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    ktothev got a reaction from dee1314 in Canned tuna   
    I second the recommendation for italian grocers. I get Genova Tonno solid light tuna in olive oil (ingredients: tuna, olive oil, salt). It is so much better than the grocery store stuff. I love it with some zucchini noodles and garlic.
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    ktothev got a reaction from aprilb in Complete and utter food boredom   
    This hit me in my third week of my Whole30, and it's hitting me now.
     
    Note that I am a foodie, was into cooking for years and years, well before my dabbling in paleo and then my January Whole30. It isn't as if I don't have a huge arsenal...I have a freezer full of local, ethically raised chicken, turkey, beef, some grass fed bison, some wild caught mahi mahi and salmon...I know how to cook just about anything. I am normally both an engaged and creative cook.
     
    I just want...none of it. I have days, sometimes multiple days, where I would rather not eat than eat anything compliant. I have had three days in the past week where I have only eaten 2 meals. I finished my Whole30 a week ago, and while I love the way I feel and do not want to go back to eating my old way...
     
    some days, I just want a freaking pizza, lol.
     
    I am all for moderation, and I will have pizza (or "whatever")...when the time is right, when its fantastic pizza with friends and its about eating something wonderful in a great setting. Not because I just don't feel like anything else. Not crap takeout pizza. Maybe its the convenience of certain foods I miss most of all...maybe I'm just tired of all the cooking. I don't know. It seems odd that I can feel physically better than I ever have in my adult life and at the same time resent the food that makes me feel this way.
     
    I know this is just something I have to suck up and get through (someone posted a great quote on someone's thread about craving chocolate: the only way out is through). I guess I just wondered if anyone else goes through this...it seems like this would be part of the whole figuring out how to ride your own bike thing.
     
    I do have a meal planned for tomorrow night (date night) that I AM looking forward to...a chicken tika masala recipe someone shared on these forums that I made last week and adored. However, I don't think I can eat that for 3 meals a day, every day...
     
    So, anyone want to have a moment of a little pity party with me before I suck it up and carry on? (Which I will do. I got through this when I was on the Whole30 just by putting one foot in front of the other and making good choices, I'm going to do the same thing now)
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    ktothev got a reaction from MeadowLily in Wine: an update and some realizations   
    I want to thank the op for starting this topic and all the others for chiming in.
     
    I finished my whole30 yesterday. I have been trying to figure out what approach to take with wine going forward. After reading all the responses, I feel much more confident in just being aware, making conscious choices, see how I feel and react, and then modify if needed.
     
    It is easy to tell people you have a problem with sugar. We all joke about that. It is much harder to say you have a problem with wine (or any alcohol). I think because of that, we tend to avoid a discussion about it, even though we wouldn't feel the least bit uncomfortable trying to figure out what role cheese, or dark chocolate, or pick-your-poison, have in our post Whole30 life.''
     
    This discussion has been very helpful and my discovery of it very timely.
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    ktothev got a reaction from MeadowLily in Wine: an update and some realizations   
    I want to thank the op for starting this topic and all the others for chiming in.
     
    I finished my whole30 yesterday. I have been trying to figure out what approach to take with wine going forward. After reading all the responses, I feel much more confident in just being aware, making conscious choices, see how I feel and react, and then modify if needed.
     
    It is easy to tell people you have a problem with sugar. We all joke about that. It is much harder to say you have a problem with wine (or any alcohol). I think because of that, we tend to avoid a discussion about it, even though we wouldn't feel the least bit uncomfortable trying to figure out what role cheese, or dark chocolate, or pick-your-poison, have in our post Whole30 life.''
     
    This discussion has been very helpful and my discovery of it very timely.
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    ktothev got a reaction from MeadowLily in Wine: an update and some realizations   
    I've decided to pop back into this thread. I'm currently in the middle (literally, day 15) of my second Whole30. I am doing another whole30 specifically for the sugar and the alcohol issues. After the first week, the sugar and crap food cravings were pretty much gone (the only thing that really still sounds good to me is really good dark chocolate). However, I would just about kill someone for a glass of wine. On the positive side, it has made me realize what is really important: not beer, not margaritas, not fancy cocktails...just red wine, lol.
     
