Kristinmarta

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    Kristinmarta got a reaction from h e a t h e r in September 8th, anyone?   
    Thanks for the input everyone.  I read the Whole 30 Gone Bad article and while I didn't have the same type of disordered thought, I recognized it was getting bad.
     
    As the program continued, I was having more and more conflict around eating.  I just didn't want to do it.  Compliant food, no matter what shape or form, new or old stand-by, was not appealing.  I was eating less and less because I didn't like eating.  Things didn't taste palatable.  Around 3 days ago, I also began to be paralyzed as meal time approached because I hated the idea of eating- on program or off.  I would put off eating as long as possible (often hours) until I was giving myself headaches and my stomach was growling uncomfortably.  All food seemed like bad food.  I debated ending the Whole 30 a lot and thought a lot about my experience with the program. 
     
    So today, at lunch, I decided that I came as far as I was meant to go with this program, at this time.  It wasn't exciting (I ate a sandwich) and I am paranoid about adverse reactions.  But I feel like a weight as been lifted.  The Whole 30 was a useful exercise for a time and I hope to incorporate certain aspects into my life moving forward.  But then it started going off the rails.  I couldn't get out of bed for 2 hours this morning because I didn't want to have to face the day/eat anything.  Even before I got lunch today, I sat in my parked car for 45 minutes trying to decide what to do.  I didn't want to stop prematurely but things had taken a turn.  And it was time for me to end.
     
    Good luck to the rest of you.  Thanks for the support.
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    Kristinmarta reacted to fgermain in September 8th, anyone?   
    Kristinmarta-you are responsible for your well being, Kudos to you for taking care of youself. This program is not about suffering, it's a learning process. Keep up your self care!
    Well I'm out of the Hormone Fog....7 days.
    I'm feeling good. No major challenges to speak of. I am going to continue on for 60 for sure. I think my eating habits need a bit more time to
    change. This program has got me off my couch & cooking, and my goal is to get back to
    exercising regularly.
    DAY 22!!!
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    Kristinmarta reacted to Britishgal in September 8th, anyone?   
    Kristinmarta...take care and you can always try again in the future if you feel you want to. Even doing up to this point will be beneficial. It's a learning process xx
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    Kristinmarta reacted to h e a t h e r in September 8th, anyone?   
    Kristinmarta - it is ok that this did not work for you right now, please be kind to yourself. 
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    Kristinmarta reacted to ladyshanny in September 8th, anyone?   
    Kristenmarta ~ you made the best decision possible for yourself, I think.  Whole30 will always be here, ready and willing to take you back with open arms....when YOU are ready for it. 
     
    Best wishes to you!
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    Kristinmarta got a reaction from h e a t h e r in September 8th, anyone?   
    Thanks for the input everyone.  I read the Whole 30 Gone Bad article and while I didn't have the same type of disordered thought, I recognized it was getting bad.
     
    As the program continued, I was having more and more conflict around eating.  I just didn't want to do it.  Compliant food, no matter what shape or form, new or old stand-by, was not appealing.  I was eating less and less because I didn't like eating.  Things didn't taste palatable.  Around 3 days ago, I also began to be paralyzed as meal time approached because I hated the idea of eating- on program or off.  I would put off eating as long as possible (often hours) until I was giving myself headaches and my stomach was growling uncomfortably.  All food seemed like bad food.  I debated ending the Whole 30 a lot and thought a lot about my experience with the program. 
     
    So today, at lunch, I decided that I came as far as I was meant to go with this program, at this time.  It wasn't exciting (I ate a sandwich) and I am paranoid about adverse reactions.  But I feel like a weight as been lifted.  The Whole 30 was a useful exercise for a time and I hope to incorporate certain aspects into my life moving forward.  But then it started going off the rails.  I couldn't get out of bed for 2 hours this morning because I didn't want to have to face the day/eat anything.  Even before I got lunch today, I sat in my parked car for 45 minutes trying to decide what to do.  I didn't want to stop prematurely but things had taken a turn.  And it was time for me to end.
     
    Good luck to the rest of you.  Thanks for the support.
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    Kristinmarta got a reaction from bunny0venger in September 8th, anyone?   
    I started menu planning today and got overwhelmed.  I don't want to eat the same thing over and over for 30 days.  But I also don't trust myself to make different options.  I liked the idea in the Well Fed books of doing a weekly cook-up- cooking protein, sautéing veggies- so they are easily accessible for packing lunches and heating up for dinner.  And trying with different whole30 approved sauces/spices to change the flavor.  I will be refining today and tomorrow before I head off for grocery shopping.  
     
