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    Blueautumn reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    I did everything on my checklist yesterday.  I even took the dog for a walk a little earlier than I had planned, then read for a while, did yoga, and made dinner (leftover grilled chicken and the rest of that risotto).  I also had a glass of wine with my dinner, though no vegetables.  I was feeling really good about myself and then I saw the bag of Twizzlers - "I'm not on Whole 30 yet, I can eat these."  So I did.  And then later, three dinner rolls with butter.  I wasn't even  hungry.  It was me thinking that I'm about to move away from these foods, I won't be able to have them anymore, I can do whatever, eat whatever I want.  And the funny thing is, that I KNOW when I'm in my Whole 30, I'll think it's crazy that I was worried that I couldn't have a piece of candy because I won't want a piece of candy.  A little of it was some anger toward my husband, too - "You're doing that, fine I'm going to eat these Twizzlers."  There's so much underlying animosity there.  Like it hurts anyone but myself, and I do feel better for just the moment that poison goes in my mouth.  But...self-sabotage!! 
    My husband absolutely refuses to eat decent foods.  Every two months or so he'll say, "I really should eat a salad."  A lot of nights he drinks his dinner, making himself old-fashioneds and justifying it by saying he'll eat later (which he rarely does) and anyway, there's an orange and a cherry in the glass.  We've been married almost 28 years, most of the time I can put all that aside.  But sometimes, it's a convenient excuse.   Sometimes he'll eat what I cook, sometimes he'll like it, sometimes he'll complain about it.  Sometimes he'll cook something (usually a pasta-based dinner).  There was once so much power and control and passive-aggressiveness surrounding meals and I think we just got tired of the struggle.  And now there are vestiges that raise their ugly heads every so often.  Especially the passive-aggressive one.  As I said, there is a lot of animosity.  
    I also have a newly graduated 18-year old son in the house.  He eats a lot of food and is the source for the chips and candy that I'm currently finding so hard to resist.  Again, I have strategies for managing having these foods in the house, but as I said earlier, it's a convenient excuse.  He does often eat what I cook and wants to know what's for dinner.  But he's also spending less and less time at home.  He works 3 evenings a week, too.  
    Back to today.  Needless to say, with my late night sugar/carb rush of rolls and Twizzlers, I didn't sleep very well.  I awoke at 6:00 but was not ready to get out of bed.  I tried to talk myself into getting up and going for a walk, but my body was not having any of it.  I fell back asleep.  I woke up 40 minutes later, struggling with myself that I had to go for a walk if I wanted to change anything.  "It's only 20 minutes, I'll enjoy it once I'm out there, I deserve to do this for myself, I don't want to go plop down in the recliner and watch the news, I'm sick of the news...." All the self-talk, just as much negative as positive.  While I fought myself hard, I did finally get up and do it.  I walked the dog the first mile of the day.  If I walk, the first 5 items on my list are able to be quickly checked off.  Sense of accomplishment.  
    Once I did plop down in the recliner to watch the news, I decided to make a schedule for today.  I have a bunch of conference calls, spread throughout the day, and so I thought making a schedule would help me to get all my tasks done.  My first task was to make breakfast.  I scrambled raw spinach in butter (I have ghee, but saving it for my Whole 30), three eggs, and sliced fresh mozzarella.  As I knew, it only takes a few minutes to cook and clean-up.  It was delicious, and right now I feel really good.  
    Energy-5, pain-0, Mood-4
    I'm eagerly awaiting the arrival of my books.  I have three separate walks built into my day (1 down, 2 to go).  I'm not sure yet when I want to start my Whole 30.  Maybe on Monday?    I have to wrestle this self-defeating monster inside.  It's like I'm trying to walk the dog and she's pulling just as hard as she can against me, choking herself and bracing her back legs, fighting with all her might.  I'm chipping away, walking this morning, making a schedule, eating breakfast, ordering the Whole 30 books.  I can't let this monster win.  
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    Blueautumn reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    And now it's almost 6 weeks since my last post.  I have been really struggling.  I don't know why I can't get myself in the right frame of mind.  It's so easy to grab something unhealthy - some chips, a piece of leftover pizza - and think, "I'll get it together for next meal" or "I'll start tomorrow"  And yet getting it together or starting hasn't happened Ugh!!!  I'm so frustrated with myself.   
