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  1. On 11/3/2021 at 2:39 AM, Rebecca001 said:

     It’s that I have given IT permission. 


    Oh my goodness - this.  And every thing else after it.  But this is the thing.  I give IT permission.  This is where to concentrate on change.  

    I'm thinking alot, processing alot.  Today has not been a great day.  My belly hurts.  It's my choices. 



  2. I think it was yesterday's post from Melissa Urban that talked about, "I'm not drinking right now."  I decided to try that with sugar.  So, "I'm not eating sugar right now."  I put a red hair band around my wrist that will serve as my visual reminder for the month of November.  It comes down to making the decision at each moment.  I am usually really good at making the pro-health decisions.  But when I'm not, I'm all in to the bad choice.  So for now, I'm going to choose not to make the bad choice and remember that I'm going to be mindful and conscious of the choice by wearing the red band.  

    M1-Egg, compliant bacon, compliant mayo wrapped in a collard green leaf

    M2-Homemade chicken salad wrapped in a collard leaf

    M3-Hamburger with sauteed mushrooms and onions.  Served on Bibb lettuce.  


  3. @Rebecca001 - I fell from grace.  On Day 25.  I made the mistake of buying Halloween candy early, overconfident that I could handle having it in the house.  I had bought the candy Monday and it lasted until Wednesday night - then I discovered that I could not handle having it in the house.  But really, I think I didn't want to handle it - I wanted those creamy, coconut-y Almond Joys.  And then I struggled so to get back on track, I think because in the back of my head I wanted to eat whatever I wanted until I could get to today. November 1 and Monday, the perfect time to restart.  Head games that I play with myself.  Maybe I should be concentrating on living my Food Freedom since I pretty much know how various foods impact me.  And if I stop playing games with myself, maybe I'll be able to better enjoy a candy bar once in a while, without a nearly week-long derailment.  I need to change the mindset of permission.  

    It's a Catch-22 for me - if I give myself permission to eat whatever, then I will most definitely eat whatever.  I *think* I do better with an all-or-nothing approach, and while I'm quite successful with the nothing, when the all kicks in, which it always does at some point, the all really does equate to everything - McDonald's and all.  If I try a more moderate approach, I still can't handle the sugar.  While I may flail along eating a bit of sugar here and there for some time, I eventually give in completely.  And go back to eating everything.  So the issue is - Why do I find myself back in a position of eating foods that make me feel terrible, that are terrible for me?  And they really make me feel terrible - there were several nights last week that I had moaning, groaning tummy aches because of what I ate.  All the while saying to myself, this is why I don't eat that crap.  AND YET I DID IT ALL OVER AGAIN the next day.     

    I read a book on nutrition (I read lots of books on nutrition) that suggested that sugars, fats, and salts lay down "memory" in our cells.  And so even though a food may have been reformulated and tastes terrible to us now, we still want to eat it because of the memory of how it made us feel when we ate it at a different time in life.  This was theorized to be one of the reasons why it's so difficult for the tv dinner and processed food generations to change their eating habits - a Poptart might call up pleasant memories of childhood, and when presented with a Poptart today, I might have a hard time resisting because of the physiological and the emotional memory of the impact...dopamine & serotonin spikes, smiling Mom, Saturday morning cartoons, whatever.  I can buy that theory...but why can't I overcome it?  There is also the theory of noxious substances - eat something that makes you sick, and you'll avoid it in the future.  I haven't eaten hot dogs and baked beans since I was a kid for this very reason.   So if Poptarts make me feel sick, but frozen grapes make me feel good (and are delicious!) why do I have to fight myself to choose the grapes over the Poptart?  

    I wrote the above paragraphs yesterday, but never finished or posted.  So I'll post, but then start a different post for today.  





  4. Nothing much to say today. I didn't get around to poaching the chicken thighs - MUST DO TONIGHT.  I also didn't make it to the produce stand-another must do, but at least I'll be coming home from that direction tonight.  

    M1-Nothing yet.  I was not hungry this morning and so chose to sleep rather than get up and make breakfast.  

    M2-Grilled chicken salad

    M3-Carnitas tacos tonight-didn't have the collards to make the shell portion happen last night.  And there is still ALOT of pork left.  It's soo good, but no one else eats it - I don't understand why.  My husband must think it's diet food.  :blink:





  5. Dinner was delicious last night.  Oven roasted potatoes rank above macaroni and cheese as comfort food, in my opinion.  There were some left over potatoes that I'm looking forward to frying up with an egg and greens later this week.  Plus, I had a nice long hike with the dog, which ended with a 1/4 mile run back to the car to avoid the impending thunderstorm.  Followed by a LONG yoga session.  I slept so well last night after spending a blissful afternoon/evening.  How easy it is to take good care of myself when I'm motivated to do so.  

