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    GoJo09 got a reaction from KTag in Workout Supplements   
    You really don't need to take BCAAs (branch chain amino acids) if you're eating a well constructed diet including animal protein. I work out pretty hard, running and Crossfit, and I don't bother.
    If you're vegetarian, it might be more worthwhile, as vegetarian protein sources aren't complete proteins, ie. they're each lacking some of the amino acids (you have to be very conscious of combining vegetarian protein sources to ensure you get all of the required amino acids).
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    GoJo09 got a reaction from Jingalong in Sourcing food in Australia   
    Woolworths Select brand now has compliant liquid stock too - free range chicken, fish, beef and vegetable. It was $5.99 for 500ml.
    And the Macro brand Dijon Mustard is compliant (and way cheaper than Maille - although I haven't tasted it yet, might not be as good).
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    GoJo09 got a reaction from EllieHH in Minimizing explanations   
    "Alcohol has been making me feel pretty rubbish lately, so I'm cutting it out". Who can argue with that? (Also, why would they argue in the first place?? But as we all know, some people are jerks and have their own problems.) 
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    GoJo09 got a reaction from EllieHH in Minimizing explanations   
    "Alcohol has been making me feel pretty rubbish lately, so I'm cutting it out". Who can argue with that? (Also, why would they argue in the first place?? But as we all know, some people are jerks and have their own problems.) 
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    GoJo09 reacted to helenlovescello in Non-scale victories!   
    I just finished my first round of Whole 30! I probably have lost weight or at least inches, because my clothes fit better, but I'm not going to weigh myself this time- I don't want to forget about my other benefits! 
    Before I started this, I was six weeks post emergency surgery for a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. I was anemic, anxious, and depressed. I woke up about four times every night and couldn't sleep at all without melatonin. I was dealing with a case of tendonitis/tennis elbow/golfer's elbow which was keeping me from doing my job well (I am a cellist and cello teacher). I was exhausted all the time and couldn't get anything done I wanted or needed to. Walking a mile was a huge effort. And in addition, I was stress eating junk food all the time. 
    Now, I sleep through the night, my mood is much better and more stable, I go running three times a week, my playing injury is much more under control, I haven't had my blood tested but I don't feel anemic- I have lots of energy, good color in my face, etc. I don't like junky food as much, and don't usually get hungry between meals. I have a much better relationship with food and don't usually eat because I'm stressed or bored. Plus, my skin looks great, and clothes that didn't used to button button now! 
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    GoJo09 got a reaction from -Kara in Reintroduction: Alcohol question...   
    I personally would leave the alcohol, gluten free or otherwise, until later in your reintros, purely because it's the one item that can easily lead to a face first dive off track - alcohol lowers your inhibitions (especially when you haven't been drinking of a while) and that 1 cider turns into 2 turns in to a run to the ice cream store with a burger on the side, and before you know it you've eaten 7 different things that could all have their own side-effects, but you'll never untangle them.
    You also don't have a reintro day for sugar in your list - if you're concerned about how that will affect you (without the side of alcohol) you should really intro that separately as well.
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    GoJo09 reacted to ElizabethG in Waking up on the right side of the bed & a mini re-set   
    I've completed 2 W30s over the last few years, and have learned a lot, and honestly continue to learn a lot as I work toward finding my food freedom. I have to continually remind myself that it's always a learning process, and I will always have moments that are rough. Yesterday was a rough afternoon to say the least, one which ended with 2 donuts and ice cream. I think it's time for a re-set, both for my physical health, and my mental health. 
    I'm committing to 14 days of W30 to remind myself why I choose this lifestyle, because it really is a choice I'm happy to make most of the time. I'm already anticipating some challenges in these two weeks, but that's part of life, and I know how to handle them. My goal today is to feel proud about making a choice to come back to W30 the second I felt something slipping off the rails, and to feel excited about having 2 weeks to revisit some of my favorite recipes.
    Anyone else out their struggling a bit?
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    GoJo09 got a reaction from Tarrantrl in Beans: problematic or just...beans?   
