MadyVanilla

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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Yay!  Congratulations! Your posts are thoughtful, funny, and genuine.  I've found so much of what you say applicable to my own situation.  I'm going to continue to follow you in Reintroduction as you start the next phase.  To science and experimentation! 
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/29/20:
    Breakfast: crummy ol' hard-boiled egg, in a hurry
    Lunch: Sweet potato + steamed broccoli + roasted cauliflower + spicy chicken tinga + sauce
    Dinner: Stovetop marinated chicken + mashed potatoes + green beans almondine + a splash of kombucha
    Because I started this adventure a couple of days before the start of the month, I am considering today my last official day of this Whole 30. Now the real adventure begins... figuring out how to translate my observations from the past 30 days into sustainable ways of feeding myself. I've been at this adventure of sustainable eating for quite some time. In some ways, the Whole 30 is the easy part... the challenge comes after the external expectations are withdrawn and I am left to make my own judgment calls.
    My goal is to eat in a way that is flexible, pleasurable, and life-affirming.... and to lean on my own authority for determining what that looks like. Melissa Urban is never going to show up in my kitchen and tell me that that English muffin is not in my best interest. So I need to put a lot of energy into consciously thinking about my food freedom. I plan to start another thread in the Re-introduction area for cataloging these reflections.
    So grateful to have another few weeks at home to think about this and experiment. Thank you, W30 squad, for your companionship along the way!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    I loved reading about your lake adventure and your readjustment afterward - this sounds so ideal!  It's always been all-or-nothing for me, I'm either eating all the treats or eating none of them.  Your balance is a goal for me.  
    Tip on the marinara sauce - buy a big can of crushed tomatoes (check for compliance, but I think most are tomatoes, salt, and citric acid) and then add a little olive oil, garlic, oregano, basil, salt and pepper to taste.  Super easy and delicious! 
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Contessa's June Realignment   
    This is such a well-planned reintroduction-It's one thing to read it and say, "yeah, I can follow that" and another to actually write out what you want to do.  This is fantastic!
    Yes...thinking ahead to any social occasions or a new tart recipe I've come across and planning, looking forward to, those opportunities to enjoy something special.   The ability to savor those moments, that glass of red with a creamy Camembert and slice of raspberry tart while sitting on the front porch with a friend on Friday evening...that is so much more life- and soul-affirming than mindlessly shoveling a bag of Doritos.  Plus, I can afford better wine and cheese if I'm not wasting money on junk food.  
    Agent Cooper has the right idea-it's so hard to notice and enjoy the daily small gifts when we are wandering aimlessly, turning in Tasmanian devil circles, through the blizzard of junk.  Noticing the daily present will keep my mind clear and focused on my goal of health.  I don't want to live in the blizzard, the dense fog existence that I much too frequently find myself in because of poor food choices.    
    Cheers to you!   
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Contessa's June Realignment   
    This is such a well-planned reintroduction-It's one thing to read it and say, "yeah, I can follow that" and another to actually write out what you want to do.  This is fantastic!
    Yes...thinking ahead to any social occasions or a new tart recipe I've come across and planning, looking forward to, those opportunities to enjoy something special.   The ability to savor those moments, that glass of red with a creamy Camembert and slice of raspberry tart while sitting on the front porch with a friend on Friday evening...that is so much more life- and soul-affirming than mindlessly shoveling a bag of Doritos.  Plus, I can afford better wine and cheese if I'm not wasting money on junk food.  
    Agent Cooper has the right idea-it's so hard to notice and enjoy the daily small gifts when we are wandering aimlessly, turning in Tasmanian devil circles, through the blizzard of junk.  Noticing the daily present will keep my mind clear and focused on my goal of health.  I don't want to live in the blizzard, the dense fog existence that I much too frequently find myself in because of poor food choices.    
    Cheers to you!   
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    Finally home, yay!  Interestingly, there are no compliant places to stop for lunch along my route home.  I got the brilliant idea as I approached a metro area to find a Chipotle and order from my app.  It was a few minutes off-track, but worth it to get a good, compliant and filling lunch.  Once home, there was no easy real food as I suspected would be the case.  If I had been smart, I would have prepared and frozen a meal for myself.  I fried up an onion and potato in olive oil, and added 2 compliant hotdogs.  It was good.  And finally, enough yummy, compliant, and fat-filled food to feel satisfied.  
