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  1. DAY 31 Weigh-in Lost 7 lbs. That exceeds my expectations, and puts me about in the target range. 5' 11" 173 lbs. I noticed that my muscle tone had returned--there was a layer of fat over the top before, and my pants are a bit looser. But not that much loss in inches. Watched Game Changers last night on Netflix. It makes a compelling case for plant-based eating. And demonstrates very clearly that meat fucks up your body in all kinds of ways. But I don't know what my optimal diet looks like. Carbs for me promote a craving for more carbs. I was up to 207 lbs 17 years ago, borderline Type 2 Diabetes, and batshit crazy--pretty much. Digging a grave with a fork as they say. I steered out of that skid with Carbohydrate Addicts diet, meat and vegetables and limiting eating to 3 meals and eating within one hour at night. Saved my ass. Stabilized my blood sugar problems, and my afternoon energy crash went away. Now, I'm wondering if there's a turn in the road again, a way to primarily eat plant based and supplement B12, which is not in most food because of the damage to the soil from pesticides and stuff. But I have a garden now, and I think the soil is healthy around here. Hmmmm. Healthy Cognitive Dissonance.
  2. OK, last meal. Again, poor preparation. My wife was going to make a chicken soup but got tied up on a call. So, I stuck to my guns for the last meal. Sardines for protein. Half a squash with coconut oil. Beets with ghee. I'm so full right now, 2.5 hours after having eaten. Didn't really eat that much today but was full. Lunch, small head of broccoli with mayo.
  3. Day 30!!!!!!!! OK, skipped a couple days in this journal that nobody will read. Here we are. Last day. Rather dreading getting on the scales. A voice in my head is saying I'm going to be angry and disappointed as I stare in disbelief at 1.5 lbs weight loss. Could happen. Still not thin as a rail. But hey people I'm 65. I've struggled the last few days wanting something to brighten up my meals. Last night, post-dinner, an apple and a banana and a few hazelnuts. Felt like I was cheating royally. Dinner was difficult because both my wife and I were busy with other things and didn't cook and prep like normal. Scrounged by on some leftover mashed potatoes, nothing off plan in them, mixed with an egg and asparagus slices. Pan fried this. Cooked up some cauliflower. Gnawed on some chicken. Hungry later, and then the fruit--which I really didn't ever eat much of because of blood sugar spiking and insulin release which led to carb cravings. But it seemed OK, about an hour after dinner. I had a big slip the other night. First off, a big fuck you to the finger-wagging rule hounds. This is my experiment and not yours, so I'm calling the slip "early feedback." A problema that has added some challenge to this is my wife is not on board, and her diet includes various grains, chocolate, non-wheat pasta, and shit like baked crust made with almond flour and other alternative flours which she spreads jam on and stuff. So having that wagged in my face has been rough at times. She has a severe allergy to any form of authority, so I think just having rules in the room that I happened to be following triggered a rebellions middle finger in her, as if she needed to demonstrate that she by God was not going be held accountable, and not only that she was going to defy the thing. So the other night she made soup. Started out just potatoes and asparagus, leaks and onions and mushrooms. She tossed in a coffee creamer of unsweetened soy milk, very thick and concentrated. Didn't ask. So I'm fucking starving, it's about 8:15 at night, I had no alternative dishes to yank out of the refrigerator, so I took the soup and ate it. It was delicious. And, right after eating, my head felt stuffed up. I was exhausted. My thinking was muddled. I attribute this to the effect of the soy milk. So that shit is off my diet plan. Don't need that again. I did have a quarter tsp. of Tamari soy sauce twice this month (another big fuck you to the shaming rule hounds who would put me in stocks in the public square for ths), and it did not have any negative effect. Fermented is the difference I suspect plus the very small quantity. I am worried about re-entry. I don't want to jump right back on the train and start up with the chocolate, peanuts, etc. I've been so clear headed and felt so good. So perhaps I'll build a structure, like Tues. and Thurs. is open to allow a few things to be reintroduced. The soy was a good test--it wasn't mixed in with other off plan things so it was clear that my body didn't like it. Basta! Finito! Done. We're on quarantine or I'd take a 30 mile bike ride today, though it is rather damp and could rain.
