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    Or tomorrow.   
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    @BabyBear ~ I am so sorry for so many things in that post.
    I haven't managed another compliant day yet.  I'll do it tomorrow.   
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    1 DAY of compliant food today ~ black coffee, sparkling water, and:
    GV frozen butter chicken meal, homemade "steak fries" in the air fryer w/ unsweetened ketchup
    (4) small chicken breasts w/ buffalo ranch, an apple
    tiny can of V8
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    What a crazy time to try to eat W30.    Thankfully I already have several things in my house that are ok to eat, but ... this is interesting. Not like I have a stockpile of frozen meals ~ that would have been a pretty smart thing to do.  But I stopped buying mass quantities of them when I sadly had to admit that they weren't doing fantastic things for my IBS.
    Hey, I'm happy to have one day done & already feel much more clear-headed.  So much in life is a day at a time now.  I'll take it.
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    So, I've gone back and looked ... and I've had 28 days that were not W30 compliant.  4 weeks of my life ~ gone.
    I can't think of any food I've had that was "worth" how I'm feeling right now:
    fat depressed fatigued angry disorganized ugly embarrassed  The great news is:  I know how to turn this around - and quickly.
    Monday seems like a good day to start journaling again.  These past weeks, with everything going on in the world ... our lives completely changed ~ and in some ways, probably forever ... I have numbed myself to all of it with foods that wreak havoc on my body and mind.  That time has passed for me.  I am better than this, and I deserve better than this.
    Tomorrow is a new day.  I'll be getting back to work (at home) after having over a week off for "spring break".  My husband returns to work tomorrow, as well.  The kids are still home, and don't start their e-learning plan for another week - but I have to get back to some sense of normalcy around here.  Our new normal, I guess.  It does not include diet Dr. Pepper (!) (WTF!)  or corn chips, or candy bars.
    I hope anyone out there reading is doing okay ... doing well.  This is certainly not the time to sit around and eat junk.  If you, too, need a reset - let's do it together.
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    @BabyBear ~ I am so sorry for so many things in that post.
    I haven't managed another compliant day yet.  I'll do it tomorrow.   
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    @Brewer5  girl you weren’t the only one.   After my birthday life threw some pretty hard fast balls my way and I’m pretty sure I struck out so hard.  Good news is I have another at bat and I’m ready.  The world came to a crashing halt, I lost my grandmother just a few hours after arriving at her home for a visit (22 hour drive).  Not being able to have a proper funeral, watching some of her children descend upon her remaining affects like vultures before her body was even laid to rest.  The events that provide the majority of our household income for the year canceling as far out as May and maybe more to come.  So much crazy!  I coped by eating all the things and hiding from all the roaring emotions.  So I’m back home now and Day 1 Reset starts today.  We can do this together!
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    So, I've gone back and looked ... and I've had 28 days that were not W30 compliant.  4 weeks of my life ~ gone.
    I can't think of any food I've had that was "worth" how I'm feeling right now:
    fat depressed fatigued angry disorganized ugly embarrassed  The great news is:  I know how to turn this around - and quickly.
    Monday seems like a good day to start journaling again.  These past weeks, with everything going on in the world ... our lives completely changed ~ and in some ways, probably forever ... I have numbed myself to all of it with foods that wreak havoc on my body and mind.  That time has passed for me.  I am better than this, and I deserve better than this.
    Tomorrow is a new day.  I'll be getting back to work (at home) after having over a week off for "spring break".  My husband returns to work tomorrow, as well.  The kids are still home, and don't start their e-learning plan for another week - but I have to get back to some sense of normalcy around here.  Our new normal, I guess.  It does not include diet Dr. Pepper (!) (WTF!)  or corn chips, or candy bars.
    I hope anyone out there reading is doing okay ... doing well.  This is certainly not the time to sit around and eat junk.  If you, too, need a reset - let's do it together.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Just checking in to say I hope you ladies are doing well.  Thanks for being there.
    I have a lot of thoughts swirling around in my head ... too many.  I feel discombobulated, for sure.  
