MadyVanilla

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    MadyVanilla reacted to kirbz in Kirbz's Whole30 Log   
    Thank you @MadyVanilla and @ShadowInTheKitchen for your kind words and encouragement. 
    I did end up eating some brownies last night. I really wanted some dessert and I had some in the house as part of my COVID-19 food storage.  So I baked them and I ate way more than necessary and I enjoyed every single bite and I threw away the rest. 
    I've come to realize that I need to introduce some flexibility into my food lifestyle. As much as I would like to, I cannot just keep doing Whole30 for another month or two. I'm still struggling to understand how my mindset changed so quickly. One week I was convinced that I wanted to continue this for months and I was fully dedicated to that. And then the next week I was getting bitter and feeling frustrated by the lack of flexibility and I was wanting off-plan foods more and more frequently. 
    But, here I am. I'm going to honor this feeling. I think I'm going to go for the concept of one "cheat day" per week. I think Food Freedom Forever advises against that idea but it's worked for me in the past and it gives me freedom with boundaries. Or maybe I'll just adopt a general 90/10 rule. I don't know. I'll keep experimenting. I'll keep coming back to Whole30 to reset. But I am going to begin to occasionally go off-plan. I am no longer planning to indefinitely maintain Whole30. 
    I'll report back more as I continue to refine my food freedom. 
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Contessa's June Realignment   
    I was also a little iffy on the salmon cakes, but curiosity won. Canned salmon is not a food I have worked with before. Also, the can of salmon contained... some tiny bones and tiny bits of salmon skin! (I was emotionally unprepared for this.) But once I separated the wheat from the chaff,  metaphorically speaking, the recipe was very easy. Even though I halved the recipe, it still yielded 3 servings. I will make this again. It's worth the weirdness.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to kirbz in Contessa's June Realignment   
    I love Mel Joulwan's salmon cakes! They're delicious! I make the Tex Mex version with the Lizard Sauce and pretty much just eat the Lizard Suace with a small piece of salmon cake on my spoon! LOL. So. Good. 
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Contessa's June Realignment   
    I have her cookbooks and keep wanting to try this recipe after seeing where so many have raved about it.  Salmon cakes cause me to take pause, however.  Cake made of salmon?  And yet I like crabcakes.  Maybe if I make it one word - salmoncakes.  Anyway, I think I will try to make these.  
     
    It's like going from a punk rock concert where everyone is screaming and jumping on top of each other to a lovely outdoor jazz concert along the river...
     
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Kirbz's Whole30 Log   
    You've got this - run through the list of your NSVs.  Read back over your first posts.  Make a pros and cons list of "Is the ice cream worth it?"  Focus on eating higher fat, savory foods.  Go get a small cup or cone from a drive-thru rather than buy a tub.  
    But if you do buy the tub and eat the ice cream...then let it happen and let it go.      
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    I get this.  I try to do it too.  
    Congrats on the clearer mind NSV, and way to go with the yoga. I can't seem to find the motivation to work out at home, think it's the hardest thing ever sometimes, so koodo's to you.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Take Advantage   
    I love this list.... and I love that you've written a list like this!
    One of my strategies during this W30 is to get up, walk around, and talk out loud to myself when I'm in a heightened state.
    Yesterday I got really grumpy over a project a coworker had failed to deliver on behalf of our client. I recognized the flinching wish to just go to the cupboard and eat something stupid. So I walked around my house and spoke affirmingly to myself. "Of course it makes sense that you would be upset about this. This sets you back in your relationship with your client. It's understandable. Let's think about ways to correct this and deliver a great report to the client."
    Displacing upset feelings with food is a strong "feedback loop" that I'm wearing down on this W30.
    Bravo on your progress, it's wonderful to witness.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Post Whole 30 Day 7, Wednesday June 17
    M1: egg salad and carrot
    M2: chicken vegetable soup
    Snack: orange
    M3: sweet potato and chicken breast
    I was out of bed late this morning and feeling sick all day with a fever and flu-like symptoms from the Shingrix immunization shot yesterday.  Had breakfast, slept on the couch, had lunch, slept etc.  
