elinve38

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    elinve38 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Time for a change   
    The desire to start all over again is strong but I need to remember consistency over perfection. 
    Plus, I find that an "all or nothing" attitude will usually lead me right into a binge/restrict cycle, which I really want to avoid. 
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    elinve38 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Time for a change   
    DAY 3
    B - coffee w/ nut milk; smoothie (green apple, celery, zucchini, flax seeds, fish oil, protein powder) 
    L - salad (parsley, radicchio, red cabbage, celery, mint) w/ vinaigrette; chicken hearts; pickled peppers & olives
    S - coffee w/ nut milk; dates and walnuts
    D - 2 boiled eggs; tomato; 1/4 avocado
    S - smoothie (as above)
    S - sole fillet w/ chimichurri
     
    Slept poorly and didn't leave the house all day. I seem to swing between two extremes: waking up at 4am, or waking up at 10 - 11am. This has been an issue since I was laid off in March (and lost my gym routine) but has only been getting worse as things drag on. My circadian rhythms are completely out of whack and it's affecting my appetite and energy. This morning I woke up craving the quick energy of a sugar hit - hence the smoothie (and I sincerely doubt that protein powder was totally compliant). I compensated for the tiredness by drinking an afternoon coffee and eating wayyyy too many dates but I know this is only making things worse. 
    It's interesting, I was craving the second smoothie because of the texture - I wanted something creamy and dessert-y. Needless to say, 2 smoothies have left me so bloated I look about 6 months pregnant. Ooof. 
    I will definitely be avoiding smoothies and dried fruit for the rest of this program and will try to limit my caffeine intake to before 11am.
     
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    elinve38 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Time for a change   
    The desire to start all over again is strong but I need to remember consistency over perfection. 
    Plus, I find that an "all or nothing" attitude will usually lead me right into a binge/restrict cycle, which I really want to avoid. 
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    elinve38 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Time for a change   
    The desire to start all over again is strong but I need to remember consistency over perfection. 
    Plus, I find that an "all or nothing" attitude will usually lead me right into a binge/restrict cycle, which I really want to avoid. 
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    elinve38 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Time for a change   
    DAY 2 
    B - coffee w/ walnut milk; 2 boiled eggs; tomato, cucumber & 1/4 avocado
    L - zucchini noodles w/ pickled peppers & chimichurri; sole fillet; handful of cherries
    S - coffee w/ nut milk; small handful of walnuts
    D - salad (parsley, radicchio, mint, red cabbage, celery & 1/4 avocado) w/ vinaigrette; chicken hearts; pickled peppers
    a few dates & La Croix (for dessert)
     
    Still not sure how I feel about the chicken hearts... I usually have no issues eating liver, kidneys &c. but the rubbery texture is kind of off-putting. I still have one more serving to go (I plan on hiding them in my soup) but after that I think I'll stick with chicken livers. 
    Another afternoon without napping / falling into oblivion! Will definitely try to incorporate a post-lunch walk into my daily routine, as this seems to be doing wonders for my energy levels. 
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    elinve38 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Time for a change   
    DAY 1
    B - coffee (black); curried cauliflower soup
    L - salad (romaine, radicchio, celery, mint) w/ vinaigrette (olive oil, vinegar, mustard) + nutritional yeast; olives & pickled peppers; sole fillet
    S - La Croix; cherries & small handful of walnuts
    D - zucchini noodles w/ tomatoes, pickled peppers, olives, chimichurri & chicken hearts; a few dates (for dessert)
     
    A very small breakfast today because I woke up at an obscenely late hour. 
    Feeling good! I went for a walk after lunch and this helped with the afternoon fatigue - managed to go an entire afternoon without napping. 
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    elinve38 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Time for a change   
    @ShadowInTheKitchen and @Blueautumn thank you both for the encouragement. Your examples are very motivating for me  
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    elinve38 reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Time for a change   
    Welcome back, and congrats on getting those meds under control and on the daily yoga!  
    I also have trouble with overwhelm if I take on too many new things, and have found myself having to needing to say no to a few things this month so that I can keep my focus on eating well.  Oh and spending more time in the kitchen  
    Good luck on Day 1...
     
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    elinve38 reacted to Blueautumn in Time for a change   
    Ill be attempting the constant daily movement next! Its so hard to get both back under control at the same time. Kudos for getting it going and coming back to the food I saw a massive improvement in my blood sugar yesterday and it was only day 10 so now im even more motivated to keep it going. I also havent been having the mood lows i tend to get so hopefully that will help as well for you! 
    Glad to see you back - you got this
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    elinve38 got a reaction from BabyBear in Time for a change   
    I'm back! 
    I ended up having to make some adjustments to my medication, which led to overwhelm (too many changes all at once) so I decided to focus on one thing at a time.
    After I adjusted my dosage I started to feel better and able to incorporate some daily movement. I started doing yoga every morning and have managed to stick with it for 10 consecutive days - a small victory! What I've learned is that it's preferable to do it every day, even if it's just 10 minutes, and keep the momentum going rather than aim for so-called perfection. I will be doing the same with W30 - aiming for consistency over perfection. I'm happy to report I have been reading and listening to more music as well, and feel much better for it. So I managed to tackle my goal list... with the exception of food, lol. 
    Tomorrow will be my new Day 1  
     