    Why ~ why do I keep poisoning my brain with this nonsense?  In the moment, I think it will make me feel better ... the reality is that it never does.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Amy_Michigan in Like an Onion   
    I've gone back and looked now.  And here's what I think: 
    I had already ordered the Step 3 patches, when I was feeling good - and thought I was ready.  By the time the Step 3 patches had arrived, and the Step 2 patches ran out ... I was not in such a good W30 place.  So = bad combo.
    It's all just one big experiment, isn't it?  Life.  It just IS.
    Also, looking back through my journal - I see that the furthest I've made it so far is 10 days.  That was only interrupted by the planned lunch with my employer (I am beginning to cringe at the word "boss" - that's not how we roll - we are a team).  So the little tiny baby goal in my mind, for now, is that at some point I'd like to make it to Day 11.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Amy_Michigan in Like an Onion   
    Thank you, @Amy_Michigan ... and YES ... I have often thought to myself that perhaps I am going to live my life in these "cycles" ~ and that perhaps that is okay.  I'm not sure what all of the drivers are behind the shift when it occurs, but I've identified some of them in the post above.  There are more.  There are things I haven't even talked about here yet ~ just because there are only so many hours in a day, you know?  
    I've been using the nicotine patch since October of last year.  I could not believe how unbelievably successful it was for me.  In the past, I'd gone cold-turkey, I'd used nicotine gum, lozenges, and drops.  I'd even experimented with Wellbutrin, which is supposed to help you quit - but had zero effect in that department for me.
    I was driving along one day last fall, and thought to myself, "I wonder if you have to have a prescription for the patch?"  Being an RN - I feel like I should know everything (lol) - but alas, I do not.  So I googled it, and I thought, Holy. Crap.  Why did I not think of this before?!
    It's been life-changing for me.  Because I have NEVER enjoyed the smell, the taste, the habit, of smoking.  I don't like how it makes me feel about myself.  I don't like how it interrupts my life and takes me away from whatever else is going on.  It consumes me.  Life revolves around when is the next break going to be.  It's terrible.  That's because the body is going through withdrawal basically all of the time.  Our bodies start processing and eliminating the nicotine immediately, so withdrawal begins to occur pretty much as soon as we put out that nasty cigarette.
    I've lived a double life.  I never talked to anyone about being a smoker in nursing school - I didn't go out on class breaks with the other smokers, didn't smoke before going to class, and certainly not before going to clinicals.  I still smoke about 1-2/day now, most days, and my new employer and I have never discussed it.  I'm not saying she doesn't know or suspect - I'm saying, as far as I know, I've given her no reason to think about it.  I don't smoke in my car anymore (Good Lord ... YUCK.) and I have never gone to work with her, smelling like smoke.  It's always carefully arranged ~ that's what I'm saying.  I usually have one in the morning, before my shower, and occasionally one in the evening, before bed.
    But back to the patch:  You start out with Step 1 (21 mg).  I chose from the beginning not to pay any attention to the directions re: length of phases - because I know myself too well, and I decided I would wear this freaking patch for the rest of my life, if that's what I have to do.  I even said this to my doctor, and he agreed with me.  He shrugged and said, "Some people do."  Well, great, because I'm gonna do what I'm gonna do anyway.  And he knows this.  Lol.  So I also did not keep track of how long I wore the Step 1 patches.  (It was longer than directed).  I moved down to Step 2 when I felt like perhaps I was a tad overstimulated, and that I could do without the extra nicotine.  The transition from Step 1 (21 mg) to Step 2 (14 mg) was uneventful.  I don't even remember anything about it.  Non-issue.
    Where I'm going with all of this (and if you are still reading at this point, you are a true friend):  I moved down to Step 3 (7 mg) recently.  I think I was feeling so good on W30 ... and maybe I did feel overstimulated again ... so I thought it was time.  I just finished a 14-day box of Step 3 - used the last one on Monday.  So I will have to go back now and see if I started to take a nosedive around that time.  I think I probably did.  Because this transition was noticeable to me.  I also started smoking more.  
