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    jotartare reacted to Redheadlg in Applegate Farms Sunday Bacon   
    I find this whole topic a bit odd. I was just reading "The Peanut Manifesto" and came across this line recommending Sunbutter as a peanut butter alternative:
    "Sunbutter is made from specially roasted sunflower seeds, and is peanut, tree-nut and gluten free. And unlike other nut butters, it actuallytastes like PB. Some variations (like the “Creamy†version) contain a small amount of sugar in the form of cane juice. We're okay with that, but for you purists, the “Organic†version is free of added salts and sugars."
    So, the small amount of added sugar in Sunbutter is ok, but the small amount of added sugar in Applegate Farms organic bacon isn't? Lara Bars aren't off limits for the sugar addicted (for me, those might as well be crack in a wrapper), but high-quality, well-sourced organic bacon is?
    Don't get me wrong, I love this program and will follow it to a T, but I like my "rules" to make sense and be consistent, and this one aspect of it kind of bugs me.
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    jotartare reacted to Kirsteen in Torula Yeast   
    Robin is, as always, exactly right, it's not off plan. Some of us would rather avoid it but that's a personal thing, NOT a W30 rule.
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    jotartare reacted to rosedeniz in Throwing away the scale.   
    Is there a "love this" button somewhere? "Like" just doesn't quite do it for me.  
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    jotartare reacted to MelliebuStacey in Throwing away the scale.   
    Throwing away the scale was the best thing I ever did for myself. I still do check my weight every here and there at the gym (sometimes curiosity kills the cat). I used to struggle with eating disorders (pretty severely, I was hospitalized at 78 pounds and force-fed for a while..not something I'd wish upon even my worst enemy), and would stress myself to pieces over even a .1 pound gain.
    What I've learned is that the best means of measurement for me is three fold:
    1. How do I feel?
    2. How do my clothes fit?
    3. What are my measurements? (I do measure myself every 2-3 months, hips, thighs, waist, arms)
    As long as you feel good about yourself, and you're managing your health, everything else is just a number.
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    jotartare reacted to GLC1968 in Throwing away the scale.   
    Yes! In fact, I always thought I had a good relationship with the scale. I knew it was just a number. I knew that it didn't 'define' me. I knew that my number would always be higher for my height and I liked that because it meant I had more muscle than some of my similarly sized friends. It wasn't until I started eating truly cleanly so that I could better hear what my body was telling me that I realized that I wasn't as 'good' with the scale as I thought I was. The first time I felt like I was making really good progress with my health and body image and then I stepped on that scale and saw a higher than expected number, my reaction shocked me! It felt like a kick in the stomach. It was only a number (one of many, of course!) and yet it totally affected my outlook. From that point on, I wanted to be free of it for good.
    If it wasn't for Whole30, I never would have known that 1) I had such issues and 2) how it would even be possible to be free of it!
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    jotartare reacted to Emily in Throwing away the scale.   
    Do it! Get rid of it! Think of all you could be doing/thinking about/enjoying other than that number!
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    jotartare reacted to Katelyn in Throwing away the scale.   
    It's funny, because when I was reading through ISWF, I thought to myself, "Ha! Yeah right. I'll never get rid of my scale. Try to make me." Haha. Now I'm doing it of my own free will! Definitely didn't expect that to happen.
    @GLC1968 - I'm the same way; I know I'll never be "skinny" - my body just isn't made to be stick-thin. I'm curvy and more of a medium-build; I have the capacity to be strong and fit, but never skinny. I may never fit into the "healthy" range on the BMI scale because of it. I've always felt like I've had to be 160lbs or under to be healthy. It's refreshing to know that my BMI is not the only determining factor of my health!
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    jotartare reacted to Katelyn in Throwing away the scale.   
    @slw600 - you're right, I don't actually know why I'm waiting. I guess I want to see the final number after Whole30 is over, but now that you mention it, I'm not sure why that is.
    I started Whole30 as a weight loss tool. I know you're not supposed to, but let's be honest - a lot of people do! What I didn't expect was the complete change in my relationship with food. I officially have control over what I eat, and my cravings no longer exist. I can look at someone eating a bowl of ice cream and know that I'm better off without it, and I don't even want it. I never expected to be able to have this kind of self-control. I thought I'd always be a victim to my cravings and desires when it came to food, and that I'd just have to count calories to hopefully keep my cravings in control.
    So, while I started this for weight loss, I'm not ending it for weight loss. The final number after these 30 days actually doesn't matter. So yeah, I guess today is the day to toss the scale.
    @Nico - I'd love to read the Scale Manifesto! I will search for it!
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    jotartare reacted to Katelyn in Throwing away the scale.   
    I'm doing it.
