ShadowInTheKitchen

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    ShadowInTheKitchen got a reaction from Jennifer Jensen in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    So I'm not the only one who does this?  
    Congratulations on those NSV's.
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Day 1:  9/25/20
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to LadyM in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Day 21
    Even though FitBit only gave me a "Fair" score for my sleep last night, I feel especially good about it. Was mindful about screens late in the day, went for a walk after dinner and then no tv after, got into bed with a real book well before 9, and slept through the night until my alarm went off at 5. I have successfully returned to my preferred monastic life schedule. Which is only possible because I live alone and theaters are closed for the moment. Otherwise I'm out late reviewing shows and on my Dude's bartending schedule. It's healthier this way. But not nearly the same kind of fun. Le sigh.
    Today begins phase two of this W30 which lasts until Oct. 18 when phase three kicks in. I'm staying curious and open to the process, grateful to have guidance from my doc; I'm also doing my best to not get attached to the outcome and stay present to the process.
    My favorite NSV at the moment that I haven't mentioned is I'm back to a regular, daily meditation practice. Years ago I committed to a 30-day meditation challenge, and it transformed everything. It's impossible to describe and also impossible to understand why I ever fall off the wagon because meditation makes everything better. It's the mental and emotional balance and stability that comes from W30 in overdrive. And I need it like a plant needs water and sunlight.
    So, I'm giving it to myself. And this is a reminder that it's as crucial a component to this human experiment as food, sleep, and exercise. 
    M1: eggs, bacon, potatoes, sweet potato toast with avocado
    M2: pulled pork on patacones with guac and lime
    M3: bbq pork on sweet potato with kraut
    Planning for a walk in the woods and either barre or yoga plus some yoga nidra today. I have a long to-do list, but it all seems more manageable the more time and space I make to tend to myself. Grateful for an early morning to create the foundation that supports it all.
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Ok, ok, so that whole "back to compliant for the week" lasted as long as it took us to walk to the servo because the hubster needed an ice cream and they have B&Js Pint Slices. But the important thing is I bought a slice, and not the tub. And it was delicious.
    Def back to compliant now.
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    I decided to change my avatar tonight, in honor of Toby.  He's the toad who has spent so much time with me this summer.
    One morning, I came outside to find Toby sitting backwards in the cab of the dump truck.
    "Do you ever just feel all turned around?" was my immediate thought.  I shared it with my friend, and we had a good laugh.
    But Toby had a plan.  He was working toward a goal.
    You see ~ I had come outside on a previous morning to find him sitting on top of the cab of the dump truck.
    And I came out on a later morning (after this avatar pic) to find him fully immersed in the water in the bed of the dump truck.  ...Ah... he'd made it.  And he has made it several times since.
    This is the dogs' drinking water.  Yes, we use a plastic dump truck as our dogs' outside drinking bowl.  How did this happen?  Well, you see ~ life is busy, and when we got our first dog - there was the dump truck, right there by the outside spigot.  We filled it up with water for him to drink ... and it has been the dog bowl, for five years now.
    Five years.
    I had friends here five years ago, who were part of my journey when we first brought Rocket into our family.  My sleep was disrupted for the first time in years.  I struggled with cravings, and increased caffeine consumption, and trying to figure out a new normal.
    That's life.  That's real.  ...And that's okay.
    I was thinking tonight about how much has changed just since I started this journal.  I feel like a different person.  
    That's because I am a different person.  That's life.  That's real.  ...And that's good.
    We should always be moving forward.  We should always be working toward a goal.  
    We may look like Toby in my avatar sometimes - and that's okay, too.  Toby sat there and thought about it for awhile ... but he reached his destination.
    I wish the same for each of you.
     
     
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to Focusedwave in Shawna's First Whole 30   
    R1D7
    Today mark's the end of week one!! Already!!! I need to work on a plan for next week. I am loving looking at recipes. I need to get more fiber in to help my digestion. Ever since my gastric bypass I have had trouble being regular. I had been taking a fiber supplement powder prior to whole30, but it is wheat dextrin, so I need something else. I did find a tea that is all natural and compliant that seems to be helping and the healthy fruits and veggies are helping too. 