    21 mg --> 14 mg is only a reduction of 1/3.
    14 mg --> 7 mg is a reduction of 1/2.
    So yesterday ~ having run out of the Step 3 patches, I grabbed my "emergency" patch from my wallet - which I had put there back in my Step 1 days.  I cut it in half - which the instructions say never to do - and so, I had 10.5 mg all day yesterday.  And that was good.  I've always suspected the whole "don't cut it in half" was a line of crap for them to make more money ... but I wasn't really sure about that, so I just followed the directions on that one in the past.  Which means I've probably spent way more money than I needed to.  Lol.
    And if you're STILL reading (!) - I have typed all of this out in an effort to tell myself what I already instinctively knew:  I am not ready for Step 3, and my body does not fit into some cookie-cutter program.  Perhaps I need step 2.5 and then 2.75 to remain successful.  And yes, I know, true success in many people's minds will be nicotine-free.  Smoke-free.  But what is most important - honestly, the only thing that is important - is that I feel happy and successful.  No one else gets to define our successes for us.
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    Brewer5 reacted to BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Goodness, combatting nicotine withdrawals are no joke.  Geesh woman you’ve got a lot going on.  Be kind be gentle and keep on trucking along.  I’m proud of you for not throwing in the towel and the fact that you keep coming back to work on those layers.  
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    I've gone back and looked now.  And here's what I think: 
    I had already ordered the Step 3 patches, when I was feeling good - and thought I was ready.  By the time the Step 3 patches had arrived, and the Step 2 patches ran out ... I was not in such a good W30 place.  So = bad combo.
    It's all just one big experiment, isn't it?  Life.  It just IS.
    Also, looking back through my journal - I see that the furthest I've made it so far is 10 days.  That was only interrupted by the planned lunch with my employer (I am beginning to cringe at the word "boss" - that's not how we roll - we are a team).  So the little tiny baby goal in my mind, for now, is that at some point I'd like to make it to Day 11.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Thank you, @Amy_Michigan ... and YES ... I have often thought to myself that perhaps I am going to live my life in these "cycles" ~ and that perhaps that is okay.  I'm not sure what all of the drivers are behind the shift when it occurs, but I've identified some of them in the post above.  There are more.  There are things I haven't even talked about here yet ~ just because there are only so many hours in a day, you know?  
    I've been using the nicotine patch since October of last year.  I could not believe how unbelievably successful it was for me.  In the past, I'd gone cold-turkey, I'd used nicotine gum, lozenges, and drops.  I'd even experimented with Wellbutrin, which is supposed to help you quit - but had zero effect in that department for me.
    I was driving along one day last fall, and thought to myself, "I wonder if you have to have a prescription for the patch?"  Being an RN - I feel like I should know everything (lol) - but alas, I do not.  So I googled it, and I thought, Holy. Crap.  Why did I not think of this before?!
    It's been life-changing for me.  Because I have NEVER enjoyed the smell, the taste, the habit, of smoking.  I don't like how it makes me feel about myself.  I don't like how it interrupts my life and takes me away from whatever else is going on.  It consumes me.  Life revolves around when is the next break going to be.  It's terrible.  That's because the body is going through withdrawal basically all of the time.  Our bodies start processing and eliminating the nicotine immediately, so withdrawal begins to occur pretty much as soon as we put out that nasty cigarette.
    I've lived a double life.  I never talked to anyone about being a smoker in nursing school - I didn't go out on class breaks with the other smokers, didn't smoke before going to class, and certainly not before going to clinicals.  I still smoke about 1-2/day now, most days, and my new employer and I have never discussed it.  I'm not saying she doesn't know or suspect - I'm saying, as far as I know, I've given her no reason to think about it.  I don't smoke in my car anymore (Good Lord ... YUCK.) and I have never gone to work with her, smelling like smoke.  It's always carefully arranged ~ that's what I'm saying.  I usually have one in the morning, before my shower, and occasionally one in the evening, before bed.