    After my first Whole30 in january, I did a really good job of managing my drinking and limiting it to fun, social outings with friends, the perfect wine with a great meal, and only 1-2 drinks even then. Of course, the fact that I'm on another whole30 means I didn't maintain that and went back to all my old habits. Drinking nearly daily, at least 2-3 drinks, often more on the weekends.
     
    This second Whole30 is me giving myself a second chance to change my relationship to alcohol. I've learned a lot over the last 8 months and hope to put that information to good use. If I once again fall back into old unhealthy habits, then I'm going to do 90 days without alcohol (see https://www.hellosundaymorning.org), and decide at that point if it is something I can have in my life in a healthy way or not.
     
    I'm trying not to borrow trouble from the future and worry about failing again, rather just getting back on track and remaining positive and hopeful and knowing I have a plan in place if things don't go as I hope.
     
    I do think there is a correlation between sugar, crap food, and alcohol as well. I'm not sure I can cut one out without cutting out the others. They all seem interrelated to me.
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    ktothev got a reaction from ultrarunnergirl in Larabars   
    Whole, real food is always best. But if you have to have an emergency food (and I do, not often, very rarely, but I do need an emergency food due to either travel or trail riding for hours at a time - not a lot of stuff survives well in a saddle bag) I highly recommend Epic bars. I can guarantee you they do not imitate a candy bar in any way, shape or form. I had an issue with RX bars (although not anymore) but never once have had an issue with the Epic bars.
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    ktothev got a reaction from keaton1022 in Help me break up with my scale   
    I actually was originally going to post a message about how to lose weight post whole30. However, I realized my issue is not about losing weight, but about letting the number on the scale dictate so much of my self worth. On my first Whole30 in January, I weighed myself once. On my last whole30 that I finished this past Saturday...way more than that. I realize that neither of these were true Whole30s because of this. And I have also realized, over and over again, that the number on that scale, regardless of what it is, never, ever makes me feel good about myself.
     
    Note that I am not really overweight - maybe about 10 pounds at the most. I, like many of you, struggled with calorie counting and weight watchers and all kinds of counting obsession, along with chronic cardio. For YEARS. I got to my goal weight once, through weight watchers. I was hungry ALL THE TIME. I'm sure I lost muscle, not fat. And of course, I could not maintain that loss. But boy, I could fit into off the rack clothes great, lol.
     
    I have been paleo for almost a year now (I have not counted calories in any way, shape, or form in that time), and my weight has found a set point (of course, not the set point I want, lol). As long as I eat healthy, I stay right around there. I do have a renewed focus on improving my fitness, but I want that focus to be on health and supporting activities I love vs. losing weight.
     
    I cannot bear the thought of going back to obsessing over every calorie I put in my mouth. It's one thing to be conscious of your diet so you focus on the most nutritious things, another thing altogether about making the only goal staying under some arbitrary limit.
     
    So, I need to break up with the scale. In many ways, this is harder than breaking up with sugar, or alcohol.
     
    I know many of you have done this. I'd like to hear your stories. I know this is something I just have to deal with, but I've found inspiration many times on these boards, and I think hearing success stories of other people who have slayed the "scale dragon" would certainly be helpful.
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    ktothev got a reaction from keaton1022 in Help me break up with my scale   
    I actually was originally going to post a message about how to lose weight post whole30. However, I realized my issue is not about losing weight, but about letting the number on the scale dictate so much of my self worth. On my first Whole30 in January, I weighed myself once. On my last whole30 that I finished this past Saturday...way more than that. I realize that neither of these were true Whole30s because of this. And I have also realized, over and over again, that the number on that scale, regardless of what it is, never, ever makes me feel good about myself.
     