  4. DAY 27 Last night, a big bowl of the vinegar slaw. Red cabbage, small amount of green onions, a dash of cayenne. After sitting in the vinegar for two days, it was getting like a mild sauerkraut. Very delicious. Had that and a chicken soup made with chicken wings seared with seasoning and lots of leeks and potatoes in the soup. Incredible. After dinner, ate a couple apples and felt like I was cheating my ass off. Today, the 27th, a perch fillet with rucola (I'm forgetting how to spell this in English). Very satisfying. The idea of damaging my health as a form of entertainment is becoming a bit bizarre. Like, what the fuck, you crack head.
  5. Post-breakfast, Day 26 Woo fucking Hoo. I'm doing this thing. Just ate a HUGE breakfast. Left-over green salad with beets (fresh not canned, cooked and then put in the fridge); a few walnuts, endive, radicchio, arugula, and lettuce from a beautiful head we got at the organic market. Olive oil and a good balsamic on it, lightly dressed. Then, sauteed mushrooms, two kinds, cooked in olive oil with zucchini and two eggs, soft yolks, steamed on top of the zuch's and 'shrooms. Huge, delicious, and satisfying. Last night, really good brussel sprouts, steamed broccoli, and the salad above. Couldn't choke it all down. Left a good deal of it, and ate in about 15 minutes. Later in the evening, fresh coconut dug out of the shell, and some strawberries plain with nothing on them. Felt like I was cheating. Still not much or any weight loss that I can see. Perhaps some fat around my kidney area has melted off. Gut is still a bit paunchy. Who knows, but I 'd guess 2-3 lbs weight loss at this point. One theory that hasn't panned out is that foot fungus--athlete's foot--is maintained or worsened by sugar in the diet. Well, it's still there and quite bad. Have to use vinegar and acid water to keep it at bay. The biggest shift is my mind is calmer, I'm more present, and I attend to things with less emotional static and unnecessary drama. Simple things. I had some soup bones that went bad, so I put them in the freezer. Today I got them out in the 'humido" or organic waste bin. Not a big deal, but easy to forget and those sorts of details are popping into my mind more easily.
  6. Day 23 Getting a bit bored with the blandness of things. Felt cravings, not really for "bad" things, just more variety. Ended up eating a carrot and an apple and a bit of coconut to beat back the urges to snack. Doing pretty well though. No going clear off into the weeds.
  7. Day 21 (yesterday, since I write these a day later) Put some healthy beef bones with some meat and fat on them in the oven for an hour, the night before on March 20th. In the morning I put them in a pot to simmer all day with an onion and bay leaves, and some apple cider vinegar to extract the minerals. For dinner we had a beautiful soup with lots of onions and mushrooms. Quite thin and simple, but very nourishing. Wanted a nice piece of bread real bad to dunk in the soup. Lunch I had some sauerkraut and I forget what else. Small salad with chicken I guess. At night, not really having had that much all day, was hungry and ate an apple and a few coconut chips, and a few hazelnuts. Felt like I was cheating. Energy has been good, though yesterday half sick all day with a bad head cold. Feeling better today.
  8. Day 21 (yesterday, since I write these a day later) Put some healthy beef bones with some meat and fat on them in the oven for an hour, the night before on March 20th. In the morning I put them in a pot to simmer all day with an onion and bay leaves, and some apple cider vinegar to extract the minerals. For dinner we had a beautiful soup with lots of onions and mushrooms. Quite thin and simple, but very nourishing. Wanted a nice piece of bread real bad to dunk in the soup. Lunch I had some sauerkraut and I forget what else. Small salad with chicken I guess. At night, not really having had that much all day, was hungry and ate an apple and a few coconut chips, and a few hazelnuts. Felt like I was cheating. Energy has been good, though yesterday half sick all day with a bad head cold. Feeling better today.
  9. Day 20 Still half sick. Ate a big dinner--roasted chicken and potatoes, squash with coconut oil. I did a small cheat that I'm letting slide. About a tsp of plain goat's milk yogurt unsweetened on the potatoes. I'm good with that. After dinner, some hunger around two hours later. Ate one apple and a very small amount of cashew-based fake cheese, Sat and smelled the popcorn my wife made. It was good for me to smell it, feel the urge to dig in, think about the binge-type behavior that would have resulted in making a second batch and eating a huge bowl of it. And just not doing it. Today my wife is sick, some sort of flu bug I guess, and she regrets the popcorn binge because she has various dietary problems also and she shouldn't have eaten all of that.
