They weren’t kidding about “Kill All the Things!!!!” I was in a BAD mood today. I did not want to deal with anyone (and when you are an elementary teacher you don’t really get to “have a bad day”). It was a challenge.
I also felt ‘empty’ today. Not sure what other word to use to describe the feeling. I am thinking that this may be my battling feeling that I don’t allow myself to feel but rather buffer with food/alcohol. I definitely felt it today. I tried to notice it and sit with it for awhile. But I also got distracted today and ate some dried mango that I maybe didn’t need to have but because I felt so rushed and unable to find anything suitable to eat before rushing out to another event after a full day of work, I figured it was better than nothing. Came home and ate leftovers and am now ready to turn it in for the night.
For the first time since starting whole 30 on Sunday, I had doubts enter my mind today. Thinking I couldn’t do this, I’ll never make it. I really don’t want to give up on myself so I am not throwing in the towel yet.
I am going to finish what I started.
Hang in there everyone!