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    Semi reacted to Ginsky in Whole30 in Germany   
    Congratulations on staying strong and staying on track!  sorry about the bike though, that's rough.  
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    Semi got a reaction from Mikaliki in Starting August 5th- need this to feel happier   
    It happens! And tbh better on day 2 than on day 20 etc
    You give your best!
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    Semi got a reaction from Mikaliki in Starting August 5th- need this to feel happier   
    It happens! And tbh better on day 2 than on day 20 etc
    You give your best!
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    Semi reacted to Mikaliki in Starting August 5th- need this to feel happier   
    Day 2 was so tough, and...I need to re-start, because I broke into some 'healthy' GRAINS. And I am embarrassed.  So, today is day 1, again. 
    I will report back about my food later. breakfast- black coffee and chia pudding with figs
     
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    Semi reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Yesterday was not fully compliant, but great nonetheless.  I decided to have a glass of wine with dinner and it was delicious and worth it.  FWIW, the Primal Kitchen mango jalapeno barbecue sauce is amazing-my anti-healthy diet husband agreed.  My mood and energy levels were good all day. 
    I've been mulling over a revelation I had the other day after reading and thinking about a question about tiger blood in @Semi's log...I think my issue over the last few weeks is that I lost the tiger blood.  Between the staying-compliant-with-the-poorest-choices-I-could-ingest, the heat wave, the emotional roller-coaster of home life...I lost it.  It's possible, probable, that it would be impossible to maintain tiger blood when other areas are unstable, but keeping that in mind is another way for me to be non-judgmental and kind with myself.  In my twisted self-talk way of convincing myself of various half-truths, the goal of regaining the tiger blood seems less daunting than sticking with a W30.  I think it has to do with my black-and-white, today was compliant or non-compliant mentality.  I'm still pondering this and why it strikes me as important.  
    Mood-8, Energy-8, Pain-2
    I hit the yoga goal with a delicious, hour long session during a thunderstorm yesterday.  Today, I should be able to get in my 2nd gym session (and hit that goal for the week), get 8k steps, and start C25k.  Tomorrow morning will be meal planning and shopping.  And I think I'll plan a drive to go for a hike.  
    M1-leftover chicken and zucchini from last night.  OMG so good.  
    M2-Daughter is coming by to pick up some mail and asked if I wanted to get lunch...will go for some sort of salad with steak or chicken.  
    M3-Chicken with Primal Kitchen buffalo sauce.  I should look up a ranch dressing recipe.  I'm partial to blue cheese, but I can do ranch.  I'll probably put it over romaine.  With salted, sliced cucumber.  I can feel myself getting excited about meals again...
    Holding pattern continues - I opened that wine last night and I'll need to finish it (can't let good wine go to waste!).  I'm actually pretty happy here the last few days.  My birthday is later this month, so maybe this will be a good place to be until then.  
      
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    Semi got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Whole30 in Germany   
    Yes, it would be worth it, but I stayed strong. Ate my meat and pumpkin beforehand and now will eat some cold Banana.
     
    I broke my bike yesterday and had to walk. Walking is horrible. It's so hot.
     
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    Semi reacted to Ginsky in Gin's 6th Whole30 Log   
    Day 6
    Hamburger soup for breakfast and it was delicious.  
    I managed to get motivated to make some fresh mayo, dump ranch dressing, and a coconut milk yogurt attempt.  I had wings in the fridge so I rubbed them with a bit of Cajun seasoning and popped them in the oven.  I had them with some hot buffalo sauce and a bit of the fresh ranch dressing I made.  Oh, and a salad with more of the ranch dressing.  There was a lot of everything so that became dinner too.  
    Hopefully tomorrow I'll have a jar of yogurt.  It's not even that I need it for my Whole30 but I would like a reliable non dairy yogurt I can make to avoid the high prices and garbage additives in most store bought ones.  While I had jars on the counter for the mayo and dressing seemed like a good time to try it.  I may try other recipes eventually.  
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    Semi reacted to Ginsky in Gin's 6th Whole30 Log   
    Day 4
    Staying on track.  I woke up thinking perhaps the headache was fading away but it got stronger as morning progressed.  Perhaps this is grief taking form as I suffered a tragedy but was unable to deal with it right away as I had to handle other emergencies surrounding it.  Emergencies are settled so perhaps this ensures grief can have its turn finally.    
    I was very happy to have so much turkey and spinach plus that soup ready for reheating. Turkey and spinach  for breakfast and dinner while the soup was for lunch.  And there's still a whole lot of both left.  I don't really have an appetite so I don't mind the lack of variety.  I am being sure to eat properly though and did include some black olives and homemade mayo (not both together) in different meals.  
     
