MadyVanilla

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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from LadyM in Take Advantage   
    Yesterday was a real trial.  Things began going downhill shortly before lunch...I had an urgent question to answer for a co-worker that required me to gather a yes or no answer from 9 other people.  After an hour, I had only heard back from 3 people.  I was annoyed because the task was given to me and because everyone is supposed to be on their computers (where email pops up) and should have had time to answer me.  So I texted, and got several "I think so" answers.  Then I had a Zoom with several other people, one of whom I thought was going to relieve me of some responsibilities, but turns out isn't.  I have mixed feelings about that - I enjoy that aspect of my job, but there are other things I do that only my profession is licensed to do, so I was hoping to have more time for those things (and therefore do a better job.) So things were quite stressful during the late morning, early afternoon.    I spent some time talking to myself to help me remember "I can't control other people's behavior only my own."  I think I would have been ok if that had been the end of the day's stresses.  However, a loved one texted me some upsetting information, but then wasn't answering my texts or phone call.  I felt like i was being ignored.  By this time, it was around 3:00 or so, and I still hadn't had anything to eat.  But I wasn't hungry.  
    I was so restless and distraught and unsettled...I was still in my pajamas and it was raining so I wasn't feeling like going for a walk or bike ride.  I also had residual upsetment because of an issue during my hike on Sunday...I was  feeling trapped at home.  I went upstairs and began cleaning which helped a little.  I was starting to feel hungry and beginning to feel a pull toward junk food, so I just didn't make anything.  Then I started to convince myself that I deserved to order a pizza for dinner.  I tugged and pulled mentally for a while, then decided to do an emotional release yoga before doing anything else.  I cried through most of the hour session, and journaled during and afterward as suggested by the instructor.  That helped tremendously, but I was still feeling that pizza was the answer.  Before I headed downstairs to order, my loved one texted me back, then called.  We resolved our issue (which I was only able to address calmly because of the yoga and journaling...).  I finally decided that I would stick with the original plan of ham and broccoli, but discovered that my husband was making spaghetti and meat sauce.  So I had zoodles and meat sauce.  Somehow I got through all the feelings without sabotaging myself, not really on my own and with luck and good timing, but I still got through them.  
    Day 8
    Mood-6, energy-5, Pain-3  Still feeling a little beaten up from yesterday, plus I didn't sleep great.  Lots of shoulder pain this morning.  
    M1-I was so hungry this morning, so I made a breakfast favorite - sauteed banana with scrambled eggs and cinnamon and black coffee
    M2-yesterday's plan for lunch
    M3-My butcher box order is due today, and I would like to make Kulua pig for dinner.  If not, last night's plan for ham and broccoli.  
     
    Goals for today-
    Dress before lunch!
    early afternoon gym session
    yoga this evening
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from LadyM in Take Advantage   
    Note to self:  indulge in dinner at the dining room table, fresh flowers, lit candles.  It's not expensive, not time-consuming, and NOT HARD.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from decker_bear in Take Advantage   
    Note to self:  indulge in dinner at the dining room table, fresh flowers, lit candles.  It's not expensive, not time-consuming, and NOT HARD.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    I'm just here.  Going to start over tomorrow.  I have so much good, nourishing food it would almost be impossible not to eat W30.  And yet, I was derailed by Labor Day barbecue food, wine, and my mother-in-law's brownies...I made the choice to indulge.  
    I have a date for a bike ride with a friend in an hour.  I'll be back tomorrow ready for day 1 again.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Contessa in Take Advantage   
    I just want to say that I love this so much and I relate fully to this aspiration! Brava!
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    There are so many mental games that I play with myself, the scale is just one.  I used to think a daily weigh-in kept me in line, but it didn't-I often didn't weigh myself if I had eaten "bad" the day before.  But those days that I did, and the scale went down despite the "bad" choices, oh the fun mental games with that scenario!  This summer, my plan has evolved into working on self-honesty.  Calling myself out and taking responsibility for stuff.  It's ALWAYS my choice-no one force feeds me.  Working on the all-or-none thinking.  It's a process, for sure.  