    Does anyone have any staples or suggestions?
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    Kristinmarta reacted to ladyshanny in September 8th, anyone?   
    I have a bit of a different feeling about Tiger Blood and I think that the Hartwigs might've discussed this but I can't find the article right now. I think sometimes people are doing the Whole30 and expecting the Tiger Blood experience to make them feel like a different person. I really think that the whole Tiger Blood thing is more about feeling like yourself and less about feeling like a wild animal that is able to conquer All The Things.
    For me, I think I'm in Tiger Blood stage....but all it means for me is that my mood is balanced, my energy is consistent from morning until night, my sleep is between decent and awesome, I'm able to let small stressors roll off my back because my body isn't overworked dealing with booze and sugar. I feel......good. Stable. Consistent. Balanced. Well.
    I still don't overly want to race out into the dark morning (or evening at this point) and run 10km, I would still rather sip tea on the couch at the end of the day and watch PVR with my husband. I'm still just me.....but I feel better...and the "better" is only noticeable because of the enormous bag of crap I was feeling like...but didn't even notice.
    I would probably make the same suggestions to those having unchecked cravings.....get out the fat and start eating...the more protein and fat that you eat, the less room there is for cravings. Or post your food plan and ask for help from a moderator, it could be a really simple little fix that gets you over the hump into good-better-best.
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    Kristinmarta reacted to PuffinsMuffins in September 8th, anyone?   
    Hi all,
     
    I have been hiding out due to some grumpiness that usually manifests itself in me as isolationist tendencies.  Apparently, it would have done be a lot of good to check in here, as many of you seem to be having the same feelings.  I am sorry/happy to hear that others are struggling with mood still.
     
    My rashes have finally cleared up.  People have started commenting on the fact I've lost weight, which is nice.  My complexion is looking WAY better.  So, I guess I am seeing the positives.  I am still dragging a bit.  My biggest challenges have been exercising (in that I am not) and hitting the meal template. 
     
    I think I made the worst meal ever known to man on Monday evening.  It was truly craptacular.  I followed a gravy recipe from brittanyangell.com.  It.  Was.  Horrific.  So help me, I should know better than to follow recipes from a grown woman who features a picture of herself wearing a tutu as the masthead for her webpage.
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    Kristinmarta reacted to phantommeb in September 8th, anyone?   
    Tonight the fiance and I get to finally celebrate our halfway point of Whole 30 (even though that was Monday) with STEAK!!  We bought some really nice steaks from a local butcher and have been dry aging them for a couple of days.  I am pretty excited to get my steak on tonight! Om nom nom nom.
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    Kristinmarta got a reaction from fgermain in September 8th, anyone?   
    Ventre123 & laxmom63- I am going to try both the coffee and the chai.  Yum.
     
    I feel like I have turned a corner.  Feeling a little more positive generally.  Things haven't evened out entirely but I don't hate everything all the time anymore, haha.
     
    Also, here's to small victories.  I tried on a dress that last time I wore it, I felt like a little sausage.  Today is felt much better.
     