    Note that I am not really overweight - maybe about 10 pounds at the most. I, like many of you, struggled with calorie counting and weight watchers and all kinds of counting obsession, along with chronic cardio. For YEARS. I got to my goal weight once, through weight watchers. I was hungry ALL THE TIME. I'm sure I lost muscle, not fat. And of course, I could not maintain that loss. But boy, I could fit into off the rack clothes great, lol.
     
    I have been paleo for almost a year now (I have not counted calories in any way, shape, or form in that time), and my weight has found a set point (of course, not the set point I want, lol). As long as I eat healthy, I stay right around there. I do have a renewed focus on improving my fitness, but I want that focus to be on health and supporting activities I love vs. losing weight.
     
    I cannot bear the thought of going back to obsessing over every calorie I put in my mouth. It's one thing to be conscious of your diet so you focus on the most nutritious things, another thing altogether about making the only goal staying under some arbitrary limit.
     
    So, I need to break up with the scale. In many ways, this is harder than breaking up with sugar, or alcohol.
     
    I know many of you have done this. I'd like to hear your stories. I know this is something I just have to deal with, but I've found inspiration many times on these boards, and I think hearing success stories of other people who have slayed the "scale dragon" would certainly be helpful.
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    ktothev got a reaction from MeadowLily in Help me break up with my scale   
    theheywhohaa...
     
    amen sister. Self acceptance is a goal I have been working towards for a long while now. Some times it seems very close and other times very far away.
     
    I love this quote from the movie Bull Durham "The world is made for people not cursed with self awareness.". This self awareness thing sucks sometimes, lol.
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    ktothev got a reaction from MeadowLily in Help me break up with my scale   
    theheywhohaa...
     
    amen sister. Self acceptance is a goal I have been working towards for a long while now. Some times it seems very close and other times very far away.
     
    I love this quote from the movie Bull Durham "The world is made for people not cursed with self awareness.". This self awareness thing sucks sometimes, lol.
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    ktothev got a reaction from Tina R in Omelette advice   
    I like adding proscuitto to my eggs, provides a saltiness that I previously got with parmesan cheese.
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    ktothev got a reaction from howswelegant in Day 4 - what's different this time?   
    I'm on day 26 of my second. Did my first in January of this year.
     
    I'll be completely honest. This one has been horrible. Granted, I am going through stress due to work and relationship issues...but I was going through something similar my first one. In fact, I specifically choose to do a second one right now with the hopes that I would get similar results as before: better, more consistent energy levels, improved mood, better focus at work, better sleep, and yes, weight loss.
     
    Note that prior to my whole30 I had been eating primal/paleo about 80/20 for about 3 months. After my whole30, same thing. So it isn't like I was coming from a SAD either time.
     
    I am getting...none of that right now. I can tell I'm not losing weight by the way my clothes fit. And I am...miserable. Depressed. The sleep? it's hit or miss. The focus? a struggle. The energy and improved mood? No way.
     
    I have thought a number of times about throwing in the towel. But, if nothing else, I'm going to get one thing out of this: I'm going to prove to myself that I can make it through a very difficult period without alcohol (a very important lesson for me) and without reaching for comfort foods. I am trying to tell myself that even if that is the only benefit I get this time around, it's worth it. I'm not quite believing myself yet, lol.
     
    Another weird thing...this time it seems to be taking FOREVER to get through the 30 days. Even my close friend, who has done 3 of these, has joked that this is the longest whole30 ever (only 1,000 more days, she said to me yesterday, lol). I'm not saying the first one was a breeze...but this one has just been dragging on...
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    ktothev got a reaction from MeadowLily in Wine: an update and some realizations   
    I've decided to pop back into this thread. I'm currently in the middle (literally, day 15) of my second Whole30. I am doing another whole30 specifically for the sugar and the alcohol issues. After the first week, the sugar and crap food cravings were pretty much gone (the only thing that really still sounds good to me is really good dark chocolate). However, I would just about kill someone for a glass of wine. On the positive side, it has made me realize what is really important: not beer, not margaritas, not fancy cocktails...just red wine, lol.
     
