Calee's Getting Road Ready!

[Nadia B]

Not silly at all. Same here, Calee. Sugar wrecks my body. The problem is that it sets "I want more" mode. What helps a lot (me at least0 is understanding the mechanics behind it. I am talking insulin spike. At this point I am wondering what is more productive - admit that I can not eat it at all and get over it (sort of what's happening) or train the muscle of willpower. Interesting topic indeed. 

 

Good luck with the date today. I hope that you'll get the clear answer weather your image of J matches the real J. Plan for the evening sounds fantastic, cannot think of a better way to spend Thursday summer night.  

[calee]

Nadia, don't get me excited. Date not until Friday.

Work sucks today. I'm so stressed. Want chocolate and red wine. Not gonna happen.

[Nadia B]

Blaaah, this how much I want today to be Friday too Breathe and power through, hang in there.

[calee]

Blaaah, this how much I want today to be Friday too Breathe and power through, hang in there.

Me too! One more sleep and it's Friday!

My Pilates teacher really stepped up her game and gave us a tough workout. I didn't think I'd get through it, but I did.

Came home and made chopped chicken liver pâté. Yummy. I also finally made Ghee. I only had salted butter so just did 1/2 pound. Wow! It tastes like candy. I only had a lick off the spoon but it was good. I can't wait to try it on a sweet potato.

I was really stressed at work today. Organic dark chocolate and red wine kept flashing through my little brain. It's so clear where I go when things feel off the rails. Good to know about myself, eh?

Onward and good night.

[calee]

Day 74 and its Friday! I'm so ready for the weekend! Slept a bit fitfully. I think from work stress. Retiring keeps slipping into my mind but I can't afford to for several more years. I'm grateful for my job. Just need it to be more realistic about what can be accomplished in a day.

I have my doc visit today. My iPhone has my list of things to discuss. If I only go every 2 years I have to be armed with my questions. I saw a specialist at Kaiser 18 months ago. I keep notes about visits. Nuts of well. My weight that morning was 141.8 and today 143.2. 141.8 was my lowest weight since 1974. My highest was 249.8. Being +1.5 pound range after 18 months feels like a great acomplishment. It may not be about numbers but this one is worth feeling good about. Scale is going back into the closet until I'm done with Whole Whatever.

No class today. Exercise will be around 90 minutes of walking. That's a good rest day from class. My muscles felt tapped out last night after 3 nights in a row on the reformer.

I'll keep bites compliant today. There's a great truck that makes me a carnitas lettuce wrap at the food truck event. I hope they're there tonight!

Joyful Friday!

[percypat]

Ooh, have fun on your date!  Hope it goes just the way you want it to!

 

Yay, you made the ghee,  knew you'd love it.  I just couldn't believe how much sweeter the homemade stuff was from the store bought.  Might make some more today!

 

Hope the doctor's visit goes to plan, I bet she will be so impressed with your numbers!  They're worth being proud of

[calee]

Day 75: slept fantastic from 11:30 to almost 7. Yum!

Yesterday was a great day. Date went better than expected. Doctor visit was really great. She is so proud of me. I haven't seen her since November 2009. I guess I haven't had a cold. . She's ordered up a crap load of blood tests to make sure everything is good and within range. Hopefully thyroid meds are still perfect. She wants me to stay on BP meds based on my office reading. She said to throw my wrist cuff BP reader out the window. Very inaccurate.

Celiac blood tests. I read that if you're not eating wheat it will come back negative. Anyone know about this? She wants to test me but maybe I should wait until after Europe where I expect to be eating wheat. Online said six weeks of wheat. .??

Cancelled Pilates this morning to go into the City for a two hour walk and lunch with my childhood best friend who's in town. I may go early because there's an incredible farmers market where we are meeting.

I don't mind missing class. My childhood tailbone injury has flared in the last two weeks and last night it was so difficult laying down. My tush used to have a lot more padding! I think I know which reformer moves are causing the pain. Won't dwell on it today.

Maybe I'll do some shopping and cooking later today.

[Physibeth]

Glad you had such an awesome day! Better than expected date sounds great! Sad about the BP medication. I have heard that about the celiacs test. There are a couple of threads on the forums discussing whether or not it is worth it to introduce enough wheat to get a positive diagnosis.

 

Hope your Saturday is lovely and your injury goes back into sleeping.

[Terresa]

My son is being tested for celiac, and his doctor said the same thing.  I think the anitbodies or whatever they are only show up in your blood if you are currently reacting, or something like that.

[calee]

Terresa, I emailed my doc to see if I can postpone test.

Day 75 and I feel like I'm losing Whole Whatever steam to go on. At the farmers market today, everything looked great. My fav bread was calling my name as well as other things.