    Looking back over the week, it really wasn't terrible.  My one definite off-plan dance was with the carry-out hibatchi dinner with rice.  It was just so difficult not knowing exactly what I would be eating, and then how it was going to be prepared.  I need the control in my life even under normal circumstances!  Two things that I maintained that are new (and important!) for me this round were journaling and walking every morning upon waking.  
    I have already menu-planned and ordered my groceries this morning.  And I have a Thrive order coming later today.  
    Day 22
    Energy-8, Mood-8, Pain-0 during walk.  No one walked the dog while I was gone.  She woke me up this morning ready to go.  I wanted to do a C25K workout this morning, but I didn't sleep well and I wasn't quite ready to get up when she was.  So a short walk and probably just a longer one this afternoon as it's already hot and humid here.  And I really need to do yoga this afternoon.  
    M1-eggs again.  I have no leftovers and no vegetables right now.  
    M2-I'm not going to have time to make food, so I'm probably going to get Chipotle for lunch.  Busy day ahead
    M3-Sheet pan chicken fajita over garden salad.  
     
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Take Advantage   
    Finally home, yay!  Interestingly, there are no compliant places to stop for lunch along my route home.  I got the brilliant idea as I approached a metro area to find a Chipotle and order from my app.  It was a few minutes off-track, but worth it to get a good, compliant and filling lunch.  Once home, there was no easy real food as I suspected would be the case.  If I had been smart, I would have prepared and frozen a meal for myself.  I fried up an onion and potato in olive oil, and added 2 compliant hotdogs.  It was good.  And finally, enough yummy, compliant, and fat-filled food to feel satisfied.  
    Looking back over the week, it really wasn't terrible.  My one definite off-plan dance was with the carry-out hibatchi dinner with rice.  It was just so difficult not knowing exactly what I would be eating, and then how it was going to be prepared.  I need the control in my life even under normal circumstances!  Two things that I maintained that are new (and important!) for me this round were journaling and walking every morning upon waking.  
    I have already menu-planned and ordered my groceries this morning.  And I have a Thrive order coming later today.  
    Day 22
    Energy-8, Mood-8, Pain-0 during walk.  No one walked the dog while I was gone.  She woke me up this morning ready to go.  I wanted to do a C25K workout this morning, but I didn't sleep well and I wasn't quite ready to get up when she was.  So a short walk and probably just a longer one this afternoon as it's already hot and humid here.  And I really need to do yoga this afternoon.  
    M1-eggs again.  I have no leftovers and no vegetables right now.  
    M2-I'm not going to have time to make food, so I'm probably going to get Chipotle for lunch.  Busy day ahead
    M3-Sheet pan chicken fajita over garden salad.  
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Post Whole 30 Day ? Wednesday June 24
    M1:orange root vegetables (rutabaga, sweet potato, carrot) mashed with ghee, herb roasted chicken breast, shredded
    M2: egg salad with chives, carrot
    Snack: handful of walnuts and raisins
    M3: Cat's Chicken Thing (herb and garlic chicken on sliced potatoes & prosciutto), broccolini spears on the side @SchrodingersCat this was delicious 
     
    Post Whole 30 Day?  Thursday June 25 
    M1: broccolini spears, steamed and plated with 2 fried eggs, sweet potato, rutabaga and prosciutto hash, ghee
    M2: leftover spaghetti squash topped with ground beef & Kirkland marinara sauce, spiced up w/ ground oregano and red pepper flakes
    Snack: raspberries & sweet iogo yogurt 
    Snack: vanilla ice cream
    Snack: 2 Vachon caramel cakes
    Snack: yogurt topped with Honey Bunches of Oats cereal
    Snack: Nature Valley peanut granola bar
    M3: leftover chicken & potato casserole, broccolini
    WTH happened? All those snacks?  I wasn't even hungry.  Napped mid afternoon because I was falling asleep at my desk, woke up and started to snack.  No explanation, but I'm throwing some serious shade at my dragon right now  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Take Advantage   
    I'm high-fiving you from Georgia! Way to navigate some difficult scenarios during your trip. I am pleased to report that we will not have a "keto cheesecake" waiting for you on your return. Wishing you a safe drive.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/26/20:
    Breakfast: sweet potato + broccoli + ground turkey + sauce
    Lunch: Roasted brussels sprouts + ground turkey + mashed potatoes + sauce
    Dinner: Turkey burger + steamed broccoli + mashed potatoes + sauce
    A very boring but satisfying day of food.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    Weekend
    I have 2kg of tomatoes and 1.5kg of red peppers in the smoker, and zucchini and sweet potato chips in the dehydrator. 