    Day 11
    Mood-8, Energy-6, Pain-0
    M1-black coffee so far, not terribly hungry.  I might eat some Kahlua pig.  
    M2-chicken salad or Kahlua pig.  I need to make mayonnaise
    M3-leftovers, Hawaiian chicken, Kahlua pig Caesar salad.  I have lots of romaine.  
    I MUST get some exercise today -it looks like a beautiful day outside, so I'm hoping to get out for a walk, maybe even a hike with the dog this afternoon.  I need to restart my morning dog walks, too.  I stopped because of my shoulder issue, but I've been able to walk her on the opposite side with some adjustment.  I just have been lazy in the mornings about getting out with her.  Tuesday Sept 8 seems a good day to start this, the day of new beginnings.  
    Yesterday, I was brainstorming why I was having a little more difficulty with cravings this time, thinking it was habit...I also think it's due to eating more fruit this past week.  Typically, I don't eat fruit, just not a big fan.  But, I've had a banana many days and pineapple a few days.  The fruit, along with the cassava tortillas, means I've been getting more carbohydrates than I normally do on W30.  The cassava tortillas aren't quite SWYPO because I can stop eating them, but boy are they delicious and satisfy my love of tacos.  I need to decrease carbs, increase fats, which will be easy now that the tortillas are gone.   I know what ratio works best from me, just hadn't been thinking that I had slipped from this until just looking back over my logs.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Start 9/6   
    Hi Tyler! Welcome  Good luck on your W30. You've picked a great time - lots of people are on-board for the September W30!
    My biggest tips are:
    Read the ingredients before you eat it. Read them even if you can't imagine them having something non-compliant. Read them even if you've bought that product before. Read them even if your best friend told you its compliant. Read them even if you read them when you bought it and it's been sitting in the cupboard. Even read them if there is a Whole30 logo on the bottle - mistakes have been made. It is far better to read everything over and over, than face a restart because you didn't!  Keep a food/feelings journal - the section on this forum is great for it. I have done 6 rounds (I have some pretty wacky intolerances I'm working out) and being able to go back and see what I ate and how I felt on various days (both emotionally and physically) is so so helpful, and can really get you through a slump if you think nothing's happening. Stalk other people's W30 logs! There's inspiration, answers and great solidarity Get as creative as you want to be, BUT don't feel like you HAVE to! Simple gets the job done too!  Don't get overwhelmed by the substitute products or feel you need to spend a fortune to prep up. At it's heart, W30 is whole foods. The compliant products are window dressing, and you can use them as much or as little as you want. If you're a FB user - find and join a few W30 groups - there are great ones out there and they're a fantastic resource for support and answers (and you generally get answers/interaction pretty quick).  Good luck! And enjoy yourself!
     
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Tevenie in Tevenie's Whole30 Diary   
    Thank you, I feel all full of early autumnal, crisp early morning air enthusiasm.  I am not sure if that is a thing, but I feel it anyway.  I have just signed up for 30 days of 15 mins a day of Pilates too.  So lots of menu planning and getting ready this weekend.  I am excited to feel well again.  I intend to make sure I go into next year healthy and happy.  Looking forward to chatting with you all again. x
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Tevenie in Tevenie's Whole30 Diary   
    Hello!  I am back.  I am going to start this again on Monday and this time I WILL COMPLETE IT. 
    I want tiger blood and I ain't leaving until I've got it. 
    So there.  

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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Thank you both @ShadowInTheKitchen and @MadyVanilla, it helps to know that I'm not just screaming into the void!!
    Finally Friday, for a whole lot of nothing, this week sure has been a doozy. 
    I'm very physically weary today, floppy muscles. I only did my typical 45 mins on the elliptical yesterday but it really did seem like hard work. Hopefully I'll pep up a bit. 
