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    JessFind got a reaction from LO867 in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    Hi Ann! I love people who are transparent on their journals, and I love your picture of your sauces! Good for you for making them yourself, I just went to Whole Foods and bought the packaged compliant ones. I started my second round today mostly because I don't have any NYE plans. Excited to support each other! 
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    JessFind reacted to lizziehall in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Yes!! Your bread is my rice— I need sushi and Mexican food!! As for being scared of gaining back weight, I completely understand this one. My last Whole30 turned into a Whole 3 months because I was so scared to stop & undo all progress. This isn’t healthy, either! I spent way too much of my life focused on food and weight and didn’t let myself enjoy things as much. We’ll be in this together as we try to find a healthy balance after this round  I’ve been considering attempting to stay additive, gluten, dairy and 99% sugar free but reintroducing legumes and gluten free grains. We’ll see how reintro goes though!
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    JessFind got a reaction from heb2014 in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Thanks, @heb2014! 
    So I'm thinking about not posting so much on here about food, since I find myself eating pretty much the same things. Instead, I'll focus on how I'm feeling, NSVs, and other thoughts. If I find a fun recipe or something, I'll still post about it, but I'm finding tracking every little thing is getting monotonous. As long as I stay compliant, that shouldn't matter, right? 
    Anyway, yesterday (Day 16) was good! I spent most of the day feeling alert and in a good mood. I had several challenging meetings and I felt like I could keep up. I don't know if I would call it "tiger blood," but it was an improvement. 
    However, I felt like about half of my thoughts were about bread. I still really, really miss bread and I can't wait to just have a piece of toast with butter at the end of this. Why? I'm not sure. I'm feeling fulfilled with the food that I'm eating. I know Whole 30 isn't meant to be sustainable, and maybe I'm not meant to just give up bread for longer than this, but I have this fear of gaining back any weight that I've lost after this. I know I'm supposed to focus on other things than weight, and I am, but it's still a fear. Oh, I'm also really curious about how much weight I've lost. I'm glad I made my husband hide the scale, or I would totally be weighing myself by now. 
    Now that I'm past the half way mark, I just feel myself thinking about the end more than before. Is this normal? Will my bread cravings subside? I know no one can tell me for sure, I'll just have to see. Trying to focus on NSVs: much less inflation and bloating, much better sleep, way less headaches, better skin. 
    Sorry for the rambling post. It's just one of those days. 
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    JessFind reacted to heb2014 in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    I think it's normal and I think it's a really smart idea to start thinking about the end - not necessarily to count down the days until you can have a piece of bread or glass of wine or whatever again, but to think about how you want to eat after this. Do you want to go back to how you were eating previously, or have you made some changes you want to continue? And I would highly recommend doing the reintroduction (wasn't sure if you had mentioned it previously); that takes some consideration too. If you listen to podcasts, check out the Do The Thing episode where Melissa Urban interviewed Jacob Henriquez back in August.  He talks about why it's important to start thinking about what comes afterwards. One of his points that hit home to me was about sweets (which sugar is one of the only things that I found that really affected me negatively after the first round); he mentioned making a plan - will you eat dessert any time it's offered? Or maybe you make a rule for yourself that you'll only eat it if it's one of your favorite things or homemade, etc - that you define are really worth the negative effects. 
    I think I didn't spend enough time thinking about what comes after with my first round; we kept eating some Whole30 meals mixed in with some of our favorite non-Whole30 meals....then it became faster to just fall back in to the normal routine of, say, just making pasta for everyone instead of only for the kids and my husband and I eating spaghetti squash or using a bun for sloppy joes rather than making lettuce wraps. Then there was the Halloween candy and the holidays where I lost all self control. I did at least set up some signals for myself that it was time for another reset - if I started using coffee creamer everyday and if I started having sweets everyday. It was time.
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    JessFind got a reaction from heb2014 in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Thanks, @heb2014! 
    So I'm thinking about not posting so much on here about food, since I find myself eating pretty much the same things. Instead, I'll focus on how I'm feeling, NSVs, and other thoughts. If I find a fun recipe or something, I'll still post about it, but I'm finding tracking every little thing is getting monotonous. As long as I stay compliant, that shouldn't matter, right? 
