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  1. YET I finished my second round of Whole30 on Friday -- it really should have ended this Thursday after I reintroduced gluten but I took an impromptu road trip and it was too hard to say no to my cousin's homemade pasta, bread, cocktails, etc., especially since I did no preparation besides bring a few emergency bars. I learned a lot from the experience and held it together okay until I got back today, when I went on an eating spree at my parent's house (where I got dropped off) and on my way back to my apartment. I just finished reading Food Freedom Forever, have read the 30-Day Guide, and recently started It Starts With Food. I get the science, psychology, and everything behind it all and read everything carefully, but get so nervous consuming things that are non-compliant that I decided to starting at least a Whole7 and maybe extend it when I got back (starting tomorrow) so I think I just kind of went nuts in anticipation and now I feel horrible. A few takeaways: Impromptu trips are hard during a reset/reintro -- I need to better prepare and communicate, and be more comfortable saying no and accommodating what I can eat I can't "go crazy" once I stop my reset/reintroduction, but I also can't guilt trip myself every time I eat something "off-plan" afterwards either I can't just keep going back to a reset after a few days/little bit (there was less than month between my first and second Whol30) and "go crazy" because I know that I'm about to reset again I need to find a dietician/health care provider that is supportive of my healthy lifestyle goals (I feel like my current one is very anti-diet culture and wary of any type of elimination thing like this, and I'm only proving her right) I need to learn how to trust myself around food/drink so that I'm not feeling like I'll go off the rails without Whole30 I have to stop obsessing over my weight (I lost 22 pounds my first Whole 30 and gained about 8 eight pounds in a month before I started my second, when I lost another 12 pounds -- too scared to check now after just a few days); I've lost over 50 pounds on my weight loss journey since about 2018 and hate fluctuating so much I'm basically just annoyed that I've done all of this reading and talking about it, invested in more expensive healthy foods, get into a healthy eating/exercise routine, and then totally blow it up. It's kind of what I do to everything -- relationships, work, etc. -- but I'm just so mentally fatigued and it's hard to trouble-shoot sometimes
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    My Dinner at Zoe's

    Nooooooooooooo, thanks for the info!
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    Bipolar/Borderline

    If I knew how to perform a search on this forum I would, but I thought a new thread on this topic couldn't hurt either. I've been diagnosed with Bipolar (Type I) since I was a teenager scattered with some borderline personality disorder instead/in addition, have been (involuntarily) hospitalized a few times -- luckily, it's been years -- etc. I know it's controversial, but I "quit" meds in 2018 but try to work more closely with my doctor instead and (very) recently started therapy again, which is inconsistent. Whole30 has helped me a LOT to manage symptoms, but lately things have spiraled. I can't sleep (it's past midnight right now) and my mood has been fluctuating more; I used to brag that I "don't fight with people on Whole30," which pretty much was the case until tonight. I know Whole30 can't fix EVERYTHING, especially diagnoses as grand as mine (if accurate), but I was wondering if anyone might be struggling with similar issues/symptoms and might have any recommendations - beyond meds and professional help, which I'm managing. I'd like to get to a point where I don't feel like I need anything: a person, a dietary/lifestyle change, a substance, medication, etc. to feel stable but unfortunately I'm super reliant and have been grasping onto Whole30 for dear life and am feel myself drifting into a very strong current. (This is heavier and more desperate than I intended, I'm actually not doing that bad. For context, I'm technically on Day 26 of my #Whole30AtHome and my last one ended early March.)
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    Bipolar/Borderline

    @kirbz Thank you so much for your kind reply - it means a lot. I read your message scarfing down an Rx bar a few days ago and it really cheered me up just knowing someone read and cared. It's been a crazy roller coaster since I've posted but I have stayed true to Whole30 and I'm proud to be on Day 29! I'm still reading about reintroduction in Food Freedom and trying to learn from my erratic mood swings (last night was an all time low, my poor boyfriend...) to try to avoid them/soften their blow in the future. Thanks so much again
  5. I'm all over this forum tonight, and I'm embarrassed to admit... but I still want cheese fries. I'm reading my way through Food Freedom right now and am going pretty strong on my second Whole30 (officially Day 26 with the #Whole30AtHome) -- my first Whole30 ended early March -- and despite all of Melissa's sage wisdom, I can't stop craving cheese fries. After my first Whole30 ended, I was pretty elated that I had lost 22 pounds but also knew that I probably under-ate (I'd rather not eat than not eat i.e. cheese fries). While I fluctuated after a little, and tried to restart with a few mini-Whole5s and scattered days of Whole30s in between, I don't think I ever gained more than 6-7 pounds before I started again April 13 -- over a whole month later, but still- pretty quick weight gain! Anyway, I know I shouldn't and would LOVE to get to the point that I don't, but I keep looking at pictures of food (like cheese fries) online, Instagram, etc. and can't wait to finally indulge a little. I know I can't go back to my old ways and was way more moderate coming off my last one, but I wish that I could get to the point where I'm just good walking away from and not waiting for the moment I can have it. I have found that I get extra anxious/restless/crave-y at night and try to eat an apple with some nuts instead but it is so bad lately!
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    Bacon

