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  1. Emma

    LadyWolf's Whole 30 Log

    SO cool to notice and find a reaction. SO uncool that is was with wine And way to go on the changes to your physical body. It's really validating. No suggestions from me on airplane meals. I discovered that almost all the vegetarian options in the store use soy or pea protein. I'm definitely not touching pea protein. Not sure about soy. Good luck with the super disorganized firm partner!!!
  2. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    Day 30 Plus 1 Evening Review: Whew - what a day. Stressful, busy, but only one of many. Not ready for tomorrow, nor for my kid's mystery party on thursday, but I did bake the cake tonight and I did almost finish preparing the mystery which....is ridiculously complicated. I didn't just go for a simple scavenger hunt or a few riddles or some spy codes. Instead I found ways for them to work together and then have their own codes and then to gather pieces of things that would have to fit back together. I have riddles and real jigsaw puzzles and locks and ..... it's pretty good. And I am rather enjoying it. I'm so close to done. I just have to figure out ciphers for each kid that are different. I suppose they don't have to be different, but that's the idea in my head. And it's now a bit later than I wish it was, but I'm checking in and then going to sleep. So far, my cold is taken a back burner. My period is still ridiculously light but hanging out in my back. My husband made dinner again tonight - chopped up veggies with the five spice thing that he loves and halibut. The veggies were good. The halibut was fine. The kids ate everything. They are not fussing at all about the dinner foods and dinners have not been very exciting. Baking today was a bit rough. I almost licked my fingers a few times. It's so hard not too, but I didn't. I also am a little disappointed I'm not going to try out this new recipe, but I'm also okay not trying it. Food tomorrow will be tricky. We are out of greens and zucchini and all the go-to foods. Oh, we have a sweet potato. I could chop that up and cook it with eggs. Today I had eggs and mackerel. It sounds horrible, but it was pretty good. It would have been great with mushrooms and onions. Okay - off to sleep. I'm curious how others are and I want to read your posts, but I've got to get to sleep. Hopefully in the morning!
  3. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    I know I need to make changes and I know those changes won't happen till I actually DO something differently. The entire day is ahead of me and so far, I'm on track. I had some labwork done this morning to check for C Reactive Protein. Mine is high. I was supposed to get it tested 6 months ago, but then I started eating poorly again and didn't want to receive bad results again so I postponed it till I started eating better. Which, aside from 3 weeks testing out a vegan cleanse, never happened. But, sighing, test results and data are good things so I got the test this morning and sometime in the next week I will have my results and even if I'm hanging my head in shame, I'll have numbers to work on. I know eating clean works for me and I know when I follow a Whole 30-esque meal plan, I feel better and am healthier. I know this and yet I don't do it. I want to do it and yet I don't do it. Yesterday I started to do it with a great breakfast of eggs, broccoli, and kale.....and then the rest of the day happened and I sought out trail mix (which I suppose isn't the worst of things, but it certainly wasn't doing me any favors). My ailments: Arthritis that is a b---- when I hike, walk, or try to jog in my feet. Osteoarthritis in my knees that is also annoying. Tightness in my shoulders. Allergies. Sixty pounds overweight. Low energy. Low get-things-done energy. I have such great plans and carrying them out just doesn't happen. My vision of myself: Strong, healthy, vibrant, active. So today is Day One and I could sure use some support, encouragement, and friendship along this way to help keep me focused and accountable.
  4. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    Day 31 Slept okay. Allergy pills have helped. Any cold virus I have is keeping itself to the bare minimum of a stuffy nose and puffy eyes. Overall, I'm okay. Drinking my coffee and realizing, OH NO, I need to be out of the house in thirty minutes!!!! EEeEEEEk. I still have to shower, cook up some breakfast, and gather up all my work mess. I did make lunches for the kids already and I do know what I'm going to wear so that helps. There definitely does not feel like enough time in the days to get everything planned and set up, but again, I'm thankful I'm in this spot mentally and physically where I can ride through this and keep working on things and not feel overwhelmed and then procrastinate even more. This Saturday will offer me some time and things will start to relax in a couple weeks. My husband made dinner last night since I was working. It was just chicken and broccoli. He apologized that it was so pathetic and yet it wasn't. The kids loved it. They wanted more broccoli. I loved it. We ate it all and there was a good amount of that green stuff. Too bad the only leftovers is from the one pound of chicken split four ways - isn't that interesting - it was the chicken we didn't finish, but the veggies we all ate up. I like how that shift starts happening. Going to drink my last sip of coffee and then get up and kick into Beast Conquer the Day mode (There was no wake up early and go to the gym and weigh myself scene this morning. I was not Beast Queen Wake Up Woman today)
  5. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    Oh my gosh - I do that sometimes! I say, "I won't have pizza now, but next Friday, boy oh boy, I sure will" and then I don't. That's a funny and good twist on the tomorrow thing that he does. I'll have to play with that.
  6. Emma