    I decided last night (as I finished off my dinner of a bag of guacamole chips), that I would focus on behaviors that help me feel healthy.  Sometimes, I am so lazy about making a good meal, even though I know how to do it and can put something together rather quickly.  With ingredients that I have around the house.  Without needing to reference a recipe.  I just would rather grab something and not spend even 5 minutes putting together something nourishing.  That's just pure laziness.  Once I decided that I was going to make a list of healthy behaviors to check-off daily I felt pretty excited.  I woke up a few times last night thinking about it.  That's what I don't get - if I'm excited about being healthy and I know how to do Whole 30/paleo-type lifestyle and I know it makes me feel amazing, why am I sabotaging myself over and over and over again????
    Here is the list of healthy, daily behaviors that I set up in the Reminders app on my phone.  These are all things that I enjoy when I'm in the right frame of mind and contribute to me making positive choices for myself, building upon themselves:
    -Wake between 5:00 and 6:30 am (whatever time I naturally awaken)  - DONE
    -Walk, accumulating at least 2 miles in any way - I like best to walk the dog a mile when I wake up, then two more 1 mile walks during the day, but sometimes we go on actual 3+mile hikes.  I have osteoarthritis, so how I feel on a given day contributes to how long I walk.  - One mile done
    -Take blood pressure reading, take bp meds, weigh myself put in tracker - DONE  I have discovered that I am a person that should weigh myself daily.  I have a solid understanding of weight fluctuations and don't get upset about ups and downs on the scale.  It's just a number to me - BUT, not weighing myself allows me to deny and avoid my heaviness.  I can put on a pair of yoga pants, brush my hair, look in the mirror, and feel decently presentable.  It's not until I see a picture of myself smiling or of my whole body that it hits my how heavy I am.  The scale, while I do avoid it when I'm sabotaging myself, is like a photograph for me - a reality check.  
    -Eat a low-carb breakfast, meaning one filled with proteins and vegetables.  I have not been very gung-ho about cooking breakfast lately, so I'm either going to eat leftovers or just cook something.  Seriously, I can scramble eggs and spinach and have it all cleaned up in 10 minutes.  - Coffee only, not hungry this morning.  This is ok for today, as long as I follow through with making myself lunch.  When I'm following a paleo-type lifestyle, I tend to do best with eating two big meals a day.  For now (well, after today), and during Whole 30, I'll do 3 meals.  
    -Drink two liters of water
    -Journal - what I'm doing here, I really need to explore this laziness and self-sabotage.  That can happen here - DONE
    -Talk or message with at least one other person outside my home - DONE
    -Do a chore - laundry in process
    -Practice Spanish - I've been working on learning Spanish for several years now, and I really enjoy practicing it.  A mentally healthy activity for me.  
    -Fix lunch - honestly, at this point it doesn't matter to me what kind of lunch as long as I get myself putting a little effort into making something.  I set an alarm for noon.  
    -Do yoga.  A lifesaver for me, and yet, despite having time during the pandemic, I'm too lazy to do this many days.  
    -Fix dinner.  Again, just get off my butt and fix something.  My best afternoons are:  finish work, go for a walk with the dog, do yoga, fix dinner.  Each flows nicely into the next.  If i did this every day, I'd be in a really good place.  
    So that's my list.  If I do these things, I feel better and have more energy.  If I don't do these things, I'm being a lazy lump.  I need to take Nike's "Just Do It" to heart.   What am i doing instead?  Reading or playing games on my iPad.  Nothing productive.  The reading is nice, but I certainly have plenty of time to do that even if I were to do the things on my list plus work.  The playing games is a timewaster.  I spend soo much time in my own head, and the game play just allows me to do that.  I must get out of my head a little.  Journaling will help a little, I think.  
    My goal (I wrote hope, went back and changed it to goal) is to regain some energy and desire to do a Whole 30.  I know that it only takes me 3 days of eating nourishing foods to start the positive cycle.  I think the fact that I know that contributes a little to my self-sabotage - only 3 days, I can start on that ever elusive tomorrow....
    I am miserable.  I have gained so much weight.  I really hate seeing myself smile, seeing pictures of myself as my face is so bloated and puffy.  My clothes consist only of yoga pants right now (quarantine-wear, but it won't be long before I need to get back into other clothing).  My blood pressure is not well-controlled.  I worry about my health.  I'll be 50 this summer.  I have a family history of diabetes, heart disease, and obesity.  My knees and hip hurt tremendously when I don't walk and when I carry this extra weight.  I like vegetables and nourishing foods.  While I have a huge sugar monster, I don't miss sugar at all when I'm eating well.    This terrible junk food diet that I'm currently on is almost like an act of defiance.  But defiance against what?  Myself?  I'll have to come back to this when I'm ready.  This is related to spending so much time in my own head.  
    That's  all for now.  I'm not going to limit myself to journaling once a day if I think I want to come back here again later. 
