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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Ugh, what a tough couple of days.  You are continuing to journal and taking note of what is going on with your reactions and you know what to do.  It's like an experiment.  I'm looking forward to continuing to read about how your mood/sleep/body are impacted, as you get back on plan and beat that sugar dragon back into its cave!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    Finding the energy for exercise....ugh, my biggest challenge.  I'm naturally a sloth.  Taking the dog for a walk every morning has helped.  It only took 3 or 4 days for her to begin to expect to walk and bother me about it, she is my motivation.  And the fitbit helps.  You know what to do, it's doing it that's so challenging!
    Congrats on the pants NSV!  That's a really amazing accomplishment!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    And it just seems like we should be at our goal weights when we get through 30 days because we've made so many positive changes and feel so much better.   I fully expect I'll have this same disappointment when I weigh in on day 31.   You did in fact lost 1/2 pound a day (the poundage sounds more impressive than the kgs, lol!)   
    Just stuff that swypo treat down that freaking devil's mouth and let him have the migraine with the foggy-brain and heartburn.  
    Congrats on getting to day 31! 
     
     
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Ok, so poutine is on my list of foods I want to eat again.  
    What a wonderful feeling to look good and feel good in your clothes! 
    You have a great plan for today, make sure you at least share some of the recipes you find with us here.    
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    It's pretty huge for me to not be derailed by my mom and sister.  I really need to take a moment and savor this and give myself credit.  This has traditionally been one of the things that throws me off track, whether I'm in the midst of W30 or eating paleo.  I always think that because I'm not at home or because they are visiting me for a short time, that I can go off-plan for the short-term and then get right back to it once life returns to normal.  In theory, that's beautiful and perfect.  In reality, the first off-plan meal leads to pretty terrible eating by the end of the week.  And then continued poor choices until I finally wake up months later ready to return to health.  
    While I'm feeling a little distress about having to say no to Mom's cheesecake and soy sauce, it feels better to keep myself compliant and while she keeps asking, she's not angry and isn't breaking down into tears wailing about how I don't love her because I won't eat what she wants me to.  And there was no pressure/guilt/self-righteousness, at making a good lunch choice in spite of my sister and niece's choices yesterday.  These few days here are just a few days in my life - I need to continue to make the good choices and recognize that my health has no bearing on my relationships with these people.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    Lunch ended up being an omelette with chopped ham, spinach, mushrooms, olives, and onions with a side of fruit.  Dinner was the shrimp and vegetables, sauteed in avocado oil, no soy sauce.  I'm glad my mother has discovered the virtues of avocado oil.  My tummy was rumbling last night though - not enough food, but there are no compliant snacks - (keto cheesecake!  sugar-free jello!  peanut butter fat bombs! fake graham crackers!  keto brownie mix!).  I'm just drinking water and remembering it's just a few hours until my next meal, this is only a few days, and I'm choosing not to eat - I'm not really starving!  What would I do if I couldn't talk to myself???
    I was up and out for my walk at 5;30 am.  It was lovely - my mom lives in a beautiful place, just a few blocks from a sailboat-filled bay.  I did my C25K round.  I had intended to do the 60 sec run/90 sec walk round two more times, but I forgot and moved right into the next section, which is 90 sec run/120 sec walk.  It was fine, though.  A little hip and low back tightness at the end during the cool-down portion.  I feel better getting my exercise in early.  But i still need yoga!
    Day 19
    energy-7, pain 2-during walk/jog, mood-6
    I'm not sleeping great-sleeping on the sofa in a warm room.  It's ok, though.  
    M1-some form of eggs.  
    M2-manage to ingest some meat and vegetables in as close to their natural state as possible.  