    KiwiKendra's Log from New Zealand

    Mayonnaise is not the same as the store stuff! I like the store stuff. And home made mayo can vary. I've thrown many attempts out because of the olive oil taste, but there have been some that turned out okay. AND, our taste changes about a week in, so things that are icky now might be quite fine once you've been eating really clean for a week. You're still on it and grappling with it all. And it does seem so huge and daunting and complicated, but in time, it will get simpler and easier and you'll be such a better cook!! Glad you're still here!
  7. Amura, My kids were four and five when we first did the Whole30 as a family and they did it right there with us. We shared that we wanted to work on learning to eat healthier foods and so we were going to do this challenge for 30 days and that we were not going to eat foods that were harder for us to process. We took out paleo cookbooks and the kids selected recipes and then we ate together and assessed the meals. We probably had Whole30 chicken nuggets for breakfast because the kids chose things, but they were good. The kids liked many of the recipes from the Practical Paleo book. The first few days were the hardest because we were used to more sugars and processed stuff, but by the third day, we were all ravenous beasts and the spaghetti squash with pesto was to die for! Roasted carrots with dates were another hit. We ate so much at each meal - the kids included. The kids did have plenty of snack foods (salami, carrots, apples, tomatoes, bananas) and their snacking might have increased for a bit, but it was all fruits and veggies. We already didn't do dairy because that doesn't set well with me and there is no need to have milk in our lives. For breakfasts, I'd make them sweet potato hash with eggs or banana and egg crepes. I also baked paleo baked goods for any parties or special events and, after the first few days, those treats are plenty sweet and delicious. Obviously, the kid version of Whole30 was a bit looser in our house, but it was great. We could tell that they were more centered and their play was a bit calmer. Nothing drastic occurred health wise, but they slept well and they ate well. On later Whole30 attempts, I remember being super thankful that I started a week before the family so I could get through my grumpy and tired days before the family hit theirs. Not much can be worse than to feel super crabby and have a little kid drop down on the sidewalk in their own crabbiness "I want to go to the library!!!!!" "Child, we are almost there. We just need to walk in the door" "But I want to go nowwwww!" "Child, we are THERE" I don't think anything about Whole30 was extreme or unhealthy. My in-laws worry about fiber. We get plenty. They worry about us eating too much meat. We eat a moderate sized portion and then a full plate of veggies. They worry about no grains and no dairy so I then google the benefits of grains and dairy and then look to see that we're getting any of those special nutrients in other ways. We were never doing Whole30 to lose weight so that type of language and concerns over calories or portions was not part of our conversation. Nothing felt restrictive. Now, as I do Whole30, all our dinners are Whole30 and the kids are eating them up, veggies and all. They eat cereal for breakfast, sandwiches for lunch, and snack on crackers, but dinners are good and healthy and they're used to those foods now. It would be nice to go back to Whole30 for all, but that isn't happening right now - perhaps when my husband decides he wants to do one again.
  8. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    Day 30 - I went back and looked at what I first wrote on July 2nd. Just starting and sticking to Whole30 for a day was something I'd planned to do for ages and never did. I remember going to the doctor and knowing I needed to change things, but finding that Day One was just so hard. It was so much easier to say, "Tomorrow" which, of course, never happened. And the guilt and the shame and the feeling lousy and the negative self talk and the low self-body-confidence....blech. And in all of that, I always KNEW what the answer was. It builds compassion to be in this position. It's so easy to look at somebody else and know what they should do. And for myself, I know what I should do: eat well, exercise. And finally I am. And I completed 30 clean days and I feel thankful that I got here - mostly thankful that I got to that Day One which is the hardest of them all. My vision of myself is still there - who I want to be/look like/feel like. I don't quite think I'm there yet. Coughing and laughing - definitely not, but I'm feeling a bit sportier and zestier and less frumpy and rolling ball of dough. And my aches and pains? Oh, my foot hurts from my attempts at walking/running (which I'm now officially one day behind) and I have chapped lips because I'm fighting a cold and I'm back on allergy pills because of the wind and the smoke from local wildfires, but I'm NOT super sick. I'm NOT limping. I'm NOT anything bad. I'm not miraculously healed of all aches, but I think my body is much happier. I'm also still overweight, but not by as much. My clothes are fitting better and I'm feeling SO much more confident about being at work and looking better. But mainly, I'm not not doing what I need to do and that's huge. So yeah - I completed the WHOLE Whole30 and I'm feeling good about that. And I'm continuing on for now.
  9. Emma