    My stomach was still bloated this morning and continues to be a bit sore (2/10).  I purposely ate very bland meals today, and was thankful to myself for making and freezing that soup about a month ago... 
    My cholesterol results came in today:
    Total cholesterol is 5.66 mmol/L (less than 5.2 is ideal, 5.2 to 6.2 is borderline high)
    HDL - Dr didn't give the number but said I have lots which is protective for heart disease (1.6 mmol/L or higher is desirable)
    LDL - 3.51 mmol/L (less than 2.6 is optimal, 2.6 to 3.3 is near optimal, 3.4 to 4.1 is borderline high) 
    Triglycerides - Dr said I hardy have any (less than 1.7 mmol/L is normal, 1.7 to 2.2 is borderline high)
    The rest of my bloodwork was all normal.
    My doctor isn't worried about my blood test results, but I don't like being 'borderline high' with my cholesterol health.  I haven't put all this work into the last 7 weeks to be satisfied being borderline unhealthy.  I will need to stop eating as much fried foods as I have been, especially sausages, will need to cut back on ghee and red meat, add small amounts of nuts, and take Omega 3 capsules.  I will try to start now, but my reintroduction phase has only just begun and I don't want to make too many changes yet.  I also want to keep trying to figure out what is causing my mild stomach pain, it may be residual from my meds, from the peanuts or from the marinara sauce from two days ago, or it could be something altogether different.  
    Today I was craving a nice warm bowl of oatmeal with apple and cinnamon.  Comfort food.  Maybe tomorrow if I feel more back to myself I'll have some for breakfast.  
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    So I really had to think how many days post W30 I am, and I think this is day 8? Anyway, still compliant, save for the bacon on Sunday.
    I'm really grouchy, headachey and a bit down. No idea why. 
    I've made some (compliant ingredient but 100% Swypo) fruit and nut bars which are in the dehydrator, I have been having a small handful of nuts of an evening with my tea and decided to mix it up. 
    Meal 1 today is pork san choy bao
    Meal 2 will be seared snapper and scollops in a lemon garlic and dill ghee with shredded fennel slaw. 
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    Thank you, @schrodingerscat  and @shadowinthekitchen - In my past W30s, I have avoided looking at the mental piece.  But if I'm going to be successful, i need to deal with these triggers in my life and stop using them as excuses to gorge myself on junk.  
    When I saw my co-worker's run post on FB last night, I immediately went to my catty, mean comments in my head.  But then I remembered what I'm trying to do, and so reframed my comments.  They were more neutral than positive, not the best comments, but it's progress.  I can do this while in quarantine, and maybe it will become a habit by the time we are back in the office together.  
    All went well yesterday.  I got the extra mile in and felt really good.  Yoga was great, too.  I was hungry in the afternoon and thought I would try to power through the hunger. I took that walk, but was still hungry.    Then I thought "why should I power through?  I've been eating well, i can have celery and almond butter."  And so I did.  And it was good.  And exactly what I should be doing - eating when I'm hungry.  
    I didn't sleep well again last night.  I know it's the coffee.  I was working yesterday, and as I finished my last cup I looked at the clock and saw that it was a little after 2 p.m.  No coffee after 12:00!!!!!  Despite, the poor sleep and the fact that it is a very dreary day outside, my energy is pretty good.  I didn't have any trouble getting up and going for a walk, but I kept it short because I thought I might come home and go back to sleep.  No such luck.  
    Day 12
    Energy-7, Pain-0, Mood-6.  I'm really just amazed about my pain.  I ran very little yesterday, but still I ran.  I should have all sorts of swelling and achiness, but I don't.  As long as I'm feeling good, I'm going to continue.  No pressure on myself to do anything but get some steps in everyday.  But if some of those steps can be running steps, that would be amazing.  I must remember to wear my knee brace on the days I'm running.  
