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    Day 11:  4/24/20
    Woke up this morning “aware” of my heart … whether you call it pounding or palpitations, doesn’t matter - anytime I am “feeling” my heart like this, I know it’s time to focus on hydration - and more specifically, electrolytes.
    This is not a new feeling for me, but it’s one I haven’t experienced for some time.  It’s not anxiety, but it can be misconstrued as such - and that is not a path I choose to go down.  I am going to go back in the house and check my ketones after I get done typing this.  I would be shocked if I’m not registering an amount well over 0.1 mmol /L- which is where I would be if I were not in ketosis.
    So, I instinctively grabbed a banana from the counter.  This is WAY earlier than I’ve normally been eating - and probably not the best way to start my day.  I got halfway through, and had zero desire to finish it.
    I also made my coffee with 1/3 decaf, and I would assume that will be my new norm.  I’ve been feeling the need coming to make that transition for a couple of days now.  There is no “need” for the high amount of caffeine when I start burning ketones.
    And I had a shot of Lyte Show in water.  This is a simple mix of electrolytes - sodium, potassium, magnesium, etc - and no extra crap in there.  I discovered Lyte Show years ago, and it has been a life saver.  So many of the symptoms of “carb flu” that people go through are completely unnecessary, if you know how to manage it.  (I did not, when I first made my journey into keto long ago - and there was a lot of this heart stuff I went through, before I understood what was going on.)
    I will not report every time I use Lyte Show.  Just like I don’t report my coffee or sparkling water.  It’s just going to be a part of my day, when I feel like I need it.  I also will just EAT 1/4 tsp of Redmond Real Salt sometimes.  My biggest clue that I need sodium is when I have symptoms of orthostatic hypotension.  No, heavily salting your food sometimes is NOT enough.  Yes, I just straight-up eat salt. 

    6:50 am:  1/2 banana

    Ha - it’s been so long since I’ve used my monitors, I first had to go on a treasure hunt through my house to find them.  Tucked away together in a box with a bunch of other random crap that got cleaned off the kitchen counter at some point in time.
    My ketone strips expired in August 2019.  Don’t care - will use them anyway.  Registered at 0.4 mmol/L … this was about 30 minutes after that banana.  That sounds about right, based on how I am feeling.  I didn’t measure my glucose.  I just don’t feel the need.  It doesn’t tell me nearly as much as I once thought it did.
    It's now a little over an hour since I woke up - and the heart stuff calmed down awhile ago.  I feel great.  It takes me a long time to type this stuff out.  I'm a deep thinker, and a perfectionist.
    HEY - Day 11 is here ... and it was my goal to get through at least 11 days - remember?!  Well, I'm almost there.  And zero signs of slowing down.
    Have a great day, all.   
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    Day 8:  4/21/20
    FaceTime job interview this morning at 10:30.  Making myself STOP at two cups of coffee, so I can relax and sit still for it.  Probably should have stopped at one.

    12:50 pm:  W30 harvest chicken frozen meal w/ ghee and salt

    Job interview went well, and I’m going to give it a try.  It might take just one shift for me to go: “WHAT was I thinking?!”  Lol.  But I am excited about getting back out there in the world of nursing … and I’m not sure I thought I’d ever say that again.  “Excited”.  Hmmm.  Looks like someone’s outlook is changing.  

    In all seriousness - perhaps the key to me keeping my mental clarity and sanity as a nurse really IS going to be eating W30.  For real.

    7:20 pm:  Five Guys - hamburger patties, lettuce, grilled onions, tomato, Tessamae’s ranch - diced potatoes w/ ghee and herbamare seasoning

    Overall ~ a good, sunny day.  No cravings to speak of.  Two meals, I just noticed.  And no snacks.  It's all coming together.
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    Day 6:  4/19/20 (cont)
    11:50 am:  sausage and eggs
    I have felt really, really GOOD today - almost reluctant to eat anything and slow myself down.  But my husband cooked, so - you just don't turn down compliant food that someone else has cooked for you on W30.