    After my first Whole30 in january, I did a really good job of managing my drinking and limiting it to fun, social outings with friends, the perfect wine with a great meal, and only 1-2 drinks even then. Of course, the fact that I'm on another whole30 means I didn't maintain that and went back to all my old habits. Drinking nearly daily, at least 2-3 drinks, often more on the weekends.
     
    This second Whole30 is me giving myself a second chance to change my relationship to alcohol. I've learned a lot over the last 8 months and hope to put that information to good use. If I once again fall back into old unhealthy habits, then I'm going to do 90 days without alcohol (see https://www.hellosundaymorning.org), and decide at that point if it is something I can have in my life in a healthy way or not.
     
    I'm trying not to borrow trouble from the future and worry about failing again, rather just getting back on track and remaining positive and hopeful and knowing I have a plan in place if things don't go as I hope.
     
    I do think there is a correlation between sugar, crap food, and alcohol as well. I'm not sure I can cut one out without cutting out the others. They all seem interrelated to me.
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    ktothev got a reaction from ultrarunnergirl in Larabars   
    Whole, real food is always best. But if you have to have an emergency food (and I do, not often, very rarely, but I do need an emergency food due to either travel or trail riding for hours at a time - not a lot of stuff survives well in a saddle bag) I highly recommend Epic bars. I can guarantee you they do not imitate a candy bar in any way, shape or form. I had an issue with RX bars (although not anymore) but never once have had an issue with the Epic bars.
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    ktothev got a reaction from MeadowLily in Wine: an update and some realizations   
    I want to thank the op for starting this topic and all the others for chiming in.
     
    I finished my whole30 yesterday. I have been trying to figure out what approach to take with wine going forward. After reading all the responses, I feel much more confident in just being aware, making conscious choices, see how I feel and react, and then modify if needed.
     
    It is easy to tell people you have a problem with sugar. We all joke about that. It is much harder to say you have a problem with wine (or any alcohol). I think because of that, we tend to avoid a discussion about it, even though we wouldn't feel the least bit uncomfortable trying to figure out what role cheese, or dark chocolate, or pick-your-poison, have in our post Whole30 life.''
     
    This discussion has been very helpful and my discovery of it very timely.
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    ktothev got a reaction from Robin Strathdee in What is the difference?   
    While I generally agree with the lara bars and the like not being great options, the Epic bars I feel are a much better emergency food choice because they don't in any way resemble "treats". That is one emergency bar I can have around and I never just eat for the sake of eating it. It isn't that they are horrible, they just feel more like real food to me. They aren't sweet at all and the texture is definitely not like a cookie!
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    ktothev got a reaction from MeadowLily in Wine: an update and some realizations   
    I want to thank the op for starting this topic and all the others for chiming in.
     
    I finished my whole30 yesterday. I have been trying to figure out what approach to take with wine going forward. After reading all the responses, I feel much more confident in just being aware, making conscious choices, see how I feel and react, and then modify if needed.
     
    It is easy to tell people you have a problem with sugar. We all joke about that. It is much harder to say you have a problem with wine (or any alcohol). I think because of that, we tend to avoid a discussion about it, even though we wouldn't feel the least bit uncomfortable trying to figure out what role cheese, or dark chocolate, or pick-your-poison, have in our post Whole30 life.''
     
    This discussion has been very helpful and my discovery of it very timely.
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    ktothev got a reaction from StephannieL in Whole 30 Friendly Meatloaf   
    This is, hands down, my favorite meatloaf. I usually serve with balsamic brussel sprouts and sweet potato fries with homemade mayo, and leftovers are fantastic for breakfast with some sweet potato/parsnip hashbrowns.
     
    http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/bobby-flay/vegetable-meatloaf-with-balsamic-glaze-recipe.html
     
    Yes, I modify the recipe...I eliminate the cheese, substitute almond flour for the panko, and I make my own ketchup (but you could substitute tomato sauce if you are not that ambitious). I did my Whole30 in January and have kept these modifications whenever I make this even though I "technically" don't have to.
     