    M1-Black coffee and chicken tenders leftover from last night.  Yeah, these really are a little SWYPO for me.  I was fulfilled with my initial serving last night, but still grabbed another and then looked forward to finishing them off this morning.  And I was a little possessive of them when my husband grabbed an extra one.  I just really love chicken tenders, and these were just as good as any I get in a restaurant.  I think I need to go back and read about SWYPO - I'm really trying hard not to fool myself or convince myself this time around.  
    A quick aside, it's funny how much my husband likes W30 meals when he doesn't know what they are - he liked the chicken tenders (but would spit them out in disgust if he knew they were coated in cassava flour), I renamed the W30 BBQ-Sauced Chicken to Spicy Chicken and he raved about that (no way would he have eaten it if he was comparing the BBQ sauce to Sweet Baby Ray's), and he has eaten the taco casserole for two meals.  Granted, for his second meal he put the meat in taco shells, but that's his prerogative.    
    M2-Chicken salad with cucumber and tomato slices.  
    M3-Thrive Market's thai coconut curry over shredded chicken and cauliflower rice.  I'll throw some kale into the curry, too.  I've not got many vegetables planned into my day today.  
    Snack-as always, celery and almond butter.  I don't snack everyday, and I'm not sick of it.  The celery is cut in the fridge.  The snack continues on as a standard.  
    The stars may not align for me to get a long walk in today.  It depends on whether or not the weather is good enough to get out in between two meetings I have this afternoon.  Yoga will happen, though.  I'd really like to take a nap, but only because I know I'm in a sleep deficit.  I don't feel tired or sleepy.  
    Last thing, a new NSV I've been noticing - my mind seems clearer, I don't seem to be groping for words or memories like I have been in the recent past.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Take Advantage   
    Strategies for dealing with heightened emotions:
    -Go for a walk.  Easy to do at home, even at night.  A quick trip around the building will also be easy to do at work.  
    -Put in my headphones and listen to music or a book.
    -Do a 1-2 minute activity from the Headspace app.  I will start doing this in reaction to the FB posts so I can start to make it a habit.  I think I'll forget about it in the moment, otherwise.    
    -Fix a cup a tea.  
    -Go get a cup of coffee/decaf
    -Journal
    -Yoga  Easier at home, could go in the file room and do some stretches at work.  I probably won't, though. 
     
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from RachelR in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    Finding the energy for exercise....ugh, my biggest challenge.  I'm naturally a sloth.  Taking the dog for a walk every morning has helped.  It only took 3 or 4 days for her to begin to expect to walk and bother me about it, she is my motivation.  And the fitbit helps.  You know what to do, it's doing it that's so challenging!
    Congrats on the pants NSV!  That's a really amazing accomplishment!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    Strategies for dealing with heightened emotions:
    -Go for a walk.  Easy to do at home, even at night.  A quick trip around the building will also be easy to do at work.  
    -Put in my headphones and listen to music or a book.
    -Do a 1-2 minute activity from the Headspace app.  I will start doing this in reaction to the FB posts so I can start to make it a habit.  I think I'll forget about it in the moment, otherwise.    
    -Fix a cup a tea.  
    -Go get a cup of coffee/decaf
    -Journal
    -Yoga  Easier at home, could go in the file room and do some stretches at work.  I probably won't, though. 
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/16/20:
    Breakfast: 1 poached egg + meatballs + sauteed kale + sweet potato + sauce
    Lunch: Butternut squash + roast chicken + brussels sprouts + mashed potatoes + sauce
    Dinner: Lord have mercy, I am very tired of cooking! Chicken fingers and fries with compliant sauces.
    At the end of the day, I gratefully remembered that Day 17 is typically my very worst day on the Whole 30. And today is my day 17! Day 17 tends to be Peak What Is the Point of All This? for me. My ennui and irritation today felt so familiar — then I realized why. I managed to hang on by my fingernails today and will live to sauté kale and steam broccoli another day.
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Round 4 - FIGHT!   
    Finding the energy for exercise....ugh, my biggest challenge.  I'm naturally a sloth.  Taking the dog for a walk every morning has helped.  It only took 3 or 4 days for her to begin to expect to walk and bother me about it, she is my motivation.  And the fitbit helps.  You know what to do, it's doing it that's so challenging!