    M3-see M2.  Maybe Mom will let me make chicken piccata tonight.  She mentioned that she has some brussels sprouts that she wants to broil...
    On a positive note, I'm taking a much more proactive and stronger stance about my diet than I have in visits in the past - often I just cave to what everyone else is eating.  For instance, my sister and niece had stuffed french toast for lunch yesterday...it was not hard to resist, but boy did I take pause in thinking about what it would taste like.  In the past, I would just think, "oh well, I'll get back on track when I get home."  Not this time!!!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Take Advantage   
    It's pretty huge for me to not be derailed by my mom and sister.  I really need to take a moment and savor this and give myself credit.  This has traditionally been one of the things that throws me off track, whether I'm in the midst of W30 or eating paleo.  I always think that because I'm not at home or because they are visiting me for a short time, that I can go off-plan for the short-term and then get right back to it once life returns to normal.  In theory, that's beautiful and perfect.  In reality, the first off-plan meal leads to pretty terrible eating by the end of the week.  And then continued poor choices until I finally wake up months later ready to return to health.  
    While I'm feeling a little distress about having to say no to Mom's cheesecake and soy sauce, it feels better to keep myself compliant and while she keeps asking, she's not angry and isn't breaking down into tears wailing about how I don't love her because I won't eat what she wants me to.  And there was no pressure/guilt/self-righteousness, at making a good lunch choice in spite of my sister and niece's choices yesterday.  These few days here are just a few days in my life - I need to continue to make the good choices and recognize that my health has no bearing on my relationships with these people.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Take Advantage   
    Lunch ended up being an omelette with chopped ham, spinach, mushrooms, olives, and onions with a side of fruit.  Dinner was the shrimp and vegetables, sauteed in avocado oil, no soy sauce.  I'm glad my mother has discovered the virtues of avocado oil.  My tummy was rumbling last night though - not enough food, but there are no compliant snacks - (keto cheesecake!  sugar-free jello!  peanut butter fat bombs! fake graham crackers!  keto brownie mix!).  I'm just drinking water and remembering it's just a few hours until my next meal, this is only a few days, and I'm choosing not to eat - I'm not really starving!  What would I do if I couldn't talk to myself???
    I was up and out for my walk at 5;30 am.  It was lovely - my mom lives in a beautiful place, just a few blocks from a sailboat-filled bay.  I did my C25K round.  I had intended to do the 60 sec run/90 sec walk round two more times, but I forgot and moved right into the next section, which is 90 sec run/120 sec walk.  It was fine, though.  A little hip and low back tightness at the end during the cool-down portion.  I feel better getting my exercise in early.  But i still need yoga!
    Day 19
    energy-7, pain 2-during walk/jog, mood-6
    I'm not sleeping great-sleeping on the sofa in a warm room.  It's ok, though.  
    M1-some form of eggs.  
    M2-manage to ingest some meat and vegetables in as close to their natural state as possible.  
    M3-see M2.  Maybe Mom will let me make chicken piccata tonight.  She mentioned that she has some brussels sprouts that she wants to broil...
    On a positive note, I'm taking a much more proactive and stronger stance about my diet than I have in visits in the past - often I just cave to what everyone else is eating.  For instance, my sister and niece had stuffed french toast for lunch yesterday...it was not hard to resist, but boy did I take pause in thinking about what it would taste like.  In the past, I would just think, "oh well, I'll get back on track when I get home."  Not this time!!!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Ok, so poutine is on my list of foods I want to eat again.  
    What a wonderful feeling to look good and feel good in your clothes! 
    You have a great plan for today, make sure you at least share some of the recipes you find with us here.    
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Take Advantage   
    Sounds like you are doing very well being out of your normal circumstances! 
    What was it Ram Dass said... "If you think you are so enlightened, go and spend a week with your parents." Yep. A very relatable quote!
     