    It also freezes really well, so I use 2 pounds of turkey and make 4 mini loaves (when I'm really ambitious, I make a ginormous batch and freeze most of it).
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    ktothev got a reaction from christysnow88 in Alcohol was probably a bad idea   
    Do not underestimate how much your tolerance for alcohol will drop after 30 days. I was a big (and I mean BIG) red wine drinker pre-Whole30.
     
    On Monday, I had one glass of wine and was fine...although I milked that glass for an entire 2 hour dinner.
     
    Last night, my boyfriend and I went out for dinner...no alcohol, but then we decided to go for a drink afterwards. First glass of wine I was fine, we decided to order a second glass and I'm not kidding you, one sip and I could feel the alcohol start to hit me. I did not drink any more after that because I had to drive home, but honestly, even if I wasn't driving I wouldn't have finished it. That's how much I was starting to feel it.
     
    So, for right now, its gonna be one glass only when I'm out. And I was a one BOTTLE girl before... (can't believe I'm admitting that, but I think there are a lot of us out there).
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    ktothev got a reaction from LadyM in Newly compliant RX bars and the sugar dragon   
    I did my whole30 in January. At first, I did have a hard time with the RX bars and the sugar dragon, but as I moved through the Whole30 stages, it seemed to level out. At this point, i still have some but I honestly don't really like them (they are too sweet - I still like "real" sweet stuff, like chocolate, but not the RX bars). The Epic bars I've ordered recently do much better for me when I really do need an emergency food, and while I wasn't sure I could eat a "meat bar" at first, I much prefer them to the RX bars.
     
    (But yeah...that first week the RX bars were CALLING to me...)
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    ktothev got a reaction from LadyM in Newly compliant RX bars and the sugar dragon   
    I did my whole30 in January. At first, I did have a hard time with the RX bars and the sugar dragon, but as I moved through the Whole30 stages, it seemed to level out. At this point, i still have some but I honestly don't really like them (they are too sweet - I still like "real" sweet stuff, like chocolate, but not the RX bars). The Epic bars I've ordered recently do much better for me when I really do need an emergency food, and while I wasn't sure I could eat a "meat bar" at first, I much prefer them to the RX bars.
     
    (But yeah...that first week the RX bars were CALLING to me...)
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    ktothev got a reaction from kelsola in sugar creeping back into my diet!   
    I had the same issue. Did great on my January Whole30, but the sugar has crept its way in, slowly at first, and now a raging dragon yet again. Some people are moderators, some are abstainers...I clearly cannot have sugar in moderation, so my only alternative now is to abstain.
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    ktothev got a reaction from jodea in We started 1st Jan. Here's what we did next ...   
    I'll chime in, as I haven't updated in a while. I've been doing OK. Not as great as I would like, but actually better than I expected. That's precisely why I'm NOT jumping into doing another Whole30. The problem is not the Whole30. The problem is finding the right balance off it.
     
    I did do something rather monumental for me, but most people won't get it. I thought I'd share it, because I think a lot of us deal with body image issues, weight issues, all kinds of things like that, and we turn to Whole30 to find some sanity and peace about all of this. I am currently in a hard core purge of "stuff" phase. That includes a massive purge of clothing. One, I can't believe how many things I bought solely because they fit me, regardless of whether I liked them or not. I ended up getting rid of more of my wardrobe than I kept. The only things that got to stay were things I love to wear, things that really feel like "me", things I feel totally great and comfortable in. That didn't leave much, lol - but enough to start building a new good wardrobe piece by piece.
     
    As part of this process, I got rid of every single thing that didn't fit me. Most things in this category were too big, but there were a few things, particularly one pair of jeans, that I have been holding onto from a time in my life were my marriage was falling apart and in a desperate attempt to make it better I lost a ton of weight with weight watchers and major chronic cardio. There was a tiny pair of jeans in particular that I have held onto this whole time. Even though I felt like crap at that weight, and wasn't happy...those jeans freaking taunted me. "Remember when you were this SKINNY?!" They went into the donate pile. And came out. And went back in, and out, like 10 times, lol. But in the end...they went.
     
