MadyVanilla

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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from LadyM in Take Advantage   
    Yesterday was a real trial.  Things began going downhill shortly before lunch...I had an urgent question to answer for a co-worker that required me to gather a yes or no answer from 9 other people.  After an hour, I had only heard back from 3 people.  I was annoyed because the task was given to me and because everyone is supposed to be on their computers (where email pops up) and should have had time to answer me.  So I texted, and got several "I think so" answers.  Then I had a Zoom with several other people, one of whom I thought was going to relieve me of some responsibilities, but turns out isn't.  I have mixed feelings about that - I enjoy that aspect of my job, but there are other things I do that only my profession is licensed to do, so I was hoping to have more time for those things (and therefore do a better job.) So things were quite stressful during the late morning, early afternoon.    I spent some time talking to myself to help me remember "I can't control other people's behavior only my own."  I think I would have been ok if that had been the end of the day's stresses.  However, a loved one texted me some upsetting information, but then wasn't answering my texts or phone call.  I felt like i was being ignored.  By this time, it was around 3:00 or so, and I still hadn't had anything to eat.  But I wasn't hungry.  
    I was so restless and distraught and unsettled...I was still in my pajamas and it was raining so I wasn't feeling like going for a walk or bike ride.  I also had residual upsetment because of an issue during my hike on Sunday...I was  feeling trapped at home.  I went upstairs and began cleaning which helped a little.  I was starting to feel hungry and beginning to feel a pull toward junk food, so I just didn't make anything.  Then I started to convince myself that I deserved to order a pizza for dinner.  I tugged and pulled mentally for a while, then decided to do an emotional release yoga before doing anything else.  I cried through most of the hour session, and journaled during and afterward as suggested by the instructor.  That helped tremendously, but I was still feeling that pizza was the answer.  Before I headed downstairs to order, my loved one texted me back, then called.  We resolved our issue (which I was only able to address calmly because of the yoga and journaling...).  I finally decided that I would stick with the original plan of ham and broccoli, but discovered that my husband was making spaghetti and meat sauce.  So I had zoodles and meat sauce.  Somehow I got through all the feelings without sabotaging myself, not really on my own and with luck and good timing, but I still got through them.  
    Day 8
    Mood-6, energy-5, Pain-3  Still feeling a little beaten up from yesterday, plus I didn't sleep great.  Lots of shoulder pain this morning.  
    M1-I was so hungry this morning, so I made a breakfast favorite - sauteed banana with scrambled eggs and cinnamon and black coffee
    M2-yesterday's plan for lunch
    M3-My butcher box order is due today, and I would like to make Kulua pig for dinner.  If not, last night's plan for ham and broccoli.  
     
    Goals for today-
    Dress before lunch!
    early afternoon gym session
    yoga this evening
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Morning! I think it's Tuesday. 
    I slept really well last night, even my Fitbit gave me a 90 - it's my first "Excellent" lol. Didn't think I would, because I went to bed crabby again, but hey, something had to give and apparently a good night's sleep was on the cards.
    Did not get on the elliptical last night, i just wasn't mentally in the zone. I'll get out there today though, plus my lunch walk with the doggo. 
    Vertigo definitely seems to have faded into almost nothing, I'm at that stage where it's "is that vertigo, or am I just imagining it?" which is really nice. I'm actually glad that this time I've committed to a whole longer period, all my previous rounds have ended at 30 with a weigh in and then slowly bringing stuff back, but even though I might not have brought stuff back until day 45 or so, it was still "over" and my mental state had changed. I'd started snacking etc. I'm curious to see what a good solid longer period compliant will do.
    My birthday is at the end of the month, but with the lockdown (and the fact that I generally hate my birthday because it's usually shit) I plan on largely ignoring it, though that will be the temptation for wine. I'll deal with that when it comes, it's a whole month.
    A friend is sending us ice cream this week, it's part of UberEats "poor old Victoria" promo, people who don't live in lockdown can send people who do free B&Js ice cream. I'm going to thank her profusely and tuck it away for another day
    We're coming into some really nice weather, so I'm going to try and spend more time outside, even in my own yard where I don't need to mask up. 
