Brewer5

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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Day 14:  8/9/20
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    I just don't have much to say at this point.  
    Whole 30 works, it just makes sense, and it's not anything new to me.  
    I feel a lot better and I can't really believe where I was a couple of weeks ago.  
    I've reduced my stress considerably by not signing up for any nursing shifts for over a week now.  That helps!
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Like an Onion   
    Day 14:  8/9/20
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    I just don't have much to say at this point.  
    Whole 30 works, it just makes sense, and it's not anything new to me.  
    I feel a lot better and I can't really believe where I was a couple of weeks ago.  
    I've reduced my stress considerably by not signing up for any nursing shifts for over a week now.  That helps!
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Like an Onion   
    Day 13:  8/8/20

    Enjoying being sober.  How about that?   
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Ginsky in Like an Onion   
    Day 14:  8/9/20
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    I just don't have much to say at this point.  
    Whole 30 works, it just makes sense, and it's not anything new to me.  
    I feel a lot better and I can't really believe where I was a couple of weeks ago.  
    I've reduced my stress considerably by not signing up for any nursing shifts for over a week now.  That helps!
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Ginsky in Like an Onion   
    Day 13:  8/8/20

    Enjoying being sober.  How about that?   
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Ginsky in Like an Onion   
    Day 12:  8/7/20

    Today was a better day.  
    Finally resolving some of the emotions I have had to work through pretty much on my own all week.
    Things are looking up again, and I am so happy to be able to say that.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from RachelR in Like an Onion   
    Day 14:  8/9/20
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    I just don't have much to say at this point.  
    Whole 30 works, it just makes sense, and it's not anything new to me.  
    I feel a lot better and I can't really believe where I was a couple of weeks ago.  
    I've reduced my stress considerably by not signing up for any nursing shifts for over a week now.  That helps!
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from RachelR in Like an Onion   
    Day 13:  8/8/20

    Enjoying being sober.  How about that?   
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from RachelR in Like an Onion   
    Day 10:  8/5/20
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    The news I speak of (which I cannot yet bring myself to speak of here) is weighing heavy on my heart tonight.  I've stayed strong for other people, and I've held back the tears because I don't want to discuss it with MIL.  Man, it's weird having someone else living in your home ...  We get along fine, but this is deep and personal.  Very, very little is "mine" anymore.
    So, I'm finally sitting outside, alone, late at night, and having a good cry.  The dogs don't mind.    And they don't ask me any questions.
    Tomorrow is a new day ~ and I'm looking forward to it.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Day 13:  8/8/20

    Enjoying being sober.  How about that?   
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Semi in Like an Onion   
    Day 13:  8/8/20

    Enjoying being sober.  How about that?   
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Day 12:  8/7/20

    Today was a better day.  
    Finally resolving some of the emotions I have had to work through pretty much on my own all week.
    Things are looking up again, and I am so happy to be able to say that.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Like an Onion   
    Day 12:  8/7/20

    Today was a better day.  
    Finally resolving some of the emotions I have had to work through pretty much on my own all week.
    Things are looking up again, and I am so happy to be able to say that.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Ginsky in Like an Onion   
    Day 11:  8/6/20

    Compliant.  Not amazing ... but productive.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Day 11:  8/6/20

    Compliant.  Not amazing ... but productive.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Like an Onion   
    Day 11:  8/6/20

    Compliant.  Not amazing ... but productive.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Semi in Like an Onion   
    Day 11:  8/6/20

    Compliant.  Not amazing ... but productive.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Semi in Like an Onion   
    Day 10:  8/5/20
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    The news I speak of (which I cannot yet bring myself to speak of here) is weighing heavy on my heart tonight.  I've stayed strong for other people, and I've held back the tears because I don't want to discuss it with MIL.  Man, it's weird having someone else living in your home ...  We get along fine, but this is deep and personal.  Very, very little is "mine" anymore.
    So, I'm finally sitting outside, alone, late at night, and having a good cry.  The dogs don't mind.    And they don't ask me any questions.
    Tomorrow is a new day ~ and I'm looking forward to it.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Semi in Like an Onion   
    Thanks @Semi ~ I meant to say that above ^ but it deserves its own post anyway.
    4+ years is a big, huge deal.  I appreciate you sharing your experience, and I definitely appreciate the encouragement.
    There has only been one other period of my life where I drank on a nightly basis.  I didn't really consider it a problem at the time, and even looking back - I don't see that it caused any big problems.  But clearly it's not ideal.
    This stretch lately was worrisome.  I don't want to go back there.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Like an Onion   
    Day 10:  8/5/20
    --
    The news I speak of (which I cannot yet bring myself to speak of here) is weighing heavy on my heart tonight.  I've stayed strong for other people, and I've held back the tears because I don't want to discuss it with MIL.  Man, it's weird having someone else living in your home ...  We get along fine, but this is deep and personal.  Very, very little is "mine" anymore.
    So, I'm finally sitting outside, alone, late at night, and having a good cry.  The dogs don't mind.    And they don't ask me any questions.
    Tomorrow is a new day ~ and I'm looking forward to it.
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    Brewer5 reacted to Semi in Like an Onion   
    I feel you.
    I was once addicted to alcohol and being sober is still hard (after over 4 years).
    You've got this! You are strong! <3
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from MadyVanilla in Like an Onion   
    Day 8 yesterday:  8/3/20
    Day 9 today:  8/4/20
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    The urge was more strong than ever tonight, to throw this out the window and go buy some wine.  But I did not.  I'm eating compliant food & going to bed sober.
    Sober isn't always a comfortable place to be ... but neither is hungover.  I've got stuff to do.  Stuff that matters.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Day 8 yesterday:  8/3/20
    Day 9 today:  8/4/20
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    The urge was more strong than ever tonight, to throw this out the window and go buy some wine.  But I did not.  I'm eating compliant food & going to bed sober.
    Sober isn't always a comfortable place to be ... but neither is hungover.  I've got stuff to do.  Stuff that matters.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Semi in Like an Onion   
    Day 8 yesterday:  8/3/20
    Day 9 today:  8/4/20
    --
    The urge was more strong than ever tonight, to throw this out the window and go buy some wine.  But I did not.  I'm eating compliant food & going to bed sober.
    Sober isn't always a comfortable place to be ... but neither is hungover.  I've got stuff to do.  Stuff that matters.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Day 7 yesterday:  8/2/20
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    I don't have anything to say about yesterday.  It was compliant & fine.
    Today I found out some news that I might want to bury in a bottle of wine tonight.  But guess what?  That news will still be there tomorrow.  And the next day.  And the next.  Forever.
    So I won't.