    I've tried a few different sugar free, compliant bacon brands but end up just deferring to Applegate now -- it's usually a little pricier, but always delicious; the other ones usually don't even look good in the packaging. I was never a "bacon" person but find myself eating a lot more bacon and hotdogs (also sugar-free, compliant... Applegate) way more on Whole30, which is weird. I guess they are satiating/tasty/convenient?
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    My Dinner at Zoe's

    Hm, they used to have a dedicated Whole30 menu that you can't access now on their site (https://zoeskitchen.com/livemed) -- I heard that it was being updated by one of the managers from my local store, but I would be really sad if the chicken was actually marinated with dairy (beyond ghee) because I've had lots of kabob platters with chicken, salmon, and shrimp -- I don't like cauliflower rice, so I've never ordered it, but I've gotten both their grilled and cold potato salads, grilled veggies, and Greek salad without cheese or pita and a few of the sauces that used to be listed. I will be more careful when I order to clarify no butter/dairy/sugar but usually when I asked once I get sick of going through the whole run down every time... thanks for the post!
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    My best shepherd's pie yet!

    Pretty proud of this one I've made this recipe many times but tonight's was my favorite. I used a combination of ground beef & sausage for this one and always skip the green beans, otherwise it's pretty true to the recipe! http://www.vodkaandbiscuits.com/2017/01/09/shepherds-pie-whole30/
  9. Hey! My name is Michelle and I started my second Whole30 with the "Worldwide Whole30 At Home" on April 13 -- it's day 6, and so far so good! I live in Northern Virginia, so I feel like I don't have it as tough as some communities where sustaining a Whole30 diet might be more difficult. My first Whole30 ended March 5 and I did two "Whole5"s since then, while trying to eat Whole30 periodically... I have to say, my "food freedom" was not ideal (I'm thinking of getting the book). I didn't gain that much weight overall but it fluctuated and I felt pretty terrible, which I think might be psychosomatic. I'm hoping to get to a point where I don't need to rely on anything/anyone, like Whole30, to think I need in order to feel okay, but this is working for me right now! I haven't gone to the grocery story in a week and am used to shopping more frequently, especially on Whole30... this will be a challenge but I think will be doable. My biggest obstacle is my will power, and I've found myself looking at pictures of food I can't eat but am craving... I feel like I should stop this, but I usually don't cave in - it's just torturous. Anyway, I am excited to embark on this journey again and would love to hear from others, especially who may be experiencing similar things or have any adivce. Thanks for reading
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    Whole30 Round 2 in NoVa (Started April 13)

    So great to connect! Your forum strategy is a lot better than mine, which has been looking at foods I can't eat right now online/Instagram -- I'm hoping to kick this soon, I don't cave in it's just tempting! I read the info on smoothies from another post I made on the "Can I have..." thread; I may try to cut back, but I have only made a few a week with a banana, unsweetened vanilla almond milk, unsweetened coconut cream, and ice, so I feel like mine aren't as sugary as other smoothies with more/different kinds of fruit. Sometimes I forget these technical parts of the book and could utilize Google more, which I mostly use when I'm shopping to see what's recommended at the store I'm going to or if I can have certain ingredients (so many names to remember!). I also got the Food Freedom audio book (so not an audiobook person!) and may try it on my bike ride soon. Happy halfway
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    Compliant smoothies & unsweetened apple sauce

    Thanks, this is helpful! I feel like the smoothies I've been making aren't super sugary (like I said, just a banana, some almond milk, a little coconut cream, and ice) and I try to opt for an apple with nuts instead of apple sauce. I've also been trying to incorporate them with meals more than just as stand alones... things have been a little trickier this time with less grocery shopping so I'm discovering these new convenient ways to stay satiated, but may try some alternatives instead. Thanks again!
  12. I read Whole 30: The 30 Day Guide to Total Health and Food Freedom but can't remember if smoothies and apple sauce are okay; I know the ingredients are (for the ones I've been making/eating), but I forget if this is like a "no pancake" rule where even if they're compliant it's discouraged. In my smoothies I've been putting a banana, unsweetened almond milk, unsweetened coconut cream, and ice, and I've been eating the Mott's unsweetened (no sugar added) apple sauce with walnuts - both as snacks, a few times a week each. I've been more reliant on staples like these on this 2nd W30 round for me, especially with going to the grocery store less -- just looking for confirmation if they're okay or not. Thanks!
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    Whole30 Round 2 in NoVa (Started April 13)