    Being that I work 80 to 100 hours a week I dont know if I will notice tiger blood. I work a lot and on my days off I am completely exhausted. I am no spring chicken either. 47. But I have a lot of drive and I know that giving my body good healthy foods will only be that much better for me.
    I ordered some mud water, cant wait to try that! Went from having 4 large dunkin donuts iced coffees full of sugar and dairy to now drinking black half caff, made at home but ready to cut my caffeine even more.
    My mood swings weren't as bad yesterday. One day at a time I can do hard things! 
    Almost off of nicotine as well. A month ago I gave up cigs and only vape now. Stepped down one nicotine level a few days ago. 
    I used to neglect my health so much. I was an alcoholic who didnt care if I died, now I am sober almost 6 years and I want to live!!!
    I love myself now and that is a beautiful beautiful thing!!
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    ShadowInTheKitchen got a reaction from decker_bear in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    You don't need to refrigerate it if you eat it fairly quickly (within two weeks) if you use salted butter.  If you use unsalted butter I suggest keeping it in the fridge.
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to laurasuzanne in Laura's Whole30 8/28/20   
    This is the seasoning with the slight change I think makes it better.
    Copycat Popeye's Blackened Chicken Seasoning
    2tsp Fine Sea Salt
    1tsp Smoked Paprika
    1tsp Paprika
    1tsp Cayenne Pepper
    2tsp Chili Powder
    2tsp Garlic Powder
    2tsp Black Pepper
    Super simple. I just mixed it together and put it in a jar. I think the recipe talked like the entire slug for 3 lbs chicken tenders. Toss them in it and then pan fry them in some oil. I didn't go that heavy. I generously sprinkled it on each side of the tenders, pan fried them for 1 minute on each side, then baked at 350 for 25 minutes. They were/are (still have leftovers) delicious. Next time I do this (which will be as soon as I'm out because I'm hooked) I'm going to use a meat tenderizer/hammer to smash them thin before seasoning and pan frying. For that I will likely cook them for less time in the oven and it would likely take more rounds in the oven because they'll take up more surface area on the sheetpan. As I perfect this recipe I intend to make up the seasoning in jars to give away at Christmas. That has been my new fave Christmas present, to share seasonings I have grown to love.
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to Focusedwave in Shawna's First Whole 30   
    It is absolutely amazing!!! I didnt think I would see such changes in my attitude in 4 days, but I definitely have! 
    I run a Pizza shop with my husband and I am usually major stressed and on edge there, and the past 3 days I have been much more chill
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to Focusedwave in Shawna's First Whole 30   
    R1D3
    Feeling so good! My bloating is so much better but I feel like my digestion is still wacky, but it is only day 3 so I get it. 
    After I gave up sugar I ate a lot of corn tortilla chicken tacos with cheese. I love tacos, so easy and filling. I am suspicious of the corn and cheese being a sensitivity for me though. Tonight I am having tacos in lettuce cups, no cheese, instead I am using guacamole and salsa YUMMY!! I also roasted a huge tray of veggies and they are very tasty. Also made coconut lime rice from Real Plans. I am loving all this whole30 food.
    I'd like to share a little story with you about something that happened to me this morning. 
    Each night I set up my coffee so that it will automatically brew while I am in the shower in the morning. 
    After getting ready I came into the kitchen, which was dark and I step in a puddle. I turn on the light and the floor is wet, the counters are wet and then I realize....I never put the coffee pot in the machine! An entire pot of decaf....everywhere!
    I laughed, I thought to myself "No use in crying over spilled coffee" and I chuckled. As I was cleaning it up I thanked The Universe for this lesson in patience. Perhaps this happened to stall me so that I wouldn't get in a car accident, perhaps this or that. Who knows. The Universe works in mysterious ways and today I am happy to say that it gave me a laugh rather than a cry!! 