    3:30 pm:  tuna salad w/ ranch, frozen blueberries, chopped macadamia nuts

    I’ve had some cravings here and there, but nothing unmanageable.  It’s more of a fleeting thought that comes and goes.  Last night, I had a moment where I really did want to have a glass of wine before bed - just to help unwind after some more frustration with one of my teens.  BUT - I had no desire to start my numbering over here again.  So, I didn’t.  I also knew I was going to get a short night of sleep already - and wine was NOT going to help that.  As it is ~ with no wine ~ I feel pretty great today. 

    7:15 pm:  chicken Caesar salad, diced potatoes w/ ghee and salt, glass of unsweetened almond milk

    10:30 pm:  an apple.  I don't eat apples often, and I don't usually eat this late ~ but it sounded good, so:  {shrug}

    I noticed today that my kids are so much happier since they are out of school.  But it's not just that - we’ve been limiting screens more, and getting into more of a routine instead of just the "coronavirus what-ever" we had fallen face first into.  AND the weather is getting nicer …slowly, but surely.  The youngest (13 and 15) are actually playing Legos together again … what?!  It reminds me of all those years we were homeschooling.  I feel like I’m getting my family back, in a way.  Thank you, coronavirus!    Hopefully there will be lots of good stories like this out there … because Lord knows, we’ve all seen plenty of bad.
    I am also painfully aware of how very true it is that when I am in a better place, this whole place is in a better place.  So I definitely owe some thanks to Whole 30, as well.
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    DAY 6:  4/19/20
    I miss my friends here - @BabyBear and @Amy_Michigan.  I once needed their support, like a parent running along next to me when first learning how to ride a bike.  Now I’m cruising along down the street, on my own … but I sure wish I could look side-to-side and see some pals pedaling along with me.  I don’t honestly care (although I DO care) if they have their baskets full of doughnuts and fountain pops from the gas station.  That’s the beauty of friendship - you’re there for each other and you like the company, no matter what else is going on in life.

    I’ve found my thoughts clearing.  Big time.  It’s subtle, yet it’s huge.  This is the place I could recently “remember being” ~ but wasn’t able to find my way back, somehow.  Now I look back and it scares me, to see where I was.  Now I am remembering a different recent me - one who, at times, felt hopeless.  I felt gross.  I felt like I had no control over my own body and mind.  And I was stuck in a vicious cycle of LIES.  We tell ourselves lies, you know - especially in that state.  Things ring though our heads ... I have one in particular that I will share with you now:
    It was 2014.  That is the year I found W30 and cleaned up my Paleo/gluten-free style of eating.  I hadn’t smoked, or had any nicotine, for some time.  I’d been working out at the gym with an award-winning bodybuilder as my trainer.  I didn't know it at the time - but I was looking pretty hot.
    My husband and I were talking to my dad on a camping trip.  He had just been to the doctor, had some not-great feedback in regards to his health.  And we tried to (gently ... always gently) talk to him about his diet.  It ended in him telling us that we were “still in our prime” and that “all of the women in your family end up with huge asses” - and then he proceeded to name some names.  {I know you’re saying, “WHAT?!  GIRRRL…. Oh, no he didn’t!”}
     
    YES.  He did.
     
    And it felt at the time that he was dismissing our hard work.  My husband and I have both brought it up several times since then - jokingly, to each other - “well, you know, we are just in our prime…”
    I can see now (and probably could see then) that his comments were NOT about ME.
    But I have found myself recently thinking, “Well. Dad was right. This is how it feels to be 41.”
    I’ve felt so defeated lately - and do you know how hard it is to gather your strength ... roll over, wounded, on the bloody battlefield ... and pull a weapon out from under some other poor dead bloke, and KEEP FIGHTING?!
    Yes.  Of course you do.  Anyone here who is reading this journal right now, knows exactly what I am talking about.
    So I've realized:  I’m a fighter.  I don’t stop moving until I’m dead.  And I can thank my mama for the mouth of a sailor ~ because, to all of those defeatist thoughts I've had lately, I can confidently look at them now and say:  FUCK THAT.
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    Look at you go!  I’m so proud of you!!!!  
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    Day 27:  5/10/20