    Onward Day 12!
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    Kristinmarta reacted to Britishgal in September 8th, anyone?   
    Definitely doing more than 30 days but it's one of my best friends 40ths just after this one so I'm making the decision to drink a few gins and maybe a glass of champers that night.
    Then I will start whole30 eating again...
    I found very little was worth returning to after last time (June). Chocolate and sweet things are bland, fast food is horrid, my old love diet coke makes me gag and pasta leaves me exhausted. Only dairy (not milk as it has always made me ill and so I loath it...so cheese, cream etc) and the occasional gin or fantastic fresh bread with honey is worth it really.
    I'm hoping after one more I can maybe eat whole30 most of the time and the occasional fabulous non whole30 food when it is truly worth it. As a former almost lifelong eating disorder sufferer from a family where 2 generations before me, inc both my parents, had eating disorders that would be a true achievement
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    Kristinmarta got a reaction from ladyshanny in September 8th, anyone?   
    Thanks everyone.  I appreciate the kind words.  I see a therapist regularly.  I am familiar with my symptoms and when things are bad, I tend to mostly sleep a lot.  That's what happened today.  I was on the couch, asleep on an off until 3.  Then I took a shower.  Then I got into bed.  I slept for another 45 minutes.  And then went grocery shopping.  I am counting it a big success that I left the house.  At least I have food for this week.  I am just sick of this being a thing.  
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    Kristinmarta reacted to Rkrzywda in September 8th, anyone?   
    I watched Fed Up last Sunday. It is so sad. How people think wheat thins are health food and that one mom who cried giving up her chocolate to save her son's life. I also never knew that there were schools with fast food resteraunts in them. Thank goodness none around here do.
    Yesterday I went to a "celebration of life" ceremony for our neighbor. It was supposed to be her wedding day and it was so sad. After the ceremony they brought out trays and trays of Italian frosted ricotta cookies from THE best bakery in town. I wanted to drown my sorrow in those sweet frosted treats. But I didn't. And I'm glad. I know that I'm not ready. I would have had a whole 30 cookies, because one is never enough.
    I wasn't able to cook much last week and was getting sick of choices. I cooked up some great soup and stews today and feel refreshed and ready to charge on.
    I'm coming down with a sore throat. I'm used to popping Ludens or Sucrets when this happens but suspect they're loaded with sugar. Got any cold remedy ideas?
    Kristinmarta, pulling out of depression is hard work, I know that personally. I hope that you can use the hate for feeling this way as fuel to keep fighting for change. I know it's easier said than done. I'm a worrier and want to make sure that you are safe. Please promise us, your team and support group, that you will get help if the emotional pain gets to be too much. You and each member of this group, the ones who are posting and the ones that are just reading, are important. You matter. We are all connected on this journey. I wish you growing peace as you continue forward.
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    Kristinmarta reacted to clairezip in September 8th, anyone?   
    kristinmarta - I find that my symptoms are lasting much longer than the timeline - So I had many more days of "kill all the things" then it said, and then I had many more days of "I just want to nap" then it said.  Then I had a few days where I started the morning with energy and filling good, wanting to 'kill all the things' by afternoon and dead dog tired by the evening.  I have wondered if some of us who have needed a re-boot or detox more than others will find those days to last longer?  I have no idea if that's true, but I know my system was an emotional/physical mess before starting this and I'm okay with it taking longer to balance out.  I am doing a whole 60 for that reason - i just think I really really need to give my body time to reboot.  
     
    I hope you feel better soon, be easy with yourself and accept your emotions as they are.  
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    Kristinmarta reacted to fgermain in September 8th, anyone?   
    I know what you mean. The last 8 months of my life were a challenge similar to that. I know this may sound contradictory, but have you tried just letting it be "OK" for you to feel this way?  And you know, this program is  awesome, but it's not a substitute for mental health support we may need. Hang in there Kristinmarta, the 30 days aren't over yet.
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    Kristinmarta reacted to fgermain in September 8th, anyone?   
    Good Morning all!
     
    I think my body my have been taken over by some strange power......it's 0735 and I just woke up and thought "I think I'll go for a bike ride"....and hopped out of bed and am heading out the door after signing off here.    ???? lol    I had energy last night after my dinner with friends, got home after 10:30 and proceeded to tidy up the kitchen and run a load dishes.....my kitchen would stay dirty for days before W30.  I think I may have turned the corner and have that abundance of energy everyone says you get with this!
    Just a quick Good Morning, just HAD to share this phenomenon!!   
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    Kristinmarta reacted to ladyshanny in September 8th, anyone?   
    Fgermain ~ pork recipe....if this works!
     

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    Kristinmarta got a reaction from fgermain in September 8th, anyone?   
    Ventre123 & laxmom63- I am going to try both the coffee and the chai.  Yum.
     
    I feel like I have turned a corner.  Feeling a little more positive generally.  Things haven't evened out entirely but I don't hate everything all the time anymore, haha.
     
    Also, here's to small victories.  I tried on a dress that last time I wore it, I felt like a little sausage.  Today is felt much better.
     
    Onward Day 12!
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    Kristinmarta reacted to ventre123 in September 8th, anyone?   
    Here's a link for a video on how to make the Bulletproof coffee or coffee w Ghee:
     
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SP8V3EB8OA8#t=37
     
     
    She adds coconut oil and ghee. I've made it with just ghee and with ghee plus coconut milk ...I think it adds a bit of creaminess (I've never tried it with coconut oil because it sometimes gives me a stomach ache).
     
    When you blend it together it comes out really frothy-very appealing. I usually nuke it for a few seconds because sometimes blending cools it down a bit more than I like it. 
     
    The caffien kick definitley lasts the whole morning and the fat fills you up so you may not even be hungry for breakfast (big bonus!)
     
    Give it a try. 
     
    It's not half & half, but it's better than black coffeee and even though it sounds weird, it's really OK!
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    Kristinmarta reacted to Jill P in September 8th, anyone?   
    Happy day 12 (or later for some of you!)
     