    Try to find some humor today in the lessons that life gives you. When you get upset, it only causes twice the suffering. 
    NSV??? More patience, less reactivity...I'll take it!!!
     
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    You know what gets me through? In the 90s/early 00s, I was a little party animal/clubber and I now have a playlist of all the songs I used to go off at the club to  Reliving my youth!!
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    ShadowInTheKitchen got a reaction from LadyM in Laura's Whole30 8/28/20   
    Ooooh, this sounds good, could you post the link?
    Sleep is a big problem for me too, or more specifically staying asleep.  I have a vivid memory from my first Whole 30, I woke in the morning after a full night's sleep, my eyes opened in the morning and I was awake! Not groggy, just fully awake and ready to get out of bed right away.  What a wonderful feeling that was.  I haven't been able to recreate it since, and that was a year ago.  But it is a goal for me, as it is for you.  I know it's doable, I just need to figure out the right combination again.  I don't think the insomnia is caused entirely by poor eating habits, but I do think that having wholesome eating habits is a part of the solution. I have been getting out of bed at a decent time, before 7am most mornings as long as insomnia doesn't strike for hours in the night, and that has been a goal that I set for myself while on Whole30 and attained entirely through healthy eating and ramping up my exercise habits.  You're over the halfway hump and coming soon into the home stretch.  Keep doing what you're doing, eating well and exercising lots.  Maybe switch to an old fashioned book rather than your phone before bed.  You've noticed an improvement in the acne, give your body time to work through these major changes and the sleep will improve.  
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    ShadowInTheKitchen got a reaction from LadyM in Shawna's First Whole 30   
    I agree with you, why is sugar is so many foods?  My grump is with pasta sauce.  Really?  Soup broth is another one that irks me.  I have yet to find a compliant soup broth in grocery stores near me.  I make my own but it ticks me off that I can't buy one without sugar in it. 
    Welcome to the forum, you're going to feel GRReat! 
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to LadyM in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    This *can* happen on the stovetop, but I've been making my ghee with a foolproof crockpot method I love. Just dump the butter into a crockpot set to low and leave it overnight with no lid. In the morning, voila! It's ready to strain through a cheesecloth into jars. I also recommend using unsalted grass fed butter. I've never bought ghee, always have jars of it on hand. It's not that big of a deal. I swear!
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to decker_bear in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    No way!! I will have to try that. I was always reluctant because I thought it was like making brown butter and there was a 2 second window between done and burned. I'm totally trying this, that would make my life sooooo much easier! Thank you! 
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    ShadowInTheKitchen got a reaction from LadyM in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Yes, this.  It's part of the Whole30 training, and can be discerned through journaling for me.  I do think that 3 meals a day will be best for me going forward indefinitely, but keeping them appropriately sized.  I've also learned to have post work-out snacks that are smaller when I need them, not a 4th meal.  
    LOL.  You are one of us.  Superwomen.  
     
    I'm happy to report that I threw away the rest of the junk food.  Note to Future Shadow - it was easy to do and I feel empowered now.  I've got this.  
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    ShadowInTheKitchen got a reaction from decker_bear in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    Have you tried making it yourself?  It's super easy, just dump a pound of salted butter into a saucepan and let it simmer for about 20 minutes.  Cover the pot with a wire screen if you have one.  I don't bother skimming much off the top anymore, just let the milk solids drop to the bottom of the pot to brown.  Do not stir during the process.  When it's done, leave it until it's warm to touch not hot, then strain it through a few layers of cheesecloth into a glass jar.  It's so good, and I love the flavour of the home made burnt-ish butter better than the store-bought super mild flavour.  
    Congrats on those NSV's!
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to LadyM in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Day 14
    Two weeks, y'all!!