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    elinve38 got a reaction from BabyBear in Time for a change   
    I'm back! 
    I ended up having to make some adjustments to my medication, which led to overwhelm (too many changes all at once) so I decided to focus on one thing at a time.
    After I adjusted my dosage I started to feel better and able to incorporate some daily movement. I started doing yoga every morning and have managed to stick with it for 10 consecutive days - a small victory! What I've learned is that it's preferable to do it every day, even if it's just 10 minutes, and keep the momentum going rather than aim for so-called perfection. I will be doing the same with W30 - aiming for consistency over perfection. I'm happy to report I have been reading and listening to more music as well, and feel much better for it. So I managed to tackle my goal list... with the exception of food, lol. 
    Tomorrow will be my new Day 1  
     
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    elinve38 got a reaction from BabyBear in Time for a change   
    I'm back! 
    I ended up having to make some adjustments to my medication, which led to overwhelm (too many changes all at once) so I decided to focus on one thing at a time.
    After I adjusted my dosage I started to feel better and able to incorporate some daily movement. I started doing yoga every morning and have managed to stick with it for 10 consecutive days - a small victory! What I've learned is that it's preferable to do it every day, even if it's just 10 minutes, and keep the momentum going rather than aim for so-called perfection. I will be doing the same with W30 - aiming for consistency over perfection. I'm happy to report I have been reading and listening to more music as well, and feel much better for it. So I managed to tackle my goal list... with the exception of food, lol. 
    Tomorrow will be my new Day 1  
     
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    elinve38 got a reaction from BabyBear in Time for a change   
    Day 2
    B - coffee w/ almond milk; sole fillet w/ mayonnaise; cucumber & tomato w/ oil and vinegar; sauerkraut
    S - green apple w/ small handful of almonds
    L - 2 hardboiled eggs; roasted cauliflower; green olives; baby carrots; dill pickle
    afternoon coffee
    D - chicken soup; baked yam
     
    exercise - long afternoon walk 
    + took my meds
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    elinve38 reacted to Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    First off my start date will be 5/24

    I am committing now and starting the log now so that I can get out some of my thoughts around the whole process and try to align my mindset to the place it needs to be to go forward with making a change like this. The goal is not to just make it through the 30 days. Due to a multitude of health issues including high blood pressure, diabetes, migraines, arthritis - autoimmune, muscle pain, poor sleep, lack of energy, brain fog, morbidly obese, ETC These changes will need to be serious and focused. In the past I have noticed that if i eat better for even a short amount of time my pain gets a lot better and obviously the other things start to improve by default with the increase in good food and the decrease in the absolute trash i normally eat. 

    This means I currently plan on doing a very slow reintroduction period to see if I can pinpoint the things that cause the most problems for me. I know there is a good chance it will target alot of my favorite foods but it could just be an accumulation of all the trash over the years with the lack of exercise and the increase in weight just causing all sorts of problems. Maybe I will get lucky and I wont have a reaction to a lot of stuff but even if I do the plan at least for the next foreseeable future is to make sure I stick as close to the whole30 plan as long as possible. I meet with my DR this week to get new blood work done and to find out what things she would like me to track for both our reference. There are a few meds I would like to get off and I would like to have children in the next few years and all my doctors agree that I need to get my other health things under better control - if possible - before I try.

    Over the years I have become a master of excuses for not doing things or for doing things I know arent in my best interest. "I will start tomorrow" has been my life motto for longer than I could have imagined. I will exercise later. I wont eat trash at dinner. I'll write that book when I wake up. I wont binge watch netflix on the couch for 12 hours on my days off. I just turned 32 and it is def time for a change or I doubt ill be around for too much longer - and if I am, Im confident the quality of life will be questionable at best.

    Not to mention I have actually eaten total trash and justified it by saying the world could end soon and I wont be able to eat it - yep that really happened. I should def eat that pizza and pint of choco icecream right now because what if i cant get it next week! (Ever eaten 3 pints of icecream in a day? I have. And that includes all my normal meals thats like dessert for each one. A pint = one serving of course, obviously.) And for some reason I convinced myself at some point that every meal needs a sweet element at the end....pretty sure thats an issue

    Unlike many people on here I have basically no responsibilities except work and my hubby does all the housework and cooking and stuff so I just need to tell him what I want/need and he will make sure it happens.  Unfortunately he really hates to see me upset ( I mean i guess thats a good thing lol) which makes it hard for him to say no to me if i just decide I want to eat whatever I want. I am an adult though so i need to take all the responsibility for my current place in life.

