Brewer5

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    I have about ... 1/3 of the master bedroom to finish ~ and then it will be DONE.
    There are other rooms of the house I want to do, also, and I will ~ but the big push has been to get the flooring down in the rooms where I'd already torn out the carpet.  Turns out FHA wasn't a huge fan of letting our loan go through with concrete floors.    So I've had to get that done.  It's been completely holding up our refinance.
    And I think I probably just realized this morning how much extra stress this has added.
    Stress can be GOOD - I like doing the flooring.  But there are a lot of other things I have to do in life that I don't like as much ... and there are only so many hours in the day.  I could go on, but you all know what I mean.  Sometimes we take things on like Superwoman ~ and we can do it!  Because, of course, we are awesome.    But there needs to be a period of rest and recovery afterwards.  Your life can't be all Superwoman, all the time.
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    @BabyBear ~ that song made me literally LOL and probably cry some more this morning when I saw your message in my email.  I then texted it to my son's girlfriend's mom.  And shared it later with my husband.  It's a good one - thank you.
    @Amy_Michigan ~ I hear you.  I'm sort of back to "fail to plan = plan to fail" (and I use the word "fail" loosely, as I don't really feel like a failure at all).  I decided to finish the frozen meals.  I decided not to buy any more RX bars or Larabars.  But what was my plan after that?  ... Well, see, I really didn't have one.  Lol.  My food today was pretty atrocious by W30 standards, but not that bad overall.  It wasn't compliant.  I'm sure I'll be posting a new Day 1 soon.  And that's okay.  I'm getting a lot of other good things accomplished right now.
    Thanks for the compliments on my hair.  It hasn't looked that nice since the day I had it done, of course.    I'm too busy to mess with it most days.  But it was the first time my hairdresser has actually said, "Wait, let me take some pictures!" ~ so I'm glad she had fun with it.  My kids had me do all sorts of colors in their hair when we were homeschooling, and even when they first went to public school ... but I guess they grew out of it.  Now it's my turn.  I've decided you're never too old to have fun.  And anyone who judges me for it can stick their opinion where the sun don't shine.   
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    @BabyBear ~ that song made me literally LOL and probably cry some more this morning when I saw your message in my email.  I then texted it to my son's girlfriend's mom.  And shared it later with my husband.  It's a good one - thank you.
    @Amy_Michigan ~ I hear you.  I'm sort of back to "fail to plan = plan to fail" (and I use the word "fail" loosely, as I don't really feel like a failure at all).  I decided to finish the frozen meals.  I decided not to buy any more RX bars or Larabars.  But what was my plan after that?  ... Well, see, I really didn't have one.  Lol.  My food today was pretty atrocious by W30 standards, but not that bad overall.  It wasn't compliant.  I'm sure I'll be posting a new Day 1 soon.  And that's okay.  I'm getting a lot of other good things accomplished right now.
    Thanks for the compliments on my hair.  It hasn't looked that nice since the day I had it done, of course.    I'm too busy to mess with it most days.  But it was the first time my hairdresser has actually said, "Wait, let me take some pictures!" ~ so I'm glad she had fun with it.  My kids had me do all sorts of colors in their hair when we were homeschooling, and even when they first went to public school ... but I guess they grew out of it.  Now it's my turn.  I've decided you're never too old to have fun.  And anyone who judges me for it can stick their opinion where the sun don't shine.   
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    Glad you are still hanging in there!  Love your hair!!!  I'm struggling to restart day one after messing up...I'm in a transition and I just need to start day 1 again and have that first day be successful as a jumping off point.  And not just compliant..successful in a way that makes me feel proud of my food choices and meal template.  I know that's not required on a whole30 but I feel like if I don't do that I won't start off on the right foot.  However, I'm kind of on the same wavelength as you in my thinking that as long as I'm still here logging I'm at least being accountable and eating way better than I would be if I wasn't logging.  So it's all good.  
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    Brewer5 reacted to BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    @Brewer5 a great song by Macy Gray comes to mind “Teenagers”
     
    if it ain’t your hormones it’s theirs.   Hang in there and don’t kill them off just yet they may still prove to be useful. 
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    Thanks, @BabyBear ~ it's one of those things I've thought about over the years, and finally was like "Yeah, let's do it."