    I cannot believe what that single act has done for my body image. Knowing that those jeans aren't hiding out in the back of my closet, waiting for me to get to that "perfect weight" has allowed me to finally start accepting myself just the way I am. I mean, I'm not there totally yet, but I feel like I made a big move in the right direction.
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    ktothev got a reaction from jodea in We started 1st Jan. Here's what we did next ...   
    I'll chime in, as I haven't updated in a while. I've been doing OK. Not as great as I would like, but actually better than I expected. That's precisely why I'm NOT jumping into doing another Whole30. The problem is not the Whole30. The problem is finding the right balance off it.
     
    I did do something rather monumental for me, but most people won't get it. I thought I'd share it, because I think a lot of us deal with body image issues, weight issues, all kinds of things like that, and we turn to Whole30 to find some sanity and peace about all of this. I am currently in a hard core purge of "stuff" phase. That includes a massive purge of clothing. One, I can't believe how many things I bought solely because they fit me, regardless of whether I liked them or not. I ended up getting rid of more of my wardrobe than I kept. The only things that got to stay were things I love to wear, things that really feel like "me", things I feel totally great and comfortable in. That didn't leave much, lol - but enough to start building a new good wardrobe piece by piece.
     
    As part of this process, I got rid of every single thing that didn't fit me. Most things in this category were too big, but there were a few things, particularly one pair of jeans, that I have been holding onto from a time in my life were my marriage was falling apart and in a desperate attempt to make it better I lost a ton of weight with weight watchers and major chronic cardio. There was a tiny pair of jeans in particular that I have held onto this whole time. Even though I felt like crap at that weight, and wasn't happy...those jeans freaking taunted me. "Remember when you were this SKINNY?!" They went into the donate pile. And came out. And went back in, and out, like 10 times, lol. But in the end...they went.
     
    I cannot believe what that single act has done for my body image. Knowing that those jeans aren't hiding out in the back of my closet, waiting for me to get to that "perfect weight" has allowed me to finally start accepting myself just the way I am. I mean, I'm not there totally yet, but I feel like I made a big move in the right direction.
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    ktothev got a reaction from jodea in We started 1st Jan. Here's what we did next ...   
    I'll chime in, as I haven't updated in a while. I've been doing OK. Not as great as I would like, but actually better than I expected. That's precisely why I'm NOT jumping into doing another Whole30. The problem is not the Whole30. The problem is finding the right balance off it.
     
    I did do something rather monumental for me, but most people won't get it. I thought I'd share it, because I think a lot of us deal with body image issues, weight issues, all kinds of things like that, and we turn to Whole30 to find some sanity and peace about all of this. I am currently in a hard core purge of "stuff" phase. That includes a massive purge of clothing. One, I can't believe how many things I bought solely because they fit me, regardless of whether I liked them or not. I ended up getting rid of more of my wardrobe than I kept. The only things that got to stay were things I love to wear, things that really feel like "me", things I feel totally great and comfortable in. That didn't leave much, lol - but enough to start building a new good wardrobe piece by piece.
     
    As part of this process, I got rid of every single thing that didn't fit me. Most things in this category were too big, but there were a few things, particularly one pair of jeans, that I have been holding onto from a time in my life were my marriage was falling apart and in a desperate attempt to make it better I lost a ton of weight with weight watchers and major chronic cardio. There was a tiny pair of jeans in particular that I have held onto this whole time. Even though I felt like crap at that weight, and wasn't happy...those jeans freaking taunted me. "Remember when you were this SKINNY?!" They went into the donate pile. And came out. And went back in, and out, like 10 times, lol. But in the end...they went.
     
    I cannot believe what that single act has done for my body image. Knowing that those jeans aren't hiding out in the back of my closet, waiting for me to get to that "perfect weight" has allowed me to finally start accepting myself just the way I am. I mean, I'm not there totally yet, but I feel like I made a big move in the right direction.