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    Emma reacted to Beckha99 in Starting July 16!! Successes and woes!   
    I don't think I can drink coffee without creamer. It is too bitter, I think. My husband said I should try the almond or coconut milk creamers, but they always seem to separate in the coffee which looks totally gross to me. 
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    Emma reacted to Amura in My W30 log - Starting on August 15th   
    DAY 9
    Today after running our usual errands I went out for a walk on my own - instead of going to the cafe and later to the park with the family. I brought all
    the shopping home (which is all the way up), changed my clothes and decided to go to the top of the small mountain which is back our home. There is very
    steep ramp and it seemed like a good challenge for brisk walk.
    While I was walking I realized that I had thought that I should go for a walk on a regular basis, but never actually did... because I was saboutaging
    myself. I used to think that I should, but also that it was not worth it, it would not change anything.
    Committing to the Whole30 changed my mindsent - and this is my first NSV. I've found the conviction to actually do something that I'm sure is good for my
    health and that I've meant to do for a long time.

    I took a picture. This is my town
    On the way back, I found some wild berries - very easy to grab too! Usually passers by pick them, but obviously there are not many passersby in this route
    (which is indeed very steep) so there were plenty of them.
    My water bottle was already empty (it's sooo hot these days) so I filled it with blackberries to share with all the family for lunch. I felt like a little kid!

    Meal 1: Omelette (3 eggs, coconut milk), zucchini, sweet potato and confitted onion.
    Meal 2: bonito in tomato sauce with potatoes. Wild berries and cashews.
    Meal 3: Green beans, carrot, potatoes and canned tuna. Green olives and cashews. 1 banana.
    Also drank half a bottle of lemonade, which is about half a lemon, but I doubt that counts.
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    Emma reacted to AnnH in Ann’s whole30 log - starting Tuesday 7/30   
    Day 24. I can’t believe I am less than a week from completing my whole30!  I am feeling great and notice clothes fitting me better. Couple of issues...some problems with constipation. You would think this wouldn’t be a problem with all the veggies I eat, but there you go. Have needed to incorporate some meds to manage things. Also have had to do some alterations related to my history of a gastric sleeve, but otherwise have been rolling along!
     
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    Emma got a reaction from Beckha99 in Whole 30 (July 2)   
    Day 33
    Well yesterday I totally forgot to eat my breakfast until seven at night. But can I just say that my day was BUSY because I really didn't stop at all from 7:30 in the morning to seven at night. It was a day to be "on" and I was and the day went well and I felt good. I also am not drinking any water. So, I know I'm on Whole30 and this is very bad form to not be eating. I get that and I have already gone through all of the self-talk and the identification of what I need to do differently. I went shopping last night and picked up more veggies, but also some Epic bars as a just in case. Once I eat, then I eat more. But if I don't eat, I don't seem to notice. And I've never been super prone to being hangry.
    The thing that is interesting and positive about all this is that this is even happening. A month ago, I was running away from all stress and watching tv and feeling lousy and not sharp and not focused and energy was hard to maintain. And now I'm not some olympic athlete, but I'm dealing with things and doing things and rising to the occasion and being quite pleasant about it all! It's such a huge difference. It also doesn't feel like a "diet" or a restriction at this point - right now it's feeling like "this is just what I prefer" "no thanks. I'll pass on that".  That's kinda cool. 
    However, last night at the store when I was hungry, the sweet things looked good. What looked even better were the barbecue potato chips. Oh my. I bought some for the party tonight, but not for me. I did pick up a dark chocolate bar that has no soy lecithin in it. I'm curious if cocoa is one of my things. There have been times my cough has seemed to get worse after eating home made chocolate cakes and frosting (and cocoa was noted on the blood work allergen test - which does have lots of false positives). So, I figure I could try chocolate in the am, lunch, and pm. But I don't really want to do that today.
    I am a bit scared. I'm scared of a big reaction and then feeling foggy for hours after like what occurred when I ate the dino bites made with potatoes, potato starch, and canola oil. I'm scared of the foggy and then the aftermath. I'm also scared of waking up the lurking sugar dragon or addictive questing behaviors.