    This morning I finally have a small victory. I work in the schools, and we are allowed to wear jeans on Friday. The last two weeks, my jeans have been uncomfortably tight to be able to wear.  This morning - victory!!  I can't say the fit is perfect, but at least I can wear them without feeling like I'm going to pass out a any minute!! That is my motivation for today!
     
    Hope everyone has a great weekend and stay strong!
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    Kristinmarta reacted to fgermain in September 8th, anyone?   
    Good Afternoon all!  Day 11 is happening.
    Well, my burning desire to have what others have came true this a.m.,,,,,Bloat City!  and Gas!!!! I blew up my bedroom.....   feel better now...whew.
    I've been thinking about the whole "starting over" and our body needing 30 days to reprogram.  I feel defeated starting over, but NOT defeated by extending my 30 days to 40 days. (the cx sausage I ate on day 9 had cheese in eat, read the label, but was so preoccupied looking for sugar, didn't see the dang cheese, of course it wasn't on the front of the label ) So, on I go.....
     
     LibbyHunter-my sisters friend uses sweetpotatoes and/or compliant French fries for fuel for running. I remember reading Melissa info. saying not to use sugar for fuel, but maybe the nuts in the Larabar adds a touch of protein and not too bad a sugar rush?
     
    KristinMarta-I feel ya on the burn out of certain foods..I'm done with chicken for awhile.  My first 7-8 days I wasn't very organized and I was eating Cx on a pile of mixed salad grns.  Green olives(if you like them) are a great treat for the pallate. I made an incredible Herb/Veggie tuna with Oil and RedWine Ving. if you're willing to try tuna another way......basically chop up what veggies you like, i did celeray,onion,carrot, and red radishes for a change, garlic powder and salt and pepper to taste....
     
    Jordanbrook- keep your chin-up honey!
     
    I cooked like mad the last two days.....whew!  yes, Lots of dishes!! 
     
    listing our meals is a good idea...
    day 11 breakfast-choc. chili with fried egg on top, fresh tomatoes and a whole english cucumber
                lunch will be- seasoned Salmon steak, on shredded cabbage/ slaw type mix, with fennel(thanks Ladyshanny!)
                 dinner will be-oven(crockpot) braised mexican beef with butternut squash.
     
    have a great rest of the day...I'm working today and tomorrow so may not check-in tonight
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    Kristinmarta got a reaction from h e a t h e r in September 8th, anyone?   
    One third done, everyone!
     
    It still feels like a struggle to cook so much & do so many dishes.  It's also hard for me to plan meals and prepare in advance.  I try prepping/cooking on the weekend but having every meal figured out also feels stifling.
     
    I am sick of tuna salad and egg salad for lunch.  Does anyone have any go-to packable lunch ideas that don't take too much prep?  Or any other quick and easy go-tos?  The quicker and easier the better.
     
    I made the coconut almond green beans from The Clothes Make the Girl http://theclothesmakethegirl.com/2012/03/14/coconut-almond-green-beans/
    Sooo good!  I added pre-cooked ground beef and topped with a fried egg. 
     
    Not feeling that different physically or emotionally.  I still feel pretty tired and I am having headaches nearly every day.  Maybe it's the heat, too?  
     
    On to Day 11.
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    Kristinmarta reacted to fgermain in September 8th, anyone?   
    Kristinmarta-hang in there. I'm feeling discouraged but not hopeless, and wasn't sure about sharing & being a downer, so thank you for sharing your struggle. My issue is, I'm not 100% focused when shopping, tired etc. & over look some noncompliant ingredients in things. It's frustrating because I'm still learning what brands are compliant so I think I'm dilegently reading labels, but get home & eat something & see NC ingredient.....ugh! I'm feeling optimistic also though. I'm physically feeling better so I know my body is having a positive response to my diet change. That alone keeps me going & I'm plannning on continuing past 30 days, because I know this is a learning process & I'm not intentionally eating NC foods. Here's to our health Kristinmarta!!
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    Kristinmarta reacted to Rkrzywda in September 8th, anyone?   
    You are all so on target. What a great group this is! Remember, this is a TOUGH challenge. Society, culture, and the food industry make it incredibly difficult for us to eat right. Before giving up, remember WHY you decided to start this journey. We are all making huge sacrifices and it sucks to have our clothes feel tighter as a result. Hang in there. My first Whole 30, I was in the middle of the 3rd week before I notice my body really changing. But it sure ramped up and continued to change from that point.
    I saw the movie Fed Up this weekend. Have any of you seen it? It was good timing for me to have another reminder about the evils of sugar and processed food. It kept me motivated.
    Keep pushing through. You've got this!