[June W30]

Day 2

• coffee; 2 boiled eggs; strawberries; baked yam w/ tahini
• salad (romaine lettuce, olives, carrots, peppers, vinaigrette) w/ beef liver
• iced coffee; apple + almonds
• roast chicken, sauerkraut

Slept better; not very hungry today.

[June W30]

Day 1

• coffee with almond milk; green vegetable soup; 2 scrambled eggs
• apple + almonds
• salad (romaine lettuce, tomato, olives, vinaigrette) w/ sardines
• coffee w/ almond milk
• smoothie (blueberries, cucumber, avocado, hemp protein, flax seeds, bee pollen)
• beef liver, sauerkraut, hash browns, strawberries

 

Slept HORRIBLY. I think I was up every hour between 2:00 and 6:00am. You know when you're so tired any little thing makes you cry? Had one of those days. Hence the afternoon coffee, which helped considerably. Around dinner time I was craving starchy carbs so bad I ran to the grocery store and bought a giant bag of frozen hash browns (they're compliant!). I'll need to make sure my meals are more calorie-dense, especially breakfast. 

[June W30]

I don't think this forum is very active anymore but I like the thought of keeping a log here for the month of June. I feel like I need this right now, if only for the discipline and accountability. A lot of the comfort strategies I'd adopted to cope with the pandemic are still lingering and I want to let go of them. 

How I'm feeling right now:

• consistently low energy
• poor sleep (waking up 2-3 times a night) 
• anxiety; dysregulated nervous system 
• difficulty discerning hunger from boredom, anxiety, sadness &c.

My goals for the next 30 days:

• commit to eating this way
• limit my coffee to 10oz before 10am
• commit to a daily meditation practice, even if I can only manage 2 minutes
• practice eating breakfast before drinking coffee 

Even though I usually only drink 1-2 small cups a day, I would like to experiment with giving up coffee entirely. The last time I tried to go cold turkey the headaches were SO HORRIBLE I went back to it after 2 days. Work is really hectic right now so I don't think this is the time for it - this is more of a long-term goal. I want to see if it improves my sleep. Movement-wise, I've been doing yoga most days and will continue with that. For a couple months now I've been going to the gym for strength-training every week, just not consistently. I want to be disciplined about getting to the gym every M/W/F.