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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    @Blueautumn ~ I am so, so proud of you for being able to log Day 1 completed successfully.  Seriously, that is huge - and I'd like for you to just close your eyes and let that really sink in for a moment.  Deep breaths.  You've got this.
    Now, this is where my Yoda kicks in.  Old and wise.
    I have two words for you: fat and salt.
    You perfectly understand protein, veggies, and fruits - and you won't need any help there.
    I agree that you don't need the added pressure of trying to make your plate look perfectly balanced every time you eat.  Not right now.
    But I want you to understand the power of fat for satiety.  You love butter - find that ghee.  As in, now.  Your husband who loves you so much needs to make that his ONE mission today.
    Also: understand that when you make a switch like this, from a diet of "trash" as you have said so many times - your body goes through a very reliable chain of events:  you start burning through your stored glycogen - first in your liver, and then in your muscles.  As you lose this glycogen, you lose a lot of stored water as well, and sodium follows water.  Electrolyte imbalances are responsible for SO many symptoms of "carb flu".  Really making a concentrated effort to get plenty of salt can alleviate much of this unnecessary suffering.
    Be gentle with yourself, friend.  Night shift is its own beast.  I recommend it for approximately zero percent of humans.  I do understand that the hospital is a 24/7 machine - and I respect the work you do.  Just please, please try to get as much rest as you possibly can.  It is vital.
    Hugs and love across the miles ... today is a new day.  Day 2!
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    Brewer5 reacted to ShadowInTheKitchen in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    I'd love to hear about your meals, and how you manage them with shift work.  I find that it's sooo much easier to think of them as meal 1, meal 2, meal 3.  Have steak for M1 and eggs & bacon or sausage for M3, it doesn't matter.  I actually learned on my first W30 that I love to eat a green salad first thing in the day, with lots of chicken mixed in for protein.  
    I've had years of practice with thinking differently about what to call my meals.  When on vacation our meal times inevitably fell out of routine, so we never called them breakfast, lunch or dinner while on vaycay, we just called them "our next meal!"
    I hope that you don't cut back on the amount of food you eat.  If anything - eat more!  Or at least put more food on your plate.  Your appetite will pick up, and if your belly is very full you'll be less likely to cave into cravings.  With me, I think that either bread or sugar or a combo of both are what cause me to want to eat more, what stirs awake my sugar dragon. I could eat buns or cookies all day long if they were in front of me.  Now I keep trimmed carrots and celery in the fridge, and fruit.  (Try the apples!) They are always there, ready to grab if I want something.  I know it's not the same, but it does help in a big way. 
    For your soda replacement, have you thought of getting a "Soda Stream?"  I don't have one, but they look interesting.  Another suggestion is to drink Perrier water mixed with a bit of your favourite juice.  I keep a 24oz water bottle with me at all times, and I refill it from the tap at M1, M2, M3 and before bed.  I usually drink the whole 24 oz four times a day.  My last suggestion is to drink tea.  You can make iced tea, just make some tea the normal way and chill it with lots of ice.  It works with herbal teas too.  Tea is cheap.
    If you need to spend money to get something new, just calculate how much money you are saving by not buying take out or sodas.  It becomes easy to justify a new kitchen gadget, like a Soda Stream.  
    Please don't be too hard on yourself.  If you happen to slip up unintentionally, just bring yourself right back on track. You are doing the best thing for yourself, and I'm cheering you on!  
    Enjoy the journey,
    Shadow
     
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    Brewer5 reacted to Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    ROLF not creepy at all - NEED ALL THEM VIBES. And I am at work <3 lol
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Day 3:  5/23/20

    12:00 pm:  W30 frozen meal w/ ghee

    3:30 pm:  burger, bacon, mayo, OJ & sparkling water combo

    6:30 pm:  air fryer steak fries w/ avocado ranch

    10:15 pm:  W30 frozen meal w/ ghee, diced potatoes

    I’m all out of the frozen meals now, and I don’t think I’m going to buy them anymore.  Too many FODMAPs in there.  Super convenient, though!
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    Day 3:  5/23/20

