Jezza68

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    Jezza68 reacted to Brewer5 in Like an Onion   
    Thanks @BabyBear ~ I appreciate your support.  
    This journey back to food that is not causing a chemical shit-show in my brain and my entire body ... it is very, very much like quitting smoking.  We've had discussions on the forum about this in the past.  I don't think the majority of people are aware of how much food really does interact with every part of our being.
    I can go one day, EASY.  And I feel better -- good!  Productive!  Two days ... probably even easier.  Things start to become habit again.  
    It's day 3 that is the hardest for smokers.  They say it's because after 72 hours, all of the nicotine is gone from your body.  But we all know there's more to it than that.
    It's those layers of myself and how I got to this point that I need to peel back here.  And it can be downright painful.  
    We self-medicate with food, smoking, alcohol, drugs, shopping, gambling ... and our brain is literally wired to expect those big hits of dopamine.  Not only do we have withdrawal symptoms from the absence of whatever we have removed ~ but we have to FACE those things we were self-medicating for in the first place.  Whew.  Ugly.
    The great news is -- I am a strong and confident person.  I have grown and learned so much.  I love myself for who I am.  And I really don't engage in the "beat myself up" behavior.  So what you are saying resonates with me.  
    If I have 50 "Day 1's" throughout this year ... that's still 50 days of good eating that I wouldn't have had otherwise.  Lol.  That's not my goal ... but it IS a tiny win.  
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    Jezza68 reacted to Ann in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    Day 1
    Sleep:  I slept late this morning, but since I was up so late and had quite a bit of wine last night, my sleep quality was poor and just 6.5 hrs.  So I was tired today.  Glad that I had the day off to laze around the house.  
     
    Shoulder:   I’ve had calcific tendinitis for several years. Got my third cortisone shot a couple weeks ago, and this time it didn’t help.  I will be doing some simple PT exercises this month   Some days are better than others (can’t figure out why).  It hurts quite a bit today. I may have fallen asleep hard and slept on it.  
     
    Meal 1 - spinach, red pepper, onion, mushrooms sautéed in ghee, grape tomatoes, 2 fried eggs, slice of bacon, 1/3 avocado, black coffee, V8.  
     
    Meal 2 - spinach salad with tomatoes, onion, roasted red pepper, tossed with simple vinaigrette, handful of olives, and what I thought was clean roast beef but turned out to be pastrami. I had just one bite of it and threw the rest out - no idea what all is in pastrami but I’m sure it can’t be compliant.  Argh.  I had a conversation with the Whole Foods deli guy who read off their in-house roast beef ingredients (compliant) and I said I’ll take a pound.  He apparently sliced the pastrami for me instead of the roast beef.  Good thing I had a big breakfast.  The salad filled me up just fine. Also had a Hint water.  Note to self: track water intake tomorrow. 
     
    Meal 3 - Nom-Nom Paleo Potsticker Stir-Fry, and a Polar Seltzer.  If I make the stir-fry again, I will double up on the cabbage and mushrooms. It’s got veggies but is very meat heavy and seems like it needs .. a wonton roll.  *sigh*. But the flavors are great!  
     
    No wine cravings tonight. Apparently I had enough last night.  
     
    All in all, aside from the pastrami mishap, a good day.  Planning to crawl in bed early with a book and lights out by 10.  

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    Jezza68 reacted to Ann in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    My first (very minor) mental struggle happened this morning.  I had every intention of hiding the scale from myself yesterday, but somehow didn't get around to it. I've been weighing daily since last May (it's part of the Noom program), and I REALLY wanted to step on the scale this morning.  Honestly, I had to talk myself out of it.  Seems a little odd that, of all things, this is a challenge for me.  I've lost 20 pounds in the last seven months (or so), and would be pretty sad if I undid any of that with my Whole30.  I had to remind myself that I have lost weight each time I've done W30, so I just have to trust that this time will be the same.   And in my rush to get out the door to work, I STILL didn't manage to put the scale in the garage.  I'm putting a reminder on my phone to do that first thing when I get home from work.  
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    Jezza68 reacted to Ann in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    Day 2 in the books!   Not much to report today, smooth sailing.  
     
    Sleep:  Really good night of sleep last night.  Almost 8 hours and an 81 sleep score. Unheard of for me on a weeknight. I don’t think I can chalk it up to W30 yet, more likely just super tired from the night before and going to bed extra early. But I’ll take it!
    Shoulder:  Pretty uncomfortable and sometimes painful throughout the day.  
     
    Meal 1:  2-egg omelet with spinach and mushrooms, some avocado and sliced cucumber, and a blob of Romesco. And a V8 and black coffee. 
    Meal 2:  Leftover potsticker stir-fry on bed of spinach, a couple tangerines and sliced cucumber, Hint water.  
    Meal 3:  Curry chicken salad with slivered almonds, red pepper, red onion, on a bed of spinach (OMG sooooo good!).  LaCroix.  

