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    LadyM got a reaction from BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 Round 2.3   
    I have a friend who says "Asking for help is inviting people to love you," and I try to remind myself of that because asking for help is something I really struggle to do. But I think you're 100% correct in your assessment. And creating the space and expectation that your kids make a contribution makes them a part of something larger in a very meaningful way--which no doubt helps build self esteem and teaches them major life lessons that will always serve them well.
    So I say throw that mom guilt down, lady! You're doing the best thing for everyone in "leaning on" others to make everything work. I'd say it looks like success in building a strong and loving family.
    My primary love languages are quality time and physical touch, which is partly why long distance is extra hard for me, but the Dude's primary love language is words of affirmation--and that's an easy one for me to show. Glad I decided to say something to you! You are doing GREAT! Better, even, for actively working against the unhealthy cultural norms. . . . 
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    LadyM reacted to Jennifer Jensen in Under a Rock, or a Log, or a Stone   
    Is It Tiger Blood?
    I woke up at 4:30 am and felt rested after only five hours of sleep. Yesterday we hiked what some consider a strenuous but short hiking trail up to the most beautiful waterfall and, while it was difficult, there is no way I would consider it strenuous. We're staying in Lexington, SC right outside of Columbia and we drove the two and a half hours to Marietta, SC to hike the Falls Creek Waterfall Trail. The day before we went to Columbia Canal and Riverfront Park and walked along the canal after I swam an hour in the pool at the airbnb. Today, we will either canoe Cedar Creek in the Congaree National Forest or Lake Murray. My husband is concerned about the water levels but it looks like the water level is in the safety range and by 10 am maybe it will be low enough that he believes we can paddle it. 

    I am so excited that my cravings are under control. I really only want to eat at meal times. I still am having difficulty finding food when we go out to eat but, if you are ever in Lexington, SC, check out Momma Rabbits Nibbles and Sips. Our server checked out all the food for me and I was able to eat a meat and three called McGregor's Dinner Plate with smoked turkey, roasted Brussel sprouts, roasted vegetable medley, and a naked baked sweet potato. The smoked turkey was so delicious I got some more to make a turkey salad to take on our hike. I couldn't finish it all and gave some to my husband. That is another thing - I have been more mindful of when I am full. Yay! 

    NSVs:
    no cravings more aware when I am full nails are stronger and healthier my hair is so silky, shiny, and thick - never looked and felt this great maybe clothing fits better, my jeans are really hard to tell but I have a pair of black dress pants that seem to say, "yes" tiger blood, I really think so, I feel ready for the day While here I have been cooking scrambled eggs and bacon for breakfast and usually some fruit since veggies are a little more difficult to cook. We had some oven roasted wings last night and celery with a combo of my homemade mayo, Primal Kitchen buffalo sauce, and Primal Kitchen ranch dressing. 

    I am a little concerned that tomatoes, my favorite veggie/fruit, is an inflammatory food for me. I am not sure but will wait until after the reintroduction and try eliminating later. I am just cautious right now. 

     

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    LadyM reacted to BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 Round 2.3   
    Ah thank you for the encouragement.  One of my highest love languages is words of affirmation and though it may seem silly to some words of encouragement go a long way with me.  Honestly the past few days I felt like I was in survival mode and leaning heavily on my older boys to help out.  I have to beat off the feelings of guilt I place on myself for not being able to do it all.  Honestly though I think the having it all together expectation has taken a very unhealthy turn in our culture.  When I think back to stories of my grandparents and the reading of journals of others beyond those years when life was more family and community focused verses individual focused, moms who had it all together meant they had well trained children that assisted with family responsibilities cooking, cleaning, caring for the young, caring for the farm (family business) etc.  with that in mind if I don’t allow my older children to bear with me some of the responsibilities of the household how will they then learn to be responsible adults.  Responsible children are not robbed of a child hood, rather their child hood is more fulfilling and engaging, and will most likely produce a responsible adult.  Well sorry for the ramble, but that honestly help me unpack and toss out some of the mom guilt I was carrying.  