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
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    Blueautumn reacted to MadyVanilla in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    I just read through your entire journal - it's so awesome how far you've come in NINE days!  The drop is blood sugar is amazing, and your meal choices have really evolved, lol.  This has been very inspirational for me.  I stopped in the middle of your journal and ordered two of the Whole 30 books.  I've done Whole 30 several times before, but have really been on a downward spiral of terrible junk food choices (yesterday's breakfast was leftover birthday cake, lunch was a McDonald's two cheeseburger meal with large fries and sweet tea, dinner was a bag of guacamole chips).  I came back to this forum and to my journal to try to kickstart myself.  I look forward continuing to read about your journey!  
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    Blueautumn reacted to Contessa in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Agreeing with what MadyVanilla said... I am really enjoying reading about your experience. It's noteworthy that younger & younger people are coming into the hospital for issues we'd typically relegate to much older generations. As another huge devotee of ALL THE ADDED SUGAR, I really resonate with your perspective. 
    Also, now I want to try that sesame chicken.....!
    So impressed by what you are doing here, carry on!
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from elinve38 in Time for a change   
    Ill be attempting the constant daily movement next! Its so hard to get both back under control at the same time. Kudos for getting it going and coming back to the food I saw a massive improvement in my blood sugar yesterday and it was only day 10 so now im even more motivated to keep it going. I also havent been having the mood lows i tend to get so hopefully that will help as well for you! 
    Glad to see you back - you got this
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    Blueautumn reacted to BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 R2.2   
    Y’all got me all teary  eyed. Thank you for the words of encouragement.  
    Water! Water! Water!  I realized I’ve hardly been drinking anything at all. A sip of water or Gatorade here a chug of chocolate milk there.  So I’m working on drinking all my water today.  I’ve had 51 Oz so far today and it has helped.  Not only was I exhausted I had also been dealing with dehydration.  We declared today a TV free day which has also helped us all be more productive.    
    Im going to steal a nap while baby naps before my skate son gets here to help me mount skate boots to fill some more orders.  Im so grateful to have his help as he is definitely more confident with the power tools.  Plus he’s taller than me so he can use the counter mount block.  I was struggling to get a mount block set up on the floor but make it inaccessible to the toddler.  We seem to have a good system going where he mounts and I get the hardware installed.    
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 R2.2   
    Ill hold your feet for you! <3
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Day 1 finished. I havent felt so hot so I slept four hours woke up, ate, was up for a bit then woke up again so theres a good chance I'll be up for the next 20 hours or so. I'm gonna try to sleep at some point before then but it may or may not happen lol
    My meals today are quite sad but I feel fine and am not hungry. Need to make it back by the store to get some fresh veggies and my ghee seems to have gone missing lol - gotta ask my roommate 
    M1 when I got home from work was tuna peas and broccoli 
    M2 chicken and broccoli, cauliflower, and carrots -when I woke up in the middle of the afternoon with severe neck pain and a headache
    M3 chicken remaining peas - when I woke up again about half n hour ago lol didnt feel like steaming more veggies atm they are all frozen
    It's now been over 24 hours since I finished my last soda nom nom nom. 
    Atm just drinking lots of water. And focusing on getting through each meal with compliance even if they arent the greatest balance.
    I did get some fruit last night. I learned I'm iffy on strawberries, not a fan of blackberries they are like weird seed gritty , and that I really enjoy cantaloupe especially with some salt. That shouldn't be all surprising since I love cucumber with salt.
    Used the instant pot to steam veggies earlier. Didnt realize there were three settings for the steam function soooo note to self normal setting at 6 mins is way to long. Finally found the spot in the manual that says light setting for veggies. It was so soft - I like my veggies with some crunch- I could mash them with my fork ick
    I ate them cause I didn't wanna waste them but will be trying again later today
    Starting weight 316 
    I did start craving pringles like a crazy person earlier which is new. But overall I think mentally I'm doing okay. I know its up to me to change and I'm very focused on making that happen.
    Read the miracle morning - will start implementing that this week as well
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    First off my start date will be 5/24