    I have had some things popping up on this W30 journey that I don’t think I’ve talked about here yet.  I have felt so good in other areas, I haven’t wanted to address it just yet.
    I had a Baker’s cyst in the back of my knee years ago, when my kids were little - and one day at the library, it ruptured.  That was a feeling quite unlike anything I’d ever experienced.  I was convinced that something was terribly wrong, and all I could think was that I had a blockage - a blood clot somewhere that was going to kill me.  It might not make any sense to me now, but at the time I was convinced that I was going to die, so I went to the ER.  They told me what was going on, I went home and elevated the leg, and soon all was well.
    That feeling in the back of my knee flares up sometimes - and I haven’t been able to pinpoint the cause, exactly.  It seemed to happen when I would try to go back to carnivore - and that is part of what has kept me from it.
    But now … I am not eating what I would consider meat-heavy, at all, and yet it has been an ongoing issue.
    So there is inflammation.  That is the bottom line.  I want to point my finger at potatoes, but I wasn’t eating potatoes on carnivore.

    NOW I have had something new - a feeling (pain) in my right elbow.  It’s gone on long enough that I don’t feel that this is an acute injury … and I never did.  It’s more inflammation, and this time in a new place.  I’ve been able to live my daily life … but, if I were really trying to do things with that right arm - like lifting weights, mowing the yard, using my chainsaw - all of those things that I love - then this would REALLY be pissing me off.
    (As I'm typing this, there's a feeling in my left pinky, like pins and needles.  WTF...)

    I’m not sure, at this moment, at 7:35 am on Mother’s Day, what I’m going to do about it.  I don’t know how I want to proceed.  I feel like I’m getting back to that place of “I don’t know what to eat” and “I wish I just didn’t have to eat” because W30 limits so many things (and rightfully so) - and then I have to narrow it down even further, because I have issues with so many plant foods, for one reason or another.

    I think possibly no one is going to read this today.  Lol.  But, if you are out there reading - I hope you have a nice, relaxing Mother’s Day.
    I have decided to give myself the day off - no attempting to do my work on the computer.  I am behind on hours, but I can play catch-up starting tomorrow.
    Today I want to put down new flooring in the kitchen.  And so, I shall.  My joints might be unhappy with me ... but they can get over it.   
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    Day 27:  5/10/20 (cont)

    1:30 pm:  piece of salmon w/ ghee, air fryer steak fries

    8:50 pm:  Five Guys two patties, grilled onions, lettuce, tomato, air fryer steak fries w/ ranch

    Clearly I didn’t decide to cut out potatoes today.
    I did have a good, productive day - got about 1/3 of the kitchen floor done.  I felt great doing it, but ever since I decided to sit down and eat supper, I’m feeling it in my lower back.
    Getting old sucks.  
    I don't think it has much to do with my age, though.  I'm just not as strong as I used to be.  My body isn't used to all of this.  Part of what I loved about weightlifting was that when you progressively build up that kind of muscle - it makes everyday activities so much easier ... like nothing.  I miss that.
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    Sorry for the Mortal Kombat reference, it felt appropriate.
    Round 4, day 1!
    If you've played along in previous rounds, you might know that I suffer from vestibular migraines which cause chronic vertigo and I first 'cured' them 18 months ago with Whole30. 
    Unfortunately I also suffer from a distinct lack of willpower and the uncanny ability to let myself get sucked back into the vortex and put up with the suck that is permanent vertigo for the sake of laziness and convenience.
    So here I am again. Monday, first day. Thanks to the lockdown I have absolutely no social engagements for the forseeable future and no reason not to do a round!
    Started the day with coffee with almond milk. I was a black coffee girl but making coffee at home means it needs a little something, I miss the work coffee machine.
    Meal 1: 2 poached eggs on spicy saurkraut with mayo
    Meal 2: Tuna salad (tuna, dill pickles, mayo) in lettuce cups
    Meal 3: Steak, grilled sweet potato, roasted veggie medley (radish, carrot, brussel sprouts) with olive oil and dukkah
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    Yay!  That is wonderful to hear!  Good luck with the new job To get my mind off of my own job stress and worries, I've been walking everyday and doing Spanish lessons.  Only 3 days in...hope I can keep up this up because goal achievement feels really good!!!
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    Day 23:  5/6/20

    9:00 am:  banana

    1:45 pm:  1/2 chicken breast, 1/2 diced potato

    6:30 pm:  1/2 chicken breast, 1/2 diced potato

    First full shift back at nursing.  It was good!
    BUSY … what a dumb word.  Doesn’t quite cover it.  Lol.
    But good.
    I really, really love caring for these people.  Feels like a part of me awakened that has been sleeping.
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    Day 16:  4/29/20 (cont)

