack. During class I had extreme cramps from my gastro issues and was incredibly weak and shaky. Snack/Dinner: Orange, potato with a bit of chimichurri, egg white frittata, chicken, salsa, zoodles, 1/2 cucumber, salsa, carrot with sunflower butter, and coffee with almond milk. I honestly still feel somewhat hungry. My emotions have been a wreck today, my stomach has been cramping and bloated, I have been having headaches... Not my best day. Really beating myself up for not running, but plan to do some light weightlifting after tonight's class.
  13. Day Three Log: Breakfast: 3 eggs, 1 potato, asparagus, and chimichurri sauce (loving the chimichurri!) with coffee and almondmilk. Feeling pretty good and satisfied. Post workout, I was feeling pretty nauseated and dizzy, so I had an orange, a handful of grapes, and a egg white mini frittata. Lunch: chicken with zoodles, ½ cucumber, carrot, chimichurri, grapes, coffee, almond milk. Pretty good. I was super proud of myself because I managed to not eat a snack this afternoon, which I always do, but I honestly think I do need my afternoon snack because I was so hungry I had dinner a half hour early and ate MUCH more than I had planned. Dinner: Ground beef with cabbage and sunflower butter, more cabbage, two carrots with more sunflower butter (edit: make that three. I am SO hungry), a small piece of chicken, grapes, and a potato with chimichurri. I am still really hungry but I have already eaten so much. I really regret not having that afternoon snack right now. I don't think I am able/ready to give it up. Just frustrates me that I always seem to need to eat SO MUCH. I was really mindful today to try to drink more water and work on something for a while to make sure I was really hungry... I am just so hungry so often and feel bad that I cannot stick to 3 meals.
  14. deuxieme

    Overeating?

    @ShannonM816 Thank you again. I am probably overthinking things, which would be the norm for me.
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    Overeating?

    Sorry if this is in the wrong place; I was not sure where to put it. I feel as though I am maybe eating too much? I see descriptions/pictures of what other people are eating and compared to what I am having it just seems so little. I am trying to stick to recommended amounts but I find if I do not have multiple portions of fruit/starchy vegetables a day I am just not satisfied. I have tried eating larger portions of nonstarchy vegetables but I am just SO HUNGRY. I feel like today I overdid eating and am going to try to be extra mindful of portions and such tomorrow. I think I am getting adequate protein and fat... am I just overeating or tired or something? Or could it be that I am just naturally going to be hungrier than others? For reference, I am 19 years old, 5'5", 111 lbs (as of Friday at least), and recently weight restored from anorexia. I also weight train 3 hours a week and run/walk 4 hours a week.