    I am committing now and starting the log now so that I can get out some of my thoughts around the whole process and try to align my mindset to the place it needs to be to go forward with making a change like this. The goal is not to just make it through the 30 days. Due to a multitude of health issues including high blood pressure, diabetes, migraines, arthritis - autoimmune, muscle pain, poor sleep, lack of energy, brain fog, morbidly obese, ETC These changes will need to be serious and focused. In the past I have noticed that if i eat better for even a short amount of time my pain gets a lot better and obviously the other things start to improve by default with the increase in good food and the decrease in the absolute trash i normally eat. 

    This means I currently plan on doing a very slow reintroduction period to see if I can pinpoint the things that cause the most problems for me. I know there is a good chance it will target alot of my favorite foods but it could just be an accumulation of all the trash over the years with the lack of exercise and the increase in weight just causing all sorts of problems. Maybe I will get lucky and I wont have a reaction to a lot of stuff but even if I do the plan at least for the next foreseeable future is to make sure I stick as close to the whole30 plan as long as possible. I meet with my DR this week to get new blood work done and to find out what things she would like me to track for both our reference. There are a few meds I would like to get off and I would like to have children in the next few years and all my doctors agree that I need to get my other health things under better control - if possible - before I try.

    Over the years I have become a master of excuses for not doing things or for doing things I know arent in my best interest. "I will start tomorrow" has been my life motto for longer than I could have imagined. I will exercise later. I wont eat trash at dinner. I'll write that book when I wake up. I wont binge watch netflix on the couch for 12 hours on my days off. I just turned 32 and it is def time for a change or I doubt ill be around for too much longer - and if I am, Im confident the quality of life will be questionable at best.

    Not to mention I have actually eaten total trash and justified it by saying the world could end soon and I wont be able to eat it - yep that really happened. I should def eat that pizza and pint of choco icecream right now because what if i cant get it next week! (Ever eaten 3 pints of icecream in a day? I have. And that includes all my normal meals thats like dessert for each one. A pint = one serving of course, obviously.) And for some reason I convinced myself at some point that every meal needs a sweet element at the end....pretty sure thats an issue

    Unlike many people on here I have basically no responsibilities except work and my hubby does all the housework and cooking and stuff so I just need to tell him what I want/need and he will make sure it happens.  Unfortunately he really hates to see me upset ( I mean i guess thats a good thing lol) which makes it hard for him to say no to me if i just decide I want to eat whatever I want. I am an adult though so i need to take all the responsibility for my current place in life.

    One thing I heard recently that has really struck home is that accountability isnt for negative things. Its really just taking responsibility for the fact that you have to take the next steps. IE it doesnt matter who/what is at fault for where you are right now, only you can do what is necessary to move yourself forward. Id like to believe my health isnt wholly my fault but Im an adult, I know what i need to do, no one forces me to do anything, its def mostly wholly my fault lol.

    I also have an extremely volatile relationship with food as a whole which I am hoping to understand better throughout this process. I have always been an emotional eater - I eat when Im bored, happy, sad, angry, stressed, you know all the feels! We were super poor growing up and once I started making money it basically all goes towards food (that will be a happy side effect saving the money I normally spend on eating out all the time.) It is my answer to everything and I have a big problem with portion control at this point as well. God knows when the last time I was ACTUALLY hungry was.

    I will also be starting a detailed journal - which may or may not fully make it on here but most will posted on here especially since i realized how helpful it was to read other ppls journeys and it will serve as a good resource for me to refer back to as well. At the moment the plan is to monitor my sleep, food, blood sugar, blood pressure, pain levels and locations, and any exercise. I currently dont exercise at all but I know its something that needs to slowly be worked in.