    I'm a bit meh on the old compliancy today, I know this feeling, it's that lead up to "f it". I'm trying to hold off, because next week is going to be a non-compliance splurge (friends coming over for 4h July small gathering, and I'll be making a bunch of REALLY not compliant food.). That needs to be the exception and not the reason to just go off track. It doesn't help that I braved (caved?) the scale again and I'm not really progressing on the weight thing. Finally back at TKD this week, so hoping that will shift things up a bit.
    So today I have had a leftover lamb chop because I was starving after mowing the lawn, shopping an food prepping. Actual meal 1 is chicken, spinach and pinenut patties wrapped in jamon, with leftover turnip/cauli/celeriac/carrot mash. 
    Meal 2, I really don't know and that's where my "bugger it, treat yourself!" attitude is coming in. Trick is to treat myself without going completely off base. 
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Take Advantage   
    "Healthy psychological response"  Trying to Keeping this in mind today.  I'm so ready to be home and not have to think so hard about food all day long.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Birdie7117 in Birdie's 1st WHOLE 30 - MARCH 16-20   
    And my Banana/egg concoction does not resemble a pancake in any way, shape or form!
    By the time I scoop it out of the pan, it looks more like an omelette!  So I'm going to call it a Banana Omelette 
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    OMG, me too! Either snacking to settle an off tummy, or snacking to settle anxiety. I used to joke I was squashing the butterflies with food. 
    Yesterday I was 100%, 2 meals, one small mid-afternoon snack of a dozen stuffed olives. 
    It's FriYAY!! I haven't heard from work whether or not we are back to 5 days next week, I'm hoping it's still 4 because I have some stuff to get done. But going back to 5 will be good, too. I haven't missed the $ but the extra is always nice. 
    Not much planned for the weekend, hubster has his final assignment due on Monday (thank the gods) so he will be working on that. Hopefully once that is in, things can get back to some normal. I love that man like life itself, but he obsesses over things like this and it is all consuming. I want my weekends back. 
    I have promised to take my MIL shopping, she stocks up on bulk cleaning stuff etc once every 12 months or so, and asked hubster if we could go this weekend, and he said no coz assignment, but I said I'd go. So that will break up tomorrow at least. I might also do some smoking and dehydrating this weekend, my stocks on smoked and dried peppers and tomatoes are very low. Also need to mow the lawn. Sigh. Thrill a minute around here.
    Anyway.
    Round up: It's been 17 days since I finished my round, and I have been compliant save for the sugar in some bacon, the wine, and sugar in the seasoned salt I put in my veg last night. So I guess I'm following the slow roll reintro pretty much to the letter?
    Meal 1: medley of leftovers, I have a bit of yesterday's soup, some veggies from my laksa on Tuesday, and some roasted veg from last night. I'll have all of those with a couple of boiled eggs just to clean out the fridge.
    Meal 2: No idea. Usual Friday issue - desire to cook something a little fancier is warring with my "who cares, all the days are the same anyway" attitude of the moment.
     
     
     
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    "Healthy psychological response"  Trying to Keeping this in mind today.  I'm so ready to be home and not have to think so hard about food all day long.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    It sounds like you’re in control of @MadyVanilla, and doesn’t that feel wonderful?   Good luck as your visit continues.  Reading about all the Keto choices you have available, it just doesn’t seem appealing to me to eat a Keto diet. 
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Take Advantage   
    Yes! Glad to hear you remark on this progress. When we can look at the things that tripped us up before, and think, "I am going to try a different choice this time" — that's massive. You're unlocking two powerful channels here . The first is simply realizing that you have choices. The second is making a choice that serves you on a deeper level.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to RachelR in RachelR- Start Date May 4, 2020   
    I guess my Whole30 journey extended has technically come to an end before day 60 because I made spaghetti squash and meatballs last night.  I thought the sauce I had left in my cupboard was compliant but at looking at the ingredient list it had soybean oil.  Better than it having sugar in it but I have been trying to stay compliant.  Anyway... I just said it doesn't matter and had it anyway.  I'm still going to plan to eat primarily Whole30 going forward but not beat myself up if I happened to overlook an insignificant percentage of the ingredients.  I'm still a bit nervous that I as I give myself more leeway that I will go off the rails.  But, can't stay so restrictive forever...right?  I have the food freedom forever book but haven't read it yet.  Definitely need to make that a priority.
    On the plus side- I was able to wear jeans today that I hadn't fit into since last summer/fall- one size down from where I started.  It felt good!  