    Day 24...though I need to check the dijon mustard I used on the potatoes - I woke up in the middle of the night thinking that the mustard, while Primal Kitchen brand, may not be W30 compliant.  

    M1-Another egg, bacon, mayo sandwich wrapped in collard greens.  With the addition of an heirloom tomato this morning.  So yummy!  I need to stop at the produce market for more collards.  

    M2-Chipotle lifestyle bowl  - I'm taking my daughter lunch at her new job today, and she requested Chipotle.  

    M3-Carnitas tacos with collard green "shells."  Topped with heirloom tomato, lettuce, and cilantro.  Blueberries and almond milk.  Plus I need to poach the chicken thighs since I didn't do that this weekend.  I need something for lunch tomorrow.  

    I'm hoping for another long hike, but I'm not sure if I'll get out of work in time. It's getting dark so early.  Once the time changes, I can get back to morning hikes (I hope my energy level agrees!).  I can walk around the neighborhood, but that just isn't as much fun.  Plus yoga, probably a short session tonight.  

    *I did check the dijon and it is W30 compliant.  Yay!  






  6. On 10/25/2021 at 5:40 AM, StefMonster said:

    Had 2 batches of mayo fail and I can't figure out why. The only difference is that I used olive oil from Kroger instead of Aldi. It's a real puzzle.

    Sometimes it really is a puzzle, but when it turns out right, it's so lovely!  I personally have more success with avocado oil than olive oil, but now based on your comment, I wonder if it's actually brand dependent.  The only advice I can offer is to make sure all your ingredients are room temperature.   Also, if the mayo doesn't turn out, add seasonings and turn it into a creamy salad dressing or a marinade.  

  7. I can't believe the weekend has come and gone and I did no journaling...Saturday, Day 21, was on-plan.  Yesterday, I didn't feel well, a stomach bug or something, and I didn't eat much or do much.  I slow-cooked a pork roast for carnitas over the weekend, but didn't do the rest of my planned meal prep.

    Friday after work I stopped at a new produce stand and loaded up on greens - collard greens, rainbow chard, salad mix, plus scallions, mushrooms, and apples.  The collard leaves make excellent wraps for sandwiches.  

    Day 23

    M1-2 eggs, 3 slices complaint bacon, Paleo Kitchen mayo wrapped up in two collard leaves.  Because I didn't prep my breakfasts for the week, I had to get up earlier today to make this.  It was well worth the effort.  

    M2-Salad greens topped with compliant Caesar dressing, pork carnitas, apple, La Croix drink

    M3 - Pork, Rainbow chard, oven roasted potatoes tossed with compliant Dijon.  

    Long hike and yoga planned for after work.  






  8. I did make chia seed pudding last night to have for breakfast this morning.  As I sat before my computer eating it, I wondered if it was in fact compliant.  I did a search through the forums and found technically it's not, because it's a treat with compatible ingredients or a no-brakes food.  Chia seed pudding is a fairly new discovery for me, and it's delicious.  Just as those egg muffins (are they technically non-compliant because I cook them in a muffin tin with muffin papers?) were that I had for breakfast earlier in the week.  I don't typically eat pudding.  This is not sweet and I wouldn't consider it a treat.  It's a non-egg based breakfast today, I had some last week for dinner.  So I'm not going to worry about it.  If I made this because I was looking for an alternative to tapioca pudding for instance, then yes, it should not be part of my W30.  Chia seed pudding is not a gateway food for me in the same way coconut balls made with coconut cream, shredded coconut, and almonds would be.  

    I haven't journaled much this week, as it's been crazy busy at work and I'm so tired by the time I finally settle down at night.  Everything is going well as far as not having cravings and being able to stick with my meal plans.  NSVs  are significantly decreased joint pain, looser pants, no indigestion, even energy levels throughout the day (no mid-afternoon yawning).  Sleep has been good, but I still can't bring myself to get up as early as I was prior to my trip in August.  I mentioned earlier in the week that I had been diagnosed with Vitamin D deficiency and I've since taken 2 doses (twice a week supplement).  I'm hoping that with the time change in just over two weeks that can key me back into the mornings.  I would like to get back to exercising in the morning, whether it's just a walk or going to the gym.  I'm also hoping for the bags under my eyes to disappear.  I think that's as much from the on-going fatigue as it is a remnant of poor diet and aging.  

    Interestingly, I've gotten into watching the Great British Bake Off every night.  All those lovely treats, breads, pies, savory and sweet.  I am not a good baker as I don't have the scientific precision required to do it right, but it's fascinating to watch and learn.  I got thinking last night I could bake a loaf of bread....nope, not going to do it.  