    Congrats on the pants NSV!  That's a really amazing accomplishment!
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    @MadyVanilla Our mental health is entirely intertwined with our gut health, and Whole30 is genius to bring awareness to our Whole Health. 
    It does sound like you have a coworker with some problems that she needs to deal with.  I think that your list of take-aways shows that you have an excellent foundation to build your better self.  I love that list btw...
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Take Advantage   
    I think it's totally appropriate for a Whole30 journal! I love my Whole30 journal because I can offload all sorts of thoughts and burdens and I think that doing a Whole30 is so cleansing, not only physically but mentally. I truly believe if we can't get the underlying causes of our unhealthy relationships with food, we're doomed to repeat our mistakes. Good for you for the introspection!!
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Post Whole 30 Day 6, Tuesday June 16
    M1: bratwurst sausage, kale, egg, all pan fried in ghee
    M2: skin-on sweet potato hash with onions, green beans, pineapple and chicken breast, olive oil
    M3: egg salad, carrot
    NSV: I was up at 7am, I definitely have a good six day streak going, and love that I'm getting another hour or two every day to get stuff done
    My stomach was still sore when I woke up this morning, and choosing high fat sausage for breakfast was not smart.  Stomach remained sore (between 1/10 - 4/10 pain) all day.  I cut waaay back on portion sizes today.  It has finally settled, and I plan to eat egg salad for breakfast tomorrow because my tummy feels good right now and I think the egg, mayo and carrot I had for supper were plain enough to help it to feel better.
    I had bloodwork done today, results will be available in the next day or two.  
    I weighed myself at the Dr's office, and was happy with the number.  I want it to keep going down, and plan to continue with W30.
    I got the an immunization shot today, am feeling a bit yucky already and Dr said I could expect to feel off tomorrow too.  
    My Fitness Pal app: I used it today to weigh and measure my food.  Yesterday I ate too much, so I needed to reign myself in.  I won't rely on the app all the time, but it is nice to use occasionally to check my portion sizes.  
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to neversickofeggs in PregWhole30- 10-14 weeks pregnant   
    Starting Whole 30 tomorrow, 6/17. Eager to complete my 1st ever Whole30 from 10.5-14.5 weeks pregnant!
    Curious to find out how early pregnancy symptoms can be helped out by Whole30- haven't been nauseous or sick in these first 10 weeks, just so, so exhausted.  Pre-Whole30, I've been guilty of not drinking enough water, not prioritizing vegetables/fiber, and mindlessly snacking in the afternoon into the evening.  I am a creature of routine and look forward to making my life a bit easier with the structure of Whole30.  Prior to getting pregnant, the "no drinking" and "social eating" aspects of Whole30 were always the most daunting to me.  Now with COVID and pregnancy, I ironically have never thought of a better time to lean into the program wholeheartedly and give it my all.
    Pregnancy is tough enough and I'm not interested in poor food choices making it harder.  Whole30 is just the "reset" my lifestyle needs to cruise me into the 2nd trimester feeling more energetic and confident. 
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from SchrodingersCat in Take Advantage   
    I think it's time to deal with my co-worker...we have worked together for nearly two decades.  While she is a few years younger than me, she started around the same time I did.  We work for a big company, and people who don't know us well STILL get us confused.  She is very outgoing and enjoys being in the spotlight whereas I'm reserved and much happier in the background. 