    One thing I heard recently that has really struck home is that accountability isnt for negative things. Its really just taking responsibility for the fact that you have to take the next steps. IE it doesnt matter who/what is at fault for where you are right now, only you can do what is necessary to move yourself forward. Id like to believe my health isnt wholly my fault but Im an adult, I know what i need to do, no one forces me to do anything, its def mostly wholly my fault lol.

    I also have an extremely volatile relationship with food as a whole which I am hoping to understand better throughout this process. I have always been an emotional eater - I eat when Im bored, happy, sad, angry, stressed, you know all the feels! We were super poor growing up and once I started making money it basically all goes towards food (that will be a happy side effect saving the money I normally spend on eating out all the time.) It is my answer to everything and I have a big problem with portion control at this point as well. God knows when the last time I was ACTUALLY hungry was.

    I will also be starting a detailed journal - which may or may not fully make it on here but most will posted on here especially since i realized how helpful it was to read other ppls journeys and it will serve as a good resource for me to refer back to as well. At the moment the plan is to monitor my sleep, food, blood sugar, blood pressure, pain levels and locations, and any exercise. I currently dont exercise at all but I know its something that needs to slowly be worked in.

    Current goals
    -improve energy levels 
    -clear up some of this brain fog (I feel like i forget alot of things that have just been told to me) and concentration ability
    -decrease fasting blood sugar (by any amount at this point)
    -make it through the first 30 days (milestone one here) though there is a good chance it will become a W60 or 90 depending on what my doctor wants as a priority before reintroductions
    -1st week no exercise goals, 2nd week 2xweek at least 10 mins, 3rd week 3x week at least 10 mins. (I have a recumbent bike that is sitting in my bedroom unused - its easy on the joints and I can do hop onto it without a lot of preparation so the barrier is very low)
    -reduction in joint pain (currently off my immune suppressants due to covid but I have seen improvement in the pain from food choices in the past)
     
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    elinve38 reacted to Blueautumn in Time for a change   
    that is a great idea. Im meal planning this week and getting groceries ready to start next week. I think having a real grade school type schedule with activities and hobbies and eating etc will also help me get active or at least do something besides rot my brain binge watching hulu and netflix LOL
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    elinve38 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Time for a change   
    @Blueautumn Aw, thanks  I hope you start feeling better too! 
    I've started writing a "schedule" on paper as if I were back in grade school, lol, and find that is helping me somewhat as well.
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    elinve38 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Time for a change   
    @Blueautumn Aw, thanks  I hope you start feeling better too! 
    I've started writing a "schedule" on paper as if I were back in grade school, lol, and find that is helping me somewhat as well.
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    elinve38 reacted to Blueautumn in Time for a change   
    I have been without a routine for so long and have realized I do awful just left to my own devices all the time - especially with my health and depression. Im hoping the same thing that getting into a routine will really help get some things under control.

    Heres to hoping that your mood and energy levels get where you need/want them to be especially with everything going on in the world! 
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    elinve38 got a reaction from BabyBear in Time for a change   
    Day 0
    I find I naturally do better when I have more structure in my life so I'm hoping that doing a round of Whole30 will give me a sense of stability and accomplishment right now. Before the pandemic I was off my anti-depressants and doing great, eating beautifully and going to the gym most days. The pandemic led to major upheavals in my work and home life and I fell back into a depression. I stopped exercising and have been doing a lot of comfort eating. I feel gross, physically and emotionally, so I want to nip this in the bud before it gets worse. I recently went back on anti-depressants and the next step is to make a few lifestyle adjustments.
    GOALS:
    increased energy and sense of well-being incorporate exercise into my day (walking + fitness blender or yoga) drink more water  less screen time - more reading, listening to music &c.  
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    elinve38 got a reaction from BabyBear in Time for a change   
    @BabyBear Thanks! I know, it's true isn't it? I find I feel lost without a routine. Today is my start date  
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    elinve38 reacted to BabyBear in Time for a change   
    i Love your goals.  Have you set a start date yet?  It’s amazing how being able to give structure and control to one are of life will help bring other areas into balance.
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    elinve38 got a reaction from BabyBear in Time for a change   
    Day 0
    I find I naturally do better when I have more structure in my life so I'm hoping that doing a round of Whole30 will give me a sense of stability and accomplishment right now. Before the pandemic I was off my anti-depressants and doing great, eating beautifully and going to the gym most days. The pandemic led to major upheavals in my work and home life and I fell back into a depression. I stopped exercising and have been doing a lot of comfort eating. I feel gross, physically and emotionally, so I want to nip this in the bud before it gets worse. I recently went back on anti-depressants and the next step is to make a few lifestyle adjustments.
    GOALS:
    increased energy and sense of well-being incorporate exercise into my day (walking + fitness blender or yoga) drink more water  less screen time - more reading, listening to music &c.