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    LadyM got a reaction from decker_bear in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    Good to hear how things are going @decker_bear, though I'm sorry it's been unpleasant! Very good information, though, and I imagine I would have a very similar experience. That combo of gluten and sugar is a truly toxic one for me. I'm hoping to not need the reminder, ever, but who knows. I know Melissa talks about how one of whatever her worth-it food is at the moment is generally her limit. Sounds like you've come to that conclusion, too, with your vow to go to the shop and just buy one donut next time.
    Enjoy your W10 or whatever you decide to do to recover. No doubt it will feel like a relief!
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    LadyM got a reaction from BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 Round 2.3   
    I'm so impressed with the way you're taking care of yourself and everyone around you. Mindfully. In alignment with that intention of yours.
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    LadyM got a reaction from BabyBear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Thank you so much for your compassion--and the reminder to take it easy. I need that. Always.
    And yes, indeed! It sure does feel good to let those old things go. I'm really ready to move on from those old jeans!
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    LadyM reacted to decker_bear in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    So, I finished the W30 with no fanfare and went straight into re-intro. Not because I was necessarily dying for something new (even though I was), but more because I was super excited to see how my previous favorite of oatmeal for breakfast fared against my new staple of eggs and veggies. 
    Fail! Not only did I find the oatmeal unsatisfying in terms of how I remembered it tasting, I was also hungry again about 2 hours later. The same day I had some veggies, chicken and my old favorite Trader Joe's brown rice and quinoa pasta. Again, super unsatisfying! I was really discouraged by this as two of my past "favorites" turned out to be a bust. 
    I definitely have rebel tendencies. Once it was no longer a situation where I "had" to eat Whole30, I was suddenly very happy to gobble up a plate of chicken and veggies for dinner. Figures, right? 
    Fast forward to the reintroduction of gluten. Enter my guilty pleasure, Raisin Bran Crunch. I had a bowl for dinner one night (mostly because I could) and the next day my tummy was NOT happy. Of course I couldn't be sure if it was the gluten or the sugar, so I had to test them independently. Gluten alone without sugar triggered my Sugar Dragon (or maybe it was my Snacky Salamander). Sugar without gluten caused Food Without Breaks. Independently neither made me feel how they felt together, which was an interesting discovery that warranted further research. 
    I wasn't really in a hurry to re-introduce dairy or legumes since neither are really categories I was missing a lot, so I kept W30 for a while. Then yesterday ..... 
    I was having some crazy high stress which was keeping me awake that night despite my sleeping meds and other distractions. At 3am I found myself wide awake, pondering elusive solutions to my problems and craving Doughnut Boy. Of course they weren't delivering at 3am, but I browsed their menu on Door Dash anyway and selected some doughnuts that sounded particularly tasty. I closed the app and eventually went back to sleep shortly before the alarm. 
    When I woke up I still had doughnuts on my mind and my sleep-deprived brain wasn't able to convince my fingers not to complete the order. Twenty minutes later I had a box of freshly fried pastries at my fingertips. (Fortunately I was smart enough to only get the half dozen, not the dozen, since I live alone.) 
    First I ate the Old Fashioned. It was absolutely just as delicious as I remembered it being. I'll save the rest, or maybe give them to a neighbor. When I went to the kitchen to refill my coffee mug, it was the banana cream with chocolate and whipped cream that caught my eye. That went down even more smoothly and now I couldn't get the doughnuts off my mind. The glazed maple bar went down next, followed by the cherry turnover and half of the plate-sized apple fritter. I was on a roll, so why not?! 
    It was about this point when I discovered the answer to my query of "why not" - THE HANGOVER. I had a headache, I was nauseous, and all I wanted was more-more-more. 
    Fortunately I had made myself sick enough that I didn't want to finish the apple fritter or the remaining two doughnuts (at least that day). I again considered giving them to a neighbor, but like any addict, I couldn't bear the thought of actually parting with them. I left them in the box, on the counter, out of the way but still in sight and definitely not forgotten. 