    Oh- and I broke my promise to myself that I'd wait until July 3rd to weigh in again but I just couldn't help myself.  I stepped on the scale on Sunday and I was down to 251.5.  That is almost 20 pounds since I started my Whole30 on May 3rd.  Insanity!
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    MadyVanilla reacted to RachelR in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Just say no.    
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    It was a nice treat. 
    Yesterday at the mall I saw a gadget that cuts potatoes evenly into French fry shapes, and an air fryer, side by side, on sale.  That was before I had the poutine.  I wanted the new gadgets then, and want them more now!  I’ve never tried air fryer fries though, and wonder about just how good they are.  I do have a deep fryer...
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    It's pretty huge for me to not be derailed by my mom and sister.  I really need to take a moment and savor this and give myself credit.  This has traditionally been one of the things that throws me off track, whether I'm in the midst of W30 or eating paleo.  I always think that because I'm not at home or because they are visiting me for a short time, that I can go off-plan for the short-term and then get right back to it once life returns to normal.  In theory, that's beautiful and perfect.  In reality, the first off-plan meal leads to pretty terrible eating by the end of the week.  And then continued poor choices until I finally wake up months later ready to return to health.  
    While I'm feeling a little distress about having to say no to Mom's cheesecake and soy sauce, it feels better to keep myself compliant and while she keeps asking, she's not angry and isn't breaking down into tears wailing about how I don't love her because I won't eat what she wants me to.  And there was no pressure/guilt/self-righteousness, at making a good lunch choice in spite of my sister and niece's choices yesterday.  These few days here are just a few days in my life - I need to continue to make the good choices and recognize that my health has no bearing on my relationships with these people.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    Lunch ended up being an omelette with chopped ham, spinach, mushrooms, olives, and onions with a side of fruit.  Dinner was the shrimp and vegetables, sauteed in avocado oil, no soy sauce.  I'm glad my mother has discovered the virtues of avocado oil.  My tummy was rumbling last night though - not enough food, but there are no compliant snacks - (keto cheesecake!  sugar-free jello!  peanut butter fat bombs! fake graham crackers!  keto brownie mix!).  I'm just drinking water and remembering it's just a few hours until my next meal, this is only a few days, and I'm choosing not to eat - I'm not really starving!  What would I do if I couldn't talk to myself???
    I was up and out for my walk at 5;30 am.  It was lovely - my mom lives in a beautiful place, just a few blocks from a sailboat-filled bay.  I did my C25K round.  I had intended to do the 60 sec run/90 sec walk round two more times, but I forgot and moved right into the next section, which is 90 sec run/120 sec walk.  It was fine, though.  A little hip and low back tightness at the end during the cool-down portion.  I feel better getting my exercise in early.  But i still need yoga!
    Day 19
    energy-7, pain 2-during walk/jog, mood-6
    I'm not sleeping great-sleeping on the sofa in a warm room.  It's ok, though.  
    M1-some form of eggs.  
    M2-manage to ingest some meat and vegetables in as close to their natural state as possible.  
    M3-see M2.  Maybe Mom will let me make chicken piccata tonight.  She mentioned that she has some brussels sprouts that she wants to broil...
    On a positive note, I'm taking a much more proactive and stronger stance about my diet than I have in visits in the past - often I just cave to what everyone else is eating.  For instance, my sister and niece had stuffed french toast for lunch yesterday...it was not hard to resist, but boy did I take pause in thinking about what it would taste like.  In the past, I would just think, "oh well, I'll get back on track when I get home."  Not this time!!!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    Ok...reaching for the "healthy psychological response"this week,  Both toward food and toward my mother.  
    The road trip was long, but went well.  I ate my packed lunch and was happy to do so.  Dinner was meatloaf made with hemp seed (I need to check compliance on this) and some keto tomtato sauce on top (why not just tomato paste with a little oregano?/)  Keto stuff tastes weird.   a delicious arugula, strawberry, pecan salad topped with balsamic vinegar and olive oil, and mashed cauliflower made with butter, which I did not eat.  When I reminded Mom that I wasn't eating dairy, she got defensive and said, "that's not Keto!" So I explained again.  Then she asked me if I wanted a piece of the cheesecake she made with cream cheese and sour cream...sigh, Mom, that's dairy.  And I told you last week that I wouldn't eat it if you made it...I offered to make chicken piccata for dinner this week.  I'm really going to try to come up with solutions rather than wallow in the issues.  