    11:00 am:  two burgers w/ ghee and salt

    2:35 pm:  banana and 1 oz. raw macadamia nuts

    4:35 pm:  diced potatoes cooked in ghee w/ avocado ranch

    10:00 pm:  two chicken breasts, sliced potatoes cooked in ghee, all topped w/ buffalo ranch

    It’s going to be one of those weird times where I pretty much just post my food.  Today was fine - just busy. 
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    Day 16:  4/29/20

    First:  Let’s get this out of the way.
    I DID end up finishing the bag of raw almonds last night - this was probably 2-3 oz. WITH an undetermined amount of raisins.
    I knew the potential was there - it was such a tasty combo, and I hadn’t had anything like that for a bit.  “Wow, this could be dangerous…” I thought to myself.
    Yes, yes it could.
    So the almonds are gone, and I won’t be buying any more.
    I majorly passed out on the couch - “slept in” until close to 7:00 - and woke up, of course not feeling great, with just stupid thoughts going through my head:  “This is why I always give up, I can eat W30 foods and still feel like shit…” etc. etc.
    And that is just ridiculous.
    Let’s not throw the baby out with the bath water here.
    Time for personal responsibility:
    I KNOW that nuts and seeds - pretty much ALL nuts and seeds - should be out of my life.  I did an entire W30 not allowing ANY nuts and seeds - it was that important.
    I KNOW I have histamine intolerance - and raisins are at the top of the list re: histamine-containing foods.
    So wtf did you think was going to happen, dummy?  Lol.  I mean, really.
    A quick evaluation in my mind of HALT: Was I Hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired? reveals the answer pretty quickly:  I was TIRED.  I had already started to doze off at my computer after the too-late bowl of supper - and got up and “grabbed a snack” - thinking it would help me plow through and finish the school work I was in the middle of.
    To quote Samuel L. Jackson and a wonderful children’s book  :  Go the fuck to sleep.
    Old habits die hard.  But new habits are where the gold is.
    In the time it's taken me to type this out - I've moved on and forgiven myself already.  See how easy that was?!  It's a beautiful new day - I am halfway-through a Whole 30 - and I have a lot to be thankful for in my life.  Now, I get on with living it.  Have a glorious day!
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    Haha...Oops.  Just trying to say I felt bad you may have eaten something that didnt make you feel the best... anyway, very cool that you live in the Indianapolis area and we are both midwesterners.  I don't think I have ever visited Indiana.  Ohio and Wisconsin- yes.  I haven't had an excuse to go to many other midwestern states.  I decided after studying abroad in college that I wanted to appreciate where I live more and explore every corner of the cities I live in and keep travel within my state for the most part and cherish moments with family instead of leaving them behind again.  I know I'm missing out on a lot of wonderful parks and other touristy places doing that, so maybe eventually I will change my tune, but that has kind of been my motto unless my work sends me somewhere.  
    Anyway, I love the vibe and energy you are giving off in your posts lately!  You are rocking it!  It is a bit contagious, I feel!  And the weather is beautiful today, so that helps!
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    At first I thought you meant that green beans aren't compliant - and I thought, oh geez, did they change the rules on this one?  Lol.  No ... no, they did not.  So while they are perfectly acceptable on a W30 - no, they are not a good choice for me.  I don't think I mentioned that canned green beans cause my blood sugar to spike (I know, that sounds weird, but it is true) - and I had SO much trouble keeping my eyes open after I ate that meal.  It was ridiculous.  Not worth it.  I'm used to feeling pretty mentally clear now, and that was not the right food for it.
    I should be writing a book.  I have several books inside me.    
    And I hear you - there are a variety of factors that all have to (at least sort of) come together in order to be healthy and successful overall.  A huge turning point for me was the change in the weather.  I live not too far from you - Indianapolis vicinity (although not too close, thank God) - so you and I are suffering the same shitty weather / consequences of being too far north.  I realized recently I really feel my best in about the 2 months leading up to summer solstice (June 20-22) and the 2 months after.  This is a rough timeline ... but it's pretty much my reality.  That's 4 good months out of the year, and the rest is just: "ugh".
    I choose right now not to be depressed about it ~ but to make the very most of the good time that I have.
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    Day 14:  4/27/20

    Up on my own at 5:45 am today … okay, I guess this is good as I begin to think about going back into nursing - where day shift generally starts at 6:00 or 7:00 am.  I don’t feel tired, or wired … just awake and ready to start my day.  So, {shrug}.  Cool.