    And I read what Jihanna said about this not being a for the rest of life thing and the need to try things out. Yeah. I get it. But right now I'm kind of enjoying the calm of the open seas. It was a bumpy ocean ride for many many months (years) and then bumpier more finally getting going onto Whole30. I'm taking a chance to breathe right now. Breathe, stabilize, maybe build back in meditation, practicing, and walk/running (all of which have gone by the wayside) and then reintroducing things.
    Last night as I was making frosting for the cake, I was thinking about the biggest NSV from the beginning and that is that I feel so much more confident. On my first post, I remember saying I really needed help and support. I was feeling really POWERLESS. I did not know if I'd be able to pull it off. In fact, I was somewhat doubtful. And I SO appreciate the people who chimed in and checked in and then the ones who became daily friends and supporters. And I wouldn't want any of that to go away because it's so much more fun with other people and I love reading about how others are doing and theirs downs and their ups. But I don't feel that sense of neeeeeding that support. I feel like I've got my power back. And so my biggest fear is that I will lose that power if I am too cavalier with what I try eating.
    AND, what I love is that I'm not measuring things or counting calories or doing anything restrictive. Heck - I eat some big healthy portions of food. I'm never hungry, but now I find I am just through and don't really want anything more as opposed to some more physical stuffed feeling calling the shots. It's much more subtle and it's nice.
    I slept well last night. I'm a bit groggy and I'm drinking my coffee and my lips are still slightly chapped and today is another high stress day from the point I close this computer till 8 or 9. Immediately after work and a meeting, I'm racing home to my kid's party which BEGINS right when I get home. It will be fun, but it will require some gear switching in my head and the entire social thing is exhausting. I love the people and know them and enjoy our parties, but I'm an introvert by nature so a day of people from start to finish without breaks takes its toll. Tomorrow will be another busy day in which I really need to be on and then blessed Saturday I will get some time to myself to work/plan/organize. Inevitably I will get frustrated at how little I get done, but I'll get to do some work and in silence!!!! And maybe I can even bike to work which would be nice.
    I hope everyone has a good day!
     
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    Emma got a reaction from Beckha99 in Starting July 16!! Successes and woes!   
    Yay!!! I'm glad you're still here! I'm glad you finished, but I'm glad you're here. It's fun doing this along with others. So, will you drink coffee again just without the creamer?
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    Emma got a reaction from Beckha99 in Whole 30 (July 2)   
    Day 33
    Well yesterday I totally forgot to eat my breakfast until seven at night. But can I just say that my day was BUSY because I really didn't stop at all from 7:30 in the morning to seven at night. It was a day to be "on" and I was and the day went well and I felt good. I also am not drinking any water. So, I know I'm on Whole30 and this is very bad form to not be eating. I get that and I have already gone through all of the self-talk and the identification of what I need to do differently. I went shopping last night and picked up more veggies, but also some Epic bars as a just in case. Once I eat, then I eat more. But if I don't eat, I don't seem to notice. And I've never been super prone to being hangry.
    The thing that is interesting and positive about all this is that this is even happening. A month ago, I was running away from all stress and watching tv and feeling lousy and not sharp and not focused and energy was hard to maintain. And now I'm not some olympic athlete, but I'm dealing with things and doing things and rising to the occasion and being quite pleasant about it all! It's such a huge difference. It also doesn't feel like a "diet" or a restriction at this point - right now it's feeling like "this is just what I prefer" "no thanks. I'll pass on that".  That's kinda cool. 
    However, last night at the store when I was hungry, the sweet things looked good. What looked even better were the barbecue potato chips. Oh my. I bought some for the party tonight, but not for me. I did pick up a dark chocolate bar that has no soy lecithin in it. I'm curious if cocoa is one of my things. There have been times my cough has seemed to get worse after eating home made chocolate cakes and frosting (and cocoa was noted on the blood work allergen test - which does have lots of false positives). So, I figure I could try chocolate in the am, lunch, and pm. But I don't really want to do that today.
    I am a bit scared. I'm scared of a big reaction and then feeling foggy for hours after like what occurred when I ate the dino bites made with potatoes, potato starch, and canola oil. I'm scared of the foggy and then the aftermath. I'm also scared of waking up the lurking sugar dragon or addictive questing behaviors.