    Day 2 today, and it was not a great day ... so I won't post a lot.  I'm just not feeling it.  Really I just need to say one word:  TEENAGERS.  
    Tomorrow is a new day.  Bring it.
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    Day 2 yesterday, Day 3 today ~ yes, still trucking along ... just really productive in other areas right now ~ in my journal, not so much.   
    Flooring is officially done in the hallway, living room, and giant (long) dining room.  I have one (sadly, the master) bedroom left to do.  Woke up yesterday and today to some sciatica pain that I don't think I've really experienced since I was pregnant with my first child ... in 2001.  WTH.  Lol.  And I realized in that moment this morning:  I'm not really happy unless I'm pushing myself.  Amy talked about being Type B, and I wondered what it would be like to say that.  Sometimes I think it would be nice.  But it's definitely not how I'm made.
    I think about a lot of things I don't have time to post.  
    Lately I've been thinking about labels:  Type A / Type B, introvert / extrovert ... etc.
    I think it can be great to learn more about yourself and to work with your strengths.  
    I also think there are some labels we tend to put on ourselves that can work against us, and perhaps are not entirely true.
    Black/white thinking rarely proves useful to me.  I see many, many shades of gray.  
    I see chains we have wrapped around ourselves, holding us down ... and some of them have been there so long ~ we don't even remember that WE were the ones who put them there.  But wait:  If I could put it on - that means that I can probably find the key to take it off.  I've been saying that to myself more and more lately.  It's been good.
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    No kidding ...
    The last interview I had was with a facility 5 minutes from my home.  Talk about convenient.  The location would be perfect for SO many reasons.
    As I posted this yesterday morning, I was thinking of that facility.  That interview.
    Found out yesterday morning (completely by chance) AFTER I'd posted that - that the DON who was there, the one I had an interview with - has been fired for embezzling money.
    She'd only been there since November, and the gut feeling I had about her was the #1 reason I did not pursue their offer.
    ---
    Also, going along with the quote above about gut issues ...  I DID have a bit of a derailment yesterday, but I did NOT end up going to the Art & Wine thing.  
    Turns out wine & chocolate doesn't really sound good to me at all right now ... and that is probably heavily related to where I'm at in my cycle.  I had no desire to indulge in those things + it sounded like my boss was going to be busy doing things on the computer + it was so cold & windy.  Last thing I wanted to do was leave the house again after I got home from work.
    All that really happened was that I had an unusually busy morning here {details, blah blah, doesn't matter} and I waited too long to eat.  So by the time my son had hot gluten-free chicken nuggets coming out of the air fryer (because their school was cancelled yesterday), I found myself just eating them.
    Then my husband got "Keto pizza" from Papa Murphy's {this means: just toppings, lol} in the evening, and by that point ~ I was just like, whatever.
    And what all of this has to do with my gut is this:  I am really, really tired of being bloated and gassy.  Really, really tired of eating W30 foods day after day after day that I KNOW cause me digestive problems.  I don't want to be taking Imodium every day ... and sometimes, I am.
    So I've been trying to phase out the bars, and finish up the frozen meals.  I've been thinking I need to actually get back to low-FODMAP ... and stop shitting around.  
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    Day 1 again today ... and you'd think perhaps I'd get tired/embarrassed posting that ~ but not really.  Each time, it feels like "Whew, I wandered off in the woods there for a minute, and that was kind of scary!" and it's really just relief to be back on the intended path.  It feels good.
    Got my hair done yesterday ~ that's always time well spent with an old friend: my hairdresser.    I have talked many times about us getting together outside of the salon and going to lunch sometime ... but we never actually have.  Yesterday there was talk of a 4-wheeling / camping trip.  The poor girl has never rode a 4-wheeler, and she wants to.  I now feel it's my duty to correct that.  Haha.  But seriously ~ would be cool if we could actually plan a trip this year.  "Someday" is just BS, sometimes.  I'm like: no, seriously, let's do it.
    I've been natural, all shades of brown, blonde, and red ~ but I've never done anything quite like this:

    Wild orchid.  I love it.
    What does it say about me?  
    It actually represents a lot of different things that I have going on right now.  I joked with my husband: "Business in the front, party in the back".  Lmao.
    I don't know.  There's probably a giant post in my mind for this one.  I could think long and deep.  But for now ~ I'm off to kick this weekend's ass.  GOAL: get this flooring done.  