    Thanks for your reply! It's always nice to get responses to these things When was your first one? I was surprised that I think Melissa said this was her first one in the last five years... I've been curious how many times people do it, I know it's totally subjective but I was kinda thinking a few times a year for me. I have been watching her Instagram live videos late, I'm new back on social media and can't figure out how to actually watch them "live" lol. I went to the grocery store a lot too my first time! I've been reliant on certain staples, like unsweetened apple sauce with walnuts, banana smoothies with unsweetened almond milk and coconut cream, Applegate bacon, Adel's chicken apple sausage, etc. I'm pretty sure they're all W30-friendly (the ingredients are) but sometimes I get confused with the technicalities, like are smoothies okay? Anyway, freezer items are a good idea - I need to get used to that. I probably will read Food Freedom forever before this ends, I end up reverting back to my cheese-fries loving/fast food cravings even if they're smaller portions/less frequent. Happy day 13 to you, too!
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    Alexia Oven Fries

    Thank you, I thought so! They're not french fries, they're baked wedges like ones you can make yourself... I made some homemade yesterday but sometimes these are more convenient, they're like the Walmart frozen meals to me -- not ideal but convenient/cheap when I can't/am not in the mood to make everything from scratch!
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    Alexia Oven Fries

    I know some other flavors are not compliant, and I am almost afraid to ask because they've been a bit of a lifesaver for my W30, but... are the Alexia Oven Fries with Olive Oil, Rosemary, & Garlic compliant? I know that it's better to just eat "whole foods" and make them myself, which I often do, but sometimes it is more convenient to pop them in the oven for 20 minutes. I don't see any issues with the ingredients (listed below), but it would be great for confirmation since I can't figure it out -- usually I can Google "[name of food] Whole30" and find out. If they are, I feel like they are hidden gems. Website: https://www.alexiafoods.com/chef-inspired/oven-fries-olive-oil-rosemary-and-garlic Ingredients Russet Potatoes, Olive Oil, Sunflower Oil and/or Canola Oil and/or Safflower Oil, Sea Salt, Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Dextrose, Garlic Powder Rosemary, Black Pepper, Marjoram, Thyme, Natural Rosemary Flavor.
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    Alexia Oven Fries

    Wait, I think I got the ingredients listed wrong from another website... see photo attached.
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    Alexia Oven Fries

    Noooooo, thank you! I need to familiarize myself with more of these terms.
  18. Hey, I posted to the "Troubleshooting" on my Day 28 and found it helpful... thought I'd take my chances here too. So I decided on the "fast track" reintro, which mine maps out to 15 days. I'm on day 5 and reintroduced alcohol day 1 and legumes yesterday. For alcohol, I had two strawberry margaritas and asked the bartender for little to no added sugar, and he was even afraid it was too tart... it was great and hit me hard, although my boyfriend probably drank about half. The next day, I was 5 pounds over my Day 31. I amounted it to bloating and vowed to basically never drink again. Yesterday I followed the book to a T: peanut butter with apples in the morning, miso soup & soy sauce on sashimi for lunch, and some black beans for dinner. I also made a chocolate mouse with some leftover coconut cream I probably shouldn't have, got "sugar free" vanilla in my unsweetened almond milk cappuccino, and an avocado salad with sesame dressing I'm not sure was compliant either.... during the first 30 days I was way stricter, but reintroduction has increased my appetite and now I feel awful. I'm craving a croissant really badly this morning and am frustrated this will never end and I can never sustain my weight loss. I lost 22 lbs in 30 days (probably undereating) and ended up 8 lbs away from my goal weight, it was the lowest I've weighed in years. Now I'm 5-6 pounds up day 5 and closer to what I've weighed before on this other afwful diet I tried when I lost 40+ pounds. I know I should put the scale away and it said I might feel bad on the fast track reintroducing all these foods so quickly but for me it's the weight and frustration of not being able to eat what I want, enjoy what I eat, and sustain the weight I want. I should also probably add I have diagnosed mental health conditions I decided not to take meds for when my weight loss journey began in 2018 (I gained 50+ lbs very quickly on meds), which adds another element I don't have much control of.
  19. Hey, so it's day 28 and I've been pretty much totally compliant -- once, early on, my mom realized she had marinated chicken in yogurt after I had already asked and recently I ate hot sauce and brunch potatoes I'm not sure were compliant despite my efforts as well. Anyway, I read the whole book, my body has pretty significantly morphed (thinner, probably because I'm not eating enough) and I am so, incredibly sick of everything I have been eating/can eat. I get the emails and read a similar forum topic on one recently where Melissa was like, "change up what you're eating etc." I have never eaten so much bacon in my life, I am not a bacon person and eat two slices (Applegate no sugar added) almost daily. I'm not a huge vegetable person (but have been trying!) so it's been a lot of eggs and meats, occasionally some potatoes if I feel like cooking them or find some I can eat. I think I've eaten 5 bars total (3 sea salt chocolate RX and a couple Larabars); I know they are emergency only and not recommended so I tried not relying on them too much. I mapped out my reintroduction and it's going to take like another 15 days. I already know I'm going to feel sick with the day one alcohol thing since I've been depriving my body of sugar and carbs to absorb it so it feels like a trick -- "eat super clean then see how you feel after you consume these things that are definitely going to make you make you never want it again." I'm just so, totally sick of it. Hotdogs and bacon and sausage and smoked salmon and eggs and eating out but not enjoying it. Also combatting mental health and boyfriend issues, which aren't helping but definitely all related... I'm not sure what to do at this point. Trying to keep a positive outlook and rereading parts of the book but I just don't feel good
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    Day 28, Underfed, and Uninspired to Eat