    Observations:
    The sugar dragon has not been plaguing me as it has in past W30s. I'm hardly eating fruit, even, and it's not that big of a deal. I have sweets cravings at the end of meals, but this is more habit than need, and I'm not indulging it--not even with fruit. This is a MAJOR shift for me and a major win as my mother died in her 60s of kidney failure related to diabetes and though my glucose numbers are generally good at this stage, prediabetes is something I need to actively resist with these genes. One of the things that sparked this W30 was an off-handed convo I had with my dude that went something like this:
    "You know I really do eat healthy in general. Except for sweets. Just like my Mom, and diabetes killed her," I said.
    "Hmmm. Seems like there's a lesson in there somewhere," he said, tongue in cheek.
    Which leads me to another observation: I needed the hard rules of the W30 to say no to the kind of foods Dude and I tend to eat together. When we first started dating, I did pretty OK off roading on dates in a reasonable way and then eating cleaner on my own time. But time and comfort and quarantine life threw that out the window and, as is my unfortunate way, I bend to his ways easier than he does to mine, and I ate more like a bachelor than I care to admit. I had actually lost 10 pounds at the start of the pandemic in preparation for a spring break cruise that never happened. As time wore on and uncertainty and depression took their toll, I pretty much threw all my good habits and sense out the window and ate all the garbage, felt like garbage, stopped exercising and spending time in nature, and at the same time my thyroid levels went shockingly low, as they're wont to do when I'm not on my A-game. And, of course, the weight crept back on and then some, though I haven't stepped on the scale in many moons.
    Anyway, the point is, I told Dude I'm doing a W30, and while he thinks it's insanely punishing and keeps forgetting and offering me bites of potato chips and the like, ultimately he respects my choice and reasons for doing it. And we don't live together, so it's not really an issue except when we spend a weekend together. I also, of course, think a W30 would be the best possible thing in the world for him and hope to lead by example, but I'm keeping the focus on me and my journey. There's definitely a life lesson in there somewhere.
    This week starts a new school year, and yesterday I had ALL THE ENERGY and DID ALL THE THINGS to prepare. I don't actually begin teaching until tomorrow, so it's nice that I have a day to myself. Telemeetings with my therapist and doc are on the agenda for later this afternoon, and I'm eager to continue deepening the self care.
    Last night I awoke at 2:30 to pee and had a terrible time getting back to sleep, so I ended up snoozing a couple hours past my alarm and am not, so far, having the kind of energizer bunny day that yesterday was. But that's OK. I'm rolling with it. And I do have the time and space to fit in my morning routine albeit at a later hour. It's all good. And I do hope to conquer the racing mind that kept me awake in the wee hours with exercise and regular meditation. The house hunt and relationship problems and work anxiety and grandmother with COVID aren't going to change because they're swirling through my mind as negative thoughts. Working on cultivating the calm inside regardless of what's going on outside. W30 is helping. And it ain't over yet.
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Ended up with Italian herbs BBQ chicken thighs, BBQ fennel and eggplant with Kalamata tapanade, and duck fat roasted sweet potato.
    I love my Weber so much.
    Had to duck out and get some wine for hubster and thought really hard about some for me. Especially because I've taken tomorrow off work. But I really thought about it, and now I'd just wake up in the middle of the night with anxiety, and it would make me feel crappy tomorrow and waste my day off, so I didn't. And I'm glad I didn't. 
    Day off tomorrow, I'm going to go for a long walk in the sun, do some sewing, and relax. 
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to LadyM in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    So glad the spiral is behind you for the moment. I've been there, and it can feel so desperate.
    I'm with @decker_bear: Whole 30 is here for you when it's useful. Sounds like you're really clear about what you need right now and that's great!
    FWIW, intuitive eating doesn't work for me when I'm in a spiral. I do think there are physiological components, at least for me, that need to be dealt with in conjunction with the psychological and emotional pieces to the puzzle. That was one of the most valuable takeaways for me in all my rounds of W30. Sugar in conjunction with flour and/or dairy is like poison to me when I'm undernourished. That's just a fact I've learned to accept, which means I accept the consequences if I choose to imbibe. It's much easier to off road just the once with such things if it's bookended with solid W30-style template nutrition for at least a few days.