    And I read what Jihanna said about this not being a for the rest of life thing and the need to try things out. Yeah. I get it. But right now I'm kind of enjoying the calm of the open seas. It was a bumpy ocean ride for many many months (years) and then bumpier more finally getting going onto Whole30. I'm taking a chance to breathe right now. Breathe, stabilize, maybe build back in meditation, practicing, and walk/running (all of which have gone by the wayside) and then reintroducing things.
    Last night as I was making frosting for the cake, I was thinking about the biggest NSV from the beginning and that is that I feel so much more confident. On my first post, I remember saying I really needed help and support. I was feeling really POWERLESS. I did not know if I'd be able to pull it off. In fact, I was somewhat doubtful. And I SO appreciate the people who chimed in and checked in and then the ones who became daily friends and supporters. And I wouldn't want any of that to go away because it's so much more fun with other people and I love reading about how others are doing and theirs downs and their ups. But I don't feel that sense of neeeeeding that support. I feel like I've got my power back. And so my biggest fear is that I will lose that power if I am too cavalier with what I try eating.
    AND, what I love is that I'm not measuring things or counting calories or doing anything restrictive. Heck - I eat some big healthy portions of food. I'm never hungry, but now I find I am just through and don't really want anything more as opposed to some more physical stuffed feeling calling the shots. It's much more subtle and it's nice.
    I slept well last night. I'm a bit groggy and I'm drinking my coffee and my lips are still slightly chapped and today is another high stress day from the point I close this computer till 8 or 9. Immediately after work and a meeting, I'm racing home to my kid's party which BEGINS right when I get home. It will be fun, but it will require some gear switching in my head and the entire social thing is exhausting. I love the people and know them and enjoy our parties, but I'm an introvert by nature so a day of people from start to finish without breaks takes its toll. Tomorrow will be another busy day in which I really need to be on and then blessed Saturday I will get some time to myself to work/plan/organize. Inevitably I will get frustrated at how little I get done, but I'll get to do some work and in silence!!!! And maybe I can even bike to work which would be nice.
    I hope everyone has a good day!
     
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    Emma reacted to ArtFossil in SchrodingersCat's "I'm useless at this food freedom thing" Round 3 Diary   
    SchrodingersCat, I’m sorry you’ve had a bad few days.
    As @Tom Denham used to say, it’s reintroduction and afterwards that the real work begins. A Whole30 is easy. Food freedom, or what used to be called here, “riding your own bike,” is hard. But that’s what we have to master. (By the way, I encourage you to read as many of Tom’s posts as you can. He has a lot of insights to offer.)
    Speaking only for myself, I have had to couple the nutritional insights I gained through Whole30 with the ongoing work of addressing my psychological and emotional issues around food. ( @MeadowLily is someone else who has gone through this, and I encourage you to look at her posts.) In particular, the Whole30 focus on real food, intuitive eating, and eating three meals a day, with no snacks, and within an hour of waking has continued to serve me very well, together with the concept of MINDFUL eating.
    You have a lot of things going for you, not the least of which is your ability to cook nutritious and delicious meals. (Your meals have had me swooning). That’s definitely a strength.
    You may find, as @Jihanna has posted about, that alternating the structure of Whole30 with short resets (three days? a week? ten days? etc) might serve you well.
    For myself, having done a Whole30 (and two more as resets) I am presently engaged in a dual project of weight loss and addressing my eating from an emotional and psychological perspective. I know I have all the tools I need to achieve my goals, thanks to Whole30 but thanks also to my external resources. Whole30 has helped me to get back to my natural, intuitive way of eating, where no food is demonized.
    By the way, my adult daughter (with whom I live) also has vestibular migraines (vertigo) so striving to cook nutritious meals for her to support her work to improve her health helps keep me motivated to also to keep my nutrition at a high level and to continue to be mindful about the food we eat.
    You have the tools to work this out, and I encourage you to persevere.
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    Emma reacted to Jihanna in SchrodingersCat's "I'm useless at this food freedom thing" Round 3 Diary   
    (((hug)))
    I'm so so so sorry, I know that's a horrible feeling to see what's happening and have absolutely no way of stopping it yet, but I'm glad you'll have the opportunity to get things going more smoothly again soon! It would be SO NICE if work lunches and the like were actually catered with awesome whole foods instead of junk  
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    Emma reacted to SchrodingersCat in SchrodingersCat's "I'm useless at this food freedom thing" Round 3 Diary   
    Coz I know you're all dying for an update, I have gone down the rabbit hole of being a binging, scoffing, ravening hose beast. According to the scales I've 'gained' 12 lbs in 6 days - my face is puffy, my hands are puffy, my stomach hurts... and yet I still go on.
