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    Brewer5 reacted to MadyVanilla in Like an Onion   
    You are already doing it!  Putting it in writing is more binding than just thinking it .  I had the same thing a few weeks ago - I think my comment was something like, "I feel like a dog on a leash pulling as hard as I can against my handler.  I'm still going to do it even though I'm dragging myself into it."  And of course now, just starting my 3rd week, I can't believe I fought myself so hard.  Congrats to you for coming back! 
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    @Blueautumn ~ I should start again with you tomorrow, and we can have a contest to see who can make it the longest.  Lol.  I typed up a big long "Day 1" post yesterday ... then changed my mind later in the day, and: delete, delete, delete.  It's ridiculous.
    But there is so much to be learned on this journey.  I am super impressed, not only that you made it to 25 days on your first try - but that you are determined to get back in the saddle and keep on riding.  That's really cool.    Congrats!
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    Brewer5 reacted to Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    So i tried to give a few updates this week but my password wasnt working and I kept locking myself out.
    To sum it up, on Day 25 i ate nachos. Going so many days without eating and then Im pmsing, I was like you know what, 25 days is basically 30 days and I got nachos. Literally right at the end and I talked myself right into those nachos. How strange and annoying but I told myself i was going to complete a whole30 and complete it I shall (so ill be starting again naturally)
    Fun fact, im a self saboteur. Dont be like me people. I have an innate dread of success that basically causes me to destroy things especially near the end. I dont think the middle of things is all that hard. Its def the beginning and about the time you see the light at the end of the tunnel. But thats okay. I learned some things and honestly made it significantly longer than i thought I would for a first time around.
    Day 1 again will be sunday  June 21. The goal of course is to make it the full 30 days. Id at least like to keep it going long enough for tiger blood to come give me a big hug. And i want to be very clear that i thought long and hard about those nachos - as some of you could imagine. I am fully aware that it cant be a 30 days done its all over go right back to how i was. So I imagine the next few months will be mostly on whole 30 and tryin to figure out an eating habit that doesnt lead me right back down the paths of no return.
    I have also read a book, thinner, stronger, leaner (or some combination of those words) and I really like his general approach to eating and exercise. Ill be actually starting cardio 3x a week starting this first week since i never worked any in during my first 25 days. The second week ill be incorporating strength training and those will be the new healthy habits ill be working on for the next 30 days.
    Oh yeah i went ahead and weighed myself after the nachos - 300 pounds. Down 16 which aint that bad considering my new found love of potatoes for a while there lol. My blood pressure is looking good, hopefully in a few months i can get off at least one of them. I know i need to do everything within my power to get my blood sugar under control for good so yet another reason i need to stick it through 30 days. My body needs time to heal and to balance itself out without relying completely on sugar.
    Now the very astute ones will notice that there are a few days between my day 25 and my planned day 1. Yes i have been eating stuff that is not whole 30 compliant during this time. I have immediately noticed that the desire to binge, well the desire to feel full ( by eating lots of nonfilling processed things), came back quickly and thats somethin that needs to be beaten down with a stick.
    I was like you know what, lets get some cheesy bacon wedges in before i start over. Guess what? about 99% those delicious cheesy goodness that i raved about for posts and posts cause my fire volcano indigestion, so thats FUN! Guess its time to retire those completely. On a positive note, im hoping that keeps craving them under better control lol.
    Hopefully everyone is ready for another round of boring, long posts of rambling thoughts about my issues with food. 
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Hello @Blueautumn ~ sorry I've been MIA.  I hope things are still going well for you!  
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    Weighed in yesterday - 125.0
    So I've actually lost another 1.4 lbs since I ended my last 30 days.
    It's been a whirlwind these past couple of weeks.
    We got our projects around the house wrapped up (or at least to a stopping point), took a bunch of stuff to storage, made it so our house isn't quite so much of an obstacle course.  
    Went to Kansas, visited with family and picked up MIL, headed back home.  Got her settled in, had a rental house for 4 days for my oldest son's graduation party and his 19th birthday.  This house had a pool & hot tub, pool table etc - was a great venue for what we needed.  Thankfully it was only about 20 minutes from our house, so we came back here and slept at home instead of having to pack up everything we owned for 6 people ... and 2 dogs.  
    Yesterday, the last of our visiting family headed out of town ... and now, things "settle" and we figure out our new normal.