Maybe it's thinking about the celiac test and eating wheat. Maybe it's next steps with J. Maybe it's walking along for hours with my childhood best friend, talking about things that just the two of us know. Maybe it was the sugar in the sampled fruit calling to me. Maybe I'm tired. Maybe it's the tomatoes in the fish stew that we ate for lunch. Maybe I'm just human and want to eat without self imposed restrictions. Maybe I'm hitting low weights and my body is screaming for more calories to keep weight on. Maybe I'm always oing without much downtime. Maybe I'm tired or dehydrated or just craving food! So many possibilities. So few answers.

[LadyM]

Hooray for great doc visit and better than expected date!

 

And you know you can stop the Wwhatever anytime, Calee. Sometimes the healthiest, most nourishing and loving choice we can make is to ease up on the restrictions. Glad you had such a great day!

[mary-t]

Mary, I'm sitting here laughing because I was just finishing your log and thinking that you must be the strongest woman on this forum. KB, yogam tumbling, biking, hikes, chinups, pull ups amd everything in between. There's nothing that you don't do! I am in awe of your workouts, you do so much more than Pilates.

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Hee, hee!  I wish that that was my log.    But, unfortunately, I'm not there yet.  I do weightlifting and have, in the last several months, added in walking, but I'm a long way from the rest of that good stuff!!  I am getting ready to add yoga, so I enjoy reading about your Pilates adventures.

 

Regarding the Celiac test:  My question for you would be how important is a formal diagnosis?  I was diagnosed with Celiac a bit over 2 years ago, and what you've been told is true:  a respite from gluten can give you a false negative, so they recommend eating it (a lot) for several weeks to a month before testing.  For a Celiac, this re-introduction of gluten is truly painful and devastating health-wise.  The symptoms I have from one incidental exposure to gluten can linger for weeks!!  So, you couldn't pay me to do this re-introduction.    However, if you would like the formal diagnosis (and sometimes it's necessary for insurance purposes), then you'll want to re-introduce it.  You may find that, if you're sensitive to gluten, you'll have a reaction to it before you ever get to the blood test.  If this is the case, some doctors will count that reaction as "good enough" and give a diagnosis.  Please also know that the "gold standard" for a Celiac diagnosis is an endoscopy to verify villous atrophy (as the blood test can give you a negative even if you're eating gluten and are intolerant).  So, if the test comes back positive (or even negative), an endoscopy may be ordered to verify.  Hope this is helpful.  Any other Celiac questions??  I'm happy to answer.   

[calee]

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Hee, hee!  I wish that that was my log.    But, unfortunately, I'm not there yet.  I do weightlifting and have, in the last several months, added in walking, but I'm a long way from the rest of that good stuff!!  I am getting ready to add yoga, so I enjoy reading about your Pilates adventures.

 

Regarding the Celiac test:  My question for you would be how important is a formal diagnosis?  I was diagnosed with Celiac a bit over 2 years ago, and what you've been told is true:  a respite from gluten can give you a false negative, so they recommend eating it (a lot) for several weeks to a month before testing.  For a Celiac, this re-introduction of gluten is truly painful and devastating health-wise.  The symptoms I have from one incidental exposure to gluten can linger for weeks!!  So, you couldn't pay me to do this re-introduction.    However, if you would like the formal diagnosis (and sometimes it's necessary for insurance purposes), then you'll want to re-introduce it.  You may find that, if you're sensitive to gluten, you'll have a reaction to it before you ever get to the blood test.  If this is the case, some doctors will count that reaction as "good enough" and give a diagnosis.  Please also know that the "gold standard" for a Celiac diagnosis is an endoscopy to verify villous atrophy (as the blood test can give you a negative even if you're eating gluten and are intolerant).  So, if the test comes back positive (or even negative), an endoscopy may be ordered to verify.  Hope this is helpful.  Any other Celiac questions??  I'm happy to answer.  

Mary, I think I was confusing you with Miss Mary. She is the beast I want to aspire to! Sorry for the confusion.

Thank you for input on the celiac. I appreciate your taking the time to help me.

[calee]

Hooray for great doc visit and better than expected date!

 

And you know you can stop the Wwhatever anytime, Calee. Sometimes the healthiest, most nourishing and loving choice we can make is to ease up on the restrictions. Glad you had such a great day!

Thanks for that emotional support. I think I set games for myself, like go 90 days or whatever. I think I am still in fear of going overboard with reintro. My work life is the most stressful in years and I'm an emotional eater so this is a bit of a buffer for me right now. But I am considering my options.

[calee]

Day 76: still in it for today. Mostly for the simplicity of it all. If I came off it okay, I know I would dive into movie popcorn today. I don't think that would give me the results I want.

Today is a pure play days with a girlfriend. Resting my knee and tailbone injuries. It's definitely a movie day. I want to see Fruitvale Station as the shooting happened less than a mile from my home. Probably a bit of shopping thrown in.

I'm back to over simplifying my food. I need to make things more interesting. I think I'm really bored with my meals. I want a cook!

[Terresa]

Creativity is awesome!  Enjoy the cooking!  And the play day!