    By the time lunch rolled around I still wasn't very hungry (probably due to the 3,000 or so calories I'd scarfed down earlier) but I started feeling like I needed some protein (duh). I made a few eggs and was able to eat about half. I still had the headache, I was still a bit nauseous, and I just generally felt like crap. 
    I didn't want to eat again the rest of the day, until I got hit with the light-headed, growling stomach and FEED ME NOW associated with having almost zero nutrition the entire day. I could have cooked, but I just didn't feel like it. I ordered Zupas, ate some cauliflower bisque and a turkey avocado panini. I had enough sense to skip the roll. 
    Needless to say, that was NOT a feeling I wanted to experience again, but I also couldn't bear the thought of "wasting" the remaining doughnuts. I wrapped them in plastic to save for later. 
    That brings us to today. I woke up and felt absolutely horrible. My stomach was upset, I still had the headache and my energy was virtually non-existent. Sugar and gluten are NOT my friends, and it seems to be even worse when I eat them together. Regardless of this, I still had one bowl of Raisin Bran Crunch left, so I ended up eating that for breakfast. I waited until I was hangry to make lunch, but I stuck to some chicken and veggies. As soon as I finished lunch my Snacky Salamander started squawking. I knew exactly what it was, but that didn't stop me from grabbing the second half of the apple fritter and finishing it off. 
    The lesson I learned is a clear one: I cannot, and should not, have these types of foods in the house. If I am craving a doughnut, I should go out and buy ONE, enjoy it, and move on with my life. My behavior with the doughnuts is absolutely the way an addict behaves, so I feel like I should just stay away from them all together. I also learned how easily I can plunge head-first into the Foods Without Breaks and not come up for air until they are gone.
    A tough lesson, but I am grateful to have learned it. In my past Whole30's I was actually starting from a much healthier point and didn't really change much when I wasn't on them. Between my last W30 and this W30 it was a much more gradual transition into the unhealthy relationship with food, so this lesson is not one I have had before. 
    I'm considering a Whole10 just to recover and get back on track. I am so grateful the structure of the W30 is here any time I need it. 
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    LadyM reacted to BabyBear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    This last half of the month is going to be busy and exciting!  I’m glad you are on the mend.  Don’t push yourself too hard give time for rest.  
    I do hope “Dude” and his momma come out from the visit unscathed.  Please don’t beat yourself up.  You’ve made him aware of the circumstances, you’ve done what you can do and his response to all this is his own.  
    tossing out the “fat jeans” what an accomplishment and a show of confidence that you won’t need them in January!  Seriously it feels good to let those old things go.  
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    LadyM got a reaction from BabyBear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Day 46
    No worse for the wear. Feeling like I'm recovering.
    In other good news, we have a closing date on the house: October 26! I scheduled movers for Oct. 30, so I have two weekends to finish packing. Even though I'm not 100% yet, I do think I can start packing some small bathroom and kitchen boxes. Just a couple a day will get me there. And I think I can make it the rest of the month without my full supply of spices.
    The Dude is super stressed about my COVID diagnosis and its implications for him and his mom in having been exposed. I feel so bad about having brought more stress to him in an already incredibly stressful time. I pray they both don't have it. My pilates instructor I saw on Friday tested negative. So that's a grace.
    I'm going to push for a longer fasting window tomorrow. I'm not hungry anyway, so why not keep tweaking and playing with it. I threw away my biggest, stretchiest quarantine jeans today. That feels really good. My new "fat jeans" in which I test my fluctuating belly size are now one size smaller. I'm calling that a W30 NSV!
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    LadyM reacted to BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 Round 2.3   
    10/15 Day 11 1/3 of the way there, not that I’m counting or anything
    7:15 up with the toddler.  Got his breakfast going and put a load of laundry in.  I fell asleep at the table making a grocery list waiting on baby to eat. My kids sent me back to bed.
    8:30-10:00 sleep
    10:30 M1 - 2 eggs with basil cooked in ghee.  LO sweet potato apple medley.  