    There has been a lot of restaurant food in this time, one bowl of dirt pudding, and last night - I finally tried one of the GF cupcakes my sister had made for the party. Worth it?  No.  I'm sure they were excellent the day of the party.  Now they are dry, and I just sat there thinking, "Why am I eating this?"  Lol.
    --
    MIL is good.  I have a lot to straighten out with her finances, Medicare, etc. but it is doable.  She is sleeping through the night, sometimes more "with it" than others, and overall - in a good mood.  She's a trooper, and so am I - so that's part of what I love about her.  She's resilient.
    She wants to be healthier and lose some weight.  She's already not eating bread and buns - ordering her food without.  She's asking questions, and thinking about her choices.  I think she really trusts us, and she wants to follow our lead.  No more buying gummy worms, etc. - all of those things she did when no one was watching and/or when she was staying with her mom, who is also a fan of sugar.
    I would like to get back in for 30 days.  At the same time, I don't want to "announce" it here at my house, and make a big deal out of it.  So we'll see how that goes.
    Today and tomorrow I go back to nursing for evening shifts (2-10).  It's been about 1.5 weeks since I've worked there - and I don't want to get out of the habit.  Financially, I really need to (somehow) still be picking up a few shifts per week.
    My work-at-home job has been a joke - I have not found much time, and I feel like I am letting her down big time.  She would like for me to get back in the office with her sometime soon, and I told her next week is looking good for that.  Whew.  We'll see.
    I hope you are all doing well.  I don't have time to catch up on journals - I'm sorry.  If you've read this far, I know you understand.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Look at you GO.   
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Weighed in yesterday - 125.0
    So I've actually lost another 1.4 lbs since I ended my last 30 days.
    It's been a whirlwind these past couple of weeks.
    We got our projects around the house wrapped up (or at least to a stopping point), took a bunch of stuff to storage, made it so our house isn't quite so much of an obstacle course.  
    Went to Kansas, visited with family and picked up MIL, headed back home.  Got her settled in, had a rental house for 4 days for my oldest son's graduation party and his 19th birthday.  This house had a pool & hot tub, pool table etc - was a great venue for what we needed.  Thankfully it was only about 20 minutes from our house, so we came back here and slept at home instead of having to pack up everything we owned for 6 people ... and 2 dogs.  
    Yesterday, the last of our visiting family headed out of town ... and now, things "settle" and we figure out our new normal.
    There has been a lot of restaurant food in this time, one bowl of dirt pudding, and last night - I finally tried one of the GF cupcakes my sister had made for the party. Worth it?  No.  I'm sure they were excellent the day of the party.  Now they are dry, and I just sat there thinking, "Why am I eating this?"  Lol.
    --
    MIL is good.  I have a lot to straighten out with her finances, Medicare, etc. but it is doable.  She is sleeping through the night, sometimes more "with it" than others, and overall - in a good mood.  She's a trooper, and so am I - so that's part of what I love about her.  She's resilient.
    She wants to be healthier and lose some weight.  She's already not eating bread and buns - ordering her food without.  She's asking questions, and thinking about her choices.  I think she really trusts us, and she wants to follow our lead.  No more buying gummy worms, etc. - all of those things she did when no one was watching and/or when she was staying with her mom, who is also a fan of sugar.
    I would like to get back in for 30 days.  At the same time, I don't want to "announce" it here at my house, and make a big deal out of it.  So we'll see how that goes.
    Today and tomorrow I go back to nursing for evening shifts (2-10).  It's been about 1.5 weeks since I've worked there - and I don't want to get out of the habit.  Financially, I really need to (somehow) still be picking up a few shifts per week.
    My work-at-home job has been a joke - I have not found much time, and I feel like I am letting her down big time.  She would like for me to get back in the office with her sometime soon, and I told her next week is looking good for that.  Whew.  We'll see.
    I hope you are all doing well.  I don't have time to catch up on journals - I'm sorry.  If you've read this far, I know you understand.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    I got ready to head out the door to work yesterday - realized I hadn't eaten anything, and I had no plan.  Grabbed a pile of air fryer bacon sitting on the counter, and a teeny tiny can of tuna salad that I had gotten back when coronavirus first hit.  Because, you know ... we would all survive a really long time with that tiny can to save us!  