    I'm at a work conference tomorrow and Saturday with zero control over food, but Round Whatever starts Sunday. I feel atrocious.
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    Emma reacted to SchrodingersCat in SchrodingersCat's "I'm useless at this food freedom thing" Round 3 Diary   
    Thanks @Emma! It's cathartic getting them out there and I'm determined to be honest here. So.... SIGH I just ate cookies. Because I'm tired and feeling garbage and they were there. And they made me feel MORE garbage! Literally have stomach pains now.
     
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    Emma reacted to Amura in My W30 log - Starting on August 15th   
    DAY 8
    Meal 1: omelette (3 eggs + 3 tablespoons coconut milk + stock), one large carrot, radishes.
    Meal 2: A handful cashews (which I ate while cooking), rabbit & mushrooms stew, salad (lettuce, radishes, mango) and fried potatoes. An slice of cantaloupe.
    Snack: Green tea with ginger.
    Meal 3: Veggies barbecue (zucchini, carrot, sweet potato, cherry tomatoes) with leftover salmon and garlic mayo.
     
    Today I was sleepy again, and also my memory was not bright at all. I mean, I wanted to record my breakfast at midday and it took me veeeery long remembering what I had eaten. I also met a coworker early in the morning, and after spending the whole day trying to remember her name I finally gave up and looked it up - seriously, not remembering the name of a coworker in a place where only 24 people work really worries me! 
    I want to believe that my body is turning fat into sugar to feed my brain, and that it might be a bit inefficient because it's not what it used to do, or something in that line - so perhaps in a day or two it will be gone on its own?
    Physically I still have loose bowel movements, maybe slightly better. I think I may be overdoing the fats (because I cook everything in olive oil) and perhaps I should not be adding other sources of fat... 
    I don't want to cut down the fats, I think that might lead away from the program, so I'm gonna keep them as they are and see how it evolves.
    Other than that, well, I felt good.
    I want to add some walking into my routine, because I don't exercise at all tbh. When today morning we went to the beach, I spent most of the time walking (and talking with my nameless coworker). Later on the afternoon we were visiting my in-laws and I returned walking (it was 40 minutes walk and it was sooo hot that I regretted it!),
    I'll try to keep it up, because obviously it will help.
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    Emma reacted to Beckha99 in Starting July 16!! Successes and woes!   
    Day 31-
    Well I finished! I am happy, but also surprisingly numb. If I haven't mentioned it before, I am good at having a routine and guidelines. I feel like I am just floating around now without direction and it is only day 1 post whole30. It could be that I just came in from what felt like a hard run/walk, and I haven't eaten yet. I hope that is it. 
    So this morning I was excited to get my coffee and creamer back. It was in a word, underwhelming. I had my regular 2 cups with less creamer than normal because any sugar after 30 days of no sugar tastes like too much. I took my kids to school and went for my run/walk. In the span of 2 hours from the time I drank my coffee, my cramps are back, and my stomach feels just yucky. It is a possibility that I might have a slight dairy issue. I have no problem drinking iced tea to get my morning caffeine but the place where I got my tea no longer make it!!! URRRGGGG!!!
    When I was in the throws of the whole30, all I could think about what being done most of the time. You know, I wish I had this or that. Now this coffee situation makes me wonder if things are really worth it. Do I really want the coffee and creamer if it tastes kinda good, but then makes me feel gross? I don't think I do to be honest. That's a big epiphany for me. All day yesterday, I had my things planned for today. I get my coffee back in the am, eat compliant for all my meals and snacks, and then tonight I would get one glass of red wine and a little piece of dar chocolate. Then tomorrow back on the wagon 100%.  Now I am rethinking the wine and the chocolate with the way my body is already reacting. Let's see how this plays out. 
    Yesterday was super busy so I didn't get to post. It was nice not to dwell on it being the last day and all. I have a pain/stiffness between my neck and shoulder on my left side. I have tried everything to stretch it and work the knot out, but no luck. And as a result I did not sleep well last night, even though I was certainly tired. My sleep was fitful. Only got about 5.5 hours. That is the second time this week! It's a little irritating because I had been doing well on my sleep.  I am hoping it has to do with my period. When all else fails, blame it on the period. 