[calee]

Monday morning. I guess I had a great run of 75 cleans days. Yesterday, day 76 I went out to eat. Fabulous burger without a bun that I added house cured bacon that didn't have added sugar. I failed to pay attention and they put skinny fries on the plate. I ate a few which I later realized took me off road. I think I was ready. I was starting to get bored and feel an internal pressure of some sort. LadyM's reminder that I could stop my W Whenever, whenever I wanted was really what I needed. After 75 days I hope to have the ability to make good choices for myself. I still want to reintro raw tomatoes this week. Not sure about anything else. I'm not coming off because I'm dying for the fabulous oat cheese salad at Sidebar or because dark chocolate is calling my name. My evil twin is really quiet.

I'm in a good emotional space. My clothes fit great, I think I look great, I have my studio membership until the end of October. I should be set with tools for the next leg of this journey. I'm actually pretty exited to spread my wings and see how I do!

Going for a hike with J tonight and then cooking him dinner for he first time. Baked salmon, green beans with sliced almonds, romaine salad.

Normal template 3x planned for today. Maybe just a few more cherries to fuel my 6pm hike. No alcohol.

[mrslynch1963]

Callee ... maybe it's the nature of the WholeW! I, too, have felt that "Is this the end?" kind of feeling. BUT ... I haven't made peace with  actually stepping off of the path. My little episode with that "natural flavoring" last week was telling for me. I did not like how I felt one bit. And that was an accident! It took 4 days for my body to get back to a good place!

 

Of course being tired of "what's for dinner?"(or lunch, or breakfast) can be a factor. My hubs and I were just talking about how we get into a food rut [that happens to us even if we're not eating healthy food!} So, we are going to give some new but EASY recipes a try and see if we can't find some new faves! That stress factor is also pretty intense sometimes {at least in my life} and I know that the best thing that happened to me with WholeW was the removal of food as a fixer of things. Anyway, I'm sure that whatever you choose, it will be the best choice for you. "You is kind, you is smart, you is important!"...The Help {I know it's not from a cool indie film, but it is applicable} Have a super great day and know that your "Hey, we started on the same day!" WholeW friend is cheering you on! 

[Terresa]

How exciting!  I hope it goes well for you!  

 

My little foray into dairy was interesting, in that I had no problem, but it sure didn't taste like it used to, So I think I may try adding cheese back eventually and see if I still enjoy it.  Still, I don't think I'm quite there yet.  Maybe next month.

[pjena]

Congrats on your W75!  That is awesome.  Were the fries good?   I'm so glad to hear about the great date and that your dr is proud of you.  I hope you can come off the BP meds soon.  At least the dr reinforced what you saw yourself when you went off the meds.  You may not have gotten higher numbers with the now thrown out the window cuff, but the swelling told you something wasn't right.  You're on a great path to health!  I'm envious of and inspired by your energy and postiive attitude!

[mary-t]

Congrats on 75 days!  And for deciding to ride your own bike now!  Sounds like you're in a really good place.

[Nadia B]

Make ghee as a cooking project. It will boost the excitement, I swear 

 

I am glad that you took a moment to send some love to your reflection. Right attitude for the summer full of smiles, romance and good times with friends and family. Soon. Almost. 

[calee]

MrsLynch, my started the whole shebang on the same day friend, you are awesome! The funny thing is that I feel like a pressure valve that was building, has been released. At least for today, the road isn't going by too quickly. Everything is good and the past 75 days has given me a great foundation.

Terresa, I don't know about dairy. I will ponder it for awhile. There are times when I might like a bit of goat cheese on a salad but it probably wouldn't be all that often. Maybe a bit of cream in my decaf. But I'm not craving wads of dairy.

Jen, the fries were awesome, but there just wasn't an emotional connection. Absolutely no desire to do it again very soon. Thank you for being a good buddy on this road trip. Your energy is pretty awesome!

[calee]

Make ghee as a cooking project. It will boost the excitement, I swear 

 

I am glad that you took a moment to send some love to your reflection. Right attitude for the summer full of smiles, romance and good times with friends and family. Soon. Almost.

Nadia, I'm feeling a lovely quiet peace and appreciation. Why the heck should loving ourselves take effort? Where do we little girls get messed up along the way to growing up to think that it's acceptable to hate our bodies rather than appreciating them for all of its brilliance. When I stop and think of all the things my body does for me, I'm speechless!

Thank you Mary-t for your lovely thoughts!

[calee]

First day off my Whole Whatever and it was great. I gave myself permission to have anything I wanted. I realized straight away that what I wanted most of all was to have a template day with no snacks.

As Jen would say, A++.

After work I took J up to the woods for a long walk before dinner. I wanted him to experience a place that I have loved to walk for the last 23 years. I cooked us a nice compliant dinner. This is the first time that I cooked for him. It was fun to show him that template eating can be very yummy.