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deuxieme posted a topic in Your Whole30 LogWell, Day 1 came early, as I was super excited to start. Meal 1-- 3 eggs with salad (lettuce, carrot, celery), an apple, and coffee with almond milk. This was super good, and I was very proud of myself for using oil instead of a cooking spray. After I worked out for an hour at the gym, I grabbed around six pecans, a Brazil nut, and two stalks of celery for a snack. Not the most balanced, but I am at my parent's house (college student on spring break). Meal 2-- chicken breast with green beans, around 10 grapes, olive oil, and coffee with almond milk. I felt good about this meal again, even putting oil as a dressing on my vegetables. I was still pretty hungry after finishing, so about three hours later I had an apple with sunflower seed butter. And then things went downhill. My parents had planned a meal of steak, potatoes, salad, and asparagus, all compliant. I have been nervous about the steak all day, but was really trying to get comfortable with it. I made a salad and then started prepping the asparagus, dressing it in oil. All the sudden I started freaking out again about the oil and the grease on the steak. I spent a ridiculous amount of time wiping the oil off the asparagus and then put cheese on the asparagus so I could not have it. In the midst of this, I am near a panic attack from all the oil/fat of the coming meal. Long story short, I am going to make something beside the steak for protein tonight and will have green beans instead of asparagus. My question-- should I really try to continue this? I wanted to help my gastro issues and also push myself to eat foods (potatoes! Oil! Beef!) I am scared of-- and it's only day one and I am having bad anxiety. I want to push through, but is this a bad decision that will reawaken restrictive thoughts I thought were gone?
fmb16 posted a topic in Troubleshooting your Whole30Hi all, I'm on day 7 of my second Whole30, and it's becoming pretty clear to me that I'm not doing this for the right reasons. As background, I have a history of pretty severe eating disorders (anorexia and bulimia through all of my teenage years--I'm 24 now) and have considered myself pretty much recovered for the past 4-ish years. However, I've definitely noticed some (by my assessment) pretty garden-variety disordered eating tendencies in the past year: restricting my calories a bit, but not to particularly unhealthy levels, feeling a little compulsive about exercising but not overdoing it by any objective standards, &c. I started this Whole30 partly because I had been eating junk throughout the holidays and my sugar dragon was in full force, but, if I'm being honest with myself, my primary motivation was to lose the couple pounds I had gained over the past few weeks. I recently lost a fair amount of weight due to loss of appetite after a bad breakup and was hovering a little above the underweight mark, and I was feeling uncomfortable after gaining 3-ish pounds. I know that the Whole30 is not intended to be a weight loss program by any means, but I've definitely been using it that way this time around: I've been weighing myself, which I know is totally against the rules, and counting (and restricting) calories, which I know is strongly discouraged. I'm also running 30 miles a week, which is normal for me, but I'm aware that I'm consciously undereating based on my activity level. Given all of that, I'm having some serious doubts about whether I should continue this Whole30. I'm clearly not doing this right--or for the right reasons--at the moment, but I'm not sure whether it's better to stick with it and try to work on my relationship with food while on the Whole30, or whether I should stop doing this and take some time to work on these issues in a different way. I've read the "Dear Melissa" piece about doing the Whole30 when you have a history of eating disorders, but I'm still at a loss about what I should do. On the one hand, I'm getting the sense that this might not be the best thing for me, at least at this time; on the other hand, I feel pretty guilty and anxious at the idea of not finishing this. I'd really appreciate hearing from people who have experienced something like this before, or any thoughts or advice that any of you might have.
Hello everyone! I've almost completed a Whole30 before (made it to day 25!) and I would like to give it a second shot and do it the proper way this time. My first Whole30 attempt involved a lot of overeating of compliant foods. I don't know why I feel the urge to eat so much. I don't know if it's an actual hunger or if it's just because I have cravings for sugar and I can't satisfy them. I have a history with eating disorders (anorexia, bulimia, binge eating; in that order) and I am really hoping that Whole30 helps me improve my relationship with food. My struggles are mostly with sugar, it's my kryptonite. When I was struggling with anorexia and bulimia, I wouldn't allow myself desserts or sweets, and now it seems like I have no control over myself when it comes to it. It's like I restricted so much that I literally FEAR not allowing myself to have it. But it's only with sugar. I'm only 18 (19 in a few days) and I've struggled with some sort of ED since I was 15 (probably even before that), I'm just looking for some way to finally improve my relationship with food and not need/want it for any reason other than FUEL for my body. I turned to the Whole30 not only to help with my relationship with food, but to also help me discover my food intolerances and help heal my digestive system. My eating disorders completely messed up my digestive system and I seem to have some sort of negative reaction to almost EVERY food I put into my body. I'm hear asking for advice.... and guidance, I suppose. Do you think Whole30 is the right plan for me? How do I overcome the urge to binge on compliant foods and just food in general? Does anyone else struggle with the same thing? How do I finally learn that I don't need sugar in order to have a happy life? Should I do a Whole30 for longer than 30 days? I'm not sure if this is the right forum, or if anyone here can even help me, but I figured I'd give it a shot. So thank you in advance!