    10:40 am:  bacon and eggs, brahmi ghee in my coffee
    I was feeling pretty overstimulated after a big online quiz.  I wouldn’t have started it at that moment if I had known what I was getting into.  The brahmi ghee is W30 approved, and supposed to be calming, so I tried it in my coffee for the first time.  Not bad ~ and might have helped.  Eating {and taking a step away from the school work for awhile} helped, too. 

    5:00 pm:  burger, W30 frozen meal, tri-color cole slaw veggie mix w/ avocado ranch

    8:00 pm:  burger, cole slaw w/ ranch, HB eggs w/ mayo

    SO happy to have groceries again!
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    Day 14:  4/27/20 (cont)
    9:30 pm:  1 oz raw almonds w/ raisins - (I didn't measure the raisins, but I didn't go too crazy with them )
    --
    Had a call today from a recruiter - a LTC staffing agency.  My aunt gave her my name, so I know the lady is "super nice" and it's legit.  Offering to pay considerably more than the already-good rate I negotiated with the one I just signed up with.  I can be employed by both of them ... I can be signed up with however many PRN jobs I want.  ...How many jobs do I want?  That is the question.
    So ~ feeling a little overwhelmed today.  We do need the money - and there are many parts of nursing that I do love.  It feels like a part of myself has been missing, on one hand - and on the other hand, I've been free to explore other paths and consider what I really want to do, and what kind of work is best for my personality.  We have also gotten a ton of projects done around the house (although there are always plenty more).
    Having the kids home has been an overall good thing.  Not being able to go work at my desk in the office with my employer - in my clutter-free, and mostly distraction-free little nook - has overall not been a good thing.  I feel like I get no real downtime ... like I'm "on" all the time.  There are a million things to do, everywhere I look.  Part of this is also starting this new degree.  I sometimes think, what in the world was I thinking?
    Well.  I sure as hell wasn't thinking that the world was going to get turned upside down.  So.  I'm trying to grant myself some grace with the new school program.  I can, for the most part, work at my own pace.  Note: I said "pace".  I don't think you have a pace if you are standing still.  I have to be at least moving forward.  Lol.
    All of this has nothing to do with food.  The past 2 weeks I have felt considerably better - my mood has been better, my energy, my mental clarity.  Sometimes I feel like I can take on the world - and that's great!  But that can also be dangerous.  I don't want to be juggling so many balls in the air that just ONE more ball thrown at me sends them all crashing down.
    --
    I think what I really need is to shut up and get a good night of sleep.  
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    Day 12:  4/25/20

    Waking *on my own* as the sun starts coming up … man, this is a good sign.  Normally the puppy wakes me up - HER circadian rhythm has never been off.  “Whine, whine, whine, whine…”.  That is what has been my alarm clock, for months now.  And normally I've been like:  “okay, okay, I hear you!”
    Today I woke at 6:20 am, feeling well-rested and ready to go.  Not only that - last night I found myself thinking that I was happy to go to sleep, because I was really looking forward to getting up and starting a new day.
    Now … I need to pause right there.
    I need to point out that - just a couple of weeks ago - I applied to a couple of nursing jobs thinking, “Oh well, if coronavirus takes me out, shit happens, WTF-ever.”
    I was not feeling suicidal - and please don’t read it that way.  I have never been suicidal.  Life is a GIFT, my children are a GIFT - and I generally have a deep appreciation for it, and try to make the most of each day.
    But I felt really defeated.
    My days felt like an endless series of “trudging through”.

    I have wistfully remembered the summer of 2018 … when I was still in nursing school.  My class load was super light - one class - and I was not working.  I ate carnivore pretty much that entire summer.  I lived like a human - OUTSIDE most of the time - and shunning the artificial indoor light as much as possible, as if it were a disease.  Because it is.
    It was the first time in my life that I felt like I had a real, healthy, normal circadian rhythm.
    Well, what does that mean?  What difference does it make?
    It means EVERYTHING.  And it is a WORLD of difference.