    After my Whole30 is over, I'm throwing away my scale.
    I'm so sick of judging myself and my health based on that stupid number that shows up on the scale.
    I'm so obsessed with the scale that I couldn't give it up during my Whole30 process (I'm on day 25 today.) I went about 2 days without it and then began weighing myself every day again. Thankfully, I've had good results so far, but every day that the scale doesn't move makes me question the effectiveness of Whole30.
    My clothes are fitting better, I feel smaller, I have energy to workout, I'm sleeping well, I feel less tired, my skin is clearing up, and people have told me that I look thinner. So WHY does that stupid number feel so threatening and defining to who I am?
    So that's it. I'm done. I'm never checking my weight again (aside from at doctor's appointments) after Whole30 is over. I will use other means to figure out the health of my body.
    Instead of checking my weight on a scale, I will ask myself:
    How do I feel?
    How does my skin look?
    How much energy do I have?
    How easy is it to fall asleep? To stay asleep? To wake up?
    How are my clothes fitting?
    How are my workouts? Am I toning up, gaining muscle, losing fat, changing my body composition?
    How is my digestion? How does my stomach feel and what are my BMs like?
    How are my periods? (indication of my hormones)
    So there it is. I will no longer have an answer when people ask me "have you lost weight?" or "how much weight have you lost?" I will proudly say "I don't know!" and be okay with that.
    I don't want to look like anyone else. I don't even want to fit society's definition of beauty. I want to be myself, whether that means I'm 230 pounds or 130 pounds.
    It's kind of scary and completely freeing at the same time. I'm excited to not be bound to this way of defining myself anymore.
    I read a quote by J.K. Rowling on Pinterest today that was inspiring to me:
    “I've got two daughters who will have to make their way in this skinny-obsessed world, and it worries me, because I don't want them to be empty-headed, self-obsessed, emaciated clones; I'd rather they were independent, interesting, idealistic, kind, opinionated, original, funny – a thousand things, before 'thin'. And frankly, I'd rather they didn't give a gust of stinking chihuahua flatulence whether the woman standing next to them has fleshier knees than they do. Let my girls be Hermiones, rather than Pansy Parkinsons. Let them never be Stupid Girls.†- J.K. Rowling
    I hope this post is encouraging to the other women on this forum. You are so much more than the number on that scale. I know we've all heard that before, but take a few minutes to really think about it. How much more happy and less stressed you would be if you just didn't care about that number? Take Melissa and Dallas's advice and throw the scale away. Don't let it define you anymore!
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    jotartare reacted to Jackolantern in Body image and reasons for the Whole30?   
    You just perfectly described my goal for the Whole 30. Thanks.
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    jotartare reacted to Derval in Beef: "Sold by hot carcass weight" ?????   
    Next time you see a beefy guy at CF Robin you have the perfect name for it
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    jotartare reacted to kew in Body image and reasons for the Whole30?   
    Thanks for those responses!
    On a related subject, I had a small epiphany today -- related to going for a swim, by myself, in the first bikini I have worn in 20+ years. After, I said to myself. "I am not a 19 year old underwear model. And that's okay. I am a 43 yr old associate professor, mother of two, and wife. I want to be able to do both my paid job and my job as mom/wife/household manager as full-time jobs, and I get anxious about the fact that I can't. I have a long history of emotional eating. I have more dimples and bulges than I am happy with. But when I look in the mirror -- when I really look -- I also see some sweet curves. And I see some muscles in my shoulders, arms, and even legs. I see a scar from a breast biopsy, and another one from box jumps, and another one from the unwanted c-sections that made me feel like a total failure as a woman but brought me my lovely son and my lovely daughter. I see some laugh lines -- and some worry lines. And I can damn well wear a bikini, now that I finally want to!"
    I cannot say that I am done with body hate. I think that will be a long struggle, probably a life-long one. But I think I am ready to act like I am done, instead of waiting for that time in the ever-receding future when I will finally think I look objectively good, and can lay that hate to rest. Now, I am learning that this hate will never go away, unless I practice, actively practice, bidding it good riddance!
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    jotartare reacted to splash883 in Homemade Mayo & My Self-Image   
    I followed the directions in the "It Starts With Food" recipe section. (I made it and it turned out great! I may go lighter on the salt next time, tho.)
    I am a nerd.
    Does anyone else feel a great sense of accomplishment when making something that you used to just go out and buy in the store? I had to laugh at myself. I told my husband, "Look! I just made mayo all by myself!!"
    Thanks for listening to my goofines!
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    jotartare reacted to Derval in It's alive!   
    Omg, be careful you don't get caught by the paleo police buying sugar !!
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    jotartare reacted to Renee Lee in Just keep gaining weight...   