    Day 20

    M1-Chia seeds, compliant almond milk, frozen blueberries

    M2-Chicken Caesar salad - cubed chicken, romaine and cucumbers, primal kitchen caesar dressing

    M3-Steak tips and sweet potato cubes, broccoli

    Walk and yoga.  



  9. Day 19

    M1-last of the egg muffins.  I need to plan breakfast for tomorrow (chia seed pudding?)

    M2-Green Goddess salad from Panera with oil and vinegar and no bacon

    M3 - leftover taco salad



  10. Interesting note - I was packing grapes for my lunch this morning and I remarked to my husband and son how delicious and sweet they were.  Both tried them and said they barely had any taste.  I'm guessing it's the lack of sugar in my diet :)

    Day 17

    M1- 3 egg muffins and black coffee

    M2 - egg salad over spinach, grapes

    M3 - taco salad - ground beef, sautéed bell peppers and onions, big salad, fresh pico de gallo.  

    I've been doing well getting a daily walk and yoga.  I just started a vitamin D supplement last night and I'm hoping that will help with my fatigue.  I was blaming my sudden loss of morning wakefulness on jet lag, and then W30, but it continues with only a little improvement over the last few weeks.  Where I used to pop out of bed by 5:30 am most mornings (and have time for a walk and coffee meditation) I'm now staying in bed until the last possible moment of 7:00 a.m.  I have been waking sometimes at 6:30 and have gotten up and walked twice in the morning, but it's not usually this hard for me.  Even when it's dark in the morning.  Researching Vitamin D deficiency, fatigue is a symptom.  I got some time in the sun this weekend, but I'm hoping the supplement will help.  

    I'm just realizing that this is the farthest I've made it this round without having to start over - I think I have had two restarts since starting the day after Labor Day.  Dinner tomorrow night at a Japanese restaurant will present a little challenge, but otherwise I should make it to Day 21 without any challenges.  Other than today - Taco Tuesday at work, and they smell amazing!!! - I'm about to leave to go home for lunch, but really I'm not terribly tempted despite how good they smell.  Anyway, if I make it to Day 21 the rest should be pretty easy for me.  Plus, I had someone tell me this morning I looked good, had I lost weight?  That made my morning.  Continuing on...


  11. From Monday 10/18 - forgot to hit submit: 


    I'm killing time waiting for a meeting that starts in 45 minutes.  I've worried about all weekend.  I had breakfast this morning and packed lunch, but I think I'll wait until after the meeting to eat.  It's either going to go well and be fairly quick or it's going to go horribly and end quickly (only to have to be rescheduled).  

    I find Sundays to be a little bit tougher - certainly, the work week is easier because it's fairly regimented.  And Saturdays I'm often busy with housecleaning, dog obedience class, and then an afternoon or evening activity that allows me to be planful and structured in my eating for the day.  But Sundays, I lounge in the morning, reading and drinking coffee.  Sometimes I attend church (virtual, but maybe it will help if I go back in the building).  Usually, I'm out of leftovers and need to prep for the week, so lunch and breakfast are always a bit of a struggle.  By dinner I'm usually back on track.  Yesterday, I snacked on cashews through the afternoon and so wasn't terribly hungry for dinner.  I ate it anyway, minus the sweet potatoes, and seem to be ok this morning.  

    Day 16

    M1-3 egg muffins

    M2-egg salad over greens, blackberries

    M3-leftover pork chops, rice, kale, blueberries and almond milk.  




  12. I often don't feel like eating breakfast, either.  And the days that I do eat breakfast, it often throws me off for timing my other two meals.  I find it difficult to get the portion size just right, so that I'm hungry at the right time.  

    I'm glad your running is coming back.  Enjoy the beautiful day! 


  13. Day 15

    M1-salami, raspberries, and black coffee

    M2-BLT salad, cashews, grapes

    M3–pork chops, skillet sweet potatoes, cauliflower rice. 

    meal-prepped egg muffins for breakfast and egg salad for lunch.  Overdoing the eggs this week.  

  14. Day 14

    M1-3 eggs, 3 slices bacon, spinach cooked in olive oil

    M2-Charcuterie at winery with friends: meats, olives, grapes, berries, cashews. I avoided the cheeses, crisp breads, olives stuffed with blue cheese, and chocolate dusted almonds.  And it was fine! 

    M3-Leftover chicken over kale. 

  15. For lunch today, I ended up going with Five Guys.  Researching on-line, I did find compliant meals for several quick places near me, including Panera, but a juicy Five Guys burger sounded yummy.  I did not realize they don't use oil or butter on their grill and no seasonings.  Two patties, no cheese, lettuce wrap, with tomato, grilled onions and mushrooms, and mustard.  Filling and satisfying.  