    But back to the patch:  You start out with Step 1 (21 mg).  I chose from the beginning not to pay any attention to the directions re: length of phases - because I know myself too well, and I decided I would wear this freaking patch for the rest of my life, if that's what I have to do.  I even said this to my doctor, and he agreed with me.  He shrugged and said, "Some people do."  Well, great, because I'm gonna do what I'm gonna do anyway.  And he knows this.  Lol.  So I also did not keep track of how long I wore the Step 1 patches.  (It was longer than directed).  I moved down to Step 2 when I felt like perhaps I was a tad overstimulated, and that I could do without the extra nicotine.  The transition from Step 1 (21 mg) to Step 2 (14 mg) was uneventful.  I don't even remember anything about it.  Non-issue.
    Where I'm going with all of this (and if you are still reading at this point, you are a true friend):  I moved down to Step 3 (7 mg) recently.  I think I was feeling so good on W30 ... and maybe I did feel overstimulated again ... so I thought it was time.  I just finished a 14-day box of Step 3 - used the last one on Monday.  So I will have to go back now and see if I started to take a nosedive around that time.  I think I probably did.  Because this transition was noticeable to me.  I also started smoking more.  
    21 mg --> 14 mg is only a reduction of 1/3.
    14 mg --> 7 mg is a reduction of 1/2.
    So yesterday ~ having run out of the Step 3 patches, I grabbed my "emergency" patch from my wallet - which I had put there back in my Step 1 days.  I cut it in half - which the instructions say never to do - and so, I had 10.5 mg all day yesterday.  And that was good.  I've always suspected the whole "don't cut it in half" was a line of crap for them to make more money ... but I wasn't really sure about that, so I just followed the directions on that one in the past.  Which means I've probably spent way more money than I needed to.  Lol.
    And if you're STILL reading (!) - I have typed all of this out in an effort to tell myself what I already instinctively knew:  I am not ready for Step 3, and my body does not fit into some cookie-cutter program.  Perhaps I need step 2.5 and then 2.75 to remain successful.  And yes, I know, true success in many people's minds will be nicotine-free.  Smoke-free.  But what is most important - honestly, the only thing that is important - is that I feel happy and successful.  No one else gets to define our successes for us.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    ^ But that's not helpful - not to me, or anyone else.
    Maybe I didn't feel like talking about it last night ~ but the whole point here is to figure out why I make the decisions I do, and how I can end up staying on a good path.  So let's explore a few thoughts.
    Time change:  I hate you.  Every member of my family hates you right now.  We had a decent system down, then you come along and screw with it. Oh, seriously ... it's going to be "that" time of the month again soon ... are you kidding me?  How long does this go on?   Teenager flare-up, currently in progress. Financial stress.  Apparently I can't stop working as an RN and still spend money as if I were - who knew? And this is possibly the most important of all - the lynchpin:  I have not yet figured out the most optimal diet for me.  I often think I need to sit down and research for an entire day - just focus on making a list of low-FODMAP and low-histamine foods.  Figure out all of the mechanisms that are causing me to have a histamine problem in the first place (this is an area where I've done a lot of research in the past) - then figure out what I can do to support those systems.  There's also the subject of IBS - and zero denying that it is a factor, and must be taken into consideration in all food decisions. So I get frustrated.  I throw my hands up mentally ~ and I'm like, "whatever".  Just - what. ever.  I get tired of thinking about it.  
    But we have to think about it - don't we?  At least a couple of times per day ... and probably way more than that for most people.  We have to think about food.  We have to make choices.  I'm back at the point where I really don't know what choices to make, and that sucks.  I end up making some of the least optimal choices when I'm frustrated.
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    I've been there when I tried AIP (autoimmune protocol of the Whole30) a few years back.  Because I have lupus, I feel this huge pressure to be on the perfect diet to manage it and reduce inflammation.  However, I have determined a few things about myself: 1. As much as I want to make a forever lifestyle change, my my mind/body/life cannot handle being that consistent.  Maybe some people can do that forever but I'm not one of those people.  2. I feel pretty good when I eat paleo/whole30 meals and avoid overeating.  Staples that have always worked well for me to keep me full and happy are sweet potatoes, pumpkin, and squash.  And I have gotten used to soup purees with added meat, or salad for any meal.