    Current goals
    -improve energy levels 
    -clear up some of this brain fog (I feel like i forget alot of things that have just been told to me) and concentration ability
    -decrease fasting blood sugar (by any amount at this point)
    -make it through the first 30 days (milestone one here) though there is a good chance it will become a W60 or 90 depending on what my doctor wants as a priority before reintroductions
    -1st week no exercise goals, 2nd week 2xweek at least 10 mins, 3rd week 3x week at least 10 mins. (I have a recumbent bike that is sitting in my bedroom unused - its easy on the joints and I can do hop onto it without a lot of preparation so the barrier is very low)
    -reduction in joint pain (currently off my immune suppressants due to covid but I have seen improvement in the pain from food choices in the past)
     
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    This right here ^^^ Hmmm i want something to do...yum lets eat something just cause its like something to do and delicious! lol congrats on getting closer to the 7am get up!
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Ive never eaten a spoonful of brown sugar LOL but the week before i started i may or may not have eaten a container of cream cheese frosting with a spoon....yum 
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    End of day 9
    Stayed up for much longer than I  thought I would and ended up eating some more potato and leek soup with compliant sausage - yum
    Day 10 June 2
    M1 roasted red potatoes, eggs and bacon
    M2 leftover from M1
    M3 made some sesame chicken from the wholekitchensink.com and served it over green beans
    The sesame chicken was much more delicious than I thought it would be lol https://www.wholekitchensink.com/instant-pot-sesame-chicken/
    Ive also learned that i really really enjoy soup and that potato and leek one is such a great base ill be making more this week at some point and adding some protein and more veggies to it. https://www.simplyrecipes.com/recipes/potato_leek_soup/ with the butter swapped out and compliant broth used
    Yesterday i just kinda fully accepted everything. I realized I was eating as if it was my last meal all the time and at the rate i was going that was going to come much sooner than later. I mentioned that my blood sugar has been out of control (non medicated diabetic) and last month my fasting sugar was way too high so I stopped checking it because well I was in denial basically. 
    I took my blood sugar yesterday and it has dropped 90 points - which is crazy, its almost back down to prediabetic range and its only been 10 days. My insulin resistance was never super bad but I was eating SOOOOOOO MUCH ADDED SUGAR every day it just never dropped and after a while all that stuff catches up with you.  With such a significant improvement from diet change this quickly I am very confident in the fact that I can fully reverse the diagnose and my doctor will be super thrilled. And thats with a diet of like pure potato at the moment rofl. 
    I am looking at recipes and finally finding ones that sound delicious and enjoyable instead of how much better it would sound with cheese - okay so cheese is still sneaking around in my brain but now its like a long distance love affair getting letters occasionally about how we will see each other again eventually and we will talk about our relationship then. 
    I have never been much of a gravy fan - then i figured it out. Cheese is my gravy. I top everything and anything with cheese and so i never saw a point in gravy with cheese! but without cheese im finding the different gravys looking more and more delicious. 
    The bouts of nausea are basically gone and i feel the pangs of getting hungry in time before I feel like im gonna die. I havent been doing any snacking for the most part. Occassionally i grab a pickle or something because i noticed i really just like the act of eating. Which probably accounts for a lot of my overeating. Constant grazing because chewing makes me happy? Something like that. 
    My energy yesterday was kinda low but im feeling more motivated to get up and do things without prompting - which is huge for me. I also currently dont feel the need to sleep 16 hours a day in between work shifts so thats also really good. Im happy, im feeling better, i will keep going simply because i have no other choice at this point. I dont want to be dependent on medications for things that are preventable. I see younger and younger ppl coming into the hospital with heart failure and kidney failure and complications from diabetes etc and i dont want to be that person. 
    I even thought about exercising today - i mean like really thought about it. Ill be doing it later today lol want to get in at least 2 days this week of some intentional exercise.
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    Blueautumn reacted to elinve38 in Time for a change   
    I'm back! 
    I ended up having to make some adjustments to my medication, which led to overwhelm (too many changes all at once) so I decided to focus on one thing at a time.
    After I adjusted my dosage I started to feel better and able to incorporate some daily movement. I started doing yoga every morning and have managed to stick with it for 10 consecutive days - a small victory! What I've learned is that it's preferable to do it every day, even if it's just 10 minutes, and keep the momentum going rather than aim for so-called perfection. I will be doing the same with W30 - aiming for consistency over perfection. I'm happy to report I have been reading and listening to more music as well, and feel much better for it. So I managed to tackle my goal list... with the exception of food, lol. 
    Tomorrow will be my new Day 1  
     