    So I crammed that food down at about 4pm at work.
    Got home at about 11:30 pm and had a big bowl of cole slaw veggies, with HB eggs chopped up in it, and an obscene amount of Tessamae's ranch.  That hit the spot - and I promptly passed out.  In my scrubs.  
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Yesterday my friend came again for a couple of hours, and we got the cabinets all finished - and when he left, I finished the flooring.  Finally!  People, I am so done with flooring.  Lol.  Then I painted about half of the kitchen.
    Whew.
    I haven't talked about it here yet - but my MIL is coming to live with us.  We are going to travel 800 miles this weekend to get her.  I know I talked about it a couple of months ago, when we thought it was going to happen - but now, it's for real.  She can no longer stay with her mother, and we do not want to put her in a facility.  Not at this point.  If we reach that point down the road, it still needs to be a facility here with us.
    We were given this deadline - she has to be out of her mom's government-subsidized duplex by June 1 - or they are going to kick them BOTH out.  Yikes.  So this news came in the middle of these projects I had already started - and now, I'm in a rush to get them finished.
    My husband has used the words "I am in panic mode" and I have been steadily countering that with: "It's going to be okay".
    It's going to be okay.  ...It IS going to be okay.
    But man, there's a lot to do.
    --
    So, while I was working, working yesterday - he says he and the kids are going to Arby's.  I say, I'll take the 1/2 pound of beef, no bun.
    They come home, food sits on the counter for a bit ... and when I get to a stopping point to finally EAT - all I see is a bowl with (apparently beef under there somewhere) a GIANT gob of Arby's cheddar sauce concoction.
    My initial reaction was one of shock: "Whose is this? You didn't get this for ME, did you?"
    ..."Oh, shit, sorry, I just had it in my head that you wanted what I get, and I get the beef & cheddar."
    Somewhere in there, I threw out the fact that "I've been doing Whole 30 for about a month and a half now".  But mainly, I clammed up.  Like, just snapped shut.  He offered to go get me what I wanted, and I said forget it.  It doesn't matter.  I don't want it.
    And I just kept working.  Working, working, working.
    But I was hurt.
    --
    At some point I grabbed a banana.
    Then later - much later - I had him peel me a potato for the air fryer.  I crammed that down with some ranch.  I ate some cole slaw veggies in the remaining ranch on my plate. Then he cooked frozen steaks in the air fryer.  I ate maybe a few ounces of steak - it was red inside, which I don't enjoy, and it had some "weird spots" I couldn't handle.  
    So, as you can imagine - after going, going, going like some kind of freaking machine ALL day - the bag of wavy Lay's called to me at about midnight.  And I ate them.
    Zero regret here re: chips ... my only regret is that I didn't fuel myself properly throughout the day, and it affected my mood, and it caught up to me at a time when I should have been in bed.
    Today is a new day.    Sending love, light, and good vibes out there to anyone reading.  "It's going to be okay!"
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Contessa in Like an Onion   
    I can't believe how many new products have come out since I did my first Whole 30 ... 5 years ago?  Five years doesn't sound like a long time, but things have come A LONG way.
    Those days of trying to make my own mayonnaise in the beginning gave me PTSD, I'm afraid.  I can't even look at my blender without thinking of it.    But last night I checked out the Sir Kensington avocado oil mayonnaise my husband has in the fridge, and what do I see?  NO SUGAR.  Are you kidding me?  I haven't looked around the forums lately, but if anyone out there is saying it is too much work -- I would be giving the whole, "We walked barefoot in the snow to school, five miles each way, and it was ALL uphill" speech.  ...It's probably best if I stay here and don't look.  Lol.
    When Dallas and Melissa wrote the book back then, they said this isn't hard.  I didn't think it was "hard" -- but it was a lot of thinking and a lot of extra work.  Now?  Yeah.  So totally not hard.  
    Jicama already cut into sticks?  Sweet potatoes already diced and ready to cook?  Wait -- ZOODLES, too?!  I bought a frickin Zoodler!  
    So, yeah.  You can tell I haven't spent much time at the grocery store lately.  I hate the grocery store.  But I actually enjoyed the trip last night.
    ---
    Came home and had a nice big romaine salad with chicken breast (cooked in the air fryer ~ we are loving that thing!), salsa, Tessemae's cilantro lime dressing, and a whole lotta baked potato with ghee and coconut oil.