    This is a really annoying message to hear, but often times weight will refuse to come off until you stop trying to lose weight. This is especially true when you don't have a significant amt to lose, and it's just 10-15 lbs.
    I refused to hear that message, went over everything I was doing with a fine toothed comb, trained 5 days a week (weights, not cardio) and STILL couldn't lose the 5 lbs I needed to fit into my ideal weight class.
    Know what did it? Taking 6 months off from the gym, prioritizing other things, making sure that my food choices stayed compliant.
    And it happens FAST once you get there. I went from hovering under 180, enjoying my vacation in mid July with good food, to 165 in just over a month. I NEVER WENT TO THE GYM. Seriously. If it didn't happen to me, I would not believe it either.
    Rest. Relax. Eat well. Ignore the scale. Be happy with your life and all your choices.
    It's like that stupid adage of, "you'll finally find love when you stop looking for it"
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    jotartare reacted to Tom Denham in Day 29 - Got on the scale...   
    You can gain 10 pounds of muscle and keep your body fat percentage the same. However, the most likely thing is that your fat percent assessment was wrong at the start or today or on both occasions (probably on both occasions). The scale can tip wildly up or down based upon how much you've been drinking water, sweating, your last bowel movement, etc.
    You enjoyed "very positive body changes" until you looked at the scale! Why do you believe the scale and not your body? Your clothes fit better and you notched your belt tighter, but the scale tells the truth? NO. Your body tells the truth.
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    jotartare reacted to Melissa Hartwig in Friends of Bill W.?   
    I'm a recovering addict with more than 12 years clean. (I wrote about it, in fact... so I'm not very Anonymous.) I never turned to sugar or coffee, but I exercised my ass off for about two years before I realized what I was doing and calmed that bad habit down.
    I think about our situation much like those going into the Whole30 with an eating disorder.
    Don't aim for perfect. It's not about perfect. There is no perfect.
    If you make a less healthy choice, it doesn't make you a bad person. You are more than just the sum of your choices.
    It is not an all-or-nothing proposition. If you fall off your plan for one meal, it's just one meal. It doesn't mean you've failed. You get right back on with your next meal - that's it.
    Stay committed to your recovery. The better you take care of yourself there, the better you'll want to take care of yourself elsewhere.
    Bring your own snacks to meetings. Better yet, bring everyone healthy snacks!
    You may find these articles I wrote helpful:

    Go easy, and lean on your support system - us included. And remember - you've done harder things than take a pass on the candy jar.
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    jotartare reacted to Tom Denham in Friends of Bill W.?   
    Now might be a good time to do another 90 in 90. I'm just saying. And do the work to avoid Hungry, Angry, Lonely, and Tired. Many people lose weight doing a Whole30, but you don't have to go hungry to lose weight when you eat real, whole foods. Eat plenty.
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    jotartare reacted to iloveartichokes in Whole26 and onward   
    Ok, so I didn't make it to 30 days. I had 26 days of deliciously clean eating...the longest I've ever gone on any diet by a long shot. Instead of beating myself up for not sticking to an exact and somewhat arbitrary number of days, I am relishing in my successes, lessons learned, and a positive outlook on the future. Here's how my W26 went...
    1. Lost 13 lbs!
    2. Energy like I've never had before, and no ups and downs. Finally had the energy and confidence to start regular exercise. All last week (except Thurs, my bday) I've been able to get up at 5am for jogging and a crossfit inspired workout at home. Never would've thought I could do this because I just didn't have the energy.
    4. Confidence. Not just in the way I feel because I feel a lot lighter and my clothes fit a lot better, but just general confidence to try new things and set goals for myself. Work schedules were grueling, kitchen messes got scary, house chores had to be ignored to make time for cooking, but through all of life's chaos and spontinaity I was able to carry on. I didn't just eat clean when it was convenient. I learned to make it happen instead of making excuses.
    5. New habits....from sourcing ingredients to planning my menu to making it happen in the kitchen. I no longer feel the need to grab a couple of frozen pizzas to keep as a "backup plan" for tired evenings. Instead I've memorized how to make a quick veggie frittata. I keep my food processor on the counter now instead of my toaster so I can make mayo or salad dressing in minutes.
    This was just the beginning of my journey. I've decided to stay W30 compliant 6 days a week (for my own sanity, I need to give myself a weekly break...even if it's just something small) and continue my exercise program indefinitely. I was non-compliant today (to put it lightly), and I honestly feel like total crap, which I realize now is how I used to feel all the time! Lethargic, queasy, tired, foggy, weak. I didn't really know how good I was feeling on W30 until I "cheated" and was thrown back in time so suddenly. I am glad I did this program, even for 26 days. It taught me a ton. Changed the way I think about food and health. Gave me self-confidence and so much more. I'm so thankful for ISWF and this forum! Many thanks to Melissa and Dallas. See my food photo journal here...