    Dishes are done, the microwave is clean, laundry is started and I need a nap.  But alas my 14DS needs my assistance with annotating President Theodore Roosevelt’s speech “The man with a mud-rake” my brain is not functioning at a high level today. But we muddled our way through it. 
    1:30-3:00 nap while the toddler napped
    3:30 S1 - deli roast beef, red bell pepper, spicy mustard. And strawberries with almond butter.  
    I have no appetite but feeling like I should put food in my belly.  Nothing sounded appealing but strawberries and almond butter.  The roast beef was a quick protein source and I had some red peppers sliced up so I grabbed those too.  Now to get a grocery list together.
    6:00 M2- hamburger salad with mayo and ketchup
    Stayed up way too late hanging out with hubby.  
    Water 119oz
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    LadyM reacted to BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 Round 2.3   
    Day 10 “I Keel You”
    7:45 up have to get the day going.  Ugh!  I’m so glad my in person client agreed to internet meeting today.  My hubby told me last night that he thought I should stay home because he was worried about me falling asleep driving.  He also said my body is telling me to rest and I need to listen.  He is so wise and takes such good care of me.  I find I like having someone like him to “submit” to.  He is also a great escape goat for things.  Lol. So I made the arrangements to stay home today.  I’m very glad I did because I’m still dragging and made need a mid morning nap.
    9:45 M1- 2 eggs scrambled in coconut oil, apple sweet potato medley with raisins almonds and cinnamon on top of a bed of spinach.  
    I was slow moving this morning, but I did get a new batch of ghee made, the baby fed, dishwasher unloaded, plastic storage containers organized and 11DS helped to clean and organize sections of the pantry all while we were prepping breakfast.    The apple sweet potato medley is actually the filling for an apple sweet potato breakfast bake by 40 Aprons.  I’ve made the breakfast bake before and it was good, but I felt like the filling would be really tasty on it own.  Oh my! Was it ever!  I think I will make this for a Thanksgiving side.  
    I’m feeling like Jeff Dunham dummy Achmed. “I keel you!!!”  I may keel everybody before this day is done.  I had to warn my kids I’m really irritated and annoyed by everything. it’s not them it’s me but I may still kill them so they need to help out by not being obnoxious, loud, or foolish.  My 11DS said “so we should just go live outside today.”  Lol at least he’s realistic.  I realize this is just part of the process so I am working hard to keep myself in check.  
    3:30 M2- pulled pork and baked potato with ghee, new primal BBQ and home made W30 ranch.
    I was soooooo hungry by the time our customers left that the idea of making stir fry was tossed and grabbed something that just had to be heated up.   I did whip up a batch of ranch while my food was heating because I decided that ranch with bbq sauce on my potato sounded delightful and indeed it was.  I got a lot of work done, hubby got a lot of product moved, it was a profitable morning even if it was long.  
    I had to take 18DS to town for work, so I decided to go get a few needed items from Walmart and do some walking.  Phew I forgot my belly belt and the round ligament pain is for real. Lol it’s not unbearable but it is uncomfortable.  This is the last week in the 2nd trimester.  Even though January feels so far away, I’m starting realize it’s a lot closer than it appears. I had a bit of panicky moment this evening when I put on my jeans and buttoned them…um come to think of it my face looks a little thinner. So I started scanning the internet on info of pregnancy weight loss safe/non-safe (agh all the conflicting views on things). I finally just said to myself stop!  You don’t even know if you have lost weight.  Let’s take inventory were you eating 2-3 square meals before starting up this whole 30? No, not even close.  Maybe one meal and snacks that were made up of heavily processed non-foods.  Were you eating healthy fats at every meal every day? No.  Were you getting all your servings of vegetables in? Not even close.  Were you consuming 8-10 glasses of water every day? Uh nope.  Was your diet free of sugars and other non nutrient calories? Nope, nada.  It was laden with it.  Okay so what’s the problem? Why are you panicking? Even if you find the scales have slid to the left with the next prenatal appointment wouldn’t you agree that eating this way is better for you and baby?  Yes! So put down the panic.  Do not worry about whether or not weight has dropped, evaluate the overall affect and know that you are doing what is very best for you and baby!  Even if the scale has dipped, it is not an excuse to go back to eating junk that does not serve you or your baby.  Do not let your mind go there.  So I’ve stopped. I read some really great articles on whole 30 momma, regained my confidence that I’m doing what is best for me and baby.  I’m not  starving myself.  I’m eating full meals again.  My appetite has returned. My gut issues are diminishing.  I have more energy than I did a few weeks ago.  I’m properly hydrating. I’m not packing my body full of non-nutrient edibles.  