    Did I want to eat the cheesecake in the fridge at one point?  Of course I wanted to.  But I'd rather feel good, and that was my very next thought.
    "Cravings are a suggestion, not a command."  <-- That is the biggest thing that has stuck with me from my time spent on a quit smoking forum.  It is so simple, but holds so much meaning.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    I got ready to head out the door to work yesterday - realized I hadn't eaten anything, and I had no plan.  Grabbed a pile of air fryer bacon sitting on the counter, and a teeny tiny can of tuna salad that I had gotten back when coronavirus first hit.  Because, you know ... we would all survive a really long time with that tiny can to save us!  
    So I crammed that food down at about 4pm at work.
    Got home at about 11:30 pm and had a big bowl of cole slaw veggies, with HB eggs chopped up in it, and an obscene amount of Tessamae's ranch.  That hit the spot - and I promptly passed out.  In my scrubs.  
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    I got ready to head out the door to work yesterday - realized I hadn't eaten anything, and I had no plan.  Grabbed a pile of air fryer bacon sitting on the counter, and a teeny tiny can of tuna salad that I had gotten back when coronavirus first hit.  Because, you know ... we would all survive a really long time with that tiny can to save us!  
    So I crammed that food down at about 4pm at work.
    Got home at about 11:30 pm and had a big bowl of cole slaw veggies, with HB eggs chopped up in it, and an obscene amount of Tessamae's ranch.  That hit the spot - and I promptly passed out.  In my scrubs.  
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    So yesterday ended up looking like, "well, I guess I'll just do carnivore" with some cole slaw & ranch, potato & ghee thrown in later in the day.  Lol.  That's not carnivore at all.
    Point being - there wasn't anything in the danger zone for me.  
    I think I'll keep posting daily just to keep track of what's going on.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    So yesterday ended up looking like, "well, I guess I'll just do carnivore" with some cole slaw & ranch, potato & ghee thrown in later in the day.  Lol.  That's not carnivore at all.
    Point being - there wasn't anything in the danger zone for me.  
    I think I'll keep posting daily just to keep track of what's going on.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    @ShadowInTheKitchen ~ yes, I have to go.  My MIL has dementia and I will be the one in charge of her care.  This is a huge, big deal ... taking her from the tiny (tiny) town she's been in her entire life ... saying goodbye to her mom, son, grandkids, and her house.  Going away from everything she's ever known.
    What a blessing that I went back to school, became an RN, and specialize in elderly / dementia care.  I understand what is going on with her, and I am a comfort to her in a way that perhaps her sons are not so much.  It's hard for them to recognize and deal with the disease and not look at her as same-old mom, and try to treat her in that manner.  It's a big transition ... and I definitely need to be there for my husband, and for her, at this time.
    Also - I have 3 teen boys and 2 sheltie dogs at home.  Lol.  Enough said!  
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    Brewer5 reacted to BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 R2.2   
    Day 9 5/24 - and the hits just keep on coming.  When I said we needed to catch a break this is not what I had in mind.
     
    7:15 up with baby.  Get our day going.  I got his breakfast served up and then we headed to the bathroom to get me ready.  Lol he was into everything this morning and a short fuse to boot.  I was grateful when hubby got up and took over and I think baby was too. 
    8:30 M1 - LO sweet potato apple breakfast bake.  
    Probably should have made efforts at having a salad or something but I was doing good to get that down and out the door.  
    I was so excited to be back among my sacred family even if it was only a fraction of them as we gathered among 4 different houses.  
    1:30 M2 - venison roast and roast potatoes and carrots with ghee.  
    Dinner at my moms.  This was planned.  I checked her beef broth the other day and it was approved.  I did ask she not add any consumate or any other flavorings.  Lucky for me as she was plating the food she was looking for a sweet chili sauce but she was out.  She just doesn’t get it but we did manage to have a meal that had compliant components.  She also made rolls, coleslaw,  corn. Sigh nothing green but I’ll eat a big salad tonight.  Lunch was nice and the company even better.  I was hungry so when my mom announced save room for strawberry rhubarb pie (one of my favorites) I had a second helping of roast and potatoes and carrots.  It filled me up and I was able to decline honestly that I did not want pie because I was full.  After lunch I took baby upstairs to nap while the older boys watched a movie with my parents.  When I got up from the nap my mom was cutting up the watermelon I had brought over.  I indulged, simply because I wanted it.  It was delicious and I enjoyed every morsel.