    Food for today - leftovers again, I have brisket, meatballs, and shredded duck. I could do an Asian style slaw (if one of my cabbages is ready) with the duck, hmm.
    Dinner will be decided once I go through the chest freezer
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Take Advantage   
    Oh do I hear you on that paper lion.  "This is so easy!" "I feel great!" "I don't have any reason to not eat like this every again!" - BAM, back to horrid, just like that. You're so right about acknowledging the fragility, and that's a lesson I need to learn. 
     
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Take Advantage   
    A quick note to say all is going well - wrapping up Day 6, dinner is cooking now.  I don't like to miss more than one day of journaling, and I got up for an early breakfast and gym workout yesterday morning and never got on the computer.  Five mile hike with the dog today (gorgeous day!) and plans to hit the mat soon after dinner for a good restorative session.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Jennifer Jensen in Laura's Whole30 8/28/20   
    Yay - another lover of the structure of W30!  I think I'm on my 7th round - I started journaling in this forum for my 6th round (started in June), didn't really finish it and piddled around before recommitting again this week.  Journaling has been the most helpful activity I have engaged in to help me with working toward Food Freedom (no where near there, yet).  
    So welcome!  It makes so much sense what you said about setting the tone as you transition into a new stage.  I hope today is successful and that you continue to journal here through the next 29.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Lol. I'm currently on my 7th round.  My first 4 were textbook, without reintroductions.  My 5th round was the only one I did not complete 30 days.  My 6th round, I did a restart mid-way because I had rice...I've been sloppy my last two times, and have never done a good reintroduction.  I agree - I need to do the 30, then a good reintroduction.  I get caught up in the "this is so awesome, I'm going to eat W30 forever!"  and then decide I want something so I might as well make it a reintroduction, then all falls apart.  All or nothing mentality - that's me!!  Working very hard to change it this time around.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    A quick note to say all is going well - wrapping up Day 6, dinner is cooking now.  I don't like to miss more than one day of journaling, and I got up for an early breakfast and gym workout yesterday morning and never got on the computer.  Five mile hike with the dog today (gorgeous day!) and plans to hit the mat soon after dinner for a good restorative session.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to UrsulaB11 in Ursula's Whole 30 log.. late start   
    Dear wine, cheese, scale, sushi, pasta, pizza and dessert:
    I miss you all, I really do. But it's been 19 days without most of you (took me a while to quit you scale) and I walked through Whole Foods after an intense workout and barely twinged when I caught sight of most of you. I read labels - and noted that items I looked at were already turned to ingredients, which I imagined meant that another Whole30-er had come down the aisle ahead of me - and didn't buy anything non compliant. My clothes fit well this morning. Yes, I need to lose some fat, but removing the bloat and inflammation brought me down to a reasonable girth for my clothing. And I accomplished a ton of work and other errands today without dragging around as a result of poor food choices or the glass of wine that I likely would have had to celebrate my win today.
    So look. I am starting to realize that not only can I live without all of you, I can thrive.  I guess this is what forming a new habit looks like. 
    But don't worry, there will be times that I will want to hang out with all of you - especially the scale - I just want to be smart and meaningfully interact with you all on my terms, not yours.
    Love,
    Me.
    PS it is entirely possible that I will change my opinion on this immediately and without warning and tell you how much I miss and love you all.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Day 2 yesterday:  8/28/20
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    The day was fine & compliant.  It was our anniversary - married 21 years - and he was out of town for work.  Not the first time & won't be the last ... so, no big deal.
    @MadyVanilla ~ I'm sorry, I haven't been venturing out to explore other people's logs or any other discussions here.  Have you not completed a Whole 30 yet?  I think getting that full 30 days in at some point, when the time is right can really be a life-changing experience.  It was for me, anyway.  