    8:30 got home after picking 18DS and soaked in an Epsom salt bath. 
    NSV: I managed not “keel” anybody today!
    Water: 102oz
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    LadyM got a reaction from BabyBear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Day 45
    COVID test came back positive. I'm still fatigued and kind of feverish, but feeling better every day. I haven't taken any OTC meds or anything. I hope my body is in a good place to fend off this nasty virus!
    I also think the IF is probably helping. Fasting is the best thing when the body is fighting off the crud. Any energy that would have been directed to digestion can be directed to healing. That's what I've read, anyway.
    Who knows. I'm just going to focus on getting better. And I have no plans to change my diet from W30. Why would I?
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    LadyM reacted to BabyBear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    This!  Such a relief when I realized it’s not my job to make people feel comfortable by eating food I don’t want.  I have to circle around back to this often and remind myself, but wow the amount of pressure this takes off of me when making decisions about food!
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    LadyM got a reaction from BabyBear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Day 44
    Woke up VERY early this morning, feeling like I'm going to get better, and optimistic about life. Hooray for that!
    Feeling rather certain I'll be sticking to W30 through the end of 2020. I will have some social situations to navigate, but mostly folks coming into my new home, so I can much more easily control the food that's on offer. I just can't see myself really wanting anything off plan anytime soon. Why mess with a good thing when healing is obviously still underway? I don't want the added stress of reintroductions, nor do I want the added stress of feeling like garbage and gaining weight and the usual, predictable stuff that tends to come with the holidays. I'm really contemplating the possibility of just doing holidays in a different way. Like, forever. 
    Part of my journaling this morning was reiterating to myself that I am in command of my own life. I make the choices. I'm not always in control of everything, certainly; however, I get to decide, by and large. I'm not at anyone's mercy, certainly not when it comes to what I put in my mouth. It was liberating to realize on another level and write down.
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    LadyM got a reaction from BabyBear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Day 43
    I woke up feeling a lot better than I did yesterday, like whatever this crud is will pass. I'm still going to have my COVID test in an hour, but I'm not too worried about it.
    As I mentioned already, I see bone broth and greens in my immediate future. I also have my usual standbys on hand: baked fish with fennel and other veggies, shrimp and green beans with tomatoes . . . so there's plenty to eat. I'm craving grapefruit, though it's definitely best to continue to quarantine, so I'll just set that aside for the moment. However, I may go for a gentle walk in the woods later if I'm feeling up for it. I've just been a slug the past couple of days. Of course, I'm planning to wear my jammies to my drive-by COVID test and a walk in the woods would require putting on actual clothes, so I might put that off another day.  
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    LadyM reacted to BabyBear in Under a Rock, or a Log, or a Stone   
    @Jennifer Jenseni had tears reading your story.  I am so sorry for the way others treated you when you were younger.  People can be cruel, children can be cruel, but honestly this shouldn’t be the norm.  if we teach ourselves and then our children and they teach their children etc to be kind one to another and love our neighbors then imagine how many children could be spared that pain of being the odd one out.  Oh what a world that would be.   I am so glad you have a fighting spirit and you have been able to rise above it all and find a passion and calling in life, that you found your true love, and you are finding your true self. 