    That's the great thing, though - you get to choose whether it's worth it to have gas or not! Personally, my reaction to chickpeas was so bad that for the sake of my friendships I have to give them up   (it also lasted for days, so clearly worse than what you noticed!). I'm not game to try other legumes, but I don't like them enough to mind not having them. If you love them and you can put up with the results, then there's your answer. 
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    GoJo09 reacted to kirbz in Smoothie bowl success?   
    For me, I love green smoothies. And I'm talking pretty green, green smoothies. Like, ones with only a single, small portion of fruit and then lots of vegetables, including green, leafy ones. I don't understand why they're not okay on Whole30. I don't see how they're that much different than drinking calories in bone broth. I don't see how they're that much different than eating a creamy soup. 
    And I certainly don't see why they aren't a good source of greens in the morning for breakfast when they have fat in them and are served with protein. 
    But, I like the black and white of the rules and recommendations, so I avoid them while doing a Whole30. Are they a regular part of my non-Whole30 diet? Yes. But I don't drink them on Whole30 because I try to trust the rules and recommendations just as they're written. 
    I guess this isn't much help. I guess I just want to say that I can definitely relate to where you're coming from. But yeah, I still choose not to drink them while on Whole30. 
    Best of luck to you! 
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    GoJo09 reacted to SugarcubeOD in Sugar in whole-cut meats?!   
    It's actually exactly this (bolded for emphasis).  To the OP @Matthew81, no, there's no scientific reason for the no added sugar rule for things like this - it's because not only does the Whole30 change the food on your plate but it's teaching you how to learn what is in your food and really be aware and cognizant of how much sugar is in every.thing.  The sugar in that meat is probably not going to send you spiralling into a sugar bender but it does bring to light that MEAT could have SUGAR!!??!!
    Why not eat the Turkey breast and then start your Whole30 the next day?  Or if you already ate it, do a Whole32 instead of a Whole30 if starting back at the beginning or delaying your official start date is harder on your motivation.  No one is going to smack that turkey out of your hand as @laura_juggles said but knowingly choosing to eat something with off plan ingredients during your 30 days is contrary to the rules and you won't have done a Whole30.
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    GoJo09 got a reaction from ladyshanny in Craving red wine, alcoholic family, should I give it up   
    Hi @HeatherSoleil
    I have a very similar family history to you, and have had similar realisations about my own drinking habits many times. I perhaps drank a little more than you, depending on the stage of my journey.
    I now have in place for myself quite firm rules around drinking, namely, no drinking alone at home, and no more than 2 drinks at a time. And when I find that I am making excuses to go out specifically so I can have a drink, I'm thinking about it a lot, or I've had drinks multiple nights in a week, I pick a length of time to go dry (maybe a week, maybe longer).
    I also try really hard to examine my reasons for having a drink eg. Because it is nice to have a beer on a Sunday afternoon with friends is fine. Because I've had a rubbish day and I want to make it better is not.
    You've just got to figure out what kind of boundaries work for you, and that might be a complete absence of alcohol.
    By the way, I was going to start a little dry spell on Monday (as I have had quite a few drinks this week), but writing this made me realise that I need to start today, not Monday - another 3 days of drinking isn't going to help me at all! (I literally have 4 social things in the next 3 days that would/could have involved alcohol!)
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    GoJo09 reacted to wellnessandglory in Jumping in with both feet   
    Hubby and I are starting another round of Whole30 tomorrow.  I’m honestly eager for the reset, I feel that my body needs it, however my mind is not quite in sync with the upcoming countdown. But. When your hubby asks you to do another round of your beloved whole30... you say yes and jump in with both feet. So tonight I’m refreshing myself with allthewhole30things and thought I’d pop into the Whole30 forum. I’ve never checked this space out before. 
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    GoJo09 got a reaction from CharlotteU in Hello   
    What @kirbz meant was that you should ignore the nutrition panel (the list of macro/mirco nutrients with all the numbers beside them) and look only at the ingredients. If any of the ingredients aren't Whole 30 allowed, put the product down. If you look at the nutrition panel on a can of tomatoes, for example, it will say that it has xx grams of sugar per 100g - that makes people freak out and think they can't have that product because it has sugar. But, if you look at the ingredients list right below it will not (should not!) list any added sugar - the nutrition panel is referring to the naturally occuring sugars in tomatoes. So, ignore the numbers and just look at the ingredients.