    Fish Friday today, I'm thinking maybe some battered whiting tails, or maybe just my standard snapper. Hubster wants the cauliflower tabbouleh (GASP!!!!) so whatever we have will have that on the side. 
    Lunch I have a bunch of leftover roasted veggies from last night, so I think I'll have that with a couple of poached eggs and either a hollandaise or kimchi dressing. 
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    MadyVanilla reacted to laurasuzanne in Laura's Whole30 8/28/20   
    Thanks for the ideas, decker! I have heard of the body mindfulness in regards to falling asleep, but that's great advice for stress management. I'm intrigued to try that. 
    Today is Day 8. I am approaching my first weekend with socialization. I have a hefty to do list, so I think staying busy and not thinking about snacking shouldn't be a problem. 
    This morning when I was getting ready for work I grabbed my last meal-prepped meal (turkey chili). I opened the freezer and there was 1 bag of frozen veggies left. I got nervous. I have nothing prepared for dinner. I'll come home hungry, my boyfriend will be here, and we will not have dinner planned and may go out or I have to make dinner while hungry. Then I remembered my crock pot meals and that I have a freezer full of meat. I zipped out to the garage and 2 minutes later had plenty of food thawing in the fridge. Yes, I will have to make dinner tonight hungry, but it wasn't the tragedy my 6:30am self tried to make it. It was honestly a bit funny because I'm not normally a dramatic person and I swear my brain blew it up for a moment in an attempt to get me to go out to dinner. I miss restaurants and I know I can do W30 dining out, but my go-to is Chipotle and the nearest one is 45 minutes away. I was already getting my mind set on it and how I was going to tell my boyfriend after 4 hours driving we should go spend another 45 minutes for fast food. Hahaha. 
    Tomorrow will definitely require a grocery trip for more veggies. Tomorrow night we'll have kabobs for dinner. It absolutely baffles me each time I make them out unbelievably good meat and veggies taste off the grill and how healthy it is. 
    I'm in a good mood overall, which is great! Have a great weekend, everyone!
    Laura
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Laura's Whole30 8/28/20   
    You've had such an awesome week, and such cool NSVs already!  Whether or not you decide to go to the gym or spend time with your bf tonight the important thing to keep in mind is that you are making the best choices for your health, whether it be your physical, mental, or emotional health.  Sometimes we need to hang out with loved ones, sometimes we need to go to the gym.  And the salt.....so true!  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    Another late day post...those of you that work such long hours, how do you even manage to eat one healthy meal, let alone several and get in exercise????
    Day 10
    Mood-8, Energy-6, Pain-0
    It's been a good day, so much accomplished, and I solved a problem for 4 people who were all very grateful.  I was able to shower, dress, and get breakfast at an appropriate time this morning, but then the day took off.  
    Lunch...I was again just wanting to grab something.  I'm struggling a little more with the cravings this time around, I'm not sure what that's about, maybe just being busy, working in front of the computer without break.  This might be habit kicking up - while I've been working at home since March, my workload has not been typical until just the last two weeks.  I'm used to having something ready to eat (lunch box or picked up meal) and not stopping to prepare.  I'll keep that in mind for the next work days.  
    As I was debating about what to do for lunch, I decided to weigh myself (big no, I know!!!).  I thought, if I've lost weight, I'm not going to sabotage myself.  If I've gained, I'm just going to eat what I can find.  This is so against the spirit of W30 I'm ashamed to post it, but that's where I was - these are the thoughts and habits I need to change if I'm going to succeed long term.  Well, the scale gods were with me and I had lost a few pounds (probably all water weight....)  I ordered a Chipotle lifestyle bowl to be delivered.  So why didn't I just do that without going through all the mental gymnastics to end up on the scale?  