    12:00 pm:  W30 frozen meal w/ ghee

    3:30 pm:  burger, bacon, mayo, OJ & sparkling water combo

    6:30 pm:  air fryer steak fries w/ avocado ranch

    10:15 pm:  W30 frozen meal w/ ghee, diced potatoes

    I’m all out of the frozen meals now, and I don’t think I’m going to buy them anymore.  Too many FODMAPs in there.  Super convenient, though!
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    @Blueautumn ~ I am sending all of the good, loving, positive vibes your way right. now.  It's 11:11 pm.  You're at work.  Just know you're not alone!
    {Is that creepy?}. 
    I don't care!  Lol.
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    Brewer5 reacted to BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 R2.2   
    Day 6 5/21 - I miss sandwiches
     
    7:30 woke up on my own.  After getting dressed and going to get baby up I discovered he was already up.  My 13DS informed me he had been up since 6:30, but he changed him and fed him and entertained him because he figured I needed the sleep.  I’ve got some pretty great boys!
    9:00 M1 2 eggs scrambled in clarifies butter with basil and oregano.  2 pieces of NS Bacon.  1/2 c Home fries air fried with garlic powder and paprika.  1c snap peas sautéed in clarified butter seasoned with Montreal steak seasoning.  
    I was still feeling off and my tummy was still churning a bit this morning.  Eating seemed to help.  I am glad of that because I have a lot to accomplish today.
    10:15-11:45 nap
    I got a few things done before falling asleep standing up lol.  I was sent to my room. This little titan is definitely demanding a lot of energy right now.  I’m okay with that.  Trying not to feel guilty or shame myself because of it.  
    1:00 M2 - roast beef roll ups - 4 slices roast beef, 2 large lettuce leaves, 1/2 tomato sliced, spicy brown mustard.  2 pickle spears. 1 pink lady apple with 1 Tbs of NS almond butter.
    Thank you Kroger’s for having compliant roast beef that was actually so good!  I happen to pick up and read the ingredients on their organic simple truth roast beef the other day thinking I’d get it for my son with all the allergies and I was pleasantly surprised that it was compliant.  Organic beef, water, sea salt, organic black pepper.  I may have danced a jig in the store.  So I had that today for lunch and it tasted great!  I think the only thing I really really miss is sandwiches. I love sandwiches of every sort shape and size.   Cold, hot, grilled or not. I like the small, long, short or triple stack.  There are certain restaurants that have closed around here that are still open in other regions and when we go to those areas I HAVE to eat there because they have a sandwich on the menu that you can’t get anywhere else.  It’s not just one part or another or even just the flavor it’s the whole experience of the sandwich I love, from the texture to the multi level of  flavors even the way it feels to hold it in my hands.  My sandwich affair is on hold for now.  They are not gone from me forever they will be there when I want one, really want one.  
    7:30 M3 - 6oz Grilled Chicken breast, 1 c steamed broccoli and cauliflower 1 Tbs ghee 
    More work and then bed.  
    Water: 101oz
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Day 2:  5/22/20

    So today was a weird eating day.  I had two frozen W30 meals, cooked together with ghee ... spread out - a little before work, and the rest when I got home.
    {shrug}
    I'm having a 10 oz. bottle of OJ mixed with a sparkling water now, and I guess that's it for today.  It's late and I'm not hungry.
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    Brewer5 reacted to Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    This ^^ right here - all that.
    I know i feel bad and have been doing myself a disservice by continuing to eat the way i eat and do what i do every day (or not do lol). I woke up earlier this month with the realization that I was not living my best self at all. That I was hindering my progress in really all aspects of my life due to the medical conditions, the brain fog, the horrible sleep, the pain - I couldnt say I have done everything I can to make me the best me which means as of now its really all my fault. And I dont wanna feel like this anymore.

    I think the W30 really helps bring home how much extra stuff we eat that isnt what our bodies were made to eat. I am sad that you felt bad the last few days but very glad that you have an idea what the problem is and are taking control of it  
    I had a massive migraine yesterday so didn't respond to anyone and all I could think about was how much I wanted a soda and a burger to make myself feel better - and maybe some icecream. I didnt get them though!