    I started a book sometime in March, that remains unfinished.  Not because it isn’t good - it’s freaking great - but because I “got busy” {rolling my eyes} with other things.  {Truthfully, my mind was like a bunch of static on the radio.  It needed some turns of the dial to get back to beautiful, crisp, clear music.}
    He talks in this book about our body being like a computer.  What would happen if you tried to run a Mac program on a Windows computer?  And vice versa.  You get the idea.
    It made a lot of sense to me, then - but man, it REALLY makes a lot of sense to me now.
    We complicate things.  We humans get in our own way.  All the time.  Our bodies - no matter how you believe they were designed - they have a DESIGN.  We are amazing and complex machines, or computers - however you want to look at it - and we have an operating system, already built in.
    Would you skip several steps on assembling a piece of IKEA furniture, then stand around cursing about why it doesn’t look right?  Why it’s not sturdy?
    Well, that sounds ridiculous, doesn’t it?
    But it’s what we tend to do.  Some of us do it each and every day.

    So what happened?  What happened to me since this clarity in the summer of 2018?  Well, THAT is the great big onion.  I’ve been peeling back the layers to examine it, both here ~ and in my mind.
    I still have a lot I could say, but I’ll leave it at that for now.  I have a fresh new day to enjoy!  I hope you do the same.   
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    @Amy_Michigan ~ I was thinking about posting this earlier in the day, before I even read your post about "feeling" your heart.
    I was introduced to the Paleo way of eating way back in 2012, by a woman who was a serious bodybuilder ... along with her husband, who had won some awards across the globe.  They were NOT your typical "protein shake" bodybuilders ... they had been doing this for a long time, had even owned a gym where they trained others ... and they were all about fueling with real food.
    She said to me (and others) many times, that she had been learning about nutrition and her body for 20 years - and she knew her body very well.  She was able to pinpoint when something was "off" because she had learned her own body's signals, and she listened.
    At the time - I admit, it sort of went in one ear and out the other - I was probably sort of like, "Well, that's great for you - but WTF is going on with me?!"  Lol.  {Just give me the "fast track" to looking like YOU ... right?}   The truth is, she could give me gentle nudges in the right directions - but I had to have a lot of my OWN experiences in order to figure out what worked for me, and what did not.
    After I posted this morning, it dawned on me that now I AM her ... in the sense that I have been learning about nutrition and my own body for close to 20 years now. I DO know when something is "off" and I CAN pinpoint things - so much better than I used to be able to.  It is very cool that I knew what I needed to do, basically before my eyes were even open this morning.  And I've been great ever since!
    Thank you for popping in and sharing your thoughts ... and don't ever feel like you are posting too much.  I love the conversation.  And I LOVE helping others - who want the help.  As you remember from the story about my dad ... my days of unsolicited advice are pretty much over.  Lol.  That ship has sailed.  
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    And, sorry I didn't mention this, but I've had a weird heart skipping a beat or heart fluttering situation (something that makes me "feel/notice" the beats) that has freaked me out before in the past.  Always scary, and sorry to hear something like that happened to you.    At least you knew to try things that could help keep your body in balance.  I'm very impressed!
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    Yay, DAY 11!!!!  That is great!  I'm glad I'm back to logging in and reading your posts.  I'm still eating non-compliant foods, unfortunately, but inching my way closer to where I want to be because I've been making more paleo recipes and all of the snacks in the house that I liked are gone and I am NOT replacing them.  After I made hamburgers, my daughter asked if we could have them every week, and both of my kids finished theirs.  It am so happy when I am able to have my daughter finish a meal, especially including red meat.  I also made tuna salad with onions, celery, primal kitchen mayo, salt/pepper, and garlic powder....I used three 5oz cans of tuna and an entire package of celery.  I told my husband that he could eat one of the three containers I filled up because it was so much.  I will be eating tuna salad for lunch for about a week, I think.  But the only way I was going to make this tuna salad was cutting up the vegetables as soon as I got them delivered from the store.  Otherwise I would let them go bad.  And it worked! I made carrot fries the same day... so I'm eating a lot more veggies now.  Anyway, sorry for such a long update on your log.  Just want to say thanks for all of the food ideas   
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    Day 11:  4/24/20
    Woke up this morning “aware” of my heart … whether you call it pounding or palpitations, doesn’t matter - anytime I am “feeling” my heart like this, I know it’s time to focus on hydration - and more specifically, electrolytes.
    This is not a new feeling for me, but it’s one I haven’t experienced for some time.  It’s not anxiety, but it can be misconstrued as such - and that is not a path I choose to go down.  I am going to go back in the house and check my ketones after I get done typing this.  I would be shocked if I’m not registering an amount well over 0.1 mmol /L- which is where I would be if I were not in ketosis.
    So, I instinctively grabbed a banana from the counter.  This is WAY earlier than I’ve normally been eating - and probably not the best way to start my day.  I got halfway through, and had zero desire to finish it.
    I also made my coffee with 1/3 decaf, and I would assume that will be my new norm.  I’ve been feeling the need coming to make that transition for a couple of days now.  There is no “need” for the high amount of caffeine when I start burning ketones.
    And I had a shot of Lyte Show in water.  This is a simple mix of electrolytes - sodium, potassium, magnesium, etc - and no extra crap in there.  I discovered Lyte Show years ago, and it has been a life saver.  So many of the symptoms of “carb flu” that people go through are completely unnecessary, if you know how to manage it.  (I did not, when I first made my journey into keto long ago - and there was a lot of this heart stuff I went through, before I understood what was going on.)
    I will not report every time I use Lyte Show.  Just like I don’t report my coffee or sparkling water.  It’s just going to be a part of my day, when I feel like I need it.  I also will just EAT 1/4 tsp of Redmond Real Salt sometimes.  My biggest clue that I need sodium is when I have symptoms of orthostatic hypotension.  No, heavily salting your food sometimes is NOT enough.  Yes, I just straight-up eat salt. 