    If there's an ingredient you're not sure of, just google it + whole30 - there are a lot of really long scary sounding words that are actually just stabilisers and are perfectly legit. 
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    GoJo09 reacted to mum-bum in Whole30 w/ my teen...   
    Not sure how wise it is to do a whole30 w/ an already grumpy teenager but here goes nothing.  My DS is 15 and is the one who really wanted to do a whole 30 after hearing me talk about it.  He's read the book and is really committed.  I'm doing this with him.  If we can make it past the Kill All The Things phase it could be a good bonding experience.
    Day 1:
    Breakfast: 2 scotch eggs (homemade compliant) w/ kale salad
    Lunch: Salad w/ chicken, olive oil and vinegar
    Dinner: roasted chicken thighs, steamed broccoli w/ ghee and potatoes pan crisped in ghee
    Standard day 1 feeling.  made it through the day and feeling pretty good.
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    GoJo09 reacted to calikatie in teen eating junk food when out with friends   
    Thanks, @ladyshanny. That kind of talk sounds inspiring. As far as the donuts twice a year, my point was more illustrative. (It's not like I have an alarm on my phone that says "Six months have passed, you can have a second donut." I can't actually remember the last time we had a donut.) I meant to give context that she is not so sugar restricted at home that she might be reacting to too strict a diet - we have the usual chocolate Easter bunnies and eggs, Halloween candy, other treats, etc. that most families do. It's just not a daily thing.
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    GoJo09 reacted to ShannonM816 in teen eating junk food when out with friends   
    This really may be outside the scope of what we can really help you with here. Hopefully you'll get some good suggestions, but you might also consider speaking to your doctor or even maybe a trusted therapist if you have access to one to get a professional opinion about the best way to approach this without causing more stress for both you and your daughter. 
    If this is her way of asserting authority over her own decisions, it's unlikely that anything you do or say to convince her is going to change her mind. She may also feel like the only way to fit in is to eat what her friends eat and do what they do, and she might not have the confidence to speak up for herself even if she'd prefer to eat healthier around them. (I hope that's not the case, but I can remember times when I was younger when that's how I felt, so I'm throwing it out there for consideration.) 
    For now, maybe focus on having healthy food at home. Invite her friends over for meals or to hang out at your home if that's possible, and have healthy food options that they'd still enjoy. Let her help plan what to eat, with some guidelines -- maybe ask her to pick mostly recipes from certain cookbooks or from certain websites, with maybe one or two options that are not as healthy. Offer to make her food to take with her, or offer to bring her food if she wants, but don't force it and don't be upset if she chooses not to take you up on it. When you talk about food or diet, try not to focus on weight, hers or your own or anyone else's. Make it about feeling good, having energy to do the things you like to do, not being moody. If she says she's experiencing some symptom, and you have also experienced something similar and found relief from it by changing your eating, you could mention that, not in a nagging way, just present the information and let her do with it what she will. If you have any of the whole30 books or other books on healthy eating, make sure they're someplace accessible so she can pick them up and read them if she wants to. She may not, and that's okay, the point is to let her figure things out at her own pace, which may not be as fast as you'd like.
    Obviously, if she's having other health problems, if her doctor is wanting to put her on meds for things that could be changed with dietary changes, then you'd have reason to be much more insistent that she make changes.  That's not what it seems like you're describing here, though.
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    GoJo09 reacted to ElizabethG in What has been your most lasting food habit after Whole30?   
    I love this question! I've had a rough couple of days with food choices, and really committing to getting back on track today. One of the ways that helps me stay positive and move forward is taking a few steps back to realize how much good change I've made since my first WHole30 almost 2 years; remember this is a really long journey, with lots of ups and downs. That being said, one of the most lasting changes for me has been cutting way back on mindless snacking. Work used to be a black hole of bad choices, but now, most days I am able to walk right past all the junk food, and recognize I'm not actually hungry. 
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    GoJo09 reacted to Laurenacc in Reintroduction: Alcohol question...   