    But I also think that this way of eating is just the best human diet that makes sense - and what I mean is, the things that are eliminated are simply not the best human choices.  Every thing that has been eliminated is gone for a reason.  So "lightening the load" on your body - even one day at a time - can certainly be beneficial, as well.  I'm glad you agree.    Too many people get stuck in an all or nothing mentality.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    @MadyVanilla thanks for the tea suggestion, I will be on the hunt for warm drinks that I can have.  I considered kombucha today, but it had an herbal tea base (low caffeine) so I didn’t buy it.  I’ve never really been a fan of herbal tea, but I’ve got an open mind to trying new brands and different flavours.  The sweet licorice flavour is likely from the herb called sweet cicely, something I’d never heard of before this spring.  It has a mild and sweet licorice taste.  I have some growing in my garden but it didn’t do well.  It currently has one lonely fern.  Which may be enough for one cup of tea...
    I’ll be watching your log for your 5k progress, cheering you on. I haven’t started yet.  My original plan was to lose 5 lbs first, and I’m down 1.5 so I hope to reach my goal in about 2-3 weeks and I’ll start the c25k then, or whenever I reach my weight loss goal.  I’m searching now for the best app to use, my Fitbit doesn’t link with the running app.  

    Interesting that you noted the difference between corn on the cob and corn chips.  Whole food vs processed food.  Corn sneaks into processed foods in lots of ways.  I will be avoiding all that, but I’m enjoying fresh corn now while it’s in season.  I’m not a W30 newbie, so I’m changing the rules a bit with wholesome intentions and I think that’s ok. At least it’s ok with me.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Day 12, Friday August 28, 2020
    I haven't posted in a few days (I tried on Day 10 but my computer gave out as I was submitting my reply) but I've stayed on Whole 30.  My meals have been same old, same old, and I'm ok with that.
    Cravings: this afternoon I was a bit rushed for lunch, and rather than prepare a meal what I really wanted was to grab a quick bowl of cereal.  I'm glad I didn't.  I made a salad and felt much better than if I'd had cereal with milk, which was my standard rushed lunch for years.
    With the cooler weather lately I've been walking a lot, and I went to the gym today too.  I've noticed that my appetite has increased a bit.  Yay - I get to eat even more food!  
    Today I cheated and weighed myself at the gym.  I debated weighing in, but decided to go for it because the InBody pod scans more than just weight.  I wanted to know if I had lost any fat weight.  As it turns out, I lost some fat and gained some muscle.  Not bad for just under 4 weeks.  My personal trainer has been telling me for years to stop thinking about losing weight, rather consider losing fat and gaining muscle.  I guess I'm a slow learner LOL!  I am pleased with the new numbers, and credit the wholesome food I'm eating on Whole30 plus my new intentional walking, aiming for 15,000+ steps most days.  I don't plan to weigh in again until after Day 30.   
    I'm finding it fairly easy to remain compliant.  I have a selection of meals that I like and can make quickly, and my family has been eating more Whole30 meals too, they just don't know it.  This evening H has gone out for errands and a fast food dinner, I had no trouble saying no that I didn't want to go along.  Occasionally I miss the junky stuff, but I get over it.   
    Sleep:  I've been sleeping better, my FitBit Sleep Score was 80+ (Good) for the past four nights.  It may be W30 or maybe the extra exercise, or a combo of both.  
    I had chocolate a couple of days ago!  It was in an Rx bar, oh it was a nice treat.  No sugar, just egg whites, fruit, nuts and chocolate wrapped up in 209 calories.  It was a special treat for myself after spending fifteen minutes walking up and down a toboggan hill in the city.  Totally planned.  I won't make these things a habit, but it did feel good to have a 'bar' that was tasty and good for me too.  
    Plan for the weekend: I am out of frozen meals, so make some W30 single serve meals to stash away in the freezer.  I also need to focus on Whole30 a bit more, and plan out some more meals/groceries.  I may not be able to withstand cravings if I don't have any compliant food on hand.
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    MadyVanilla reacted to laurasuzanne in Laura's Whole30 8/28/20   
    Day 2 finishing up. Something I never thought about until this Whole30 is to start on the weekend. We have such a mindset to start on Monday or the 1st of the month. I started on a Friday. I work M-F. Weekends I’m usually pretty busy (I love to do lists). I think I do better with eating during the day on weekends because I’m busy. NIghtime is different because socialization can be hard. But, today was awesome. Cleaning, dog baths, errands, laundry, I didn’t have time to think about be deprived or hungry. 
