Notanewbie

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  1. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    I think I may have accidentally deleted my previous accountability log. Whoops! No matter, because I haven't accomplished a compliant day, yet. The days I'm close, there are still little things like having A1 sauce with my turkey burgers and several days I woke up and put milk in my coffee because I wasn't paying attention... But the bigger issues were when I was so fixated on what I was eating that I either under ate - in which case I felt like I was starving by nighttime and then gorged on whatever my son ordered from DOORDASH - or felt defiant and just wanted a stupid paleo brownie because I just wanted a stupid paleo brownie... So, I'm finding myself unsure about what I want to do. I have some pretty big "why's" about losing some weight - firstly, I have gained 20 pounds since my divorce and I feel heavy. I have gone up two sizes, which means that I have had to PURCHASE TWO new wardrobes in the past three years. And for a money stickler like me, that hurts. And it's embarrassing to myself. And the bigger problem is that even though my normal diet is about 85% compliant, the weight keeps coming on. I'm afraid that I am just going to get bigger and bigger and bigger until I'm one of those people who has to pay for two airplane seats. Which, again, throws up the money issue. [I have had my thyroid checked and I'm in the clear on that.] So, aside from not wanting to have to purchase more clothes into which to squeeze my fat body, I would also like to lose weight because I'm 43 and dating and I want to feel pretty when I meet men. I don't want to feel fat. I hope that if (I used to say "when", but now it's an "if") I meet my person, he won't care what I look like, but I still don't want to project the feeling of shame about my looks when I meet someone for the first time. Also, I go to Hot Yoga several times a week and I started just wearing a bra top and capris with the intention of urging myself to lose weight (because, well, who wants to look like a fat sausage in the yoga mirrors?) So I have many reasons to lose weight, but I also need to make sure I have the energy to perform on the tennis courts. Several times in the past week if I had an evening match, I felt tired and weak on the courts and felt like I should have pre-ate a bit more before I started playing. But I wasn't hungry for a meal beforehand. Maybe that's something I should look at: the first part of my days seems to be OK, it's what happens after 4:00 PM that is troublesome. Also, I need to make sure I can sleep well. I've struggled with insomnia for years and when I go to bed hungry, I don't sleep well. I sleep best, I've found, when I have some Greek Yogurt before bed. Whatever it is about the stuff, it knocks me out. But if I am going to go through the trouble of eliminating milk from my coffee, I feel like it's a waste if I have a big honking cup of yogurt before bed, but it's something I think I should consider. So, I'm wondering if I can pre-plan my evening meals, especially on the nights that I have matches - they're at 6:00, so they're smack dab in the way of dinner - and make a decision about the yogurt, I can probably tighten up my eating to hopefully lose some weight. Pre-workout meals are fat and protein and Post-workout meals are lean protein and carbs. Let me brainstorm what might work for me... Pre - eggs and avocado, coconut and ???, hamburger and avocado (or olives), turkey burger and ??? Post - burger and potatoes, chicken and sweet potatoes, egg and potatoes, let's see... Hm... it would be nice to have some options that are portable so that I could grab them, put them in my bag and have them handy post-match... I usually have almonds with me, so that's something. OK, well, today has started off ok so far. I remembered to have my half-decaf coffee black! So I'll check back in to see how the day is going... My plan is to eat the following today: Steamed salmon Celery and berries Almonds Hamburger Potatoes Salad Eggs Avocado Grilled chicken and sweet potato and greens for dinner [reserve Greek yogurt if really hungry before bedtime] I'm going to try to eat potatoes and sweet potatoes today and see how that goes. I haven't been eating potatoes at all lately and I'm curious whether adding those in would help me feel more satiated and hence less likely to feel starving and like crap in the evenings... We'll see!
