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    LadyM reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shawna's First Whole 30   
    I agree with you, why is sugar is so many foods?  My grump is with pasta sauce.  Really?  Soup broth is another one that irks me.  I have yet to find a compliant soup broth in grocery stores near me.  I make my own but it ticks me off that I can't buy one without sugar in it. 
    Welcome to the forum, you're going to feel GRReat! 
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    LadyM reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    You know what gets me through? In the 90s/early 00s, I was a little party animal/clubber and I now have a playlist of all the songs I used to go off at the club to  Reliving my youth!!
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    LadyM reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Went for a walk along the river today with the doggo - I intended a long walk but it was cut very short when we saw not 1 but 2 highly venomous snakes. If it was me on my own, i'd keep going, but the darling doggo is just daft enough to try and make friends, so we went back to the car via the road. This has me rethinking our daily walks, because they've been in scrub up until now. Streets, parks and paths from here on out I think!
    Also did 50 minutes on the elliptical. I SO did not want to. At all. But I did it.
    Dinner is Snapper fillets and scallops, with a baby spinach, rocket, radish, cucumber salad with balsamic and EVOO. Had a couple of pieces of potato too. 
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    LadyM reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Day off!
    I woke up at 7am, typical LOL, laid around for a bit then was just about to get up when Hubster came back to bed coz he needed a nap (5:30am meeting) and I was going to lie there with him for a minute and get up, but we ended up having a lovely snooze (yes, SNOOZE, you pervs!) and got up at 10am.
    I'm planning on the big walk with the doggo, sewing, and fish for dinner.
    I have anxiety today, did yesterday too - not sure if it is the day off or whether the weekend off track undid all my good work getting rid of anxiety, ugh.
    Lunch will be leftover chicken with spicy green mango salad
    Dinner will be seafood of some description, I'll see what's fresh and looks good!
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    LadyM reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    Ended up with Italian herbs BBQ chicken thighs, BBQ fennel and eggplant with Kalamata tapanade, and duck fat roasted sweet potato.
    I love my Weber so much.
    Had to duck out and get some wine for hubster and thought really hard about some for me. Especially because I've taken tomorrow off work. But I really thought about it, and now I'd just wake up in the middle of the night with anxiety, and it would make me feel crappy tomorrow and waste my day off, so I didn't. And I'm glad I didn't. 
    Day off tomorrow, I'm going to go for a long walk in the sun, do some sewing, and relax. 
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    LadyM reacted to SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    I think the unceremonious ending of my W30 had a lot to do with the tension! It's a pretty fraught time and a lot of things bubbled over.
    I'm actually really proud of just getting back on it yesterday, in recent years I seem to have been losing the ability to moderate, I'm either ON or I'm so, so OFF and going OFF has led to multi-week binges, but this weekend was a "huh, that was a blip, the wine was nice, the pizza was nice, the chocolate was decidedly average, and now I'm back at normal". Let's hope I can hang on to that.
    Managed my walk and 45 on the elliptical yesterday, so no excuses there either.
    Today's food:
    Meal 1: Leftover roast pork and roasted cauli, brocc, fennel, carrot and parsnip with spicy apple sauce
    Meal 2: BBQ chicken thighs with fennel slaw and BBQ sweet potato rounds. I'm going to get inventive with the rub for the chicken. 
     
     
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    LadyM got a reaction from decker_bear in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    What happens in the crock pot is the milky dairy part drops to the bottom of the pot. You don't want to disturb that by pouring the whole lot through the cheesecloth. Instead, you scoop out the golden ghee with a ladle of some sort and pour that through the cheesecloth, so the little solids that floated to the top get strained. It'll make sense when you do it and look at it. Just make sure the crock pot setting is at its lowest and that you keep the lid off. 
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    LadyM reacted to decker_bear in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    OH MY GOSH THIS SOUNDS EVEN EASIER!!! I am so excited. Ghee is coming off the shopping list and butter is going on. Just so I'm clear, the stuff left in the cheesecloth is the dairy solids and everything that strains through is the ghee, right? Do I need to refrigerate the ghee? 
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    LadyM got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in My 1st Whole30 of 2020 (and in several years)...   