    Hope you all are doing well!
     
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    Thanks, @BabyBear ~ it's one of those things I've thought about over the years, and finally was like "Yeah, let's do it."
    Day 2 today, and it was not a great day ... so I won't post a lot.  I'm just not feeling it.  Really I just need to say one word:  TEENAGERS.  
    Tomorrow is a new day.  Bring it.
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    I love love love your new hair!  So sassy yet a little classy too!  
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    Day 1 again today ... and you'd think perhaps I'd get tired/embarrassed posting that ~ but not really.  Each time, it feels like "Whew, I wandered off in the woods there for a minute, and that was kind of scary!" and it's really just relief to be back on the intended path.  It feels good.
    Got my hair done yesterday ~ that's always time well spent with an old friend: my hairdresser.    I have talked many times about us getting together outside of the salon and going to lunch sometime ... but we never actually have.  Yesterday there was talk of a 4-wheeling / camping trip.  The poor girl has never rode a 4-wheeler, and she wants to.  I now feel it's my duty to correct that.  Haha.  But seriously ~ would be cool if we could actually plan a trip this year.  "Someday" is just BS, sometimes.  I'm like: no, seriously, let's do it.
    I've been natural, all shades of brown, blonde, and red ~ but I've never done anything quite like this:

    Wild orchid.  I love it.
    What does it say about me?  
    It actually represents a lot of different things that I have going on right now.  I joked with my husband: "Business in the front, party in the back".  Lmao.
    I don't know.  There's probably a giant post in my mind for this one.  I could think long and deep.  But for now ~ I'm off to kick this weekend's ass.  GOAL: get this flooring done.  
    Hope you all are doing well!
     
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    Tonight is a work event ~ sort of.  
    It's an art show (strangely, at a local long-term care facility) where you can preview pieces that are going to be available at a dinner/auction in April - which IS a work event.
    It's called "Art & Wine' ~ and yes, I am tempted to go, and sip on a glass of wine, and socialize ... and my boss just sent me a text late last night, confirming that there WILL be fancy chocolates.  
    I've never been to something like this before.  There's a part of me that wants to go, and a part of me that wants to stay home in my winter cave with my cubs.  
    I think I would regret not going ... but I would not regret going.  Sometimes I have to look at things in those terms:  "How will I feel if _____ ?"  And make decisions carefully.  Because I'm not a fan of regret.
    I would also like to check out this facility.  It's close to my home, and I've thought many times about applying there to work PRN (as needed) days as a nurse.
    And speaking of that ... I found myself applying late last night for a Director of Nursing role at an assisted living facility.  And I was excited about it.  I'm not even actively looking for jobs right now -- I'm really not.  This was one I stumbled across / was sort of dropped in my lap ~ then I found myself thinking about it.  Off and on, all day yesterday.
    I don't know if I'll ever hear from them ~ but the interview would be good experience.  I learn A LOT from interviews ... about different places, different people, and how they do things.  I enjoy the conversation.  And I am learning to trust my gut -- both literally and figuratively.  (I have a strange gut, and that is a subject for a different day ... if I listened to my actual gut all the time, I may never leave the house.)   I can "read" people, ykwim?  So every interview is a chance to sharpen those skills.
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    Tonight is a work event ~ sort of.  
    It's an art show (strangely, at a local long-term care facility) where you can preview pieces that are going to be available at a dinner/auction in April - which IS a work event.
    It's called "Art & Wine' ~ and yes, I am tempted to go, and sip on a glass of wine, and socialize ... and my boss just sent me a text late last night, confirming that there WILL be fancy chocolates.  
    I've never been to something like this before.  There's a part of me that wants to go, and a part of me that wants to stay home in my winter cave with my cubs.  
    I think I would regret not going ... but I would not regret going.  Sometimes I have to look at things in those terms:  "How will I feel if _____ ?"  And make decisions carefully.  Because I'm not a fan of regret.
    I would also like to check out this facility.  It's close to my home, and I've thought many times about applying there to work PRN (as needed) days as a nurse.
    And speaking of that ... I found myself applying late last night for a Director of Nursing role at an assisted living facility.  And I was excited about it.  I'm not even actively looking for jobs right now -- I'm really not.  This was one I stumbled across / was sort of dropped in my lap ~ then I found myself thinking about it.  Off and on, all day yesterday.