    Snacks: Nope. But I got a box of “emergency food” from Barefoot Provisions and am a little worried that just having those snacks around will make me want to snack.  But I’m glad I have some healthy snack options on hand now.  
     
    Still no wine cravings.  The weekend is upon us though ... I expect that dragon will be appearing before long.  

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    Jezza68 reacted to Ann in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    Had a small sugar craving for the first time after lunch today.  I had been in the habit for quite a while of having a piece of Dove Dark Chocolate right after lunch.  My office keeps them stocked in our kitchen (doggone them!).  It was more like a passing thought that "a piece of cholocate would sure be nice right now" ... I simply walked away.  
    Something I haven't mentioned, which is I'm sure helping me a lot, is that I have Invisalign braces.  When the trays are in, I can only have water, and they can only be out for 3 hours a day total.  I've had them for six months, and I will be done on Monday, 1/13, just a week and a half (OMG I can't wait!).  Hopefully I'll be past the most challenging part of W30 by then, but I've definitely got concerns that staying on track, especially as far as snacking, won't be as easy without the Invisalign keeping me in check. 
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    Jezza68 reacted to Ann in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    Day 3.  All in all, things are still going well.  I did start having some cravings or pseudo-hunger issues today.  I ate well at breakfast and at lunch, but was feeling like eating again about an hour or two after lunch.  I was glad to have compliant snacks in my desk, but again, I wonder if maybe I had the munchies just because I knew those things were there.  Or the sugar demon rearing its head finally after nearly three days without wine or other added sugars/processed food.     Sleep:  6 hrs 13 minutes, 77 sleep score (fair) . Very little deep sleep (25 mins).  I turned over at one point in the middle of the night and twisted my bad shoulder and the pain made me gasp.  Didn't get back to sleep for a while because it was throbbing and I couldn't find a comfortable position.  I sure hope I see some improvement soon.   Shoulder:  See above.  Also, it's been achy and sore today, but not horrible.  Keeping a steady flow of Advil going.   Meal 1:  Buffalo chicken egg muffins (https://therealfoodrds.com/buffalo-chicken-egg-muffins/), yellow peppers and grape tomatoes, 1/4 avocado, a blob of mayo, V8 and black coffee.  
    Meal 2:  Leftover potsticker stir-fry on a bed of spinach, and a Polar Seltzer.  Was hungry so had a second scoop of stir-fry.  And a tangerine.    Snacks:  I was hungry not long after lunch, so I had an Rx Bar and a Chomps beef stick (and an afternoon cup of black coffee, which I don't usually do).  Probably didn't need both snacks, but they both sounded good and I felt hungry.  It was probably munchies and carb cravings more than hunger.     Meal 3:  Despite the snacks, I felt very hungry when I got home from work at 6:00.  Rotisserie chicken breast (Whole Foods, compliant!), mashed potatoes w ghee, steamed broccoli w ghee, olives.   (I added the potatoes bc I feel like the starchy carbs will curb my cravings, and maybe help with sleep tonight.  And they were delicious).     Wine cravings:  Friday night, 7pm. My thought pattern goes something like this:   Tonight will feel long and boring without wine.  Why does the couch and TV have so much more appeal with a glass of wine?  But heading to bed early, even on a Friday night, is good for me and one of my biggest goals is better sleep.  I will feel so good when I wake up feeling refreshed in the morning instead of my typical Saturday Morning feeling sluggish and unmotivated.  I’d like a glass of wine but I’m not having intense cravings.  Helps that (a) there’s no wine in the house, and (2) my daughter is along doe the Dryuary ride with me.  
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    Jezza68 reacted to Ann in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    Day 4.  Hungry today, even though I’m eating big meals. Otherwise feeling good.  My intention today was to get on the treadmill, but I wasn’t able to motivate myself to do it.  But I was fairly active, putting away Christmas (up and down ladder into garage loft to store boxes, hauling tree outside, etc).  Treadmill will happen tomorrow.  
     
    Sleep:  8.5 hours (broken into two parts - I was awake for an hour and a half 6-7:30 then fell back to sleep for another couple hours).  77 sleep score.  Pretty darned good!
    Shoulder:  Not too bad today.  Also didn’t manage to get around to PT exercises, which was one of my goals today.  Why do I have SUCH a hard time with exercising in general?  I feel like I have good willpower in most other areas.  Maybe I’m using up all my willpower on W30 and no wine?  
     