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    Semi reacted to Ginsky in Gin's 6th Whole30 Log   
    Day 3
    The passing storm really did a number on me.  Weather headaches are kind of my thing. lol  I decided early in the morning (about 1am) that the hamburger soup would be my breakfast, lunch, and dinner.  I did dice up a yellow squash to add a little bit of extra veggies to it though.  
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    Semi reacted to Ginsky in Gin's 6th Whole30 Log   
    Day 2
    I felt head-achy and miserable all day.  I'm not sure if it's from Whole30 hangover effect or the tropical storm that is passing up along the east coast.  
    I had turkey and spinach with a fried egg on top for breakfast.  And that was pretty much the end of my motivation to cook for the day since my appetite really didn't kick in even after eating.  
    I had hamburger soup for lunch, was really grateful to past-me for making it. 
    I didn't even want dinner so I just threw together a salad of mixed greens and olives.  I managed to finish it so I felt accomplished. 
    I drank a lot of water through the day hoping to chase the headache away somehow.  It didn't work. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow but at least I have plenty of soup to get me through even if I don't.  
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    Semi reacted to MadyVanilla in Whole30 in Germany   
    But is it going to be the good, worth-it ice cream?  
    It sounds like you are getting lots of movement in, despite the heat.   That's awesome.  
     
    Nothing to say here, except yep, it's awful.  But necessary.  I so struggle with this, too.  
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    Semi reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Day 11:  8/6/20

    Compliant.  Not amazing ... but productive.
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    Semi reacted to Mikaliki in Starting August 5th- need this to feel happier   
    Thank you, day one, done.  I did it. I ate a lot of veg. 
    lunch- arugula, tomatoes and canned salmon salad
    later meal- steamed cauli and mixed veg w seaweed and coconut aminos
    later later- can of hearts of palm and an apple
    I am super agitated, I was even before i started this, continue to be.
    i think the cookie and cracker eating i was doing before was way to 'deal' with the anxiety and now... got to loop in other ways. I will check the forum for suggestions. 
     
     
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    Semi got a reaction from Ginsky in Whole30 in Germany   
    Nearly broke my W30.
    Already prepared oats and granola. Then 2 packs of almond milk were bad. So my W30 was saved by bad almond milk.
     
    Instead I ate coconut Yoghurt with tons of chia seed, flax seed,pumpkin seed and blueberrys. Also some raisins. Tasted yummy.
     
    I still miss cake.
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    Semi reacted to mazzystarslight in Frustrated I Can't Have Food Freedom   
    YET
    I finished my second round of Whole30 on Friday -- it really should have ended this Thursday after I reintroduced gluten but I took an impromptu road trip and it was too hard to say no to my cousin's homemade pasta, bread, cocktails, etc., especially since I did no preparation besides bring a few emergency bars. I learned a lot from the experience and held it together okay until I got back today, when I went on an eating spree at my parent's house (where I got dropped off) and on my way back to my apartment. I just finished reading Food Freedom Forever, have read the 30-Day Guide, and recently started It Starts With Food. I get the science, psychology, and everything behind it all and read everything carefully, but get so nervous consuming things that are non-compliant that I decided to starting at least a Whole7 and maybe extend it when I got back (starting tomorrow) so I think I just kind of went nuts in anticipation and now I feel horrible. A few takeaways:
    Impromptu trips are hard during a reset/reintro -- I need to better prepare and communicate, and be more comfortable saying no and accommodating what I can eat I can't "go crazy" once I stop my reset/reintroduction, but I also can't guilt trip myself every time I eat something "off-plan" afterwards either I can't just keep going back to a reset after a few days/little bit (there was less than month between my first and second Whol30) and "go crazy" because I know that I'm about to reset again I need to find a dietician/health care provider that is supportive of my healthy lifestyle goals (I feel like my current one is very anti-diet culture and wary of any type of elimination thing like this, and I'm only proving her right) I need to learn how to trust myself around food/drink so that I'm not feeling like I'll go off the rails without Whole30 I have to stop obsessing over my weight (I lost 22 pounds my first Whole 30 and gained about 8 eight pounds in a month before I started my second, when I lost another 12 pounds -- too scared to check now after just a few days); I've lost over 50 pounds on my weight loss journey since about 2018 and hate fluctuating so much I'm basically just annoyed that I've done all of this reading and talking about it, invested in more expensive healthy foods, get into a healthy eating/exercise routine, and then totally blow it up. It's kind of what I do to everything -- relationships, work, etc. -- but I'm just so mentally fatigued and it's hard to trouble-shoot sometimes 
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    Semi reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Day 10:  8/5/20
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    The news I speak of (which I cannot yet bring myself to speak of here) is weighing heavy on my heart tonight.  I've stayed strong for other people, and I've held back the tears because I don't want to discuss it with MIL.  Man, it's weird having someone else living in your home ...  We get along fine, but this is deep and personal.  Very, very little is "mine" anymore.
    So, I'm finally sitting outside, alone, late at night, and having a good cry.  The dogs don't mind.    And they don't ask me any questions.
    Tomorrow is a new day ~ and I'm looking forward to it.
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    Semi reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Thanks @Semi ~ I meant to say that above ^ but it deserves its own post anyway.
    4+ years is a big, huge deal.  I appreciate you sharing your experience, and I definitely appreciate the encouragement.
    There has only been one other period of my life where I drank on a nightly basis.  I didn't really consider it a problem at the time, and even looking back - I don't see that it caused any big problems.  But clearly it's not ideal.
    This stretch lately was worrisome.  I don't want to go back there.
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    Semi got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Whole30 in Germany   
    We eat ton of cake. For every occassion there is some baked goodness and every season has their own cakes.
    We enter plum cake season, but also apple cake season...and I really want forking cake.
    Life without cake is horrible, I mean it's cake season!
     