    Today I did weight myself. Originally I thought I would post it here. Until I weighed myself. Now, it isn't that I didn't lose weight. I did. I lost more weight then I thought I would. It is a good amount. It isn't that I am unhappy about it. The bottom line is that I am not satisfied yet with my weight loss. I am still "Obese" on the BMI. I feel better about how my body looks and feels, and that is a big step. It would be amazing if I could have just committed to 30 days and lost the entire 50lbs I needed to, but that isn't realistic. I need to work on staying positive and keeping on track. 
    Overall, I am happy I did round 2. The way my body and mind feel are worth so much. I have come a long way from where I was 30 days ago in all aspects. I feel more in control on my own body and mind. My anxiety and depression has taken a back seat. 
    I will keep posting as I continue on because I really enjoy the support here. I am going to keep on rolling!
     
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    Emma reacted to LadyWolf0926 in LadyWolf's Whole 30 Log   
    @Jihanna, thank you!! Great advice and options! I will definitely check that out!
    @Emma, I know! Why'd it have to be wine?  Honestly, it wasn't that surprising. My friend, who's doing W30 with me, tried vodka and soda on Sunday and had a similar reaction. I got my water in, and I'm actually doing okay this evening without any pain meds. So, I'm making the conscious choice to enjoy wine, on occasion, in small amounts.
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    Emma got a reaction from LadyWolf0926 in LadyWolf's Whole 30 Log   
    SO cool to notice and find a reaction. SO uncool that is was with wine  And way to go on the changes to your physical body. It's really validating.  No suggestions from me on airplane meals. I discovered that almost all the vegetarian options in the store use soy or pea protein. I'm definitely not touching pea protein. Not sure about soy.  Good luck with the super disorganized firm partner!!!
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    Emma reacted to Amura in My W30 log - Starting on August 15th   
    @LadyWolf0926 Your son's approach makes sense - I did exactly the same. I learned about the Whole30 right before going for a 5-day trip - staying in a hotel, eating out every meal, etc. We would not return home directly, but we'd spend 4 days visiting family - and staying in their house. It did not seem the right moment. AT ALL.
    I even posted in this forum for the first time before I returned home.
    Also you already have a grown-up son, which is quite a different matter  
    I guess I can relate more to @Emma experience. Which I'm glad was so successful, but to be honest I would rather be on the safe side. In a few years he'll be able to make his own choices and if I keep doing the Whole30 he may choose to join, but at this point it feels too soon.
    But every person knows their own family better than anyone else - that's why we make different choices!
    Anyway it also helps that we have a quite healthy Mediterranean diet. No pre-cooked meals at all, affordable fresh ingredients, etc. Most of my meals were already compliant but for a few details (I have noticed I use peas sooo often ) so in some sense there is little gain for the little one in this program.
    I am another matter, because I'm affraid I might be suffering a hormonal imbalance, and a self-experiment may provide invaluable for me. Or so I hope.
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    Emma reacted to LadyWolf0926 in LadyWolf's Whole 30 Log   
    Day 31 is in the books and now I'm back to compliant eating until these joint aches go away. Oh my. 
    So I had planned on honey, right? But when I got up and started planning to use it, it just felt kind of meh; I just wasn't feeling it. So I didn't. I figured I'll just try something when I feel like it, and I'll gauge my progress from there. Then work started, and it was a complete s*#t show thanks to my boss's poor planning.
    I was still working at 7:30 pm and trying to get dinner on the table at the same time. I finally hung up on my boss (he deserved it anyway, the turd, lol), sat down, looked at my husband and just said, "can I have a little red wine please?". So he opened a nice bottle of Ruffino Chianti Riserva and poured me a small glass. It was delicious but so sweet! I said so, and my husband took a sip and was like, "babe, that is not sweet, not at all"! Lol! I guess that's what happens to your taste buds after detoxing from sugar for 41 days. Anyway, we finished dinner, and the hubs went to work on the guest bathroom project, and I sat down to read my new book. All was good, went to bed, got a good 7+ hours of sleep and then I woke up. Holy aching joints, Batman!