    LadyWolf's Whole 30 Log

    You rock!
  10. I love mayo too. And I love your fish cake recipe. I'm feeling excited to try something new that is also ridiculously simple. And I love your reflections on the on/off track thing. I use those words myself and I have a sense of me being on or off and there's a very thin middle ground where I could fall either way. I read part of the Food Freedom book and I can't remember if it talks about that. I know when I first started writing a month or so ago, there was a discussion about good and bad choices. I don't think in those terms, but I do think in terms of addictions and I am either on board and in control or I've fallen off and have a lot less control. It's interesting and interesting reading your thoughts.
  11. Emma

    Starting July 16!! Successes and woes!

    I think I'm just like that man, though maybe I'll learn some things on this reintro. One thing that did work really well for me way back when we did the first Whole30 was that for about six months afterwards, we tried to eat the same things at home, but when we went out, I stuck to rice based meals and avoided the pasta and bread based meals. It seemed like rice didn't trigger the same longing for more like fresh baked bread or yummy lush pasta. I also baked only paleo treats and - smiling - we ate a lot of paleo treats because the sweet tooth was there, but not out of control. The result was that we did okay and I didn't fall off the deep end and I saw some major changes in my health over those months. A road trip though is a really rough one because I think I'd want french fries and milk shakes and all sorts of things. Healthy hard boiled eggs and almonds just don't seem quite as invigoratingly freeing as a road trip requires. Perhaps there is a nice inbetween. Or perhaps there's not and you go off the deep end and if you rein yourself in fairly quickly, you'll be okay. If you take years to rein yourself in, well, that's not as good, but I took years and I finally got back here and I'm doing okay right now. It's a process.
  12. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    Well, I am curious, but after a couple episodes of eating things and not feeling so hot, I don't really want to test it out. The bad part of the reaction is fairly short lived, but I feel like until the food has cleared my body, I feel like internally my body is still dealing with it. And, right now I just don't have any spare time to purposely make myself feel lousy. It must be that the reactions are strong enough for me to actually listen this time - kinda like getting knocked over by a car and then you're more careful in a parking lot. Okay, maybe not quite that extreme, but definitely enough to make me pause and since I'm having no cravings....I'm just gonna go with it. Plus, things are already easier when you've done the hard part which is those first few weeks!!!!
  13. Emma

    Starting July 16!! Successes and woes!