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to neversickofeggs in PregWhole30- 10-14 weeks pregnant   
    Day 7: June 23
    Feelings: gloriously deflated as of this morning, turns out that drinking water helps you feel less puffy, more energetic, and less bloated.  WHO KNEW.  Up 2.5 lbs since beginning of the 1st trimester to alllmost the end of it.  Waking up in the morning and can't quite suck everything in anymore.  Trying to get used to this ever-changing body while being the ultimate host for this baby by eating and drinking all the "right" things.  Feels almost like another full-time job, but so is parenting, so I'll consider this the internship phase.  
    M1: 2 eggs + coffee
    M2: Evergreens salad (take-out)...romaine + arugula + roasted broccoli + cherry tomatoes + HB egg + sunflower seeds + chopped chicken breast + oil + vinegar Tastes so nice, I'm having it twice (in two days)
    M3: 1 oz macadamia nuts + carrot sticks + prunes prunes: not just for old people
    M4: Buffalo Chicken Meatballs + roasted broccoli anything "buffalo" is a hit in this household, especially cauliflower.  But alas, your girl needs protein.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
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    So, there's one of the clearest, most unequivocal reintro answers ever. Can I still drink red wine? HELL NO.
    Yes, I had a few glasses but over the course of the evening, and drank more than 2L of water as well.
    I was up at 2:30am with horrific heartburn, never got back to sleep due to racing mind, got up 4-5 times to go to the bathroom with gastric distress, had to take MORE antacids at 5am, have a headache, achey joints, anxiety and a hugely sour stomach. There is nothing fun or ok about this!!
    I feel like hot garbage, and not even in a hangover kind of way, literally in a I feel like I've been slightly poisoned kind of way. BLERGH. Guess who's staying on the wagon?
    No idea on today's food, I have NO interest in it. But it will be W30, and nutritious. I also have a video chat with my cooking gals tonight, no set recipe, just whatever we feel like, so I'll think of something kind of fun. 
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    Ok...reaching for the "healthy psychological response"this week,  Both toward food and toward my mother.  
    The road trip was long, but went well.  I ate my packed lunch and was happy to do so.  Dinner was meatloaf made with hemp seed (I need to check compliance on this) and some keto tomtato sauce on top (why not just tomato paste with a little oregano?/)  Keto stuff tastes weird.   a delicious arugula, strawberry, pecan salad topped with balsamic vinegar and olive oil, and mashed cauliflower made with butter, which I did not eat.  When I reminded Mom that I wasn't eating dairy, she got defensive and said, "that's not Keto!" So I explained again.  Then she asked me if I wanted a piece of the cheesecake she made with cream cheese and sour cream...sigh, Mom, that's dairy.  And I told you last week that I wouldn't eat it if you made it...I offered to make chicken piccata for dinner this week.  I'm really going to try to come up with solutions rather than wallow in the issues.  
    I told her about my walking upon waking plan - she wanted to walk with me in the morning, which I was good with.  I was awake at 5:00 am this morning, thinking she was also an early riser.  She didn't get up until almost 7:30, then asked me if I had been for a walk.  I told her no I was waiting for her...then sat for a little longer while she made coffee.  Then she wanted to make breakfast, so I said I was going to go for a quick walk while she cooked.  I almost didn't go, feeling guilty about not waiting, but I really want to stick to my plan.  She told me when I got back that it was too warm outside for her anyway.  So I'm just going to get up and go tomorrow morning.  Despite my mental wrestling with guilt and go vs. not go, it worked out fine and I think the rest of the week will be much more smooth regarding this.  
    M1-2 eggs fried in avocado oil, black coffee
    M2-Hopefully something compliant
    M3-Hopefully compliant, a shrimp stirfry that mom plans to make,  I've already told her that sounds good, but that I've recently discovered I'm allergic to soy sauce.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    I love this.  I haven't considered it before now, but when I read this it was like a lightbulb switched on in my head.   You are absolutely right, this is a mentally peaceful way of eating.
    I hope you enjoy the visit with your mom.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Take Advantage   
    Boy oh boy, do I relate to this! For me, the self-flagellation tends to be worse than the adverse effects of whatever I just ate.
    I feel like mental peace is a really important takeaway here. I tend to get pulled into a mental game of "I deserve [xyz]" when I am in a mental dance with an indulgent food. I never think, "Do I also deserve the mental disruption that [xyz] will bring me after I eat it?"
    One of the first sections of the Whole 30 "manifesto" It Starts With Food outlines "good food standards" from Dallas and Melissa Hartwig. The very first standard is: "The food that we eat should promote a healthy psychological response" (p. 24). I remember reading that sentence for the first time — it was like a light switch coming on.
    Wishing you safe travels today, and easy decisionmaking along the way.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to emcate97 in My Whole 30 Log - June 2020   
    To share my reasons for starting whole 30 again... My last whole 30 was four years ago, during which I lost 8 pounds and was able to find food freedom!   I have been falling into bad habits again and found myself over eating out of boredom or emotions and rarely eating mindfully or based on internal cues. I was consistently eating foods that did not make me look or feel my best. I hope to target which food groups are less than ideal for me. I know whole 30 is not a weight loss diet, but that is one of my main motivations for doing this. After completing this round, my goal is to eat whole 30 all the time until I reach my goal weight.
    Day 7:
    - Breakfast: Rainbow veggie salad with lemon vinagrette
    - Lunch: 2 jerky sticks and handful of macadamia nuts
    - Dinner: shrimp and sopressata skewers and kale salad and roasted broccoli
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Day 2:  6/22/20