    Thanks! If anyone wants to know just how little I ate I lost over 22 pounds...
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    Day 28, Underfed, and Uninspired to Eat

    I made the Spinach and Artichoke Twice Baked Potatoes... they are amazing!! Pic attached (went out on my Day 30 with a bang with these and a New York strip -- I shared with my boyfriend -- for dinner!). Thank you again!
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    Whole30 Valentine's Day

    This is my first Whole30 and one of my students bought me a box of chocolates, it was so sweet (literally!) and there was chocolate and candy everywhere that day/week. I wasn't super tempted but I even bought some Hershey kisses for my classes and I think the greatest temptation was buying/having it around myself vs. other people/places. My boyfriend is also super supportive and made dinner reservations at a restaurant he knew was accommodating but I ended up making a fancy meal for us instead. I am by no means an alcoholic and I probably don't drink more than 1-2 drinks a month when I am drinking but lately I've been craving a margarita, maybe from stress or just knowing I can't have one. Glad we both got through Valentine's Day compliant!
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    Day 28, Underfed, and Uninspired to Eat

    Thank you all, your replies are really helpful and mean a lot to me! I know that eating healthier, whole-foods is good for me and I honestly really enjoyed Whole30 up until recently when I posted. I probably need to re-evaluate the med thing since it's definitely mood related. I don't think food causes any physiological issues for me, but definitely psychological. I don't currently have a slow cooker or anything like that, but I may look into one. I actually took your advice and bought a bag of a gourmet frozen veggie mix from Costco (watercress, sugar snap peas, mushrooms, etc.) and frozen potato wedges I'm pretty sure are compliant (https://www.alexiafoods.com/chef-inspired/oven-fries-olive-oil-rosemary-and-garlic) from another grocery store, which I'm cooking up now. I went to Zoe's earlier today, which I found has it's own Whole30 menu (https://zoeskitchen.com/pdf/zk30/menu_whole30.pdf) and then unexpectedly back out for lunch again with family where I settled for some plain ahi tuna tacos without shells or sauce or anything (pic attached) -- they weren't super satisfying but I was still pretty full from my chicken kabob Greek salad from Zoe's. Like I said, my reintroduction is going to take about two weeks and I think I'd be frustrated if I stretched this out any longer -- I want to say that I saw it through and hopefully do it again. Thanks for all of the recipes and food tips, I will definitely be trying some of them this week! I actually like cooking but sometimes get tired/overwhelmed and want to not always think about what I am going to eat, so convenience is sometimes nice. I definitely have not been eating enough. Thank you all so much again!
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    Day 28, Underfed, and Uninspired to Eat

    I'm eating more bacon because I don't know what else to eat and I guess it's kind of tastier than everything else I know I can eat. I guess I don't know enough about carbs (that aren't bread/pasta) and starchy vegetables (just Googled). I'm diagnosed as biplar too (and borderline) but am currently off of meds... the foods I'm craving (cheese fries, pizza, dessert) are not workable around Whole30 at all. I can't think of any sauces I'd want to eat Whole30 either. All of your Asian ingredients seem to require work (I've used coconut stuff for sauces) and in this day in age, I don't see why anyone should settle for bland, boring, unsatisfying foods -- it's costly, inconvenient, and doesn't taste good to me. I ended up eating some raw almonds and compliant sausage in a compliant marinara sauce last night. Another day of food drudgery and 15 more before "food freedom" when I know I'm going to lose it and go crazy...