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    LadyM got a reaction from Jennifer Jensen in Under a Rock, or a Log, or a Stone   
    What a journey! Thank you so much for sharing it with us, @Jennifer Jensen. I'm so happy you have arrived at this place. I know Whole 30 will only help further your path where you want to be.
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    LadyM got a reaction from BabyBear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Indeed, and thank you! I wondered myself about detoxing . . . I was so sick throughout my first W30 I thought I wouldn't actually receive any of its benefits! But I learned the body will sometimes only allow itself to release the toxins when it has proper immune support. I dunno. But this morning I do feel like things are moving in the right direction and that this more than likely is just a cold. Grateful for the bone broth and greens in my fridge--there is definitely soup in my immediate future!!
    Thank you so very much!! It's feeling possible and like a whole new chapter for me. A major step in the direction of positive change in the realm of what we were discussing on @BabyBear's log about scarcity and coming from a place of poverty. I grew up in apartments. After my parents divorced when I was 9 neither one of them could afford to own a home, and so home ownership just seemed like something that wasn't in the cards for me. I spend my 20s and 30s getting educated and traveling and, let's face it, living the single-girl life spending money on stuff I didn't really need; and it's only after 40 and reaching some career milestones that I realized I am in control of my money and that getting out of debt and building wealth is my responsibility if I want it.
    Part of me felt I needed or wanted a man to buy a house with, but with The Dude taking care of his parents full time, he's not available for that right now. And in the past year or so I was forced to move from an apartment I loved because the owners sold it--and my dad committed suicide the very week i moved into an apartment I don't love and frankly don't feel safe in. Then COVID and quarantine, and . . . anyway, I think you can see how the universe set things in motion for me to buy this house on my own. I hope The Dude joins me there. I chose a house that works for us both. But I also chose a house I can make work on my own if need be. It's been quite a transformative process. 
    That's all to say thank you @Jennifer Jensen for your prayers!!
    Oh, and a W105 or maybe longer also feels more and more possible for me. Part of it is that I've been playing with macros and further restrictions overseen by my doc for thyroid health since Day 23, so when the time comes, likely November now, to increase my food options in phases within W30, it'll feel like Christmas to me! Also, I have a dear friend who has successfully treated her Graves Disease without removal of her thyroid with an AIP W30 protocol and maintained it for over two years. She's simply decided it's now her way of life because it's how she finally feels good and manages her health. So she's an inspiration to me. And more than two years doing a super strict protocol makes 105 days seem like a walk in the park.
    Not sure when I'll begin reintroductions, but right now the only thing I'm even remotely interested in testing is a glass of wine. But I'm in no hurry. It's more for the social aspect of drinking during the holidays. The thing that's calling my name right now is potatoes. Back in the day when I did my first W30 potatoes weren't allowed. Now that they are, it's the first thing I'll be adding back in when the time comes to bring in more starches. Seriously. I'm dreaming about the potatoes I used to eat in Ireland--par boiled then smashed and roasted in plenty of ghee at high heat in the oven. Cue Homer Simpson drool face. 
    I'd say if this is me doing my worst I'm in pretty good shape at the moment!
    Thank you for all your loving support, friends!
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    LadyM reacted to Jennifer Jensen in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Hoping and praying you get your house this time! Wow, a plan for a W105! At the moment I can't even imagine but I also think it IS doable. Really, I like my food. 
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    LadyM reacted to BabyBear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    @LadyM oh hurray on the house! That is exciting!
     Isn’t it odd how much we resist returning to a healthy habit that made us happy and made us feel better once we have had a momentary stepping away.  
    i hope you feel better soon, and that it is nothing more than a change in weather, or detoxing.  
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    LadyM reacted to BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 Round 2.3   
    No, but that recipe is good too.  It’s a recipe I found on IG by maryswholelife it’s technically meatballs but due to my 11DS having egg allergies we don’t make the meat balls and just add all the spices and condiment to meat and mix it well before browning it.  So it reminds me of the stroganoff my mom used to make which my brother called white spaghetti sauce.  Here’s the link to the recipe.  