    6:50 am:  1/2 banana

    Ha - it’s been so long since I’ve used my monitors, I first had to go on a treasure hunt through my house to find them.  Tucked away together in a box with a bunch of other random crap that got cleaned off the kitchen counter at some point in time.
    My ketone strips expired in August 2019.  Don’t care - will use them anyway.  Registered at 0.4 mmol/L … this was about 30 minutes after that banana.  That sounds about right, based on how I am feeling.  I didn’t measure my glucose.  I just don’t feel the need.  It doesn’t tell me nearly as much as I once thought it did.
    It's now a little over an hour since I woke up - and the heart stuff calmed down awhile ago.  I feel great.  It takes me a long time to type this stuff out.  I'm a deep thinker, and a perfectionist.
    HEY - Day 11 is here ... and it was my goal to get through at least 11 days - remember?!  Well, I'm almost there.  And zero signs of slowing down.
    Have a great day, all.   
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    Day 10:  4/23/20
    Taking a moment to reflect.  I get up each day with the sunrise, and usually get some quiet time to think and work.  Part of my discombobulated feeling these past few days with work and school is that I gave my kids a bedtime - which was very much needed for my (and everyone’s) mental health.  So they’re now required to be in their rooms and quiet by 10:00 PM.  …Guess what is a result of me trying to get everyone on a better schedule?  Umm, they’re getting up earlier.  …Which is what I wanted.  Lol.  Be careful what you wish for! 
    Anyway - the sinus issues {knock on wood} seem to be about resolved.  I’m not sure when my ears bothered me last.  I haven’t woke up with a headache since a few days ago when I posted about that damned apple.  And I am no longer taking the allergy medicine.
    My fingers don’t feel or look as puffy as they were, and I don’t have arthritic feelings popping up.  I haven’t tried my wedding rings on, but I feel like it would have to go better than it has in recent past - which was: IF I could get them on, they were too tight and it gave me a little moment of panic.  Sometimes had to get them off by running my hands under cold water.
    My head isn’t itchy, my back isn’t itchy, and that random (but not so random) rash that pops up on my chest and back hasn’t bothered me this whole time.  I've got places on my chest that are healing.  It was REALLY flared up on previous W30 attempts, when I was eating a lot of pistachios.  I’ve pinpointed that this is a histamine issue - there could be more there to evaluate, but I’ll leave it at that for now.
    I’m not eating or drinking anything at the moment that falls into the “addiction” category - with the exception of coffee, of course.  I do drink a lot of coffee, and I may choose to be cremated with the new Wonder Woman mug I ordered for myself on Amazon  because it came with a little Wonder Woman coffee maker, and it was cheap, and I thought it was funny. 
    But my point here is that there isn’t anything that I am JAMMING in my mouth, like I’ve been known to do with pistachios, RX bars, and Larabars.  That’s a pretty huge shift.  I’ve been here before, in this glorious place ... several times.  But recently felt so out of control that I wasn’t sure I’d ever find my way back.  I want that to be a message of encouragement to anyone out there reading.  Know that however you are feeling right now - it CAN and WILL get better.  You just have to find what works out best for your body - and it is a process.  These things take time.  Look back to my eating patterns in the first few days vs. now.  I’ve settled into two meals per day - and that’s not by choice, necessarily.  I'm not "working at it".  It's not a struggle.  That’s a result of so many things in my body *calming down* … and me, being busy and productive in other areas of my life, and NOT thinking about food all the damn time.
    I'll end this morning's post with a question:  Will a coffee mug cremate?  I don't know.  And I'm not googling it.  I have other things to do.  I guess they can put part of me IN the mug.  That would be kind of cool.
    Have a great day, all!
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    Day 9:  4/22/20
    12:45 pm:  chicken Caesar salad w/ cherry tomatoes, HB eggs