    Thanks GoJo! I was following the Fast Track Reintro plan that I saw in The Whole30 book...it says Day 1 is optional for gluten-free alcohol but I figured I should include it, Day 1 (or 4) legumes, Day 4 (or 7) non gluten grains, Day 7 (or 10) dairy, Day 10 (or 13) gluten containing grains. No sugar reintro is mentioned...but it *does* say that many of the foods in the other food groups will also contain sugar. So...I assumed that meant there wasn't really a day given for sugar reintro. I'm happy to add it if there's a new reintro plan that I'm not aware of, but I was just trying to follow the outline I saw in the book.
    I'm fine with reintro-ing a dif gluten-free alcohol if the cider seems like a bad trigger, but I figured I should be testing alcoholic beverages I actually consume. I normally don't go for wine since it makes me sleepy- that seemed like the next best thing to try gluten-free wise. And I definitely don't want to take a shot of gluten-free tequila...nor sip it, blech! 
    I totally get what you mean when you say- having 1 cider turns into 2 and then going overboard and eating all things bad and messing up. But even when I wasn't doing the Whole30- I never have more than 1 drink, so I know that's definitely not going to be happening. I'll be surprised if I even finish one 12oz bottle. I'm a lightweight and don't care much for alcohol, I only choose to reintroduce it to see how my body reacts to having it again. And while I'm sure MANY people have said- "Oh I'm super strict, I'm not going to let this trigger me to eat anything else off-plan for that day"...I'm sure some have fallen off the wagon and given in. BUT- I've been struggling with stomach issues for years and I'm serious about doing this right so I can see which item will affect me and how. I'm almost certain during the 15 days of reintro, I'm not going to jump off the deep end and eat pizza, cake, and guzzle an irish car bomb in one sitting, hehe. 
    So...I guess this brings me back to: are either of these ciders ok to drink as my gluten-free alcoholic beverage reintro- or is it bad that I drink something sweet (even though the angry orchard doesn't say sugar in the ingredients) and with sulfites in it? Open to other gluten-free alcohol suggestions, I just want to make sure I have something around come the day I have that for my reintro. Thanks!
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    GoJo09 reacted to Mr. Greg in Hit a wall   
    Fair enough. I won't send in the spread sheet.
    But I will be logging my food. I think that process alone will help me be significantly more conscious in my food intake... especially if I post it to others...
    I definitely will NOT be counting calories.
    Yes, I have learned a lot about my body over this past 3 months.
    And while I understand the not weighing one's self on the Whole 30, (I did not the first month) I have a pretty big weight loss goal this year. (I'm a very goal oriented person.) So, I really need to be tracking where I am at. I think weekly will be sufficient. (I agree with you about the daily.) Now, if the weight continued to keep coming off like it did the first month... I'd say OK... once every month... at the end of the Whole 30. Yes, I know it's not all about weight... it's about health. I get that. My goal is already in place, and I have several people holding me accountable on it. (and several other goals.)
    If my weight goes up, then there is a problem. I understand that I need to eat healthy and what I feel is right. But I don't think that going up at all is a good thing. Period. Last week I weighed 309 lbs... I know that 309 is not my equilibrium point... not even close. In fact, I believe my ideal weight would be closer to 205 - 220. With that said, if the weight does go up, I'm not going back to LaraBars and nuts... I have been chastised enough. Besides, if I plan ahead, I will have proper nutrition ahead of time.
    So does this mean that I am not on a Whole 30? No... I'm still following the foods. I'm just weighing myself once a week... instead of waiting the month. 
    By the way, I think you have a gift in encouragement.
    Thank you.
    You certainly have encouraged me
    One final thing: Yes... this is different. I can see sticking to this plan. I see it as a lifestyle change. Whereas other things before... you are right... they were temporary.
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    GoJo09 reacted to Whole Nerdy in Over-50 Whole 30   
    I want to share a bit about what I see as the advantages of Whole 30 eating for people over 50, with one possible caveat.
    A while back when I was a lithe young thing in my thirties, a friend of mine in his mid-fifties sat down heavily on a bench and said to me, "You see, this is what happens when you get older--your muscles get all achy." I remember thinking, Oh, no, I don't want that to be me. Cut to me in my late forties and early fifties--sure enough, I'd wake up in the morning, shuffle my sore limbs to the bathroom, and look back at a puffy face. I just thought it was normal. Then I started a paleo-style diet, and the achiness almost immediately went away. It was dramatic: I could bend over and place my palms on the floor first thing in the morning, which I couldn't have dreamed about before.