    You got this - being able to identify the problem is a good chunk of the battle
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    @ShadowInTheKitchen ~ I started off my last 31 day streak not really knowing how far I'd go.  I wanted to make it through at least 11 days, because I think I'd only successfully completed 10 in a row this year.
    So I am starting again.  I'd like to see 32 days and go from there.  If that doesn't happen - I'd like to have a damned good reason for it.  I'd like it to be thought out, and I'd like to feel in control of my decisions again.
    I think the difference is that I'm not doing a careful reintro.  I've been there, done that, and already decided that it doesn't take me anywhere good.
    I have a LOT of reactions and intolerances to foods ... I have learned about this over many years, and it is still a process / in progress.
    For example, I know that I have histamine intolerance.  What does this mean?  Well, it means that there is a certain level of histamine my body can process before I become symptomatic.  It doesn't mean that I can't have any histamine-containing or histamine-releasing foods - (that is next to impossible) - however, it does mean that when I reach a certain level, I am going to experience unpleasant symptoms - and I'd much rather avoid that.  So, it is something I have to remain aware of.
    That is just one example of the complexities with me and food.  I could go on.
    What I went through this morning was enough to convince me that gluten = poison, which I'd already decided years ago.  So, why did I put it in my body?  Maybe I needed the painful reminder.  Maybe it has confirmed / solidified what I already knew.  It is never a failure if you grow and gain strength in the process.
    I can say what's right for me and my body - but that's where it ends.  We each have our own unique lives ... we have jobs, kids, stresses, responsibilities.  Some here love to cook, and some want things as simple and easy as possible.  Is one right, and the other wrong?  No.  They're just different.
    The end goal is the same for each of us: and that is to be our very best.
    I have not been at my best while not eating W30.  And that ends now.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    Day 1:  5/21/20

    I don’t want to forget this headache.
    A headache is telling us something is wrong.
    So many people think they can just take painkillers, and that a headache is no big deal.  But they mean something.  There is no doubt what this one is telling me.

    I don’t even want to talk about yesterday.  I don’t know WTF has come over me - gluten is the one thing I have really successfully stayed away from since 2012.  There is good reason for that.
    If you had a beautiful new plant growing out in the sun, would you dump donuts all around its base, and expect that to do good things?  What about a bun?
    Well, that just sounds ridiculous, now, doesn’t it?
    You might put meat or eggs or fruits or veggies there - and expect that it would get some nutrients.
    We don’t show LOVE to ourselves or others with donuts and buns.
    Love is wanting what’s best.
    I work hard to make sure we can afford 100% ground-up animals to feed my dogs their raw carnivorous diet.  I don’t give them things they wouldn’t find in nature.
    The dogs deserve better?
    I don't think so.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    Thanks for being here, ladies.  
    Perhaps I will just strive to keep beating my own record here.  
    I could have done without this break in between ... but perhaps it was necessary.  A good reminder of "the dark side".
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    Day 1:  5/21/20 (cont)

    I went through an experience much like the worst-ever hangover feeling this morning after posting that I was starting again.
    I felt like my blood sugar was all out of whack, and in a panic, and the worst headache.  It was scary.  It is now thoroughly etched in my brain as something I never want to experience again.  Ever.

    10:45 am:  (4) eggs w/ ghee, air fryer steak fries, few sips of orange juice

    2:30 pm:  finished the 10-oz bottle of OJ

    6:15 pm:  (2) chicken breasts, cole slaw veggies w/ ranch

    11:30 pm:  air fryer steak fries w/ avocado ranch

    Shenanigans over.  Feels good to just be back to my real food.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Day 1:  5/21/20 (cont)

    I went through an experience much like the worst-ever hangover feeling this morning after posting that I was starting again.
    I felt like my blood sugar was all out of whack, and in a panic, and the worst headache.  It was scary.  It is now thoroughly etched in my brain as something I never want to experience again.  Ever.

    10:45 am:  (4) eggs w/ ghee, air fryer steak fries, few sips of orange juice

    2:30 pm:  finished the 10-oz bottle of OJ

    6:15 pm:  (2) chicken breasts, cole slaw veggies w/ ranch

    11:30 pm:  air fryer steak fries w/ avocado ranch

    Shenanigans over.  Feels good to just be back to my real food.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Day 1:  5/21/20 (cont)

    I went through an experience much like the worst-ever hangover feeling this morning after posting that I was starting again.
    I felt like my blood sugar was all out of whack, and in a panic, and the worst headache.  It was scary.  It is now thoroughly etched in my brain as something I never want to experience again.  Ever.