    My feet hit the floor and I feel it everywhere. Shoulders, knees, ankles and lower back. It's not debilitating, but after not feeling like this for over 5 weeks, it's noticable. Okay, so check that...... red wine = joint aches. Got it. Back to compliant eating for the next few days or until the aches go away, whichever is longer! Now off to work to tackle another day with a super disorganized firm partner, lol  Gotta love 'em!
    Oh! And my trip to Seattle is booked for 10/7-10/11. I requested a non-dairy vegetarian meal for the flight, but now I'm worried it may have soy. If anyone has any suggestions on in-flight meals, I would welcome the advice!
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    Emma reacted to LadyWolf0926 in LadyWolf's Whole 30 Log   
    Today is D31, and it's a little bittersweet. I'm ecstatic about my results, butt it's also time for me to move on until my next round. I cannot thank all of you enough for the incredible support! Y'all rock!! 
    As of this morning, after a total of 41 days, I have lost 16.5 pounds and 19.75 inches overall. The biggest changes were 2" in my waist, 4" in my hips, 2" in my thighs and 2" in my calves. I also lost 2" in my chest (why oh why is it always the boobs? Sigh) I knew my clothes felt different but wow... just wow.
    I am going to start reintro today, so I'll continue blogging about my journey at Angel in Training at https://ladywolf926.blogspot.com. Feel free to come over, say hi! I'll still drop in from time to time. Bisous!! 
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    Emma got a reaction from LadyWolf0926 in Whole 30 (July 2)   
    Day 30 Plus 1 Evening Review:
    Whew - what a day. Stressful, busy, but only one of many. Not ready for tomorrow, nor for my kid's mystery party on thursday, but I did bake the cake tonight and I did almost finish preparing the mystery which....is ridiculously complicated. I didn't just go for a simple scavenger hunt or a few riddles or some spy codes. Instead I found ways for them to work together and then have their own codes and then to gather pieces of things that would have to fit back together. I have riddles and real jigsaw puzzles and locks and ..... it's pretty good.  And I am rather enjoying it. I'm so close to done. I just have to figure out ciphers for each kid that are different. I suppose they don't have to be different, but that's the idea in my head.
    And it's now a bit later than I wish it was, but I'm checking in and then going to sleep.
    So far, my cold is taken a back burner. My period is still ridiculously light but hanging out in my back. My husband made dinner again tonight - chopped up veggies with the five spice thing that he loves and halibut. The veggies were good. The halibut was fine. The kids ate everything. They are not fussing at all about the dinner foods and dinners have not been very exciting. 
    Baking today was a bit rough. I almost licked my fingers a few times. It's so hard not too, but I didn't. I also am a little disappointed I'm not going to try out this new recipe, but I'm also okay not trying it.
    Food tomorrow will be tricky. We are out of greens and zucchini and all the go-to foods. Oh, we have a sweet potato. I could chop that up and cook it with eggs. Today I had eggs and mackerel. It sounds horrible, but it was pretty good. It would have been great with mushrooms and onions.
    Okay - off to sleep. I'm curious how others are and I want to read your posts, but I've got to get to sleep. Hopefully in the morning!
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    Emma reacted to Beckha99 in Whole 30 (July 2)   
    I give 2 thumbs up for the hubby making dinner. Sometime the best food you can eat is just made by someone other than yourself!!! I am glad you had some help on that front yesterday! And don't worry about not weighing yourself at the gym today. In my opinion, weighing can only go 2 ways. Really good or really bad. Not that bad  would be necessarily bad, but maybe not what I want to see. You know? I think you have the important part of this journey nailed! Cheers to day 31!
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    Emma got a reaction from Jihanna in Whole 30 (July 2)   
    Day 31 
    Slept okay. Allergy pills have helped. Any cold virus I have is keeping itself to the bare minimum of a stuffy nose and puffy eyes. Overall, I'm okay. Drinking my coffee and realizing, OH NO, I need to be out of the house in thirty minutes!!!! EEeEEEEk.  I still have to shower, cook up some breakfast, and gather up all my work mess. I did make lunches for the kids already and I do know what I'm going to wear so that helps.