    https://www.maryswholelife.com/whole30-meatball-stroganoff/
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    LadyM got a reaction from Jennifer Jensen in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Day 42
    Feeling pretty run down with what feels like a cold but makes me worried it could be something else. I scheduled a COVID test in the morning to be sure, especially because I may have exposed the Dude and his Mom.
    Nothing much to report here on the food front, except I had a phone consult with my doc's office and will be continuing phase 2 of this Whole 30 for at least 10 days longer. I'm good with that. It seems drawing things out is what it's about in my life these days.
    Which brings me to the house and the good news that it appraised at exactly our agreed-to price. Which means, fingers and toes crossed, the house will be mine and I'll get to move in at the end of the month. Ahhhhhhhhh! So much packing to finish up. It'll get done, though. Everything will work out just fine. 
    Now to get some rest and stop stressing. I think it's time to make meditation a daily priority again. My trip to Wisconsin to eulogize my Grandmother threw me off that practice. Time to return to the mat. It's as simple as that. . . . 
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    Day 20
    Very nearly 3 weeks down. Amazing.
    Sleep last night was fitful, largely because I ended up only eating one meal yesterday and I got some very exciting news shortly before bed: my offer on the house was accepted! Mind you, this is the same house for which the sale went through last month, the house I've been visualizing myself in and purging furniture and appliances for and even buying a Mid Century Modern piece of furniture or two for. The appraisal last time was way off my new realtor confirmed after walking through the house with me, and so we're going to give it another shot with a new lender and a much more experienced realtor and I'm praying this time around will mend my broken heart and get me HOME.
    As for eating yesterday, I made Kalua Pig in the instant pot as promised, finishing it with a pile of kale, collards, and cabbage, and ate it with a baked sweet potato and the Whole30 recipe for bbq sauce which is pretty darn good. It all was so unbelievably delish, I ate my fill at 2 p.m. (slow start yesterday), and didn't get hungry again until about 2 am when I woke up with a rumbling tummy four and a half hours after going to bed. I'm still glad I listened to my body and didn't eat dinner when I wasn't hungry. That's a big ol' NSV for this gal.
    Projected meals for today are all about finishing leftovers:
    M1: salmon cakes with awesome sauce
    M2: Moo shu pork
    M3: pad thai with the last of the bahn mi meatballs and whatever veggies need to be used up
    [By the by, I discovered the joy of making a pile of zoodles to have on hand (after cranking the zucchini into strings, salt them, let them sit, rinse, dry, then keep in a big ziplock with paper towel). So helpful, and infinitely better texture than store bought frozen or skipping the salting and draining and drying steps.]
    We're looking at a closing date the end of October, and I have every intention of continuing W30 through then and beyond. This week I begin phase two of this W105 (or whatever it ultimately turns out to be) wherein I deliberately play with macros under doctor's supervision. And that means a run to the store for a green plantain to make patacones and maybe some potatoes to have hash browns with breakfast.
    I'm feeling hopeful, y'all! And still ever-grateful for the support of W30 right now.
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    LadyM got a reaction from Jennifer Jensen in Under a Rock, or a Log, or a Stone   
    How lovely!
    And isn't it funny how we can sometimes get out of food ruts and do little things that make a big difference like change our eggs to keep us delighted? Love that.
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    LadyM got a reaction from Jennifer Jensen in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 Round 2.3   
    Such profound reflections here. I can definitely relate to the scarcity mentality learned from a very real history of poverty, and it's so true how the way we relate to money can have everything to do with the way we relate to food. I've done so much unpacking and processing of this myself--and likely will for years to come. But I love the way you bring it back to mindfulness. I just reflected in my own log about my need to return to the anchor of my daily meditation practice, which is how I ground myself again and again in mindfulness. . . . 
    Oh, and I'm sure you and your hubby are a wonderful pair in many, many ways--and it's just perfect that you're a saver and he's a spender. You can't have two of one or the other and have a successful partnership, I don't think. I'm learning much to my surprise that I, too, am the saver in my pairing with the Dude.