    10:45 am:  (4) eggs w/ ghee, air fryer steak fries, few sips of orange juice

    2:30 pm:  finished the 10-oz bottle of OJ

    6:15 pm:  (2) chicken breasts, cole slaw veggies w/ ranch

    11:30 pm:  air fryer steak fries w/ avocado ranch

    Shenanigans over.  Feels good to just be back to my real food.
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    Brewer5 reacted to BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Yes! This!  Numbering days for the days the path was good mentally physically and emotionally.  What foods do you feel need more restriction beyond the guidelines of whole 30 to help you achieve the good path?  Are the foods outside of the whole 30 that you might consider also to be part of that path for you?  I think being able to ask ourselves these questions and answer them honestly and freely is part of that foundation for the food freedom forever where we can live inside a set of regulations that provides us freedom and our best life. I also think the answers may change and we should re-evaluate often what is it that makes it a good path for me today, tomorrow, this week, this month, this year etc.    It’s learning how to set those for Myself that prove the challenge as I’m not sure I trust myself just yet.  But I am learning to build that self trust with choices.  I am so proud of all the work you have done so far.  I am glad to have someone like you along for this journey.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Whole 30 is not restrictive to me ... although I know some feel it is.  Whole 30 actually expands my choices.  I can get into some bad (for me) territory while remaining completely "compliant".
    To be quite honest - when I have felt 100% my best was when I was eating nothing but meat, fish, and eggs - and drinking nothing but coffee and water.
    My goal was to remain within W30 food guidelines re: compliant foods, and actually narrow that down further to eliminate the things that are still causing me digestive distress.
    At the very least, the goal was to remain with some combination of W30 foods.
    Instead - I hit those 30 days and something shifted in my brain.  It's happened before, so it doesn't surprise me - yet it does, all at the same time.
    I know what it feels like to be on a good path, and I know what it feels like when I've traveled too far out in the weeds.  I just want to get back on a good path again.  If numbering my days helps, that's what I will do.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Whole 30 is not restrictive to me ... although I know some feel it is.  Whole 30 actually expands my choices.  I can get into some bad (for me) territory while remaining completely "compliant".
    To be quite honest - when I have felt 100% my best was when I was eating nothing but meat, fish, and eggs - and drinking nothing but coffee and water.
    My goal was to remain within W30 food guidelines re: compliant foods, and actually narrow that down further to eliminate the things that are still causing me digestive distress.
    At the very least, the goal was to remain with some combination of W30 foods.
    Instead - I hit those 30 days and something shifted in my brain.  It's happened before, so it doesn't surprise me - yet it does, all at the same time.
    I know what it feels like to be on a good path, and I know what it feels like when I've traveled too far out in the weeds.  I just want to get back on a good path again.  If numbering my days helps, that's what I will do.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Day 1:  5/21/20

    I don’t want to forget this headache.
    A headache is telling us something is wrong.
    So many people think they can just take painkillers, and that a headache is no big deal.  But they mean something.  There is no doubt what this one is telling me.

    I don’t even want to talk about yesterday.  I don’t know WTF has come over me - gluten is the one thing I have really successfully stayed away from since 2012.  There is good reason for that.
    If you had a beautiful new plant growing out in the sun, would you dump donuts all around its base, and expect that to do good things?  What about a bun?
    Well, that just sounds ridiculous, now, doesn’t it?
    You might put meat or eggs or fruits or veggies there - and expect that it would get some nutrients.
    We don’t show LOVE to ourselves or others with donuts and buns.
    Love is wanting what’s best.
    I work hard to make sure we can afford 100% ground-up animals to feed my dogs their raw carnivorous diet.  I don’t give them things they wouldn’t find in nature.
    The dogs deserve better?
    I don't think so.
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    Thanks for being here, ladies.  
    Perhaps I will just strive to keep beating my own record here.  
    I could have done without this break in between ... but perhaps it was necessary.  A good reminder of "the dark side".
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    Brewer5 got a reaction from ShadowInTheKitchen in Like an Onion   
    Day 1:  5/21/20

    I don’t want to forget this headache.
    A headache is telling us something is wrong.
    So many people think they can just take painkillers, and that a headache is no big deal.  But they mean something.  There is no doubt what this one is telling me.