    There definitely does not feel like enough time in the days to get everything planned and set up, but again, I'm thankful I'm in this spot mentally and physically where I can ride through this and keep working on things and not feel overwhelmed and then procrastinate even more. This Saturday will offer me some time and things will start to relax in a couple weeks. 
    My husband made dinner last night since I was working. It was just chicken and broccoli. He apologized that it was so pathetic and yet it wasn't. The kids loved it. They wanted more broccoli. I loved it. We ate it all and there was a good amount of that green stuff. Too bad the only leftovers is from the one pound of chicken split four ways - isn't that interesting - it was the chicken we didn't finish, but the veggies we all ate up. I like how that shift starts happening.
    Going to drink my last sip of coffee and then get up and kick into Beast Conquer the Day mode
    (There was no wake up early and go to the gym and weigh myself scene this morning. I was not Beast Queen Wake Up Woman today)
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    Emma got a reaction from Beckha99 in Whole 30 (July 2)   
    Day 30 - I went back and looked at what I first wrote on July 2nd. Just starting and sticking to Whole30 for a day was something I'd planned to do for ages and never did. I remember going to the doctor and knowing I needed to change things, but finding that Day One was just so hard. It was so much easier to say, "Tomorrow" which, of course, never happened. And the guilt and the shame and the feeling lousy and the negative self talk and the low self-body-confidence....blech. And in all of that, I always KNEW what the answer was. It builds compassion to be in this position. It's so easy to look at somebody else and know what they should do. And for myself, I know what I should do: eat well, exercise. And finally I am. And I completed 30 clean days and I feel thankful that I got here - mostly thankful that I got to that Day One which is the hardest of them all.
    My vision of myself is still there - who I want to be/look like/feel like. I don't quite think I'm there yet. Coughing and laughing - definitely not, but I'm feeling a bit sportier and zestier and less frumpy and rolling ball of dough.
    And my aches and pains? Oh, my foot hurts from my attempts at walking/running (which I'm now officially one day behind) and I have chapped lips because I'm fighting a cold and I'm back on allergy pills because of the wind and the smoke from local wildfires, but I'm NOT super sick. I'm NOT limping. I'm NOT anything bad. I'm not miraculously healed of all aches, but I think my body is much happier. I'm also still overweight, but not by as much. My clothes are fitting better and I'm feeling SO much more confident about being at work and looking better. But mainly, I'm not not doing what I need to do and that's huge.
    So yeah - I completed the WHOLE Whole30 and I'm feeling good about that. And I'm continuing on for now.

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    Emma reacted to Jihanna in KiwiKendra's Log from New Zealand   
    It's only failure if you don't learn something from the experience. If you do learn, it's a stepping stone.
    I'd definitely encourage you to kind of slowly ramp yourself into your start date, so that you can prepare some condiments ahead of time and get a feel for how they taste, tweaks you might want to make, and how often you use them. If you also go ahead and remove a couple of the food groups W30 eliminates, you might be able to limit your detox issues (since you won't be coming off all of them all at once).
    Either way, it's awesome that you're not just walking away!
    That said, I absolutely despise the taste of mayo made with olive oil, even the super-light stuff. I tried grapeseed oil once, and then tried once where I did half grapeseed and half light olive... both disgusting. SUNFLOWER OIL is my saving grace, because it's way cheaper than avocado (which is what's suggested in so many blogs) and it has an amazingly light flavor that lets the seasonings do all the talking. My recipe includes the oil, egg, and lemon juice, plus salt, mustard powder, garlic powder, and a sprinkle of pepper. I'm happy to share it, if you'd like
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    Emma reacted to LadyWolf0926 in KiwiKendra's Log from New Zealand   
    It's okay, @KiwiKendra! All of this is okay. It's part of the process. Not sure if you have Primal Kitchen mayonnaise where you live, but that is a really good one. I have tried and bombed miserably trying to make my own mayo at home, so I'm with you there! I just get the Primal Kitchen; it's not cheap but it's REALLY good (and makes great sauces). And there are others out there; you'll just have to do a little detective work to find them.
    I love you have friends that are still encouraging you to hang in there and stick with it. Those are your lifelines! And giving yourself a couple weeks to plan, practice and get in the groove (so to speak), is a terrific plan of action. Plus, September is the #SeptemberWhole30 challenge that starts on 9/2. I'm guessing you'll have a lot of good company! 