    I think if we can find favorite fruits and vegetables that don't make our bodies feel bad, we can develop routines with recipes using those foods.  Even if I have an off week, I can always go back to that routine... that is what I'm trying to do now, anyway.  
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    Thanks @BabyBear for sharing your thoughts ...  My family really is okay with whatever I decide to eat/not eat ~ no one really cares ~ I just put that pressure on myself of "It's my birthday, I have to choose..."
    Today was a pretty weird eating day, and definitely not W30 compliant.  I'm not sure what the heck I'm doing.  
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    Well, guys ... I blew it.  Thanks for the birthday wishes!
    Today I am 41 years, and 1 day old.  Lol.
    It's okay ... it's okay, though.  Because I really figured out another layer ~ and that is:  I will eat things I don't "really" want to eat, because I am worried about the feelings of others.
    A part of me wants to call this "peer pressure" ~ but it really isn't.  No one was pressuring me (well, not exactly) - but I did have to make a decision about dinner.  "It's your birthday - we'll do whatever you want."  <-- Okay, yes, that does feel like pressure to me.  But it's more of an internal pressure I put on myself.  You know what I mean.
    I wasn't far enough along in my journey (AKA: Day 1 again) ~ and therefore, not confident enough to say: "Okay, I'm having a frozen meal, you guys can do whatever you want."  
    I personally would have been very happy with a frozen meal & keeping the day compliant, like I said here I was going to do.    But that's not the choice I made - and yes, it was my choice.  I'm owning it.
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    I got the flooring done!  The appraiser came back out to see it at the end of the day on Friday.  Now he just has to file a quick 2-page report on Monday, and then hopefully we can get the refinance closed this week.  I do have that sense of "I'll believe it when the money is in our bank account" ... because it seems like there are so many things in this process that can go wrong.  This is why we've been in the same house for the past 17 years and not moved OR refinanced.  My sister has moved like a hundred times ~ and the thought of all of the ducks that have to line up in a row each time makes me want to barf.
    I love the meme someone sent me years ago:  I do not have ducks.  I do not have a row.  I have squirrels, and they're at a rave.    
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    I hope we all can have a happy, healthy Sunday.  That's as far as I'm going with the proclamations at this point!
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    Well, guys ... I blew it.  Thanks for the birthday wishes!
    Today I am 41 years, and 1 day old.  Lol.
    It's okay ... it's okay, though.  Because I really figured out another layer ~ and that is:  I will eat things I don't "really" want to eat, because I am worried about the feelings of others.
    A part of me wants to call this "peer pressure" ~ but it really isn't.  No one was pressuring me (well, not exactly) - but I did have to make a decision about dinner.  "It's your birthday - we'll do whatever you want."  <-- Okay, yes, that does feel like pressure to me.  But it's more of an internal pressure I put on myself.  You know what I mean.
    I wasn't far enough along in my journey (AKA: Day 1 again) ~ and therefore, not confident enough to say: "Okay, I'm having a frozen meal, you guys can do whatever you want."  
    I personally would have been very happy with a frozen meal & keeping the day compliant, like I said here I was going to do.    But that's not the choice I made - and yes, it was my choice.  I'm owning it.
    ---
    I got the flooring done!  The appraiser came back out to see it at the end of the day on Friday.  Now he just has to file a quick 2-page report on Monday, and then hopefully we can get the refinance closed this week.  I do have that sense of "I'll believe it when the money is in our bank account" ... because it seems like there are so many things in this process that can go wrong.  This is why we've been in the same house for the past 17 years and not moved OR refinanced.  My sister has moved like a hundred times ~ and the thought of all of the ducks that have to line up in a row each time makes me want to barf.
    I love the meme someone sent me years ago:  I do not have ducks.  I do not have a row.  I have squirrels, and they're at a rave.    