    4:30 S1 - bowl of watermelon
    OMG I’m glad I ate that bowl of watermelon.  We went skating tonight, and we were two hours in and having a blast when my husband was doing a head slide in the middle a move he’s down 1000 times his arm slipped just as he was coming down and his arm got trapped behind him and snap.  He broke it above the elbow.  Thank goodness one of our friends there is an EMT.  It’s his dominant arm and all he could chatter on about is how he has 4 skates to build tomorrow and he won’t be able to play with the baby.  So no dinner.  Im sitting in the truck outside the ER waiting for answers.    It’s crazy he’s been skating for 31 years and never broke anything and he has taken some dog falls, yet he breaks his arm on a floor move he’s done a thousand times he wasn’t even standing on his skates!  Really 2020 what else you got for us?  Ugh!
    Wrap me in bubble wrap and let me know when 2020 is over .  Good grief Charlie Brown!
    i stayed compliant and was not lured by the Taco Bell sitting across the road as I sat in the parking lot.
    Water 101oz 
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    Brewer5 reacted to Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Day 3 - good so far but ugh the cravings god the cravings
     
    Snack - pickles after my M3 yesterday
    M1 - eggs and bacon and peas
    M2 - tuna with broccoli and cauliflower
    M3 - steak - tried to eat some veggies but i couldnt even get them down
    I do have gastroparesis but it flares up super randomly. The thing I have noticed the most about it is that I can't always tell when ive gotten full. Instead ill be eating something and suddenly ill just spit it out because I my body is like DONT LET IT GO DOWN. Well by M2 i ate some veggies but then my body was just done with them. I tried again at dinner and the same thing happened but I havent been feeling hungry at all so Im thinking maybe I just need to wait for things to balance back out due to the sudden influx of veggies over the last few days.
    NSV - My fatigue wasnt near as bad today as it has been. It makes me so excited. My energy levels are higher and I actually get up to do some stuff because i dont feel so weighed down. My ankles are also not so swollen and im not bloated.
    But day 3 is still early enough that my brain is starting to try and beg and bargain on an amazing level. Come on girl, just order some cheesy fries and might as well get a milkshake if youre gonna be bad and you're only on day 3 so you could just easily start day 1 over again after scratching that itch. Shouldn't matter. UGH
    My lower back has started hurting and its not really letting up. And when I hurt the gut reaction is to eat to try and make me feel better. And I know it wont make the pain better but it makes me feel better about being in pain if Im eating something delicious and amazing - like cheesy fries and a milkshake. 
    Did i mention i really want some delicious cheesy fries with bacon bits?
     
    Think im gonna eat another pickle. 
    I can do this - i need this, i deserve this. I will feel better and I will be healthier and my body wont hate me. Maybe ill just go to bed soon so I can sleep the cravings away - because its been much longer than 5 mins. 
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    Lol @Blueautumn ~ the great news is, these mad cravings (like for cheese) DO go away.  They really, truly do not last the entire time.  Promise.  You will find things that fill the void, and it will become a thing of the past.  You will be able to look back and say: I conquered it!
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    Yesterday my friend came again for a couple of hours, and we got the cabinets all finished - and when he left, I finished the flooring.  Finally!  People, I am so done with flooring.  Lol.  Then I painted about half of the kitchen.
    Whew.
    I haven't talked about it here yet - but my MIL is coming to live with us.  We are going to travel 800 miles this weekend to get her.  I know I talked about it a couple of months ago, when we thought it was going to happen - but now, it's for real.  She can no longer stay with her mother, and we do not want to put her in a facility.  Not at this point.  If we reach that point down the road, it still needs to be a facility here with us.
    We were given this deadline - she has to be out of her mom's government-subsidized duplex by June 1 - or they are going to kick them BOTH out.  Yikes.  So this news came in the middle of these projects I had already started - and now, I'm in a rush to get them finished.
    My husband has used the words "I am in panic mode" and I have been steadily countering that with: "It's going to be okay".
    It's going to be okay.  ...It IS going to be okay.
    But man, there's a lot to do.
    --
    So, while I was working, working yesterday - he says he and the kids are going to Arby's.  I say, I'll take the 1/2 pound of beef, no bun.