  2. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Compliant: Hard Boiled Eggs Turkey burgers Dried Plums Coconut oil Shredded coconut Japanese sweet potato Steamed Salmon Non-Compliant: Paleo Brownie Paleo Mug Cake Paleo Bread Piece of pizza Several handfuls of chewy red hots Milk in coffee Pero
  3. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Compliant: Roasted Potatoes Hamburger patty Avocado Almonds Salad Hard boiled egg Lots of Peaches - the quantity probably qualified as SWYPO Non-Compliant: maple syrup butter coconut sugar milk in coffee and pero scone (friend brought some for all of us for breakfast on the tennis courts) red hots candy (funny story) pero (ok with pero because I am interested in kicking the bean habit, too)
  4. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    I’m curious whether anyone else finds that dairy and grains taste bitter after eliminating them for a few days?
  5. Day 0... working on cleaning up my paleo-ish eating habits. Goal is to lose weight and generally be more aware of what I eat... starting tomorrow. I’m wondering if I might also be able to kick the coffee bean this month, too, since I’m not the biggest fan of coffee made without milk! Today’s meal log: (NOT W30 compliant) coffee with whole milk steamed salmon with lime salad turkey burgers made with parsely and onion handful of gummy candy that my friend offered me 10 paleo bites from costco bowl of tortilla soup (with beans)
  6. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Compliant: Peach Sweet potato Chicken Salad Herbal tea Roasted potato Hamburger Avocado Almonds Salmon Black half decaf Non-compliant: Pero Butter Tbsp Maple Syrup Paleo Brownie
  7. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Compliant: Chicken Broccoli Peach Almonds Cocoa Powder Coconut Oil Avocado Guacamole Hamburger Patty Olives Steamed Salmon Raspberries Blueberries Celery Black coffee Egg Non-compliant: Handful of corn chips [would have been unnecessary, had I an avocado on hand for lunch, and a potato - I'll try this today] Trader Joe's sample of apple crisp thing [this got the sugar monster going for the day] Trader Joe's milky coffee sample [totally unnecessary - just habit while talking to the TJ sample guy] 1 Tsp coconut sugar *** needed to eat more for lunch so I didn't feel like I was "starving" afterwards 1 Tbsp Oats *** needed to eat more for lunch so I didn't feel like I was "starving" afterwards 1 Tbsp Butter *** needed to eat more for lunch so I didn't feel like I was "starving" afterwards 1 Tsp Maple Syrup *** needed to eat more for lunch so I didn't feel like I was "starving" afterwards 1/4 c Plain Greek Yogurt [I was "STARVING" at night after my match and so I'm OK with going to some yogurt - but this might have been avoided had pre-eaten and planned for post-workout W30 snack - I'll have to try something different for this evening] Small Pkg gummy bears [again, should have pre-eaten for match] 1 c rice noodles [could have been avoided had I eaten properly before my match] So, for today, I've already kind of screwed myself because I have milk in my coffee, but for the rest of the day - I'll have my usual salmon and veggies/berries for breakfast, and then load up for lunch with a hamburger, avocado, and potato and then eggs or chicken or turkey for dinner. I may or may not go to hot yoga and I may or may not have a match this evening, so we'll see how the hunger story goes...
  8. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Slept like a baby last night. Had 1/4 cup of full fat greek yogurt before bed and took two calcium/MG vitamin tablets. Compliant: Black coffee Steamed Salmon Salad Raspberries Blueberries Celery Almonds Hamburger patty with avocado and green chile Shredded coconut and coconut oil 2 x Hard boiled eggs Cocoa Powder with coconut oil Almonds, chia seeds, flax Non Compliant: Handful of blue corn chips 1/4 cup full fat plain greek yogurt (at night, for sleep) 1 tsp honey 1 tsp coconut sugar 1 tsp maple syrup 2 tbsp Pero
  9. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Yep, didn't fall asleep for two hours lying in bed last night and then woke up at 4:30 AM and couldn't go back to sleep. It's going to be a rough day today. Maybe I need to eat before bed... but I wasn't uncomfortably hungry last night, and I had run out of compliant food options... IDK.