    My NSV’s for the day were socialization. Today was a family community day in my subdivision. I considered not going because I knew there would be food trucks and temptation. And why go if you couldn’t drink? But, I wanted to support my community and went anyway. I had fun. I saw some neighbors and met some more. And the food trucks weren’t tempting because I knew it was a no, so I didn’t even go near them.
    I also went to a bonfire at a friend’s people had food, there were s’mores, and alcohol. I brought a sparkling water and was perfectly content chatting with everyone. I’m often prone to going on a socializing hiatus during a Whole30 and I don’t want to be that way. I need to learn to have fun without alcohol.
    Overall it was a good day. I did have a 4th meal. Maybe I misread hunger cues or maybe I didn’t have enough fat in my meals. 
    I am going through the Whole30 Day by Day book. My last round I did as well and it is so helpful. I want to pay more attention to how I feel this time. I think I did sleep well last night and I’m sure it wasn’t because of the cleaned up diet yet. I think it was a mindset. I’m feeling good about prioritizing myself and my health. I want to sleep better, and improve my confidence. I felt like I stood different today, not that anyone knows what I’m doing, but I do and I’m worth this effort. I’m sure it will get harder, but right now today I am feeling good.
    Good night. :)
    Laura 
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    So I found this Italian antipasti blend in the international aisle and it just happened to be compliant, so I got it and it's delicious! Ingredients are Olive oil, hot chili peppers, carrots, eggplant, artichoke, peppers, dried tomatoes, mushrooms, salt and vinegar. But what I love most about it is the name, check it out: 

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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Sunday!
    I realised last night that I hadn't had vertigo. It's like hiccups, you don't really notice it stop, you just realise sometime later that it's not there anymore. So we shall see if that keeps up, but day 18 appears to be the magic day!
    Low-key day today, yesterday was huge for the activity, and I want to work on my cross-stitch. I'll try and get out to the elliptical for 30 minutes. 
    Food will be leftovers for lunch, I have duck and fennel salad. Also ended up having some leftover lamb because that duck leg was small! Plus olives.
    I really want to make sweet potato waffles (just SP and egg, I finally have a waffle maker!) but that might wait until I make burgers with waffle 'buns'... hmm. Tempting. To do that tonight, I'd have to duck out for rolls for the hubster... hmm.
     
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Saturday! It's a lovely day, I'm just waiting for the sun to dry off the grass so I can mow. I was going to clear out some of my non-producers in my veggie patch today, but when I looked yesterday, my late bloomers are coming through and I have baby cauliflowers and oodles of brussel sprouts! Yay!
    After mowing, I will take the dog for a big walk (might even sneak out past the 1 hour limit *GASP*. 
    Then I'm going to get the Weber going and spatchcock a chicken for dinner - might even do 2, so there's leftover, though the fridge is leftover central right now - brisket (3 meals, maybe 4), lamb steak (1 meal) chicken thigh (1 meal), tenderloin and root veg mash (1 meal)... hmm, maybe I don't need that second chook after all.
    It's such a lovely day, this is the first day I really wish I could have a drink, not even for the alcohol but it feels like that kind of day, so once all is taken care of, i'm going to make myself a pitcher of virgin Mojitos (no sugar) and sit in the yard in a lawn chair with a book.
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Ginsky in Gin's 6th Whole30 Log   
    Oh my goodness, three (two?) more days!  
    Your breakfast sounds like something I could eat every single day...
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from SchrodingersCat in Take Advantage   
    And things are starting to get easier, no cravings at all...today has been extremely busy with work.  I typically journal in the morning, but I'm just getting a chance to do it now in the late afternoon (instead of going for a walk!) Yesterday was compliant, I just didn't get to go for a bike ride because of work.  It's ramp-up week at work, next week will be easier.  
    Day 4
    Mood-7, Energy-7, Pain-1
    M1-leftover ground beef and zoodles
    M2-onion and mushrooms sauteed in ghee with compliant ham on cassava tortillas
    M3-I don't even know. I'm still full and satisfied from lunch.  Let's go with chicken tenders in a compliant sauce with cauliflower rice.  And spinach, to add some greens.  