    Recently, my sugar habit came back, with a vengeance. I would feel tired and creaky just walking up the stairs. So I did a Whole45, just to really keep the sugar demons at bay. It was a joy to feel the litheness I had felt in my limbs at a young age return. I felt like someone had literally oiled my joints. I am emphasizing this because so many people believe that soreness and lack of flexibility are an inevitable product of old age. It ain't so.
    Another great advantage of Whole30-ing for older people is the way it changes your habits. By the time you've been on the planet for half a century or more, your manner of thinking about food and your style of eating have become pretty well engrained. Your mind may try to be as inflexible as your body once was. We all know from research and from the examples of people around us that changing habits and learning new skills are both an important part of aging well. With Whole30 you have to rethink a lot of things you may have been doing automatically that no longer serve you. This in itself is freeing. 
    What's the caveat? My lipids level zoomed up along with my adoption of the paleo diet--both HDL and LDL increased; my doctors have been pestering me to go on statins. Women lose the protection that estrogen previously gave to their heart when they go through menopause, so heart-released problems often show up at this stage. I am not sure how much this increase in cholesterol had to do with my change in diet or with menopause itself. Probably a combination of both. Now that I have completed my Whole45 I am experimenting with a Mediterranean-style diet--still grain-free, but veering in the direction of fish and lowering my intake of red meat, which is problematic anyway (increases cancer risk in many studies, high carbon footprint). 
    I have learned so much from this Whole45, including how much the foods I eat influence my cognitive and concentration skills. (Hint: much more than I previously thought!) Again, eating the foods that work for me help me to preserve that most precious resource. Good luck to all you at all ages.
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    GoJo09 reacted to Brewer5 in Hit a wall   
    First of all, congratulations!  58 pounds in 3 months is a HUGE accomplishment -- as is sticking to Whole 30 eating for that amount of time.  Seriously.  You have made so much progress ~ don't lose sight of the non-scale victories you've gained.  That is awesome.  
    It would be helpful if you list what your typical days look like.  That could help with suggestions you might get.  
    The #1 thing that stands out in my mind (which may or may not apply) is that IF you have been eating nuts, nut butters, dried fruits, Larabars, trail mixes -- it may be time to think about replacing some of those items with more protein.  They are not very satiating, and they are easy to overdo.  Protein, on the other hand, will provide much-needed nutrients and long-lasting energy to help blast you through your days & keep this good thing going.  
    If you are not eating those things at all, it could also be that your body is working through a period of stress or healing, and you just need to stay the course that makes you feel good, and trust the system.   It could also be that you've simply reached a point of energy balance, and you may have to play around with the composition of your meals a little bit to shake things up & see what works.
    In any case, best wishes, and again -- CONGRATS!    
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    GoJo09 reacted to Bex111 in weirdest.weightloss.ever   
    I loved this.  The dizzying highs, the terrifying lows....
    today is day 32. I was very sure that I hadn't lost much weight. I was guessing about 4 pounds.  Day 30, crack of dawn I jumped on that scale and...8 pounds!! I am 5"2" so that is quite a lot of weight for me, but I had been carefully scrutinizing myself the whole month and I never would have thought I lost that! When I have been on Weight Watchers and dropped 6 pounds in a month my pants are MUCH roomier, but not with the W30.  My face is narrower, my breasts are smaller, (not need a new bra size, but smaller) and I guess my pants are more comfortable, but not like when I have lost weight in the past.  Has anyone else experienced this?  I feel like maybe it's not actually water weight like on the other diets so that's why?
    The really best part is that I absolutely loved this experience.  NSV indeed.  I am continuing with it happily and gratefully.
    Anyone else surprised in this way?
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    GoJo09 reacted to Newsland33 in Achieving is believing   
    Hi, all:
    I'm back. In fact, I just finished Day 80.
    I know, because one of the many good habits I have picked up on my W30 journey is to keep track of my food and exercise, as well a few thoughts on how I'm feeling, on a daily basis.