    In the beginning, we were pretty good friends.  I have always enjoyed trying new activities and would often ask her to come with me.  After an activity, she would come back to work and tell others about what we did, but sometimes leave me out of the story - "I tried a new ballet class last night!"  This didn't bother me for a while, I chalked it up to her liking the ohs and ahs of attention.  I ran track in high school and returned to it once my children were old enough to manage without me for a bit - I was running regularly when we met.  I encouraged her to start running and to enter local 5ks with me.  She did, continuing to talk about what she did to our co-workers, leaving me completely out of the races when my times were faster than hers.  If I happened to join in the conversation, I would say I ran, too, but I'd let her have the spotlight.  I'm really not someone who likes to brag about stuff, and really running was just something I did, like brushing my teeth.  I should have said something or talked to her about it - but I never did.  I didn't admit to myself that it bothered me, I didn't need the recognition, exercise SHOULD be something you just do without telling the world.  I don't need to toot my own horn because I'm someone who gets recognized and thanked for a job well done just by virtue of being, if that makes sense.  But I do like to be recognized and praised, I think most people do.  While I am perfectly fine with no one at work knowing what I do in my off-time, I think I felt like she was hogging the spotlight.  I deserved a "nice job!" or "Wow! You are fast!" and she wasn't turning that light on me or sharing in the glory.  AND I'm the one who got her into running in the first place!  So I began to develop an underlying thread of resentment.  
    Fast-forward to my developing health issues - I was diagnosed with chondromalacia (a knee issue) and early-onset osteoarthritis, went through physical therapy, was told that I had to stop running or I would continue to scrape away the cartilage in my knees.  I was depressed and gained a ton of weight, which certainly did not help my knee issues.   My co-worker stopped running and gained weight around the same time, complaining to me that she needed me to keep her on track.  Never did she ask me how I was doing, how my therapy was progressing.  Yet, it was my fault that she had fallen into the abyss.  Another thread of resentment.  
    I eventually got better, turned to Crossfit as a way to try to get back in shape without the constant pounding of running (no, this was not a good choice for the health of my knees! ), and was introduced to the world of Paleo and eventually W30 through that community.  I did not share any of this with anyone at work.  My co-worker wanted to know what I was doing, and I just answered that I was lifting weights.  SO she started lifting weights.  I was noticing this pattern with lots of work activities - if I did something, she did it, too.  I was feeling like her big sister and decided that imitation was the highest form of flattery.  It was slightly annoying, but I figured the best thing I could do was distance myself from her.  
    A few months later, she started to become snappy and easily upset.  She would get angry and not talk to one of us at work for days at a time.  My other co-workers and I speculated about what was going on, why we had to walk on eggshells around her.  I talked to her about it, but she denied anything was wrong.  She later said that she thought her coworkers were her friends, but she guessed that we were just co-workers.  I think she may have seen a post on Facebook of me with some Crossfit people, but I wasn't sure.  And I didn't really think that I was so important that I would cause her to have such a reaction.   Later still, she said she was taking medication to help with her anxiety.  
    Fast-forward again to the last two years.  As expected, Crossfit did not do my knees any good, I gained 50+ pounds, and I've been struggling with finding my way every since.  My co-worker returned to running, at which point she began running every day and posting it on Facebook.  She currently has a running streak of over two years going.  At every opportunity, she would mention running - "Before I went to visit my mother, I went for a run."  "I was able to get that report in, and then I went for a run afterward."  We've joked at work (when she wasn't around) that it would be an excellent drinking game, every time she mentions running take a drink, but we'd all be trashed in no time.  And she would talk about how she could eat the donuts in the break room because she went for a run that morning.  Or how it was ok to have McDonald's for lunch because she was going for a run after work.  I really felt like she was purposefully getting digs in at me because I couldn't run, I was obviously limping when I walked (she still has never asked me how I'm doing), and I was clearly gaining weight.  More resentment on my part. 
    The final annoying interaction was the DQ blizzard incident I mentioned in one of the posts above.  This however, was not an isolated incident, but my typical way of dealing with avoiding conflict with her.  With quarantine, I see that she continues to post daily on FB about her socially distant runs.  We meet as a small group via Zoom weekly and she always comes sweaty because she "just finished running" or "waiting to get off here so I can get my run in!"  She gets a lot of attention for these statements - "Good for you!"  "I'm glad someone is being healthy!"  and then texts fly around the group about who's got their bottle of Jack Daniels set-up taking shots every time she mentions a run during our meetings.  For a long time, I haven't acknowledged her comments about running or eating junk.  I consciously remark on the part of what she says that does not focus on those things, for instance asking her how her mom is doing.  Not interacting with her daily has given me the opportunity to see how toxic this relationship is to me.  