    I don’t even want to talk about yesterday.  I don’t know WTF has come over me - gluten is the one thing I have really successfully stayed away from since 2012.  There is good reason for that.
    If you had a beautiful new plant growing out in the sun, would you dump donuts all around its base, and expect that to do good things?  What about a bun?
    Well, that just sounds ridiculous, now, doesn’t it?
    You might put meat or eggs or fruits or veggies there - and expect that it would get some nutrients.
    We don’t show LOVE to ourselves or others with donuts and buns.
    Love is wanting what’s best.
    I work hard to make sure we can afford 100% ground-up animals to feed my dogs their raw carnivorous diet.  I don’t give them things they wouldn’t find in nature.
    The dogs deserve better?
    I don't think so.
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    Brewer5 reacted to Blueautumn in Like an Onion   
    I was about to say the same thing about peanuts lol, If i ever have to get you a treat I know what to bring you  
    Hope your toe is recovering alright. Not sure how often you are going in but I am planning to throw in a chunk of veggies or snackable things in the work fridge so that Ill have something to go tackle if the stress just strikes or I have a strong desire to stuff something in my face.
    Sending hugs and happy thoughts for everything.
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    Brewer5 reacted to BabyBear in Like an Onion   
    @Brewer5 peanuts! It starts and ends with peanuts with some peanuts in between... hmmmm  a source of convenience or is it something more 
    okay I’m done horsing around.  Revisit your goals set some new ones if need be and give yourself some credit... you didn’t have McDonald’s all day everyday.  You didn’t run off with bowl of cookies cackling they’re mine all mine... it could have been so much worse.  Give you’re next week some definition what do you want it to really look like?  Do you want it to look like a whole 30 with some compliant ingredient treats mixed in, do you want it to look like Whole Foods with an allowable splurge do you want it to just simply be that you are mindful and a willing participant of everything that goes in your mouth.  This is your turn to determine what healthy looks like for you tomorrow and the next day after that.  I hope part of that includes these boards!  
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    Brewer5 reacted to Blueautumn in Autumns' R1 Whole30 Log   
    First off my start date will be 5/24

    I am committing now and starting the log now so that I can get out some of my thoughts around the whole process and try to align my mindset to the place it needs to be to go forward with making a change like this. The goal is not to just make it through the 30 days. Due to a multitude of health issues including high blood pressure, diabetes, migraines, arthritis - autoimmune, muscle pain, poor sleep, lack of energy, brain fog, morbidly obese, ETC These changes will need to be serious and focused. In the past I have noticed that if i eat better for even a short amount of time my pain gets a lot better and obviously the other things start to improve by default with the increase in good food and the decrease in the absolute trash i normally eat. 

    This means I currently plan on doing a very slow reintroduction period to see if I can pinpoint the things that cause the most problems for me. I know there is a good chance it will target alot of my favorite foods but it could just be an accumulation of all the trash over the years with the lack of exercise and the increase in weight just causing all sorts of problems. Maybe I will get lucky and I wont have a reaction to a lot of stuff but even if I do the plan at least for the next foreseeable future is to make sure I stick as close to the whole30 plan as long as possible. I meet with my DR this week to get new blood work done and to find out what things she would like me to track for both our reference. There are a few meds I would like to get off and I would like to have children in the next few years and all my doctors agree that I need to get my other health things under better control - if possible - before I try.

    Over the years I have become a master of excuses for not doing things or for doing things I know arent in my best interest. "I will start tomorrow" has been my life motto for longer than I could have imagined. I will exercise later. I wont eat trash at dinner. I'll write that book when I wake up. I wont binge watch netflix on the couch for 12 hours on my days off. I just turned 32 and it is def time for a change or I doubt ill be around for too much longer - and if I am, Im confident the quality of life will be questionable at best.

    Not to mention I have actually eaten total trash and justified it by saying the world could end soon and I wont be able to eat it - yep that really happened. I should def eat that pizza and pint of choco icecream right now because what if i cant get it next week! (Ever eaten 3 pints of icecream in a day? I have. And that includes all my normal meals thats like dessert for each one. A pint = one serving of course, obviously.) And for some reason I convinced myself at some point that every meal needs a sweet element at the end....pretty sure thats an issue

    Unlike many people on here I have basically no responsibilities except work and my hubby does all the housework and cooking and stuff so I just need to tell him what I want/need and he will make sure it happens.  Unfortunately he really hates to see me upset ( I mean i guess thats a good thing lol) which makes it hard for him to say no to me if i just decide I want to eat whatever I want. I am an adult though so i need to take all the responsibility for my current place in life.