    This *can* happen on the stovetop, but I've been making my ghee with a foolproof crockpot method I love. Just dump the butter into a crockpot set to low and leave it overnight with no lid. In the morning, voila! It's ready to strain through a cheesecloth into jars. I also recommend using unsalted grass fed butter. I've never bought ghee, always have jars of it on hand. It's not that big of a deal. I swear!
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    LadyM reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Yes, this.  It's part of the Whole30 training, and can be discerned through journaling for me.  I do think that 3 meals a day will be best for me going forward indefinitely, but keeping them appropriately sized.  I've also learned to have post work-out snacks that are smaller when I need them, not a 4th meal.  
    LOL.  You are one of us.  Superwomen.  
     
    I'm happy to report that I threw away the rest of the junk food.  Note to Future Shadow - it was easy to do and I feel empowered now.  I've got this.  
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    LadyM got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Day 14
    Two weeks, y'all!!
    Observations:
    The sugar dragon has not been plaguing me as it has in past W30s. I'm hardly eating fruit, even, and it's not that big of a deal. I have sweets cravings at the end of meals, but this is more habit than need, and I'm not indulging it--not even with fruit. This is a MAJOR shift for me and a major win as my mother died in her 60s of kidney failure related to diabetes and though my glucose numbers are generally good at this stage, prediabetes is something I need to actively resist with these genes. One of the things that sparked this W30 was an off-handed convo I had with my dude that went something like this:
    "You know I really do eat healthy in general. Except for sweets. Just like my Mom, and diabetes killed her," I said.
    "Hmmm. Seems like there's a lesson in there somewhere," he said, tongue in cheek.
    Which leads me to another observation: I needed the hard rules of the W30 to say no to the kind of foods Dude and I tend to eat together. When we first started dating, I did pretty OK off roading on dates in a reasonable way and then eating cleaner on my own time. But time and comfort and quarantine life threw that out the window and, as is my unfortunate way, I bend to his ways easier than he does to mine, and I ate more like a bachelor than I care to admit. I had actually lost 10 pounds at the start of the pandemic in preparation for a spring break cruise that never happened. As time wore on and uncertainty and depression took their toll, I pretty much threw all my good habits and sense out the window and ate all the garbage, felt like garbage, stopped exercising and spending time in nature, and at the same time my thyroid levels went shockingly low, as they're wont to do when I'm not on my A-game. And, of course, the weight crept back on and then some, though I haven't stepped on the scale in many moons.
    Anyway, the point is, I told Dude I'm doing a W30, and while he thinks it's insanely punishing and keeps forgetting and offering me bites of potato chips and the like, ultimately he respects my choice and reasons for doing it. And we don't live together, so it's not really an issue except when we spend a weekend together. I also, of course, think a W30 would be the best possible thing in the world for him and hope to lead by example, but I'm keeping the focus on me and my journey. There's definitely a life lesson in there somewhere.
    This week starts a new school year, and yesterday I had ALL THE ENERGY and DID ALL THE THINGS to prepare. I don't actually begin teaching until tomorrow, so it's nice that I have a day to myself. Telemeetings with my therapist and doc are on the agenda for later this afternoon, and I'm eager to continue deepening the self care.
    Last night I awoke at 2:30 to pee and had a terrible time getting back to sleep, so I ended up snoozing a couple hours past my alarm and am not, so far, having the kind of energizer bunny day that yesterday was. But that's OK. I'm rolling with it. And I do have the time and space to fit in my morning routine albeit at a later hour. It's all good. And I do hope to conquer the racing mind that kept me awake in the wee hours with exercise and regular meditation. The house hunt and relationship problems and work anxiety and grandmother with COVID aren't going to change because they're swirling through my mind as negative thoughts. Working on cultivating the calm inside regardless of what's going on outside. W30 is helping. And it ain't over yet.
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    LadyM got a reaction from decker_bear in The Seduction of LadyM Returns   
    Day 14
    Two weeks, y'all!!
    Observations:
    The sugar dragon has not been plaguing me as it has in past W30s. I'm hardly eating fruit, even, and it's not that big of a deal. I have sweets cravings at the end of meals, but this is more habit than need, and I'm not indulging it--not even with fruit. This is a MAJOR shift for me and a major win as my mother died in her 60s of kidney failure related to diabetes and though my glucose numbers are generally good at this stage, prediabetes is something I need to actively resist with these genes. One of the things that sparked this W30 was an off-handed convo I had with my dude that went something like this:
    "You know I really do eat healthy in general. Except for sweets. Just like my Mom, and diabetes killed her," I said.