    I'm thankful for what I can accomplish right now - staying compliant with meals, keeping up with my yoga, journaling.  I'm at 1.2K steps for today, and we have severe storm/tornado watches this evening, so no walk.  I started the morning with walking around the house when my Fitbit buzzed at 10 of the hour, but that didn't last through the day.  I just looked at yesterday's post - I have fewer steps today despite being a little more deliberate this morning, ugh.  I'm adjusting, I just wasn't prepared for such an overwhelming return to work normal (albeit still at home). 
    Dinner-Kahlua pig going in the Instant Pot - I'll do a yoga session while it cooks.  Probably have a salad and some pineapple with it.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Me, too.  
    Quarantine...I remember reading something that said the way we are impacted by it is similar to how we live on our incomes.  There are lots of people who make less money (have less resources during pandemic), but most people still live at the top of their means (are near their "wits-end" during the pandemic).  Our own reality is so vastly different than what it has every been that to expect ourselves to grin and bear it and accept our lot as just the way things are without any grieving  would be the same as expecting ourselves to carry on as normal in the face of financial devastation.  IDK, that still smacks of privilege.  But it makes sense to give ourselves grace, because we've all experienced significant changes that we aren't practiced in dealing with.  This seems so totally unhelpful now that I've written it out.  Quarantine/pandemic-era living is just plain hard.    
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    You are getting so much exercise!  I know what you mean about letting yourself go in March...it was a tough time, full of fearful unknowns.  You are working yourself back to where you were.  
    Enjoy the visit with your family! 
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from SchrodingersCat in Take Advantage   
    Another late day post...those of you that work such long hours, how do you even manage to eat one healthy meal, let alone several and get in exercise????
    Day 10
    Mood-8, Energy-6, Pain-0
    It's been a good day, so much accomplished, and I solved a problem for 4 people who were all very grateful.  I was able to shower, dress, and get breakfast at an appropriate time this morning, but then the day took off.  
    Lunch...I was again just wanting to grab something.  I'm struggling a little more with the cravings this time around, I'm not sure what that's about, maybe just being busy, working in front of the computer without break.  This might be habit kicking up - while I've been working at home since March, my workload has not been typical until just the last two weeks.  I'm used to having something ready to eat (lunch box or picked up meal) and not stopping to prepare.  I'll keep that in mind for the next work days.  
    As I was debating about what to do for lunch, I decided to weigh myself (big no, I know!!!).  I thought, if I've lost weight, I'm not going to sabotage myself.  If I've gained, I'm just going to eat what I can find.  This is so against the spirit of W30 I'm ashamed to post it, but that's where I was - these are the thoughts and habits I need to change if I'm going to succeed long term.  Well, the scale gods were with me and I had lost a few pounds (probably all water weight....)  I ordered a Chipotle lifestyle bowl to be delivered.  So why didn't I just do that without going through all the mental gymnastics to end up on the scale?  
    I'm thankful for what I can accomplish right now - staying compliant with meals, keeping up with my yoga, journaling.  I'm at 1.2K steps for today, and we have severe storm/tornado watches this evening, so no walk.  I started the morning with walking around the house when my Fitbit buzzed at 10 of the hour, but that didn't last through the day.  I just looked at yesterday's post - I have fewer steps today despite being a little more deliberate this morning, ugh.  I'm adjusting, I just wasn't prepared for such an overwhelming return to work normal (albeit still at home). 
    Dinner-Kahlua pig going in the Instant Pot - I'll do a yoga session while it cooks.  Probably have a salad and some pineapple with it.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Me, too.  
    Quarantine...I remember reading something that said the way we are impacted by it is similar to how we live on our incomes.  There are lots of people who make less money (have less resources during pandemic), but most people still live at the top of their means (are near their "wits-end" during the pandemic).  Our own reality is so vastly different than what it has every been that to expect ourselves to grin and bear it and accept our lot as just the way things are without any grieving  would be the same as expecting ourselves to carry on as normal in the face of financial devastation.  IDK, that still smacks of privilege.  But it makes sense to give ourselves grace, because we've all experienced significant changes that we aren't practiced in dealing with.  This seems so totally unhelpful now that I've written it out.  Quarantine/pandemic-era living is just plain hard.    