    If I break this W30 it will be at my MIL Place, when we have our daily tea time (at 4 o'clock!)
     
    That's what filled buttercake looks like. It's either filled with vanilla pudding cream or buttercream. It's tasty.
     

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    Semi reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Whole30 in Germany   
    Oh, those cakes look so very good.  My hope is to learn to shush my Sugar Dragon on demand, so that I can enjoy things like you've shown here and not be drawn into an ongoing battle.  
    If you can continue to turn down all of the temptations, you should expect to feel Tiger Blood around this time next week.  For me it was a game changer.  It feels so good that I crave to have it again.  I had excellent sleep, woke up early (6:00am) and felt immediately awake and wanted to get things done.  I had steady high energy until bedtime (10 or 11pm), then went to bed and fell asleep almost immediately.  It really is a beautiful feeling.  The thing is that for me I learned that I need to be strictly on Whole 30 for at least 2 1/2 weeks before Tiger Blood kicks in.  It's really hard to do, and hard to keep doing.   
    I'm cheering for you, I hope you get to feel Tiger Blood soon!
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    Semi got a reaction from Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    I feel you.
    I was once addicted to alcohol and being sober is still hard (after over 4 years).
    You've got this! You are strong! <3
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    Semi got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Whole30 in Germany   
    We eat ton of cake. For every occassion there is some baked goodness and every season has their own cakes.
    We enter plum cake season, but also apple cake season...and I really want forking cake.
    Life without cake is horrible, I mean it's cake season!
     
    If I break this W30 it will be at my MIL Place, when we have our daily tea time (at 4 o'clock!)
     
    That's what filled buttercake looks like. It's either filled with vanilla pudding cream or buttercream. It's tasty.
     

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    Semi got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Whole30 in Germany   
    The idea with freezing it, is really good!
    I do so crave it, it's just traditonal southern german food, like Schwarzwälder Kirschtorte (Blackforest Cherry Cake) (one of the few exceptions for my vegan living was this cake!).
    I just hope that I will get over this cravings. Fast.
    We will visit my MIL next Tuesday and stay there for 10 Days! And they have traditonal filled butter cake...
    Quite honestly: Germany is the country of cakes and I'm dying... m(
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    Semi reacted to Contessa in Starting August 5th- need this to feel happier   
    Wishing you a smooth start this morning, Mikaliki! Reaching out to draw on the strength of the community is a wise move, and signals the seriousness of your intention. Please lean on us, check in as often as you need to, and know that we are cheering you on!
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    Semi reacted to Mikaliki in Starting August 5th- need this to feel happier   
    FEELS GOOD to get your comments this morning, thanks! I had this scary moment this morning as i was waking up- what if the forum community thinks i believe that food somehow will 'me me happy' and then this fear that i would be another one of those voices- if only you ate or looked xyz, than all would be better.  I know it is not a singular solution and that so much more involved and as I do those other things, the walking, yoga, connecting, etc, I am still a pawn to my cravings, and its that dynamic that makes me feel sad, heavy, lost, etc.  That's my clarification.
    NOW- for black coffee to start the day! TTYL
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    Semi got a reaction from Mikaliki in Starting August 5th- need this to feel happier   
    Welcome!
    Your preparations are quite good, so you set yourself up for success!
    I wish you the Best on your journey!