    I don't know if I'll ever hear from them ~ but the interview would be good experience.  I learn A LOT from interviews ... about different places, different people, and how they do things.  I enjoy the conversation.  And I am learning to trust my gut -- both literally and figuratively.  (I have a strange gut, and that is a subject for a different day ... if I listened to my actual gut all the time, I may never leave the house.)   I can "read" people, ykwim?  So every interview is a chance to sharpen those skills.
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    Oh how I struggle with gray areas!  My nature sees black and white and I struggle making room for grey.  I’m learning in food freedom there is s lot of gray, and that has terrified me.  I am learning to navigate the gray and finding a world of other colors in the process.  
    I have hung many labels on myself that many people have handed me through the tears.  I am removing these labels and taking a good hard look at them to see if these are labels I should even be carrying in the first place.  
    Good thoughts to chew on
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    Day 2 yesterday, Day 3 today ~ yes, still trucking along ... just really productive in other areas right now ~ in my journal, not so much.   
    Flooring is officially done in the hallway, living room, and giant (long) dining room.  I have one (sadly, the master) bedroom left to do.  Woke up yesterday and today to some sciatica pain that I don't think I've really experienced since I was pregnant with my first child ... in 2001.  WTH.  Lol.  And I realized in that moment this morning:  I'm not really happy unless I'm pushing myself.  Amy talked about being Type B, and I wondered what it would be like to say that.  Sometimes I think it would be nice.  But it's definitely not how I'm made.
    I think about a lot of things I don't have time to post.  
    Lately I've been thinking about labels:  Type A / Type B, introvert / extrovert ... etc.
    I think it can be great to learn more about yourself and to work with your strengths.  
    I also think there are some labels we tend to put on ourselves that can work against us, and perhaps are not entirely true.
    Black/white thinking rarely proves useful to me.  I see many, many shades of gray.  
    I see chains we have wrapped around ourselves, holding us down ... and some of them have been there so long ~ we don't even remember that WE were the ones who put them there.  But wait:  If I could put it on - that means that I can probably find the key to take it off.  I've been saying that to myself more and more lately.  It's been good.
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    This has me applauding and cheering screaming “YES THIS!!!!!!”   I want to save the world, but the best thing I can do for my world is to save me first!  This food experiment is about so much more than just the 30 days!  I almost feel sad for those who miss that, but what they choose to get out of it is what they get.  
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    @SchrodingersCat ~ I hope you're able to reign it in soon.  I am all for showing ourselves grace and understanding ... and I encourage that.  But I'm also a hard-core W30 Believer at heart.
    This has nothing to do with Dallas and Melissa ~ although I am thankful to them for their book, and for this forum.  It has nothing to do with challenges, recipes, rules, social media, etc.  I think anyone who comes and goes after 30 days has entirely missed the point.
    My beliefs are a solid foundation of what I already instinctively know as a human + what I have learned through my own experience + what I have now seen as a nurse.
    The complete devastation of dementia all by itself is enough to make me stop and go:  Holy... SHIT.  
    I wish we could all sit in a room and actually speak to one another ~ because I want to be clear here that my tone is not one of fear.  Righteous indignation is the phrase that comes to mind.
    For 1200+ hours last year, I was a part of a system that "cares" for our elderly in this way:
    They almost never go outside, unless a family member takes them Their meals are too high on sugar/carbs, and too low on protein - always - even the diabetic meals There is a pill for everything ... yet everyone still feels bad I could go on.  I won't.
    My point here is this:  I cannot save the world.  I could not make a real and lasting difference in the role I had chosen in long-term care.  I am one person, with one big heart, and a pretty good brain ~ if I take care of it.
    What I CAN do is this:  I can try to save myself.  I can make the decision to honor the body I'm given with choices that will support, and not destroy it.  And by living through that process, making that conscious choice, day after day after day ... I can make the world a better place ~ by being the best me I can possibly be.
    And I can encourage others to do the same.  Because our choices do matter.  Each day is a gift.  So how will you spend it?
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    @SchrodingersCat ~ I hope you're able to reign it in soon.  I am all for showing ourselves grace and understanding ... and I encourage that.  But I'm also a hard-core W30 Believer at heart.