    7:30 am:  1/2 banana

    10:00 am:  homemade cocoa almond butter

    SO happy to be back at work, at my non-stressful job, in the office again.  We had not been together in the office since early March, d/t this coronavirus mess.  I spent one day in the office last week.  It’s so nice to be able to focus on work & just work.  Working from home is NOT all it’s cracked up to be!  Not for me, anyway.

    12:30 pm:  W30 frozen meal

    2:15 pm:  homemade cocoa almond butter (again)

    Having so - SO much trouble staying awake, sitting at my desk at work.  It’s BAD.  And there doesn’t seem to be enough coffee in the world to cure it.

    5:30 pm:  steak fries cooked in air fryer w/ coconut oil & salt

    9:00 pm:  finished that batch of almond butter (and probably shouldn’t make any more for awhile - I am just waiting for my gut to have its revenge!), tri-color cole slaw veggies w/ avocado ranch

    This day was short on protein, but I’m okay with that.  I’m well aware of the meal template - but it works out best for me not to stress about it.  Each W30 is unique.  Compliant food is good enough for me, for now.   
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Post Whole 30 Dy 12, Monday June 22
    M1: egg salad with homemade mayo and chopped chives, carrot sticks
    M2: green salad with avocado, green grapes, celery, white radishes and chicken with PK dressing, a few dashes of non-compliant herb blend (contains sugar and soy lecithin)
    M3: ground beef with marinara sauce over 1/4 spaghetti squash
    Snack: 1 cup vanilla ice cream
    I knew the salad herbs contained sugar (listed as the 3rd ingredient) but didn't realize that soy lecithin was also an ingredient.  Sigh.  The blend gave the salad a nice change of taste though.
    After eating pasta sauce over spaghetti squash rather than wheat pasta, I feel good, without any belly bloat.
    The ice cream was calling me from where I stashed it on Friday evening.  I could have stopped at 1/2 cup, but I ate a full cup/8oz.  Now I feel a bit bloated.  I will need to move it to the deep freezer or throw it out, because I think it will continue to be a strong temptation.  
    NSV: the stomach pain is gone, and the dizziness has subsided again.  
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Yes it feels like my life and especially my body are my laboratory, and I need to keep good notes for this ongoing experiment. 
    The upside of the 'downfall that was the weekend' is that I learned what too much sugar does to me.  I went into the weekend feeling totally prepared to keep the sugar intake low, then I tested my hypothesis with success at first, but it was no match for the dragon within!  Ha, I thought I learned to have control, but 40 days wasn't enough time when the stressors added up.  I re-read some of my posts and I've come a long way, but having spent the better part of a half century making poor food ingestible choices isn't going to get fixed in a couple of months.  But I know what I want now - I want that Tiger Blood.  I want to feel good, to eat well, to sleep well, to walk into a room and look fabulous, and not have my fat belly lead the way. 
    I like that I have learned how to be a good master to my body, and I know its appreciated by the one person that means the most to me - myself.  
    The weekend wasn't a failure.  I feel empowered.  I feel stronger than ever.  Next to God, I'm in charge going forward and its going to be awesome!
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    Confession: I have a glass of red wine. It's organic and preservative free, and I'm not currently regretting it. 
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    I'm starting with an NSV today - Two people told me I looked fantastic, one said I was glowing at the picnic lunch yesterday.  That made me feel really good!  The picnic was successful, no issues with turning down wine or others' foods and then dinner was delicious.  I made lasagne for half the family, and chicken piccata for myself and others.  My daughter, an extremely picky eater, LOVED the piccata.  So a win there.  
    Day 17
    Energy-8, Mood-7, Pain-4.  C25K this morning, and I was having lots of tightness in my hip and knee, resulting in pain and limping.  I am missing my yoga - I haven't done it since Wednesday, as the rest of my evenings have been busy.  I need the yoga to keep my hip and knee in line, I'm realizing.   
    M1-rest of curry chicken salad and cucumber slices, black coffee
    M2-packed chicken piccata, salad, cucumber slices, grapes.  Today is road trip day - about 8 hours on the road to see mom.  I plan to take walk breaks at my stops.  
    m3-I think mom is making meatloaf, and there will be vegetables.  I just have to be cognizant of her desire to add substitute sweetners into all her keto recipes.  The next couple of days could be really easy or really challenging.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Jennifer Jensen in Take Advantage   
    It was such a disappointment to see that my bacon was not in fact sugar-free.  "Less than 2% cane sugar"   ugh.  I think the shopper picked up the right brand, but wrong bacon, as it doesn't say sugar-free on the front of the package.  I did, however, walk the dog to the farmer's market.  It was lovely.  And so affirming.  I felt like a really healthy person, taking a walk to go shop for local tomatoes.  