    Meal 1:  buffalo chicken egg bites with mayo mixed with Frank’s red hot, avocado, fresh strawberries, bulletproof coffee.
    Meal 2:  rotisserie chicken with pineapple habanero pico de Gallo, avocado, steamed broccoli and yellow pepper, sweet potatoes with ghee. Tangerine. 

    Snack:  Pumpkin seed crunchy snack. 
    Meal 3:  filet mignon (sadly overdone, but still good), mashed potatoes w ghee, Well-Fed coconut-almond green beans (sooo good!). 
     
    Wine cravings:  Not really, but I did see a beer on TV and thought it looked particularly appealing.  My daughter is out to a fancy dinner tonight and she texted me her mocktail (a melon ginger drink of some sort).   Her personal 30-day challenge (vegan, yoga, Dryuary) is going well so far! 
     
    I’m feeling good about this so far!  Hoping the hunger (cravings really) part sorts itself out soon.  

     
     
     


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    Jezza68 reacted to Ann in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    REALLY strong urge to get on the scale this morning.  Haven’t done it yet but haven’t quite talked myself out of it.  Please talk me out of it.  It seems like such a minor infraction.  
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    Jezza68 reacted to WeHoWhole30 in #JanuaryWhole30   
    I don’t know about a 1/1 group, but I’m here if you need support. I’ve joined Melissa’s 30-day text group. Good luck - we can do this together!
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    Jezza68 reacted to Ann in Ann’s Struggles+Successes   
    Three days pre-W30.  Cleaned out fridge and pantry as best I could (my adult kids live with me so can’t really get rid of their non compliant stuff).   And went shopping to stock up on everything.   Made homemade ghee, mayonnaise, and Romesco sauce.   Any boring meal can be made better with one of these. 
     
    I feel like I’m ready NOW to go all in, except I have plans on NYE to play board games and drink bourbon with my neighbors, so it just makes sense to wait till Wednesday.  At least I know I’m prepared for day one, when I will probably be ....not in the mood to shop, and looking for something I can just grab and eat. 
     
    I mentioned this in my intro, but my 27 yr old daughter (who lives with me) is doing her own 30-day mission alongside mine: she is a vegetarian who will for 30 days eat 100% vegan, do daily yoga, and eliminate alcohol.  So although our meals will be different, we will be supporting each other.  I sure love her.  
     
    Tonight I am enjoying a glass of wine (well, two).   Maybe it tastes better knowing I will be giving it up soon.  But I’m also looking forward to committing to no alcohol for a month. I’m sure it is the biggest part of what makes me feel better when I do a W30.  I’m also hoping to be transparent on here with that part of my struggle, without feeling judged. 
     
    Okay.  Here’s to a successful W30!  
    Ann

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    Jezza68 reacted to Jihanna in Today's The Day   
    Welcome, Jezza!
    Even without food sensitivities, an elimination diet is definitely a good idea because it clears your system of things that tend to be inflammatory and gives you a good, solid ground to work from. Where Whole30 excels for me is that it also encourages us to really dig deep and attack those food relationships, discovering why we eat the way we do and helping us let go of the habits we want to see fall away.
    You've got plenty of cheerleaders in these forums, so jump in and don't be afraid to post if you have questions or have issues and need a bit of help or encouragement!
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    Jezza68 got a reaction from Jihanna in Today's The Day   
    Alright, alright...time to stop dithering and dig in!  I need to improve my relationship to food.  My M.O. is generally either going hard or going crazy :-[  I actually have to learn how to eat over a long time period without the endless cycle of diet, blow it, diet... Wow - original, I know!  I don't think I have food sensitivities or allergies, I'm here for the stability and the whole foods with the additional bonus of removing the sugar/sweeteners and alcohol which ALWAYS mess things up. 
    I've read and reread all the rules and have my little Whole 30 Day by Day workbook to help me out.  I have salad, homemade compliant mayo, boiled eggs, coconut green soup and a southwestern ground beef and veggie skillet all portioned out and ready to go.
    OK - so I've said it and it shall be done :-D
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    Jezza68 got a reaction from Jihanna in Today's The Day   
    Alright, alright...time to stop dithering and dig in!  I need to improve my relationship to food.  My M.O. is generally either going hard or going crazy :-[  I actually have to learn how to eat over a long time period without the endless cycle of diet, blow it, diet... Wow - original, I know!  I don't think I have food sensitivities or allergies, I'm here for the stability and the whole foods with the additional bonus of removing the sugar/sweeteners and alcohol which ALWAYS mess things up. 
    I've read and reread all the rules and have my little Whole 30 Day by Day workbook to help me out.  I have salad, homemade compliant mayo, boiled eggs, coconut green soup and a southwestern ground beef and veggie skillet all portioned out and ready to go.
    OK - so I've said it and it shall be done :-D