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    I hope we all can have a happy, healthy Sunday.  That's as far as I'm going with the proclamations at this point!
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    Happy Birthday!  Have a happy day!  I'm totally in this with you with the goal to feel good each day...why ruin any days of our remaining time on this earth doing otherwise?  
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    @Brewer5 Happy Birthday!!!   it’s a great day to be a day 1!  It’s weird how time works for us and then all of the sudden some where along the way it works against us.  I’ll be 40 on the 16th and I was telling my dad I just don’t think I’m as old as he was when he turned 40.  Any whos Have a happy anniversary of your born on date doing only the things that truly make you happy!
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    Before the rest of my family wakes up ~ and while I can think straight:
    Today I am 41 years old.
    I've had at least a few grandmothers live to 100 years old - or close - but I don't see that it will be the case with me.  I have been a smoker - off and on - since I was 14 years old.  
    So, let's just say I'm at a halfway point.
    The past few days I have felt "off" - because I've been OFF.  I remember feeling really good ... I remember sitting here and the thoughts and ideas just flowing ... I remember feeling so good, like I could do anything.
    I'm not even sure now when I got off track ~ and I'm not going to go back and look.  What I am sure about is this:  This has to stop.  There are too many things I want to do ... and too many days have gone by, not doing the very best I can do for my body.
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    Day 1 today.  No, there will not be wine - sorry, husband.  No, there will not be dessert.  I am over it.
    I'm not going to sit here and say, "I really need to do ______" or "I am going to cut out _______".
    I am going to STOP with the damned lotus flowers, and get on with living my best life.
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    Before the rest of my family wakes up ~ and while I can think straight:
    Today I am 41 years old.
    I've had at least a few grandmothers live to 100 years old - or close - but I don't see that it will be the case with me.  I have been a smoker - off and on - since I was 14 years old.  
    So, let's just say I'm at a halfway point.
    The past few days I have felt "off" - because I've been OFF.  I remember feeling really good ... I remember sitting here and the thoughts and ideas just flowing ... I remember feeling so good, like I could do anything.
    I'm not even sure now when I got off track ~ and I'm not going to go back and look.  What I am sure about is this:  This has to stop.  There are too many things I want to do ... and too many days have gone by, not doing the very best I can do for my body.
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    Day 1 today.  No, there will not be wine - sorry, husband.  No, there will not be dessert.  I am over it.
    I'm not going to sit here and say, "I really need to do ______" or "I am going to cut out _______".
    I am going to STOP with the damned lotus flowers, and get on with living my best life.
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    Brewer5 reacted to BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Oh no that’s ridiculous about the refinance.  Oops who would have guessed.  Saving eat out money is a great NSV.  We have definitely eaten out so much less, like from once or twice a day to once a week.  
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    February numbers are in:
    Again, we've spent about the same amount of money on food each month (too much) ~ but restaurant spending is down ~ even more than January was.  
    In the 6 months prior to coming back to W30, we'd spent 33-56% of our food money at restaurants.
    January was down to 20%.
    February was down to 16%.
    What's cool about this is that it's not really intentional - there has been no big announcement, like "Hey, guys, we're going to eat at home!"  
    It's really just a result of me feeling better.  I lead the pack.
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    I have about ... 1/3 of the master bedroom to finish ~ and then it will be DONE.
    There are other rooms of the house I want to do, also, and I will ~ but the big push has been to get the flooring down in the rooms where I'd already torn out the carpet.  Turns out FHA wasn't a huge fan of letting our loan go through with concrete floors.    So I've had to get that done.  It's been completely holding up our refinance.
    And I think I probably just realized this morning how much extra stress this has added.
    Stress can be GOOD - I like doing the flooring.  But there are a lot of other things I have to do in life that I don't like as much ... and there are only so many hours in the day.  I could go on, but you all know what I mean.  Sometimes we take things on like Superwoman ~ and we can do it!  Because, of course, we are awesome.    But there needs to be a period of rest and recovery afterwards.  Your life can't be all Superwoman, all the time.