    I am not complicit in this - I am the one who pulled away from our friendship without a conversation with her.  I avoided the conflict.  I was not supportive of her during her bout with anxiety, choosing instead to limit our interactions so I wouldn't have to deal with her mood.  I participate in making fun of her running broadcasts with my co-workers.  It feels good, but slimy at the same time to talk about her behind her back like that.  I personalize her comments and assume they are directed toward me.  
    Just as I am not responsible for her stopping running and gaining weight the first time, experiencing the mental health breakdown, and any of the million other little things that occur at work that I feel like she thinks I should take responsibility for, she is not responsible for me choosing to stuff my face with doughnuts and Dairy Queen.  That is the behavior I choose to indulge in when I'm feeling annoyed/irritated/angry with her.  And she is really just a paragon of what I could not do because of my health issues.  Does she actually say those things to prick at me or is it because of her own need for validation?  Seriously, why would a grown woman spend her time figuring out what she needs to say and do to remind me of my own self-care failings?  This is about me personalizing something that is bigger for her - maybe the running is medicine for her anxiety.  I know that she requires attention from others to feel good about herself - maybe she is finally getting the confidence boost from others that she needs through her daily run reports.  The fact that she requires that attention is her issue, not mine.  The fact that she enjoys indulging in junk food has absolutely nothing to do with my weight or my food choices.  If she wants to eat Krispy Kreme every day for the rest of her life, that has no impact whatsoever on me or my future.  So after so much soul-searching on this issue, here are my take-aways:
    -As annoyed and angry as I have been with her about blaming me for her issues, I am doing the same thing to her.  Just because I don't say it out loud doesn't make it not so.  
    -If I really believe that life is best lived by setting an example for others rather than telling them what to do (and i do believe this), then that is the cornerstone of my belief system.  But, not everyone has that same code and so it is unfair for me to expect that.  
    -It's my responsibility to share an accomplishment of mine if I want recognition for it.
    -If someone chooses not to give me credit for something I have helped them with, I have two choices:  speak up or recognize that their lack of recognition says more about them than it does about me and then move on.
    -I do not need to feel guilty about distancing myself from people that make me unhappy (guilt - I didn't deal with this above, but I do harbor some of this).  I am the only person that is going to take care of me.  I don't need to explain why unless I want to.  
    -Other people have their own issues.  While we may cross paths, their issues are not my issues.  
    -Very rarely do people who are outside of our inner circles target us for ruin.  Maybe my co-worker feels better when she gets a dig in at me, maybe it has nothing to do with me.  But she is not trying to ruin me.  
    -I am the one who has chosen to use food to calm my emotions, no one forces me to do this.  It is my responsibility to recognize this and change my behavior.  
    -Binging junk food in secret does not impact the person I am annoyed with.  It only hurts me.  There are other ways to satisfy myself.  There are other outlets for my emotions.  
     
    Bottom line - I am responsible for myself.  If I can't think/self-talk my way through an annoyance, then I am responsible for choosing an appropriate outlet for those feelings.  
     
     
     
     
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Take Advantage   
    This is important.  I am the same way.  Right now I'm in a good place.  But I have dealt with felt feelings of anger, jealousy, annoyance, unfairness toward people who are able to eat what they want, as much as they want without any apparent consequence.  My sister-in-law and a really annoying co-worker come immediately to mind.  And I have gorged myself on something I thought I wanted as a result.  Great example, just before Covid-19, my co-worker was gloating (ok, maybe not gloating so much as sharing...) that she was going to get a DQ blizzard for lunch because she saw it on a tv commercial the night before.  This irritated me so much that I went and got myself a DQ blizzard (large of course) for my lunch and then parked in the park and ate it.   My smug, self-righteousness that I also could have a DQ blizzard if I wanted was not in any way deterred by my resultant fuzzy-brained, sick to stomach, tired, listless demeanor.  This is so stupid.  I want out of that self-created drama in which I'm the only player.  I'll have to dedicate a journal entry to my co-worker-I need to work through my feelings toward her.  She will crop up as an annoyance again soon.   