    Probably waited too long to eat my first meal today.  Physically, I felt fine - but mentally, I "had a moment" of overwhelmed with (what sometimes feels like) everything and everyone coming at me.  I had a little bit of a cry after I ate my huge salad.  The cry seems to have been good and cleansing.  Now I’m holed up in my little study area, with Outlander soundtrack mildly blasting in my headphones ~ drowning out everything else around me.  Man, I love this music.  I just thought of using this music as a “coronavirus coping tool” today ... because I'm finding it very hard to concentrate on my work d/t all of the distractions.  It’s working.  {thumbs up}

    9:00 pm:  Epic beef/liver bites, diced potatoes cooked w/ Butcher Box bacon

    Overall - another good day.  We are getting a lot of home improvements done right now, and we have rented a dumpster for a week so that we can clean a bunch of stuff out.  So, not too much to say - just feeling good & productive.    
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    I needed to read this.  I'm puttering around saying, "Ok, I'm getting ready to start....ok, not now, but now....now....no wait, wait, now...." for the last week.  I have no excuses, I know how to do this.  Just need to get off the pot.  
    I haven't finished reading through so I don't know what happens, but thinking of light and hope for you and your family.  
     
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    Day 1 - unpacking my backpack
    {rummaging around} ... Let's see ... what all do I have in here?
    Too much to list.  
    I'm dumping it all out on the floor now, for a careful re-pack.
    ---
    My MIL is 66 years old, and as far as I can tell at this point - will be soon be leaving the tiny town, where she was born and has lived her entire life - to travel 795 miles, to come and live at our house.
    She is currently being evaluated at a mental health facility for at least a week.  What we have been told so far is: mild to moderate dementia.  There is a conference call scheduled for this afternoon with her care team, where they will share their findings and recommendations.  We've been told she cannot live alone when she leaves - she either needs to be with family, or in assisted living.
    She does not know this yet.
    She is convinced that she is going to get out & go stay with her 86-year-old mother again, who has been trying to care for her these past few weeks, since the paranoid delusions and hallucinations began ... or came to light.  Her mother has already stated that she cannot do it, which breaks her heart.  But she cannot.
    Perhaps I spent two years of my life in nursing school and became an RN for this moment right here.  That is what I have been telling myself.  Perhaps I worked 1200+ hours last year in long-term care ... for this moment, right here.  Because I do feel prepared ... I do have a pretty good idea of exactly what I am getting into.  I'm not scared.
    But you know what is scary?  The thought of ending up in the same boat, due to my lifestyle choices.
    Each day lately I've been going through the same infuriating cycle of starting out with the best of intentions, and then - "tomorrow I'll do this" and "tomorrow I'll do that".  What a load of crap.  
    Today IS tomorrow.  Time to get with the program.