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Jennifer Jensen in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    I like to ease into it myself...it seems to help, getting into a preparation mindset.  I'm looking forward to following your journey! 
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Day 16, Tuesday September 1, 2020
    Over half way!  I've been remaining compliant but today is a difficult day.  My sleep wasn't great last night, that's probably it. I'm feeling lots of cravings for anything sweet.  I have been eating so much today, morning snacks (fruit, nuts, raisins & dates), and afternoon snacks (more fruit & nuts, plus some apple cider) in addition to my big meals.  I'm feeling a bit hungrier than usual because of all the walking I'm doing, averaging over 17,000 steps for the past week, but I'm definitely eating more than I need to.  It's just a blah feeling I have, and an old habit, to eat.  I'm also feeling the drag of needing to be in the kitchen so much.  What to cook?  If it were only me it would be easy.  Maybe I'll order pizza in or cook something from a box for the family tonight, and make myself something compliant, or eat my leftover spaghetti squash with meat and marinara sauce tonight.  Whatever happens, I plan to stick with the plan.  I'm coveting full time Tiger Blood...
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    MadyVanilla reacted to UrsulaB11 in Ursula's Whole 30 log.. late start   
    It's Thursday. I have had back to back client meetings since Monday, often not getting home until 10:30 or later and not falling asleep until 11:30 or later, followed by demanding days.  I'm tired. I feel like I have earned some sort of a respite tonight and I really want that to be a glass of wine.
    As I type the words, I am already feeling the logical responses in my head.
    I am getting a respite tonight - I get to work out. (I have to reserve the fitness center in my apartment and I have it reserved tonight) I will certainly feel great after that work out, especially after not working out for two days.
    My image of drinking wine includes a glass sitting outside somewhere, enjoying the weather. There are big thunderstorms rolling through our area tonight right around the 5-8pm timeline, so if I want to have a glass of wine and ruin everything on day 25, I am going to have to do it with grocery store wine and leftovers in my apartment. Um, yeah, I would wake up in the morning hating myself for falling off before day 30 under those circumstances.
    And seriously, if I think I am going to be able to continue eating this way for the most part after day 30, clearly that's not happening if I am failing on day 25. Just 5 more days and I gave up. 
    Thank you all for allowing me to work through this today.  My guess is that I will be back tomorrow ..... and every day after that until I hit 30, especially with gorgeous weather this weekend and pending brunch plans.
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    These crazy days...I have forgotten how stressful work can be!  It's amazing to me that I just handled these days previously.  I've gotten soft while working from home, lol.  I keep saying things will calm at work - I'm still hopeful...
    So it's almost dinner time and I'm just getting around to journaling.  Yesterday went fine,  I dressed for the gym, set my alarm, and got myself there and back before my afternoon meeting.  I didn't have time to lift, though, and didn't get 8k steps.  Today is not looking so hot, either - I've only gotten 1,400 so far.  That is correct.  It is a little after 5;00 pm and I've gotten just over 1,000 steps.  If this is going to be my new normal work day, I'm going to have to come up with a plan.  
    Day 9
    Mood-7, Energy-6, Pain-2
    M1-banana eggs 
    M2-bacon, spinach, cassava tortilla.  I had an epiphany at 3:00 that I had not eaten lunch and I was hungry.  I really needed to grab something quick, but I managed to make and clean these up in about 10 minutes.  I had a fleeting thought of just grabbing something, that I'm too busy now to worry about W30, but it was really just fleeting and an idea for a meal materialized when I looked in the fridge.  
    M3-I'm not hungry now, and since I hadn't planned the day earlier...probably left over ham and vegetables.  
     
     
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from UrsulaB11 in Ursula's Whole 30 log.. late start   
    I really like this idea.  It goes along with my desire for structure.  I hope you continue to journal as you reintroduce!