    I told her about my walking upon waking plan - she wanted to walk with me in the morning, which I was good with.  I was awake at 5:00 am this morning, thinking she was also an early riser.  She didn't get up until almost 7:30, then asked me if I had been for a walk.  I told her no I was waiting for her...then sat for a little longer while she made coffee.  Then she wanted to make breakfast, so I said I was going to go for a quick walk while she cooked.  I almost didn't go, feeling guilty about not waiting, but I really want to stick to my plan.  She told me when I got back that it was too warm outside for her anyway.  So I'm just going to get up and go tomorrow morning.  Despite my mental wrestling with guilt and go vs. not go, it worked out fine and I think the rest of the week will be much more smooth regarding this.  
    M1-2 eggs fried in avocado oil, black coffee
    M2-Hopefully something compliant
    M3-Hopefully compliant, a shrimp stirfry that mom plans to make,  I've already told her that sounds good, but that I've recently discovered I'm allergic to soy sauce.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    Everything you wrote, but this especially.  I know this feeling well.  I like the idea of walking and talking to myself - I can absolutely see myself doing that at home.  I can make a big lap around the downstairs.  
     
    The first part of quarantine, I was going to do Beachbody workouts everyday.  I think I got two done?  Then I started all sorts of different fitness "projects" trying various times of the day.  My motivation is so poor for these things.  But the yoga has stuck - I was taking a yoga class after work 2-3 days a week at a local studio.  At home, I've continued with classes on YouTube at that same transition time of day to evening, just before dinner.  I've found an instructor I really like.  The stars, planets, and chakras all aligned. 
    Despite the rain showers and storms in the forecast, the dog and I found a new trail yesterday afternoon.  It was gorgeous, into the woods, wind whipping through the branches above.  We got about a mile in and the deer flies started swarming - OMG.  Deer flies love moving targets releasing lots of Co2 (I was walking fast and breathing heavy!) and are not deterred by DEET.  I made a calculated decision to continue onward as only my arms and face were exposed and hoping to get a good wind once the trail turned.  I got a little respite just enough times to keep my sanity.  I had visions of collapsing into a heap and being eaten alive.  The funny thing is, a month ago I would not have been able to walk fast enough or without taking a break to feel confident that I could manage the bug incident.   It's been a very long time since I've been able to really walk without limping or without needing to sit and stretch at the halfway point.  
    My other challenge yesterday was the timing of dinner.  My daughter and her boyfriend wanted to go look at kittens that a friend of mine has - the original time planned would have allowed me to eat dinner at a reasonable time once we returned.  The time kept getting pushed back, though, until finally we went.  It was after 8:00 pm when we got home.  I had planned a quick, easy meal of curry sauce poured over chicken I had cooked earlier.  So it only took a few minutes to heat and eat.  The best part is that I wasn't starving.  I was a little concerned later that I hadn't eaten enough, though, and so I got myself a handful of dry roasted almonds and 4 small dates.  That was the first sweet thing I've had in days, as I eat very little fruit.  It was good, satisfying, and didn't make me crave anything else.  A successful snack.  
    Day 13
    Energy-9, Mood-8 Pain 0-some very slight hip tightness while doing the cooldown portion of my C25K this am. I'm very pleased by the lack of pain.  I'm going to take it slow and listen to my body.  
    I woke up at 5:00 am and laid awake for a few minutes before deciding to get up and go walk/jog.  It was nice and cool this a.m., and good to get it done early.  
    M1-The rest of the chicken salad mixed with chopped raw spinach
    M2-The rest of the taco casserole with sliced, salted cucumber
    M3-uncertain.  Tonight and breakfast tomorrow will be meals out - travelling for my son's first actual baseball game of the season - he's pitching tonight, then we will be staying in a hotel and back home tomorrow.  I'll suggest Chipotle tonight or check out the restaurant on my phone.  I can always fall back on a dry steak, salad, and sweet potato.  
     
     
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    Strategies for dealing with heightened emotions:
    -Go for a walk.  Easy to do at home, even at night.  A quick trip around the building will also be easy to do at work.  
    -Put in my headphones and listen to music or a book.
    -Do a 1-2 minute activity from the Headspace app.  I will start doing this in reaction to the FB posts so I can start to make it a habit.  I think I'll forget about it in the moment, otherwise.    
    -Fix a cup a tea.  
    -Go get a cup of coffee/decaf
    -Journal
    -Yoga  Easier at home, could go in the file room and do some stretches at work.  I probably won't, though.