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    Blueautumn reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    A little ray of hope for you:  A while back (3 years? 5 years? 10 years?) I gave up coffee for Lent.  On Easter Sunday I made myself a coffee but didn't want to drink it.  I just didn't want it.  To this day, I looooooooooooove the smell of coffee, especially fresh coffee grinds or a freshly brewed pot, but I have no desire to drink it.  Not that I can't, my DS22 made me a coffee on Mother's Day this year and I drank half of it and wasn't sick or anything.  I sure did love holding it and smelling it, especially as he trained as a barista so can make a really good cup of Joe.  The point is, I have 100% confidence that you will always enjoy the aroma of foods that you used to eat too much of while staying true to yourself and the real needs of the beautiful gift you have that is your body.
    Fun fact: I used to raid the brown sugar container for, well, just because who doesn't like to eat a spoonful of brown sugar whenever they want.  Now - I think the smell of brown sugar is YUCK!
    Congrats on the awesome NSV's!
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    Blueautumn reacted to SchrodingersCat in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 R2.2   
    Oh hon, what a horror week!!! You're doing such an amazing wife/mom job, I hope you get some time to take care of yourself, soon!!
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    Blueautumn reacted to BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 R2.2   
    This week has been the longest year.  This is the first time in 9 days that I have had the time alone along with the mental and emotional ability to check in.  I am exhausted.  I’ve not done a good job caring for me, because all of my energy has been thrusted into taking care of literally everyone.  My husband broke his right humorous above the elbow on a Sunday night before Memorial Day.  They put him in a splint and sent him home.  He literally could do nothing without extreme pain.  He needed help getting in and out of bed, getting dressed, even plugging in his phone.  On top of that I had to take over getting Skate orders filled I have shipped over 40 different orders in the past few days.  Plus all the other things around the house my hubby takes care of normally.  I also had the toddler in final stages of potty independence, and trying not regress with his progress.  My work and everyone needing me all at the same time.  Oh and the added stress has kicked morning sickness and hormone headaches into over drive.  Most days I was doing good to remember to eat at least once a day.  Finally my husband received the surgery to put the bone back together yesterday.  He’s in so much pain but at least now his bones aren’t shifting and clapping together when he needs to move.  I’m not out of the weeds yet, but at least I feel like he is finally starting to recover.  I’m just taking this one day at a time and doing what I can to survive.  My eating hasn’t been horrid but it has been more about convenience and ease right now.  Ill be back to my whole 30 compliant eating sooner than later, hopefully next week.  I just got to get my feet back under me.  
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 R2.2   
    Just sending hugs and happy thoughts
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from hedegi in Ready for R1!! Start 5/24   
    @hedegi I'm very not used to eating set meals either lol but we crushed day 1
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from scoakley13 in Pants don't fit and I'm tired   
    I picked up some thin cheap cuts of steak today! Probably wont get a chance to do anything with it till the weekend go.
    I feel ya on the burger patty and green beans lol that simple is basically all I've been doing this week. 
    Three days down *highfive*
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from stealthstitcher in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Day 9 June 1
    M1- potato and leek soup with ham and bacon and one egg (not mixed with the soup lol)
    M2 - potato and leek soup with a cod filet and some broccoli 
    So my schedule swapped today since I dont work so i ate this morning, took a nap, ate again just now, but im probably going back to sleep in a few hours.
    The nausea is significantly better today so hopefully that means my body is finally figuring out its not gonna be getting gobs and gobs of sugar. I have now realized im willing to give up all sweets for cheese and bread products lol. But I have finally started thinking about how and why i eat when i do. I have no idea at what point in my life i decided sweets should happen after every meal and that indulgent cheesy or sugary and carby goodness was an every meal affair instead of a well thought out treat. 
    My hubby made toast this morning and the smell was divine. I almost feel bad that I was just eating it so mindlessly i forgot what i actually liked about it. It is interesting that I am starting to appreciate the foods im not eating lol. I think no matter what happens at the end of this ill be mindful in how i eat the foods i successfully reintroduce and try not to eat them every day still. I miss having a good cheese and chicken sandwich. 
     