    Mine has been so odd also. I thought it was light and over and done, but I've still got cramping and back aches and yet it is still light. It's not super bad, just distracting. I think what we eat definitely impacts. I'm more regular when I don't eat all the other stuff. It would be interesting to see what yours become over time if you continued on. Any thoughts of hopping right back on the Whole30 train?
  14. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    If I can get up and get to the gym in the morning, then yes, I will weigh myself. I know I've lost at least a couple pounds. Or at least, I think I know. And if for some reason I haven't, I'm going to chalk it up to my changing 50 year old body and the need to just buckle down. My body's job is to keep things balanced and here I'm throwing things for a loop. If my body decided to try to maintain my weight somehow while I'm doing all these good things, that's fine. It will chill out once it sees that the changes aren't a danger. (I wrote that this morning and then had to rush to get ready and never pressed submit) That was pretty optimistic chill thinking of me huh!? I don't know if I will actually FEEL that way, but that's the self talk I'll do and I'll continue to trust the process. I do think that the longer I eat well, the more my body will begin to self-regulate and change will happen, even if slowly. The tricky part I suppose is to not screw up and undo everything by living a life of debauchery and screw it all.
  15. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    I know - forgetting to eat. What the heck! I'm about to stand up and make my breakfast and lunch so I've got food at work. And maybe I'll try to meditate and work on breathing. Did you know we lose fat through our expirations? So weird isn't it. Last night I was googling what two pounds of fat looks like. It's a big ugly handful - definitely something to feel good about passing along. (I was trying to recognize that two pounds of weight loss would still be something to feel good about instead of the oft envisioned miracle twenty pound weight loss)
  16. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    Day 30 Thirty. There it is. And I have a gosh dang nabbit cold! The allergy pill helped last night. I'm glad I took it, but I had trouble falling asleep. This morning my ears itch and my throat and nose are congested. Blech blech blechity blech. My face feels bloated. My throat skin feels puffy. No way in H am I stopping Whole30 right now. But thank goodness I'm at this point because hopefully I can ride through this cold quickly and easily - something that rarely occurs when I'm eating my old ways and with my elevated inflammation markers. And the thought of reintro and feeling icky over some reaction is also unpleasant so I'm postponing it. I will, though, try to lay off all nut bars. I don't think they are helping the situation and there's no way I can even reintroduce them if I have never elimintated them. So....Congratulations to ME for making it do Day 30, but there's still more mountain to climb. I'm cool with it.
  17. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    The crazy thing is I haven't missed too much - probably a good greasy cheeseburger or a slice of pizza when everyone else is having one. I've missed having a beer when camping or hanging with friends, but overall, I haven't missed stuff. I've missed the convenience of finding food anywhere and everywhere. I've missed going out to dinner. I'll have to think about it today to see what I've missed. Regarding reintro, I'm going to do the slow thing I hope. I'm eating Whole30 to make big changes health wise and part of that is figuring out what foods might not sit well with me so I want to deliberately introduce soy products and some other things - though right now I can't remember what my tentative plan is at all! We did make it - including that obnoxious restart! It seems so easy once you get to 30 days, but there sure were plenty of days where things could have taken a turn. I do feel proud of myself and super glad there were others that were doing this at the same time and super glad some of those people were you with your good meals and positive attitude and organized reintro plan!!
  18. Emma