    I was planning to take the dog on a long walk, that might still happen.  Yoga, of course.  I'm going to breakfast with family in the morning, then to the gym afterward, so that should help me accomplish my goals for the week.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    And things are starting to get easier, no cravings at all...today has been extremely busy with work.  I typically journal in the morning, but I'm just getting a chance to do it now in the late afternoon (instead of going for a walk!) Yesterday was compliant, I just didn't get to go for a bike ride because of work.  It's ramp-up week at work, next week will be easier.  
    Day 4
    Mood-7, Energy-7, Pain-1
    M1-leftover ground beef and zoodles
    M2-onion and mushrooms sauteed in ghee with compliant ham on cassava tortillas
    M3-I don't even know. I'm still full and satisfied from lunch.  Let's go with chicken tenders in a compliant sauce with cauliflower rice.  And spinach, to add some greens.  
    I was planning to take the dog on a long walk, that might still happen.  Yoga, of course.  I'm going to breakfast with family in the morning, then to the gym afterward, so that should help me accomplish my goals for the week.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to Mikaliki in Starting August 5th- need this to feel happier   
    Starting day 11! Happy with the amount of walking I did yesterday. I didn't eat the potatoes I planned to last night, got busy, and then had a pack of salted cashews (snack-pack from kirkland) to quell the hunger. 
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    For dinner I marinated some chicken thighs in Coconut Aminos, a couple of pureed dates, garlic, ginger, smoked paprika, onion flakes, and ground lemon zest.
    Will serve with seasoned cauli rice and a cabbage/carrot/fennel slaw in raspberry vinaigrette.
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    Day 2 down, gym, 8,000 steps, yoga, c25k goals met - I walked in place in front of the tv to get my last 500 steps, but it got done.  
    Day 3
    Mood-8, Energy-8, Pain-3/4.  My entire left side is one big ache-shoulder to knee.  I probably still have too much inflammation from my poor diet choices of the last few weeks to get away with running (even the small amount I'm currently doing).  I did sleep well, though, with the help of anti-inflammatory meds.  
    M1-Leftover Caesar salad with 3 strips of compliant bacon
    M2-Tacos with cassava flour soft shells
    M3-Broccoli and zucchini with spicy mayo and ground beef
    Bike ride today, long yoga session, and I need groceries!  I ordered a Butcher Box yesterday, my first one, so I'm looking forward to that later this week.  
    I doubt I'll have too many new NSVs, as I don't think I lost many of the ones I had acquired earlier this summer.  The ones I lost centered around mood, energy, and body achiness (though not as bad as it was in the spring.) My mood has definitely improved since Tuesday morning, I love the "I can do this" feeling I'm currently experiencing.  This fluctuates so much for me, but while I've had some really tough days over the last month or so, I've generally been able to work myself out of the wallowing by putting my go-to behaviors in place (number 1 = journaling).  This, by far, is my biggest NSV.  I'm not getting stuck in the rock-bottom quicksand, I DO have control, there ARE easy, enjoyable, small things I can do to lift myself back up.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Yogi brand has an Egyptian Licorice tea that is caffeine-free and delicious.  It has a sweetness to it that I can't access unless my diet is free of sugars (if that makes sense).  Apple cider sounds yummy, too.  I;m looking forward to fall - these hot, muggy days are endless...
    I signed up/paid for a virtual 5K in October - so I MUST train!  I don't mind the first few weeks 60 -90 secs of running at a time on the c25k.  I'm glad you are doing it to!  
    The corn...there is such a difference between corn chips and locally-sourced in-season corn-on-the-cob.  It's surprising that corn wouldn't fall into the same category as potatoes.  I'm pretty sure I could come up with a compliant Mexican street corn dish!   
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    TRUTH!  
    Reading through your last posts, it sounds like you've made food choices that have made sense with life.  As opposed to binging on something without logical thought.  Be kind to yourself, return to W30 as you can.  Sending positive thoughts that things go well with your son.  
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    MadyVanilla got a reaction from Contessa in Take Advantage   
    I just re-read this and feel like I need to be able to look back on it again as needed in the coming days.  
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    MadyVanilla reacted to SchrodingersCat in Take Advantage   
    You're so active!! That's awesome.