    I think we really do need a word for that LOL. especially considering how ancy ppl get now if they think ur sick.  
    my blood sugar is dropping which is extremely fantastic. Ive been bad and avoiding my diabetic meds due to a denial issue - dont do that if youre reading this lol. now at least i can show i am making some progress on my own actions to get that under control. Woot
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Day 9 June 1
    M1- potato and leek soup with ham and bacon and one egg (not mixed with the soup lol)
    M2 - potato and leek soup with a cod filet and some broccoli 
    So my schedule swapped today since I dont work so i ate this morning, took a nap, ate again just now, but im probably going back to sleep in a few hours.
    The nausea is significantly better today so hopefully that means my body is finally figuring out its not gonna be getting gobs and gobs of sugar. I have now realized im willing to give up all sweets for cheese and bread products lol. But I have finally started thinking about how and why i eat when i do. I have no idea at what point in my life i decided sweets should happen after every meal and that indulgent cheesy or sugary and carby goodness was an every meal affair instead of a well thought out treat. 
    My hubby made toast this morning and the smell was divine. I almost feel bad that I was just eating it so mindlessly i forgot what i actually liked about it. It is interesting that I am starting to appreciate the foods im not eating lol. I think no matter what happens at the end of this ill be mindful in how i eat the foods i successfully reintroduce and try not to eat them every day still. I miss having a good cheese and chicken sandwich. 
     
    I think we really do need a word for that LOL. especially considering how ancy ppl get now if they think ur sick.  
    my blood sugar is dropping which is extremely fantastic. Ive been bad and avoiding my diabetic meds due to a denial issue - dont do that if youre reading this lol. now at least i can show i am making some progress on my own actions to get that under control. Woot
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from stealthstitcher in Whole30 Through May   
    I have monster snacking and munching cravings. My original plan right now is to go into a 60 or 90 day depending on what my cravings look like and whether or not i can avoid going down a rabbit hole. I want to do a very slow reintroduction that will probably be over that time span anyway and then go into off road planning. So i fully anticipate being on it for the 90 days for the most part because i know how easy it is for me to fall back into the hole and I need to get that sugar dragon as small as possible. I think if you find that you can avoid your personal traps then you should be fine to come off. Make your healthy choices when possible and dont fall into the pit of despair of junkfood and trash. But if you are still battling your cravings, maybe do it as close as you can while avoiding those trigger foods like cookies and chocolate  

    Im sticking with it very closely because reintroduction is an important part for me for inflammation and pain so i need to keep possible triggers out of my diet until i have a better idea. once i know ill rotate the foods i want back in but focus on not eating them every day and not eating all of them all the time lol. I bet getting to the end is always hard because it seems like a finish line and the reward should obviously be eat delicious! Thats why ive planned from the beginning to go past 30 or else there was a good chance at 31 id be like PIZZA TIME! so now i dont even know the end date im just counting - TAKE THAT BRAIN
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from patrickjohn in Patrick's Whole30 Log   
    hi @patrickjohn !
    My original start date was going to be the first but then i just figured F* it and started last sunday. Like you the sugar dragon and the mental clarity are huge issues for me and I am actually shocked at my lack of overall sugar cravings (cheese is apparently my true love ive learned). The forums have so much information and the people are super friendly and supportive.
    Happy thoughts for your day 1
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    Blueautumn got a reaction from Contessa in Contessa's June Realignment   
    Chips ahoy sound amazing though. I was having dessert with every meal lol. It's so awesome how much stuff is focused on removing all.those filler ingredients and being whole 30 compliant - options! I love options 
    Is today your start date? Hopefully you feel better sooner than later!
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    Blueautumn reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    @Blueautumn congrats on getting another day done, and super congratulations on all those NSV's!
    LOL I never considered that to be an option in my life, although I have a saying when doing anything w/ cheese especially with the over 50 crowd: 
    "Cheese is the new chocolate" 
    Funny thing, my dutch family has an expression for that nauseous feeling when you're hungry, we call it having "flauw" rhymes with cow.  I grew up hearing that ALL.THE. TIME.  We all knew what it meant, nausea but not due to an illness, rather due to a dietary need.  Like - 'I need to eat something right now.'  I've never found a similar word in the english language that means the same thing.  Thanks to W30 and a low FODMAPs experiment I did a few years ago, I rarely feel that now.  Nor do I get the shakes anymore when I need to eat.  I'm 100% confident that you have that to look forward to!
    Enjoy your day off.