  10. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    OK, 8:30 PM and pretty much a compliant day, finally... black coffee steamed salmon blueberries raspberries celery hamburger patty with avocado and green chile salad 2 soft boiled eggs spoonful of almond butter non-compliant: (Only) two paleo bites (Costco) because I was really feeling hungry at 11:20 AM Two slices Paleo bread (baked with almonds, flax, yogurt and eggs) because I was really hungry at 3:00 Pero throughout the afternoon alongside coffee because I was feeling hungry, even though I must not have been that hungry because the Pero was satisfying and it has like 5 calories We'll see how I sleep tonight... I am going to bed a bit hungry tonight
  11. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Ok, half way through today... compliant so far, but found myself running out of energy... not sure if it was lack of sleep or lack of calories from yesterday... the only thing that’s different for me during the day before 4PM is no milk in my coffee... and that’s proving not to be too difficult. Compliant: black coffee steamed salmon blueberries raspberries celery hamburger patty with avocado and green chile salad non-compliant: two paleo bites because I was really feeling hungry at 11:20 AM
  12. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Yes, coming back again to affirm that I know W30 works and it feels good... Still starting the day off with black coffee and steamed salmon with lime, blueberries, raspberries, and some celery...
  13. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Starting off Day 1 with black coffee. I did lose a pound yesterday because I ate (mostly) compliant. The things that helped were - preparing myself to not share fast food with my son and preparing for social time with my friends with compliant snacks. I know it works, I just need to get with it and be motivated and disciplined... But not perfectionistic... There's the rub for me...
  14. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Compliant: Raspberries Hamburger patty Guacamole Almonds Avocado Steamed cod Non-compliant: Milk in coffee Five corn chips (with which to eat guacamole) 1 Tbsp Pero 1 Tbsp Greek yogurt
  15. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Day 0 Compliant: Strawberries Salad Hamburger patty Almonds Hard Boiled eggs and avocado Turkey patties Celery, carrots, cucumber Non- Compliant: Milk in coffee in the morning Pei Wei spicy chicken - several pieces shared with my son Cookies, pub mix and chocolate candy at a party So, looking at my past week of eating, my pitfalls are (1) sharing food with my son, who is addicted to DOORDASH and (2) going to get togethers with my friends. I'm actually basically on track when I'm on my own and prepping my own meals. Last night, I even pre-ate before I went to my friend's house so that I didn't show up hungry after our tennis match, but somehow, I STILL ended up eating a crap load of cookies and chocolate and pub mix (and I don't even like pub mix!). I suppose, to look on the bright side, I would have eaten even more, had I showed up hungry... So, I need to have a plan for when my son orders delivery and when I meet up with my friends, both of which will be happening today. I didn't feel tempted to eat delivery before I decided to try W30 again, so I should be able to resist now (I do get caught up in the food taboo monster when restricting my diet and eat things I wouldn't normally eat, just because I think I shouldn't)... maybe if I can have some almonds nearby so that I eat those instead. And as far as my friends go, I was good yesterday and firstly, pre-ate a hamburger, and secondly, brought a bunch of sparkling water and just drank that all night long, so maybe I need to bring a bunch of compliant snacks for us and munch on those myself... Today, I'll head to TJ's and pick up some W30 snacks and bring those to our gathering, along with some sparkling water and see if I can manage to get myself to eat just the stuff I bring... Wishing me luck! PS - I wonder if I need to get in the mindset of really loving the way my body feels on W30, or shifting my perspective on foods... I recall that a very perfectionistic perspective on food helped me on my last W30, but I don't know how healthy it would be to assimilate that lens again...