    Anyway, yesterday (Day 16) was good! I spent most of the day feeling alert and in a good mood. I had several challenging meetings and I felt like I could keep up. I don't know if I would call it "tiger blood," but it was an improvement. 
    However, I felt like about half of my thoughts were about bread. I still really, really miss bread and I can't wait to just have a piece of toast with butter at the end of this. Why? I'm not sure. I'm feeling fulfilled with the food that I'm eating. I know Whole 30 isn't meant to be sustainable, and maybe I'm not meant to just give up bread for longer than this, but I have this fear of gaining back any weight that I've lost after this. I know I'm supposed to focus on other things than weight, and I am, but it's still a fear. Oh, I'm also really curious about how much weight I've lost. I'm glad I made my husband hide the scale, or I would totally be weighing myself by now. 
    Now that I'm past the half way mark, I just feel myself thinking about the end more than before. Is this normal? Will my bread cravings subside? I know no one can tell me for sure, I'll just have to see. Trying to focus on NSVs: much less inflation and bloating, much better sleep, way less headaches, better skin. 
    Sorry for the rambling post. It's just one of those days. 
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    JessFind reacted to heb2014 in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    I'm just catching up on your posts.  Way to go, sticking with it, not giving in to emotions or teasing. I'm so sorry about your childhood friend. 
    Hope today has continued to be a great one for you!
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    JessFind got a reaction from heb2014 in Anew in Arkansas - Round 2   
    I commend you for restarting! Lots of people would either just ignore that blip and continue on or just drop off all together. It sounds like you made the best choices for yourself in the moment. Bravo!
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    JessFind got a reaction from BabyBear in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Thanks so much for your encouragement, @lizziehall and @BabyBear! I really appreciate it.  
    Day 15: Monday, 1/15/20
    Yesterday was a really hard day at work. Long story short, I had 7 meetings and IT trouble, meaning I was almost never at my desk. My brain was mush by the end of the day, I was frustrated, I didn't eat enough, and I just wanted a glass of wine. 
    Here's what I did eat: 
    M1: I prepped the same kale, potato, egg hash on Sunday because I really liked it, and added some chorizo to the mix. Yum! Unfortunately I only had time to eat half of the serving I brought. 
    M2: Turkey burger with 1/2 avocado and some grapes with almond butter
    M3: I had a weird "dinner" of three bacon wrapped dates stuffed with an almond, one turkey lettuce wrap, and a banana 
     
    Good news is, I feel great today! Awake and in a better mood. Could this be Tiger Blood??
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    JessFind got a reaction from heb2014 in Anew in Arkansas - Round 2   
    I commend you for restarting! Lots of people would either just ignore that blip and continue on or just drop off all together. It sounds like you made the best choices for yourself in the moment. Bravo!
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    JessFind reacted to BabyBear in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Wooooooo you totally rocked that situation.  It sucks that your friend teased you about the lack of drinking rather than offering you words of encouragement.  Some people mask their sense of discomfort with what they think is humor.  
    My sympathy to you in the loss of a childhood friend.  Death especially of someone close to our own age that we played with in our youth is a very crass reminder of our own mortality and just how fragile life is.  
    A little pampering, What a nice way to celebrate you and all you have accomplished so far.  Be blessed!
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    JessFind reacted to lizziehall in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Wow Jess, I’m so impressed! You’re dealing with your emotions in a proactive way rather than depending on food or alcohol (especially) as a bandaid, which has to be the biggest NSV in my opinion. Go you!!!
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    JessFind reacted to Brezymurph in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Yay!!!!! We have similar victories this week. My first time I quit on day 10 too! Today is day 12 for me and I feel great. 
     
    I also watch the bachelor ! I am excited in a few weeks I can have a glass of wine watching when the season becomes more intense. 
     
    i went to a movie a few day’s ago and brought complaint snacks. I didn’t eat anything. It was tempting. 
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    JessFind reacted to BabyBear in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Congratulations! You have made it farther than last time and that’s a big victory to celebrate. 