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    Emma reacted to KiwiKendra in KiwiKendra's Log from New Zealand   
    I FAILED!!!!! - I FAILED before I'd even begun and I was so gutted!!  LadyWolf, Emma and Beckha thank you sooooo much for replying to my very first log. I just hope I'm replying to you all in the right place and continuing on with my saga in the right place too!
    So....on the Sunday night before my actual start date, I started off with the Tomato Sauce (working through the 7 Day Meal Plan) and whilst that was simmering (for an hour?!?! wow that long??) I moved on to my first ever Mayo, flipping back and for to the recipe, to make sure I was doing it properly. Once done, I gave a little chuckle thinking "how easy was that?". I poured it into one of my new jars and then started on the next sauce, I was on a roll..... but heck I felt as if I had walked miles in my tiny kitchen!  Then I remembered that I'm supposed to taste it.... OMG it was YUK !!  All I could taste was Olive Oil !!!!   My chin dropped and my heart sunk.... "oh NOW WHAT???" I thought to myself (well I said a bit more than that, but you get my drift).   
    I'd done all that and hadn't even started on the Spinach Frittata... I wanted to give up right then and there. I felt like I'd been at it for hours and wasted all those ingredients, and created a lot of dirty dishes...and as per usual, I try a recipe and it just never turns out! I was feeling really deflated.  My brain went into overload and I started to panic - how the heck could I start my Whole30 the very next day when I couldn't even make a couple of sauces?? How was I going to tell Kirsty?? I can't do this!! 
    I got really angry with myself....why was I not prepared? Where the heck am I going to source some ready made Mayo that doesn't have sugar or additives in it?    I shed a few tears (just a few) and then thought....Nup, I can't give up...I've been reading the books for the past 6 weeks and really getting myself into the right mindset for this, I just need to regroup. I'll change my start date, (I can do that can't I?) then I'll get the rest of the ingredients and MAKE SURE that my pantry really is stocked with everything I need. I'll even practice making the sauces and some of the recipes.
    SO ....the NEW START DATE for my very very first WHOLE30 is 1st September 2019.   hehehe    I have made the changes to the start date on my Facebook page and surprisingly enough so many of my friends have encouraged me to keep going. Some even accepted that I had failed (!!). 
    So my fellow Whole30 friends, I am continuing with my quest to change my life.  The mayo and the other sauce is sitting dejected at the bottom of the fridge - I'll deal to them later, but the Tomato Sauce with the mince was actually quite tasty - I had that for dinner last night. I couldn't face it with a fried egg this morning, still coming to grips with eating something so filling so early on in the day...but hey...I'm still in practice mode.    Tonight after work I attempted the Seared Chicken, roast spuds and coleslaw and WOW that is a LOT of coleslaw!! 
    I've got 12 days worth of practicing to get through.   I've read your comments, and I'm taking it all on board and knowing that there are others out there with similar experiences to mine, it will keep me going. Who knows I might even enjoy this cooking lark.
    Well, the kitchen is clean, my lunch is prepared for tomorrow (leftovers) and I'm actually looking forward to the leftover Italian Mince and a fried egg for breakfast!
    Onwards and upwards.
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    Emma got a reaction from Beckha99 in Starting July 16!! Successes and woes!   
    I think I'm just like that man, though maybe I'll learn some things on this reintro. One thing that did work really well for me way back when we did the first Whole30 was that for about six months afterwards, we tried to eat the same things at home, but when we went out, I stuck to rice based meals and avoided the pasta and bread based meals. It seemed like rice didn't trigger the same longing for more like fresh baked bread or yummy lush pasta. I also baked only paleo treats and - smiling - we ate a lot of paleo treats because the sweet tooth was there, but not out of control.  The result was that we did okay and I didn't fall off the deep end and I saw some major changes in my health over those months.  A road trip though is a really rough one because I think I'd want french fries and milk shakes and all sorts of things. Healthy hard boiled eggs and almonds just don't seem quite as invigoratingly freeing as a road trip requires. Perhaps there is a nice inbetween. Or perhaps there's not and you go off the deep end and if you rein yourself in fairly quickly, you'll be okay. If you take years to rein yourself in, well, that's not as good, but I took years and I finally got back here and I'm doing okay right now. It's a process.