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    MadyVanilla reacted to laurasuzanne in Take Advantage   
    Wow, what a whirlwind of a day. Good job managing stress in a non-food way!
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    MadyVanilla reacted to UrsulaB11 in Ursula's Whole 30 log.. late start   
    My morning shock today was when I started my journal entry and noted that today is day 23. That means my last day is September 8. I had counted it to the 9th. Which meant re-intro on the 10th. But I planned for the 11th in light of work commitments. So now, I can technically have a reintroduce day on the 9th (wine, I think) followed by compliant days on 10th and 11th and re-intro (dairy) on the 12th.   But I don’t think I’m going to do that. 
     
    I have a brutal schedule through the afternoon of the 11th and taking in a happy hour (sans non compliant food) sounds amazing. Plus, I’m worried that I won’t feel great the day after reintroduction and I’d rather be off work.
     
    And maybe that means I stay compliant all week and then reintroduce on Fridays? That sounds somewhat appealing, especially if I reintroduce and can reincorporate some items back in. 
    I still can’t believe I stuck to this for 23 days so far ...
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from laurasuzanne in Take Advantage   
    Yesterday was a real trial.  Things began going downhill shortly before lunch...I had an urgent question to answer for a co-worker that required me to gather a yes or no answer from 9 other people.  After an hour, I had only heard back from 3 people.  I was annoyed because the task was given to me and because everyone is supposed to be on their computers (where email pops up) and should have had time to answer me.  So I texted, and got several "I think so" answers.  Then I had a Zoom with several other people, one of whom I thought was going to relieve me of some responsibilities, but turns out isn't.  I have mixed feelings about that - I enjoy that aspect of my job, but there are other things I do that only my profession is licensed to do, so I was hoping to have more time for those things (and therefore do a better job.) So things were quite stressful during the late morning, early afternoon.    I spent some time talking to myself to help me remember "I can't control other people's behavior only my own."  I think I would have been ok if that had been the end of the day's stresses.  However, a loved one texted me some upsetting information, but then wasn't answering my texts or phone call.  I felt like i was being ignored.  By this time, it was around 3:00 or so, and I still hadn't had anything to eat.  But I wasn't hungry.  
    I was so restless and distraught and unsettled...I was still in my pajamas and it was raining so I wasn't feeling like going for a walk or bike ride.  I also had residual upsetment because of an issue during my hike on Sunday...I was  feeling trapped at home.  I went upstairs and began cleaning which helped a little.  I was starting to feel hungry and beginning to feel a pull toward junk food, so I just didn't make anything.  Then I started to convince myself that I deserved to order a pizza for dinner.  I tugged and pulled mentally for a while, then decided to do an emotional release yoga before doing anything else.  I cried through most of the hour session, and journaled during and afterward as suggested by the instructor.  That helped tremendously, but I was still feeling that pizza was the answer.  Before I headed downstairs to order, my loved one texted me back, then called.  We resolved our issue (which I was only able to address calmly because of the yoga and journaling...).  I finally decided that I would stick with the original plan of ham and broccoli, but discovered that my husband was making spaghetti and meat sauce.  So I had zoodles and meat sauce.  Somehow I got through all the feelings without sabotaging myself, not really on my own and with luck and good timing, but I still got through them.  
    Day 8
    Mood-6, energy-5, Pain-3  Still feeling a little beaten up from yesterday, plus I didn't sleep great.  Lots of shoulder pain this morning.  
    M1-I was so hungry this morning, so I made a breakfast favorite - sauteed banana with scrambled eggs and cinnamon and black coffee
    M2-yesterday's plan for lunch
    M3-My butcher box order is due today, and I would like to make Kulua pig for dinner.  If not, last night's plan for ham and broccoli.  
     
    Goals for today-
    Dress before lunch!
    early afternoon gym session
    yoga this evening