    "Hmmm. Seems like there's a lesson in there somewhere," he said, tongue in cheek.
    Which leads me to another observation: I needed the hard rules of the W30 to say no to the kind of foods Dude and I tend to eat together. When we first started dating, I did pretty OK off roading on dates in a reasonable way and then eating cleaner on my own time. But time and comfort and quarantine life threw that out the window and, as is my unfortunate way, I bend to his ways easier than he does to mine, and I ate more like a bachelor than I care to admit. I had actually lost 10 pounds at the start of the pandemic in preparation for a spring break cruise that never happened. As time wore on and uncertainty and depression took their toll, I pretty much threw all my good habits and sense out the window and ate all the garbage, felt like garbage, stopped exercising and spending time in nature, and at the same time my thyroid levels went shockingly low, as they're wont to do when I'm not on my A-game. And, of course, the weight crept back on and then some, though I haven't stepped on the scale in many moons.
    Anyway, the point is, I told Dude I'm doing a W30, and while he thinks it's insanely punishing and keeps forgetting and offering me bites of potato chips and the like, ultimately he respects my choice and reasons for doing it. And we don't live together, so it's not really an issue except when we spend a weekend together. I also, of course, think a W30 would be the best possible thing in the world for him and hope to lead by example, but I'm keeping the focus on me and my journey. There's definitely a life lesson in there somewhere.
    This week starts a new school year, and yesterday I had ALL THE ENERGY and DID ALL THE THINGS to prepare. I don't actually begin teaching until tomorrow, so it's nice that I have a day to myself. Telemeetings with my therapist and doc are on the agenda for later this afternoon, and I'm eager to continue deepening the self care.
    Last night I awoke at 2:30 to pee and had a terrible time getting back to sleep, so I ended up snoozing a couple hours past my alarm and am not, so far, having the kind of energizer bunny day that yesterday was. But that's OK. I'm rolling with it. And I do have the time and space to fit in my morning routine albeit at a later hour. It's all good. And I do hope to conquer the racing mind that kept me awake in the wee hours with exercise and regular meditation. The house hunt and relationship problems and work anxiety and grandmother with COVID aren't going to change because they're swirling through my mind as negative thoughts. Working on cultivating the calm inside regardless of what's going on outside. W30 is helping. And it ain't over yet.
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    LadyM got a reaction from decker_bear in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    So glad the spiral is behind you for the moment. I've been there, and it can feel so desperate.
    I'm with @decker_bear: Whole 30 is here for you when it's useful. Sounds like you're really clear about what you need right now and that's great!
    FWIW, intuitive eating doesn't work for me when I'm in a spiral. I do think there are physiological components, at least for me, that need to be dealt with in conjunction with the psychological and emotional pieces to the puzzle. That was one of the most valuable takeaways for me in all my rounds of W30. Sugar in conjunction with flour and/or dairy is like poison to me when I'm undernourished. That's just a fact I've learned to accept, which means I accept the consequences if I choose to imbibe. It's much easier to off road just the once with such things if it's bookended with solid W30-style template nutrition for at least a few days.
    Anyway, that's my experience, and it may not be yours. We all must learn to ride our own bikes, and often again and again, because life keeps changing and throwing unimaginable stuff at us. That's why I'm back after YEARS. . . . BIG LOVE to you on your journey wherever and however it takes you!
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    LadyM got a reaction from SchrodingersCat in Guess who's back? Back again, Schrodey's Back...   
    I wondered if the tension between you and hubs had something to do with your unceremoniously ending your W30. . . . So glad you had some downtime together! And in some ways, I'm a little envious of folks who have such clear reactions to non-compliant food. You certainly get your answers loud and clear, and can make your choices in response equally clearly. Good for you, and cheers to staying on track today!
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    LadyM got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    So glad the spiral is behind you for the moment. I've been there, and it can feel so desperate.