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Take Advantage   
    Wow, that was long.  And maybe not appropriate for a W30 journal.  But this is a primary source of my poor eating habits and I need to deal with it.  I want Food Freedom Forever!  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to kirbz in Kirbz's Whole30 Log   
    Well, I am happy to report back that I did switch pretty easily back to Whole30 after consuming an entire jar of peanut butter in a single day. I feel good about the decision to eat the peanut butter (including the amount) and I feel good about my ability to transition back and not go completely off the rails. Though I do think the peanut butter (which had added sugar, because Skippy Extra Crunchy is the only peanut butter worth eating) increased my cravings. I definitely wanted ice cream and cake and all sorts of sweet, delicious desserts this weekend. It had been a while since I'd had cravings for that kind of stuff.
    But, I did it! I ate something worth it and then came right on back! Yay for me!
    And I killed it on the workouts this weekend. I did an 8.5-mile hike on Saturday with about 1,600 feet of elevation gain. It honestly felt easy to me. I didn't need to stop or rest on the climbs and my overall heart rate was pretty darn low! The last time I did this hike, in October, I had an average heart rate of 136 and a max of 185. This weekend, I had an average heart rate of 116 and a max of 172. Which is major progress! Oh, and then I did a 7-mile trail run on Sunday. My longest run ever! Woo woo! Mind you, it was a slow run with many walking intervals. But still! 
    Oh, and I tried a delicious new recipe! I was super skeptical of the very concept of slow cooker ribs. But wow, these were good: http://meljoulwan.com/2012/02/23/5-spice-slow-cooker-pork-ribs/! 
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to scoakley13 in Pants don't fit and I'm tired   
    I've done several Whole30's (at least ten but probably more) and even did a Whole75 last year. I felt great and was able to stay active with no issues. I wanted to try Keto so I did that the second half of the year. It was a keto/Whole30 hybrid and also made me feel great. However, I started getting depressed in December and began shoveling unhealthy food in my mouth because it made me feel better. Then I started feeling bad so I ate more bad food. I knew what the bad food was doing to me but couldn't stop and my depression got worse. I started on an anti-depressant at the beginning of January. It made me sleepy and really hungry. So I started eating more because of the hunger and eating unhealthier because of how tired I was. I'm now almost 35 lbs. heavier than I was on Christmas Day and have no energy. I love how I feel (and look) on Whole30 so I'm starting another round tomorrow morning. I've tried a few times over the past couple of months but haven't been able to stick with it. I've been keeping a food log so I could figure out what makes me crave/eat unhealthy food and feel like I've finally figured it out. So here we go...
    Goals over the next 30 (or more) days:
    Track food here daily to hold me accountable  Lessen inflammation throughout my body Break "addiction" to sweet treats Stop emotional eating  Increase energy by eating compliantly and getting enough sleep at night Move at least five days per week  Eat breakfast, lunch and dinner every day Fit back into my pants Most importantly - feel good every damn day
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Food journal for 6/15/20:
    Breakfast: A bit of hardboiled egg; green smoothie with banana, blueberries, spinach, kale, ginger, etc.
    Lunch: Broccoli + mashed potatoes + roasted chicken + sauce
    Dinner: Leftover turkey burger + sweet potato fries + 1/2 "Gutzy" food & veg snack pouch
    Today was my first day back in the office after being away for a while. The very first thing I saw when I walked in the door of the office was two boxes of donuts, brought in by our office manager! Ha. That's a fine welcome back. I sailed right past the donuts without flinching.  (I'm REALLY glad the office manager didn't bring in two boxes of tender, fresh-baked chocolate chip cookies..... breakfast may have unfolded differently.)
    Seeing a couple of colleagues gave me a real lift. We "air-hugged" each other from a distance as we returned to our desks. Glad I had some compliant food ready to grab and go to fuel me through the day.