    They come home, food sits on the counter for a bit ... and when I get to a stopping point to finally EAT - all I see is a bowl with (apparently beef under there somewhere) a GIANT gob of Arby's cheddar sauce concoction.
    My initial reaction was one of shock: "Whose is this? You didn't get this for ME, did you?"
    ..."Oh, shit, sorry, I just had it in my head that you wanted what I get, and I get the beef & cheddar."
    Somewhere in there, I threw out the fact that "I've been doing Whole 30 for about a month and a half now".  But mainly, I clammed up.  Like, just snapped shut.  He offered to go get me what I wanted, and I said forget it.  It doesn't matter.  I don't want it.
    And I just kept working.  Working, working, working.
    But I was hurt.
    --
    At some point I grabbed a banana.
    Then later - much later - I had him peel me a potato for the air fryer.  I crammed that down with some ranch.  I ate some cole slaw veggies in the remaining ranch on my plate. Then he cooked frozen steaks in the air fryer.  I ate maybe a few ounces of steak - it was red inside, which I don't enjoy, and it had some "weird spots" I couldn't handle.  
    So, as you can imagine - after going, going, going like some kind of freaking machine ALL day - the bag of wavy Lay's called to me at about midnight.  And I ate them.
    Zero regret here re: chips ... my only regret is that I didn't fuel myself properly throughout the day, and it affected my mood, and it caught up to me at a time when I should have been in bed.
    Today is a new day.    Sending love, light, and good vibes out there to anyone reading.  "It's going to be okay!"
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    Brewer5 reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    @Brewer5 oh you are in a super stressful situation, which I know you know... I hope that all goes well with the rest of the renovations.  A quick thought- do you have to go this weekend, or is it possible that you stay home to either ground yourself with a bit of self care or maybe do some more Reno work before she moves in? You know, kinda like ‘divide and conquer.’
    Sending warm wishes and good luck your way. 
    Shadow
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Yes, I did decide to eat 6 mozzarella sticks from Arby's last night, along with what I believe is compliant roast beef (?) - after working, working, working to redo the kitchen yesterday with an old friend.
    I can't say there was A LOT of thought put into this ... I can say I'm not beating myself up about it.  Those cheese sticks are one of my favorite things - however, my heart did pound like crazy afterwards.  Possibly enough to cause future avoidance.  This is good.
    For lunch we had Burger King (umm, my kitchen is destroyed right now and we were working hard!) - again, not sure about what is in their burger patties, and don't care at this point.  I had two patties, tomato, onion, pickle, lettuce, and my Tessamae's ranch.  It was good - but MAN it slowed me down in my work.  I had to make a trip to Lowe's right after, and I just didn't wanna.  Ugh.  Drank a cup of coffee and powered through.
    Feeling good about the work we are getting done ... also, it was a really enjoyable day with this guy I hadn't seen in a long time.  He is full of stories, personality and character.  I dig that.  It was good vibes.  Reminded me of how much we are social beings, and that is a need of mine that too often goes neglected.
    Two rabbits came up to visit with us while we were sitting on the swing on the front patio at the end of our work day.  I mean, they came up CLOSE ... like 4 feet away.  And stared at us.  For awhile.  It was unreal.  I have lived in this house for 17 years, and they've never done that.  Ever.  This guy has been all over the world in his army days, and even he was like, "I have never been this close to a wild rabbit..."  It was a moment.  A moment of childlike wonder.  Were they listening to our conversation?  Were they trying to tell us something?  We laughed and just enjoyed this moment with nature so much.
    Good times.  
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    Yes, I did decide to eat 6 mozzarella sticks from Arby's last night, along with what I believe is compliant roast beef (?) - after working, working, working to redo the kitchen yesterday with an old friend.
    I can't say there was A LOT of thought put into this ... I can say I'm not beating myself up about it.  Those cheese sticks are one of my favorite things - however, my heart did pound like crazy afterwards.  Possibly enough to cause future avoidance.  This is good.
    For lunch we had Burger King (umm, my kitchen is destroyed right now and we were working hard!) - again, not sure about what is in their burger patties, and don't care at this point.  I had two patties, tomato, onion, pickle, lettuce, and my Tessamae's ranch.  It was good - but MAN it slowed me down in my work.  I had to make a trip to Lowe's right after, and I just didn't wanna.  Ugh.  Drank a cup of coffee and powered through.