    Day 16
    Energy-7, Pain-0, Mood-7.  There were a whole bunch of teenagers strewn out in various locations throughout the entire downstairs, so I tiptoed through so as not to wake them.  I couldn't get to my walking shoes, so took the dog for a short walk in my flip flops.  But the walking streak is now at day 19!  
    M1-eggs with riced cauliflower.  Umm, I hope this is good.  Trying to get rid of leftovers before I leave tomorrow.  I didn't buy any cooking greens that could go in my eggs. I could put my egg over salad, though...I think I'll do that.  With mayo.   
    M2-picnic lunch.  Curried chicken salad, homemade bruschetta (minus the mozzarella), sliced cucumbers and celery, sliced oranges, grapes.  We will be at a local winery with friends, listening to good music.  I don't expect an issue with turning down wine (same people I went to the pool party with last week).
    M3-Father's Day dinner.  W30 chicken piccata, Italian fennel salad.  
    Some NSVs that I didn't realize right away:
    -I can walk up and down stairs, one foot on each step, even when I first wake up in the morning.  It has been a LONG time since I could do that.  
    -I think I reported this with my last set of NSVs, but the general feeling of well-being, contentment with myself.  I really go through a lot of self-talk when I'm faced with and indulge in a tempting food.  The entire script to try to convince myself not to go get the bag of chips from the pantry could win an Oscar.  Then there is the afterword, the self-flagellation of thoughts in an effort to punish myself and keep it from happening again.  The W30 and paleo are the only types of eating I've done in my life that are mentally peaceful.  I haven't put words to that feeling before, but that's what it is - mentally peaceful.  The internal struggle just dissipates when I'm eating wholesome foods.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Ugh, what a tough couple of days.  You are continuing to journal and taking note of what is going on with your reactions and you know what to do.  It's like an experiment.  I'm looking forward to continuing to read about how your mood/sleep/body are impacted, as you get back on plan and beat that sugar dragon back into its cave!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from SchrodingersCat in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    This really is the hard part - believing if you're hungry, you should eat.  But I know myself that that is such a treacherous statement/thought.  When I think "eat" I think "brownies."  But thinking "tuna salad" is so much healthier.  I don't know what I'm trying to say - I guess just that that's the process-same body cues, but a different, healthier thought/solution is the way to Food Freedom Forever.  Easier said then done, but I hope I'm doing it like you when I get to that point.  
    I LOL'ed at your NSV....what cruel W30 gods decided that a smaller bra size was movement in the right direction????   I hope smaller jeans are in the very near future!!!!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    It was such a disappointment to see that my bacon was not in fact sugar-free.  "Less than 2% cane sugar"   ugh.  I think the shopper picked up the right brand, but wrong bacon, as it doesn't say sugar-free on the front of the package.  I did, however, walk the dog to the farmer's market.  It was lovely.  And so affirming.  I felt like a really healthy person, taking a walk to go shop for local tomatoes.  
    Day 16
    Energy-7, Pain-0, Mood-7.  There were a whole bunch of teenagers strewn out in various locations throughout the entire downstairs, so I tiptoed through so as not to wake them.  I couldn't get to my walking shoes, so took the dog for a short walk in my flip flops.  But the walking streak is now at day 19!  
    M1-eggs with riced cauliflower.  Umm, I hope this is good.  Trying to get rid of leftovers before I leave tomorrow.  I didn't buy any cooking greens that could go in my eggs. I could put my egg over salad, though...I think I'll do that.  With mayo.   
    M2-picnic lunch.  Curried chicken salad, homemade bruschetta (minus the mozzarella), sliced cucumbers and celery, sliced oranges, grapes.  We will be at a local winery with friends, listening to good music.  I don't expect an issue with turning down wine (same people I went to the pool party with last week).
    M3-Father's Day dinner.  W30 chicken piccata, Italian fennel salad.  
    Some NSVs that I didn't realize right away:
    -I can walk up and down stairs, one foot on each step, even when I first wake up in the morning.  It has been a LONG time since I could do that.  
    -I think I reported this with my last set of NSVs, but the general feeling of well-being, contentment with myself.  I really go through a lot of self-talk when I'm faced with and indulge in a tempting food.  The entire script to try to convince myself not to go get the bag of chips from the pantry could win an Oscar.  Then there is the afterword, the self-flagellation of thoughts in an effort to punish myself and keep it from happening again.  The W30 and paleo are the only types of eating I've done in my life that are mentally peaceful.  I haven't put words to that feeling before, but that's what it is - mentally peaceful.  The internal struggle just dissipates when I'm eating wholesome foods.