    This has nothing to do with Dallas and Melissa ~ although I am thankful to them for their book, and for this forum.  It has nothing to do with challenges, recipes, rules, social media, etc.  I think anyone who comes and goes after 30 days has entirely missed the point.
    My beliefs are a solid foundation of what I already instinctively know as a human + what I have learned through my own experience + what I have now seen as a nurse.
    The complete devastation of dementia all by itself is enough to make me stop and go:  Holy... SHIT.  
    I wish we could all sit in a room and actually speak to one another ~ because I want to be clear here that my tone is not one of fear.  Righteous indignation is the phrase that comes to mind.
    For 1200+ hours last year, I was a part of a system that "cares" for our elderly in this way:
    They almost never go outside, unless a family member takes them Their meals are too high on sugar/carbs, and too low on protein - always - even the diabetic meals There is a pill for everything ... yet everyone still feels bad I could go on.  I won't.
    My point here is this:  I cannot save the world.  I could not make a real and lasting difference in the role I had chosen in long-term care.  I am one person, with one big heart, and a pretty good brain ~ if I take care of it.
    What I CAN do is this:  I can try to save myself.  I can make the decision to honor the body I'm given with choices that will support, and not destroy it.  And by living through that process, making that conscious choice, day after day after day ... I can make the world a better place ~ by being the best me I can possibly be.
    And I can encourage others to do the same.  Because our choices do matter.  Each day is a gift.  So how will you spend it?
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    Day 1 again yesterday ... Yes.  Let's see.
    I had black coffee in the morning, a frozen meal at work, followed by an RX bar, came home and ate pistachios, had another frozen meal, and another RX bar.  I was having a hard time winding down for bedtime (read: was feeling pretty bitchy and overstimulated) so I ate a cashew cookie larabar, and fell asleep soon after.  
    I know this isn't very pretty when typed out ~ and I'm still a work in process.  The point is simply that it was compliant.    There are only so many things I'm currently allowing in my backpack, because I know what happens when it gets too heavy.
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    @SchrodingersCat ~ I hope you're able to reign it in soon.  I am all for showing ourselves grace and understanding ... and I encourage that.  But I'm also a hard-core W30 Believer at heart.
    This has nothing to do with Dallas and Melissa ~ although I am thankful to them for their book, and for this forum.  It has nothing to do with challenges, recipes, rules, social media, etc.  I think anyone who comes and goes after 30 days has entirely missed the point.
    My beliefs are a solid foundation of what I already instinctively know as a human + what I have learned through my own experience + what I have now seen as a nurse.
    The complete devastation of dementia all by itself is enough to make me stop and go:  Holy... SHIT.  
    I wish we could all sit in a room and actually speak to one another ~ because I want to be clear here that my tone is not one of fear.  Righteous indignation is the phrase that comes to mind.
    For 1200+ hours last year, I was a part of a system that "cares" for our elderly in this way:
    They almost never go outside, unless a family member takes them Their meals are too high on sugar/carbs, and too low on protein - always - even the diabetic meals There is a pill for everything ... yet everyone still feels bad I could go on.  I won't.
    My point here is this:  I cannot save the world.  I could not make a real and lasting difference in the role I had chosen in long-term care.  I am one person, with one big heart, and a pretty good brain ~ if I take care of it.
    What I CAN do is this:  I can try to save myself.  I can make the decision to honor the body I'm given with choices that will support, and not destroy it.  And by living through that process, making that conscious choice, day after day after day ... I can make the world a better place ~ by being the best me I can possibly be.
    And I can encourage others to do the same.  Because our choices do matter.  Each day is a gift.  So how will you spend it?
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    Day 1 again yesterday ... Yes.  Let's see.
    I had black coffee in the morning, a frozen meal at work, followed by an RX bar, came home and ate pistachios, had another frozen meal, and another RX bar.  I was having a hard time winding down for bedtime (read: was feeling pretty bitchy and overstimulated) so I ate a cashew cookie larabar, and fell asleep soon after.  
    I know this isn't very pretty when typed out ~ and I'm still a work in process.  The point is simply that it was compliant.    There are only so many things I'm currently allowing in my backpack, because I know what happens when it gets too heavy.