    Feeling good about the work we are getting done ... also, it was a really enjoyable day with this guy I hadn't seen in a long time.  He is full of stories, personality and character.  I dig that.  It was good vibes.  Reminded me of how much we are social beings, and that is a need of mine that too often goes neglected.
    Two rabbits came up to visit with us while we were sitting on the swing on the front patio at the end of our work day.  I mean, they came up CLOSE ... like 4 feet away.  And stared at us.  For awhile.  It was unreal.  I have lived in this house for 17 years, and they've never done that.  Ever.  This guy has been all over the world in his army days, and even he was like, "I have never been this close to a wild rabbit..."  It was a moment.  A moment of childlike wonder.  Were they listening to our conversation?  Were they trying to tell us something?  We laughed and just enjoyed this moment with nature so much.
    Good times.  
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    @Blueautumn ~ I am so, so proud of you for being able to log Day 1 completed successfully.  Seriously, that is huge - and I'd like for you to just close your eyes and let that really sink in for a moment.  Deep breaths.  You've got this.
    Now, this is where my Yoda kicks in.  Old and wise.
    I have two words for you: fat and salt.
    You perfectly understand protein, veggies, and fruits - and you won't need any help there.
    I agree that you don't need the added pressure of trying to make your plate look perfectly balanced every time you eat.  Not right now.
    But I want you to understand the power of fat for satiety.  You love butter - find that ghee.  As in, now.  Your husband who loves you so much needs to make that his ONE mission today.
    Also: understand that when you make a switch like this, from a diet of "trash" as you have said so many times - your body goes through a very reliable chain of events:  you start burning through your stored glycogen - first in your liver, and then in your muscles.  As you lose this glycogen, you lose a lot of stored water as well, and sodium follows water.  Electrolyte imbalances are responsible for SO many symptoms of "carb flu".  Really making a concentrated effort to get plenty of salt can alleviate much of this unnecessary suffering.
    Be gentle with yourself, friend.  Night shift is its own beast.  I recommend it for approximately zero percent of humans.  I do understand that the hospital is a 24/7 machine - and I respect the work you do.  Just please, please try to get as much rest as you possibly can.  It is vital.
    Hugs and love across the miles ... today is a new day.  Day 2!
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    Yes, I did decide to eat 6 mozzarella sticks from Arby's last night, along with what I believe is compliant roast beef (?) - after working, working, working to redo the kitchen yesterday with an old friend.
    I can't say there was A LOT of thought put into this ... I can say I'm not beating myself up about it.  Those cheese sticks are one of my favorite things - however, my heart did pound like crazy afterwards.  Possibly enough to cause future avoidance.  This is good.
    For lunch we had Burger King (umm, my kitchen is destroyed right now and we were working hard!) - again, not sure about what is in their burger patties, and don't care at this point.  I had two patties, tomato, onion, pickle, lettuce, and my Tessamae's ranch.  It was good - but MAN it slowed me down in my work.  I had to make a trip to Lowe's right after, and I just didn't wanna.  Ugh.  Drank a cup of coffee and powered through.
    Feeling good about the work we are getting done ... also, it was a really enjoyable day with this guy I hadn't seen in a long time.  He is full of stories, personality and character.  I dig that.  It was good vibes.  Reminded me of how much we are social beings, and that is a need of mine that too often goes neglected.
    Two rabbits came up to visit with us while we were sitting on the swing on the front patio at the end of our work day.  I mean, they came up CLOSE ... like 4 feet away.  And stared at us.  For awhile.  It was unreal.  I have lived in this house for 17 years, and they've never done that.  Ever.  This guy has been all over the world in his army days, and even he was like, "I have never been this close to a wild rabbit..."  It was a moment.  A moment of childlike wonder.  Were they listening to our conversation?  Were they trying to tell us something?  We laughed and just enjoyed this moment with nature so much.
    Good times.  
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    Brewer5 reacted to Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    [email protected] thank you so much for the kind words! 
    I add salt to all of it. I love it about as much as I love sugar lmao. I have four pounds of butter left in my fridge that he will be simmering down today and if I have a chance I'll be looking for some ghee or lard today.
    Yes night shift well night shift rofl but someone's gotta do it 
    Hugs and love