  16. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Yesterday: Compliant: Chicken Curry Hard boiled egg Avocado Raspberries Blueberries Almonds Non-Compliant: Chocolate chips Handful of french fries Slice of Toscano Cheese Milk in coffee Paleo brownie - cocoa powder, coconut sugar, coconut oil, egg Cup of Wonton Soup Cup of Hot and Sour soup Paleo Bread - Almonds + eggs + Greek yogurt
  17. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Day 0 Above the line: Turkey Burgers Salad Raspberries Blueberries Celery Coconut shreds Coconut oil Below the line: Pizza Paleo Bread Cheese Oreo cookie Ice cream
  18. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Yesterday, above the line: Black coffee Turkey burgers with onion and parsley Raspberries Blueberries Celery Hard Boiled Eggs Avocado Shredded coconut + coconut oil Almonds Below the line: A-1 Sauce Pero Fortune cookie Greek Yogurt, Milk, Honey Pad Thai Paleo Brownie Buffet food - cheese, rice crackers, crumble bar, taste of Alouette Maybe I can focus on changing one thing at a time - maybe I start with drinking my coffee black, since that seems to be a sticking point for me...
  19. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Day 0 again... Made it through to 4:00 PM last night, then spending time socializing got me. I'm not sure how committed I want to be to going through another W30 because it makes social time strange and adds stress to eating and somehow makes me feel angry - I don't know if watching what I eat and having restrictions is a good idea for me. It really affected my mood yesterday while I was with friends. But worse than that, focusing on eating (and restricting what I was "allowing myself" to eat) motivated me to eat cruddy food that I wouldn't normally eat in the first place... I ate some rice crackers and yogurt and a few slices of cheese and a piece of blackberry crumble at a buffet that we had. And then I was like "eff it" and ate some pad thai and some cookies, which I wouldn't have eaten normally, anyway... It's like to focus on what I was eating created a monster in me. And then I was left feeling fat, angry, self-loathing, and heavier this morning than I was yesterday morning. I don't know. My diet is really pretty clean at the moment, save milk in my coffee, full fat Greek yogurt at night, and the odd sharing of non-compliant foods with my friends. But the fact is that I am 25 pounds overweight and I really prefer being skinny. But I am healthy, energetic, athletic, and really don't ever have to think about what I eat. I'm conflicted. I do want to lose weight, but I don't want to add stress to my life. Lord knows, I need to reduce stress, not add to it! So, my conflict is, what is more stressful to me - being overweight or obsessing about food and dealing with the ramifications of errors along a W30 trial? Hm.
  20. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Oh, yeah. I just got home from a hot yoga class and NOW I remember how cool it is to have a regular-sized belly... Dairy definitely bloats me - it was one of the first things I noticed when I weaned myself off W30 last time... Today, even just the difference between having milk in my coffee versus taking it black is motivation for me to do this thing. I can do it. Here I go!
  21. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    OK, Day 1, FINALLY... Step # 1 has been successfully achieved. I have taken my half-decaf coffee black this morning. No milk. This has been, oddly, my biggest hurdle to starting another W30... It's on, folks!
  22. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Third cup of half decaf coffee was black... just to see if I could do it... even though it’s not supposed to be hard... haha above the line: steamed salmon two boiled eggs half avocado turkey burgers made with onion and parsley celery salad raspberries blueberries black coffee coffee with coconut creme and homemade almond milk (almonds, water, cinnamon) below the line: milk (in first coffee) A1 sauce for turkey burgers paleo brownie (mmmm...) greek yogurt - 1/4 cup 1 tsp pero
  23. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Second cup of half decaf was made with homemade almond milk (almonds + water + cinnamon) and coconut creme (canned, from TJ’s)... still causes a bit of a tummy upset for me, so wondering if I should stick with whole milk else try it black else give coffee up entirely.
  24. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Day 0 again because I really like milk in my coffee. I’ll give it one more shot today, and then who knows... Above the line - steamed salmon, eggs, avocado, salad, raspberries... not sure: olives below the line - candy, cheese and bread, French fries, chocolate honey pecans from Trader Joe’s
  25. Notanewbie

    Whole30 Daily Accountability

    Hard boiled eggs and half avocado for lunch