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    @Brewer5 I think it was great that you were able to sneak away with your husband and spend some time together.   It sounds like the short time off plan served you and furthered your journey towards being able to live in a place of food freedom where delicious Whole Foods reign supreme with some tantalizing treats thrown in for pure enjoyment from time to time.   
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    Yes.  
    And on Wednesday night, when I decided I was going to have a night "off" with my husband (which really was a GREAT decision) -- I could not have pictured myself the next morning, telling him to just go to McDonald's and get me a breakfast meal ~ and yes, I'd just go ahead and eat the bread on the sandwich, because maybe it would help soak up some of this hangover nastiness in my stomach.  
    Our family has been "gluten-free" since 2012.  I'm not kidding.  I can't make this shit up.  Lol.
    I realized as I was lying here trying to go to sleep last night, that I said I'd been off work for 5 days ~ and that's not true.  I worked Wednesday, and we escaped town on Wednesday night, when I found out we were both going to have several days off work.  No one here cares - so that's not the point - the point is that it bothers me when I make these errors in my journal, because usually I'm sitting here, deep in thought when I post, and I think about what I'm going to say quite a bit.  Two times now, I've said something incorrectly - and both times, I was under the influence of non-W30 food.
    I'm not being overly dramatic.  I'm saying this "out loud" to myself, here and now, loud and clear -- because it matters.  These choices we make ~ they DO matter.  I do not want to end up in a downward spiral of "WTFever" for weeks, months, or years of my life.  I can feel the difference in my brain, and it is not something I can accurately put into words here.  I just know.
    And my days off weren't even "that" bad.  Really.  For the most part, I've still been eating W30 food - just with a giant Swedish chocolate bar (or two) thrown in from IKEA ~ spread out over four days.  Wine, of course - just that one night.  
    On Saturday, I had a gluten-free pasta meal at an Italian restaurant with my treasured friend from nursing school.  She moved away right after school, and I hadn't seen her in entirely too long.  The time spent together in conversation was great ... but the meal itself was stupid.  Just, dumb.  Like, not even remotely an entire chicken breast for protein in this big bowl of pasta.  ...And I knew at that point that I had officially de-railed.  
    ---
    But I'm back today. 
    And I return to W30 with a little bit different perspective, and with some really valuable feedback from my body.  I still call that a win.  
    Happy Monday!
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from SchrodingersCat in Like an Onion   
    Yes.  
    And on Wednesday night, when I decided I was going to have a night "off" with my husband (which really was a GREAT decision) -- I could not have pictured myself the next morning, telling him to just go to McDonald's and get me a breakfast meal ~ and yes, I'd just go ahead and eat the bread on the sandwich, because maybe it would help soak up some of this hangover nastiness in my stomach.  
    Our family has been "gluten-free" since 2012.  I'm not kidding.  I can't make this shit up.  Lol.
    I realized as I was lying here trying to go to sleep last night, that I said I'd been off work for 5 days ~ and that's not true.  I worked Wednesday, and we escaped town on Wednesday night, when I found out we were both going to have several days off work.  No one here cares - so that's not the point - the point is that it bothers me when I make these errors in my journal, because usually I'm sitting here, deep in thought when I post, and I think about what I'm going to say quite a bit.  Two times now, I've said something incorrectly - and both times, I was under the influence of non-W30 food.
    I'm not being overly dramatic.  I'm saying this "out loud" to myself, here and now, loud and clear -- because it matters.  These choices we make ~ they DO matter.  I do not want to end up in a downward spiral of "WTFever" for weeks, months, or years of my life.  I can feel the difference in my brain, and it is not something I can accurately put into words here.  I just know.
    And my days off weren't even "that" bad.  Really.  For the most part, I've still been eating W30 food - just with a giant Swedish chocolate bar (or two) thrown in from IKEA ~ spread out over four days.  Wine, of course - just that one night.  
    On Saturday, I had a gluten-free pasta meal at an Italian restaurant with my treasured friend from nursing school.  She moved away right after school, and I hadn't seen her in entirely too long.  The time spent together in conversation was great ... but the meal itself was stupid.  Just, dumb.  Like, not even remotely an entire chicken breast for protein in this big bowl of pasta.  ...And I knew at that point that I had officially de-railed.  
    ---
    But I'm back today. 
    And I return to W30 with a little bit different perspective, and with some really valuable feedback from my body.  I still call that a win.  
    Happy Monday!