    To be clear, I've not been compliant for 80 straight days, although the thought to try has crossed my mind a few times. I've reintroduced all the food groups that I avoided during my W30 period - with the exception of sugar, which I am really trying to do without. Some - dairy and legumes - have gone better than others - grains.
    To be even more clear, when I say reintroduced I don't mean on a daily - or even regular - basis. More days than not, I am completely, or nearly, compliant. This way of eating has become second nature and I've started to figure out how to handle the occasional craving, when to jump back on the wagon completely for a couple of days to keep my momentum going  - and perhaps most importantly for my sanity I'm starting to give myself permission to consciously ignore W30 for a good cause (like closing on the sale of our house last week, which we celebrated with a wonderful meal of pizza and champagne). 
    In a word, I've become mindful of what I am eating/drinking and why.
    My choices are conscious ones, and the vast majority of them have been good choices. It's empowering and the results have become a virtuous circle of weight loss, increased energy, better focus, terrific home-cooked meals, more sound sleep, better vital signs and a generally more relaxed demeanor.
    I'm down 30 pounds since mid-January. I'm working out 4-5 days a week, as opposed to 1-2 days a month. My blood pressure is lower than it's been in years and my resting heart rate is in the low 60s. 
    Beyond that, I look forward to tackling the day and seeing where this journey will take me next. I still have a ways to go to reach my weight goal, but for the first time in memory I see a path to get there. 
    I'm sure there will be more stumbles and obstacles in the days, weeks, months ahead.
    But that's OK, because I'm in charge of my life and this process. And that may be the biggest success of them all for me. 
    With appreciation to the W30 community and all those in my life who are providing support that has made all the difference.
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    GoJo09 reacted to LizaQ in LizaQ's Log   
    Day 9 - Th 4/12
    B: 7:30 Hash P: Chicken and sausages V: Sweet potatoes and spinach, arugula F: Caesar dressing. also pineapple
    L: 11:00 Egg salad P: 3 eggs V: sweet potatoes and shallots F: Mayo. Also Cashews! *I was on my way out an still hungry so I added cashew ot my meal instead of extra veg since I didn't have time to cook more and didn't want more raw veg.
    D: 6:00 Sheetpan P: Chicken thighs V: Carrots, shallots and garlic F: no extra fat. I wasn't that hungry and I felt like I had had so much fat at lunch it would ok to just have the avocado oil from the veg. Still afraid of too much fat I guess.
    Today I had the dr. I don't know how much I have lost the past week exactly because I only know how much I have lost since I last saw him. But he was pleased with my weight! My BP was good  - 112/82 - so I don't have to take a water pill anymore, just the regular med. I'll see him again in 6 months and I am hoping that I will get off that med altogether then! We discussed my exhaustion, pain, itch, etc. and got the referrals I needed. I'll see a derm for the itch and go back to the rheumatologist and hematologist.
    Symptoms? Terribly itchy in the evening. I did make an appt for the derm but that's in a few weeks. 2x trips to the bathroom - close to normal. Again, I took no naps or rests, even after taking the bus/walking to get to the dr plus making 2 dinners - one for my husband and son and one for my daughter and me - but I was very ready to lay down at 7. I was ready to sleep at around 9:30. My sleep was similar to the night before - woke up many times but did not stay awake for long periods of time. My pain was very specific - rolling over with a torn meniscus is painful and wakes me up! I woke up for real at 6 and felt like I could start my day. Limping a little but it is not all of my arthritis, just the meniscus. That's an improvement. And my feet didn't hurt as much yesterday!
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    GoJo09 reacted to JodiLou in Not a failure -Not emotionally in a good place- Whole 30 is a big deal   
    I do not want to say that I am a failure. I am not a failure. But I would like to say that of all the prep work I did over a month and a half before starting Whole30 I really had no concept of the emotional impact Whole30 would have on me. Of course reading the timeline and the day-by-day in the journal after I started I understood that it was normal. But I really think that if I had known that it was going to be that emotionally challenging on me I would have picked the time to start it when I was not in such a difficult emotional place in my life. I am not trying to make excuses. But currently my husband has been unemployed for almost 4 months, which has caused a financial strain on my family and a personal strain on my marriage as we work through this. There are currently questions in my career as we are now under new leadership and there is talk of attrition and layoffs. In addition to this I have my oldest graduating from college this spring along with my youngest graduating from high school. Both are very emotional for me.