    I'm with @decker_bear: Whole 30 is here for you when it's useful. Sounds like you're really clear about what you need right now and that's great!
    FWIW, intuitive eating doesn't work for me when I'm in a spiral. I do think there are physiological components, at least for me, that need to be dealt with in conjunction with the psychological and emotional pieces to the puzzle. That was one of the most valuable takeaways for me in all my rounds of W30. Sugar in conjunction with flour and/or dairy is like poison to me when I'm undernourished. That's just a fact I've learned to accept, which means I accept the consequences if I choose to imbibe. It's much easier to off road just the once with such things if it's bookended with solid W30-style template nutrition for at least a few days.
    Anyway, that's my experience, and it may not be yours. We all must learn to ride our own bikes, and often again and again, because life keeps changing and throwing unimaginable stuff at us. That's why I'm back after YEARS. . . . BIG LOVE to you on your journey wherever and however it takes you!
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    LadyM reacted to laurasuzanne in Laura's Whole30 8/28/20   
    Day 18.
    NSV. I do think my body acne is getting better. It's not gone, but it does seem to be getting better. Yesterday I meal-prepped for the week. I found an awesome hack recipe for Popeye's Blackened Chicken seasoning and I am in love. It is amazing what a difference it makes when I have the fridge full of foods I'm excited to eat vs feeling like I'm sacrificing to eat at home. I actually had an errand to run in town yesterday and my immediate thought was to go out for my dinner. Then, I remembered I had tons of exciting foods at home I wanted way more than anything I could get at a restaurant. I honestly went a little overboard with my meal-prepping. I think I have 20 meals ready to go. I enjoy cooking and trying new recipes so I didn't even notice how far I went until I ran out of tupperware containers. 
    I'm still not sleeping great. I'm considering staying on the W30 with the other September team and cutting out caffeine for a while. I know that's part of my issue. That and watching TV to fall asleep. I need to improve my bedtime routine. 
    Thank you all for the encouragement!
    Laura
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    LadyM reacted to laurasuzanne in Laura's Whole30 8/28/20   
    I just wanted to say that a coworker commented that my face looked thinner today. It took me by surprise. 
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    LadyM reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Yesterday was a real trial.  Things began going downhill shortly before lunch...I had an urgent question to answer for a co-worker that required me to gather a yes or no answer from 9 other people.  After an hour, I had only heard back from 3 people.  I was annoyed because the task was given to me and because everyone is supposed to be on their computers (where email pops up) and should have had time to answer me.  So I texted, and got several "I think so" answers.  Then I had a Zoom with several other people, one of whom I thought was going to relieve me of some responsibilities, but turns out isn't.  I have mixed feelings about that - I enjoy that aspect of my job, but there are other things I do that only my profession is licensed to do, so I was hoping to have more time for those things (and therefore do a better job.) So things were quite stressful during the late morning, early afternoon.    I spent some time talking to myself to help me remember "I can't control other people's behavior only my own."  I think I would have been ok if that had been the end of the day's stresses.  However, a loved one texted me some upsetting information, but then wasn't answering my texts or phone call.  I felt like i was being ignored.  By this time, it was around 3:00 or so, and I still hadn't had anything to eat.  But I wasn't hungry.  
    I was so restless and distraught and unsettled...I was still in my pajamas and it was raining so I wasn't feeling like going for a walk or bike ride.  I also had residual upsetment because of an issue during my hike on Sunday...I was  feeling trapped at home.  I went upstairs and began cleaning which helped a little.  I was starting to feel hungry and beginning to feel a pull toward junk food, so I just didn't make anything.  Then I started to convince myself that I deserved to order a pizza for dinner.  I tugged and pulled mentally for a while, then decided to do an emotional release yoga before doing anything else.  I cried through most of the hour session, and journaled during and afterward as suggested by the instructor.  That helped tremendously, but I was still feeling that pizza was the answer.  Before I headed downstairs to order, my loved one texted me back, then called.  We resolved our issue (which I was only able to address calmly because of the yoga and journaling...).  I finally decided that I would stick with the original plan of ham and broccoli, but discovered that my husband was making spaghetti and meat sauce.  So I had zoodles and meat sauce.  Somehow I got through all the feelings without sabotaging myself, not really on my own and with luck and good timing, but I still got through them.  