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    JessFind got a reaction from BabyBear in Very hungry mommy 1st Time whole 30 Jan 2020   
    Aw thank you for being open about your emotional journey! I know a lot of us can relate. Forgiving ourselves is a long process. And dang, if my husband asked me to get him fast food right now that would be a real test of our love! haha! 
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    JessFind got a reaction from lizziehall in January Whole30 Log   
    Hi @lizziehall! Have you had a chance to check out the Whole 30 timeline? It lays out a framework of symptoms you may feel and why you may feel them. Obviously everyone is different, but I find it comforting to know what to expect. Dreams and bloating are normal! https://whole30.com/revised-timeline/ 
    I also feel you about being in a rut. Try to dedicate some more time to try new recipes and textures. I find texture is really important for me. I'm glad you're feeling better! 
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    JessFind got a reaction from BabyBear in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Thanks, @BabyBear!
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    JessFind reacted to heb2014 in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    I think my husband is going to be out of town for a work retreat when I hit the kill all the things mood - probably good for both of us! I am going to have to remind myself to be extra patient with the kids though; I'm sure I'll be motivated to get them to bed extra early. 
    @Ann What would happen if you just left the coffee cups there? This is a totally passive aggressive approach I take with my husband and laundry sometimes, but would the attorneys eventually start putting them in the dishwasher themselves....or would it just get piled up? My boss (who has now retired) did this also and our office manager pulled that on him - just let them sit; he eventually got the point. (Unfortunately he never got the point about running the disposer after dropping his loose leaf tea down in...and would complain after a few times about the sink being clogged....)
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    JessFind reacted to BabyBear in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    @JessFind you rocked that challenge!  Way to go!  I bet you felt like a million bucks when you finished a good night with friends and your whole 30 was still intact!
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    JessFind reacted to Ann in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    Kill all things?  Yep, I think it hit me today.  
    I work in a small office (4 attorneys and me).  We are like family - I've been here for 22 years, and the person with the shortest time here has been here 12 years.  An ongoing issue is attys leaving their coffee cups or lunch dishes in the sink, presumably assuming "someone else" (aka ME) will put them into the dishwasher.  Always frustrating. This morning, someone did it right in front of me.  I've reminded them over and over that the dishwasher is RIGHT THERE. But it's an ongoing issue.  Maybe I'm supposed to be the kitchen help in addition to all my many other professional duties??  Maybe they are too important and busy to do their own dishes??  I'm considering taping a big "we have a dishwasher" sign above the sink with a giant arrow pointing to said dishwasher.  At the same time, I know they know, and I know it doesn't usually bother me as much as it seems to be this morning.  
    Oh, and this happened as I was unjamming the [email protected]#king copy machine for another attorney.  
    I'm keeping my frustration to myself, because I really do think it's not typical for me to feel quite this strongly about it.  I mean, it takes like 5 seconds for me to move said coffee cups to dishwasher, and I have an awesome job with people I truly love.  It's going to be an interesting day.  
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    JessFind reacted to heb2014 in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Way to go!
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    JessFind got a reaction from heb2014 in Starting Round 2 on Jan. 1st!   
    Day 8 - Monday, 1/6/20
    Yesterday I felt good overall, no headaches. However in the afternoon my gut was definitely unhappy! I was a little worried that my turkey burger had gone bad or something, but then I remembered that day 8 is usually when our guts are unhappiest, so that made me feel a little less nervous. Thankfully I didn't have any afternoon meetings or that could've been ... a problem. 
    I succeeded in a major challenge last night! A group of my girlfriends and I have a Monday night Bachelor watch party ... yes I know, feel free to judge away. (For those of you who don't know what the Bachelor is, it's a HORRIBLE reality TV show, but it's fun to watch and make fun of.) Well, last night was the premier, so the girls went all out. Cheese, wine, pizza, desserts -- all of it. I showed up with my seltzer and a fruit salad that I made to try to combat everything I couldn't eat (see pic below). It worked! I put my seltzer in a wine glass and put some fruit in it to pretend it was sangria. I honestly didn't really miss much of it ... except the cheese. I do miss the cheese. But anyway, I would've normally had about three glasses of wine on a night like that and I would've woken up feeling gross, but not today! 