  10. DAY 19 Have a head cold, or maybe it's allergies, that has returned after I thought it was gone. Yesterday, feeling a bit rocky and off center. Tired. Appetite down. Normal breakfast, two eggs fried zucchini. Late lunch, like 4, and couldn't finish a huge salad I made. Three bites of leftover lamb. Dinner, finished the salad and added beets and a few walnuts. Had a thin vegetable soup--- broth, carrots, celery, onions--with some added cayen to clear my head. Later, hungry, ate an apple and a tsp, of raisins and I was good. I must be losing weight because my intake has dropped off so much. Nothing real visible though. Need some good exercise today.
  11. My thinking has been so much more clear. I'm sleeping less, and have more energy. Yesterday, I did a rigorous bike ride up steep hills (my bike is electric but still, my heart was pumping hard a lot of the time). Then, a hike. Back home after 4 hours. All this on maybe 6 hours of sleep. No nap. Later, I was writing an article for Medium. The ideas were flowing and I was shocked when I realized it was way, way past midnight. This morning, work up at 6:15 and basta! All she wrote. Still up. Might nap later. Today it's almost one and I've eaten, meditated, gotten the article submitted, cleaned the bathroom and did dishes, and written a bunch of emails. That's an uptick. Another thing--I wrote an article on Medium that blew up. Massive number of views. I can't attribute that totally to the way of eating, but it's part of the picture. That dog-ass, poor me, slump shouldered, take a nap every day thing is sloping off. Oh, I'm 65.
  12. Day 17, over and done with. Did well yesterday. I ate (sounds horrible I know but I'm in Italy and they eat horse here, so this isn't so bad) rabbit liver and zucchini. I rode my electric bike up steep hills, parked it, and then hiked. A lot of exercise. Came back around 4 hours later and ate lunch at about 4:15. Chicken, salmon, salad. Olive oil and balsamic dressing. Dinner--vinegar coleslaw, more of that goddamn liver, asparagus. Clean. Feeling massive increase in clarity and energy. Boy howdy. Got the bear by the ass people.
  13. Not really getting enough to eat. I mean, I am I guess, in a nutritional sense. Yesterday, leisurely bike ride, a couple hours. Got home, ate a small portion of chicken and half an apple. Need to read the post-workout guidelines. Dinner, big coleslaw with caraway seeds, two different vinegars (no sugars). Carrots, purple cabbage, green cabbage. Two big portions. Rest of the goddamn bone broth soup. And that was that. Wanted bread, riso, cheese. Something added. But my body is now producing the "full" feeling, and the cravings an hour later have subsided. I knew I had put enough in my body to be OK. Light, clean, fine. Yeah, a big pork chop might have helped. But this morning my body feels pretty clear and good. Skin is clearing up. I don't think I'm really losing much weight, though no doubt overall calorie consumption has dropped off. So it's bound to show up. The emotional and psychological patterns around food are being illuminated. My wife is feeling the actual weight of her own eating routines, and the whole thing of "Well, Greg's gotta eat, you know him, so I'll make this and, gee whiz, that looks good. Maybe I'll have some," is dissolved. She makes a pot of riso and it's hers. She breaks out the chocolate, and it's totally her doing it. The co-dependence around food is busted up. And it's not a big "fuck you." It's just a gentle returning to our own lives, our own fucking lives man. This is me, this is me creating my existence. I am not an effect of the actions around me. I am not spun out of other's decisions. This is me, standing in the world. My own sacred ground. I am taking responsibility for what I'm doing here.
  14. Ate a ridiculously big salad with chicken today. Almost felt a bit sick. Too much of the soft greens. Need some more substantial kale or something but it's not really in season. More soup for dinner. My wife handed me a crepe made from four kinds of flour. I had the thing an inch from my pie hole before it dawned on me, "Hey, I can't eat that!" The fucking snake in the garden man. But doing ok.