    Anyway, that's my experience, and it may not be yours. We all must learn to ride our own bikes, and often again and again, because life keeps changing and throwing unimaginable stuff at us. That's why I'm back after YEARS. . . . BIG LOVE to you on your journey wherever and however it takes you!
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    ShadowInTheKitchen got a reaction from LadyM in Take Advantage   
    This is your progression into becoming who you need to be.  I love what you shared above.  All of it.  I wish you well.  
    I'm sending you a big virtual birthday hug for your upcoming 50th... and I hope you have a very happy birthday week!
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    ShadowInTheKitchen got a reaction from LadyM in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Thanks @decker_bear.  I ate it.  First the ice cream.  Then today I used up most of the leftover cream cheese to make squares, which I haven't had in ages.  Then I ate a row of squares.  BUT...
    I weighed in at the gym on Friday and my numbers are better than they were a week ago, last night I began training for a 5k, and my meals lately have been sooo good with special thanks to Whole30 training/practice.  I am walking lots and working out regularly.  Last week's spiral is over, I'm done eating the squares and am making a healthy supper for myself tonight.  Good old shepherd's pie with sweet potato and rhutabaga topping, my favourite comfort food.  So I'm done wallowing for now and I feel good physically.  I'm giving W30 a mini break because I want to eat some off-plan foods.  It's a nagging worry for me that by eliminating entire food groups for too long I will also not be getting enough nutrients, and autumn is THE BEST TIME to enjoy homemade baked beans.   I also want to focus on some other stuff right now, and W30 just takes too much mental energy sometimes.  That's not to say I won't be back, I just don't know when I'll be ready to devote another 30 days to this. Maybe after Thanksgiving, which for us here in Canada is on October 12 this year, or maybe sooner if I fall off the rails again and can't find my balance without help from the structure of the program.  
    I plan to check in regularly with posts about my habits, or lack of and the perspective is invaluable when I read through my old logs. It also helps to know I'm not alone in this.  
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Oh, the other thing this morning - I did NOT let my "well, you ate a bunch of crap and have failed miserably" mindset make me weigh. I still do not want to know.
    Lunch was a baby spinach, rocket, sauteed brocconini and roasted pumpkin salad with boiled eggs (there were 3 but I could only eat 2) with dukkah, and raspberry vinaigrette. Was yum. Now to stay on track for the rest of the day.
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    BLERGH!!!
    In true Schrode-style yesterday was a complete fest. Hubster and I, after a couple days of fighting and ventilating built up frustrations, had finally made up and were spending a day binge watching shows on the couch, and one had a box of chocolates, so we decided we needed one. So that was great decision 1. Then I decided wine went well with chocolate, that was great decision 2. Then we (I) decided that seeing as the day was already wine and chocolate and I was going to get back on track today, then we would get takeaway because it had been so long. So queue pizza, great decision 3.
    Woke up at 3am couldn't get back to sleep, sour stomach, gastric distress and a headache, brain fog and generally feeling BLERGH. I'd say lesson learned, but we all know that's a lie. But it was good to have the slack off day with hubster, I think we needed it.
    So back on track for me. Not committing to another 30, my b'day is coming up, but I'm definitely going to the Food Freedom idea of eating W30 unless I consciously decide I'm not going to, and will actually make those conscious decisions instead of just stuffing my face.
    Lunch:  I have some fish in the freezer, might defrost a piece of that and have it with a rocket and baby spinach salad, couple of boiled eggs
    Dinner: Finally having the roast pork that should have been Saturday's dinner with roasted veg.
     
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    ShadowInTheKitchen reacted to decker_bear in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    @ShadowInTheKitchen you have to do what is right for you! The W30 community is always here for you!