MaryellenB Posted June 6, 2013 Share Posted June 6, 2013 Hi everyone, I'm a 37 year old mother of 2, full-time student, and part-time staff at a fantastic office. I started my Whole30 on June 3, so this technically puts me on day 4. My friend was doing a Whole30 back in the winter and let me peek in on her support group on Facebook, but I found their comments so intimidating - and they sounded like they were really struggling (even though there was so much victory in there too, I only focused on the negative aspects). It was enough to convince me not to bother trying, because I like the wine, the late night snacking, treating the afternoon slump with peanut butter & rice cakes... and I really didn't want to let that go, no matter how much my friend encouraged me to seek something better for myself. I tiptoed back and forth, towards and away from the Whole30 for several months. Finally, I psyched myself up - refused to talk myself out of it, and made the decision this past weekend to finally DO. IT. I started on Monday. I find the daily emails SO helpful. In fact, when I wake up in the morning, I look forward to them enough to get me up and out of bed. They seem to nail just how I'm feeling, and that's so encouraging to me - it makes me feel like I'm "doing it right". Up to this point, I have been sending my friend long emails about how I'm feeling, how I'm finding it, etc. but I realize she probably has better things to do with her day than read my yammering, so I came here, to yammer with others in the same boat! Day 1, as predicted, was super easy. Day 2, I felt wistful and awkward - I kept reaching for my habit foods and reminding myself no. Day 3 felt like someone had poured wet cement over me. And now I'm on Day 4 and even though I slept well last night, I'm absolutely exhausted this morning. I feel so deprived and drained - actually, very similar to first trimester pregnancy (and I remember thinking it would never get better, but I made it through that, so that's a good precedent to hang on to). What's been the most eye opening for me is the awareness of how much I eat without thinking about it. I graze almost constantly. And because it's not really on my radar, I haven't considered it "eating". I think about my diet and say to myself, "I eat pretty well" and it's true - my meals are healthy, well-rounded, and carefully planned. But the in-between is monstrous. No wonder I've gained 10 pounds these past few months. I am drinking wine almost every night as I watch tv with my hubs after the kids go to bed. I started eating potato chips (because he eats them) and I realize I don't have an "off switch" so whereas he eats a handful and is done, I eat and eat and eat. And I've gotten into this weird habit of power-stuffing myself with some kind of sugary treat right before bed, as been waking up in the morning feeling so much remorse and guilt - and I hold on to the roll of fat around my middle to do a mental "check in" (is it bigger today than it was yesterday? Ugh!) The thing I've found most helpful about this program is the clarity and concreteness of the goal. 30 days, no cheats, no diverting off the course - it really helps my resolve and it is enough of a foundation for me that I can anchor myself to it fully, rather than simply promising to "eat better". This is great and I look forward to continuing the journey with you all! (so sorry for the long post and thanks for reading if you made it this far!) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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