    As I stated I actually did a lot of prep work before choosing a date for my Whole30. Incidentally the first week of my Whole30 actually fell on my birthday. But that was fine because I was committed. We had no travel plans in next 30 days and it was before both graduations and after my children's birthdays and a long weekend trip out of town. So I really thought that I had picked a good time to start. On day 6 is when I really realized that committing to Whole30 at the present time was probably not the best idea for me. I definitely read about the KATT days earlier in the week. And thought that I would be able to push through. The night of day 4 was my first real trial. It was my last day of work for the week. And of course just like most people at the end of their work week ; one wants to come home and enjoy a couple glasses of wine and probably eat some food that is not good for them. That was very difficult but I pushed through it and ate a good Whole30 approved meal that night. But several things came up in the home that night financially and I ended up picking a fight with my husband and going to bed crying. Over everything. Of course we all have really bad days and I just attributed it to being tired and having a bad day in addition to where I was in The Whole30. The following morning day 5 was my birthday. I woke up and looked outside to find 6 inches of fresh snow. It has been a very long winter here in Montana and I immediately started to cry like a baby all over again. And that is how my morning went. The day got better my husband and I visited a nearby local town that day and had an enjoyable day and I was extremely proud of myself. That night we went out with some friends to a bar with a band and danced and had a great time for hours and I drank ice water with lemon all night without a single wish for an adult like beverage. Saturday came along and I did my shopping and planning for the week. I came home from shopping and my husband and I once again got into it over the financial situation of our family and the commitments that we had made financially prior to him being unemployed. I ended up of course crying for another couple of hours. It was at this point that I decided that committing to the Whole 30 at this difficult time in my life was probably not the best idea. Of course we all say can't do it at this time blah blah blah can't do it at that time blah blah blah and I understand that and I understand that there will always be some kind of an excuse. I really thought that I had done good planning as far as when to do it. But what I didn't realize was how emotionally challenging Whole30 would be for me. Not just the giving up of the foods and drinks that I love but how getting rid of those Foods really takes an emotional toll on your physical body as it adjusts to the changes. I am not in a good place right now in my personal life. And we all go through difficult times in our life and I understand that but I need to be able to get through the day by day without the added difficulties of the changes that Whole30 was giving me. I have always been a highly emotional person but crying a couple hours a day is not an appropriate way to behave. 
    I am no longer doing the full Whole30. The night of day 6 I had a non-compliant meal and a glass of wine. During that 2-hour bout of crying before I went back and forth and finally made a decision. And despite the fact that my husband told me I would feel awful after I did it and wake up feeling worse the next day, he was wrong and I have not looked back. Because right now I have to do what's best for me and not disrupt my family anymore than it is currently disrupted. I told my husband I am  "mostly" Whole 30. I would continue the plan as much as I could because I believe in it. And I have. All meals since have been Whole 30 compliant with only a little bit of A-1 on my roast last night. I'm continuing to eat breakfast despite the fact that I hate it and am forcing it down because I DO feel better when I do. I had a couple glasses of beer at the senior party planning meeting yesterday with friends. But I am drinking water and herbal tea in the evening rather than a glass or two of wine because I have definitely noticed that I sleep better. I am continuing to drink my coffee black or with a little bit of coconut milk in it. Essentially I am doing Whole30 but if I want something or have something going on I'm going to do it and feel no guilt about it. And continue eating primarily Whole30 as much as possible. If you knew how badly I ate before you would understand that this is actually still a ginormous achievement for me. And I will commit to the Whole 30 for a full 30 days when I am in a better emotional place in my personal life. I'm hoping that by doing 90% Whole30 right now that will really help me when I'm in a better place to make the commitment for the Whole 30 for 30 days.
    The Whole30 is no joke. And while I thought not being able to eat was going to be the most difficult part. Turns out I was entirely wrong. I ate plenty and have actually enjoyed the food. It was the emotional changes that put me over the edge.