    LadyWolf's Whole 30 Log

    Do I select laugh or the heart?! I opted for laugh. The line about your husband finding the scale and then the apple juice at the end both had my quietly laughing. You did it!!! And it was a good process! And you're excited! Ahhhh - what wonderful things to feel!
  19. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    Day 29 - Oof. I have a foggy congested head. It's been really windy here so maybe there are pollens in the air. Or maybe it's stress and I'm catching a cold. Or maybe it's the nut bar I ate this morning. I am tempted to take a claritin but I also like that I'm not taking them so I'm not quite sure what to do. Go to bed I guess. I did not finish ANYTHING!!! Tomorrow morning is going to be a doozy at this rate and work will be a doozy and tomorrow evening will be a doozy. I did work most of the day on things, but things just always take longer than I expect. I might have to go into Plan B which is make things work without things being how I want them. I also didn't eat this morning. I totally forgot. And then when I realized, I ate some carrots and mackerel. Mmmm - that doesn't sound so good. It was my first time having mackerel from a can and it was good. For dinner we had spaghetti squash with ground beef and a tomato sauce I picked up in the store. It was a good sauce and my husband did a nice job putting it all together. Not sure what we're having tomorrow. SO much effort to figure out food. I'm tired. My lips feel chapped which is not a good sign. My head is stuffy. I think I will take an allergy pill to eliminate any allergy issues. This is a terrible week to be fighting something. But other than that, all is good. It's past nine and I'm still working. I haven't watched tv in ages or even checked Facebook more than a couple minutes at a time. I also haven't done laundry so some things are not miraculously changing for the better. All is acceptable. Good sleep to all of us (toasting a glass of lime soda water)
  20. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    Day 29. Wow. That number kind of makes me feel a little sad. Like going away to camp and it's a bit stressful and fun and seems like it's going to be a super long week and then all of a sudden, it's the last day. And at the same time I feel a big smile and sense of pride, like yeah - I did it! It's my own special secret thing I've been working on for myself - kinda like waking up early and going to the gym and all day, you know that you already rocked things really well. I went to sleep at one and woke up at nine! I have not slept till nine in ages. The animals were all on the bed. They had semi woken me up earlier, but they all settled back down and I was able to get a nice healthy eight hours of sleep. I woke up and showered and made my coffee and am sitting in a sunny quiet house right now and will hopefully get some of my thinking project done before the family returns. My left ankle has been sore this last week. I assumed it was from my trivial amount of walk/jogging so I've been laying low, but it's still sore and my knees were sore at night and I can feel little sharp pains lurking underneath - nothing bad, but stiff and sharp. It could be my period or the nut bars or something else. I'm more just noting it. I love my sleeping bag and I loved the idea of sleeping outside last night, but I'm really glad I was able to come home and take my turmeric and magnesium and the things that seem to help support my system. And the eating thing - I often eat when I can't get my brain to focus. I frequently do many things at once and think big picture and very right brainy until I can find the patterns that weave things together in a nice left brain way and in this process....I think that's a time I eat. Like right now as I need to sit down to focus, I can see me wanting to clean up the table and get the visual environment less distracting and then make some food and sit down to try to focus -lots of rituals to get to that focus place. And then when I'm focused, I'm focused, but so hard to get there when I have lots I want to do. One thing at a time is what I sometimes have to tell myself. But this morning, I think I'm okay just grabbing my notebook and sitting here with the coffee and without the other rituals (for the moment). I had this other thought about traditional diets and the influence of the western junk food diets. In more traditional communities, if one grows up eating the meats, veggies, and regular foods people are relatively healthy. It's the introduction of the sodas and the chips and the SAD things that have triggered a huge increase in diabetes and obesity. I grew up eating a SAD diet so I don't think I was aware of the night and day difference - it was more a wide ski slope of 'healthy" foods and junky foods. And the nothingness that my body feels on Whole30 (nothing being good and kinda centered and not questing) is not something I ever really knew (or maybe noticed) even when eating healthy. I've always been a grazer, even when skinny. That was it. I'm off to grab my notebook. Cheers to a beautiful day for all of us!
  21. Emma

    LadyWolf's Whole 30 Log

    It is funny because you sound so strong and steady. I sure don't want you to run back to the bake shop or Gu's Dumplings because you're kinda serving as my role model/compadre in this process. Your husband is wonderful and his support is pretty wonderful. I wonder if it's harder now because the need to prioritize and focus on the process is beginning to take a back seat. I have to keep reminding myself of that. This morning I was thinking about how the scale might not show much change. It will show some, but maybe only a couple pounds and I was telling myself that a couple pounds is still quite a bit, but more importantly, I sure wasn't doing this to lose weight. Losing weight is a necessary part of the process of getting healthier, but my first goal was getting healthier which I'm doing eating this way and the losing weight is only one of the many data points. Those NSV's really don't get the credit they deserve. Hope you got lots done today. Oh my gosh, it's almost Monday again!
  22. The crazy thing about the mustard is that sometimes the cheapest looking ones are the cleanest! I just checked my fridge and I think the mustard I use is only a couple dollars. It's so funny that it's the one without all the extra stuff and it still has a nice mustardy taste. The preWhole30 foods make a big difference in how we react and the people who were eating well definitely have an easier transition. I always like looking at the timeline because it validates some things (the pants are tighter stage at the end of the first week or so), but it is not anything set in stone. Oh - and the day people are most likely to quit. I think I might have quit on that day! Confitted onions. Yum. Maybe not so yum with every meal and as the leftover that never ends, but still yum. I just read back on the part where your mother in law suggested better plans. Ugh. That would be so irritating for me because it requires so much grace to navigate because they have interpreted Whole30 as wild and extreme and have set ideas of what is balanced and healthy. At least my in laws just worried about our lives being in peril
  23. Emma