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    jotartare reacted to April in Big, huge step forward!   
    Thanks Summer!
    Yes, I started planning last night. I made sure I got enough sleep, got a good breakfast this morning, and then a good lunch (I made sure it was my FAVORITE lunch so that I would feel satisfied). Then I listened to the Balanced Bites podcast in my car on the way there (1/2 hour drive or so) to kind of get a pep talk of sorts. I've always just winged it before - it's amazing how much it helped to put that effort in ahead of time. Even though I was still really nervous.
    This is starting to feel real and sustainable now. It's a little scary - who am I if I'm not "the overweight" one in my family/group of friends? That's who I've been for so long. So...while it's scary to figure out who I CAN be now, it's also pretty cool. Maybe I can be the person my family comes to for great, healthy recipes. Maybe I can inspire someone else to give up grains, etc. Maybe I'll go back to school to become a nutritionist to help other people. Maybe I could run a marathon! Who knows....
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    jotartare reacted to April in Big, huge step forward!   
    I'm so proud..after 10+ years as a binge eater, I finally did the absolutely unthinkable today. I went to a baby shower and didn't eat ANY sweets! (I didn't eat anything at all, actually, since I ate a good lunch before I went). That might sound small to some people, but I never thought I would be able to resist something like cupcakes that I really, really used to love. And those cupcakes today? They did smell good. Really good. But it didn't bother me as much as I thought it would. It was more of a passing thought "wow, those smell great...but nah, I'm not eating sugar" and that was that.
    This is the end of the 12th day of my Whole30, and I'm about 2 months or so into "paleo" eating in general. I never thought I was strong enough to escape that binge/restrict ED cycle. Turns out, I think I am. And that feels very, very good.
    Thanks for listening.
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    jotartare reacted to jhmomi in Ann's Success Story!   
    Congatulations Ann!! You did an awesome job and you earned those results.
    I think doing an exercise commitment for 30 days is a great idea.
    FYI - After decades of trying to make myself exercise on a regular basis, I finally figured out something that worked for me that I thought I would share. I made a New Year's resolution to exercise and began January 1 with a VERY small goal for myself. Instead of setting elaborate goals like walk two miles a day, or go to the gym 5 times a week or strength train x times a week and do cardio x times, etc., I set the bar VERY low. My goal on January 1 was to simply "Move my a$$ 30 minutes a day." Movement in the form of INTENTIONAL exercise. Walking, running, hiking, biking, walking in place while I watch TV. Anything counts including three 10 minute sessions of movement. I don't care how fast I move, or how far I go or what my heart rate might be. Anything counts. Except things I would have already done such as shopping, going to the park with my kids, playing at the pool, yard work, house work, etc. Today is August 8th and I have not missed a single day of exercise all year. Not one. It's habit. After years of trying to get on track with exercise, setting the bar so low that I couldn't reasonably talk myself out of it made all the difference. Who can't walk in place while watching TV? More often than not now, I surpass my minimum goal. The mental benefit of making a commitment to be healthy and exercise daily has been outstanding and worth equally as much as the physical benefit.
    Best of luck to you as you continue to develop your new healthy lifestyle post Whole30!!! I hope I am just as pleased as you on Day 30.
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    jotartare reacted to Elleon in Day 8, questions and concerns   
    When I first tried paleo (not as strict as a W30, but close), I craved tahini like a crazy person. Like wanted to drink it. I was also doing a ton of cardio and think may have been somewhat dehydrated most of the time... not sure if that had something to do with it?
    I am running a lot less during this Whole30, and haven't had the same crazy cravings. Also, I'm on day 11 and decided not to buy tahini last time I was shopping just to prevent cracking out on it. It's a lot harder to crack out on olive oil lol... ew.
    And I second the water first thing... before bed, I fill a big glass and put it on my nightstand to drink in the morning.
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    jotartare got a reaction from cdauk in Applegate Farms Sunday Bacon   
    You know, I'm disappointed to say that I will have to re-set my date and start again tomorrow. But I see the point that's being made here, and I will play by the rules.
    That said, my health is just ONE of the reasons I am doing this lifestyle. It is by no means the only reason, nor is it really the most important in the grand scheme of things. I agree with Laura B that sugar is BY FAR the lesser of evils that is under consideration when it comes to eating meat, especially if we are considering eating meat from Costco or BJs instead. But, again, a rule is a rule, and if I'm signing up for a program, it behooves me to play by the book.
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    jotartare reacted to Adagio in Day 8, questions and concerns   
    Drink a lot of water. more than you normally would do.