    Day 8
    Mood-6, energy-5, Pain-3  Still feeling a little beaten up from yesterday, plus I didn't sleep great.  Lots of shoulder pain this morning.  
    M1-I was so hungry this morning, so I made a breakfast favorite - sauteed banana with scrambled eggs and cinnamon and black coffee
    M2-yesterday's plan for lunch
    M3-My butcher box order is due today, and I would like to make Kulua pig for dinner.  If not, last night's plan for ham and broccoli.  
     
    Goals for today-
    Dress before lunch!
    early afternoon gym session
    yoga this evening
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    LadyM reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Take Advantage   
    This is your progression into becoming who you need to be.  I love what you shared above.  All of it.  I wish you well.  
    I'm sending you a big virtual birthday hug for your upcoming 50th... and I hope you have a very happy birthday week!
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    LadyM reacted to MadyVanilla in Take Advantage   
    Note to self:  indulge in dinner at the dining room table, fresh flowers, lit candles.  It's not expensive, not time-consuming, and NOT HARD.  
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    LadyM reacted to decker_bear in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    @ShadowInTheKitchen you have to do what is right for you! The W30 community is always here for you! 
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    LadyM reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    Thanks @decker_bear.  I ate it.  First the ice cream.  Then today I used up most of the leftover cream cheese to make squares, which I haven't had in ages.  Then I ate a row of squares.  BUT...
    I weighed in at the gym on Friday and my numbers are better than they were a week ago, last night I began training for a 5k, and my meals lately have been sooo good with special thanks to Whole30 training/practice.  I am walking lots and working out regularly.  Last week's spiral is over, I'm done eating the squares and am making a healthy supper for myself tonight.  Good old shepherd's pie with sweet potato and rhutabaga topping, my favourite comfort food.  So I'm done wallowing for now and I feel good physically.  I'm giving W30 a mini break because I want to eat some off-plan foods.  It's a nagging worry for me that by eliminating entire food groups for too long I will also not be getting enough nutrients, and autumn is THE BEST TIME to enjoy homemade baked beans.   I also want to focus on some other stuff right now, and W30 just takes too much mental energy sometimes.  That's not to say I won't be back, I just don't know when I'll be ready to devote another 30 days to this. Maybe after Thanksgiving, which for us here in Canada is on October 12 this year, or maybe sooner if I fall off the rails again and can't find my balance without help from the structure of the program.  
    I plan to check in regularly with posts about my habits, or lack of and the perspective is invaluable when I read through my old logs. It also helps to know I'm not alone in this.  
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    LadyM reacted to decker_bear in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    It seems like you're stuck in a spiral that's going to be tricky to get out of. Is there somewhere you could donate the non-compliant foods? A friend, neighbor, family member, etc.? I just sent home a few non-compliant things I had laying around with my son and he is more than happy to eat them. I would love if he would embrace a Whole30 to make himself healthier, but he's not in that space right now so I give him the food instead of wasting it or throwing it out. I'm with you, I hate wasting food, but then again ... the food that makes you feel bad isn't really serving you anyway. 
    Are you familiar with Intuitive Eating? It's a concept where you eat more or less what you want. You focus on healthy foods that will serve your body, but you also don't forbid yourself from eating anything. If you want the wine, you have the wine - but you drink it with a wholesome dinner. If you want the cheese and crackers - awesome, but maybe they're an appetizer for a vegetable-heavy dinner. You enjoy it, you give thanks for it, and you move on. Might be worth looking at. I'm just thinking that it might be a way for you to stop the spiral, get yourself balanced again, and allow yourself to start another Whole30 on solid footing and without the shame and regret. 
    Whatever you decide, YOU ARE WORTH IT! Take the time, do it right, and your body will thank you. 
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    LadyM reacted to SchrodingersCat in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    You and me both, sister. If I start, I don't stop, even if I feel sick. All the ice cream, whole packs of candy. I'm more and more convinced I'm an abstainer not a moderator. 
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    LadyM reacted to Tevenie in Shadow’s May 2020 Whole30   
    I ate 8 icecreams the other day.  There, I have said it.  I feel so ashamed of myself when I do it.  I have no ability to control myself around sugar.  
    It is not just you.