    KiwiKendra's Log from New Zealand

    Laughing - I love how you are attacking this process and giving it your all. The first time, my husband and I cleared out our fridge and gave boxes of food and sauces away to the neighbors. We planned a menu, but we were sloppy and didn't really map things out or prep. What I remember most is how much time I spent each day preparing the food. Oh my goodness! It was crazy. I'd never really cooked before and there I was trying to figure out how to peel butternut squash or cut a spaghetti squash and it felt like hours each day. It no longer takes hours each day and we've found shortcuts (no more peeling of squash) and know how to make things without the recipes but it was a process, but a process totally worth the effort and time!!! We also learned to double the recipes for our four person family so that there was enough for leftovers. Leftovers become the most beautiful thing in the world on Whole30 because they're so EASY to reheat and eat. You're gonna have a great time on Whole30 and it's super great that you have a colleague doing it with you. So many of the people in the forum share links to really good recipes. Our family likes the new Whole30 Quick and Easy book as well as Practical Paleo. Welcome! Congratulations on Day One!
  24. Emma

    Starting July 16!! Successes and woes!

    Great! I've got the arrowroot and the almond flour already so I can just pick up the bone broth. I spent some money and tried a few different ones the store sold and - blech!!! It will be good to try again because I like the idea of sipping warm bone broth on a chilly day so I'll see if they have the recommended brand and use it and sample it. I think back to my mood the other night which was so snarly and happened so quickly. I had been in such a good mood just an hour earlier and then boom I was the opposite. I thought it was my lack of veggies which might have contributed, but it was odd how sudden. If it was PMS, wow, those hormones just turn things on. No wonder teens go through some moods.
  25. Emma

    Whole 30 (July 2)

    Day 28 - Well, technically it's Day 29 since it's after midnight, but since I haven't gone to bed yet, I'm still on 28. I worked ALLLLLL day today and then drove out to the campgrounds and met my family around nine. I took my sleeping bag and was semi committed to spending the night, but also semi not. Then I realized I left all my vitamins and Natural Calm at home and I don't like disrupting that consistency. AND, my lips were feeling chapped which they often do right before I catch a cold. However, they were not chapped earlier. I have been stressed so it could be that and I slept crappy last night (period) but I also ate two nut bars this evening and I think it might have been that. Wow. I really do need to lay off the nuts, but they are SO convenient and easy. Anyway, once the kids fell asleep, I left and drove back home (I'd told them I was going to do so). I think I'll be more productive if I wake up at home, shower, and get working on things. But the point to all that....was that I did not stop at a McDonalds and pick up an unsweetened ice tea. I was thirsty and the pre Whole30 me would totally have pulled into a drive through and also ordered a cheeseburger and fries because why not. The old me would have grabbed some junk food on the way out to the campground or picked up a bag of chips at Target. Or maybe one of those pizzas they sell at Target. I've never had one. I WAS really hungry this evening - like crazy hungry. I didn't really eat enough and I guess I hadn't had dinner so I ate olives and the nut bars while driving and had to call it good. The hunger grumbles went away and at the campground I was fine with my bottle of water. I had a thought earlier today based on my observations that when I'm really busy, I just forget to eat and don't want to eat. When I travel by myself, I often don't eat. I don't need to eat in the sense that I don't get moody or grumpy or stressed until early evening when I'm in these modes. I suppose that's lucky cool that I can go so long without eating, but it got me thinking about why I eat when I'm not super busy and maybe I eat to get stimuli in my system. Not because I'm bored, but because my nervous system is seeking MORE. So it eats and then something about the food triggers the wanting of more food. Certainly there are times I eat when I'm upset or bored or stressed, but not really. Procrastinating often calls for food. So, as I was playing with this idea of my body wanting MORE, I was also thinking about how I am not an adrenaline junky and I like quiet times at home, but....my physical body is just not getting what it needs because I'm not exercising maybe and so it seeks something. But now, eating Whole30, maybe my overall system is just more centered and balanced and so it doesn't need anything more. Reminds me a bit of how some folks with ADHD feel more settled after a cup of coffee. Anyway, that was my big thought for the day. The other was the NSV about not eating at the drive through. And now it is one am and so I'd better get my body to sleep so the cat can wake me at five and the dog at six Or maybe we'll all sleep in!