    One thing I heard recently that has really struck home is that accountability isnt for negative things. Its really just taking responsibility for the fact that you have to take the next steps. IE it doesnt matter who/what is at fault for where you are right now, only you can do what is necessary to move yourself forward. Id like to believe my health isnt wholly my fault but Im an adult, I know what i need to do, no one forces me to do anything, its def mostly wholly my fault lol.

    I also have an extremely volatile relationship with food as a whole which I am hoping to understand better throughout this process. I have always been an emotional eater - I eat when Im bored, happy, sad, angry, stressed, you know all the feels! We were super poor growing up and once I started making money it basically all goes towards food (that will be a happy side effect saving the money I normally spend on eating out all the time.) It is my answer to everything and I have a big problem with portion control at this point as well. God knows when the last time I was ACTUALLY hungry was.

    I will also be starting a detailed journal - which may or may not fully make it on here but most will posted on here especially since i realized how helpful it was to read other ppls journeys and it will serve as a good resource for me to refer back to as well. At the moment the plan is to monitor my sleep, food, blood sugar, blood pressure, pain levels and locations, and any exercise. I currently dont exercise at all but I know its something that needs to slowly be worked in.

    Current goals
    -improve energy levels 
    -clear up some of this brain fog (I feel like i forget alot of things that have just been told to me) and concentration ability
    -decrease fasting blood sugar (by any amount at this point)
    -make it through the first 30 days (milestone one here) though there is a good chance it will become a W60 or 90 depending on what my doctor wants as a priority before reintroductions
    -1st week no exercise goals, 2nd week 2xweek at least 10 mins, 3rd week 3x week at least 10 mins. (I have a recumbent bike that is sitting in my bedroom unused - its easy on the joints and I can do hop onto it without a lot of preparation so the barrier is very low)
    -reduction in joint pain (currently off my immune suppressants due to covid but I have seen improvement in the pain from food choices in the past)
     
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    Brewer5 reacted to BabyBear in A Very Hungry Mommy and Baby W30 R2.2   
    Day 2 R2.2  I eat what I want
     
    7:15 up with baby.  Got him to the potty and changed and fed.  I was tempted to go back to bed, but I’m going to do some loving movement for my body instead to see if I can’t work out some of these sore muscles.
    8:30 M1 - 3 eggs with chili powder oregano cooked in Bacon fat, sautéed coleslaw mix with coconut aminos and sriracha sauce. Mandarin
    12:00-2:00 nap. I was feeling so exhausted I couldn’t keep my eyes open.
    2:30 S1 3 dill pickles, 1 Granny Smith apple, 1 tbs almond butter
    In searching for what I might eat for lunch I got distracted and started cleaning the fridge so I ate a snack while cleaning out the fridge.  
    Exercise: BOD Barre Blend 20 min prep video.  Holly Toledo Batman that was intense.  I made it through it, I couldn’t have done that 5 months ago.  
    7:00 M2 - chicken stir fry with carrots, broccoli, water chestnuts, snap peas, and bell peppers.  Salad with cucumber, tomato, bell peppers and creamy Italian dressing from MelJoulwan (really good dressing)
    https://meljoulwan.com/2011/01/25/tangy-goodness-creamy-italian-dressing/

    Hubby brought home pizza and spaghetti for him and boys.  The smell of pizza hit my nostrils and my eyes rolled back into my head and I had to say to myself “STOP” before you dive head first into the pizza do you really want it?  Oh yes I want it.  I know you want it, but do you really really want it? Do you want it more than your goal of completing a whole 30?  Do you want it more than the control over food you are working to establish?  Do you want the pizza more than freedoms from cravings? Do you want pizza more than health?  Pizza isn’t going any where, it will be there when you want it, really want it and when it doesn’t conflict with immediate goals.  After answering those questions it was easy to say no to the pizza and enjoy my food without feeling deprived in the least.  So big steps are being made toward food freedom this round.  
    I spent the rest of the evening cuddled on the couch with hubby watching TV.  I soaked in an Epsom salt bath for 30 min before calling it a night.    It was a nice way to end the day.
    Water 109oz