    So here's what I ate: 
    M1: The kale potato egg hash I made with 1/2 of an avocado. So yummy! I was very full and I didn't need a snack before lunch. 
    M2: Turkey burger patty with lots of cut up cucumbers and cherry tomatoes dipped in avocado ranch, a couple grapes and almond butter
    S1: A few more grapes and almond butter 
    M3: Eggs with bell peppers, onions, roasted squash, and potatoes 
    S2: Some of my fruit salad (but not a lot, my dinner really filled me up.) 

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    JessFind got a reaction from BabyBear in Very hungry mommy 1st Time whole 30 Jan 2020   
    Aw thank you for being open about your emotional journey! I know a lot of us can relate. Forgiving ourselves is a long process. And dang, if my husband asked me to get him fast food right now that would be a real test of our love! haha! 
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    JessFind reacted to BabyBear in Very hungry mommy 1st Time whole 30 Jan 2020   
    Its Day 6 Y’all!  Warning I cried writing some of this!
    6:40 up and at em! I have to get My 13 yr old son out the door to his class that is an hour away.  I got me dressed baby up and pottied and dressed.  Helped My 13 DS get his lunch together.  I grabbed a banana and my water for a snack to hold me over the until I get home to make breakfast.  I know it’s not an ideal snack, but I figure it’s better than going to BK and getting a double croissant sandwich which was my custom a few months ago.  
    Lol oh me! Hubby called just before I was about to turn on our road and asked if I could go get him a steak biscuit from Hardee’s.  How could I turn him down he sounded so pitiful, gosh darn it I love that man! Of course I would! Thank goodness I ate the banana.  I got his food, and it surprised me that I didn’t have any desire to eat it.  I should mention at that point I was listening to Melissa’s pod cast “Do the thing” and the whole 30 and weight loss  episode was on, and I was crying like a little girl who lost her puppy.   When she started talking about why you shouldn’t remain on the whole 30 if you still have more weight to lose it struck a very deep chord with me.  It finally connected with me that I believe deep down subconsciously that I deserve to be punished for my weight and how that has affected the way I see me and any efforts I make at weight loss,  why even the 12lbs I lost in December (IN DECEMBER) wasn’t enough.  I have been so angry, upset, disgusted  with myself for allowing the weight to pile back on 8 years ago. What I didn’t stop to realize is that it piled back on because of an traumatic injury that broke me physically mentally and emotionally.  I have to heal from that and give myself space and care to overcome the trauma I endured.  Even now the physical injury is not 100% I still deal with nerve issues, strength issues, pain and aching although I have come so far in the physical recovery there is still the reminder.  Even more damaging than the physical was the mental and emotional and until today I don’t think I realized how damaged I was and I have done nothing to heal my mental and emotional.  I have apologized to myself profoundly for being so cold, so mean, so judge mental when what I needed was care, healing and grace.  Wow! I would have never thought a food experiment would lead to all this.  I will definitely be listening to this podcast again to glean more because I kind of got lost in my tears and snot this go around.  
    10:30 finally eating breakfast! I heated up some leftover fajita steak and peppers.  Sautéed a large handful of spinach and then scrambled both of those in with two eggs.  I put em in a bowl and topped with tomatoes avocados and some compliant roasted garlic red chili salsa.  It was tasty, so very tasty.  I used my new bamboo utensils my mom bought to make breakfast.  I used the one with Joy,  it says serving up Joy and you know I did just that!  Today is going to be a great day.
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    JessFind got a reaction from Brezymurph in Briannas Log!   
    Day 2 was my hardest in both rounds too. Keep it up! You'll get your energy back soon!
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    JessFind got a reaction from PepperP75 in Anew in Arkansas - Round 2   
    @Jim Baunach I would also suggest you start your own thread with these questions. Right now you're taking over @heb2014's journal and this probably isn't the tone she wants to start her journey on. (I don't mean to speak for you, heb.) Like with any lifestyle change, it's best not to be so literal about it. There is no fast and easy way to get rid of cravings forever. If you're looking for a magic pill, this isn't the program for you. But if you want to be diligent and change your habits with the help of this program with an open mind, by all means dive in.