  16. I use the Headspace app frequently to help me sleep.  I discovered last night there are mediations on there for cravings and for mindful eating.  I think I will try them.  

    Day 13

    M1 final serving of egg casserole.  That was really good this week.  

    M2 I would really like to have Panera for lunch, rather than go home.  I'm going to see if I can find something compliant on their menu, but if not, I'll go home and make chicken salad over salad.  

    M3 BBQ chicken, broccoli, sweet potatoes if I need the extra carbs.  

    Plan for walk, yoga, and bodyweight exercises after work.  


  17. The day is almost over and I’m just getting to  journal.  Dense fog this morning, so no walk, but I did get a nice short hike in this afternoon. And yoga.  

    I had routine lab work done yesterday and most of my numbers were good, except my HDL cholesterol was a little high and my Vitamin D was quite low.  First time for both.  I haven’t been spending as much time outside in the middle of the day and I guess it shows. I haven’t talked with the doc yet-I do not want to take meds for my cholesterol.  The other cholesterol numbers were good.  This will give me incentive to stay away from the processed food.  

    Day 12

    M1 egg casserole

    M2 Chipotle lifestyle chicken bowl

    M3 rest of the chili over kale. Bowl of frozen blueberries with almond milk. 

    I was craving something sweet after dinner, but I ignored it and I’m ok now.  


  18. I added some body weight exercises to my routine last night.  Did not get up to walk this morning, just wasn't feeling it.  I woke up, and then just laid in bed trying to go back to sleep, unsuccessfully.  Just lazy.  

    Day 11

    M1-nothing, I had to do labwork this morning, which required a 12 hour fast.  

    M2-rest of the chicken salad over mixed greens

    M3 - chicken with Primal Kitchen BBQ sauce, broccoli.  Maybe a sweet potato.  

    I have an appointment after work and so probably won't have time to walk or do yoga.  A no exercise kind of day.  


  19. Mile long pre-Dawn walk this morning.  

    Day 10

    M1-egg casserole and black coffee

    M2-Chipotle W30 chicken bowl.  I thought I’d have time to go for lunch, but didn’t. 

    M3- leftover chili over spinach.  

    I made chia seed pudding last night-just the seeds and almond milk.  I need to perfect my technique, but it was pretty good.  It would be good for breakfast or a snack, especially with fruit added.  

    plan to walk again after work and yoga. 

  20. On 10/7/2021 at 4:59 PM, Rebecca001 said:

    I’m determined to find my groove. I continue to plan my food every evening and set out with the intention of being 100% compliant.

    This is also how I find my groove when I get off-track.  Return to the habits that set me straight, like you with planning your food every evening.  It's a fine balance, intending 100% compliance but being able to quickly restart if you aren't.  There are so many cute quotes about success and failure, but there is so much truth in trying again and not letting less-than-perfect derail you.  

    The journaling helps me, too.  One of my healthy habits that I return to if things go awry.  The motivation is there, or you wouldn't keep coming back. It's just sometimes not easy to bring it to the surface.  You've got this!!   


  21. @Rebecca001 I didn't do the class :wacko:.   I just couldn't be brave enough...not yet, anyway.  I'm going to keep trying to talk myself into it.  I did get up this morning and walk a mile with the dog, though.  That's the first time I've done that since early August.  It's dark that early, but such a great way to start the day.  

    I've been busy at work and haven't been good about logging in to journal.  I've made journaling one of my daily healthy habits to do this week in working toward my "prizes", so I'm going to try to do at least a short entry each day.  

    Day 9

    M1-Slice of egg, scallion. kale, bacon casserole that I cooked up yesterday. 

    M2-Homemade chicken salad over salad greens

    M3-Nom Nom Paleo chili over kale.  

    I did some good meal planning and preparation yesterday, which will make this week so much easier.  It took less than an hour to get the chili going in the crockpot, get the casserole in the oven, and make the chicken salad.  Clean-up included.  Now I have breakfast for 4 days, lunch for 4 days, and dinner for at least 1 night.  The rest of the dinners are intended to be made in 30 minutes or less, with leftovers for either breakfast, lunch, or another dinner.  I can be more consistent with prepping on Sundays when I remember how quickly I can do it


  22. 23 hours ago, eramsey said:

    So on Day 10 he decided that he was not doing whole 30

    This is spot-on with the timeline...just sayin' ;)

    The struggle with the husband is so real for me.  We've long ago agreed to disagree and often cook our own, separate dinners.  Which is sad.  And expensive.  You have a great plan with sitting down together to look at the budget - hopefully, that will do the trick!  

    You're a wonderful role model for him, sticking to it when it gets tough (I hear the chocolate and cheese...) and with your new energy and improved mood you don't even have to say anything for him to see the positives in really a very short time.  

    Good luck!